#im very pleased with what i did today

[narumakiii]

are you not a sunbeam , child , whose life is glad ; with an inner brightness sunshine never had ? Oh , as god has blessed you , scatter light divine ! for there is no sunbeam but must die or shine.

( poem 3rd v. credit to alice cary )

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

[james-spooky]

this is a test

[the-kipsabian]

hewwo i havent drawn anything in like four months so heres a kip im actually pretty happy with hurray 🎉

[stemacademics]

small update

ok so um I got my number theory paper today, and the TA had cut marks for me because i left the answer at 66^2 and not 4356 (fermat's little theorem) 😔 I even wrote the full proof

my friend told me I should mail the TA about this, I got 14/20 and should be getting 17or18/20 😔

scores aside, number theory is so much fun, so much fun. the only good thing here is that I know the concepts well, and I fully knew the paper (still fucked it up, because I'm so frickin slow while writing and time). and it hurts worse because there's not enough proof that validates my knowledge. which in turn makes me question if i actually do have any.

I am, in general, a person who does well in concepts but screws up the exams (70% of the time) and I'm trying, I'm trying to get myself out of this "exam paniK" that I often spiral into, just minutes before the exam. I hope I change and grow; I hope, I hope.

[spagheddiesquash]

had the idea to make this

[carcarrot]

just got chewed out for like half an hour by my stupid supervisor 🤪

[aggravatedanarchy]

I need this bloodwork thing to be done already I CANNOT keep stressing about this

[rox-of-iu]

@ the people saying kind words and offering me english alternatives for the czech in my last post

first of all, I know you mean well and I love you to bits and I'm giving you a little kissy, ok? But... guys I do know English phrases... hahhah

Listen,,,, I am chronically online and I do actually have a certificate from C2 exams that is just 5 points shy of being 100%. I Know it absolutely doesn't look that way but that's just because I'm the laziest guy around and I don't feel like fixing it after myself when I have the excuse of being a foreigner- sahdjsd

so when i use czech words it is not out of the necessity of not knowing any substitutes but just me goofing around and going haha funny word go brr

[todayisafridaynight]

I genuinely can never thank you enough for the past year. I can't express how much it's meant to me to be understood and have my energy reciprocated with someone on the same wavelength. Although I've been in the fandom for quite a bit longer than most people writing in, and longer than you, even, I can't remember the last time I felt this welcome and motivated. A TRULY embarrassing amount of my work's just been fueled by "oh Snap's gonna wanna see that," and of course that circle's expanded since then, but it probably wouldn't have had I not met stream chat through you, aaaaaand if I'm honest you're still up there... lol...

It's always, always a highlight of my day to see your your work, your posts, and your responses, whether they're to me or to others, and it's always a highlight of my week to be able to make it to streams! You're a huge inspiration for me, particularly in terms of your work ethic across the board. I always come out of streams energized and feeling like I can actually finish things, and usually this is hubris, but it's gotta count for something.

Not to be dramatic, but you kinda changed my life, no exaggeration. I still really can't see myself the way I was two or three years ago not just calling it quits after some of my Gaiden experiences... lol... but I'm still around, and like always, I wanna be able to write in and interact as much as I used to sometime soon. Thanks for everything! I hope RGGS continues to deliver so we can stay in touch :3

i cant thank YOOOOU enough for the past Xsome months or so. feelins ABSOLUTELY mutual in that i wasnt sure anyone else would really be into talkin bout rgg as you and i have (or would be willing to read my. miles-long scrolls of bullshit LMAO) so it's been real fun gettin to know you an everyone and chattin !!

most bafflin thin to ever to think i have good work ethic, i feel like ive been behind everyone for the past couple weeks and even with the things i do make it's really not up to snuff. it's always nice to hear that's not supposedly exactly the case :) I Suppose :^)

rgg community (like any community lbr) can be. An Experience, esp for someone with a position like yours. so im glad i can make it worth to hang around somewhat LOL

regardless, i always look forward to you next ask or the next time you leave tags on a post i make. if i ever bother making a post again ☠️☠️

[izzy-b-hands]

Cancelled the in person interview for today after discussing phone interview with Mum and Housemate last night (and the numerous red flags and cost of the lyft there and back for a job that ultimately the place wouldn't be able to convince me to take if offered, bc the general consensus was 'this is literally likely to be as bad as the current job BUT with the added cost of lyfts back and forth that they wouldn't be paying enough to offset, why on earth would you (me) take this job lmaooooo')

Which works out good bc the ongoing Mum trauma stuff is hitting hard as soon as I've woken and maybe I can get the Big Cry out today. Or write down any of the memories that have been playing on repeat in my mind

(with all this said, yes, I still asked and do legitimately care abt my mum's opinion and experience with jobs despite this; yes it feels weird; no I don't know how healthy that is or not lmao but I'm gonna lean towards Not Healthy bc im discovering that the work my previous doc did certainly uncovered this codependency and trauma which absolutely was a great help but like...we didn't actually really untangle any of it so I could try and untangle myself from my mum, even from 1600+ miles from one another. So. probably not healthy.)

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

trying to politely enforce boundaries with ppl who don't respect u and take everything very personally is literally SO PAINFUL LIKE

I JUST DOn'T WANT U TALKING ABOUT ME LIKE THAT. IT IS A. PERSONAL PREFERENCE. NOT AN INDICTMENT OF U OR A CRITICISM OF UR PERSON. JUST PLEASE STOP

[ministry-of-acid]

I saw the pacific ocean for the first time but this isn't a photography blog, this is a blog ran by a metalhead and I'm here to tell you all about the beers of Oregon. Utah still ranks top for me and the killer IPA I had from proper brewing company cemented that but the good folks of Oregon do make a decent brewski. Not as ostentatious as Texas but not as forgettable as Arizona either. Now, to track down some beer from Idaho! (Idaho potatoes, as you might imagine, were no problem to find in every form from fries to scattered whole on the side of the road.)

[halfbit]

i am getting started on productivity for the night but haven't figured out yet if i want to write or art first and there's also the tiny part of my brain that just wants to stare at kabru until it is ok to stop staring at kabru

[maytheamazing]

Phone culture is insane I have discovered as an office call agent. People be like "yes I want to set an appointment, but right this second isn't a good time, could you call me back?" and I will go "yes! what time do you want me to call you back" and I'll write that down and then call them back and they wont answer. So I'll leave a voicemail. And then in another couple days I will call, and they won't answer, and I'll leave a voicemail. And this will continue, BECAUSE IT'S MY JOB, until the person wi finally ANSWER and then just be rude to me.

Ma'am YOU asked ME to call YOU I don't understand why you are upset??? Just say no I'm not interested?? Or something like hey I don't trust phone calls like this, so sorry but no. THAT WOULD BE FINE?? I DON'T CARE ENOUGH ABOUT YOU I JUST NEED TO CHECK THE BOX YES OR NO. AS PART OF MY JOB.

[slimeylee]

why have these last years fucking sucked ass