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spicyrottingbrains · 9 months ago

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Ohkie I'm not gonna freak out over the moving in because imma trust the writers and Tim. It would be such bad writing to have her move in like that. I'm gonna trust they added that in for drama and as a way for eddie to leave her.

#911 abc #911 spoilers #im trying to be optimistic here

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yourcomputerr · 1 year ago

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did anyone else kind of not enjoy that

#nerdy prudes must die #like dgmw it was amazingly put together #im trying to be optimistic here #but i was so bored for half of it #i wish it was just about grace bc i was so hyped whenever she was on screen #the hatchetfield thing is just getting tired tbh

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wakkoroni · 2 years ago

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Ao3 being down might be good... I have things I need to finish

#why must you be down #ao3 #im trying to be optimistic here

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xxplastic-cubexx · 19 days ago

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personal happiness or what the fuck ever

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#xmen #xmen comics #cherik #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #professor x #magneto #jeans here too but ssh #snap sketches #i havent posted anything in what feels like forever and i GUESS i have to remind people i do draw sometimes. whatever.#aka in my brain i have at LEAST a five-page doujin where this gets incredibly nsft but i dont have TIME for that these days do i #so for now we get just. these scribbles. ill be able to make something exemplary again someday i swear <- optimistic #i think im going to close my comms off for the rest of december once i get through the batch i have now #which ... doesnt sound hard since the amount i have will probably take me to the end of december anyway 💀#i just need everyone to believe me i have better visions for yaoifying issue 309 .... the opportunity is right there...#like wdym the dream sequence is gon end on a panel of erik's eyes as he reinforces the idea charles needs happiness like scott and jean's..#call up your ex. right now charles.#what got me peeved about this issue is i have no idea what color eriks outfit could be vjaeLVKEJARK its like.#is he wearing a lab coat over a suit .... i think thats the intention ... or maybe it is a trench coat....#idk shit for me to figure out if i ever get the time to explore this thing again #LIKE UGH IM SCREAMING i have Such Visions that i dont have time to execute and theyre killing me #maybe ill just write them down idfk <- trying to write fanfiction ends even worse for me than trying to draw #anyways. im gonna drive myself mad good night everyone #i have to go to a christmas party tomorrow night. later tonight. whatever.#BYE

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blueskittlesart · 4 months ago

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*sigh* thoughts on Nintendo's botw/totk timeline shenanigans and tomfoolery?

tbh. my maybe-unpopular opinion is that the timeline is only important when a game's place on the timeline seriously informs the way their narrative progresses. the problem is that before botw we almost NEVER got games where it didn't matter. it matters for skyward sword because it's the beginning, and it matters for tp/ww/alttp (and their respective sequels) because the choices the hero of time makes explicitly inform the narrative of those games in one way or another. it matters which timeline we're in for those games because these cycles we're seeing are close enough to oot's cycle that they're still feeling the effects of his choices. botw, however, takes place at minimum 10 thousand years after oot, so its place on the timeline actually functionally means nothing. botw is completely divorced from the hero of time & his story, so what he does is a nonissue in the context of botw link and zelda's story. thus, which timeline botw happens in is a nonissue. honestly I kind of liked the idea that it happened in all of them. i think there's a cool idea of inevitability that can be played with there. but the point is that the timeline exists to enhance and fill in the lore of games that need it, and botw/totk don't really need it because the devs finally realized they could make a game without the hero of time in it.

#i really do have a love-hate relationship with this timeline #because it's FASCINATING lore. genuinely. and i think it carries over the themes of certain games REALLY well #but i also think it's indicative of a trend in loz's writing that has REALLY annoyed me for a long time #which is this intense need to cling to oot #and on a certain level i get it. that was your most successful game probably ever. and it was an AMAZING game.#and i think there's definitely some corporate profit maximization tied up in this too--oot was an insane commercial success therefore you'r #not allowed to make new games we need you to just remake oot forever and ever #and that really annoys me because it makes certain games feel disjointed at best and barely-coherent at worst.#i think the best zelda games on the market are the ones where the devs were allowed to really push what they were working with #oot. majora. botw. hell i'd even put minish cap in there #these are games that don't quite follow what was the standard zelda gameplay at their time of release. they were experimental in some way #whether that be with graphics or puzzle mechanics or open-world or the gameplay premise in its entirety. there's something NEW there #and because the devs of those games were given that level of freedom the gameplay really enforces the narrative. everything feels complete #and designed to work together. as opposed to gameplay that feels disjointed or fights against story beats. you know??#so I think that the willingness to allow botw and totk to exist independently from the timeline is good at the very least from a developmen #standpoint because it implies a willingness to. stop making shitty oot remakes and let developers do something interesting.#and yes i do very much fear that the next 20 years of zelda will be shitty BOTW remakes now #in which botw link appears and undergoes the most insane character assassination youve ever seen in your life #but im trying to be optimistic here. if botw/totk can exist outside the timeline then we may no longer be stuck in the remake death loop #and i'm taking eow as a good sign (so far) that we're out of the death loop!! because that game looks NOTHING like botw or oot.#fingers crossed!!#anyway sorry for the game dev rant but tldr timeline good except when it's bad #asks #zelda analysis

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dahldahlbills · 1 year ago

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dude what if our tech deck riders held hands 😳

#sk8 the infinity #renga #sk8 the infinity fanart #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #reki kyan #langa hasegawa #dahls art #experimented with how I applied colors on this #Idk how apparent that is tho lol #I hate rendering with a passion so I’m trying to find ways to add some life to pieces without having to go All In #and I kinda tried that here #not entirely happy with what I did BUT I do like how this looks overall if that makes sense #this is also the first time after experimenting where I’ve felt optimistic #im actually excited about coloring again soon ??? bc I feel like im on the brink of something #even tho I didn’t really do anything special here to begin with #but yeah ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#ANYWAY I love reki and i love langa and i love renga #they are so dear to me :’)#pls click tumblr torpedoed the quality wah #also I think it’s extremely funny how langa’s looking at reki as if he can see through his hair ajfhjs

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pigeonedlilac · 7 days ago

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old habits die hard ❅ ❅ ❅ ❅

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MERRY MIDOYUZU CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^ The joyous anniversary of Christmas Live :>>

Tiny profile change for the new year! yeas this is tinylittlelilac :] thank you for your guy’s support throughout this year 🫶🫶 to another year!! happy holidays and new year to everyone!!

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lollytea · 4 months ago

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I really love hope is a thing with feathers and I also really LOVE the hope as a sewer rat poem too but I wish it was not explicity written as "well actually" against Dickinson asgvsjnk. The imagery is SO GOOD but this whole vibe of "my metaphor is better than your metaphor" kinda sours it for me

#i dont like the patronizing usage of ''Emily'' like theyre explaining something to a child #admittedly dickinson has been dead for over a century so its probably huge deal to talk about her flippantly in terms of poetry #this is just me personally. how i feel about it #i dont like her being namedropped like that #it has this energy of ''haha lemme school this bitch''#when the poem itself was never supposed to see the light of day. she never consented to it being published. girl was 5 years in the grave #it feels like making fun of somebodys diary #i also dont like how it kinda makes fun of dickinson's imagery of hope as something ''beautiful delicate'' thing #i always interpreted as it is told. a little bird. i pictured a fat fluffy thing like the ones i see outside my window #ive known them to be stubborn and mischivious #when we leave out seeds on the lawn the little ones are always bullied away by the crows and magpies #but they keep trying. theyll attempt to sneak over and peck away before the crows notice them #they ARE optimistic and resilient little things. tougher than they look #so i always found the metaphor apt #sewer rat also fits just as well. but i think it depends on the angle from how youre looking at it #so i dont like this vibe of ''it should be more RAW it should be UGLIER'' cuz even tho i love that style of writing #it just feels like unnecessary one-upping here #especially considering dickinson was severely depressed and tons of her poems reflect it #god forbid she dabble around with the occasional light hearted poem about seeing hope as a silly little bird #asgsjsnk sorry im not trying to make a statement or anything. ill delete this later probably

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sollucets · 7 months ago

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hi everyone :’) i havent been on tumblr much lately because i am 1) not watching anything and 2) still dealing with the effects of a bunch of fun medical stuff! i am doing ok but my body hates me so so so much lately. i have the energy and ability(?) to do only a few very specific things right now (play elden ring, let youtube forcefeed me kpop videos, languish) and that does not include watch show or make gif or even write no matter how much i might want to. so. this is how it is haha. miss u guys

#it feels silly to make a post like this when im still on here nearly every day but i Feel disconnected. yknow #like i rb something once a day. i hardly talk to my mutuals. idk #i post vaguely often about my Medical Situation but. i think it might be good if i clarify so #this year since april ive been dealing with a sudden and long-term resurgence of pain that ive had before #originally we thought it was ovarian cysts (which ive been troubled by before)#but that got ruled out mostly. so #my doctor ‘diagnosed’ it as endometriosis (note quotes; it’s apparently not possible to diagnose endo without a surgery which i havent had)#(and so this is just an educated guess on her part and on mine. but a decent one)#i went on hormone meds for that which dont seen to be working for the endo but do regulate other things #but that significantly worsened my depression #so im on ssris now #theres also some other issues with me i dont care to disclose here #and its really just been A Lot #right now the ssris are on a very low dose but they are making me brutally dizzy and nauseous also.#i keep trying to be optimistic and then i get dunked on. but i will keep hoping #it will pass but fuck could it pass faster #rowan chatter #i have actually managed to write some despite all this. but show watching has fallen to the wayside

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rosicheeks · 7 months ago

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#just want to apologize to anyone who has tried to reach out lately #just like I texted my friend I’ll tell you guys the same #haven’t been talking to a lot of people lately tbh #pretty sure I’ve mentioned php a few times by now #monday was my last day #and I was feeling on top of the world on Monday #I don’t remember the last time I was so genuinely happy #figured it was the med change or something #so I was feeling pretty optimistic #I’m in between programs now #and today was not the best #not as bad as some of my days #but definitely not even near the day I had on Monday #I just wish I could feel that every single day #I’m working on it but still #waiting to start ‘adult day treatment’ and case management #and I think case management will help me find a place??? I’m not sure exactly but that’s kinda what I was getting #which honestly? I know I’ve bitched about how badly I need to move #but while I was in php I realized I don’t think I’ll truly be able to heal while I’m living here… and that’s a scary thought #idk there’s a lot more deeper things that I don’t wanna talk about #but the fact I don’t have space and I don’t feel safe and comfortable here is hard….#my ‘safe’ space was my car but now that I’m trying to quit smoking my car isn’t the best place for me #I’ve been kinda getting used to my room and I’m finally trying to move a few things around #(now that I have a little energy again)#it’s just……. my arachnophobia is KILLING me here #in the past week I don’t even know how many spiders I’ve seen and killed #they haven’t been crazy and I recognize I don’t live in Australia or places where the spiders are as big as fucking cars #I came home and I was in a good mood until I saw a spider in my room 🙃🙃🙃 tried to vacuum it but not sure if I got it……..#so guess im sleeping on the couch….. again…. but can’t help think if out here is any better…#shut up rosie

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cerbreus · 7 days ago

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the holiday malaise is getting to me a little bit

#despite my efforts #last year i was happy and i had a boyfriend i loved to bits and i was looking forward to the future and happy with where my career was goin #i had little things to look forward to on holidays for the first time ever and big things to look forward to in the following year #generally a lot more hope and happiness and looking forward to things after many many years of working hard at getting to that place #this year im..... just trying to keep myself busy and distracted #i don't have someone to celebrate big and little things with anymore or events in the year #things are still incredibly caustic with my dad so i can't spend the holiday with family (same as it's been since i moved out)#i don't know what next year is going to be like for me much less my future in general #trying to have hope and make it what i want it to be but i'm still struggling to find a trail that feels passable #also really feeling more and more like i'm just a passing single note in the symphony of other people's lives and not in a good way #ah well #gotta keep trying #a life and future i'll be content and happy with will come to me.... just... a matter of when #i hope it's easier to be optimistic next year and every year that follows #it really doesn't help that politics are so fucking dire here though #personal stuff #waugh sorry to be a downer #holidays are back to being miserable times of the year for me #events and holidays always bring out the malaise ™ in me fr #i'm doing fine being single again i don't feel like i'll never love again or something (impossible for me- i'm a lover after all)#just been a lot of change all at once and a lot of really bad luck all at once and other realities settling in (my age) (my unemployability #a lot to grapple with #i wish i could just live in the woods and spend my days baking and rockhounding/mudlarking and foraging

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bitegore · 1 month ago

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Odd to me that the whole "x trans group has it worse, actually" people seem to both be really optimistic about how cissexual cisgender society views trans people of every stripe, just about different groups. Like they don't see any of us as one of them. There's still regular degular transphobia and its fucking everpresent for literally every trans person there is. There's no passing so successful that you opt out of society beong transphobic on literally any side.

#i mostly think the hashtag transcourse or w/e on here is like. amusing and entertaining. because its always people trying to corner the #market on things that happen broadly to shitloads of groups that just don't usually also overlap with being white and middle class #but i was sitting around offline and was thinking about something someone else had said on a post that was particularly stupid #and like was an argument on the 'transmisogyny is the worst oppression of any group' side that somehow managed to contradict one of the core #tenets of transmisogyny theory in the process #and it was just like. for such a cynical attitude you are really really optimistic about Society huh. you really think you can actually #pass hard enough and your acceptance will actually come huh.#hell even the concept and the way passing is approached in Trans Discourse TM vs in race theory is really something #eh im gonna quit running my mouth in the tags and go to bed bc i gotta be up in like 6 hours but last parting shot #why is everyone on here so obsessed with making Theories of Xyz that are like 'this is just a personal thing that applies to people' and not #Structural Analyses that Discuss Structures. like misogyny is a structural issue and its ingrained in every layer of our society its like.#an understood quantity that misogyny isnt just something that Happens To Women but a fundamental part of how power institutions etc are m #built and structured and why feminists of the past had to fight for things like the right to manage their own money and why women as a class #are disenfranchised relative to men as a class. right #how is it that everyone hotly debating niche gay and trans and etc theories on here are incapable of discussing these things as structural #elements that play off of and feed into one another in lieu of making them into like personal things. that happen to you if you are #personally something or other but don't like permeate our society on a fundamental level somehow. the actual transmisogyny theories are #structural so why are you all so bad at it. i dont know if transandrophobia even has a theory and if it has any structural critiques i #havent seen them personally #like idk its just fucking funny to me. and kind of weird.#why claim to be super adherent to one structural critique and philosophy and then refuse to engage with the structural results of that #structural criticism. are you even reading what you're riffing off.

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teenagefeeling · 4 months ago

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how i know im going through a depressive episode:

been very irritable and crying a lot lately

keep waking up at 5 am no matter when i go to bed and im tired all the time anyway

can't focus on shit and reading books makes me feel like im sticking nails in my eyes

this is my spotify history

in conclusion: im having a bad time

#im actually kind of proud of my 2000s pop playlist #but i kind of feel like adam scott in that one episode of parks and rec doing stop motion + saying 'could a depressed person make this?'#except it's me with my 10 hour long playlist that i made by going through the billboard hot 100 from 2006-2010 and adding all my faves #plus a handful of other random shit like idk selena gomez and the scene songs i think are underrated and whatnot #the only rules for the playlist are i must have known the song when it was popular and songs may not be newer than 2011 #90s is ok tho it's not strictly 2000s i threw some sheryl crow in there #anyway! im experiencing mental distress #i also have pms so i almost wonder if this is hormonally induced.. like would i even be depressed rn if not for that?#i feel like that's me trying to be optimistic that it'll just go away in a few days and i'll be able to sleep properly again #here's hoping i guess lmao #bri babbles

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feathers-little-nest · 4 months ago

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#ofc when i just STARTED being arguably ok the world had to prove that it hates me uwu #i hate it here so much. i hate my life so much #i try to be optimistic. im fuckign crying #i swear im doing my best IM ALWAYS doing my best #im always doing 110% and trying to heal and be nice to myself #and it's givinig me nothing it's always fucking #useless #it's all useless fruitless #get better relapse get better relapse get better relapse #i am not #i am not fucking feeling well #tw vent

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backseatloversz · 5 months ago

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so so frustrating that my parents keep telling me "you should at least finish community college and get your AA because most jobs these days require you to have at least an AA" and i ask the incredibly reasonable question "what jobs?" and they say "IDK" ????ok well I dont want to pursue an education if its not clear what jobs it will lead me to. ? like hello ?

#i was telling my dad how i might just go to beauty school bc 1. w that its very clear to me what careers it could lead and 2. its sort of a #creative field but also i imagine theres more job security than if i were to say go into acting or writing #and i knowwww he was just trying to be ~realistic~ and look at it from all angles or whatever but my dad immediately started telling me how #it might NOT be a secure job like Okay im 19 im not THAT stupid & naive i know literally any education/job/career is gonna take work and #Nothing is guaranteed but like. work with me here. let me be optimistic for 5 seconds. cmon #cowboy posts

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izzy-b-hands · 6 months ago

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If I don't find a new job before September, it's gonna be 9 straight weeks of polls starting in September, every weekend of September and October (including the weekend of Housemate's bday, and the weekend leading up to Election Day)

In addition, no cancels or sick days will be allowed for that period of time. Any cancels or sick call outs will result in disciplinary actions up to a fast tracked firing (to be fair they didn't say this exactly, but the Implication in this part of the email is quite strong lmao.)

Anyone wanna hire me on to do literally anything? Dig holes? Clean your house? Shine your shoes? Feed your cat/dog/fish/cow/etc? Stare at a pot of boiling water for your dinner? Paint your living room then stand there and watch the paint dry then repaint it a different colour and watch it dry again? Anything at all, anything you want, anything-

#text post #i want to think I will have a new job before then bc ive been trying to force myself to be optimistic abt the job things #that said. been trying to feel that way for months and it doesn't seem to be working or making anything happen (which isn't a thing anyway)#despite my consistent sending out of resumes and cover letters to anything i might remotely be okay enough at or could learn quickly enough #so feeling less optimistic more worried and more utterly frustrated with this job #our polls haven't even been chosen by the big news outlets over the last few months!!! everyone uses AP instead (as they should tbh)!!!!#whomst in the fuck are we doing this for??? especially when so many of our questions as of the last few surveys #feel designed to stir up emotions and piss ppl off on both sides and treat it like a reality show voting portion #rather than the extremely serious election that it is #like. are we actually doing something useful here or can we just admit that polling like this to some degree #in its current form at least is a part of the problem #god im sorry i'll end the tag essay here soon but fuck me #i was juuuuust feeling like things were calming down and maybe I could get into later fall w/out major upsets/issues #so of course this is the best time for my manager to drop this on all of us #at least they warned us i guess. the bar is under ground and my manager consistently has a shovel #but he poked his head out of the endless hole he's digging to offer this warning before he pulls us into it with him #im so tired man

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