#im too exhausted to be me anymore

[sluttyankles]

last reblog:

[sukirichi]

i’m gonna sound stupid for saying this but i’m acc very upset that real life is keeping me away from being a loser here 😔

[nitroish]

i am exhausted. he fell into one of those bodies of water that exist on the surface in sky's era

[maxphilippa]

uh. vent art. or something. losing yourself and losing everyone who you cared about as a result

[godblooded]

so i’m pretty tired of feeling like i’m just supposed to take this and let it go because everyone’s busy but like. if i write you a meme reply here or on @clawsextended i’m asking you to at least like it so i know you saw it.

i don’t care if you want to continue it or not. i’d always prefer to, but i never expect it. it’s not out of the realm of politeness just to ask someone acknowledges that i wrote them something.

[chronic-creation]

Stay away from r/fakedisordercringe and similar reddits, I have a habit of scrolling them to make sure I haven't been posted to them out of anxiety about it, but when I am posted there I have panic attacks and it makes my mental health spiral. It's best to just stay away entirely and never look. It's best to completely avoid interacting with anyone who spends the time to speculate whether or not someone is faking based on a meme they posted with a 15 second trending sound.

You can't tell whether or not someone is faking their disorders based on their internet history, and dredging up old posts from years ago just to harass someone about what they've posted in the past is quite frankly disgusting.

It's for that reason that I'm no longer going to be making system content of any kind online. I'll talk about my personal experiences on tumblr from time to time, and I'll make art about it, but the internet is not a safe place to be yourself or try to spread awareness about DID and other stigmatized disorders. I'm constantly being fakeclaimed and bullied on all platforms that I post on and it's something that my mental health just can't handle anymore. I really need to just focus on my mental and physical health, healing, art, and school.

Trying to prove to a bunch of people that I'm not faking my disorders that I've been diagnosed with has just driven me insane because even if you post your medical records, even if you have witnesses and countless pages and years of evidence in your favor, they will say you're making it all up and will harass you constantly anyways.

I'm exhausted from fighting and trying to prove myself to people who don't want to take the time to acknowledge they're wrong. they just want to hurt people. they don't care if they're wrong or right, they just want to cause despair and doubt to someone else.

and frankly, I'm fucking over it.

[scalpelsister]

what if i lost the will to live like. as a joke. what then.

[pink-lemonadefairy]

🌻 ₊˚⊹ ࿔ 🌳

[moonlit-orchid]

When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

[an-assortment-of-forks]

there are doctors there are hospitals there are specialists there is medicine there are systems in place so people do not have to suffer and be tortured under their own chronic pain daily and yet. they're all fucking inaccessible to the people who need it most!!! to what I would argue is most disabled people!! I'm so fucking done with the medical system.

[lizardlycrimes]

I just read your tags on your reblog (of the thing I stole your tags for 😅) and - you know the moment in the cartoon where Kash says "we were hoping Earth Wind and Fire here could assist" and everybody looks at Keyleth and Keyleth looks the other way first like "...oh you mean me??" That was 100% me ^^' I am HIGH KEY flattered, but also I'm very much "??!???!?" at the thought of anyone fangirling over me, of all people! whyyy (for real, though, really!?)

(also always SO SO GOOD to find someone else who fucking loves Scanlan 'Patented Disaster' Shorthalt, warts and all 💜)

I don't think I've gotten an ask before!!! This is exciting!!!

Also I love that scene in TLOVM so much I get what you mean by the whole "oh you mean me thing" sjshdjdn I'd probably be a lil shocked too but I'm genuinely am like. A big fan. Getting even this ask got me fangirling all over again!! I love your art so much and you have such an accurate way of portraying Scanlan it drives me nuts!! Both your design and characterization in comics and such just ahh!! Being able to say that's my boy!!! Is so exciting to me!!

It's so hard to find people who are decent about Scanlan it's insane though!! I've seen Scanlan be put through such hellish miss characterization and exclusion. Often times treated more like a thing than a person in my opinion. (Sam's characters as a whole I think are very slept on. Like even with big character reveals the only time I've seen fcg really be posted a LOT about was in relation to romance) on the rare occasion where I see someone who clearly appreciates Scanlan's complexities they basically get immediately engrained into my brain just like you have. Though with how much you've posted of him I think you're past simply engrained and just are part of my brain now.

Also warts and all is a funny way to put it while also being very accurate ajshsjsn but if I dive into that this post though I'd end out discovering what's the word limit on Tumblr 😅

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

[ilovelickingrocks]

being at work makes me so miserable

[zedif-y]

sometimes its like my life is just one big call for help

[pekodayz]

I think the worst worst worst part abt having a following is that i can’t vent a lot even tho i really want to. at least i have like a priv disc server so it’s literally just me myself and the bot

[iwakuraz]

it'll all be okay because there's only one more day left in the school week and after that it'll be the weekend. wait no what do you mean after the weekend I'll just have to go back to school? what do you mean the cycle of going to school and coming back home completely worn out is gonna continue?