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I'm so sick of this
#I hate this#i thought things were getting better but it's the same shit as always#please someone answer me why#why i cant be happy#im supposed to be happy with this life#i have everything im supposed to need#then why#why i feel like this#why im always coming back to this shit#i want to leave so mucj please#I want to change the channel#i wish i could leave without worry about the people i left#i just want to disappear#like a lot#and nothing is helping#and no one#i get that the others have their own lifes but#it hurts so mucj feel this lonely#it's so pathetic that it's funny#even my boyfriend change me#im causing problems everywhere i go#i just want to run away again#just leave for forever#i don't want to start over and over again and never be alright because everyone sees how much trouble i bring#i don't want to be here anymore
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#âbetter late than never!â ahh post#this quote reminded me of ren's thought process during 2/2. its not supposed to reflect the canon dialogue. rather his internal monologue#had to adjust it a little to fit the context tho#anyway yea im clocking out happy shuake divorce day everyone#the fact that any reality where ren and akechi meet is always destined to end with akechi dying is so fucked up#persona 5 royal#persona 5#shuake#akeshu#goro akechi#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#lotus draws#something about akechiâs death always being a sacrificeâŚ..its always so intriguing to me#like despite the fact that he embraces his identity as an assassin so thoroughly and even thinks virtue and righteousness is blithe#he still performs the most selfless act of all when heâs backed into a corner knowing he will lose#this could be read as a) he would rather go out on his own terms and die making a statement where he actively chooses to sacrifice his life#knowing that the enemy could never kill him in a way that matters bc he has never had an ounce of control his entire life#and for once at least he demands control over his death. if nothing else in his miserable life where everything was predetermined#OR b) deep down inside he still remembers the child he used to be who would idolize heroes and their justice#he may have been a villain his entire life but in that moment when he knows heâs doomed heâd rather let the âheroesâ get the upper hand#by buying them time with his death. at least in one way he was able to live up the the childlike fantasy he so cherished#anyway yea auughh akechiâŚ.truly made to fuck me up
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You have 90 minutes to complete. (original poem: r.a.)
In participation of the MCYT Recursive Exchange 2024 hosted by @mcytrecursive!
Inspired by know that all my love will be your breath (i will save you when your lights go out)
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1. Have you ever been in love? (Please circle your answer.) a. It's me and him b. Our hearts beat in sync c. Our lives intertwined
2. Do you understand what youâve done? (Please circle your answer.) a. I couldn't do anything b. I lost my balance c. I doomed us both
3. It's been god knows how long since you felt phantom hands on your neck and there is no one in sight. If you were soul-bound to him and both of you died at the same time then why are you still waiting in the void? Please answer clearly, in full sentences. (Not a correct answerďźI just wanted to see him one more time).
4. Define two (2)ďź Fate | The feeling of his forehead against yours Curse | The moment you realise he isn't linked to you anymore
5. True or Falseďź i. It was your fault. ii. You wish you had met him under different circumstances. iii. You canât regret a single moment that you had him. iv. You would do it all over again if you could. v. It ended long before either of you said anything.
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#team ranchers#team rancher#rancher duo#jimmy solidarity#tangotek#trafficshipping#mcyt recursive exchange#events#fic fanart#my art#âcanary has butterfly-shaped wings it cant do a dramatic spread like thatâ watch me. (draws dramatic wings) (sorry)#âyou have 90 minutesâ have been rattling in my brain for so long ever since i suddenly remembering a web weave using it (yes the beeduo one#very glad i can release it (using it in art) from its confines (my mind)#hm i suppose the title would be more in theme if its abt limited life ranchers#â havnt watched limlife yet#but! happy with what i come up with. lil bit proud even#had so much trouble with the panelling and layers in p2 cause it looks too busy (explodes)#also punching the floor bc i only noticed the âyes-noâ pair(?) in the original poem when im already half-done w/ the comic#me when making silly comic makes you do poem analysis#i dont even go there â does not have enough poetic braincells
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On my knees begging for anything trans!Obi-Wan :') love your work btw
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your wish is my comand lovely anon, here's obi-wan having a nice peaceful moment training
#art requests#i got perhaps a little carried away i cant lie buuuuut im very happy with this#first thing ive really drawn in like 6 months#i came up with a silly over complicated lore for the tree in the background because .. well you gotta think about something when you draw#its a short lived species that picks a direction and grows in it until it falls over and dies and lots of smaller ones grow up in its place#and yoda plants them around the creche / training areas/ gardens / wherever and they act as a lesson in attachemnt for younglings :)#like yes this tree thats been around all your life (10 years or less) is dead but look it dying has made new trees and new opportunities#and maybe sometimes he gifts them to younglings he likes or ones he thinks could use the reminder sometimes that things ending isnt the end#new stuff happens after everything continues its all fine#anakin definitely recieved one or ten#probably was still recieving them into knighthood because yoda is a troll#he doesnt know theyre supposed to collapse and die though he just thinks hes really bad at looking after plants#anyways#yep#done with that#my art <3#cal draws#obiwan kenobi#trans obi wan#trans obi wan kenobi#trans! obiwan#star wars#star wars fanart#fanart
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I love your au saori she has that divorced lesbian swag
thank you i think!! i had a lot of fun designing her
#not really '''divorced''' so much as. well.#is it being a widow if your wife doesnt exist in this universe bc atlus stopped putting her in games :(#p5si#persona 3#p3#saori hasegawa#im not sure if im happy w the colours for her summer fit but cest la life i suppose#also the comic at the end was a quick imagining of a part of an early rank of her s.link#drawn after portables ui. sorta. i did it in like 2 hrs
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they cant even get her nose right!
#this is for a western au thingy im cooking with a mutual. life is good when cowboy sig exists#got a new brush that im really happy with so im just BUZZING#the background is just from tangled hashtag lazy#she's got that swag....#my art#oc: sigrid#dnd#bg3#<- i suppose
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Its funny because I just said I wasnt finished with the lantern and I just finished it now haha.
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They have been contained at the Favor Tree. I took some close ups and they are so nice. Its so comfy to be around too. I will probably use it at night sometimes to see or just for fun.
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#Isat#Isat siffrin#Isat loop#Personal Art#I am going to put anymore of my art that is isat in my drafts for today. I really dont want to overload the tag.#But I have been working on this for about a month and I wasnt planning to finish it today#So happy circumstance!#Its also funny because I have other art Im working on but I cannot finish any of them because I need certain things and cant go get them rn#So it works I suppose???#The life of art is weird. But fun!
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CUDDY...cuddycuddycuddycudyycudd. .. ... . . .
GIRL.
#house md#gregory house#lisa cuddy#james wilson#screencap#s07e12 âyou must remember thisâ#oh do i remember this#im sorry huddy you could've been written better#CUDDY CMON#you're one awkward turn away from from being naked fresh out of shower and this dude here pining about wilson on your bed#âWilson fetishâ yeah right#dump his ass#leave these awful idiots to eachother#âhE's nOt suPPoSeD tO bE aLoNEâ#guck off#the second one of them isn't happy anymore the other's life mission is to fix it
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@beluvbug âs PoGD au has me wagging my dogboy aj kin tail
got me thinking abt my other ponykin and how to uhhhh yknow, hurt her, and i give u⌠princess of intrusive thoughts. honestly projecting on a pony is really cathartic. you should try it sometime
#theyre nonbinary theyre autistic they have bpd and ocd and depression and anxiety#and you cant tell me otherwise!!! also some psychosis or schizoaffective in there. BC I CAN!!!#theyre supposed to have always wanted this. this should b endgame#they should b happyâŚ. but it feels wrong its all wrong#these wings arent mine. these feathers werent meant for me.#my whole purpose in life was to make these friends and now im a freak and they hate me. also i will outlive them all times infinity#pull them off! pull them off!! take me back to do it again!#anyways. lol#my art#mlp#twilight sparkle#repost bc i wanted to word things differently
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my take on the hateno house is that when link bought it in botw he did so with zelda in mind - link does not see the point in buying a whole house for himself when he's always on the move anyway, but he knows how tired zelda is going to be when she gets back, and he knows she can't exactly live in hyrule castle anymore. so he sees a house about to be torn down and something compells him, like, this is the perfect place. a cozy house in peaceful hateno village. and they are of course living together leading up to totk bc all evidence points toward that but that's the reason everyone thinks of it as zelda's house, because link despite buying it and paying for its repairs was never its true owner. it's zelda's house because it was meant for her. when they got back after defeating the calamity link opened the door for her and went, here. this is for you.
(and of course this leads to the comedic situation of zelda trying to find the least awkward way to tell link that the house he bought for her on vibes alone was actually his childhood home.)
#the legend of zelda#loz#tears of the kingdom#totk#princess zelda#link#zelink#<- though it CAN be read platonically i suppose. queerplatonic too if you're based.#im just so sooo happy the quiet comfy hateno life is canon#and i think zelda deserves the world#fey rambles
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i've been spending the last eight months, thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end... but on a wednesday in a cafe i watched it begin again
#suitsposting#darvey#darveyedit#suitsedit#suits#suits tv#donna paulsen#harvey specter#amanda.doc#amanda.mov#YAYYYYYY SHES FINALLY HERE IVE HAD THIS AMV IN MY DRAFTS FOR MOOOONTHSSSSSS and i finally finished it!!!#(yeah there are a couple mistakes were not talking about it lmao. i did the best i could!)#IM SOOO HAPPY I FINALLY GET TO PUBLISH THIS literally she changed everything for him!!!! he thought his life was supposed to be miserable#be she said no!!!! shes his killatrav!!!!#HAPPY NEW YEAR. tomorrow is wednesday and its beginning again
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âI had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you.
Take me back to the night we met.â
â The Night We Met by Lord Huron
cw implied death, angst, OWWW OWWWIE OWWW
The day starts as usual.
The sun rises, birds chirping as you push open the balcony door to let the morning air in. Joseph steps out, a cigarette already between his fingers. You join him, two mugs of coffee in your hands. He takes one from you with a grateful smile, you both settle into the routine.
The day is beautiful. The suns warm embrace on your skin makes you want to linger there forever, soaking in her rays.
âWhat dâya want for breakfast?â he asks, smoke curling lazily from his lips.
You ponder for a moment, imagining the taste of different dishes. âHow aboutâŚpancakes?â you suggest, feeling your mouth water at the thought.
Joseph chuckles, stubbing out his cigarette and taking a final gulp of his coffee. âPancakes it is then.â
You eat breakfast together at the table. Joseph flips through his script between bites, humming under his breath and glancing at the clock occasionally. A quiet sigh escapes him as he polishes off his plate.
He rises, placing his dirtied plate on the sink, setting his empty mug on top. He walks over to you, gently pushing your hair back and kissing your forehead.
âI gotta go. Iâll see you later, okay?â
You hum, cheeks warming from the kiss. âIâll pick up stuff to make your favorite for dinner tonight. I know we havenât had it in a while.â
His eyes light up, âSounds like a plan.â
He heads towards the entryway, grabbing his jacket. He looks back at you, a smile still lingering on his lips.
âDonât worry, filming shouldnât take long today. Iâll be home before you know it.â
The butterflies in your stomach flutter with his words.
âOkay, Iâll see you later,â you reply, eyes droopy with morning grogginess and love.
The door clicks shut behind him, you watch a moment longer. Your eyes trace over the knob, down the mysterious crack in the wood, and watch his shadowy steps fade away. A sudden uneasiness creeps in, filling your gut with a syrupy ache. The butterflies no longer flutter, their wings cut, leaving you with a heavy feeling in their place.
You try to shake it off, but the feeling lingers, the knot in your stomach tightening with each tick of the clock. Hour after hour, minute after minute, you try to distract yourself with meaningless chores. You go grab things for dinner, the hustle and bustle of the store creating a dull hum over the pit in your stomach. A weak balm that doesnât last the second you step through the apartment door again.
Night falls, groceries left forgotten on the counter. Seconds tick by painfully slow, each one a reminder of his absence. You canât shake the feeling that something is terribly wrong.
Joseph doesnât return that night, or any night after that.
#omg who would write such a angsty story? its so sad#i say while looking in the mirror#yesterday was a fun happy day so of course my brain was like#okay now angst.. GO!#Joseph... my sweet pookie bear#i can't wait to find out more about his death#specifically how and why he died#its confirmed that its a premeditated homicide#so the person planned this murder..#it feels so full of hate and revenge to me#so my bets are all on someone from his past coming back for revenge..#i also like that idea because joseph always seems to be running..#running away from his past and his old self..#it would be so ANGSTY if his past is what kills him#in a metaphorical sense#sigh..#also the song 'the night we met' with forever remind me of joseph#specifically the lyrics i listed above#it perfectly encapsulates how quickly someone can enter and leave your life#OMG AND the lyric 'i dont know what im supposed to do HAUNTED BY THE GHOST OF YOU'#THIS SHIT JUST WRITES ITSELF#DUDEEEE#I DONT EVEN NEED TO SAY MORE#sunny day jack#sunny day jack x reader#somethings wrong with sunny day jack#swwsdj#joseph haberdae#jacktor#joseph haberdae x reader
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Sometimes I think about the MP100 S3 finale and Reigen saying "You don't need me anymore" but never saying anything about him not needing Mob anymore, how it was basically a goodbye and that's why he started to cry, because he wanted it to last forever, because he's going to miss him more than anything, and the fact that afterwards we skip six months into the future where the city is fixed, where Tome works at Spirits & Such alongside Serizawa, but there are no new desks so it implies that Mob no longer works there, that he's moved on with his life and is only visiting a fond memory by attending Reigen's birthday, making up for the last one he missed, throwing cake in Reigen's face because the reverence is gone they're no longer Master and Disciple but they're still old friends even if they've grown rapidly apart, and how Reigen was holding back tears seeing everyone there but in particular facing Mob's direction, and in the spinoff Reigen looks up at the fake Mob who's still in his school uniform and he doesn't even fight back against it even though he has to know it's not real because he misses those days even though he knows he shouldn'tâand then I just
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#ITS ABOUT REIGEN LETTING GO OF SOMETHING THAT WAS NEVER SUPPOSED TO BE HIS BUT IT TEARING AWAY PART OF HIS SOUL TO DO SO DO YOU GET IT#DO YOU UNDERSTAND#HE GREW HE LEARNED HE'S A BETTER PERSON NOW BUT IT'S KILLING HIM#MAYBE LITERALLY#mobrei#reimob#mob psycho 100#kageyama shigeo#mob#reigen arataka#AND MOB DESERVES HIS OWN LIFE HIS OWN HAPPINESS HE DESERVES TO MOVE ON#AND REIGEN KNOWS THIS HE KNOWS IT SO HE TRIES TO DO THE SAME#but the fact is that he wouldnt be where he is surrounded by the people he is without mob and everything around him only serves to remind#him of mob and the fact that these reminders are in place bc mob no longer is#sorry im obsessing over reigens suicidal tendencies when it comes to the thought of losing mob again do you still think im hot#unrequited love my beloved đâ¤ď¸âđĽ
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(banana fish) a day in the life after
happy bday to ash my most beloved ever the absolute light of my life i love u sm đ¤˛đ¤˛đ¤˛
#im so normal about them#they mean the world to me#wasnât supposed to be a bday art but i didnât have time to cook anything else and im fine w anything as long as heâs happy#set a few years post canon btw#their hair are longer and theyâre engaged and happy and going on w their life and carved a little peaceful cocoon for themselves#so canon ikr#banana fish#mayâs sillies#artists on tumblr#asheiji#ash lynx#eiji okumura#ash x eiji#fanart#small art blog
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We were given permission to share our pieces a few months ago but I completely forgot to!
This was the comic piece I did for @zineofgid, featuring my OC Marcel (a traumatized cult survivor) and @shylittlemoosen's Val (a morally corrupt therapist).
#korvo draws#oc#oc; marcel#a little suggestive a little spicy#pushed myself with this one but im still pretty happy with the result#marcel needs development but he survives being a sacrificial lamb due to a fluke bolt of lightning#living a life that was supposed to end when he was 10 yrs old and not having a lot of direction#eventually he becomes a toxicologist but overall hes a religious trauma oc through n through
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ok did i just imagine this or. didn't jensen or misha say at one point they used to go for drives around vancouver between filming and have like deep life conversations ?? bc i gotta be honest that was the first thing i thought of when i read that quote from danneel abt how she and jensen bonded over having deep life conversations on their way to and from set while filming Ten Inch Hero.
#if i had a nickel for every time jensen started crushing on a co-star + bonded w/ them over deep life conversations i'd have 2 nickels....#im joking but also not. you know how it is with those men#i have eyes what else am i supposed to do but perceive how they are around each other ajskfdk#i don't know what it MEANS but whatever they are to each other. whether just weird boybesties or more...happy for them lol#just gonna tag it for ppl who filter#cockles#jenneel#jenmisheel#vic.txt
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