#im super glad you can save him tho

[friskyb1tz]

shunsuke hayasaka is my cringefail normalcore special princess and i want to put him in a hydraulic press

[demonic0angel]

(for the dpxdc city spirits)

so im not really familiar with the places in gotham, but i had a couple ideas for ellies place when u said maybe the batmobile could work

so she likes travel right? so the batmobiles actually a good idea but what if she was like gotham underground or something?? like all the trains and travel systems--

though, im not sure if thats even a thing lmfao so i also thought what are the main places i DO know are in gotham? theres arkham, crime alley but then also the place where jason died-- that uhhh funhouse place. and i thought maybe thats cool? bc shes the childish/fun one. and then i got a bit sad cuz maybe jason would wonder why ellie didnt save him but i realised shes the youngest so that explains it? but maybe she also attached herself onto the hope that he lost when he died-- like all that emotion stayed in his death place and so shes still able to embody hope like that one ask mentioned lol

sorry this got super lol but yeh just ideas -w-""

Ooh okay, okay, I’m glad you see my vision with Dani as the Batmobile spirit XD

I’m not too sure on the Funhouse place, since I’m pretty sure that Jason died in Ethiopia? Or at least, that’s the canon that I use, not too sure bc sometimes, he doesn’t even die.

I also like the trains and travel systems idea, but the problem I have is that I want it to be a place where she can interact with the Bats if necessary (like how Danny is all of Gotham and Jazz is all of Crime Alley), so I want it to be a place/object that they frequently see and tbh, I haven’t seen them use the subway a lot. I do like the idea of her being part of a big system that can take her a lot of places tho! (But probably not the sewers bc I think she’d hate it.)

I feel like I’m liking the idea of the Batmobile more and more bc it’s considerably smaller than Gotham City and Crime Alley (kinda showing that she’s a weaker spirit), travels a lot, was a big help to many people (in getting Batman places to help), and was also how Batman first met Jason. I think something fast and freeing like the Batmobile is kinda fun for Dani, since the Batsignal is taken by Duke.

Ty to your suggestions tho, I appreciate it so tysm!! :DD

[where-does-the-heart-lie]

GOD chapter 59 was SO GOOD n i have a lot to say so sending an ask instead of leaving it on the post.

i /love/ when you make things hyper detailed, because your shading techniques are so much fun to sit n stare at and soak in for a while. that being said, the coloring of the wine spilling is what does it for me this time. it still would have been really cool in bw, but not as cool as seeing all the shades of red over the dark blue bg. you did the glass really well too!! I don't think there's a noticeable difference between the wine color inside and outside the glass which is fine bc it's clear, so it RLY makes me appreciate the lighting you have around the glass rim to show the edge in contrast. that tiny little detail makes the image for me. stellar work. i love it

also i do wanna throw in appreciation for the handwritten serif. super well done at first glance it did look like you'd jus typed it out. idk what texture you have on the brush you use for words but it's rly nice to look at up close.

i think the color kinda tipped me off but i waffled bc i couldn't remember if either of his parents spoke in serif font and was a bit daunted to dig thru 50+ chapters to confirm who it was if it didn't turn out to be them. i'm glad i looked at your tags tho haha saved me the trouble. what a way to end the act too!! i read this one on my phone and was scrolling thru the images at full size and after four or so i kept expecting it to cut off. it was a very pleasant surprise to have it keep going, worth the wait to have a longer chapter :)

maybe it jus wasn't meant to be a la sabo getting the letter from sally. it might have to be stelly after all tho there are things that come before then. what a bad time to have one or both of his parents speak to him for the first time that night. oof can't wait for the next act lets goooo

Oh wowww what a beautifully long review!

Thanks so much im glad you like how it turned out, i’m really happy with it, too! Ive never drawn fluids like this before, but i really needed this page to have that extra kick because it was such a short one.

Because i couldnt figure out how to make this moment look slow mo with multiple different panels on one page, I really wanted to make a piece that is like,, frozen in time instead.

A page like this, you can keep on it as long as you’d like. You can make it as slow mo as you want it to be.

The serif lettering is that of outlook’s!

I dont know if you can see the difference between this and my usual handwriting, but it’s supposed to look taller. Higher up. Neater. Cleaner. (Still my handwriting though so like so actually neat or clean, but you know like,,, in comparison to the norm.)

His dad only talks in one scene, and his mother has never said anything yet, so i dont blame you if you couldnt find it. In my. Large repertoire of chapters ive accumulated.

I definitely felt the same about the pages when drawing them. But probably the opposite feeling lol. Mine was more like “ugh i forgot theres so many. How many more of these do I have to get through??? How did i do this the first act ending with 11 pages???”

Im so glad you guys are on the edge of your seats with the letter :)

Thanks for the ask!

[lynn-tged-posting]

tged webtoon ep 173 spoilers and thoughts but it's mostly just me getting tonal whiplash but not in a bad way i actually like this and more below the cut

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sorry i keep doing this (i.e. yelling about the very last panel of the ep instead of going chronologically) but i wanted to show this last panel first,,, idk how many alilloyd fans there are on tged-tumblr (tgedblr?) but i believe they'll be very happy about this panel and probably the next ep or so LOL

she's there for him again YAYYY YAYYYY but also what how did she get here WHAT IS SHE DOING HERE?? HELP??

hopefully whatever happens after this will help alicia and lloyds relationship feel more balanced (rn its like fine but it definitely doesnt carry the same weight as llovier to me, simply bc we dont really see alicia and lloyd relying on each other in the same way javier and lloyd do - idk how else to put this but the "power balance" in their relationship feels different than lloviers if that makes sense, bc so often lloyd is doing things for alicia and that's just It yknow?)

anyway back to the top! we've got some really really nice panels of lloyd i just really like these in general,,, i like when he looks determined and serious and focused,,, it is cute

also explicitly mentioning this while also showing alicia IN the unfrozen time bubble with lloyd DOES make me worry a lil bit,,, what if smth happens,,, does fate still affect them when Most of the time across the world is frozen?? im scared,,, but also excited for more alicia lloyd scenes i can explain why in a bit,,, but also scared,,,

tyrant alicia looks cool as ever tho holy shit im VERY glad that the artist gave her a full set of armor and everything, so often we see fantasy stylized women's armor that really doesn't protect anything at all but alicia's armor is really nice and clean i like it,,,

also another panel of lloyd being cringe and javier being embarrassed,,, they're so stupid i love them . LET LLOYD BE CRINGE LET HIM BE FREE

this bit w artanis and the family was also super duper cute,,, little sillies,,, like treats,,,

seems like everyone will be safe for the time that they are frozen,,, thats good!!! at least i hope i am understanding this correctly

also thinking a LOT about these two panels bc,,, not only bc i really like how he looks in the second panel here, but also,,, well as i was reading this i hadnt realized that lloyd would be going off by HIMSELF to the mountains,,, i thought javier would go with him (bc he always does,,,)

i talked abt this when i reacted on twitter but like. javier asks if he's going by himself and lloyd goes "yeah it's fine" and javier doesn't question it, we don't see him objecting or anything,,, bc of course, lloyd will stay safe. that's what he says, so that's what'll be true. javier is also perfectly aware that lloyd can't be harmed by monsters, he's a sword master and has his singing. so the knight lets him go, bc this is a lloyd with a plan, and javier trusts his lord. but also it seems like javier doesnt really realize what exactly it is that lloyd is subjecting himself too. idk if he realizes that every time lloyd freezes time THATS whats freezing his heart; all the knight knows is that lloyd is dying, but the engineer has a solution so surely it's okay (it's not, lloyd is DYING IN THE COLD). jesus fuck

like i imagine if javier realized what exactly it is thats causing lloyd to Die is the exact stuff he's doing to stop fate and save everyone, he'd object immediately and try to find something else,,, but lloyd you fucking MARTYR u dont even say anything abt it and u GO OFF ALONE IN THE COLD WHAT ARE DOING WHAT ARE YOU COOKING. GOD FUCKING DAMMIT!! MARTYRS ALL OF YOU!!!

also lloyd saying he's happy god fucking dammit. he has a goal and he's close to achieving it and all his loved ones are safe,,, that's probably the best feeling in the world to him that's the reason why he does like everything,,, it's just to protect what he cares about,,, this tiny lil smile i am going to shake him in a box

"lucky! this is perfect" AS HE'S DYING LLOYD YOU. YOUUUU YOU OYUU SHAKES YOU STOPP IT YOU FUCKING M. MARTYR!!!!

why is he like this. well okay i know why but like what the FUCK. i am pelting ten billion stones at him. risking his damn life AGAIN to protect everyone. leaving javier at the estate and not telling him what the deal is so that javier can be protected too bc thats where artanis is,,, all his loved ones in one place to keep them safe I HATE IT HERE /j

DOUBLY LOSING IT AT HIS FIRST THOUGHT, THE MOMENT HE GETS IN TROUBLE, IS TO CALL FOR JAVIER. I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING ELSE TO ADD TO THAT I JUST THINK THAT SAYS SO MUCH ABT THEIR RELATIONSHIP

"ah, im dying! the first thing i think is not how to solve this myself, nor is it of my parents or of my skills, but of my longtime companion who has always been there for me and thus will help me when i call for him! and i think of him immediately!" points accusatory finger LLOVIER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay i was gonna end the post there but i scrolled back up to review and realized i forgot to actually explain why i am excited for more alicia lloyd scenes so that's gonna go here now i guess LMFAOO

i really really hope that alicia and lloyd have a closer, more quiet moment to talk about their respective lives and history with losing loved ones and feeling isolated as a result. i WAS gonna talk abt that in a dedicated alicia post but i guess itll make a cameo here too lol

bc if u think abt it, suho and alicia both went through very very devastating losses. they both lost the lives of the people who cared for them most, and in very very tragic ways (suho's parents committed, and alicia's parents were slaughtered / alicia's brothers put her in a 'kill or be killed' situation). it's really unfortunate, it's life-altering, and it follows you,,, and then the isolation that comes after that makes it all even worse.

of course, we see suho very explicitly going through throes of isolation through endless work, endless school, and the sheer struggle to just survive to the next day by himself, with no family to support him. obviously, we don't see alicia explicitly having this experience, but i think it'd be reasonable to believe that after the death of her family,,, it was just her. she lost her parents and her brothers, and now she's the only one with the magentano name, and you can't exactly have an empty mantle now can you?

she probably didn't really have anyone to talk to about this. probably just a bunch of old coots on that board of nobles, who have to help her with this "being queen" thing, u cant exactly talk abt ur trauma to people who are technically working for u, who care more abt their status in the kingdom than anything else. and at such a young age, too... like yeah she's surrounded by people technically, but how many people around her actually care for HER, and not for her new status as crown princess? and then as queen? like no wonder tyrant alicia comes to be because of a betrayal from kyle, no wonder she's worried abt letting lloyd into her heart. she's probably been worried about betrayal from a loved one all her life bc of what her brothers did,,, that must be so isolating, and lonely.

so yes, i think alicia probably went through a long bout of isolation, too. and i think alicia and lloyd should Talk about it and have a heart to heart and go "jesus fuck we went through it,,, but we have found people we can rely on. and isn't that wonderful,,," and then alilloyd will have a wonderful leg to stand on yay

i WOULD go on longer about alicia in this rant but i wanted to save it for the post i was planning,,, i couldn't help myself this time though, bc it seemed relevant LOL

anyway i'll see u guys next week,,,!!! very curious to see where things go from here,,, pantara arc pulling shenanigans left and right!!!

[homkamiro]

I LOVE THE TF2 MLP AU SM. it gives me sm nostalgia to when i was a kid and i and everyone in the fandom made pony aus of franchises we liked- im so happy cringe is dead and tradition is alive 🥹

ALSO THE INFECTION AU POST. GOOD SHIT;!;!!!!!!!!!! gore and body horror are inseparable from (hopefully only the mature part of) the mlp fandom and i felt so giddy jumping for joy kicking my feet up seeing that it had a resurgence!! Your post of this au with your tf2 ponies was my introduction to it!!! Nature is healinggggg

That post is BOMB. WE GOT: 1) HEAVYMEDIC ANGST. 2) PYRO & ENGIE ANGST. 3) BOOTS & BOMBS ANGST. 4) DADSPY ANGST. 5) SNIPER ANGST. ITS GIVING💅🏽💅🏽💅🏽 and the way the disease spreads differently for all of them is so creative!!!!!! Engie wants to sever the infected body part but cant cus its on his back and he needs medics help for that (and med is way too far gone to do any operation), and scout doesn't want his wings severed even tho that would save him cus he still wants to fly!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

also soldier misinterpreting the request is so good. And pyro wanting to help but not being allowed to cus they'd try to burn engie. Demo drinking himself to death cus he cant handle seeing his friend in the state that he's in. Sniper disappearing cus he wants to be with his parents during this horrible time even tho they have a strained relationship. Spy wanting his son to live through this so much that he's planning to sever his wings himself. And heavyyyyyy. Heavy breaking his heart everyday still taking care of medic knowing he's going to have to kill the love of his life soon. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Anyways sorry for fuckin. Screaming in your asks and basically just repeating what you wrote sgjdjd. I just really love this au (and especially that comic with scout, medic and engie!!!) and the infection au post made me so nostalgic to the early days of the mlp fandom that the adhd went mental and i had to shout about it lol- feel free to not respond to this! Youre awesome! Keep doing you!!!!!!

(also youre really good at drawing gore????? Hello teach me pls)

WHAT A BIG FEEDBACK OHMYGODヽ⁠(⁠(⁠◎⁠д⁠◎⁠)⁠)⁠ゝ

Anyway I'm really super puper glad you liked my au!! I was a little hesitant to post it, since AU in AU sounds weird but I'm glad I thought otherwise - cringe culture should be dead!! Mix your hyperfixations it's good for your health!!!

AND AHHHHGGGGGH You noticed so many details thankyouuu🥺💗💗💗The best thing about this AU is that every ship and brotp can work so well in this story. Engie first helping Medic but then ending up being also infected??? Spy checking up on Engie and making him eat since he's too stressed to take a break??? Demo, Heavy and Pyro comforting each other after loosing their friends??? Spy and Scout both raging on Sniper for leaving like a coward??? Or maybe Heavy, as an earth pony, comforts Scout after he just got his wings amputated??? So many possibilities!!

Don't worry, I love when people are noticing all the details and just get,, really invested into my stuff, it really brings me joy and you made my day so much better!!🥺🥺I feel honestly a little insecure, since my pony designs and thoughts may not be the best, but I'm glad that so many people still like my mlp×tf2 stuff!! It's really endearing to know that finally something I like making is also likable to you!

About gore -- I have no idea😭I love gore but it's a pain to draw properly and scary, you'd need practice and references (I mostly use art references since yknow,,,real photos can make me sick)

[helyiios]

went thru all 36 pages of benthan on ao3 so here’s a fun recap of things i noticed in fics

-ethan can best be described as a puppy dog and is always described as such. always very pouty. very cute. would die if it meant benji could be saved

-once they confess they both say “i love you” to each other a bunch of times, like they can’t stop saying it. noticed a lot of fics did this and it’s really sweet

-SO MANY “there was only one bed” and they’re ALL so good

-ALSO SO MANY “fake dating for mission” and they’re ALSO so good

-that one fic where benji’s a middle school teacher and ethan has a little girl. one of the best fics i read.

-self deprecating benji who doesn’t seem to see his own potential. ethan thinks he’s the most wonderful man in the world

-“i made you a sauté of veggies :)” “ethan im begging just order take out” “it’s not healthy :(“

-“im glad you and ilsa found each other” (ensues 10k of benji being torn abt it even tho ethan isn’t even w ilsa) (benji’s stupid)

-ilsa/jane trying to survive benthans stupidity

-jane and brandt keeping on playing matchmaker

-THAT ONE FIC WHERE JULIAS GETTING MARRIED AND BENJI AND ETHAN HAVE TO PRETEND THEYRE DATING GUYS GO READ IT RN

-ethan being a healthy little freak (he does yoga @ 5am and eats really bland and healthy food)

-julia and ilsa always kissing benji on the cheek

-brandt being a party bro and overall the funniest mf in the imf

-gratuitous descriptions of benji lusting over ethan’s body and vice versa

-ethan losing his fucking MIND in fics where benji has tattoos

-“you’re my best friend benji :)” “(trying to not explode on the spot) that’s nice ethan. you too”

-peepaw always throwing himself in danger and benji finding that super hot but also being worried sick (but it’s also super hot)

-that one fic where benji’s working on The Project and ethan poses as an architect and they fall for each other

-benji having a hard time coping w the ptsd lane left him with

-ethan’s being a world class pro at blowjobs

[temperamentalaquarius]

any thoughts on batman: black mirror? i really enjoyed it (as a non-batfamily fan) but i'm wondering if there is a difference of opinion with people who are actually acquainted with the context behind black mirror, i guess. which parts did you find the strongest + which parts did you find the weakest?

anyways, im a huge fan of your comics-posting (which is both, in the best way, entertaining and insightful). have a great day!

Ahhh thank u!! I'm glad I'm not the only one having fun 😁!!!

Thank you so much for sending this, I loved the dick!bats era and I liked The Black Mirror!!

I thought it was a decent Dick story, and I loved that it had Babs and Tim as the supporting cast. It was good to see them back(mostly) in their 90s early 2000s element.

I thought that the A plot was better than the serial killer B plot-; it had a lot of personal connection for Dick without being about the Graysons and orcas(which are some of the most vicious and borderline cruel predators that terrify me to my core and it was really cool to see them get some use)- even if I didn't find the ending super satisfying.

I thought James was interesting, and his story was more linear but the addition of the Joker into the situation was kind of just...messy and not entirely necessary? It kind of killed it for me. Idk I might just have Joker fatigue. I did like the coloring and a good portion of the art better in that part of the story, tho. I thought the mood they set was really cool and a little scary.

My high points were all (unsurprisingly) character based:

I loved the way Tim saving Dick from his own shit here

Kinda paralleled this scene in NW 96

But more mature. Watching them go from Dick mentoring Tim to them having a much more balanced relationship where Tim can fully have Dick's back has always been super satisfying and seeing it making a come back after their little fallout was cool

I also like the attention paid to the differences in Bruce and Dick's philosophy (specifically here:

) and the difficulty that Batman presents Dick because of it. Part of the appeal of Dick being Batman is the reluctance and the chunk of flesh it takes out of him and I think this story really got the tone of that right. He's making mistakes that he wouldn't normally, he's not sleeping; you can really tell that everything is getting to him. He feels like the walls are closing in on him with no way out (sometimes literally) and it makes the whole story kind of..weary? It's as much man vs man as it is man vs self. Love that many of the action sequences in the book happen in enclosed places that have an unstoppable deadly force converging on him with no way out and how that emphasizes the theme

OH and my absolute favorite analogy for the mindset that dick operates w/ is in this book

And how that works with his parents rules for survival

There's like... a debate on whether Dick plans or if he acts on instinct and I like the way that this breaks it down to: yes, he's planning from the start and if it seems like he isn't it's because that's what he wants you to think- but he understands that leaving space to bob and weave is a part of that process. Ultimate planner that is liable to start behaving erratically as fuck at any moment is such a fun look

Favorite fight was probably the horror forward snap at the auction, with honorarable mentions going to Dick v.s the compactor, Dick v.s. the orca, and of course Dick v.s. The bends

Worst was by far this one:

There is no way he should've been able to waltz into Babs' hideout without her knowing I'm so sorry it's just not realistic, like, that's Barbara Gordon???

[juliusxxxxxx]

hallo.hi.*tap tap*so…um.that's it.im here, just like what i said before,Right?:)

firstly, i must to say im really glad for u to finish this fic.congratulations!u continued to write this for one year and didn't abandon,this is an achievement!

Then,i really like this story how to connect the each characters in it.just like, this thing and that thing looks like totally different, but finally they connect with each other (like Scott knew Pearl and joel knew etho etc. In this fic's set, it is incredible but they just kenw each other and some story happened)maybe the best example i can remember is The Miracles of the Namiya General Store（idk do u read this book before but this is the best just i said.if u dont thats fine actually just let us omit it）so the whole story' s development is in a comfortable rhythm.we meet mumbo, kill hermes then to visit joel.it is reasonable.

What's more,the characterization is really really good.not only included it our mainly couple scar and grian, but it also reflects in others like mumbo,etho,bdubs(although he appeared so late)and joel.Just like,every events happened on them and the way you describe them is really suit on them.

ok its 2am again (why again) let me make it short(not short completely).i wanna know what's the meaning of jimmy's death, actually,the first time i saw this i was really dont understand lol.after i watch the final chapter grian and joel's conversation, i guess the reason is grian just fling and murder one of his best friends who complained with him to go through the rough period to keep himself and especially scar alive??like love makes ppl lost or grian didn't lost he just chose scar.maybe.i really dont know.

And i wanna know more about what was going on before the story,like grian,joel, pearl and Scott or something.i mean,although i can piece them together from ppls conversation,its still not a complete thing in my opinion?but if this is the effect u wanna show that's fine.

This is all,temporary maybe, or this is the end.i really don't know.so ok its 2:30 i must to sleep right now and forgive my broken grammar and spell,something.Eng also is not my first language lol.tbh,i really incredible eng is not yours first and you still can write so talented work.

i really wrote so much didn't i? lol maybe this is my first time to write so much words ljke this.anyway,good night <3

Hi sorry I went to sleep super early yesterday!

Thank you for liking THT first of all! Haha yeah its definitely an achievement isn't it <3 I haven't written anything this long before.

I loved the process of giving the characters connections with each other when I was doing the planning. It made them all feel like real people with lives outside the story of the main pairing. I'm glad you mentioned the works of Keigo Higashiro since I was a fan for many of his works. I haven't read Namiya, tho. Maybe I’ll find the time to read it since I heard it’s a more cozier one comparing to his other works?

For Jimmy’s unfortunate demise, here’s my own interpretation (please feel free to draw your own one! I’m just the author haha):

Yes. The most straightforward answer is, Grian had to kill him to save Scar and himself from Joel. Or it's just what he told himself to justify the murder. He tried to argue and be reasonable with Tim first as how he usually did, but was totally enthralled in rage once Tim started questioning his sanity, which was the one thing that he couldn't face at the point of the story.

Like in a later chapter he confessed the true reason he committed the murder was because Jimmy was pitying him. It was a crime of passion, no matter how he hard tried to justify it other wise. It was only after he had to admit this bitter fact to himself, that's when he had the courage to face the fact he was responsible for his sister's death, too.

Also, a crime of passion just added to the cycle of violence he almost fell into, isn't it. That concept also had some connection to the last scene, when he decided to spare Bdub’s life as he was being reminded what violence could only lead to, which was eating away the connections you built with the world, little by little.

The story before THT—I’ll try to describe it in the form of a timeline.

Before 1932: most of the characters were still kids. Etho and Cleo got married after they met each other in college. Etho was working as an engineer while Cleo stepped into the position of a high-priestess and became highly politically engaged in the brewing conflict.

1932-1941: The bad boys lost their formal homes and were forced to live on their own in the form of a gang. Pearl was fine with it and went alone. Bdub and Scar was adopted by Cleo and formed the Clockers. Cleo stepped into the position of a general. Etho spent most of the years in and out of Atlantis as an operative, gathering information on weaponry during wartime, eventually betraying Cleo as he grew bonds with Tango, Impluse and Skizz. Bdub showed talents in becoming an operative while Scar was an executor for anyone Cleo wasn't so fond of, both Stareusians and Gorgonians. After murdering Cleo near the end of the war, Scar and Bdub fleed to Starseus. At beginning, their goal was to find Etho in seeking of support.

1942-1951: The bad boys were still a gang until the car crash happened. Joel left the gang and moved to Stratosport, met Lizzie and her family. Grian and Jimmy continued to collaborate in Arcford as a thief and a dealer. Gem and Scott both worked at Stratosport PD as colleagues. Gem got a job in the federal agency. Scott continued to work as a detective but moved away from Stratos to Arcford when Joel and Lizzie stepped into power and rendered the formal PD useless. Doc moved to Starseus from a foreign country. Mumbo was Doc’s grad student and got his degree with Doc as his advisor. Realizing Etho’s betrayal was well-planned and he showed no remorse for his action, the brothers tried to find another way of living. Bdub eventually grew tired of the life of violence and decided to pursue a career in art.

Here’s everything I can think of at the moment. Feel free to ask me if something isn't clear!

[notskinnyenoughforestnymph]

Looking for a friend to restrict with <3

Unnecessary Story time!

So, I used to be small a couple years ago... actually no it was like last ish year. December of 2023 I dropped so much because my eldest sister was getting married. I'm 5'8 and was around 125-130 pounds at the time. After that I started college and I thought "oh... maybe I recovered... I stopped sh-ing and everything. I broke up with my toxic ex and met this super nice amazing guy. I love him a lot if you can tell. But he has a thing for chubby girls.. so he fed me all the food I never got to eat and made me feel loved regardless... so obviously I gained a bit...not just a bit... I was around 160 when I first started my journey and I dropped to 125 in around a month and a half... and I kept it off for like I want to say 4-5 years. A month ago, I met an old friend from when I first lost weight and I reminded me of how I felt back then... I felt hot. Now... I feel loved but not hot. After that I couldn't stop feeling like a cow, I realized that all the clothes I loved didn't fit anymore and that I wasn't small anymore. I weighed myself and the scale flew to 177.

Something in me snapped, I didn't know what to do I felt like shit but I couldn't not eat. Me and my boyfriend live together and he's like a huge gym/fitness freak. He goes to lift like everyday for 3 hours and I join him. I started eating less and working out more... he didn't seem to mind at first but then he started asking questions.

But before I could find answers for them, I was saved. It is summer break and his parents asked him to come back home ( he's an international student). I also came back home to my parents. But when I got home it wasn't a great greeting. My parents immediately let me know that I got fat. "You were so skinny before when u went to college what happened? Don't people lose weight when they go to college? Your pants look so tight."

That was all the motivation I needed. I have been on and off fasts and if I do eat its only around 500cal a day. I work out as much as I can.

This morning my weight was 163. I glad I dropped but not happy yet. I hope I can get through this. It's a bit hard since my boyfriend calls and wants to eat with me... I told him I feel ugly and I want to diet. He wasn't happy at first he didn't want me to get too skinny but he came around and is a bit supportive now. He doesn't know I'm fasting tho.

I have a internship that needs me to use the computer a lot and it's been giving me a headache. Especially with the fast. Last time I did this it was like 6 years ago. Im a bit older now, I don't know if its gonna work the same but I'm trying.

I love watching those tw ed videos on youtube they really help get me through my thoughts.

Thanks for going through that if you did. I want to document my journey this time. Cuz last time... i was all alone and meanspo hit hard. ( I was bullied a lot for being chubby when I was little till like highschool ).

Meanspo isn't hitting this time other than the fact that I hate myself lol.

if there are any older ppl (20 - 24) here I'd love to find a friend to restrict with.

Looking forward to being hot again<3

[tumblingclockwork]

BESTIE can you tell me more about your lovely lady Jo I like her a lot....

IM SOOOOOO FUCKING GLAD YOU ASKED so she’s like technically an SCP OC tho we’re not suuuper connected to that universe it’s more of a vessel to tell our story but she’s this middle aged lesbian who is PAST her prime. She never had a prime. This is a cringe woman. She’s like on the millennial gen x cusp and it’s like painfully obvious. She is not a cool woman. She hasn’t even really talked to a girl other than her sister since high school. She’s got no friends. She works a minimum wage job and then goes home to her little house she took from her elderly mom after her mom got moved to 24/7 care (Jo doesn’t visit her btw)

And then one day she wakes up with a ton of weird symptoms. They persist for weeks. She goes to a doctor. They have her take a pregnancy test even though she tries to explain to them she can’t Possibly be pregnant. It comes back positive. She takes several more. She is super pregnant. She panics. She assumes the worst. She cannot fathom how this could have happened. More tests are done. She gets an ultrasound done. There’s no baby. Every pregnancy test comes back positive. She experiences every symptom of pregnancy. Her body is reacting as if there is a baby. But there’s just no baby. Her womb is empty.

For a really long time she tries to find an answer. Doctors don’t take her seriously. They assume she has an extreme case of Pseudocyesis. They blame it on her parental problems. She sees therapists. Nothing helps, and she continues to appear more and more pregnant until her body stops at around the 7th month mark.

Eventually she gives up and for Four Years she exists in a body that is 7 months pregnant until eventually her case gets brought to a doctor who has ties to the SCP foundation and they immediately clock her as something anomalous. The foundation gets involved.

The SCP foundation sends in Agent Ainsley ( @ericka-the-worm ‘s character, If you were wondering) to pick her up. He’s a high level agent in the foundation. He’s well trusted to do an easy job like this. Except Ainsely has just come back from forced leave after his spouse, another agent at the foundation, was killed by an SCP. He’s freshly traumatized and his grief has made him angry. The sound of a lamp crashing on the ground when he breaks into her home sends him into a full on PTSD induced panic attack which he believes was not just a sign that he wasn’t ready to come back to work, but instead a mental attack from Jo, who he believes is a far more dangerous SCP than she’s letting on and able to manipulate his mind.

The foundation believes Ainsley and puts Jo in maximum containment. She’s left unattended for days. The isolation drives her crazy. She has been abducted from her home with no explanation and now sits in a silent white room every second of the day. She tries her best to stay sane but it’s near impossible. She deals with constant hallucinations and delusions. That’s when a scientist is assigned to her case. Doctor Zephyr Salem ( @kennydennys )

Dr Salem is driven by only one thing: knowledge. They learn very quickly that Ainsley’s report of Jo wasn’t accurate. And they are very easily attached to Jo for how interesting she is, both as an SCP, and as a human woman who has been driven out of her mind.

Jo IMMEDIATELY attaches to Salem as the only person who she’s in contact with. Finally being able to talk to another person and have a connection to the outside world, she relies on them, and believes them completely when they say they want to help her with her condition and eventually free her from containment.

Jo feels that she’s already been saved by Salem, because she finally has someone to talk to after being in isolation for so long. But the SCP foundation is Salem’s place of work, and Salem has to clock out eventually. They can’t stay with her all the time, and she still spends most of her time completely alone. She continues to get worse. Salem tells Jo that things won’t be like this forever, and she’ll get to leave some day. But in reality Salem has no real intention of ever letting their most interesting case yet leave them.

[puhpandas]

I feel like you are one of the few people that treat Gregorys charcater serious and respect because many people treat him like some dumbass gremlin jerk just to point and laugh at or get angry at.

You make him like he’s smart, calculated, brave, serious, and concerned for others safety as he was shown in SB with Freddy and Vanessa and also Cassie in ruin because Gregory was being concerned for Cassie’s safety while he’s was talking to her through the staff bot in Roxy’s raceway chapter (rare dialogue).

I’m so glad I found your ttb fic back when you uploaded the chapter of Gregory celebrating Evan’s birthday while also Gregory kicking Michael’s ass, you and other people’s Gregory fics, and your art because if I didn’t then I’ll probably be in despair and crazy of the constant Gregory being a complete joke and being stupid.

If help wanted 2 or a future FNAF steel wool game makes Gregory serious and how he should be then I hope I get to see more Gregory art and fics where he is not a dumbass but still makes mistakes that can be solved by himself.

im super glad i could be a breath of fresh air for you lol. i really try to characterize him how he actually acts in game (even tho we dont have a lot) and what morals etc he holds himself by. all we've seen is how he tries to help people and not offer mercy to those who dont deserve it but that doesnt mean hes evil. he works to save and help and be kind to people and thats like. all we canonically know about him lol. like he draws, and he comforted cassie when she cried on her birthday, and he saved vanessa from glitchtrap so like. idk. two instances where one he isnt even at fault or wrong for (hurting the glamrocks (gregory did not cause the pizzaplex to end up abandoned)) and the other theres a huge chance it was not even him who did it (elevator crash) and you take those as him being a jerk who only cares about himself it its like are we watching the same game rn.

[olisephaa]

Arcane act 3 spoilers under the cut. Just ramblings to get my thoughts out until my friends catch up

Im somewhat conflicted abt the ending. The character development, especially of jinx was really well done imo. In season 1, her personality felt very unstable (obviously) and I didn't know how they would make her an actual character but they really did. She feels solid, fully rounded. The sisters together was so nice. Though the death at the end? Kinda unnecessary imo. Don't like the trope of "villain" redeem themselves through heroic act that leads to death.

With viktor, I'm SO GLAD he didn't stay that kind of machine herald. I would've flipped my shit if that became canon. He had been so different from his original personality and felt so stripped of agency in season 2, that I would've been super mad. The organic metal type deal was a fun idea, but man, the hexclaw not really being one at all?? Just like, a third arm that probably only lol players connect to the hexclaw? Kinda whack. The cool saviour design is nice and all, but it didn't really feel like Viktor doing it at all. And him implied to go through hundreds of time lines where he saves Jayce, what, like suddenly coming to his senses and becoming a mage?? How does that make sense? He can't retain his memory all the time if he's truly reliving these events (bc then he wouldn't make some mistakes in the first place) so.. What, he blips in like Ekko into a parallel universe? Idk it felt weird that it's Viktor who's the mysterious mage from season 1

Related but on a more positive note, I'm insane about Jayce being the one to remind Viktor of his humanity. The one constant Viktor can't rationalise away. The doomed yaoi fighting each other turning to embracing in the astral plane to save the world? Incredible. Jayce would love Viktor if he was a worm, as long as he was still Viktor. I genuinely expected him to drop an "I love you" or something on the nose like that, but ig their whole thing is "partners". Also the floating around a fixed point together, the parallel to their very first success with hextech mirroring their last, in the end with them finally reaching each other? We love to see it. Even if it's barely explained

The Caitlyn and Mel vs Ambessa fight was so cool. I couldn't stop myself from making jokes tho like "the botlane duo vs the Toplane otp" bc. With Mel having shields and having been hinted at that she'll be a champion too, it'd be cool if she's a support mage. I'd love another one for my arsenal. I don't quite get her whole storyline with the black rose and the blood or whatever, but that one is left mystical enough that I can appreciate what we got.

Sevika being on the council at the end was Super cool (ZAUN RIGHTS) but also leaves me with way more questions. She's the only Zaunite on the council, and as we can tell still not trusted by a lot of them. I don't know how that would work out, but ig it's a good first step?

NO FR WHERE THE FUCK DID VIKTOR AND JAYCE GO?????

The rest are shorter thoughts, more random

Also SWAIN'S RAVEN CAMEO AT THE END local Swain Main overjoyed

I can't believe Vi and Cait fucked in a prison cell, hours (?) after Vi went through Another traumatic event. Godspeed lesbians

Orianna real!!!! I don't get How Singed did it but the cameo was nice

I do love this new jinx. The characterisation is so nice. The Arcane champs deserved a more rounded character take and I think by and large they got it (we ignore Viktor's weird corruption arc)

Anyway. I hope the viktor VGU won't make Arcane machine herald the base canon bc he sucks. Would make a cool skin tho.

[doegirldaydreamer]

Diary entry #1 - 20/01/25

Sooo first diary entry yaaayy!! Also we dont talk about the fact I’m writing this the day after I was procrastinating okay.

Anyways, I maaayyybbee took notes about today… def weirdo stuff but honestly i think it kept me kinda, like.. anchored in reality?? Sorta?? Not in a mentally ill way just in a sorta locking in (and not just saying it for once..) way?? I dunno /ᐠ - ˕ -マ Ⳋ

Anyways anyways!! About today. Firstly, I took a bath w this really cute shower gel i got gifted and the scent sorta stuck! It’s like a strawberry sweets scent and I actually love it sm i would acc drink it if I could. The scent doesn’t really stay after tho which really sucks. Like pls I want to smell sickeningly sweet let me liiiiivvvveee </3

But then I had to go to school.. which acc isn’t that bad anymore, js annoying. Glad I’m not as terrified of it anymore tho! But I did have history first which is kinda boring. I daydreamed most of the way thru it. And thinking about my spiderman box set (ofc the amazing spiderman ones) otw bc andrew garfield save me.. anyways there was this kid I’ll call A who was being annoying as usual. He kinda acts like those annoying loud kids if they were actually never funny. Also my teacher (who I love she’s so pretty) made a kid with a lisp or like speech impediment say this acronym that was like ‘kitchen, church, children’ (bc we’re learning about Germany during WW2 and uh.. you know who!) and i felt really bad like let him live pls!

Okok then second which is always english. I actually love my english teacher so obvi it was nice. She made a joke about this show that my dad watches (that i learned the intro to when i was little to impress him giggle) and i was mentally like ‘omg u get me’. Also this other loud kid (I’ll call him Mz) was being loud as usual.. also he called something a device instead of a tablet and it’s stupid but it did kinda sound like he was talking about a b.mb or something. And we were doing like a mock paper about g^ng v!.lence (yes censored i dont trust tumblr) and it was rlly rlly depressing. I feel rlly bad for people who get stuck in that stuff. But on the good side i was daydreaming and i caught myself literally like smiling outloud or whatever bc i was thinking about her (the girl who has a whole tag on my blog.) and AHH. But then my headteacher (who i hate bc he’s an actual bigot) walked past and ruined it.. sad </3

Anyways then we had break which was chill bc I’m sat w my amazing friends. They were talking about their siblings being super annoying and like.. incapable of doing stuff themselves at their grown ages. Like one of their siblings (whos like EIGHT) was waiting for his mum to put toothpaste on his toothbrush. My other friend’s literally TWO year old little sister (who i adore shes such a sweet little thing) can do that by herself. Idk I’m kinda grateful i dont have siblings. Me and one of my friends also talked abt the higher maths paper we got given bc OH MY GOD it destroyed me. Thought I knew gifted kid burnout until i saw that paper gosh. My friend did mention this one shop tho that apparently has a lot of cute self care stuff (which i didnt expect bc it feels like a sorta home improvement store to me but a win is a win) and the urges to spend money are coming back.. oh also they mentioned not liking 1984.. like i litro asked for it for christmas i love that book. Animal farm is more eh to me but dont diss my tastes ok </3

Giggles anyways now period 3 whiiich was biology. It’s kinda awkward now bc im like sat in the middle of 4 girls in a friendgroup but ive gotten mostly used to it. Theyre pretty blunt but not mean, im just sensitive.. the girl next to me tho (ill call her L) had her hair done different and it was really pretty. She also drew a smiley face in my book and i drew one in hers giggle. Omgg also my throat kept making this weird noise whenever i swallowed and it only happens in that class and it actually makes me feel like im devolving. Also also i was mentally blasting Doechii in my head in lesson bc honestly i love her rn. Oh also i think the girls in the friendgroup have beef with someone else in my class?? Like they were passing notes abt it and honestlt i got a little scared they were about me for a second but ive got better at reminding myself that like.. not everythings about me in an anxiety way yanno? But anyways when L got the note she looked at a girl infront and said gave her friend a look so I think they have drama? And the girl she looked at seemed kinda stressed and the teacher got onto her bc she was like ripping her book bc she wanted to get rid of a mistake and its like. Damn were both perfectionists forgot humans are fundamentally interconnected. Omg also the loud kid (Mz) actually spoke to her which is suprising bc he never really talks to anyone. For a sec i was kinda scared shed like jump him or sumet but she just snapped at him (which tbh i cant blame her for the guy acts like a teachers pet and it is really annoying sometimes).

Now period four!! Which i was excited for bc i got to use my phone.. which is harder now bc they changed seating plans sigh. Anyways my usual teacher wasnt in bc i think she’s like getting replaced with a new teacher, which i think is bc she was sorta volunteering here and this new lady is acc working. Honestly this feels weird to say but i kinda miss her.. anyways the day acc went really fast which i kinda think was maybe because the notes?? But either way i was still stressing about last period because i had an exam (one of the like multiple lesson ones) that im really not confident with because like i didnt study the right stuff.

Anyways lunch was mostly fine. We were inside because it was raining but we litro just yapped. Also this group of girls in like a year or two below us came and stood behind us which kinda freaked me because like. Theyre giving popular girls and the younger years arent scared of us anymore </3 Like i thought when i got to this year id get to scare the lower years a little but no! Theyre kinda brainrotted and def feral. I tried i guess idk giggle

Aaannnnffd now last period and the exam. Not much to say bc like.. obvi it was an exam. My friend gave me an earphone tho so we listened to some music. And i really didnt get too much done bc again i didnt study the right stuff so i was a bit stuck. I got some stuff down tho and im gonna fact check it next lesson. I also wanted to stay after school to finish but there wasnt much point bc.. i didnt have anything to write about.. but i have revised it more now so i hope ill have actually something to write about next lesson. Its just hard bc its really like repetitive info and i get it mixed up. But ive studied what i can so i just gotta trust i can do this!!

Aaanndndnd now afterschool.. tbh i never have much to say abt this. I revised the exam stuff which.. honestly wasnt that productive bc i still get stuff mixed up but thatll get better with practice. Also i feel bad bc i got a little frustrated with my mum who was helping me and its like.. pls shut up shes literally helping u dont be mean. Anyways yeah otherwise i just scrolled tumblr and read some fanfic. I tend to get stuck in this hole afterschool bc i just feel too tired to do anything else. I cant wait to leave school so i can try my best to fix that. Why i think id actually do better without school lol. After i get a proper routine.. but honestlt a job would kinda help with that bc i neeeed structure so.. im not dreading it that much giggle. Also excited to spoil my friends and family when im stacked ofc >(ভ⤙ ভ )<

Giggle fr today was good! Honestly life is feeling good rn (touchwood bc im terrified of jinxing it..). Anyways, thats all, ty for listenijg to me yap giggle. Also im posting this right before i get to school so please blow this up ily all

Rue, signing out 𓂃۶ৎ

[oshidorifuufu]

psst you are given permission to rant about your oshis in the answer to this ask!!!! (*´∀｀*) i wanna hear all about them!!!!!

THANK YOU SM I LOVE YOUU💖💖💖💖

I LOVE IZURU SO MUCH. IF YOU LOOK AT MY HAPPY TAG I THINK MOST IF NOT ALL THE POSTS R ABOUT IZURU 😭

hes cute, hes entertaining, he’s adorable, HIS ENGLISH is adorable, HES SO GOOD AT GUITAR!!!! AND SINGING!!! HIS AISHITE COVER OMG!!! AND I WANT HIS GOODS SO BAD!!!! HES INSPIRED ME TO PICK UP THE GUITAR AGAIN!!! and im so HAPPY because my guitar looks similar to the guitar in his model 🥺🥺

THIS HAD GOT TO BE ONE OF MY FAV IZURU CLIPS!!! HES SO CUTE!!!! https://youtu.be/wpK7_mhSMBo?si=lCmerRYcasUMeF7T (hakka english one)

OTHER FUN ONES: https://youtu.be/xN7qz89gSgw?si=Q67ns5T3kFj0modd , https://youtu.be/nUZZ5ylrU44?si=Tf-chkNQnNdQMkjk

AS I WRITE THIS i am listening to this song on loop https://youtu.be/PQyXsCV5ZWQ?si=RxLzwNRSDVf6vnFS LEARNING ABOUT THIS SONG WAS THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME ALL YEAR AND YOU NEED TO HEAR IT TOO

in general its not JUST izuru that i love. I LOVE ALL THE HOLOSTARS!!!!! HANASAKI MIYABI IS MY OSHI TOO AND ASTEL LEDA AND KISHIDO TENMA MIGHT BECOME OSHI’S TOO!! AFGH BUT I ALSO LOVE ROBERU!! THIS SONG CHEERS ME UP SO MUCH ITS GOTTEN ME OUT OF DEPRESSIVE RUTS I!!! LOVE!!! IT!!!!!!!

(this roberu clip is so cute hehe) https://youtu.be/C5mH835w0LY?si=9niBq8V1enujoer7

WAHHHHHH IZURUS PART CAME ON IN THE SONG I LOVE HIM I LOVECHIM ITS SO GOOD WAHHH

RN IZURU IS MY KAMI OSHI AS YOU CAN PROBABLY TELL. BUT THE OTHERS R HOLOSTARS IN GENERAL, HANASAKI MIYABI, KANAE AND MEME MASHIRO!!!!!!!

HANASAKI MIYABI IS SO ADORABLE AND THIS MAY SOUND MEAN BUT I FIND THE FACT HES NOT THE BEST AS SINGING SO ADORABLE 😭 HES SUCH AN ADORABLE LITTLE FLOWER BOY!!!!!!!!! I WANNA BE AS CUTE AS HIMMM 😭 AND HIS 出かけよう SERIES IS SO FUN TO WATCH!! ITS GOT PRETTY SIMPLE JAPANESE AND THE EDITING IS SO CUTEE EHAHAHHEHAHAH

NEXT IS KANAE!!! KANAE ISNT FROM HOLOLIVE BUT NIJISANJI. (why am i talking in all caps oopsies???) HES SUPER MISCHEVIOUS BUT ALSO SUPER KIND!!!! AND FUNNY!!!!! ESPECIALLY IN CHRONIOR ALONGSIDE KUZUHA!!!!

MY FAV KNAE CLIPS/VIDEOS:

https://youtu.be/l7lfYjVRz6A?si=sP7qDRgI5pG2tqLv , https://youtu.be/N5TkXb9F4dQ?si=fg3ciRwAEm1hRjTc , https://youtu.be/kXyzE01wtIE?si=W1NZ5gF7eKj8ic61

I WATCHED A STREAM HIM LIKE LAST MONTH THAT WAS FUCKING 18 HOURS LONG!!!!! FROM SM LIKE 6PM TO 12PM JPN TIME!!!! KANAE IS CRAZY COMMITED LIKE 😭 THERE WERE PPL HAVING DINNER, GOING TO BED, WAKING UP, EATING BREAKFAST, GOING TO WORK, TAKING THEIR LUNCH BREAK AND BRO WAS STILL STREAMINGFG?????

i was so glad to be there live…

IN THE SECOND CLIP SPECIFICALLY, I WAS SO SURPRISED THAT HE COULD JUST DRIVE OFF LIKE THAT 😭 it probably sounds weird but i always find myself clinging to people on online games like that!?!??!? i get so upset if they leave me -w- is that a bpd thing or me just being weird

HES SO CHILL AND NORMAL AND FUNNY AND WHAAA??? I WANNA BE LIKE HIM!!!! (except im too mentally ill for that)

I HAVE SO MUCH FANART OF HIM SAVED ON PINTEREST,,,,,,,,,

OK NEXT IS MEME MASHIRO!!!! HES ALSO FROM NIJISANJI!!!!

THIS GUY HAS ONE OF MY FAVORITE COVERS OF ALL TIME THAT EVERYONE WHO CARES ABOUT LISTENING TO GOOD MUSIC NEEDS TO LISTEN TO: https://youtu.be/m79OrSy03rs?si=LCjVTRqUymGs50R0

HIS LORE IS BASED OFF THIS SONG!! and even outside of his lore, he actually has a pretty depressing background, he’s talked somewhat abt his toxic family, being bullied by teachers, etcetc, which makes him feel really real and relatable. im so happy that he gets to be happy doing this now!!! >_<

he mostly does horror streams!! even tho i cant handle horror they’re pretty fun hehe

TUMBLR WONT LET ME POST ANY MORE VIDEO LINKS BUT I WILL REBLOG THIS AND FOLLOW UP

ONE OF MY FAV MASHIRO CLIPS ^

im kind of hyperfixated on these guys rn especially holostars >_< they make me so happy and i will absolutely fucking BAWL my eyes out whenever any of them inevitably graduate (quit streaming)

[horrorknife]

hi! its the bastard from earlier, you're plaguing me with visions

COMPARING THEM TO PREY ANIMALS !?!?!!! I LOVE PREY ANIMAL COMPARISONS YOU HAVE NO IDEA !!!!! I'm putting these 2 under a microscope and chewing on the slides

YOU R SO SO RIGHT !!! Hoffman's need for direction is something I will never shut up about,, even if Adam can't directly give instructions (personally I see him following along as much as the next guy) he would be such a good anchor. GOD !!!

old man cutting up apples imagery save me. I know you probably didn't mean it literally but that domesticity is nice 2 me and oh my god aughhhh

New dynamic to rot my brain I guess. need to draw about it... pawing uselessly at my drawing tablet....

I have this like, idea in my head that Adam offers his cigarettes to people whenever he has spares. he gets denied like 90% of the time and most of it is just habit from when he hung around more people who DID smoke (I can't see most of the Jigsaw crew smoking) but do you think Hoffman would join in??? or would he just let him exist like that?? would he start hating it but grow more favorable to, at the very least, the smell (association and all)

like whenever I think of Lawrence / Adam I always see Lawrence as not completely attempting to cut the habit out but definitely making an effort to lower it. Also very vividly see Lawrence smoking once in a blue moon when shit gets rough because he needs the edge off and something something associations. I'm just curious how you view Hoffman in Adam's relationship to that. Hoffman has his own issues with substance abuse (drinking relentlessly and all) so like. lots to think on!

going to you like you're the end all with these two (you are in my head sorry this can't be undone. you answered a single ask now I'm your problem)

HIIIII im so glad to see you back!! <33

I LOVE THE PREY ANIMAL THING...i think all jigsquad members are inherently prey animals (that trait never leaves u even after ur test) but adam and hoffman exhibit it the most i htink........i love the prey animal thing idk i just. thats always the wording ive used for it thats always the comparison ive made...i think it actually started w adam for me lol because he's SO prey animal in like the whole of saw 2004. scared fighting back biting thrashing doing all he can to live...

YES you get itttt! adam is VERY much a follower and not the orders guy. hes very wallflower/voyeur/watcher/etc. that doesnt mean he cant give hoffman direction tho! all hoffman needs is to feel like hes in control + be nudged into a lane. and i think adam is perfect for that bc he has that innate vengeful streak hoffman does i fully believe this. (adams characterization is VERY specific to me and im extremely picky with it bc i have done so much personal/rp writing building up of him and SO MUCH character analysis...............akjfngdkjfngjf character analysis is like. one of my special interests)

i would love to see your art and ideas oh my god. please . Please. also i am thinking about drawing the apple cutting metaphor cuz........i kind of got super attached to it as soon as i typed it LOL i have such a clear image in my mind.......

I LOVE THAT HC!! i have a similar one ahaha except i think he's a consistent Smoke Bummer. i think hoffman smokes also, and i think them taking smoke breaks together is so..............Yeah........i dont think hoffman minds it at all. actually i think he probably has a tendency to chainsmoke too. i agree about lawrence as well!! i actually just drew a pic of chainshipping smoking together :-) lawrence would def try to get adam to cut back but he's susceptible to it because i think it's also a way for them to bond and manage THEIR horrible mess of a relationship too. often times adam has to step up to lawrence's playing field but i hardly ever see people putting lawrence on adam's? and i think that's so much more impactful for their dynamic, bc lawrence Doesn't usually want to get on adam's level to understand him bc hes stubborn and Has To Be Right. for adam that would be huge because everyone in his life has treated him like shit forever and he doesn't think lawrence will do any differently, but if lawrence were to be the one extending the branch? Hoo Boy. yeah.

I REALLY HOPE YOU COME OFF ANON I WOULD LOVE TO DM ABOUT THIS STUFF!!! GENUINELY!!!! PLEASE TALK TO ME i love talkign about my special interests with people!!!!!!!!!!

[analogwriting]

tumblr is NOT letting me comment on your new post so i have to put my thoughts here. or my brain will explode probably

FIRST cora is SO adorable. hes all clumsy and hes got a little crushh on the pretty doctor he keeps running into😏😏 loving the horrible awful super awkward interactions between them<3 its giving me life bc thats just so real. cora is me when i was in middle school fr. loving that dynamic it makes me cringe so hard in the best way. cant wait for him to find out y/n saved his son... mmm gonna be either super wholesome or super awkward. either way ill love it

SECOND crocodile??? daddy dilf??? hes so rude and pretentious i want to [redacted]. anyways!! very excited to see how that plot line plays out. hoping for action!!! and adventure!!! and so much angst!!! oh god im so excited for the angst!!!

THIRD dont think i didn't see that little sentence about the devilish gleam in Laws eyes! matchmaker Law?!? he knows?!? i would love him for it. his daddyyyy gottaaa crushhh on Laws boss and Law knowss itttt. very exciting stuff. hoping and praying for another heartfelt moment between y/n and Law. bc i love him.

okay!! thats all my thoughts! love commenting on ur works and idk why!! i get nervous to comment on posts a lot but not you!! loving it. lovingn YOU. very excited to see what your brain comes up with next 😏🫶🤞🫣😼

first of all, homophobic of tumblr. second, YESSS BRING IT 😈

bro i be cringing when I write it. he's just cringefail wife and i love him for it frfr ✋ (but if you think about it, doctor technically has TWO secrets from him. which one will he find out first?? 🤨🤨🤨)

EHEHEHEH i actually didn't originally plan for croc but he kinda just butted his way into things as he does sooo ✋😈 im also curious to see how it'll play out bc we already running off the rails of my poor outline that didn't live to one chapter honestly. (rest in peace)

EHEEHHEEHHE 😈😈😈 idk what sentence you're talking about whaaaat *bats eyelashes*

I love getting your comments!! they always make me grin like an idiot frfr. I can feel the unhinged excitement. I'm glad you can feel comfy commenting tho bc I love it!!

this is an actual candid photo of me reading comments n shit frfr