#im still sick and its annoying

[anonymouscheeses]

They are everything to me.

[sualne]

you won't fucking believe what im working on again

[red-eft]

the fact that i immediately landed an awesome job right out from graduation but then got covid in august and now my brain doesn't work right and i might lose my job because of it . there's a funny joke in here somewhere maybe

[sodrippy]

one of these days i need the full story of your dnd mishap

😭😭😭 please

the short story is our party had three people (2 players + DM) who thought we were playing a fun friendly magical campaign and two people who wanted to recreate a critical role campaign amongst themselves...i think if youre familiar w cr you might immediately see the issue there.

long story is people put WAY way too much personal shit into their characters and almost immediately started taking the actions of characters as genuine irl slights and like. two sessions in had already lost sight of the difference between the pc and the player.

oh shit this got really long im sorry i dont think you care This much but i havent thought about it in a while and it bewilders me every time-

SO i was playing a cunty rogue and had TOLD everyone 'hey she is probably gonna clash w the party at first, but she'll warm up to everyone really fast, so dont worry about that' like it was clearly in the spirit of building a realistic character who had her own hangups etc. which i assumed the others would understand bc they'd done the same. plus is it not boring and unreal asf if a bunch of strangers meet after a murder of someone close to them and all just get along immediately w no suspicions or secrecy? cmon man.

and yet. the two cr-people got really weird about my pirate character stealing (???) and sincerely pulled the dm aside to express their concerns about the 'level of violence being enacted' and asked that we all try to be aware of what class of people we did crimes against. like. they wanted me to stop stealing from the 99% and ask everyone if they were rich before i picked their pocket ig. ALL THE WHILE. ONE OF THE OFFENDING PCS WAS IN THE MAFIA?????? LIKE. DIRECTLY EMBEDDED IN THE MAFIA THAT RAN THE TOWN.

i suppose that pc was off the hook bc he did possess the elf cock that the other guy wanted so bad, so. love won. i guess.

anyway they ended up taking hours out of our sessions to just dialogue-rp about slowly falling in love in a complex way or something. except then the non-elf player was like 'actually, dm, can you give me a love interest npc i need to add more depth to my character.' or smth, to which our dm lovingly crafted a beautiful working class hero of a guy. which the pc proceeded to hard reject. what was the point of any of this? we may never know<3

need to be clear as well this was all happening over discord bc we all live in different timezones, my very close friend was up at 2AM for this bullshit every week. AND he didnt even KNOW these other people very well, but suddenly theyre finding fault w not just his character but him as a PERSON? i just rmrd they accused him of like.....negatively influencing me??? like. MORALLY???? brother we have been friends for 10 years you are nothing to us you dont know us like that lol.

but they did REALLY really hate my character, which eventually made me feel like shit all the time bc like. obviously im putting work into her, its a creative construction and to have it railed against that badly is not fun. so i said ok you know what, ill just make a new character, hopefully thatll keep the peace and we can salvage this.

so i pitch a new character and oh they LOVE her. they fucking love her concept. which was so.........the first character was a lot easier for me to play bc she was a little more like me, and this character was specifically the opposite....how am i meant to take that reaction, yknow

which also reminds me: the original pirate rogue i played was a tiefling (yeah yeah gay stereotype i know. im not subtle or original, whatever) and there was a complaint (made only half-jokingly, ykwim) that she was too white.

shes not even HUMAN what the fuck do you mean shes too WHITE. IM not white that should imbue any character i create w an inherent not-whiteness. but even still, again, she is half sea creature. shes not. human. to be assigned a race like that....hello??

anyway so these two cr-rp players eventually blocked me and my friend on tumblr without saying anything, and got confused when we found out and said 'yeah ok we dont wanna play dnd with some guy who has blocked us on other social media' as if WE were the weirdos. like they saw no problem w continuing this disastrous campaign as long as they got their mandatory monologue time.

the worst part is my dm made SUCH a stunning campaign and world and it was so so so fun outside of this mess, i still feel really bad they never got to realise the world fully. plus my character had a sickass backstory thing where she was like. slowly unlocking latent magic the longer she spent underwater bc her demon parent was abyssal and stuff. which is whatever but the sick part is she was developing SCALES and maybe GILLS. in like a nasty gorey way it was gonna be so cool. but noooo lets talk about strange morality and your lameass god for 1.5 hrs. at 11pm on a friday.

[icewindandboringhorror]

"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"

I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming

[atlas-affogato]

Annoyed aromantic rant, vent, ramble, whatever you want to call it

I'm not going to put this in any tags because I am very aware that this is my own experience and not a common experience, but like, I don't understand when other aromantic people are so sad about not being in committed relationships or their friendships not being seen as "as important" as romantic relationships.

Like, I don't know, I'm just very aware of the cultural importance of romance and marriage and stuff like that, and yeah I guess it kind of sucks that a lot of things like tax benefits and child custody and next of kin are kept behind these walls of romantic relationships and marriages and stuff. Like yeah that does suck. But when people complain that they will never matter to someone as much as that person's partner, I just feel like saying "well what did you expect?" For a lot of people, their romantic partner is the closest person to them, their best friend and confidant and the person who knows them best, so of course that's the most important person in their life. For a lot of people a romantic tie is the closest relationship they can form. I'm not saying that's everyone, even romantic inclined people have more important relationships to them, but I don't understand being upset about someone else having a bond that they consider the Most Important in their life.

It just feels like at a certain point you have to find people who don't put romantic ties above platonic and familial ones. People interested in romance who don't put romance on top definitely do exist, you just have to find them. I don’t know how common they are because of the importance romance plays in a lot of people's lives, but I know those people exist, I've spoken to and befriended people like that. They exist, you just have to find them.

When people go all "I'll never be the most important person in someone's life" "I'll always be left behind, abandoned by friends for their romantic relationships" it feels very "woe is me." Like sorry man maybe you should just be friends with people who view romance and friendships in a way you do too.

And while I'm on the topic, I do not understand wanting to be the most important person in someone's life. All this talk about queer platonic partnerships, and being exclusive within them, or having qpps you live with, its just like....I don't want any commitment that intense. It feels like a lot of people have just replaced a romantic relationship with that and called it a different name while changing nothing. I dont want a committed relationship, I don't want to live with someone, I don't want to be exclusive, I don't want to marry someone, that's like the whole point of me being aromantic. Thats literally just being in a relationship, doesn't matter if you change the name, its the same thing to me. "Marry your friend for the tax benefits!" I would rather eat drywall.

(A thousand disclaimers that this is my experience and my feelings and my preferences and you can use whatever label or relationship label you want and I'm not the label police you can do whatever the hell you want, I do not care. This is just my two cents on my feelings.)

[todayisafridaynight]

We rlly don’t need another majima game 😭 please give other characters a chance he already had the spotlight in 0😔

lord if i speak on goro majima.

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

[soultiio]

day 5: roommate au

shinra: so? do you like her?

shizuo: I'm gonna kill her

shinra: okay but do you LIKE her?

[mdrarw]

I feel like a lot of non-artists don't understand how defeated some artists feel when they look at ai art. For some it's because they think that ai art is better than their own, for others it's just the sheer disgust they feel when they look at ai art. AI art has been turned into a joke for many people, but looking at ai art is genuinely demotivating, and atleast for me, really fucking annoying.

And then there are people who'll go on about "oh but midjourney was already taking your art" okay, and? Is it not disgusting how Tumblr was aware of AI taking their artist's art, and instead of trying to implement some rules to stop this, they decide to make money off of it? And no, I will not leave Tumblr, because this has been the best platform for me to post art on, but Tumblr has now consciously decided to ruin that. I mean, where do you even want to go? Twitter's dying, TikTok is a hell scape, deviant art is also doing AI bullshit, and Instagram is just downright ass.

It makes me feel very defeated to think about all this, and I don't think anyone who doesn't know how this feels like should be telling artists that it's "not that bad". Please, for the love of God, shut up.

[creamecafe]

My honest reaction is when I find the most amazingly written, toe-curling, feet kicking and giggling worthy fanfic, just to realize it comes from a 18+ account or it says "Minors DNI"

[arundolyn]

obsessed with how clearly terfy weird bitches on here will say shit when called out for saying terf shit like "um well ACTUALLY maybe you think i sound like a terf because you identify normal feminists as terfs?? 🤔"

and then make absolutely no effort not to use transmisogynistic rhetoric and say weird shit that very very obviously is transphobia, like using terms like "trans rights activists" and "trans identified" and think they're so sneaky and nobody notices?

yeah i don't support all women. some of you bitches are terminally stupid

[winterstaryu]

I said something that could have been interpreted as mean literally 3 days ago and I still can't stop thinking about it

[martyrbat]

so many of you talk about the cruel adults in your childhood that negatively effected you and caused lifelong insecurity yet you're still perfectly fine with being that mean stranger to any kid that has the misfortune of existing around you and thats just really gross !!!

[qwk]

tcm fandom sucks so fucking bad its either people dick riding gun so hard they can't see straight or ppl using mods that make characters literal blow up dolls. and im sorry but if u think the cosmetics we r getting are suitable youre fucking blind. $5 for an objectively shittier version of something thats ALREADY a recolor is insulting!!! we don't need what the modding community is shoving down our throats but we need quality control.. o_o i cannot fathom the shit we're getting in the content pass if this is what they're pumping out rn

[rosesradio]

i think my university fucking bit me wtf