#im so fucking gay omg

[imgayforlaracroft]

User imgayforlaracroft what is your opinion about bathtub scene from the legend of Lara Croft show

oh boy you'll never believe it

but i was so gay. holy shit. like. her muscles??? her long hair FINALLY DOWN CANONICALLY??? the bruises and cuts on her ough???? im going to be unhinged about this forever thank u

[musicoftheheart]

fuck me gently with a chainsaw

[cankersaurus]

Toxic Yaoi

[tommygotwrittenoff]

i just think if roles were reversed and buck was the one saying those gay ass lines to eddie, eddie wouldve proposed like four seasons ago

[kirkwallguy]

if i wanted to start an argument i would say that calling lucanis a bisexual disaster is a product of the trivialisation / memeification of bisexual people that paints them as hypersexual or "attracted to everyone" in the exact same stereotype that has existed since the beginning of time. lucanis is literally just a guy who happens to be bisexual but because the current perception of bisexual men by cishets often includes being nonthreatening partners for straight women where attraction to men is less of a part of their identity and more of a "green flag" that makes them less likely to be misogynistic (untrue btw), his bisexuality was expected to give him specific characteristics (easily flustered, flirty, sexy.) emmrich and davrin didn't get this initial treatment because they dont fit into the idealised relationship mould these people would expect (davrin being black is a major factor given how people see queer people of colour and emmrich being Too Old To Be Bisexual) however when lucanis' romance had no sex and was. uh. boring. this demographic quickly pivoted to emmrich and acted like they were risqué for wanting to fuck a man in his 60s. but i don't want to argue so i'll just smile serenely and remember when the only bisexual man in dai had a bdsm sex tower.

[apricotbuncakes]

Shout-out to the trans woman I just met who is going to school for Paralegal stuff and her response for why was just "My brushes with law enforcement and the time I went to jail... Twice. All nonviolent, I promise."

Ma'am. You could have done violent things and my first thought would have been "Fuck those cops" anyway. I fully support your rights and wrongs.

(and also sorry for me not responding super well you were so pretty and I'm not used to crushes so bare with me)

[eternalera]

i just had a swagdoons au where ashswag is basically an unhinged god and he goes to this kingdom to tear it down bc why tf not and reds the prince and hes like 'can you maybe not do that' and ash does it anyways and just keeps red bc hes silly like that <3

also why is this tag bare asf-

[skrunksthatwunk]

mine fucking joined organized crime because he wanted to know if friendship was real

[compacflt]

I just wanted to say as someone who has stumbled across your blog and has read your Wednesday wips and posts about anything topgun related that your thought process and consideration of mav and ice, specifically their political beliefs and relationships with their own identities, is honestly so impressive and cool. You have brought such realism and life to these characters which is just so refreshing to see. idk i just wanted to express how cool and awesome i think that is

Because of the thought into these characters does it make it difficult to like them or understand them if you have differing opinions from them? for me personally i feel like if i were to ever actually have a convo with ice or mav regarding identity politics i would actually start to lose my mind (like how one feels when your dad or fun uncle talks for too long at thanksgiving dinner). If it does make them difficult to like, does that make it difficult for you to write them sometimes?

oh yeah! i think, my ice i really empathize with & really love & really could get along with, once he grows out of the sexism of his teens & twenties, but my maverick drives me crazy. someone sent in an ask a while ago that was like “WHY is cyclone simpson your one true love??” And it’s because i too would absolutely hate maverick & hate working with him lol. people who are overly cocky & un-self-aware & a bit self-centered make me CRAZY. (narrator voice: compacflt is a hypocrite as all these things also apply to compacflt.)

Politically… It’s difficult to say. no one really wants to hear the intricacies of one person’s political journey, which is why i won’t give you mine, but suffice to say—since the start of the russian invasion of Ukraine, and my semi-concerted effort to learn more about the political landscape of modern warfare, my own personal beliefs have shifted a whole bunch. definitely aided in that shift by my top gun fic project that specifically aims to understand the conservative straight-passing male mindset as it relates to military matters… there are many end goals to a project like mine, but one end product is a filter you can take away and hold up in front of your eyes and see the world through it. When writing from the eyes of a conservative straight (passing) white man, your priorities totally shift. I had to write from the perspective of someone who doesn’t care about identity politics. Because they don’t! A core tenet of conservatism is very proudly not caring about that stuff, and being very annoyed when people (usually left-of-centers) make that stuff very visible and want you to care about it! “Don’t shove it in my face,” etc., etc. Don’t force me to care about this taboo, private thing I really don’t care about. It violates my freedoms, or whatever, to be forced to care—or even bear witness to—stuff that i don’t care about. Etc. And then, to be nominally a part of that community that you really, really don’t care about, and then to be told that you have to care about it because of your publicity… people asking you to be proud of something that has had a negative connotation for much of your entire life… that’s not a transformation that happens easily.

Jesus, I could write an essay about this. I have, several times by now in responses to asks over my blog. But there is so much that I could talk about. I think… I really worry that some of my writing falls into the first of the below categories:

I really try not to romanticize conservatism in my writing—I tried to show that ice and mav’s happiness is the price they pay for their conservatism. They’re actively choosing to be unhappy—but because they prioritize their honor over everything, due to EXTERNAL PRESSURES they cannot control, and which I think are often ignored in the fandom space for one reason or another. The fact of the matter is, in 99% of IPs, characters prioritize something other than their sexualities. It’s never Maverick’s personal identity that is at stake in either Top Gun or Top Gun: Maverick, because he has built himself so impermeably masculine that there are no grounds upon which to question his personal identity. He just isn’t thinking about it. He’s thinking about how to get into Charlie’s pants, how to win the Top Gun trophy, how to uphold his promise to Goose, et cetera. If he’s fucking guys on the side, it’s because he wants to and because hes maverick and he does what he wants without thinking about it—that’s the whole point of his character, from a story-construction standpoint. That’s his archetype. He’s a renegade maverick superstar who is both thoughtlessly brilliant and thoughtlessly dangerous. He’s thoughtless. His priorities are to survive and to look cool doing it, and that’s it. He is a savant in the Naval Air Force, where honor is your lifeblood, who feels he has been dishonored by his own family name, and who willingly joined the conservative post-Vietnam Navy right when/after Ronald Reagan was elected President, and who wears cowboy boots and who disrespects women to their faces, and who is eager to get into altercations with Soviet-Chinese-DPRK-X-second-world-country-coded-but-EXPLICITLY-Soviet-manufactured-Mikoyan-Gurevich-MiG-28s(-F-5s-painted-black)… I’m sorry. In my opinion, the conservatism is baked into him as a character. I find it extremely difficult to separate him from his conservatism, because in some ways his patriotic conservatism is his raison d’etre. IMO if you take that away from him, he ceases to exist.

Same thing with Ice and his unwillingness to openly rebel or go against the grain. That is his whole reason to exist in the story at all. I know that I’m saying this in a fandom space where the whole point is to change characters & put them in different situations (fanfic) but… in kind of a perverse self aware way, as in I know I sound ridiculous and pretentious, i guess i don’t really understand an impulse to change the core tenets of a character irreparably in fanworks. We are shown that ice always goes by the books in TG. Then we are shown that he achieves the fruits of that labor (four stars) in TGM. So he is rewarded for never rebelling, whereas Maverick, who always rebels (but NEVER in a way that challenges his personal identity), has stagnated in the ranks at full-bird O-6. And that’s Ice’s character. That’s what he’s there for in the story—he’s a tool to show us the value system of rank and prestige you earn by following the rules of the Navy. Why take that away from him? That’s his priority! Canonically, that’s his priority and reason for existence! And historically the way to achieve that priority is through conservatism.

And you ask me if it’s hard to like my ice and mav. Yes, but that’s not my choice. The movie already did that for me. They are not, I’m sorry, likable people. I am not a straight white conservative male writing about straight white conservative men to validate my own beliefs—I’m a queer AFAB person of color writing about straight white conservative men because I want to understand the limits of their conservatism. What they do and do not care about, and what it takes to make them care. And from what we are shown in TG… ice and mav would not care about ME. At all. And they would not want to be forced to care about me. Ice’s casual careless dismissiveness… “the plaque for the alternates is down in the ladies’ room…” mav following Charlie into the bathroom… turning the key in the ignition and driving away while pretending not to hear her… “what?? i can’t hear you! 🙉” … they do not care. They have no desire to care.

Again. Maybe I subscribe to a very very old-school and labored and pretentious ideology when it comes to writing… I know a lot of people write just to have fun. I do not. I wish i could, but I don’t. And when you’re not writing to have fun, you don’t have to like the characters you’re writing about. They’re nothing more than tools at your disposal to get your point across more effectively. No, I don’t like them! Of course not! My ice is cruel and cowardly and careless and hypocritical and subservient and weak, and my mav is demanding and dangerous and dismissive and oblivious and so, so, so unbelievably bitter.

And that’s what my story needed, to get my point across. So, shrug. My point was my priority. I don’t care too much about the characters themselves.

Re: icemav & identity politics. Part of hopefully selling this story is the attempt at empathy for the conservative male, to bring this discussion back to the top. Why write fiction at all if you’re not going to write about people different from you, and why write about people different from you if you don’t want to understand them? So… part of trying to understand them was to understand and have empathy for this shift in priorities. Conservative guys do not want to care about labels, or sexual orientations, or, God forbid, discussion of their gender identities. I can kind of see Ice tolerating it by the end… but, there are limits. Again, it’s supposed to be private. I think he’d chafe against getting labeled gay—he wouldn’t want to be called the first gay compacflt, or SECNAV, etc. He can’t say, “i slept with like a hundred fifty women before I even MET the ONLY man ive ever slept with,” because that’s like intensely private personal information!! No one deserves that information, but people still want to call him gay, even though in his head he really is not!!!! Again—from the conservative perspective, it’s a public imposition of left-wing, overly sexualized, too-neat labels and politics onto an area of life that has typically been kept private and respectable—I don’t agree with the conservatism, but I can at least empathize with it. Pre-Maverick’s death (pre-coming to terms with it), it would’ve been shameful & embarrassing to him; but even after coming to terms with it, it’s still not something he “takes pride” in. I think he thinks of it like this—most people aren’t proud of being straight. Like, it’s weird if you are. Same thing with being proud of being white, etc. Why be excessively proud of things you have no control over? Why not take pride in your ACTIONS—for instance, his career that he has actively sacrificed so much of his pride for? I can really empathize with that thought. I don’t necessarily agree, but I get it, especially in his professional circumstances, where he has so much to be professionally proud of, and yet people keep wanting him to publicly care about this private part of him he has no control over and can’t change.

Maverick though. I think he’d be actively hostile about talking about it in public. He Does Not Care. he does not want to care. It’s all an insult. They call him the first openly gay Ace cause he’s married to another man— “okay, but, like, I’m not. Stop calling me that. Neither of us are. Oh my god we have slept with so many women. Stop calling us that.” Ok then what do you want us, the press corps, to call you? First openly bisexual Ace? “No that’s worse!! That’s a word some teenager made up and doesn’t mean anything!! I’m sixty years old stop asking me to talk about this stuff im too old.” What do you have to say to LGBT kids who want to go into the navy? “😎👍 there’s a place for you etc etc. Let’s go back to talking about all the planes I shot down.” Maverick does what he wants without thinking about it. That’s the core tenet of his character. Very conservative. Don’t ask him to care too much.

Idk. No I don’t like them. But I understand them, if that makes sense. Like their conservative anti-label logic does make emotional sense to me. So that’s part of what I took away from this project, for better or worse… probably worse: I understand why conservatives don’t like the modern over-publicity of sexuality. They don’t care and they don’t want to care. And because they are small-C conservative, my ice and mav still don’t care lol. So, yeah. It doesn’t make them hard to write, because thats why I wanted to write them in the first place.

[uselessgay10101]

Ignoring how they absolutely MASSACRED Mal (#JusticeforMal)l-

Nia is looking like a damn goddess here omg-

[heartsburst]

WHY MUST I ALWAYS GET INTO THE SADDEST FUCKING SHIPS WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF

[ambrosialips]

I don't like to admit that I wish I were in love. It feels like I admit being defeated or something of sorts. I grew from being a hopeless romantic with a rose tinted lense over everything to running away from love after another failed attempt at it. I act like I'm better by myself, and that I love it like that (which I do, Don't get me wrong) , but I find myself longing more and more for someone to look at me in adoration, brush the curls covering my face behind my ear and just smile softly. It's frustrating. Infuriating. Utterly exasperating.

I grew from craving love as a source of validation to just wanting to rejecting it and now I'm hit with this. Wanting love. Wanting to be in love with no weird psychological reason to blame my parents for, with no need for external validation, with no need of feeling less alone. Wanting to be in love because I think experience love with someone would be fulfilling. What the fuck.

I keep trying to gaslight myself by saying that I'm not built for love, or that maybe love isn't for me and that's the ultimate reason for my current relationship status, or lack there of , as if I'm not living in a small town with a queer community consisting of middle schoolers, edgy freshmen and that one guy who stalked me and might still be doing it. I'm tired if trying to find excuses for my fear of love , and reasons to push my newfound desire of it. I know that I've been hurt, massively hurt a comic amount of times, and that devine timing is a thing, but gods what I wouldn't give to be eating ice-cream in some random playground with s guy , giggling and making dumb jokes, smiling like buffoons because we've been crushing in eachother for weeks now.

I don't like to admit that I wish I were in love, but fuck do I wish I were. I want to be in love. I want a crush that likes me back. I want him to be nice, and sweet, and not another massive guy covered in red paint with huge issues who can't deal with them. I want to play with my hair everytime he talks to me, smile, laugh, look dumb. I want to hold hands. I want to hug. I want to fall in love. I want to be happy. I won't admit I want a boyfriend (even tho honestly, I kinda do) because that would mean digging my ego a grave and burying it alive, but fuck it.

I want to fall in love.

I want to be in love.

I want a boyfriend.

Fuck boys.

Fuck this.

Fuck being healed enough to finally be able to have a healthy relationship and to see red flags.

And most importantly,

Fuck damijon fanfics for being too cute.

Oh also fuck Ed Sheeran.

[sunnibits]

Tell me about your gay W I wanna hear about it!!!!

OH MY GOD. OKAY. SO.

^^^ I LITERALLY POSTED THIS. YESTERDAY. BUT GUESS WHAT. I TALKED TO HER!! I EXCHANGED WORDS!! AND I WAS SOOO BRAVE ABOUT IT!!!!

cute trans girl in the corner of the dance. nobody is talking to her (sad!! cruel!!! baffling!!!!). enter me in my first ever baby gay masc formal outfit, internally trembling like a chihuahua, literally never spoken to this person in my whole life. “HIUHIJUSTWANTEDTOSAYITHINKYOURCOOLWHATSURNAMEOKBYEUHSORRY” <<<about what I said LMAO I was so embarassed I was like oh god that was so awkward. Literally took me an hour to get up the courage to do it DGDGHFDH

BUT UHHH TURNS OUT MY FRIEND KNOWS HER AND SHE FUCKING TEXTED HIM TO SAY I MADE HER WHOLE NIGHT AND LIKE IT LEGIT MEANT A LOT TO HER AND UHHH LIKE NOW SHE MIGHT BE JOINING OUR DND CAMPAIGN?? HELLO?? JUST BC I TALKED TO HER??.

DID YOU GUYS KNOW THAT WHEN YOU TALK TO PEOPLE THEY MIGHT ACTUALLY ENJOY UR PRESENCE INSTEAD OF JUST THINKING UR LAME. BC I DID NOT KNOW THIS /HJ. MIND BLOWN.

anyways I have been absolutely fucking beaming from ear to ear for the past 20 minutes but now I have to go to sleep bc I am eepy ok bye

[madelynpryor]

ik were all nostalgic for old tumblr but maybe we should leave the infantilization of gay (and especially trans) men in the past thanks

[prettycottagequeer]

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[international-repeater-station]

dear um. Scott pilgrim nation i actually have a question: what the heck did this very normal reaction to his friend coming out as gay actually Mean. any and all thoughts will be accepted because i barely have any idea