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naomi-nana · 8 months ago

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wow i just posted for jjk wow who would've thought😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨 well i guess let's see how well this goes

#nao.rambles #im scared it wont do well #but im also writing for fun #but at the same time not having people reading it #is kinda sad #but im pretty confident with this one #since jjk's getting pretty famous:3

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gunstellations · 2 months ago

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itll be alright

#it actually wont #💔#but hes just a baby. and she is his everything #the 3rd ep hurt me.....#but also thinking about how during the earlier times on the ark when he was much much younger #maria would be the only solace he would have #between the scientists treating him like a test and subjecting him to painful experiments just because he cant die #and the scorn of anyone else #the only place he can find warmth and love is in her light #shadow confused and lost not knowing his purpose well yet as hes forced to face all of it. like a scared animal #i know gerald would be decent to him but its never going to be more than firm kindness that wont ever take priority over his responsibility #they gave him his rings but in the early days they probably wouldnt be bothered to dress him and just let him go from the lab as is #hes doing it all for her but hes just small #god #im feeling a lot #shadow the hedgehog #maria robotnik #my art #shadria #not romantic in this case. just his most important person. taisetsuna hito. etc. they need to make a tag for them pls

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a-dauntless-daffodil · 4 months ago

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@val-the-bun hits me with a padded sledge hammer in the feels with the wereharpy vaggie au thanks for that once again i inflict this ask on others as a coping mechanism >:C

val-the-bun asked:

Charlie can see the claw marks on Vaggie's side, golden blood, *angel* blood, dripping onto the floor... Her grip on the spear is shaking.

'Did you ever believe in me, Vaggie?'

Another shriek, weak and *crackling* is her only answer. Vaggie's talons fall, and she almost *leans* into the point of the spear. She can see the tears streaming down Vaggie's face.

The spear slips out of charlie's fingers. Her hands are shaking too much. She grabs Vaggie by the feathers, glaring up at her.

'Do you?'

Vaggie is *shaking*, taloned hands curling around Charlie with a *whimper*.

Charlie is clinging to Vaggie as the monster *buckles* around her. She lets out another whimper, nuzzling against her face. She cant keep her tail from curling around Vaggie, burying her face in those feathers she knows so well.

'Oh Vaggie...'

I am picturing a lot of comfort after this

Like just

Vaggie all bandaged up

And just curled up with Charlie in the lobby. And she's just gently brushing Vaggie's feathers.

'So uh, does anybody wanna explain why Vaggie Tales is doin' a heavenly werebird in hell?'

'I... I dont know. Maybe this is just... Maybe this is what happens if an exorcist stays down here?'

Eventually Vaggie starts changing back. Which, ya know, yay!

Aaaand also oh shit. Because uh. *She kind of shredded her outfit in her transformation*. And her spare one is back in what's left of the room she was holed up in.

'Oh, fuck. Uh. Blanket? Quick? PLEASE???'

Queue a very embarrassed and kind of ashamed Vaggie curled up in a *huge* blanket. But...Charlie's holding her. Vaggie may not think she deserves it, but she is.

'Please tell me I didnt try to eat anybody...'

'Oh, no my dear. Shreading on the other hand!'

Charlie gives Alastor a glare that surprisingly shuts him up. Meanwhile Vaggie has basically disappeared into the blanket, save the barest hint of white hair.

'Dont worry about it Vags, your aim was pretty shit.'

Queue a jab in the side from Husk.

'What! It's true! She missed!'

(Aaand that's all i got for this for now. Might do more in the future. Might write a fic. Who knows!)

#hazbin hotel #vaggie #charlie morningstar #chaggie #angel dust hazbin hotel #husk hazbin hotel #WELL AT LEAST YOU LET THEM /HUG/#vaggie cocooned in blanket and hug scared she hurt ppl...#CHARLIE WAS SNUGGLING HER AGAIN WHILE SHE WAS STILL MURDR BIRD PLEEEEEEEEEEEEASE LET VAGGIE REMEMBER THAT #im not surprised charlie's glare shut alastor up he's quippy not an idiot and charlie's gf is kinda BLEEDING at the moment #angel dust and the “i cope with near death with humor” trait ayyyyyye #but he also tying to reassure vaggie ;_; he's just kinda shit at it #BUT I WONT FORGIVE YOU FOR #VAGGIE ALMSOT LEANING INTO THE SPEAR #DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCHING UCKING tRAUMA THAT'D GIVE CHARLIE????#her gf almost fell on her own spear WHILE CHARLIE WAS HOLDING IT #FUCK #FUCK OF COURSE SHE DROPS THE DAMN THING #IS SHE GLARING AS SHE GRABS VAGGIE BC OF THE LIE AND FEAR EVERYTHING WAS A LIE #OR BC VAGGIE ALMOST PULLED THAT SHT RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER #IS SHE HOLDING VAGGIE TO MAKE HER GF SEE HER GLARE #OR TO KEEP VAGGIE fROM FALLIGN??#charlie asks a question but she's not really looking for the answer to it right now feels like #she's looking for vaggie to trust her NOW #and wereharpy vaggie collapses #trusts charlie to take her weight (or accepts it if charlie drops her)#that's all charlie needed #to be holding her gf so tight again #you #monster

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moeblob · 1 month ago

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Right and his work menaces (Brent and Karen).

I don't remember last I mentioned it but apart from crude nicknames to people (except Chris), he also just puts them in his phone really weird (except Chris, who is literally in his phone as Chris). And I bring this up because in Right's phone, Karen is saved as "Lawful Obligation".

#my characters #oops i fell in love #can you guys tell im stressed and hyperfixating on my own fucked up ocs cause i am #also brents nickname at work and in rights phone is fuckwad #and hes like yeah if im called anything else at this point by right its weird and uncomfortable #and when it is finally approached as if paul is only in rights phone as shitty-ex (answer) now that hes an excoworker #what was he in rights phone BEFORE the transfer #and right is like annoying dickwad ... karen is like oh i see thats why you call him a dick still #thats like a nickname from his phone name #and brent has to ask why fuckwad and dickwad and right looks at him and takes a deep breathe before saying #because i like the word wad and it is very comforting bc like a wad of paper ? you can throw it away #and so if i realize i gotta get rid of attachment i wad it up #also dont tell paul that dickwad was a form of attachment or he will never shut the fuck up about it #karen and brent both swear to never mention it to paul #paul is honestly such a weird anomaly in the plot bc he doesnt directly work at the same police station #but he is CONSTANTLY a topic of gossip or annoyance or updates #hes literally karens best friend! aside from chris he was one of the few right worked with who HAD touch privileges before right banned it #hes also just genuinely well liked but no one can actually tell him or he will become insufferable #which is a crime that rick is guilty of once when he meets paul and karen introduces him #and rick is just OH i know that name! youre her best friend #and she looks so betrayed and paul looks so delighted and stunned and radiant over this fact #and rick makes up for it before the night is over which is why karen forgives him - he made paul back in his place #anyway yeah right has lots of fears and hes my bundle of anxiety and i love him and his atrocious nicknames #i think i would die if i gave someone a rude nickname even affectionately irl #also also final note on this ig #since right is a detective and not always at the station its worth pointing out brent and karen just work taking calls and #doing misc other work at their desks which are nearby so they 100% bond and its wonderful #ok i lied final note on them is #for a very long time karen has to check with right to make sure she isnt annoying brent because he doesnt emote well #and shes scared she wont know if shes annoying him please help youre like the only one who reads his moods accurately

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skunkes · 7 months ago

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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day #how they're already memories since moments pass so fast #everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever #and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed #it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily #so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day #ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been #the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief #and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately #id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again #like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night #one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys #i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i #hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day

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2leggedshark · 3 months ago

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I want my art to be weirder (I'm afraid of people expecting "normal" art from me because of what I make most often and them being upset with me if I deviate from it)

#SIGH. sorry i feel like this is like a thought that more serious artists should have and not like. me. lol #but especially on twitter i am afraid for some reason #like i do not want to be so palatable for everyone but like. i am most of the time #its just occasionally i wont be #and yknow. i dont want to accidentally build an audience thats gonna judge me for that #am i making sense #this is such a. NOTHING PROBLEM..#but whatever ive been thinking about it 😭#like i want to feel free to make suggestive art and weird sad art and self projection art and gross art #and the best way to feel free is to make that so people know to expect it #but i really just. most often draw very normal very bland things #which im not even upset about its jusf. i dont want that to be expected of me??#literally no one has said they expect certain stuff from me #no one has gotten upset at me #i am just. an overthinker and SCARED all the time #oh well #thats all #vent

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princekirijo · 11 months ago

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POINTS ‼️‼️NEW RIKU ICON‼️ REAL‼️ GRAHHHHH HE LOOKS AWESOME 🔥🔥🔥

Ahh thank you Misty :3c

Here is the uh full icon for those who want to see it properly 👉👈

He's my silly little goose :3 my funny boy

Also uhm a bonus and a little lore drop I'd planning to make for a while undercut ehe

Tada this is Riku's actual eye colour! Much similar to Mitsuru's :3 He wears eye contacts throughout a lot of Captain AU's story and if you ask him why he will give you a different answer every time ehe

#asks #misty-wisp #riku kirijo #oc tag #i cant believe im doing this lmao #but if im gonna do it ill do it scared #but tada riku's official look!!#well aside from teh outfit i'll explain that in a bit #but i can safely say i am 100% happy with this design now :3c #his outfit is kinda what im thinking he'd wear in the catt au! he refuses to wear the actual gekkoukan uniform so hes gonna wear the varsit #jacket instead! <- 100% my personal bias for the jacket i own it and its the most comfortable thing i own #and the ring has lore but eh i wont go into it now #i was gonna post the full doodle page but u know what baby steps #and yeah lmaooo riku actually has brown eyes surprise #the actual reason for the contacts thing is because i couldn't pick between the two eye colours i really like both #but brown eyes is more realistic so its his true look ehe #and uhm yeah idk what i was doing with the expression but nico pointed out it looks like one of yukari's sprites LMAO #unintentional on my part but he is a mama's boy #depnding on how this goes ill post the rest of the doodles #but wow can u guys believe the last time i posted proper art was 2021 #not including the lil character bio sheet i did in 2022 that was a lil doodle #but ehm nico said my arts improved and my gf is always praising my art so im uhm gonna share #i need a new art tag tbfh

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maythray · 9 months ago

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really scary that ii2 is coming back now. like thats something i have to actually face. with the state of AEs writing in present day. god. suitcase you must survive.

#ii neg #i suppose.#its more of me being scared of change here rather than anything really negative #like i think they can do it well but its going to be Different in a way that wont flow? at least what im feeling.

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itsalwaysdark · 15 days ago

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and when i live on my own ill be able to decorate like real life decorate ive never gotten to do that in real life b4

#like im not barred from doing it Nd i do like. a little bit kind of but its like. Idk my entire life is a very transient thing and im rly #rly rly not used to being in one place for a long time so as a kid we never rly decorated ever #and like obv i wont be Owning a house or anything like that so itll still have to be moveable but i can like. but furniture that i like and #stuff... ive never gotten to do that b4 even in um. wa. i didnt rly get to do any of the decorating even when i was in the actual house bc #him and the roommates umm. did all that. Okay well now ive sort of freaked it by making myself think of that so im going to go stare #longingly at the floorplan i did #bc umm. well ideally id like to move into one of the apartments thats right across the way bc theres a couple of apt buildings like right #there 5 min walk tops and one of the places Has an open one but no floorplan #i wont be movjng out for ages i just wanted to look at floorplans yk #but like i said no floorplans BUT theres one a bit further away not rly walkable bc its umm #youd have to walk on the interstate and stuff and um. no sidewalk and everything but theeeeeeeeee thing had a floorplan #still very close by like 2 min drive but yk. but i still did my little mockup floorplan with that apartment instead #i want it to be closeby so everybody can come visit and so that i dont die and explode . i dont rly want to continue living in this town #4ever once km like Normal and have savings and ive got everything worked out i wanna maybe move to chicago or something since il is better #for the transgenderisms. + ive always wanted to try living in a big city at least once and i think itd be awesome #but thats Ages and ages away like maybe 5 years depending on how good i am. weeee will see if 5 years in the future is like on the table 4 #me LOLLLL 24 year old connor seems rly crazy to imagine. but anyways....#but itll be nice to move out and still be in town bc then i can have the same job yk . and maybe ill know how to drive atp and i can like .#buy a car ..or something . if i do know how to drive #which i probably should since this town very car dependent and i dont want my mom to have to drive me to work esp if umm. i dont live with #them ... im just rly rly rly rly rly fucking scared of driving but i know also in my heart that when i do know how to drive the bond between #me and that car will be crazyyyy like. idk how many of you followed me last year but you may remember my insane bond with angel my cart from #work and there was a lot gokng on woth that <- was Very delusional at the time and i was convinced that she was a sentient thing and had the #power to make my life better or worse if i upset her so i said good morning and goodnight to her every single day so that i could have a #good day . looking back on it probably was something to be concerned abt but whatever.... she is still my best friend and i do miss her #deeply #her bathtub and heater were my besttt friends when i was in wa LOL. i was quite unwell #bathtub is still in my room tho yayyy. heater lives with lamp now and angel is of course at my old job....#bathtub currently is holding a project i gave up on. everyone say thank.you bathtub im looking at her right now

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b4kuch1n · 2 years ago

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OOOUGGHAAAAAAA I DID IT I MANAGED TO DO INK WITH A DIP PEN

NEXT COMICS MEDIUM IS FUCKING SETTLED. YUUTO YOU WILL BE FED

#bakuspeech #hi I am Fucking Excite #litcherally. the last time I tried using any kind of dip pen it was a bamboo calligraphy pen #and I was. 18. the previous time I was 15 and even worse at it than then #fully went into this attempt already accepting I will probably be maybe marginally better #but!! it was pretty fun I did much okayer than expected!!!!#I need to be more confident with the pen but I can do that. I just need to do this a Lot #but like. I was Really scared. I didn't remember how a dip pen behaves at All #I tried freehanding some stuff before but it really is very different from a fineliner #half relieved my 200k vnd wont go to waste lmao. man. I was ready to bruteforce it #but I wont have to!!! as long as I have a decent concrete sketch!! itll be alright!!!!#yuuto origin comic is a fucking go. I WILL do this. mom I AM going to be a mangaka #well. a doujinka perhaps #dgsjdjjs sorry Im just. this is 13yo baku's unattainable dream!! part of why I #turned to wholesale digital art and eventually brush inking was because dip pens were #deeply scary and messy to me back then. I got ink Everywhere #now I didnt even make a spare fleck on this one!!! I can do it now!!!! dreams do fucking come true!!!!!!#literally bringing this piece of scrap around showing everyone like a kid who got perfect score on a test lmao #Im just. Im happy guys. Im so!!! auuughghhhh #I'll practice more tonite. I will Get Better At This. I will scribble a bunch more of yuuto #to get used to the style. I need a buncha outfit refs anyway #have a good day!! holds u hand everything is possible. try something u didnt have the chance to be good at as a kid again #life is fucking good sometimes!!!!!

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depresseddepot · 4 days ago

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applying to more jobs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha :))))))))))))))))))

#i guess this isnt too personal but i work in the library field and to be an actual librarian you need a masters degree in library science #(which i dont have yet. i dont even have my bachelors until june)#(but i DO have almost 8 years of public library EXPERIENCE which has to count for something right?)#anyway my hopes are low that i will get any of these jobs and getting lower by the second because they ALL require an mlis #and thats fine! i dont mind working an assistant job until im 40 if thats what it takes #but i just need to FIND ONE #i just need ONE job that pays at least 30k. maybe even at least 25k and i could make that work #im not in a position to move out rn bc im still paying for college which kind of limits my choices #so im trying to keep it together lmao. when i graduate i may still only be able to get a part time but maybe at a high enough wage #and then i can MOVE there and i wont be pissing money into my gas tank #:( i wish i picked a different field #i know i can change my field whenever and i fucking WILL at this point but i need something NOW so i can move out #and all i have is public library experience :(#when i graduate ill start thinking genuinely about alternative fields i could get my foot in but for now im just sad and poor and stuck #i think about how different my life could have gone if i chose literally any other field and it makes me burst into tears #i HATE money. i hate having to fucking worry about this all the time #like i love it (bc i need it desperately) but there is nothing i hate more #well. back to applications :(#im being so dramatic btw. for ref ive literally applied to 2 jobs my entire life and only been rejected to one of them #which happened last month #i do think these people will all reject me but i dont have evidence yet to become all kms about it #im just scared lol

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orcelito · 2 months ago

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I do find it so funny that I will graduate college days away from my birthday. Like my birthday is literally in between the end of the semester ("graduation") and commencement

It really will be like a joint graduation & birthday party for me lmao

#speculation nation #i dont really do birthday parties anymore. havent in a long time. mostly just go out and do smth fun around my bday. ya kno #also have cake but like not in a party way. just like. here's cake lol #but im probably only gonna graduate from college once. which means i might as well live it up and all.#invite all sorts of extended family and people who have known me. etc etc.#actually it just kinda sunk in that i am. Computer and Information Technology (Systems Analysis and Design focus) w a minor in Communication #like those are words. it's a lot of words but actually it really is pretty accurate?? like that's indeed what ive been studying.#now how much i *remember* is another question. considering how long ive taken to get thru school lol #but that's what people will see on my degree. that's my Thing. graduated in Computer Systems and Talking.#idk it's just weird to have spent so much of my life on this and like That's the culmination. it took so much work.#even beyond a normal 4 years. i switched my major *twice*. switched my minor too.#first year engineering to undecided liberal arts (as a temp major trying to switch to computer science bc i couldnt stay in FYE)#but then computer science sucked so i switched to trying to get into computer & info tech. which is different. and better.#and ive been in it long enough now that ive kinda forgotten but it did take some fuckin work to switch into it.#like i had to take certain classes first & i couldnt take them during the semesters that in-major students would take them #and i had to have my gpa up to a certain level etc etc. so many hoops to jump thru. i think it took me at least a year. or more. idr #but i made it in and thats my major. thats my thing. computers and information systems and communication.#doesnt FEEL like im an almost-graduate. but then i think about all the things ive taken and learned.#and maybe i dont remember a lot of the more specific things from these classes. but i took core lessons away from each one.#wont be able to recite the theories but i can live them. and thats the point of an education i guess.#anyways im gonna have to start job searching before too long and eughhbb. need to get my license first tho probably.#which i will... i will.... i have so many things to deal with... my life will be So Different in a year...#it will require me to put in the work now. but i can do it. and then a year from now. i'll hopefully be in a better spot.#living somewhere else. graduated from college. with a license and a car. maybe even an IT job of some kind.#kind of scared of trying to find a Big Boy Job. aka a job that requires a degree and networking and all that shit.#rather than just showing up and being like Hi i can do this job. i am not a total drain of a person. hire me please 👍#hfkahfks so many things to think about. and through it all i am still dealing with DEADLINES...!!!!#but yeah this is why my writing has largely been put on hold. idk i have a lot of things im dealing with rn.

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pepprs · 1 year ago

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halfway thru my first drivers ed session. idk if i can do this aftually lol

#purrs #there’s like 30+ ppl in the class and most of them are high schoolers who already have like at least 20-30 hrs and i have 3. also the #instructor is really nice and means well but she is also a little clueless and she embarrassed me in front of everyone (or maybe i #embarrassed myself) bc she had us all introduce ourselves and say what we like to do and i said play video games and she was like oh are you #a bit of a gamer 👀 have you been to any of those conventions. LIKE 💀😭 NO I JUST PLAY SILLY LITTLE PET GAMES…..#but ajyways um. i don’t have enough driving experience to start behind the wheel lessons yet 💀💀💀💀💀 and we r watching videos rn and it’s so s #scary like istill have such trouble even maneuvering the car around how am isupposed to develop situational awareness and be driving on high #hihways and shit. this is so overwhelming. it’s like ‘every moment ur behind the wheel u and the ppl around u are at risk’ well idont want t #to be at risk or risk others lives. but also i need to move out. help 💔💖#anyways this class has INSANELY long breaks (like 15+ mins thank god) and we might be able to end early every day too so. fingers crossed it #wont be that bad and i’ll actually retain stuff and learn to drive fucking finally. but im so scared #also on thursday we are watching a video depicting a graphic c*r cr*sh so. that’s just fucking great #drivers ed tag

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gemharvest · 3 months ago

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Ok y'know what fffuck I still really like that "Beef misinterprets a joke as something more serious" concept tho. Rotating other possibilities in my mind. auuuauuauua

#ramblings #maybe for once ill force him not to be miscommunication king. maybe hes finally like `ok well i didnt get killed that time #(irt the sketch comic i did of him and ys) i still feel scared but. it probably wont kill me this time` well aside from his ego kinda #and actually asks. actually yeah thats more on track with his stupid growth anyways..#ANYWAY i still dont know if id do anything with that i just like putting characters through the wringer #im gonna actually get up and scrounge for food now

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hexslvt · 4 months ago

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happy 10 months to being away from my abusive ex

#cant believe it's been 10 months thats insane.#kinda scared for when it comes around cause im sure i wont be doing well mentally #jester.txt

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schizononagesimus · 4 months ago

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so clearly i arrived fine and the start to my "trip" is going great! now it's 2am and im feeling the gravity of my situation 😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄

#i have a couch to crash on in nyc but i need money to get BACK THERE #i have 45 days to get a job. because a certain relative i have will magically produce the money for me to move back if i have a job offer #even though i still wont be able to afford an apartment or anything yet #fuck i am realizing how really fucking fucked i am #the same relative that put me in this position is the one who's helping me on terms he has not specified :) haha im not scared at all #like okay with my gfm that proved to me that i dont need him right but i cant do two gfms like oh wow teddy needs help again cant get a job #yet huh loser. and i just cant bring myself to Actually Borrow money from people even though we both know ill pay it back #the childhood trauma of having grown up homeless is hitting HARD rn #doesnt help that my meds are Very Messed Up at the minute #my heart problems and crazy pills arent getting along well #so i need uhhh to take care of that! fuck id like. to. well the work relies upon your continuance. unfortunately #dont particularly feel like it does at the moment [frantically thumbs thru my mental book of things to say when i wanna die] eh kinda wanna #see how the story ends though the chapter started kinda weird but maybe it gets better. maybe it's a turning point or smthn #lessons of the hand and the mouth

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