#im rlly happy about that tbh

[obsob]

once more around the sun!! :3

[truethes]

with it being 8pm on a sunday i've come to realise it's the perf time to really discuss my goals for the future of my blog(s). in particular, the art of communication.

something that's really come true from when i came back from my hiatus in 2020 are my views when it came down to dynamic. from going multiship with multiple versions of muses, i've found a lot more joy in writing dynamics wherein me and my partner as both shipping with one version per single canon portrayal. it's a rule i've held for a good few years now, and ultimately one i wish i wouldn't change for the world, but ultimately lately i've noticed a pattern my end in which i really want to tackle this year, which i hope will also make you guys all feel a little bit more love, whether we're in the middle of plotting something, having a dynamic in the works or already have dynamics on the run.

i'm going to stop worrying about being too much.

this might sound a little crazy, but i have briefly mentioned before my experience with a mutual i had in the past (pre my hiatus return in 2020) where a friend admitted they stopped talking to me because i was being too much and too fast in my replies to them in direct messages. which has haunted me in every single friendship / chat / plotting session i've had with mutuals before this year. i hold back sometimes, with a lot of art / musings / etc hidden between my aes blog and my twitter. while i don't want to come across as though i'm going to be in my mutuals dms all the time overwhelming them, i want to spend more time messaging my friends for things that made me think of them, for people i wish to plot with / am plotting with because it reminded me of our plot / dynamic etc. me being a slow writer wont change any time soon, but i really am not lying when i say i do not suffer from any kind of friendship / interest decay when i don't hear from someone after some periods of time, nor if i dont message for that time period of time - so i want to show that love a little bit more than i usually do x)

if it does get too much, please don't be afraid to let me know or take breaks. i will totally understand your decisions either way!

[badnewswhatsleft]

save rock and roll — album track by track

[part 2 of 2: flip me over]

[feline-evil]

Never gonna be over how unutterably pathetic and in dire need of ANY kind of companionship or friendship that doesn't revolve around their band the entirety of dethklok are. I love these horrible idiots who are so devoid of any real connections outside of themselves that they will latch onto anyone unfortunate enough to get too close to any one of them! And GOD help anyone they latch onto!!

[lilithisms]

// is it okay to say that sometimes i'm really scared to reach out or talk to anyone bc ik i have a strong personality and dont wanna scare anyone away ?

being filled with silly is a gift and a curse

[nururu]

Sensory issues that make me not want my hair to touch my neck/ears

vs.

chronic migraine disorder that can be triggered by wearing my hair up for too long or wearing anything on my head at all

vs.

ppl telling me they like me more with long hair&making me feel insecure about having short hair

[csoisoi]

my neutral existing is gone im happy and smiling again

MY JOY

IM SO HAPYHCHEHVHKYK

please im so happy seeing the first years

de man was unexpected but its a verY WELCOME APPEARANCE I MISS HIM

[dasisugarun]

seems like I got an offer today? it doesn't feel real but seems like i'll finally get a job🥹

[skrunksthatwunk]

haruka should be allowed to be mad at kiryu tbh

[super-done-dead]

my cat is scared of thunderstorms

[trappedinchemicalplantzone]

My friend is wondering if you've done their request yet?.. 😅

uhm,, I only have one in my inbox rn (they're not anonymous but I won't name them) and I haven't gotten to it yet since I just received it today, it could take me a few hours to get to it or it can take me a few days, it just depends on how my energy level and if I dont get to it today it is unlikely I'll get to it until friday cause i have work, but you never know! If it's not posted, assume I haven't gotten to it yet and please be patient! I promise to try and get to any requests I get!! I just can't promise how fast I'll get to them.

Also not directed at the asker here so I'm putting it under the cut but just gonna state it while on the topic, that I'm not getting paid for making these and simply doing it because I want to engage with the community! Also I have the right to deny any requests I get, I haven't gotten any yet that I've rejected but just something to keep in mind!

Also if you really want me to draw something for you and you want it done right away, pay me! my commissions are open and I promise they would be much higher quality than these request doodles! Just because I'm a smaller artist doesn't mean people should just expect free art from me. I'm doing this for fun, and if I stop having fun with these or if they cause me too much stress, I will close them.

anyways long post but thanks for reading! and I will try and get to requests, and ik anon didn't mean anything by it but please try and not send me stuff like this, it feels like I'm being rushed and that can kill my motivation a bit. Also I'm not being paid so there's no obligations. other than that, everyone's been so nice here and I'm very thankful for the very small following I currently have!

[aroaceofthesea]

I shouldnt be this happy about beating a bunch of 15 year olds at board games

[saltedserval]

i know you from ok ko amino and you're the only person I still follow to this day from that place but I'm too shy to talk to you 😔

I keep you in my follows because even though I don't know shit of your fandoms I just love your style

HOLY SHIT RLLY??? IM SO HONORED OMGGGG 💕💕

I'm honestly so surprised anyone remembered me from back then, jesus that was when I was like 15 and now I'm about to turn 22😭

Fr tho don't be shy to shoot me a msg I don't bite :] I'm just more active on Twitter nowadays

[jaylaraye47]

i deadass asked Artemis for a sign and i’ve seen my birth month connected to artemis 3 times today

July's Character of the Month is: Artemis!

What do you think of the new theme?

[oleisjustole]

Considering i barely post here anymore then no one is probably gonna see this but why are some ppl just. Judging other designs when they dont have anything wrong with them? Ive seen other ppl say that "oh these kind clothes dont suit the character" "oh these hcs dont suit the character",,, ok and?

Listen. As long as one doesnt do anything weird, you can design that character however you want. Theres hcs added on characters that i sometimes dont agree with or that i personally dont like, and so does everyone else. Obviously one is allowed to voice their opinion, but one has to be respectful.

Also i say this as someone who was also like "nuh uh. This characters has to be THIS exact way" but after some consideration i realize that. Yknow. Let ppl do whatever they want as long as its nothing fucking weird.

[machisneedle]

hiiii! can I request some hcs (fluff + smut) for chrollo (or any other troupe members) if they have a husband/wife from meteor city (who he grew up with)?

im just rlly tired of ppl constantly making the pt k!snap their s/o’s tbh😕

ty!!!!!

Ofc I can !! <3 also I agree with the kidnapping part , I struggle to find good troupe content that isn't grr yandere zaddy kidnaps you. No hate to those who like that though !

phantom troupe members w a S/O they grew up with !! 🕷️ྀི` .

✧ characters in this are chrollo , feitan , shalnark , pakunoda

✧ content : headcanon format , fluff , smut / not safe for work content , fingering , oral , p in v ( chrollo , feitan , shalnarks part) , angst / death on pakus , also I don't really know how to write male or gn reader so I just did fem !! I hope that's ok.

!! Minors, please do not interact with this post !!

Chrollo 🕷️ྀི` .

✧ growing up with chrollo before the incident with Sarasa's death would be quite sweet tbh , staying up late together , talking about finding new tapes to perform and dub over. You were always a constant in his life , which was comforting for him.

✧ after the trauma of Sarasa's death , It just made him need you around him more. that need for you to be safe lasts into his adult years. This man is so protective of you , not in a cliche get away from my girl type way , no its in the way that your safety is on his mind alot. Especially with the line of work he's in. Probably keeps a troupe member with you at most times when he's not home , just in case.

✧ with the fact you grew up together , you already knew the troupe before it existed , so it would be something he couldn't really hide from you.

✧ I'm a firm believer in that chrollo is suffering from insomnia or some disorder that is similar. like this man is never asleep first when you're both in bed , when he finally puts his book away to sleep you can feel his arms snake around your waist as he breathes in your nostalgic scent. He doesn't get many times to relax nor to be so close to you due to the troupe, but he enjoys these moments more than anything , It brings him back to a simpler time.

✧ you both visit meteor City quiet abit (i'd also like to think you got married there) , seeing you pass out new clothes and food to the kids who live there warms his heart , it makes him remember why he fell for you in the first place.

✧ you were his first time and the only woman he wants to pleasure. I feel like growing up with him makes being intimate just that much more passionate , he fucks you like he might never see you again (which is a possibility If he isnt careful enough with protecting you , the reality makes his heart ache.) . Whispering the dirtiest but softest praises into your ear , acting like he isn't making you moan so loud under him , your voice might give out.

✧ this man eats pussy SO well , after the first time he eats you out your just stunned for a second , like what magic did this man just cast on your pussy to make you feel this good. He probably read a book about it or something. Also defo would eat you out because he likes it not for anything in return , your needs come first for him.

✧ about seeing you helping out the kids in meteor City thing I mentioned. when your home be ready. He doesn't have a breeding kink , but the thought of you taking care of his child and doing motherly activities makes him so happy he can't help but want to get you pregnant the second you close the front door. Get ready for a long night , he has stamina , and he won't be stopping till you're absolutely full of his loads. He'd whisper to you how "I should of done this so much sooner , my darling" or "feeling you this raw is pure bliss... like I'm fully claiming you in body and mind."

✧ 100% into cock warming you while reading a book. No one will change my opinion.

Feitan🕷️ྀི` .

✧ when you first met him , he avoided you like the plague. Honestly , at first you thought he hated your guts. Whenever you hung out with him and his friends , he'd refuse to reply to you but he didn't mean it in a rude way he just didn't want to embarrass himself around you because of how bad his english was.

✧ phinks eventually told you why he wouldn't talk to you , which made you feel somewhat bad ? To communicate with him for a while , you used a pen and some paper you found in the garbage heeps writing down what you said to help him learn some English.

✧ the first time hearing his voice is SHOCKING , he wrote down how he didn't want to because it sounded bad but you thought his voice was soothing which you told him , making him a bit more comfortable around you.

✧ As he grew up , he got more reserved but you didn't care sticking to him like glue , he could complain as much as he wanted saying you where wasting your time being around him or that it's too dangerous for you to stick with him but his words never held any malice more concern that you would get hurt by something or his actions but he'd never admit to having such 'weak' thoughts.

✧ like chrollo , he's another protective boy , but he doesn't trust anyone else with protecting you but himself. Would break someone's neck for looking at you in a way he didn't like , oh and don't even get me started if someone tries to hit on you because they think he's just some short loser who got lucky... let's just say later that night you will hear some screaming coming from the basement (aka where he does his work).

✧ you definitely know about the troupe , he's probably the only one who will outright tell you before you can ask. I mean , he literally tortures people... when you move in together , he literally can't hide it , so he's just honest with you. Another thing if the screams from the basement freak you out and you complain he probably will be grumpy about it , but he will line the walls down there to make it not as loud.

✧ for feitan knowing him from childhood will 100% be the easiest way for him to be comfortable around you , feitan just doesn't like people to be honest but your company is actually enjoyable for him.

✧ another cute thing I can imagine is him trying to teach you his native language like you taught him some English. You telling him you love him in his native tongue... the things that does to him.

✧ both of your firsts times are with each other. Honestly , sometimes you doubt he would have ever even had sex if it wasn't for you. Your first time was... not the best because you both had no idea what to do really , but after that mess of a first time , he definitely went to chrollo or phinks for advice. Another thing is not to make fun of him for it , it would really hurt his ego and he'd probably avoid you for a couple weeks.

✧ he is still a total sadist don't get me wrong but with you he's softer , he can't bring himself to hurt you alot. The worst he can do is bite you or slap you , anything else makes him feel icky because it reminds him of his work too much. He still finds your tears really hot though , and will overstim you just to see them.

✧ the first time he finger you , it was surprising how good he was with his hands (for a torturer , I guess you have to be). He's so unfair when he fingers you , he hits spots so deep you see colours then he'll pull back just near your climax saying he didn't say you could finish yet with a dumb smirk on his face as tears threaten to fall from your pathetic looking eyes.

✧ probably doesn't want kids even if you knew him that long his opinion wouldn't change , if you asked he'd say "no. I dont like kids" but really , he didn't mind kids he just didn't want to bring more kids into a world like this.

✧ super random but has eaten you out in your period before , he doesn't think it's a big deal... like he's around blood everyday ? What difference does it make.

Shalnark 🕷️ྀི` .

✧ he definitely mocked and teased you a lot when you were younger. Stealing your shoes when you where acting on the stage with everyone else or messing up your cute braids in your hair , but he never meant it in a mean way , it was his weird way of showing he liked you.

✧ probably the only one out of the guys to realise he had a crush on you as a kid , would cope by being even more of a little shit to you till he went to far one day and actually upset you , which led to admitting he was only mean to you because he had a silly little crush.

✧ this man is sooo clingy to you , he gives pathetic vibes like you can't leave this mf alone for a couple hours without getting messages like , 'babeeee I miss you (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )' and 'come homeeee pretty please ? ｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝°)°｡' (yes I believe he uses emoticons). When he's busy on troupe work he's calling you every hour it feels like , feeding you some lies about being on a work trip.

✧ he wouldn't be honest about the troupe with you. You know all the members as you grew up with them , but he thought leaving you in the dark was better. If you asked too many questions , he'd probably tell you you're being delulu. he doesn't want to lie to you but your safety is too important to him and he knows he isn't like feitan and chrollo , he can't always protect you.

✧ he's not yandere , but he is a bit obsessed with you , having cameras in the rooms in his house so he can watch you when he's lonely on a mission. He wouldn't take advantage of the fact he can see you without you knowing , if you started to change clothes or something , he'd turn the screen off. If he wanted to see you naked he'd literally just ask for nudes or look at old pics you sent him.

✧ your first time was... Good ? Shalnark actually knew what to do , mostly from how much porn he's watched to prepare for the day he finally got to do it. Side note he also made you finish during your first time.

✧ he's such a service top when he doms , he struggles to tease you because of how needy for him you sound , can you blame him though when you look so pretty under him ?

✧ whenever he is busy on work for the troupe but he misses you , he always ends up calling you even if you're in public , whispering sweet praises into your ear through the phone asking you to go to somewhere private because he misses you. "Baby... please ? It's been a week and I'm so needy for you" his whiney voice would beg at you , he was too cute to deny.

✧ he loves seeing you in really girly lingerie. It makes you look so innocent that he feels bad for having such perverse thoughts about you.

Pakunoda 🕷️ྀི` .

✧ while you were trying to catch an injured kitten to help it , crawling over the heep of trash it ran over , you saw a blonde young girl you soon learned who's name was pakunoda holding it , softly stroking its fur as it snuggled up into her. Her caring and nurturing personality has been known since the day you met her.

✧ you two were like two peas in a pod , always cheering her on in the audience when she was on stage with the rest of her friends acting out the tapes. It was so silly , but you both had made a pinky promise that when you grew up you would get married.

✧ after Sarasa's death , she abandoned you to focus on the troupe. She left you with a kiss on the cheek and a "I promise when we grow up , I'll find you... and I won't stop till I do." Being forced out as she looked at your form , hands shaking tears forming and soft begs for her not to leave.

✧ you had no clue how she did it but after you left meteor City and moved to yorknew she found you , waiting for her felt like waiting for glue to dry and when she came back she refused to ever leave you again.

✧ she isn't possessive I'd say , but she does sometimes check your memories to make sure you don't do anything bad when she isn't around. She doesn't worry about your safety as much as the others also because no one knows your her s/o but you both.

✧ she told you about the troupe after you demanded an explanation for her leaving you , though she didn't explain her nen ability to you yet mainly just because she doesn't think you're ready for that.

✧ got you a cat called ophelia , it reminds her of how you both first met and she also likes for you to have company when she's busy.

✧ you weren't each others first times , but with how loving and passionate it felt like it was your first time , you would never forget the feeling of her nails running down your spine as she whispered sweet nothings into your ears , leaving lipstick marks on your jaw.

✧ she doesn't like strap-ons , Likes to think her hands and mouth are enough to make you fulfilled , but if you ask her to use a vibrator on you she wouldn't mind.

✧ LOVES when you sit on her face , her nose is built for grinding on as she eats you out. If you were worried about crushing her , she'd spend a good couple minutes lecturing you about your weight was nothing to her and if she did 'die' being crushed by you , it would be a perfectly fine death for her in her mind.

✧ you would only learn about her nen ability when she found out she was the one to have to go get the boss. She had called you after telling the troupe about you , then explained the situation , asking you to go to the location of the troupes base incase this was the last time she could contact you.

✧ after she got kurapikas chain around her heart , she already knew her fate. After the deal went well getting the boss back , she came to the troupes base. Your wet eyes looked at her as you ran to her , falling to your knees , hugging waist. She felt guilty knowing what she was about to do. she ended up using a memory bullet on you instead of one of the troupe members , you deserve an explanation after you spent most of your life waiting for her.

✧ after her death , you kept her gun , keeping it as your last reminder of her you could bare to keep around yourself. Every once in a while , someone in the troupe would send u a message from a random number to see if you were okay the first year after. You were also set for life as everything she had went to you , but it never filled that hole in your heart.

✧ that promise of marriage never happened , huh ?

Omg I got abit carried away on pakus LOL. But I hope you enjoy <3