#am determined to break free of that - jan is our least busiest month of the year so is rlly a perf place to start. timezones suck but i can

[truethes]

with it being 8pm on a sunday i've come to realise it's the perf time to really discuss my goals for the future of my blog(s). in particular, the art of communication.

something that's really come true from when i came back from my hiatus in 2020 are my views when it came down to dynamic. from going multiship with multiple versions of muses, i've found a lot more joy in writing dynamics wherein me and my partner as both shipping with one version per single canon portrayal. it's a rule i've held for a good few years now, and ultimately one i wish i wouldn't change for the world, but ultimately lately i've noticed a pattern my end in which i really want to tackle this year, which i hope will also make you guys all feel a little bit more love, whether we're in the middle of plotting something, having a dynamic in the works or already have dynamics on the run.

i'm going to stop worrying about being too much.

this might sound a little crazy, but i have briefly mentioned before my experience with a mutual i had in the past (pre my hiatus return in 2020) where a friend admitted they stopped talking to me because i was being too much and too fast in my replies to them in direct messages. which has haunted me in every single friendship / chat / plotting session i've had with mutuals before this year. i hold back sometimes, with a lot of art / musings / etc hidden between my aes blog and my twitter. while i don't want to come across as though i'm going to be in my mutuals dms all the time overwhelming them, i want to spend more time messaging my friends for things that made me think of them, for people i wish to plot with / am plotting with because it reminded me of our plot / dynamic etc. me being a slow writer wont change any time soon, but i really am not lying when i say i do not suffer from any kind of friendship / interest decay when i don't hear from someone after some periods of time, nor if i dont message for that time period of time - so i want to show that love a little bit more than i usually do x)

if it does get too much, please don't be afraid to let me know or take breaks. i will totally understand your decisions either way!