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lesbiantrish · 3 months ago

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#im falling apart #its starting to get to the point that it always does #instead of answering every single message i dont reply every single second #im not replying to my mom as much #fuck i want to fucking disappear holy fuck.#genuinely think everyone would be better off #literally just a burden #not trying to play victim i genuinely feel like j an #i only make everything worse #‘ur so nice!!!’ im literally a horrible person.#and i cant even kms becahse when i feel burnjng i get flashbacks #like what the fuck is wrong with me just man up and die #sui vent #tw sui implied #s/h tw #idk what else #tw sui ideation #vent

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studioboner · 8 months ago

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talking about death to someone else whos also experienced loss or multiple loses is always so much different than talking to ppl who havent lost anyone yet

#they always go omg you made the convo SOOOO dark #when i just mentioned that the reason i dont have many pics of my mom is bc shes dead #like in a light tone #thats the why #but talking to ppl who lost someone is always so much better #reminds me of when i was at a pharmacy and the lady told me i could sign up for the mothers day gift basket #i told her i couldnt bc i didnt have one #and she said oh yeah i know #and i was like huh im not close to this lady how does she know? granted it was a small town #so she replied oh its bc my dad died around the same time so i remembered #and i was like oh! what a coinscidense right? :)#and she was likke yeah right? :)#and the other worker at the pharmacy was looking at us absolutely HAUNTED by the convo

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forestlion · 5 months ago

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anyone else had insane pain in the legs bc of, one assumes, growth spurts as a child?

#that shit was crazy..... i didnt even grow that much #my mom didnt give me any painkillers and instead rubbed my legs with #like. chestnut liquor #chestnut schnapps #expired no less #i dont rmr if the placebo helped #or if i absorbed the alcohol thru my skin #but that schnapps absolutely was the smell of my childhood. ngl i kinda miss it rn #it had a very specific smell #i had leg/growth pain so often as a child rip #sometimes i still get similar pain #like rn #and i think im done growing tbh i didnt grow past 8th grade #you know how some girls got insanely tall in early puberty before everyone else #i never had that #i grew. a below regular... length. at a very slow. pace #and then it stopped #the pain didnt though #i still get like. phantom pain #i think its real pain but bc its the same pain like in my youth... idk #i text my mom every time i get it #and every time she replies with #maybe you're growing :)#cant say. can't say thats whats happening #pers

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acebytaemin · 1 year ago

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how do people NOT embarrass themselves every time they listed to U got the look by Prince i just did the goofiest dance-walk to my car and ofc people saw it bc contrary to my opinion im somehow not the only person in the world

#idc though it is so much fun for me to be this way.#I NEVER SEEN A PRETTY GIRL LOOK! SO! TOUGH! 💃🏼🪩🕺🏻#ANYWAYYYY hope everyone’s having a super gorgeous day I’ve got so many msgs to reply to TRUST im not ignoring just gotta get some timeeee #hehe but for rn let me go & have lunch at moms and see my aziza 🐶💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

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candlesoul · 4 months ago

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rambling

#im workin all day workout chores and projects and still cant sleeping night and i feel so so tired #i feel like im emotionally dead bc i cant even start reading books anymore i cant find any mental energy for it #i shouldnt read news so much its also depressed but i do this bc of i need to feel im on control sth i know stupid #but future seems so dark i hate warand economy going more bad #my mom trying to call me which this is so scary for me she trying to take control again and im running away from her #please let me go she is like poison i swear let me go gghghg #anyway i will rambling #if i dont reply your text just know that i have no energy so thats why i cant even write pls forgive me…….#i need to see ocean #why life should be so dark like this? i really dont understand? whats the point?

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pasta-pardner · 2 years ago

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Butch and Sundance have shared quite a ride together. They're going down-- guns blazing and side-by-side.

#butch cassidy and the sundance kid (1969)#butch x sundance #butch cassidy #the sundance kid #robert parker #harry longabaugh #westerns #🤠#videos #hi y'all !!! i haven't been posting a lot lately bc I'm going through major life events ((ie: lost my mom to terminal cancer))#but i finally got around to finishing another one of my fanvid WIPs so enjoy !#im beating my depression away with a stick by engaging in cowboy special interest.#not a lot of creative match cuts or thematic relevance going on in this vid #but I played with multiple new editing/animating techniques so I'm proud of it regardless.#ik the 2010s synth pop rock might seem like a strange music genre choice for a 1960s western.. but consider this... i dont care </3 #anyways comments/replies/reblogs are very much appreciated (should you feel so inclined). yehaw friends #pardner posts #Youtube

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papercutsmp3 · 11 months ago

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bro is inquisitive

#thinking of the possibilities of how it could be worse it's funny how you start to get addicted to thinking like a danmei writer #you are like anddd what if this person was (insert a guy who coughed once in chapter 15) anyways #i managed to not get many spoilers bc i hate it but i have always suspected that shi mei had a thing for cwn firstly bc i once saw a ship #tag and was like ?? well that is not uncommon as people ship shrek with chanyeol (im people) but secondly after that scene where mo ran #pinky interrogated him i was sooo 100% sure of it. but then there was nothing much so i let it go. the one mini spoiler i saw was #the enemy on pinterest who replied to a pic of a character saying it was shi mei/other name (didn't look at it) so it was why i knew #he was classically someone else. but even without that his ass was raising suspicion just for the way how blank he was #and i knew it was intentional so i kept thinking who he could be and my guess was xu shuanglin (rest in pieces poor guy)#bc i thought that both of them had the same spiritual essence or something. also the guy in the motel at the beginning who also had water #essense could only be either of them. but this is not the point bc then i was thinking that shi mei was simultaneously mo nian #bc why would he have the reason to be annoyed with mo ran to that extent. and also bc i knew there was a fire and hua binance has face burn #but mo ran chopped his head off bless his souls and good for him so how else can that be worse #he could also be that child of nangong yan who had his mother die bc of mo ran and mom he would also have a reason to try and compare #himself to mo ran in every way and hate him but why would he need to store nangong blood for mount jiao is he is nangong himself #but that would be great for disgusting points bc he would be mo ran's half brother doing all that ??#im just taking a break from throwing up bc of his ass trying to assault cwn every chance he gets and idk anything yet #so it would be interesting to keep guessing his motives as i do not get it yet but also (procceed to throw up)#also his interactions with corpse taxian ?? god tier. taxian is in the middle of diss battle drops his mic after every sentence #the crowd (me) cheers. moving on but i really enjoy insane plot twists i wish i remembered well what i was thinking while reading tgcf #the widely known thing is that i didn't even consider that fu yao and nan feng were fengqing it's my favorite thing bc i wholeheartedly #believed the little guys just loved their generals way too much #00

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anonymusbosch · 11 months ago

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#annual physical tomorrow. getting slightly defensive in advance for when they ask me how i eat and exercise #and i say 'im vegetarian and i cook almost all my meals at home and don't eat fast food and get a lot of vegetables and protein'#'and i currently exercise at least some every day. often a solid hour or more of intense exercise at least a few times a week.#i bike to get around and i rock climb and hike and lift weights and run/jog and sometimes swim. i get typically 10+ hrs of exercise per wee #i can run 5 miles without issue if my ankle doesn't bother me. biking 30+ is no problem. '#and the doctor looks shocked and replies with some variant of 'so why are you overweight'#which is about what happened last time.#for the sake of the scenario playing in my head i am playing the soundbite 'got chub from eating too much PUSSSYYYYY' to break the cycle.#'are there any health goals you want regarding ur weight' 'yeah a fatter ass and hella thighs'#idk. mind ur manners. at least do your best not to act surprised.#and like. i am only slightly overweight and i do have the athleticism to say 'and what about it' and i just.#this is the most benign version of that response. i wish better for everyone else who gets some variation of it #not that ANYONE asked but i am 50 lbs heavier than i was when my mom tried to control my weight as a teen #and im fine. that's fine. it is not unhealthy.

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evermoredeluxe · 1 year ago

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bestie how many cups of tea did you drink today? 🫖👀

just one

#when i say i don’t succumb to tea unless im in a dire time i mean it #my mom didn’t want me getting a habit of drinking tea so i actually never had it often despite how much i loved it #and so 1 feels like a lot #anonymous #replies

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kath-artic · 11 months ago

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ohhhh my god if this fight is about what i think its about im gonna lose it

#my mom was all upset last night out of nowhere and kept muttering shit under her breath at me and my dad #and then she exploded at him this morning (its his birthday weekend btw)#accused him of cheating AGAIN because 1) its her default comeback and 2) he replied 'STOP' to a spam text and shes convinced it was his ex #but also the thing that set her off was me and my dad 'making fun of her' for mispronouncing something?#which is kinda bullshit regardless bc we all do that to each other and it isnt grounds for all this #but the thing is. i dont remember doing that #and i have a very good memory #i remember doing almost exactly that a few days ago with a friend too so its weird that i wouldnt remember this #which isnt to say that it didnt happen #but the thing is. i DO remember talking about an actor in the show we were watching #he was playing a different character but u could still tell it was him bc of how he rounds his vowels off w an r sound #and i kept pointing it out whenever he did it and my mom was sitting kinda far away when we were talking about it #and after that is pretty much when she started acting all weird #so i stg. if she misheard me dissecting an actor's accent and decided it was an attack on her intelligence im gonna kill someone

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strayklds · 2 years ago

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ok now I’m curious! Why do you want to tattoo on yourself? And where! 👀

hi julia!!! as of now i have a couple tattoos planned out for sure - i want a lyric from levanter on my ribcage ("listening to my heart, let it guide me" specifically <3) & a "leap of faith" tattoo behind my elbow (in the space above my elbow??? idk how to desc this area but like the back part of my arm i think u get what i mean) ((also yes. this is related to spiderman no im not embarrassed at all))

i also want something on my bicep but im still in the process of figuring it out + im not exactly sure the style i would go for either but thats definitely a place i want one! im such a big fan of tiny small tattoos that ill probably wind up getting a bunch of little ones that represent things that make me happy at some point <3

ty for giving me the opportunity to blab about this hehe

#i currently dont have any tattoos bc 1) saving money & 2) i still live w my fam #and while my dad doesnt care *that* much my mom doesnt really like them so im just waiting until i move out lmao #replies #raplinenthusiasts

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sincerecinnamon · 1 year ago

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My mom doesn't understand why I'm so cold to me, but I just immediately react colder and less open to people who won't let me express my emotions. If you want me to be open and all puppies and rainbows to you, then don't crush every bit of hope I have because you don't see a point in having it. Don't insult my taste constantly. Don't yell at me for feeling emotions. Don't blatantly disrespect my boundaries to the point where I'm literally in tears just because you think you should be able to poke me! Don't make me feel like although you haven't physically abused me, any day may be the day you just decide to because the emotional abuse hit me as about hard as backhanding me!

Just treat me like a human. Then I'll be open.

Don't treat me like an ai like my classmates. Then I'll be open.

Just treat me like my feelings are valid, unlike pretty much everyone but two people irl and my tumblr mutuals. Then, surprise surprise, I might not hate myself as much as I do.

consider: teenagers aren’t apathetic about everything they’re just used to you shitting all over whatever they show excitement about

#vent #no wonder why I had a crush this year on one of the the one people irl who would give me praise and encouragement #it's the thing i lack most #and it's why I ended up the way I did when I was 11 and what happened with the chatrooms #those children will find ways to get that attention #and you'll ask “what could we have done to prevent this?!” when somethibg horrible happens #meanwhile you neglect them and leave them in their room with nobody to even ask if they're okay #their friends(?) accidentally leave them to walk alone to class and then apologize for them to reply “it's okay; I'm used to it”#they've been alone most of their life and their “friends” irl don't seem to care much about them #they've learned this is just how things are since you never cared about them either #they learn to just shut up through the discomfort and meltdowns and panic attacks #bottling things up and being “independent” was the only way you would give them praise #only telling them they did well if they made themself disappear #great job mom /s #personal vent #personal rant #vent in tags #tw abuse #tw child abuse #tw im a loser who shouldn't be forcing me followers to see all my stupid trauma #but then again i need to get it out somehow #heaven knows i can't tell my mom

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lilgynt · 2 months ago

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there’s no way to express that people keep randomly reaching out to me to talk daily and at length and keep pushing for my space in my life and i really don’t need or more importantly WANT that politely there’s no good way to say that politely

#personal #it just sounds awful! and it makes me feel kinda bad!!!#but people keep like contacting me and just #i’m responding but not reciprocating? if that makes sense? and they’re not doing anything bad by trying to make new connections #and if i really don’t enjoy talking to someone i should just tell them #but it’s not even that i don’t like these people or talking it’s just the frequency and again no good way to say #hey! i’m not really open to expanding our relationship rn. ur fine i like you fine but im dealing with a lot and dont need anything new in #my life in the moment. like no good way to say #and also i hate the ball being put in my court. you came to me. i wasn’t seeking anything i was just here #and then with several of these relationships from their end they want to vent or talk about something that needs real consideration #like art criticism or saying what i like or again venting and other stuff #and it’s like man i am. drinking heavily. i’m having breakdowns bc im not sure my mom is gaslighting me on purpose #i have a full #time job i routinely do OT for and a million other things #i don’t want to be anyone’s rock rn #at least not anyone who’s not a close friend or family #cause if it was any of my besties asking hey can you come to my house so i’m not alone :(#i’m on my way that’s barley anything #girl from high school i had one class with who i have never hung out with uh. no #i don’t want to go to ur house after a 12 hour shift #and there’s a very mean question of like. do you have friends ur closer wirh?#not even judging just like we are not close. do you have closer friends?#and then it’s hard to do replies bc like how are you graham ! how’s life!#i don’t feel comfortable telling you the intimacies of my life and struggles rn #but i can’t give the basic good and you bc you are actively asking for more than that #so i have to think of an appropriate response ask you back and now it’s a vent session about ur life #and then so much is put on you for something you didn’t ask for #like this girl replied to my insta story like can we play iphone games again :(#as much love as i can muster we are grown adults i was just at work. just send the game!!!#i know i’m the weird one here it’s just. a lot of people want relationships with me and i’m tired and don’t need or want more at the moment

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insoupid · 5 months ago

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My mom is so obsessed with me it's so fucking annoying

#she like is afraid of me because im very opinionated (my sister told me) but she also very much wants to be me #like she will go out of her way to try and befriend my friends or be a mom to my friends #they end up not being friends with either of us because somehow me and my mom are fucking package deal #texting me 100 questions about what are you doing this weekend what are your plans are you excited how is your man how are your cats #do you like work still? how are your friends? are you okay? why arent you replying?#and this is every single day!!!! she will ask me what my plans are for friday every single day of the fucking week #if i dont have plans i get hassled #then if i do have plans then shes literally like okay so where are you going to park are you going to meet people i gope you meet people #i am grateful for her love #but i did move to a different state so i could some space and she just bought a fucking house 13 minutes away!!!!!#she would follow me to fucking antartica if she could #she also LOVES male validation like she lives and breathes for male approval and is also the reason i have an eating disorder so anyway #just annoyed lol

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smolgaie · 5 months ago

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dude im such a fucking tranny i want a fucking vagina dude im not even kidding oh my god why why why why why why i hate it why is it like that i hate it its gross i hate it. Like. I am not male why why why i hate it i want to be cis holy shit. Im never gonna pass which is like ok whatever yaknow take the cards your dealt but seriously? i have to have Peen too? I'll fuckin deal with social rejection but i have to have a body i am disgusted by? and if i get really lucky i get a pussy thats just. Like there are results that are really good and super cool and stuff. but. odds stack up to it just. looking like everything else in my transition made me look like. I dont look like a woman i look like a tranny. Like i almost dont want to get anything done down there because i know at the end of the day there will be this impassable million mile wide gap between myself, and whatever bar cis women are born on the other side of. I can wear the same clothes and do my makeup and voice train and do everything in my power, to the best of my ability, and STILL. if you put me and a cis gal next to each other, the difference will be stark and resounding and obvious. And it will be the same. Tons of effort and stress and tears and hoping just for what i know will be a crushing, resounding, deafening fucking dud.

I dont care about the not passing so much as i care about having been lied to by places like transtimelines and shit. People halfway as far as me, who are already there. Did i not try enough? did i not want it enough? am i not deserving as much as them? what did they do i didnt.

i went into this expecting to look like a cis woman by now. I now understand i never was gonna. I never will. I will not. ever. look. female. but im too far in now. Im locked in for the rest of my life as fucking this.

And when i get bottom surgery, it will be the same fucking shit.

i want to fucking dieeeeeeeeee oh my god.

#turned into a bit of a ramble.#was originally jusg gonna bitch about balls n shit.#if you are going to reply with some bullshit along the lines of “You are a women so you look like a woman” please kindly block me and also #die bestie oh my god i fucking hate that shit ao much #You know what the fuck i mean. Im not getting into semantics. You know what im talking about.#Also if your just gonna dismiss as internalized transphobia just like. Yea i know. Good job. Moms real proud of you for figuring that one #out you fucking genious. How ever did you realise?HMMMM 🤔#lmao bitches out here like “Waaa i wanna die” like ok donate your body to a local snuff enthusiast then pussy..#<- talkin bout myself lmao goteem fuckin faggot

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amaranthineghost · 3 months ago

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˗ˏˋ꒰ 🐟 ꒱ my american lover ( logan sargeant. )

logan sargeant x aussie!reader

in which a series of instagram posts causes the internet to think you're oscar's girlfriend

authors note: motivation these days is like trying to find water in a desert TvT doesn't help that this deleted the first time i tried to post it

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ynusername life lately

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user HELP THE OSCAR PICTURE?

user this was not on my 2024 bingo card

⤷ user it was not on mine either what 😭😭😭

user since when does yn know about oscar piastri?

⤷ user and since when was he in her likes???

oscarpiastri where did you even get that photo 🥲

⤷ ynusername mumma piastri has a soft spot for me 😊

⤷ oscarpiastri ah

user omg she knows oscar's mom too

user is this a soft launch???

⤷ user using oscar's photos from when he was a kid? i sure hope not 😭

⤷ user okay yeah, that'd be a little bit awkward, but why else would she post a picture of him in her photo dump

user twitter is gonna go crazy

⤷ user i can already see the threads

user does no one know that they're friends?

⤷ user i thought this was common knowledge atp because he has appeared in her previous posts...

⤷ user right, there's photos of them as kids karting together

user ynscar 🙏

⤷ user i found my people

user the ynscar rumors starting up again is wild

⤷ user well they never denied anything

⤷ user ...

⤷ user are you on something?

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ynusername what a view (the city, not oscar)

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user stop, she's so pretty...and he's there

lilymhe we need to hang out and take pictures! the boys will find something to entertain themselves 😘

⤷ ynusername asap! 🙏🏻 they see each other every day, whats another?

⤷ lilymhe exactly! 😊

⤷ alex_albon what am i being signed up for?

user oh my god, lily and yn planning a hangout with their boyfriends? so its confirmed?

⤷ user AND THEY SEE EACH OTHER EVERY DAY??? GOTTA BE!!!

oscarpiastri is this just your new thing to post random photos of me?

⤷ ynusername yeah pretty much

⤷ oscarpiastri great thanks

⤷ ynusername anytime 🙂‍↕️

user of all the photos of oscar she could've chosen, she used this one

⤷ oscarpiastri right

⤷ user OMG OSCAR ILY!!!

user am i the only one who doesn't believe the ynscar rumors?

⤷ user you aren't because it just doesn't make sense

⤷ user right like just because she started putting memes of him in her posts doesn't mean they are outright dating

logansargeant the view looks great!

⤷ ynusername its so gorjos! (you're not talking about oscar, right?)

⤷ logansargeant gorgeous, babe, and no, of course not (yeah, i might be)

⤷ ynusername (oscar isn't the view here!)

⤷ logansargeant (says who) (and why are we talking in parentheses)

⤷ ynusername (i don't know) (why are you talking in parentheses?)

⤷ logansargeant (i don't know, that's why i asked you)

⤷ ynusername (well i don't know either)

⤷ logansargeant (you've said)

⤷ user (what's going on?) (why did he call her babe???)

⤷ user (why are logan and yn talking?) (not on my 2024 bingo card)

⤷ user (well they both know oscar)

⤷ user (but he called her babe??)

user help all the replies to their comments being in parentheses as well 😭😭😭

user am i the only one who prefers yngan to ynscar

⤷ user nope!

⤷ user i love them so much, but it's probably unlikely and we don't see much interaction from them

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ynusername pov you're max verstappen at miami and you look in your mirrors

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user oh my god

user im speechless

user the soft launch with the meme of oscar was not on my list of things happening this season 😭

bsfusername you know you're never beating the rumors

⤷ ynusername sadly 😓😓😓

⤷ bsfusername okay but when was this tho

⤷ ynusername wdym 😋

⤷ bsfusername don't gaslight me

⤷ ynusername what's gaslighting???

⤷ bsfusername bitch.

⤷ user rumors? such as the ynscar rumors?

user logan in the likes?

⤷ user hes BEEN in the likes for a hot sc, you just couldn't see him lurking

oscarpiastri you're not coming to the next race

⤷ ynusername WHY NOT??? IM YOUR BIGGEST SUPPORT 🙏🏻

⤷ oscarpiastri support your boyfriend

❤️ by author + logansargeant

⤷ ynusername SHHHH!!!

user wait so oscar isn't her boyfriend?

user anyone see logan in the likes???

⤷ user gotta support the homie's girlfriend

⤷ user gotta

⤷ user they aren't dating 😭

user okay, but do we know FOR SURE oscar and yn are dating? they just seem like really close friends...?

⤷ user SOMEONE GETS IT

user real ones know that oscar and yn are childhood friends

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user PLEASE RESPOND TO THE RUMORS

user 1. you're dating oscar a. true b. false

user he doesn't even have the steering wheel 😭

ynusername 🤫

user oh my god im gonna faint, tell oscar and logan i love them

oscarpiastri you had the wheel

ynusername stupid, american cars amiright 🤣

oscarpiastri sure

ynusername okay no need for the attitude mr. im a formula 1 driver and am too cool for my BEST FRIEND IN THE ENTIRE WORLD!

oscarpiastri go bother your BOYFRIEND

ynusername okay

ynusername ...

ynusername you're supposed to feel bad

oscarpiastri 😐😑😐

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user the random middle of the day hard launch

⤷ user but im not complaining

logansargeant my kangaroo <3

⤷ ynusername EXCUSE ME???

⤷ logansargeant 😊

⤷ ynusername okay american eagle

oscarpiastri finally putting an end to the rumours i see

⤷ ynusername well you weren't going to do it so someone had to

⤷ oscarpiastri i thought it was common knowledge that i had a girlfriend that wasn't you

⤷ ynusername osc...im gonna hold your hand when i tell you this

⤷ oscarpiastri dont touch me

user the sass from oscar 😭😭

⤷ user i know right😭🫣

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logansargeant i love my aussie side

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user ON MY CELLULAR DEVICE???

oscarpiastri i thought i was your aussie side mate

⤷ logansargeant oh no, you are dw

⤷ ynusername probably why he put a picture of oscar in the hard launch

⤷ logansargeant you put one in the soft launch

⤷ ynusername fair point

user i was not expecting this (i was indeed expecting it)

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