#im not okay but like in the best way possible
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super soft dom!yunho x innocent subby!reader, kind of corruption, implied virginity maybe?? yunho is HUGE,, lots of praise #mulloey is beating the ‘only writes mean yunho’ allegations today!
rqs open :)
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“that’s it.” it comes out as a grunt, his face flushed as he forces his way inside you. your walls are clinging to him, strangling really, and it takes every ounce of strength not to drop all pretence of gentleness and just fuck you senseless right here and now.
but you’re too sweet for that; the look in your eyes is too loving and innocent for him to possibly hurt you in that way. you’re sniffling, teary-eyed with wet lips as you suck his thumb like it’s the only thing keeping you from breaking. “oh, fuck,” he groans. “so tight f’me, aren’t you?”
you whine, shaking hands clasped around his arm as he stretches you open. “y-yuyu,” you gasp. “nngh, hurts..”
“i know, baby,” he coos. “won’t hurt for much longer, yeah? just be good and open up for me, i’ll take care of you.”
you’re trying your best, he knows you are, but you’ve never taken anything like him before. he curses under his breath; at this rate he’s going to cum before he’s even started moving. you’re just too tight.
“baby,” he says. “gimme my hands back, okay? need em to push deeper, honey.”
he pulls his thumb from your mouth; you don’t have time to whine at the loss before he picks up your own hand, pushing your smaller fingers past your lips. “there’s a good girl,” he says. “suck your fingers, sweetheart, i’ve got you.”
he presses both of his hands down on your hips, holding you still and steady so he can finally get all the way in. he feels the moment you relax around him; the loud, pained squeals soften into low, pleasured moans and he smiles, pressing a kiss to your cheek. “there we go,” he coos. “you did it baby. i’m so proud of you.”
you grunt, squeezing your eyes shut. “yuyu, fuck— please move, i need—”
“sh, sh,” he smiles. “don’t worry, baby. i’m gonna fuck you now, gonna split you the fuck open. you want that?”
“please,” you groan. it’s muffled by your fingers still stuffed in your mouth and he can’t help but coo. he loves his pretty girl so fucking much. “please, yu. wanna— wanna feel you.”
“just relax,” he says. “don’t tense, pretty. just let me use you and you’re gonna feel me everywhere.”
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didn’t tag ppl cus this is super short n im not sure if ppl would wanna be tagged in short things or only my full fics.. hope u liked tho!
(as a side note,, for all my girlies/whoever who have struggled to make it fit at first this one goes out to u:)) it’s a super normal problem, with my first bf it took me several months to be able to fit him in at all even tho he was average! not every ‘first time’ (or even times after that) goes as well as it does in fics so you could easily imagine this as being their 10th, 11th time trying this bc sometimes ur body just won’t cooperate with ur brain ! see a doc if it’s bothering you but it’ll get better<3 love🖤🖤🖤)
#ateez smut#ateez hard hours#kpop smut#ateez x reader#ateez hard thoughts#jeong yunho smut#yunho smut#mulloey writes
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"now we got to choose who we want to be"
"like what?"
"whatever we want kid, whatever we want. "
and he chose to be her father.
#im not okay but like in the best way possible#thank you tbb and thank you hunter for surviving and becoming a sexy old man#grown up omega is so</33 hearybreakingly beautiful#techs death finally hitting me after a full year of positive denial chat this is gna be hard😭😭😭#the bad batch#tbb#the bad batch season 3#tbb season 3#tbb spoilers#the bad batch spoilers#star wars#star wars: the bad batch#tbb omega#tbb hunter#omega bad batch#hunter bad batch#sergeant hunter#tbb s3 spoilers#star wars tbb
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Vi is gifted kid burnout but in the english major way
#she’s the best characterization I’ve seen of gifted kid burnout outside of super-genius characters#like. as a burnt out gifted kid by legal designation. she is me#trying to succeed at everything because that’s what you’re told to do or what you think needs to be done to be worth anything to anyone#being rigid to change because it’s not being done right but at the same time accepting change so long as people stay with you#and also how that ties in with being an eldest sibling#because ik folks love the whole ‘gifted kid jinx’ thing (not me but ya’ll do you) but ya’ll—#YA’LL DO NOT UNDERSTAND MY NEED FOR BURNT OUT ACADEMIC VI—#because Vi never got the chance to be a kid and learn and grow and find what she actually enjoyed in the world outside of the last drop crew#but look at her. the way she speaks and the way she tried to teach powder the lessons she earned the hard way in the gentlest way possible#in the way she so desperately clings on to people and memories#my girl would be a WRITER#my girl would be writing poetry drunk in her shitty basement apartment after hooking up with a girl#my girl would be writing novellas in prison and getting her degree#because you know she sees the world like a romantic. her world is art and emotion and devotion. to her family. to anything she cares about#i need more literary! student vi. i need more academic vi. i need more grudging debate-team captain vi#i need vi getting her own place and having an extensive book collection that she develops because of the loneliness#Her gkb is going from a leader & soldier to someone who could be useful regardless to someone who is useless & being okay w/ it ->#to being needed again and not knowing how to handle it but knowing she refuses to fuck it up this time#GIVE ME VI W/ MY GIFTED KID ARCCCCCC#this probs makes no sense and is like 4 tangents but I’ll expand on it later ‘cause im tired#coherency is for losers and the well-rested#vi arcane#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#arcane season two#vi
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ARE THEY A WOMAN WHO LOVES WOMEN?
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*TL;DR she is technically not a canon lesbian, so no, this poll does not break my rules. i am, however, going to treat her as canon sapphic due to the rule of BFFR. as a result, i have taken out the usual "they're not attracted to women" options. see tags if you want more detail
#poll#homura akemi#puella magi madoka magica#madoka magica#pmmm#wlw poll#sapphic poll#OKAY. SO.#i got an ask requesting every pmmm girl#which to be honest i was kind of dreading literally because of her. but i WILL see every request through if i can help it.#i agonized over this very very badly#did a bunch of reading and searching#the most i could scrape up is that her relationship and feelings towards madoka are STILL frustratingly ambiguous in terms of canonicity#despite being Extremely Freaking Blatant#anyway what i mean by 'rule of BFFR' is i am going to honor word of god as best i can. but i refuse to be obtuse.#i can accept that TECHNICALLY there's nothing saying she couldn't be wlw in a way that's not lesbian#i can accept seeing her as 'madokasexual' rather than specifically lesbian#or thinking of her as bi bc she hasn't interacted enough with men to rule it out or bc she would love madoka even if madoka wasn't a girl#but i am not going to concede to the possibility that she is just not wlw#that's too stupid even for me#sure you can argue she's not canon sapphic with a particularly stretchy train of logic! you can use logic to any end! but: BFFR!#hence. this poll may proceed.#sorry again if this makes like no sense i can never tell if im making sense or not
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Bro I’ll be so honest, I’ve just kinda been a silent observer of your profile for a while now, and I genuinely think you are the funniest person ever. Like everytime you post I need to make sure I’m alone because my family will yell at me for being too loud 😭😭
omg....... i love you............
no like this actually makes me so happy to hear,, thank you for telling me this. bc when im writing smaus it really does feel like im in an echo chamber where i've created like 10 versions of me all talking to each other and when its time to post it. i sit there and im like. is anyone but me going to actually like this shit..,....
#thank you for breaking your silence bc i needed this.....#also me searching up 'shadow sad. shadow in agony. shadow upset.' for a proper reaction image. it took a few tries but i got this one#the best way i can describe how it feels to write smaus in the most geniune way possible is that it feels like the wonderland system.#and each enha member is a different facet of my conciousness.#okay im gonna stfu now im just saying shit bc im really procrastinating my hw#anons ♡
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Someone please tell me this is really happening👀🙏
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[PROCEEDS TO RECREATE ISABELLE ADJANI GOING TITS OFF INSANE IN THE TUNNEL SCENE OF POSSESSION IN THE OFFICE BATHROOM]
WASN'T SEA ALSO SPOTTED AT THE GMMTV BUILDING TODAY AND WEREN'T THEY BOTH SEEN WITH P'THA TOO OH THEY WERE SO THERE TO DISCUSS THEIR NEW SERIES AND MAKE THE FINAL PREPARATIONS BEFORE FILMING THE MOCK TRAILER I CAN FEEL IT IN MY TIDDIES AND DEEP INTO MY HEART OF HEARTS IT’S TIME TO DUST OFF THE CLOWN SHOES AND SET THE WIG IN PLACE AND PUT THE MAKE UP ON (who am i kidding, it never came off, that shit’s permanent at this point) LIKE NOT TO BRING UP THE SIGNS AGAIN BUT THEY ARE INDEED SIGNING FR THIS TIME AND IM READY TO GO ABSOLUTELY BALLS TO THE WALL BATSHIT FUCKING CRAZY DERANGED ABOUT IT
EVEN WITH ALL OUR CLOWNERY WE WILL BE THE PREVAILING CLOWNS FOR ALL FUTURE CLOWNS TO LOOK UP TO AND THAT'S THAT ON THAT
#OKAY BUT LIKE SERIOUSLY#in 2024 they had to ride the last twilight hype train i get it whatever#but they can't let the JIMMYSEA HYPE die down now that it's at its peak#so not giving them a new series for 2025 wouldn't benefit anyone#SO LOOK AT ME @ P'THA#ANYWAY THANK YOU FOR SENDING ME THIS ANON IM NOW SPIRALLING IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE#I NEED THEM TO ANNOUNCE THE DATE FOR GMMTV 2025 SOON OR IM GONNA LIVEBLOG IT FROM THE PSYCH WARD#ANYWAY x2. i hope you're having a wonderful day anon!!!!! 💜#jimmy jitaraphol#jimmysea#gmmtv 2025#m: ask
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QSMP kidnappings
THEY HAVE A PROBLEM
have you noticed just how much kidnapping there is in QSMP?
here is the list:
1.Forgot how many but all the frozen ppl
2.the worker BBH kidnaped
3.Fred
4.Quackity
5.evryone on purgatory
6.a code monster aperently
7.all of the eggs. More than once
8:trapping phill in a fucking birdhouse
9. team bolas kidnapped tina
conclusion: kidnapping is good ,as long as its for plot
#qsmp federation#qsmp#qsmp eggs#qsmp purgatory#qsmp cucurucho#its concerning#like why are there so many#someone needs to talk to quackity#cause this is not okay#and no#im not over the bird house shit#that was horrible#but in the best way possible#whenever someone gets kidnapped i am adding it to this post
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i ship inhun in a way that differwnt and more swagful than anyone else btw.
#TBFHHHHH i know i know i knowwww i say a lot. but i dont even ship in in the traditional sense#i dont think it will b canon and i dont rlly WANT it to b canon. its just insane like ZAMNNNNN why r u looking at each other like thatatttt#i dont think that if (IF) inho reveals his identity gihun is gonna magically b like Oh my god… okay well i like u now. more the opposite#and i dont think inho genuinely likes gihun all that much. i think hes obsessed w him in a way that borders on it but. u know#to inho gihun mostly just represents the parts of himself hes locked away. hes like the person inho used to be or cld have been#i think he DOES want whats best for gihun but like. just in his own opinion#to him whats best is to just.. pretend these issues dont exist and move on.#i think being wrapped up in the games is sickening no mattter what side ur on and he knows this. and just wants gihun to forget#i also do think he sees Something special in gihun. but its not like Ahhhh come and rule by my side 😈 LOL#yeah like i said. the recognition of the self. DONT GO DOWN THIS PATH MAN FUCK OFFFFFF#um. also yeah gihun i dont think wld have such a thrn around to like date himmmm oh my god lol#i think its likely hell end up Not killing inho for various reasons and possibly even leaving room for redemption#but yeah i dont think he wld ever trust him even. i dont think he wld let all that slide 😭😭😭#gihun x youngil is bantssss. but not real at all sadly#rhe best fic i read of them was a pre series fic where inho wasnt the front man yet. and he met gihun by chance#and kinda used him to convince himself that what he was doing was right. For The Greater Good etc#i cant remember what it was called but it was sooo good i need to find it sometime#sniff….. living in a sad world where every body mischaracterises them sooooo bad and evil.#THE BEST INHUN CONTENT was the animation of them over the megamind breakup scene. MY GOD#ill be honest. igaf abt their dynamic soooo hard but htemain reaosn i ‘ship’ them is bc theyre both INSANELY FINE. AND I NEED THEM BADLY#and. im obsessed w them separately. so of course they are making out sloppy style in my mind#ill b honest as well i dont think gihun is in the right state of mind for aany of That AT ALLLL rn either.#and as well w inho not being intersted in that way. and also he shot his brother bc it was aconflict of interests. btw.#whatever tho lol the memes and shit r funny as fuckkkkk so idc. keep fucking#anyways sangihun 🔛🔝 for fucking everrrrrer in terms of an actual ship#tho i dont think they wld ever be canon either. well i mean. for obvious reasons#but also bc i dont PERSONALLY think sangwoo wld ever allow himself that. BYE#idk idk idk maybe i am wrong and i know nothing.#SORRY. ik i am fighting invsisible demons again i just saw a post abt Sickos who know Nothing abt the Themes…. NO GUYS.. PROMMY THATS NOT ME
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Dear you,
I’ll always be a little bit in love with you. You’ll never be in love with me the same way I love you. I hate that I’m ok with that. I’d rather love you like this and hurt at night than tell. I’d rather know you’ll never look at me the same way but will still look at me in a way that counts. I’ll forever want to hold you and squeeze you into my heart until there’s no room left for anything else but you’re not mine. You’re my best friend, my other half, I’d share my soul with you if you asked. I’d sink my teeth in so deep they’d need to use surgery to make me let you go but I won’t. Why’d I fall in love with my best friend. Am I actually in love with you? Or do I adore you too much as my friend. Do I cherish you too much that I mistake whatever this is for love. We laugh and say we’ll live together. We discuss the little things. We both know I would hold and touch you constantly if you let me. We discuss stupid things like what our combined religions and traditions would look like if we had kids. But you’ll never be attracted to me. You never will. You say over and over oh no I could never. We talk about our what ifs and then you crush me with your reality. A random person miles and miles away has more hold on the romance in your heart than I ever will. And I’m ok. I will be ok. I will hold my title close and wrap it in wire and chain and never let it go. Best friend best friend best friend forevermore. That title in your mind and heart and soul will be mine. My greedy hands will never let that go. Love me as much as you are allowed to. It’s enough.
Love,
Me
#im dying#heartache#best friends#why am i like this#unrequited feelings#love#bad poetry#i need this to stop#I’m crying at 2 am#wlw yearning#why did god have to make her so perfect and then crush my soul by making it so I can’t be beside her#my heart hurts#teeth#we talked about kids once as if we would actually have them#she hurts me in the worst ways possible#I love her#i’ll be okay#I’ll sleep on it#i cried for like an hour#my mascara is ruined#I’m going to hate myself in the morning#I hate my life#Cupid is an asshole#I want to bite her#bite her until you can only see me on her#yet every time I see her I ask before I hug her#I ask every time#I think I’ve written all my feelings out#I’ll be empty#that’s good
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i wish i had never been born but other than that i'm taking things well i think ❤️
#suicidal ideation tw#this is mainly a joke im not fr depressed or suicidal abt breaking up w a guy after 3 weeks#just feels like there's no hope for love in my life now more than ever before and life is so hard in general#and i would never ever harm myself bc i wouldnt put my family through that and life is a precious gift etc#but dang i wish i wasn't here rn sometimes#anyway goodnight#im fr okay it was a tbought that crossed my mind but im not serious lol 😂#this is ok to rb im not actually in crisis lol#this has been a shitpost#i am generally taking it well actually#possibly bc im delulu hoping wr get back together but i can also recognize the issues in the relationship and almost broke it off myself#the night before#tbh i might not get back together with him if the opportunity presents itself bc i'm not convinced it's just a timing issue#as far as the issues go the timing is the only one i cant live with but it would pass#the other stuff i could live with but if he cant then those things aren't going away so its for the best but i think he's wrong#two people dont need to share all the same interests and passions in order to work as long as they're willing to grow together and i was#so idk its his loss really#but also living is so hard and dating is literally hell get me out of hereeeee#i felt this way BEFORE him and then i had a little glimmer of hope like oh wait love is real i could def fall for this guy#and now it's bleaker than ever before#but at least i know i'm capable of love ig 😒
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As for my post this morning. If anyone was worried. Me personally I'm okay (I guess) but my dad's in the hospital and things r still very up in the air. So.
#speculation nation#bracing myself for the possibility of Major Grief.....2!!!!#well actualy more like 3 or 4 or 5 (lol lol lol)#but likely the worst one bc it's. my dad. that's my dad.#i left work early to visit him at the hospital. hes stable rn at least (he wasnt this morning)#he wasnt conscious though. and i really really hope he ends up okay#but. i still saw my dad unconscious in a hospital bed hooked up to like a million tubes and#thats my dad. Thats my Dad.#im really trying to not do my processing until after i know for sure how things are gonna go#dont wanna start grieving until after he's officially gone#so im trying not to think about it. but it's still... yeah. unpleasant.#and theres a part of me thats so so resentful. if i have to have a dead parent why would it be the Good one?#take my fucking mom instead. hell my life would even be BETTER without her. horrible as that is to say.#but it's my dad. he's not perfect. he has his flaws. but he's still tried in a way she never ever did.#seeing him like that makes me feel so... small. makes me remember being picked up by him.#makes me remember riding on the back of his harley as a tiny little 10 year old with a helmet that was giant on me#we'll hope for the best. we'll hope for a recovery. even if not a full recovery. i just want to have my dad.#sorry. this is probably too real for my tumblr dot com. it's just been... a lot today.#negative/#death/#hospitals ment/#idfk. sorry
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OMG
#WHERE DO I BEGIN#CHRONOLOGICALLY I GUESS#omg the whiplash beat is so insane so addicting literally a cyperpunk meets vogue and make it SICKENING af#i'm so happy i can always trust in my girls to deliver with the title tracks that's so crazy#they have an incredible run#NEXT#KILL IT !!!!!!????? DONT PISS ME OFFFFFFFFFF#literally if i could craft a perfect cunty badass aespa bside it would sound somewhat exactly like this ....#it's so good i'm in awe i can't imagine how good the rest will be#FLIGHTS NOT FEELINGSSSS#the floating figure on her back so true that's me levitating when the song came through my headphone speakers#i will be soooooooo annoying about that song that's literally such an henna song you guys wouldn't understand#time to make that my entire personality#the sme rnb goodness on the beat???????????? don't piss me off#PINK HOODIE#OKAY a fun track i like it maybe not as much as the previous ones but bet i'm gonna be addicted to it when it comes out#it's kinda reminding me of earlier piwon bsides but edgier?? if that makes sense?? but i mean this in the best way possible#FLOWERRSSSSS#AGAIN i neeeeed someone to gif that dancing girl from the video for me ARE YOU JOKING SHES ME#like ae ning dancing like that one kermit the frog meme PLEASEEEE I NEEED ITTTTTT#also the song literally sme rnb perfection again this album is perfect#obsessed!!!!!#JUST ANOTHER GIRL#OMG SCREAM ANTHEM#i hooooooope they play this at the concert so i can scream it with them i looooove it!!!!!!!#licorice sister that has her room right across from hers and with sparkly letters on her door#CONCLUSION this albums is already perfect i couldn't have wished for better tracks i'm seriously so pumped#so much rnb goodness im so happy sm finally listened and gave the girls the bsides they deserve!!!!!!!!!!!#thank you for coming to my ted talk everyone#if you made it this far i love you <3
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i am just...so profoundly tired of being me
#char.txt#there is something that is so revolting about me I am incapable of shaking the shame of it#Theres nothing i can do to make myself happy its just not possible i think i have to accept that#but im tired of pretending for other people its so stupid#everything feels fake even when im being honest i dont know who this person is anymore#its just stupid idk im thinking about too many things#my life feels like it exists for other peoples entertainment and if im not interesting im failing and im wasting peoples time and energy#but i can't be alone anymore I legitimately cannot be alone anymore ive tried so hard it only makes things worse#I need to feel wanted and maybe its something im missing thats keeping me from feeling that way#but I feel so deeply that when i stop being funny or when the person ppl actually want to talk to comes around ill stop being relevant#i dont exist to people when im not infront of them and...idk i have to be okay with that because im never anything more#and like this genuinely isnt a dig because there are people who I am friends with who have access to see this and I don't want you to feel#like its something youve done cause its not your fault its kind of not even about any of you or the ppl wholl never see this#Its something im missing its something about me and i dont deserve cruelty ik that#but i can't make anyone want me more than they do and thats alright#i just know that ill always be second fiddle at best and it just exausts me sometime#its be easier if I liked me but I wouldnt wish my presence upon anyone#but im selfish and i need the attention or ill actually self destruct so here we are this is my boulder
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haaaaiiii guyyyyssss (gn) probably gonna be on here more often again soon. life events occurring. have occurred? still occurring, i suppose.
i'll probably post abt it more in depth at some ltr point, still in the very early stages of some stuff. i dont want to classify them as positive or negative things, however they're certainly things.
there's a lot of thoughts in my brain (hah), and ultimately i want to share them, but for now this is kind of me waving at everyone with a smile while my life has an "under construction" sign
#the last sentence also pertains to system stuff bc there was a major split from a significant alter#so like imagine an 'under new management' sign as well#not a host shift tho afaik but the split has resulted in a new fronter who's very active and has been co-con very frequently since#i've been having a Time recently in ways i'll ltr divulge abt but i finally established a solid communication with her today and that helped#i dont know how many splits/alters had broken off because intuition is saying a few but she's the most present and active in my awareness#i think we settled on her name being Lily but that may not be concrete#for a few alters i get like a single letter for their name and i try to work with them to find a name within that letter that feels right#one of my oldest and closest alters has only had the letter 'E' for the longest time and he and i cant find a solid name yet#every now and again im like 'edgar??? edwin??? edward??? emil???' and he's like 'fuck if i know' so like. fair enough dude.#i wonder if he'd like ez/ezara given that's a name we picked for ourselves pre-diagnosis however he doesn't fit that name in my opinion#ANYWAY. Lily is a teen girl in very much every way possible and she's very much an ANP#she is loved but as i type that she made it clear she's having an eyeroll reaction but that is the best i've got lol#i dont really mention system members often on here and mention them moreso to friends however i have a feeling she'll want a sideblog tbh#which is not something i've created/done for alters before as generally most of the system choose to be more private#but she seems extremely social and i want to give her her own space#i hesitate to give her an okay posting on her own on here mainly because i am an adult and i consider this blog an adult space#but im also okay discussing her in reference if that makes dense#anyway. yeah. as you can probably imagine shit has been Going On given there was a major split/restructuring but again that's for later#that's enough rambling from me lol ttyl
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went to the theater today and did not watch either Barbie or Oppenheimer but a secret third thing (2022 chinese suspense drama Lost in the Stars/消失的她 (it was good and i liked it))
#had to go all the way into the city for it but worth it#as usual with cn films there was no poster advertising it and it was shoved in a corner#i spent a good portion of the run time trying to figure out if the male lead was tony leung before realizing he was like two decades too#young oops#anyways! i thought the plot was good and the weird things i brushed off as just part of story telling actually make sense in light of the#solution#also lawyer chen is peak girlboss in the best way possible#im in love with her okay??#lost in the stars
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Listening to Girl in Red's i wanna be your girlfriend on repeat in my room alone rn. No reason. Just for funsies.
#me when i LIE#actually sobbing because I think I have a crush on my best friend but I don't think she likes me like that#but really I'm not sure because she's been more friendly with me lately adn has been dropping what MIGHT be hints#also we already technically dated but that was when I was a boy and also in like seventh grade so#would she think it's wierd for us to date again?#also i might be dropping what she might be seeing as hints but really aren't#like I told her my favorite girl in red song is i wanna be your girlfriend#because we were talking about girl in red#which i am okay with her seeing as a hint#but also i was joking about how i like dick because i do because when i think dick i think girl dick but when she thinks dick#she thinks man dick and she went#wait arent you a lesbian? and i am but everytime this comes up the conversation changes before i can plead my case#so now im worried she thinks thats a hint that i dont like her because shes cis and i dont make jokes about how i like pussy because#imposter lesbian syndrome#also we were having a class meeting about prom and she said TWICE#id like to be on the prom court#and BOTH TIMES i not only didnt pick up the possible hint i fucking BUNGLED it and accidentally shut her down by saying#no way me too#but i think we'd have to go with guys ew#cause you know they dont do two queens or two kings#but our school does let you choose what ballot you want to be on#so ive been wondering if we could go together and one of us signs up on the king list and just dresses butch#the problem with that is i would want to do a rock paper scissors#hehe scissors lesbian#thing and thats how we decide who will be butch#but i cant risk losing because i dont pass well enough to pull off a suit as a girl#i wouldnt want to force her to do that though#even though she would probably look cute in a suit#raven caws
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