#im not awake i swear im sleeping

[jacobseed]

peace-bringer.

[dabihaul666]

it reeeeeally sucks that the depression comes for my light sensitivity and energy levels first because there is nothing fucking more that i love than to stay up at night looking at brightly lit screens

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

huhhh

[strmpt]

update: finished all of my assignments on tuesday night. forever. im actually really done with school. i graduate on saturday omggggggggg

im so fucking burnt out. it will probably be a while before im like. okay again lmfao at least as far as drawing. i miss it but wowzers. i dont have it in me.

but anyway rrraaaaaahhhhhhh graduation rraaaaahhhhhhhhh

[xamaxenta]

Omg fam ur so not alone about the sleeping thing, my partner has both some health issues and also just a completely different sleep schedule from me that makes us sleeping together difficult, and a small apartment that makes it difficult to separate ourselves. And like. It's not his fault but its FRUSTRATING so I feel u ❤❤

😔😔😔Its frustrating bc its not her fault but also it kinda is bc i keep asking for basic communication

Im like hey are you coming to sleep in the next hour

And shes like in twenty mins

Which turns into two hours and im not going to dog her or ask again so i have to roll with the concept shes showing up whenever

I also sleep light so without fail if she comes in three hours later i wake up and it takes a while for me to return to sleeping

Its just a combination of stuff that makes this scenario like she doesnt say anything like dawg all i want is for u to poke your head in or msg me like im not gonna sleep yet but she gets mad abt it like its not super late!! FOR YOU ITS NOT you also work from home :/

Thats it and ill just bury myself under the covers n hope i dont wake up when she does come in

[tangledinink]

BE SO SAD ON MAIN BE SUPER DUPER SAD ON MAIN BC YOU DESERVE TO LET YOUR FEELINGS OUT!

Well if you insist 💖

I wanna go to sleep but I can already tell ima have a spooky dream if I do so I’m just like :((( sad.

[captainimprobable]

broskis im gonna be honest with you, i do not see a point.

this is not a suicidal post, this is not a cry for help and i am not a danger to myself, and i am in communication with my therapist.

but like. i genuinely do not see a way out. i tried for months. my life was falling apart and i stayed positive! i didnt break down, i handled it, i survived it, i believed in a future that existed.

but its come to a point where i cant do that anymore. i cant pretend that theres hope for some sort of magic solution to come from heaven and fix everything. because i tried EVERYTHING. i worked SO HARD. and im still here. in the same place. im still sitting here with my life falling apart around me and i have tried every single thing i could possibly think of and there is nothing left to do.

the only things im really good at right now are sleeping and scrolling tbh. i am going to spend my entire life rotting in my childhood bedroom while everyone around me experiences all the things i've ever wanted but am apparently not allowed to have.

how am i expected to keep going if there's nowhere to go?

[kellystar321]

me, 12 AM: okay gotta sleep for school now

brain: yeah okay.

brain, 3 AM: hey good morning. that was enough sleep right?

[toxicrevolver]

My brain feels like soup, and my skin feels like bees.

[adolins-heart]

I am yet again asking if any of my followers/mutuals have chronic, debilitating, horrible insomnia and if you do pls share your tips

[aria0fgold]

I'm awake... And let it be known that while I was in a manic state of getting that post bout Mel up, I was confused frozen by the "Wanted to work as a full-time fashion designer one day" cuz I didn't realize that (i was like possessed by his ghost i swear to god it was the realization of a lifetime) until I typed it out and I was like "wai why haven't he worked as one now? what... have i been doing..."

It was like a moment where I realized that I was like an absent mom to him where I know so much bout his past but nothing bout his present so now I gotta write bout him more else I'd explode.

[izzy-b-hands]

Me sitting here, feeling vaguely less shit: Time do things??? !!!

My body as soon as i get up and actually try to do things: How about more feeling so hot you'll die and dizziness? What abt that, motherfucker?

Me: ...or not, fucking SORRY for WANTING TO BE PRODUCTIVE. How dare I, apparently

[crescentmp3]

reading old conversations continues to give me terroble terrible psychic damage, it turns out.

[hacksawboy]

while im in the shitting on horseshit hotel train reminder that bulletstorm came out like 13 years before the prime release of hh and had similar humor (what with the INSANELY frequent swearing and small crude sexual references, it surprisingly doesnt have a lot of outright sexual humor like handjob hotel or wtv tf) but it balanced it out so well and made it actually fucking funny by 1. being a semi satirical game 2. having other jokes inbetween this 3. in some cases having this offensive humor thats portrayed so over the top like its a fucking south park episode 4. BEING AN ACTUALLY WELL WRITTEN FUCKING GAME. like you can make vulgar media and have it be good and pretty fucking funny, that isnt the issue!! the issue is w how vivziepop did it, the whole show doesnt feel like it was made for an adult audience, it feels like it was made for 14 y/o tumblr middleschoolers, like it wouldve been right at fucking home on tumblr in like 2015.

[kites-life-insurance-fics]

Sometimes, I feel like a fangirl