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beomsl · 2 months ago

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Idk if you know this guy but

if you don't

I'll give you one chance to say who does he remind you of 🙃

(I love this guy sm jsndj)

i-it's... h-him...?

no, i don't know him but now i want to! who is he?? he's pretty

i love your nails btw they're beautiful 🩶🩶

#katie 🤎#is leehan isn't it #im nervous i dont want to get it wrong

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iknowicanbutwhy · 2 years ago

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Oh, so she's kind of trendy? Cool cool

#art #fanart #hi-fi rush #roxanne vandelay #chai hi fi rush #*attempts simple background* it's not working why isn't it WORKING #hi fi rush #hi fi rush spoilers #spoilers #im marking spoilers because well. you dont get to see her colored-in and not made of stone/metal until the end so #I couldn't find any Roxanne pictures on google so i had to scour some cutscenes and make myself a ref #i love her ok? her family makes me think of mine and i just want everything to be okay #I also feel like Chai would be kind of nervous around her to start with. Who wouldn't be a little overwhelmed by a big business lady who #solved a global energy crisis and is also Pep's mom and who is also currently housing Chai more or less for free?#i would. i would be #i left out the thing on her collarbone. looked a little sus. like mind-control sus. i could be wrong #anyways reason 15 why i love peppermint: i love her mom too and i want everything to work out ;-;

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s0fti3w1tch · 2 years ago

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oooo is td gonna have an IDW situation where it's like Leo's dark Leo split personality by the aftermath? Maye that;d be cool

I'm not going to do that.

I know you have good intentions, but as the host of an OSDD system, I want to tell you that this isn't right.

I have a lot of feelings about IDW's whole Dark Leo situation after the events of City Fall story arc. Though, even regardless of those feelings, there are very few situations where giving a character an evil alter sits right with me (which is to say, I've seen good hypothetical story ideas from other systems, but never one from a notable published work).

In the way you're suggesting, this is not one that sits right.

This is a tired, harmful trope that I do not wish to include in my work.

I am not saying you are a bad person who meant to inflict harm. I simply wish to inform you as someone who has been harmed by the various misconceptions relating to those like us.

#buwan answer #I just wanted to get this ask out of the way before I do anything else #it's a pretty important subject to me #i don't really mention the fact that i'm a host of a system at all #this is one of if not the only post where i feel comfortable enough to mention it #other alters don't come in when using this acc so most if not all posts are me (buwan)— or at the very least im co-fronting so like #don't worry about getting who you're talking to wrong #I was extremely nervous about posting this tbh #but I just needed to say something about this at least #i dont think i should put this under my au tag tbh

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lottieurl · 2 years ago

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in a hilarious turn of events the things i love most about s2 are the same things that make me worry about the future of the show. hear me out. s2 lottie is absolutely everything to me but IF they even had that planned while writing s1 the transition from late s1 lottie to s2 lottie is very very jarring. and then you have mistycrystal storyline which i just do not believe was something they planned during s1 and if they did then they handled it poorly. cause crystal should have been at the very least name dropped during s1 or something else should have hinted at what is being now portrayed as genuinely traumatic. and of course you can find ways to explain all of that. i did! but i'm not really talking about in-universe type explanation but what i see on screen and what i think IS concerning because IF they don't have the entirety of what happened in the wilderness mapped out in their heads then the characterization of the adults will always be unstable and shaky and inconsistent for seasons to come

#sorry for being a doomer #im still loving most of this dont get me wrong #but this is things i was noticing from ep 1 and after last ep i think it's becoming hard to ignore #and i have watched nearly 200 tv shows lmao i know what can and usually dooms them #and i really hope im wrong here cause i want this show to be phenomenal until the very end #but s2 doesnt quite feel like a Continuation of the show its moreso a new thing building on s1 if that makes sense #idk makes me nervous #we'll see i guess what happens #im gonna stop posting abt the worries now tho just needed to get it out of my system #yellowjackets spoilers #yellowjackets blogging

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 11 months ago

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alexis said morally gray yan!gojo and now my brain is . Poisoned

#I DONT WVEN REALLY LIKE YAN!CONTENT BUT ;;;;;;;;;#i am. thinking abt him #may or may not have started writing something #may or may not be a little obsessed w him #just . yan!gojo who truly treasures you … who knows he’s a little ill…….. who would never cage you in #so he just . bends the world into a kinder shape for u instead #alexis mentioned him threatening ur prof’s family to get u an a because ur classes have been stressing u out and IM JUST ;;;;; (i need him)#like he really truly does want u to be happy above all else its SO important to him its what he lives for #he’d never ever hurt u i dont think he’d hurt anyone u care abt either bc that would stress u out #so he limits killings to ppl u meet in passing. murders youll never learn abt #like some guy catcalls you in public and you flinch and look nervous and the moment the two of you make it to the restaurant he booked #he excuses himself to go to the “restroom” and when he comes back there’s a shine in his eyes that wasnt there before #YK??????#alexis if u see this . when i catch u…..#like i legitimately am not a huge yan fan cuz im squeamish lol BUT ill make an exception for yan!gojo he could do no wrong <3333 #ari noises ✩

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ratwars · 1 month ago

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I love pavloving myself with music for writing I've done it twice now and it has made it so easy to pick things up. First with the Roses and Revolutions coffee shop playlist for Angel Collective, now with The Cure's Disintegration for The Same Deep Water as You. It is like a cheat code to productivity, but it only works if the music fits my writing and that is not something I can just conjure up every time.

#i also usually cant write with lyrics going on unless the sound is very very low. but there seems to be exceptions.#-pers #anyways im having my fave chard and trying to write for the next two hours and resist the urge to go to bed too early then toss and turn #and wake up too early #i have accomplished nothing today except edit and publish that chapter. and i just want it to be tomorrow already so i can get it over with #i think it is this nerve wracking this time because every other time i have walked into situations like this is below my capability and #they are underpaying me off the bat. i dont even want to be in this state. i dont want to be here. i hate all of you fucks and i havent eve #met you because im miserable already and you wont prove me wrong (i have to admit despite the bullshit at my last place they kinda did #in some ways. but were worse in other ways. a mixed bag)#but this time those things dont apply. i want to make a good impression. i want this to work. they arent underpaying me for the role #(though eventually i really need to make more to afford my loans and bills)#they seem like a decent org and the job seems interesting as heck. in my wheelhouse in terms of skill with only a couple downsides #but the downsides will keep me busy. idk. the hours are perfect to if i must work 40 hours then this is the best schedule for me to #not have my career make my sleep issues any worse #than they already are. and the commute is negligible #so of course i am more nervous i guess.#i just want it to be bed time. blah #i feel like i am in stasis but at least i can write

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bunnyboy-juice · 2 months ago

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honestly. being able to be honest with my loved ones about when i am Mentally Unwell but also Dont Want To Talk About It has done wonders for my mental health

#its nice just being able to tell people “im not okay! please dont focus too much on me tho!” and have them respect it #instead of doing things that will trigger me bc they are uncomfortable w the fact that im not okay #i deeply appreciate others sitting in their discomfort/holding the discomfort with me instead of comforting me #and like i get that ppl who offer space or time or comforts are trying to care for me but tbh its not welcome most of the time #bc when I'm upset often times it triggers deep emotional pain that only i can really manage by taking time to sit and calm down and Feel #(bc if not it becomes a flashback instead of Feelings from being Triggered) and having my attention diverted is actually distressing for me #bc i have to be grounded in very specific ways also that i just dont usually have the energy to explain bc like... i know how to do it?#and like also. i can just be Not okay. it doesnt have to be a Thing for me to acknowledge it #iderk what the point of this tag ramble is #im just like. really glad ive found people who understand that im not Avoidant just bc i have different needs bc of how my nervous system i #also if its not clear: please do not offer comforts for this. i am handling my own feelings and issues i just kinda wanna talk about it #also reminding myself its okay to not want to be comforted and that doesnt mean im Wrong or Bad or Resistant or Harming myself #(also ngl having a therapist who understands that certain coping skills may never go away but can be modified to be more useful is LIFE #CHANGING. DO YOU KNOW HOW FREEING IT WAS TO HEAR SOMEONE WHO ISNT CRAZY SAY “i can see how [these things] can be distressing and if you wan #to stop doing them we can explore new coping skills - AND if the distress from these coping skills is shame related we can work through it #and see what happens and its okay if you come out the other side using the same coping skills with a better understanding of yourself “#when most of my life every coping skill ive ever engaged in has been moralized (esp by therapists) and attempted to be beaten out of me.)#also I'm saying “comfort me” thru this bc even tho it's not actually comforting TO me when ppl do this ik thats usually their intent

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nomairuins · 2 months ago

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loveee when a character is crushed under the weight of someone elses expectations for them love when a character dedicates their entire life to something they never even wanted for themself love when the only reason a character keeps going is because theyre Supposed to and bc theyre supposed to make another person happy/proud. YES !!! CLAPPING !!! YES !!!!!!!!

#this isnt rly related to any character in particular i just thought abt this and it made me scream.#flirting at a bar Damn girl you look like youre trapped in a life you built to please someone else. and then i kneel down and pull out a 💍#sry i ran out of space for the full word ring. also why when i type 💍 Ohh theyre hiding it. bc now the emoji is 💍 Oh they changed it again #pox on their home..originally it was 🔐 sughested emoji #but then the second time it was 😭.... very anti marriage. well ig maybe the sob could be like OMG... YES!!!!! I WILL MARRY YOU!!!!!!#ngl getting proposed to is such a big fear of mine like. i dont think id ever be able to propose to someone so id have to be proposed to i #suppose but it makes me quite nervous not bc im like ohh nooo dont propose i just rly worry ill react the wrong way and theyll change their #mind. like its a very high emotion moment so ik i would be supposed to be emotional And i would be but idk if id do it in the right way . y #idk. what if my autism looms and i end up just being like 😐 on accident. fuckkk. what if i say somethinf dumb. like i try to be like YES !#but instead im like YEP! god. can you imagine. id have to just bury myself at that point. so embarassing. or like what if i get excited and #flap my hands but it was supposed to be more of a like. joyful crying type of thing... or what if im supposed to just be shocked and like .#Oh my god ....#and am I supposed to run at them and sweep them into a hug or do they do thst to me. UGH. ITS SO STRESSFUL. i suppose ill just remain alone #forever so I never have to confront any difficult situations ever again . Joke .#idk it just makes me nervous. but i suppose hopefully the person proposing to me will love me . that would be nice so hopefully they wont #mind if i dont respond the right way . and they wont be upset with me bc they love me eversomuch. a girl can dream i suppose... my head lik #is pounding sry. i need to sleep probably.. stayed up too late again -_- 8am -_- and im sposed to do laundry today But i dont want to . and #since im gonna fall asleep i fear it shant happen. UGHHH #wtvr. idk what my ideal proposal would be likeee. i don't want to be blindsided ig #i like surprises but Obviously im too worried abt like. my immediate reaction #+ i think its important to talk abt marriage Before proposing just so everybodys like #on the same page and such. Obvs... but ya. i dont think id want a super public proposal like. id like it to be somewhere nice with maybs #significance to our relationship and such. and its fine if theres like Some passersby but id hate for it 2 be like. somewhere crowded. or i #a restaurant or something #Altho if it was in a restaurant maybe we could get free food..#but maybe that can be just fake proposals later on. and our real proposal can be somewhere else. YIPPEEE. me and my imaginary future spouse #who is To be honest rather bare minimum #normal girl will be like Wistful sigh maybe my future spouse will even love me and wont scream at me and will like to listen to me speak 😍#but anywyas. my beddybye time. SURPRISE GN POST #woahhthis got off topic i forgot what the original post was this always happens. i do love characters like that

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pup-pee · 7 months ago

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y does it feel so SO wrong 2 share ur opinion???

#oh u solved the problem #urself!#like its not even about bing right or wrong its just about literally communicating & i think im doing it BAD #IM NOT AFRAID OF BING “H8ED” ON I JUST #i think i just dont like having the chance of making ppl feel bad?#or soemthing aloong those lines?#theres a line a vry easy line 2 cross #like expressing a comic book opinion right? bc its super easy 2 sway a bunch of ppl #but if ur saying smth u dont like it while some1 does it has the possibility of making that person feel bad #& I H8 THAT...idk y it makes me feel like shit????? @ the possibility???#this feels like smth i should bring up w/a therapist LMAOOOOOOO #but like same thing when i was in class right? giving a presentation i got RLLY SCARED 2 do it bc i was giving an opinion or a fact BUT I #COULD B WRONG ON THE FACT!! which is y i just never did them bc i would cry lol but its just #it kinda feels the same way #its weird bc im fine w/getting shit wrong. its only when i share an opinion when i feel stupid??????? ok not stupid just mean? i think? yea #this is possibly the reason y i get nervous sharing hcs or aus. bc it wont b “canon accurate” & then will like fuck up some1s perception id #its not like any1 reads this lashfkj i just hmmmmmmm theres defiantly smth i should b discovering here i just am not...#i want 2 share my opinion bc its a fucking opinion theres nothing wrong w/it bc its not a fact EXCEPT in the way its a fact of how i FEEL o #THINK?? like its just its strange. i think this has a lot 2 do w/me never bing listened 2 as a child LOL uhhhhhhhh hmmmmmm yeah prolly akj #I FIGURED IT OUT I GOT IT ALLLLLL UNLOCKED #god i hhhhhhhhhhh some1 make a clone of me so i can talk 2 me like a therapist or smth #this is y i cant do therapy actualyl its bc i just keep yapping then by the time im done the therapist always went tyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy #srry ramblings

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citrus-sours · 2 months ago

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Im so fucking lonely. And it's literally nones fault but my own lol lmao even

#i just want to be able to msg people without feeling like just speaking will make them hate me #i get so nervous trying to talk to people who CLEARLY want to be my friends or ARE AND HAVE BEEN my friends #it literally throws me into an aniexty attack any time i get a msg like what is wrong with me #not everyone is out to get you kat for fucks sake.#sigh im sorry if you msg me and i responed once or twice then suddenly drop off the face of the earth #i want to talk i so very much do but just. i feel like i have nothing to say. im boring and mean and hurt people #vent #orange is typing...#i used to chat with my online friends EVERYDAY . what happend. can i fix it please. please. i dont wanna live like this man #as usually sorry dont worry about me my mood swings are crazzzzzyyyy just venting abt shit thats eating me up lol

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frobby · 5 months ago

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Romance manga with a fat mc/love interest: :D

They were only fat because of trauma and now that theyre in a relationship theyre skinny: :(

#STOP DOING THIS LET THEM BE FAT FOR FATS SAKE FAKE PEOPLE DESERVE LOVE ITS NOT A BARRIER TO OVERCOME #KILLING KILLING KILLING #Genetically fat people deserve love fat people who got fat from trauma and STAY fat deserve love #Of course this narrative wouldnt be a problem if it wasnt literally every single one #Even if its not this specific narrative its usually still about fatness and how that hinders a relationship #Why cant someone be fat and it be uninportant to the story #For some positivity im gonna highlight some of my fave fat romance mangas #Minegishi loves otsu #Its always minegishi loves otsu go read it now it does pretty much everything right fat boy wise and otsu is insecure about his weight #But its not like bad insecure its regular insecure like its not a conflict #Confessions of a shy baker #The only influence one of the characters weight has on the story is his boyfriend is baking him healthy treats cuz hes trying to lose weigh #Which on its face i dont think is a bad thing and its not what the story is about its just a facet of their relationship #Its pretty funny and chill also like...if u wanna make healthy treats theres a bunch of actual recipes in it #Mori no takuma #Okay this one is weird and technically does everything wrong to a comical degree and thats why i like it #Also takuma stays fat even after the ending plus for him #It does have the weird 'he gets skinny when its nervous' and it is literally about the girl not wanting to date a fat guy but whatever #You may notice that......all of these are where a man is fat and yeah #I would list one if i had one #For context im a fat lesbian #Attracted to fat women #Anyway if yall have fat romance manga suggestions lemme know id love to read them #animanga #anime #manga #anime and manga

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altschmerzes · 5 months ago

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Feel like I've missed anything about history rhymes, whats the dealio with that one my friend?

oh word!! it's a fic i had the concept for a long time ago actually but was like... too twitchy about to actually. write. let alone consider posting. lmao. but i talked it out with a couple friends and decided to go for it, with their encouragement. it's definitely like. extremely tough stuff, even compared to the tough stuff i'm usually writing about, so if anyone decided to give this one of mine a miss i would not blame them.

i answered an ask where i did a pretty thorough summary of the concept, so i'll link that!! but be aware there's a strong, strong warning on this fic for rape/sexual assault and csa. that's basically the central narrative focus, to be honest, the trauma of that.

link here!

#gav gab #gav answers #im still really nervous about writing this lmao #i dont want anyone to get the wrong idea or get weird about it or whatever #but i Am writing it and i think it's turning out pretty good so far #writing liveblog #fic: history rhymes #which is a ted lasso fic nominally 'for' bad things happen bingo but is like #in actuality something i've thought a LOT about for like. a couple years actually.#I have Not talked about it much though #publicly at least so it makes sense you could’ve missed it pretty easy

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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