#For context im a fat lesbian

[frobby]

Romance manga with a fat mc/love interest: :D

They were only fat because of trauma and now that theyre in a relationship theyre skinny: :(

[diningpageantry]

what's a NYE party without a scientologist telling you drunkly about traditional womanhood and how women aren't really "lesbians or dykes" before she sits on your lap twice and your get so horny your brain whites out

[thyfleshc0nsumed]

definitely ignore this if it doesnt interest you as a question but i'm wondering, you call yourself a butch , does that mean that you feel attraction only towards hard-line women? i'm interested because i've long felt a kinship with the butch identity and the promise that it makes to the individual and the community, but i'm not sure if i'd be considered a lesbian, per se. i don't see gender as a factor to be considered in my sexuality at all. for context im 19 and questioning my gender and sexuality after coming out of a 6 year relationship (11 months ago now, haven't dated since.) and i've been trying to get different peoples perspectives.

-modestmasc

Hi, thanks for the question.

Others may disagree but to me, being butch is an adjective first and an identity second. Frankly, I didn't choose to be butch just like I didn't choose to be CAMAB. I get to choose to embrace it, I get to choose to find it a meaningful experience, I get to choose to call myself butch, and I get to choose to love my experience being butch, but I don't get to choose to be or to not be whatever it is that "butch" is.

So, are you butch?

There's a phrase ive heard a couple hundred times over the last two years: "you're a member when you say you are." I like this phrase a lot. If you say you are, I don't get to doubt you. If you don't say so, I don't get to doubt you on that either.

So, are you butch?

We have such a beautiful variety of experiences, and such a wide variety of ways we talk about them. Many butch people relate butchness to "lesbian masculinity." Doesn't land for me, mostly on account of the 'masculinity' bit. To me, being butch is its own thing. I don't consider myself masculine in almost any way, I'm just butch, whatever that is. It's not so much that I think those who describe it like that are "wrong," it's just not been my experience.

The word 'lesbian' in there doesn't function to say "women who are only attracted to women, instead, it just means "women who are attracted to women." Even so, I personally would disagree with the premise that butchness is exclusive to gay people (I say gay as an umbrella term here), I mean I've met some butch ass heterosexual women.

Certainly as gay people, our experience of butchness is going to be different than that of a heterosexual, but like that's true for every facet of identity that can be paired with butchness. My experience as a young fat white bisexual TS butch woman is gonna be different than a middle aged able bodied Black person who's butch, and their experience is gonna be different than an elderly Puerto Rican butch lesbian. But no matter what, we're still all butch.

So, are you butch?

I consider myself bisexual. No fucking doubt I love men. Doesnt stop me from being butch.

So, are you butch?

[rouge-the-bat]

i really do wonder what ppl who tout the "non-men loving non-men" definition of lesbian think about multigender people. do they EVER consider us? even a tiny bit? bc it certainly doesnt feel like it. it feels like any one of these situations:

they already dont think being multigender is a thing, and say shit like "you can only be a man, a woman, or nonbinary, not all of the above."

they quite literally dont think about how multigender people would work in relation to sexuality. they may claim to support us, but they dont pay attention to or care about the fact our gender identity ISNT just an isolated thing that has no affect or connection to anything else about us.

they look at my gender (genderfluid between woman, man, and many forms of nonbinary, more oftentimes a mix), and say oh well youre PARTIALLY a man in some way so that means you cant be a lesbian! so, basically my man-ness just "taints" me and negates the fact that im also a woman and nonbinary? what about the days where my genderfluidity contains no bit of man at all? can i only be a lesbian SOMETIMES?

they yell about non-men all they want, but see my gender and go, "oh not YOU though :) i mean people who are ONLY a man!" and not realize how that is 1. them not saying at all what they mean in their definition if still SOME men are okay and 2. extremely comes across as misgendering and that they dont see me as Actually a man if im not mono-gendered, regardless of their intention. if you are going to categorize people as "men or non-men" and try to fit me in only one or the other, you are misgendering me no matter what. non-men is not the same thing as non-mono-gendered-men.

and all of this also makes me wonder: what would these people think if they saw me in person, holding hands with my girlfriend?

for context: transmeds would 100% consider me a faker not only bc im genderfluid, use any pronouns (esp neos), and am without dysphoria (for gender anyways), but because theyd think im just cis. im afab with no hormone changes or surgery, nor do i want any (my ideal genitals being a dick or barbie-doll-smooth aside, since i dont care enough to do surgery about it, and any of my other gender ideals would require shapeshifting), i like my big boobs, AND im femme. my fat even adds to my curves. most people would probably read me as only a girl and not think twice about it, esp if im dressing up as femme as i like being at the time.

so, if these people shouting "non-men loving non-men" at those like me all the time ended up seeing me irl, what would they think? would they see im extremely femme and read as a girl while holding hands with my girlfriend (who isnt femme but still is easily read as a girl) and think oh yeah, thats a lesbian right there? because a huge part of me says that they absolutely would have no issue with it

who knows if anyone who swears up and down by the "non-men loving non-men" definition will actually read this, but i REALLY wish more people would actually hear out multigender folks and see how definitions like this are incompatible with us. think about how our identity doesnt exist in a vacuum. realize that plenty of us ARE lesbians no matter what anyone else says, and we do not abide to your """inclusive""" definition that actually doesnt consider our existence at all.

or at least realize identity labels dont have a one-size-fits-all definition in the vastness of queer experiences, that people are going to have definitions for things that are different from yours, and you dont hold the One True Right Definition. realize that definitions are not rules that are placed upon words, theyre explanations for how these words are being used across the world, through time, and vary from person, place, and time. definitions are fluid, not static, and many words have multiple definitions.

[heroicleader2763]

hello! this is a bfdi pin rp/askblog [mostly rp] ran by a pin fictkin. this blog is packed with my own headcanons, so it may feel "canon non-compliant" at times. it also implements things from other bfdi AUs such as fear garden, so a headsup for that!

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you need a heroic leader like me!! ★ ☆

📌 — she/they/he ; non-binary butch lesbian ⚢ 📌 — autistic ♾︎ ; she also Types Weird. it's Analogous to her Accent! 📌 — location is at the tpot hotel ; timeline is ambiguous mostly but its supposed to be post-tpot ↳ for other rp blogs: no need to worry about timeline divergences! ill gladly shatter time and space to interact with other objects <3 uses signoff "— 📌" 📌 — sometimes coiny shows up, say hi to him when he's here! uses signoff "— 🪙"

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[krisbianbitchface]

Ok so to warm my heart a little from the coldness of knowing I will have to wait 2 years to see dear Rhaenyra again I have started watching Game of Thrones,I was not very fond of it when it came out however now I am older and just desiring to binge watch anything to get myself to sleep and I have a few thoughts I need to get out of my head or maybe opinions,it might me a little over the top since of course I am a lesbian drama queen and I live to complain,im only in season 3 almost ending the season...

I fucking hate that kid bran,he takes soooo much screen time just to retell dreams and look like that snarky kid that throws random stuff on the ground in Walmart with a stupid look on his face (I really Wish Jamie would have killed his ass)

Melissandre is the most interesting character of the series,so witty and cruel in the best way,I was shocked when she killed that king with her baby demon and absolutely smitten,I love cruel women.

Jon Snow is the most boring character I have EVER witnessed in the story of television and trust me I've been there since Xena Warrior Princess graced the screens,just no goals,no path,no big dick or small dick energy,no energy AT ALL,just a big fat ugly Hero complex that I just can't stand because the actor has the same expression everytime no matter what happens,even having a boner with a cute girl cuddling his dick he is 😐 like gtfo of my face

Cersei is second to Melissandre in the scale of bad bitches,she is just so fucking resented and hot,everything she says sounds like wind chimes even if she is sending a child to his death,I cant help but want her to hate fuck me and call me a fagg0t and then tell me Im the worst fuck she's ever had and just use me again.

Dragons...Should I say more? I started the series of House of the Dragon because I just love dragons,and a particular scene is just edged in my mind like iron,Daenerys saving her little dragons from that sorcerers dungeon and their cute little faces watching her almost like trying to say "Momma! You're here! we missed you!" I think is the cutest scene ever.

Daenerys...She serving cunt,she ate and licked the plate,she served and left no crumbs,the director said cut and she heard CUNT and went with it, she caused a motherquake of 9.99 in the cunt scale,she's mother, and no other than the Mother of Dragons, I just love her,she is what Cleopatra VII was before hollywood found her and turned her into a makeup propaganda fashionista, a true strategist and conqueror.

Kal Drogo,I just mourned his death,he was so cute and murderous, i wept real tears for sweet Daenerys, I think the actor was really good and he needed more screen time, his scenes were charged with masculity and power,something we really lack these days in television.

Sansa, she is a beauty,the kind of beauty fantasy writers try to describe and there is just no way that human exists and then there is her...But she is so fucking traumatized and set aside just like every other woman in that universe,hell,even in life,I feel for her...And also wanna date her,i won't lie

Aria is a tough little woman,I think they really need to step up her action scenes because I think she serves well as a hope in the darkness kind of character however I do wish the actress was more prone to make a proper action sequence ala Eleven from Stranger Things,you can say what you want about miss Millie Bobby Brown but she is one of the few actresses willing to make many changes ln television for years to come with her characters.

Jamie Lannister is an interesting fighter and I wish it was possible to swap his fight scenes with Aria since i think it was proper giving the context,anyway he has good fighting sequences that I think were ment for someone else.

The sex scenes... This was a series HBO really set the bar high for nudity,there is so much nudity,sometimes unnecessary and cruel for the actresses involved and at the same time, is not surprising considering this series was made by two straight men,this always happens in the industry although these days is harder due to the constant intimacy coordination, but yeah in those times I can't imagine how unerving it was for actresses to bare it all for a couple of coins in a popular series.

Enough with my ramblings,I declare myself a fan of game of thrones only for Daenerys and her cute little dragons 💖

[quietlytakinghersoul]

mmg 27, she/they/it.

abrosexual (fluid orientation) nonbinary trans woman (who is a plural system).

this tumblr is a collection of desire-focused reblogs, and sister blog to our duaric page: kissinghisheart.

we fluctuates between lesbian, omnisexual, demisexual, and asexual.

this blog is quote unquote sapphic only, basically: wlw, wlnb, nblw, nblnb.

sometimes trans men are sapphics so may be included here.

exclusionists rly aren't our vibe.

we have the two diff blogs bc of autism and system stuff.

but yea some dykes are fags and some fags are dykes and that's, like, both morally good and exceedingly hot.

we are fat, tall, both the sweetest girl and an affectionate sadist.

a switch in kink and in terms of physical/sexual role, and currently unpartnered.

a note on blog contents + asexuality: nakedness, sensuality, intimacy, and love do not inherently contain sexual feeling.

the root of our desire is often non-sexual.

please approach us with respect and do not begin with sexual stuff in dms.

we are not only frequently ace, but are also devoutly religious and wear hijab.

pls be respectful of our choice not to be sexualised by default.

mutuals who are sapphic can be sexual via the ask box.

we follow back from moodymeangirl.

zionists/supremacists/bigots can fuck right off.

18+ only no minors.

as is stated on main: paedos can die in a ditch fr.

Kinks and Limits under the cut

In domme mode I'll do basically anything that involves hurting, causing pain, psychological/physical torture, crying, dominating and controlling them/their life, free use, cnc, giving punishments, dressing them, rulemaking. Praise, caregiving, protection, being adored, being their guard dog (love that one!!), service dommeing, and piss. Also size kink, being called Mommy/Daddy, and lots of casual dommeing outside the bedroom :3 We like both fiery little brats and super melty good girls/people. Our instincts for sadism are an expression of love/affection. I'm not a soft domme by any means, but my actions are intended to be recieved as loving / lovely / affectionate. Masochists to the front, basically.

In sub mode, we love being: looked after, gently tended to, touched and groped, taken advantage of, praise and degraded, objectified, dominated, and used. We enjoy power imbalances where sapphics who have authority over us in some way abuse their position to fuck, rape (cnc), or sexually touch us. We also have some trauma kinks as a sub. Mainly we like to feel desired, protected, and useful. We like to have done a good job and to worship/adore our domme (esp orally). Sub4sub play is also rlly fun. Our favourite kink as a sub is cnc/abuse of power.

As a system we lean ever so slightly domme, maybe like 70/30.

Soft limits: sex ie when im ace, sometimes sex is okay and sometimes it's not - you'd have to ask.

Hard limits/absolutely not:

anything related to self harm, causing harm or damage (hurt and injury are fine)

raceplay

detrans and misgendering

any patriarchy other than the butch one.

God/religion etc (we're religious. we worship none before Allah and certainly not in any kink context. we respect those who do, but we do not, so pls respect us in that regard.)

[dragynkeep]

this fandom ignores the fact that RWBY is in reality aroace, im not surprised they erase Yang bisexuality. And before you lesbian yang truthers come for me for saying Rubys aroace. She has yet to show any romantic OR sexual interest in anyone. Id argue theres Penny but tbh it seems more queer platonic then romantic, and before you aphobes come for me or this blog. QPC Nuts and Dolts is amazing and wonderful. Anyways Rubys aroace and Yangs bisexual deal with it.

i was gonna make the joke that i don't even think mkek knows what aroace is but then i remembered they explicitly erased that from the ndgo team after telling the creators that one of them was too fat to model the girl after so. hmm.

but yeah no, i totally agree with aroace ruby & while i don't have a concrete sexuality down for yang: it's clear that in canon she is mspec. she's shown attraction to both men & women, & neither can be invalidated because there's no context behind them to do so. she flirts with boys in front of her sister in response to ruby saying that taiyang wouldn't like all the boys, & she's now in a poorly done relationship with yang.

there are plenty of lesbian characters for them to prop up as canon rep, they don't need to be mspec-phobic to yang to do so. epsecially when invoking tropes that hurt actual mspec people or push forward those stereotypes.

[dichromaticdyke]

skwisgaar feminism word salad response anon on another tangent again !! (is 💉 taken for an anon sign off? didn’t see so in ur beloved anon tag but i’ll be usin’ that for ease of communication on both ends)

regarding the shows take on gender: i definitely agree in the sense that it has a lot to say about gender, as well as the take of “deliberate critique of misogyny” vs “the show kinda also sucked with women” co-existing statements!!! i think in this case it just makes the internalized misogynistic fandom space behavior so much… worse in that sense, though? yes, the show did suck with women and their focuses, but with the show’s critique of celebrity + metal culture thus lending dethklok to view women of objects… it just feels like when the fandom discounts women in the show just as easily, it’s falling into the same trap dethklok does and i would argue that gets into the whole other issue of glorifying dethklok despite the fact they’re portrayed (initially, anyway) in a sort of always sunny in philadelphia “don’t be like this” way. which then turns the fans into a self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts but that is a WHOLE other tangent-

either way, it’s disheartening to watch at times.

as for depth of the show vs sometimes it’s not that deep, even for how the fans react:

1. i adore ur analyses please continue having these fits of divine madness

2. i agree sometimes it’s not that deep! sometimes fans just want to watch two guys kiss! and that’s okay!

and i definitely agree that people don’t leave their implicit biases at the door when entering fandom (and i am forever grateful you do not leave your gender studies degree at the door either; truthfully, i would not feel so open critiquing the fandom with any other creator, as your perspective is inherently unique due to a variety of factors)

but i guess my whole perspective is… yeah, it feels a lot like there’s a portion of the fandom that doesn’t work on their inherent internalized misogyny, even on tumblr, which goes back to your post regarding skwisgaar finding all women beautiful and how his willingness to sleep with fat and elderly women has become a joke to many. of course, it also gets into fatphobia, lookism, and ageism, which honestly the ageism confuses me considering most folks are also thirsting after literal middle aged cartoon men but i suppose in their minds it’s different because they’re men and “not geriatric” or something.

in the latter case: cowards, all of them, as there is an inherent beauty to aging (and skwisgaar would agree)

-💉

(also im sorry for word vomiting in your inbox AGAIN there’s so many thoughts and not enough words but like ily and everything you do for the fandom. ur brain is galaxy level always)

ehehe don't apologize dear! i'm honored and proud that i've created a space where people do feel comfortable to talk to me about feminism and lesbianism despite the overwhelming focus on men within this community (again, understandable given the context of the show, but it doesn't make it any less exhausting sometimes).

i don't really have much to say in addition to this, you hit so many points i agree with! i remember some mtl creators talking about how if you can't meaningfully recognize where the show is satirizing oppressive thoughts and behaviors and instead reinforce those behaviors through your own actions, then you're not mature enough to be engaging with the show, and that's pretty much my stance on it! again, as we've mentioned, there will always be people who don't unpack all their internalized biases, and it's very easy to let those slip through even in good faith, but that's basically the viewpoint i have.

dethklok can be genuinely awful people sometimes, and we're not meant to agree with them on everything, and we have to remember that. as much as they've become massive comfort characters to me, i would guillotine all five of them irl.

[raspbeppie]

♥ info ♥

about me: hi, im rasp! im a lesbian that uses any pronouns :} im a feeder and i've always been a big fan of bigger women, and i finally want to show it. i'm 20, and i'd rather minors begone from this blog due to its adult nature. i plan to reblog both other people's art that i enjoy, and also post my own art as well! i don't really want this blog to have much of a reach, as it is mostly for... personal use. but if you do wish to see some large ladies, go ahead and follow!

EDIT: i do not intend to engage with anyone via dm, as i am apprehensive about talking to strangers directly online, especially in sexual contexts. if you wish to ask about preferences, or chat in general about feedism, sending an ask would be preferred! if an ask doesnt get answered, i either haven't checked my inbox, or i didnt feel comfortable responding. thank you for your understanding!

tag key:

#wg this post is a part of a weight gain sequence. whether it be just one part of the sequence, or a collection of all of the parts of a sequence, you'll find em all in this tag!

#chubby this post is on the lowest end of the weight spectrum. girls that have a bit of a tummy go here!

#plump this post is second lowest on the weight spectrum. girls that might have a lot of trouble getting old clothes on go here!

#fat this post is the lower midrange on the weight spectrum. girls that have trouble fitting in aisles, doorways, and driver's seats go here!

#big this post is the higher midrange on the weight spectrum. girls that have trouble getting around go here!

#unreal this post is the beginning of the highrange of the weight spectrum. girls that can barely stand, hardly reach their mouth to feed themself, and get wiped out just trying to roll over go here!

#bus this post is the second highest in the highrange of the weight spectrum. girls that are the size of buses or bigger go here!

#sun this post is the highest in the weight spectrum. girls that are around the size of the sun go here!

#mobile this post contains a girl that can move on her own. girls that can make it to the fridge go here!

#immobile this post contains a girl that can't move on her own. girls that need assistance getting places, or getting things, go here!

#irl this post has a real girl in it. girls that take beautiful photos of themselves go here!

#text this post is text only. imagines, appreciation posts, and others' fiction about big girls go here!

#<3 this post is a personal favorite of mine! girls who pop buttons, spill out of jeans or bras, or just can't help themself go here!

#intox this post contains a lady unwinding with a substance before a big meal. girls that smoke or drink go here!

#alch this post contains a lady who is drinking or is drunk. girls that have a few beers before dinner go here!

#dandelion this post contains a lady who is smoking weed or is stoned. girls who get munchies go here!

#raspberryink this post contains my artwork. girls that i love to doodle go here!

#raspywriting this post contains my writing. girls that i love to drabble go here!

#info this post contains information either relevant to me or the blog itself. girls don't tend to go here! unless you count me!

(DISCLAIMER:)

i do tend to enjoy mobile ladies a bit more, but its not uncommon for me to enjoy a lady at an unreasonable size. this aside, i do not enjoy works with hospital equipment hooked up to a girl, as anything above the #unreal stage is pure fantasy for me. i'd prefer to keep it lighthearted and heavybodied, so works with that tone of seriousness won't be featured.

on a similar note, posts that feature intoxication (or intox for short) will tend more towards the light side, and often will be more towards weed rather than alcohol, mostly out of personal preference.

posts that feature bimbofication, or the act of dumbing down a feedee, will be incredibly sparse as well. i lean more towards a lucid lady, and situations where she may not be in the most control because of difficulty thinking all the time tends to rub me the wrong way.

#irl posts will be infrequent, since i don't wish to be disrespectful to any of the beautiful women who post themselves. weight spectrum catagorization will not apply to these posts either for the same reasons. remember that real women have their own thoughts and feelings as a person, this may be a fetish blog, but their comfort always comes first.

ai art of any kind will not be featured on this blog! bbw-draw or otherwise won't be posted, i would much rather appreciate the artists who kindly create and share with people like us.

thanks so much for reading! now, let's get to those big beautiful women!

[girlnextvore]

#correction#the four types of white lesbians that are FUCKNG SKINNY#caps arent angry at op caps they are for emphasis#fat dykes are freaking on women in social contexts only parsable by art historians bi twinks and gross perverts who do *kinda* have a point

Ok I get your point and I am myself a fat dyke (not white though im blacK)

but this is also 4 pictures of the streamer Jerma

The 4 types of white lesbians

[booblywooblies]

actually, on the topic of "the little girl you used to be" i have actually had a concept/philosophy since about 2019 about "the girl in the photo"

so for context: ive always been a little genderless goblin, ive always had bowl cuts and played with boy toys and sports and dirt and animals, i wanted to be steve irwin when i was a kid and i hated barbie. this carried on well into my teen years where i was still a tomboy and people thought i was a lesbian, i think it was really starting to hit me that id eventually have to start living as a woman unless i grapple with the fact that im trans (something ive been on and off thinking about since the age of 7)

so i was like okay, im a trans man and im going to transition, but until then i may as well try being feminine, like, yknow for fun, bc ive never really presented that way

this is where the MAJORITY of my "girl" selfies take place, ages 18-22 (i hit my gender performativity limit at 22 and started to have bad break downs about it so thats about when i gave up went back to normal but thats not important for now)

so during this time i was struggling with like, basically trying to look as appealing as possible, i learned how to pose my back and my face and angle my camera just right and i used filters and lighting and all kinds of stuff. i started to develop this idea of "the girl in the photo" she was never actually me because yknow i have a flabby body and half lidded eyes and a double chin and stuff, and because she wasnt me it didnt matter how fake she was so it was okay if i cleared up my skin with apps and edited my face to look less fat. she wasnt me, but like, at the same time she also wasnt *real*

not just in the sense that she was a false lookalike of a real person but she was also a dishonest representation of an identity that didnt belong to anyone in the first place, she was a figment of my imagination that i captured in images and presented to the (online) world as a character i sometimes played

ive actually considered fishing for funny replies on a dating site using old pictures of me and using the name "maisy" in a fake profile. bc when i was 18 i was on okc a lot, i never met up with anyone because they all saw me as the girl in the picture and it made me feel disgusted. but some of the messages i got were so bizarre and it was fun to make fun of them with my friends.

i still like the old pictures i took, they dont really make me feel dysphoric because, even my friends ive known since middle school have said "thats a completely different person, before and after"

and its like, obviously i am what youd consider transgender, i was born with a certain set of genitalia and i didnt feel the initial puberty my innate hormones caused for me was good for my well being (obviously everyones definition of trans is different but for me this is how it worked out for me) but theres something about this character i created for a handful of years of my life that feels like it was the biggest change ive ever made. me pretending to be a woman in appearances only was the most different my gender has ever been throughout my life. like its so simple to me that ive always been male, i was a little boy, a guy, and now im a man. you cant claim to know if you werent there.

[sylv-e-on]

I bring to you all: an entire fucking conversation between me and three others lmao

GM is me, H is my partner, GTP is one of my friends, and D is also one of my friends shsnsvsjsb-

The italicized part is the DMs btw

H: “chat is meowing furry behaviour”

GM: “Yeah kinda”

H: “your cooked”

GM: “I'm literally a furry (and worse)-”

GTP: “me too but i don't deadass meow (i would only say it if i send a funny picture of my cars)”

H: “I've been meowing for the last 10 minutes”

GTP: “😭”

GM: “I mean me and Henry are just straight up sending fucking "meow" at each other LMAO”

H: “meow bacl”

GM: “I am but I can't do so verbally because my nephew is like 10 feet from me”

H: “chat grey just hates me”

GM: “NO-”

H: “*mediummediumhardsigma.jpg*”

GM: “Yk nevermind maybe I do (/j)”

H: “fuck you taylor”

GTP: “*fortheloveofgodyoustupidassmfs.jpg*”

H: “idklooksfemaleenough.jpg*”

GM: “I'm”

GM: “I'm going to fucking scream”

H: “guys he does hate me”

H: “*gmdms.jpg*”

H: “translate pls”

GM: “What am I, a fucking translator”

H: “yes”

GM: “Okay if it was SHORTER I would but like”

GM: “No”

H: “FHRAHAHAHHHHHH”

GM: “It is INSANELY long”

GM: “I ain't typing all that”

H: “that's the equivalent of “i aint reading alla that””

GM: “Yeah pretty much”

GM: “I AM NOT TYPING OUT AN ENTIRE ESSAY WORTH OF MORSE CODE”

H: “YOU ARE”

GM: “NO”

H: “im goijg to twinkify you”

GM: “Do it coward”

H: “5'2 skinny white boy ahh”

GM: “I am fat and 5'10/5'11 idfk”

GTP (Reply to H: “idklooksfemaleenough.jpg*”): “WHAT”

H (Reply to GM: “I am fat and 5'10/5'11 idfk”): “tay tay 😵😵”

H: “bro is 5'3 now 😞”

GM (Reply to GTP: “WHAT”): “THAT'S what you're saying "WHAT" to? THAT?”

GM: “>:(“

GTP (Reply to GM: “THAT'S what you're saying "WHAT" to? THAT?”): “STFU!!!”

GM: “NO”

H: “no cause im pretty sure Keith is 5'4 since”

H: “now he said hes not shorter than taylor and he was at 5'5”

H: “if you need that dumbed down im saying 5'5 was over his hight and 5'3 is under his”

H: “cause i could barely understand tja”

H: “tjat”

GTP (Reply to GM: “I am fat and 5’10/5’11 idfk”): can i steal your height, i shall cure my height dysphoria

GM: “I KNOW THAT HENRY SHEBS”

H (Reply to GTF: “can i steal your height, i shall cure my height dysphoria”): “shut up queer”

GTF (Reply to H: “shut up queer”): “GET OUT”

H: “I LIKE WOMEN”

GM (Reply to GTF: “can i steal your height, i shall cure my height dysphoria”): “No please my only sense of euphoria is from my height”

H: “*RAHHHH.png*”

H: “bpd ahh word”

GM: “And I like”

GM: “.”

GM: “Fictional characters and exactly one (1) real life human being”

GM (Reply to GM: “Fictional characters and exactly one (1) real life human being”): And computers for some ungodly fucking reason”

GM: “Idfk anymore”

H: “chat is being a catfish a bad thing”

GTP (Reply to GM: “No please my only sense of euphoria is from my height”): “IM SICK OF MY HEIGHT DYSPHORIA GIVE ME THE GOD DAMN HEIGHT”

GM (Reply to H: “chat is being a catfish a bad thing”) “Depends on the context”

GM (Reply to GTP: “IM SICK OF MY HEIGHT DYSPHORIA GIVE ME THE GOD DAMN HEIGHT”): NO

H: “hight”

GTF (Reply to H: “I LIKE WOMEN”): “LESBIAN AHH”

H (Reply to GTF: “LESBIAN AHH”): “IM NOT A GIRL”

GTF (Reply to GM: “NO”): “YES”

GM (Reply to H: “hight”): “I mean I fucking guess”

GM: (Reply to GTP: “YES”): “NO”

GM: “MY HEIGHT”

H (Reply to GM: “I mean I fucking guess”): “i did lie sometimes guys”

GTP: “I'M GOING TO SAW OFF YOUR FUCKING LEGS GREY”

GM (Reply to H: “i did lie sometimes guys”): “Mood”

H: “HEOP”

GM (Reply to GTP: “I'M GOING TO SAW OFF YOUR FUCKING LEGS GREY”): “DO IT COWARD”

H (Reply to GTP: “I'M GOING TO SAW OFF YOUR FUCKING LEGS GREY”): “YOUR TAKING IT UP THE ASS”

GM: “LMAO?”

GM: “Chat what if I fucking

Objection . lol this LMAO”

GTP (Reply to H: “chat is being a catfish a bad thing”): “to a innocent person, yes but to a creep/PDF file? no, it's funny how they fall for it”

H: “lance i love you boo boo bear 🎀💙”

H (Reply to GTP: “to a innocent person, yes but to a creep/PDF file? no, it's funny how they fall for it”): “what”

GTP (Reply to H: “YOUR TAKING IT UP THE ASS”): “YOU'RE GONNA GET IT BY A TRAIN”

H: “im hight catfishing”

H: “wja”

H (Reply to GTP: “YOU'RE GONNA GET IT BY A TRAIN”): :(

GTP (Reply to H: “what”): for if catfishing is a bad thing

GTP (Reply to H: “im hight catfishing”): “GET OUT”

H: “HELL”

GM: “What the fuck did you just fucking say to me, you little kittypet? I'll have you know I became the best warrior out of all of my family in ThunderClan, and I have been involved in numerous secret raids on ShadowClan, and I have fought over 200 battles. I am trained extensively in all aspects of combat, and I am the top warrior in the entire forest. You are nothing to me but another rogue. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision that not even StarClan has witnessed, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with calling me that shit in this forest? Think again, kittypet. As we stand here I am contacting my assassination patrol across the forest and your scent is being tracked right now so you better prepare for the storm, crow-food. The storm that wipes out the measly little thing you call your kittypet life. You're fucking dead, kittypet. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over 200 different ways, and that's just with my sheathed paws. Not only am I extensive-”

GTP (Reply to H: “lance i love you boo boo bear 🎀💙”): “👅👅👅👅”

H: “im actually like 7 inches shorter than i say guys”

GTP (Reply to GM: “What the fuck did you just fucking say to me, you little kittypet?”): “GETBOU”

GM: “Vejsbsu”

H: “only reason i wear platform shoes”

GM (Reply to H: “im actually like 7 inches shorter than i say guys”): “I don't even know my height I'm just guessing lmao”

H (Reply to GM: “I don't even know my height I'm just guessing lmao”): “5'9 - 7 honey”

GM: “My dad says he's 6'1 and I'm like 2 inches shorter than him or something idfk”

GTP (Reply to H: “HELL”): “i do it when a guy tries to harass me and creeps me tf out, i do it then expose tf out of them <3 but i would never catfish an innocent person”

H (Reply to GTP: “👅👅👅👅”): “🎀🎀”

GTP (Reply to H: “5’9 - 7 honey”): “😔”

GM: (Reply to H: “5’9 - 7 honey”): “5'2 ass-”

H: “yeah”

GM: “Damn”

H: “even taylor taller tf 😭”

H: “shitting”

GTP: “😭BT”

GM: “You're almost my sister's height and she's like 4'11-”

H: “I jate you”

GM: “BT???”

GM (Reply to H: “I jate you”): “:(“

H: “SHOVE IT IP YOUR ASS”

GM: “Kinky”

H: “*RAHHHH.png*”

H: “im blocking you on Spotify”

GM: “:3”

GM (Reply to H: “im blocking you on Spotify”): “:(“

H: “and roblox”

GTP: “*fortheloveofgodyoustupidassmfs.jpg*”

H: “and messages”

GM: “:(((“

H: “and Instagram”

GM: “:((((((((((“

H (Reply to GTP: “*fortheloveofgodyoustupidassmfs.jpg*”): “don't make me pull this again”

H: “and discord”

H: “and wigit”

H: “and twt”

H: “and YouTube”

GM: “Hold on I need to do something real quick-”

H: “no”

GM: “.”

GM: “:(“

H: “its all fun in games till i make your favourite song not available in your liked songs”

GM: “NOOO”

GM: “You fool”

GM: “I have SEVENTY ALTERNATE ACCOUNTS (/ref)”

GM: “(it's actually like one)”

H: “CHAT I AM NOT THE REASON PPL LEAVE ME GREY PUT IT ON HIMSELF”

GM: “????”

H: “*redpaint.png*”

GM: “Immense confusion”

GM (Reply to H: “*redpaint.png*”): “Looks like blood :3”

H: “yeah”

GM: “Anyways”

GTP (Reply to GM: “Looks like blood :3”): “GET OUT”

H: “SHUT UP”

GM (Reply to H: “CHAT I AM NOT THE REASON PPL LEAVE ME GREY PUT IT ON HIMSELF”): “What the fuck does this mean (/gen I'm confused)”

H: “oh”

“...”

GM: “The silence after that concerns me ngl”

“...”

GM: “Henry did you fucking die-”

“...”

GM: “Damn dead chat”

D: “*deadplateredheaddude.jpg*”

D: “Henry I summon you”

GM: “*looksatyouwithmyadhdeyes.jpg*”

H (Reply to D: “*deadplateredheaddude.jpg*”): “wowie 🤤🤤”

GM: “HOLY FUCK IT WORKED LMAO”

D: “HELP THAT WORKED???”

GM: “HELLO????”

H (Reply to D: “HELP THAT WORKED???”): “ghhh i wanna talk about it so bad but im not allowed to 😞”

D: “*saddude.jpg*”

GM: “???”

D (Reply to H: “ghhh i wanna talk about it so bad but im not allowed to 😞”): “What?”

GM: “I feel like I'm missing something-”

H: “best free commission ever”

D: “Ah right”

H: “🤤🤤🤤🤤”

GM: “Oop-

D: “Yeah we don't speak of it”

H: “ill make it a poster”

D: “No you will not.”

H: “:(“

H: “not even for my room”

D: “No”

H: “😞”

GM: “N e ways I have the stupidest fucking idea Ever so I shall now just"

GM: "Be gone for probably 5 minutes or so”

H: “drink uranium”

GM: “Sure why not lmao”

GM: “Wasn't the idea but like"

GM: "Sounds fun :3”

[barkingfags]

this is my 18+ nsft blog. ive repressed my masculinity as well as my sexuality and hope this blog will help me feel more confident and comfortable in my sexuality. i may post some triggering kinks and will do my best to tag them accordingly.

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DNI: men dni/lesbian blogs, detrans/misgendering/trans fetishization blogs, maps, minors and ageless blogs. i block pretty freely to curate my feed to my liking so dont take it too personally.

i am NOT comfortable with sexting or sharing pics. dont send me dms revolving around any of that. i am okay with sharing fantasies, some flirting and indulging in conversations that dont take anything too far. i might not answer all dms or asks.

kinks that will be on this blog as well as some more info about me:

ABOUT: 21 ftm he/him. i have only identified as a sub bottom in the past, i want to explore other roles through this blog. im pretty early on in my medical transition and will post a lot about the changes im experiencing on T here.

KINKS:

CNC: dubcon, some rape play, intox (weed), somno, etc. all that i share about these kinks is in the context of consensual roleplay between adults. these are kinks i will always tag.

SIZE DIFFERENCE: im a smaller guy and i find big, fat strong men so sexy.

BREEDING: creampies>>pregnancy

MONSTER FUCKING: really only relating to werewolves.

FORCE MASC: i want to forcemasc other tboys and i want them to forcemasc me.

other kinks: group sex, t4t sex, dirty talk, praise and body worship, overstimulation, exhibitionism, light pet play, possessiveness/marking, and size difference (that i will add a second time bc its a massive turn on for me lol).

NOT INTO:

scat, piss, gore. do not refer to me with feminine language. i will use the word pussy to talk about my genitalia, but thats as far as that goes. bottom growth, tdick, cock, etc >>>> clit!!!

[ihavemanyhusbands]

it’s me hi I’m the problem it’s me 🌱

(idk if u listen to tswift but I love her okay now to the point)

I have a crush on a boy at my new job (ew) that hasn’t happened since I thought I was straight years ago oop (for context I went from straight to bi to now lesbian) ok actually he’s not a boy he’s a man literally 50+ yrs old but I guess that’s not that surprising for me considering I have a big fat crush on hannibal and will and various other fictional men that are old enough to b my father but they’re always FICTIONAL!!! this is a real live man!!!!! 😟 (making me question shit damn probably just comphet still) well ANYWAYS it is what it is and I am a simp for this man, he has the hottest deep voice, literally so tall and tan and jacked and has tattoos and he’s so sweet ugh basically definition of ‘looks like he could kill you but is a cinnamon roll’ and I need him so badly it’s a problem, literally has me distracted at work thinking all types of inappropriate things bcs my mind is always in the gutter but I CANT HELP IT like he has to do a lot of physical labor in the lot outside the office and he does it SHIRTLESS and sweaty🥵and I can’t handle it I want this man so badly it’s not even funny!!!!

so yeah I had to share bcs we often thirst over the same men and you obv gotta know about the new man I want to break my back😵‍💫🌱

ABeifkwoqosjdbfkdodienfkf OK FUCKKK I LOVE THIS FOR YOU!!! I wish i had some eye candy at work 😤 ufbdiwkxkx the way we would simp and drool together if we were coworkers tho 😭😭😭😭 HE SOUNDS LIKE A DREAMMANAJAJS

Anyways no i dont listen to her im so sorry (i listen to almost anything but im very into metal rn lol)

PLS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD KEEP ME UPDATED LOVE YOU 😘bdjdislsms

[captain-kit-adventuress]

hi there! i apologize if this is weird or strange of me, but i saw you reblogging my post about lesbian men (im a mod on that blog, it wasnt a post from this blog), and thought your blog looked interesting so i clicked on it- and i'm really interested in hearing your perspective as an older queer person, what it used to be like in queer communities and if lesbian men used to be commonly accepted in queer spaces? of course i do not expect you to be an expert, i just always look to the voices and testimonies of older queer people about this stuff because listening to exclusionists can be so frustrating, and y'all are much more educated and understanding of the queer community, and i figured i'd ask for your perspective on inclusionism and exclusionism from a more experienced queer perspective? of course if you do not want to answer you don't have to, i just figured i'd reach out as i'm interested to know!

I am so sorry I haven't gotten back to you on this sooner. Life intervened in a pretty huge way, and I swear Tumblr ate this ask for awhile. This is going to be a long one, because I want to answer your question as completely as I possbly can, but I am not a succinct writer by any means.

I don't mind answering questions at all, and I don't think it's weird or strange to ask a question if you're unsure of something or want clarification or additional knowledge. However. I always put out the disclaimer that I came to queerness, at least out queerness, pretty recently, so even though I'm older, and old enough to remember at least some prominent US queer history as it happened, I was not as directly connected to it as others. That, in addition to it absolutely not being safe to come out in the area where I lived, and as the result there effectively being no queer community where I lived, I'm not as up-to-date as I would like to be. I also did the classic "overinvested ally doesn't realise" thing for a really, really long time.

That said, I'm still happy to answer as much as I can.

Exclusionism, in one way or another, has always existed, as I'm sure you're aware. Queer whites, on the whole, often were and are outrightly hostile and openly racist to all kinds of queer people of colour, fat queers, and plenty of intersections between those and other identities and circumstances. There's definitely been sexist behaviour towards others from both cis-binary genders. What I will say is that queer spaces, in general, have always been more welcoming in terms of actual identities than exclusionists want anyone to believe, and for far longer.

The word queer, since the time I first learnt it (from queer sources), has never, ever meant a specific set of identities. I do not remember the exact terms of how it was explained, but it was a word for people who did not have a word, or didn't want to use specifics. Didn't matter why they didn't have a word, just that they didn't. Everybody was welcome under the definition of queer if they thought they were queer, and while not everyone would have agreed with that as a concept at the time, it was absolutely crucial to my understanding of this community.

For people who defined queer that way, it is very possible that being a male lesbian wouldn't have been seen as a problem, and I have the feeling those who would have taken issue would have been exclusionists anyway, but that may not always have been true. It is sometimes hard to separate the damage lesbian separatism has done to the lesbian and sapphic communities, from what they looked like in general before that, especially to our understanding of feminism and womanhood. Plenty of it predates me, so I don't have as much first-hand context specifically related to male lesbianism as I would need to answer this question more fully. I wish I had more complete experiences, or at least knowledge, to give you.

Among those who truly supported the idea of queerness as I described it, being a male lesbian would have been just as valid as any other identity. How commonly accepted that was, I can't say without stepping outside the scope of my own experience. What I know is that there were a not-insignificant number of people who did embrace that degree of oppenness and acceptance of all queer identities as valid. Hell, I have memories of reading articles defining queerness in mainstream, widely-read teen magazines in the mid-'90s which matched my definition almost exactly.

I do feel like there was a much clearer idea that queerness does not rest on the language someone uses to identify themselves. Queerness, as I learnt it, was always about radical inclusivity. It was always about the community as a whole, no matter what the actual identity was. Everyone was welcome, and we did not have to personally understand to accept, and there was definitely--as I lived it, at least--a feeling that you were expected to accept others as they were, because our community was all we had.

What the queer community of the time understood in a very visceral way was that our lives were at stake; most of us alive in that period knew someone who'd died of AIDS, or had cared for someone, or had some connection to it. Those who had the ability to afford exclusionism had some measure of insulation from that reality. That insulation has extended to more groups in the present, but there is a concerted effort now to strip it away, and it isn't just cishets who are leading the charge.

It is not an accident that the people least accepting of the word queer are the people who tend to hold the most exclusionary beliefs, no matter where they identify in the acronym. They're also the ones most likely to have survived the reactionary-led purge of the '70s, '80s, and early '90s. Their voices were always overrepresented, and that is now leaking into more mainstream acronym and queer spaces in a way that is dangerous to the queer community as a whole.

Take heart, though: it wasn't always like that, and we can make it that way again.