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maraczeks · 13 days

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#😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐#sept 9 2024 #sept 10 2024 #IM SORRY ITS TUESDAY AGAIN #restraining order on me and my phone NOW #oomferinas i wanna do it so bad someone take my phone away #i'm on the verge of doing it but i'm also terrified I JUST #don't wanna be a nuisance😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈#IEK LIKE LIKE WHY AM I KN THE FLOOOOOOOR BEGGING HER TO JUST RESPOND😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 this is literally so mortifying but it's never been worse .#please girl i just want to be ur bff #GET A LIFE #TAJE A SHOWER #like.#think i'm gonna be a menace #if she doesn't respond to this i'll throw up tho so am i really #im losing so bad im just losing #but like damnnnnn go girl give me nothing #no causseeeeee why is my heart beating out of my chest like girl it's just a silly text?!!!!!!!#i feel like i'm reaching out to a terrible ex which is completely not true but oenrndjqndnfnnfndnfkf shaking blood curdling ok now i throw m #my phone jnto the river #like i haven't even showe the reid's yet girl what is ur problemmmm #ugh it's so over #alr sent it 😀 buffoonery era activated #UGH if she doesn't respond ielmtoskgjgkenf drastic measures.#i'm jk #mostly #i mean #idk the next time i'll see her tho i'm not pulling up to any concerts except maybe nutcracker and that's also if she tells me if she's playi #so lientbdjdkfn

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bloominglegumes · 2 months

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tf one orion scribbles,,,, hes just a little guy,,,,,

#my art #op in the new trailer;;hes such a menace i love him so bad im going to cry like just think about it he goes from that to becoming #stoic somber optimus prime with the weight of the universe on his back and the guilt of losing his best friend not to death or distance but #from each of them making just a few choices that butterfly out and slowly pull them apart and theres nothing they can do im so so normal #tf one #orion pax #d 16 #optimus prime #megatron

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inkskinned · 1 year

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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

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avephelis · 3 months

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NEED to check these things for fleas. take them to the VET! so sad they can't have deviantart they would have loved deviantart.

#crawling out of the debris of my dead laptop and the horrid presets and graphics on the temp one i am using. coughing up dust. i. like them.#jrwi #jrwi tmk #total monster kill #jrwi lucia #jrwi jin #jrwi everett #everett james peddlebridge #IS IT EVEN THAT. IS IT SPELT LIKE THAT. SHOT IN THE DARK.#just roll with it #avepharts #yeah the emmmoo thing is a reference to that one arthur image im always damn referencing #ENJOYING TMK. it is giving the how to dragon books meets monster hunter to me. except stupider. love weird freak characters.#i also need to mention i was losing it when bizly was describing everett because it was. SO similar to my chip design.#anyway. big fan of the scene where jin is like “oh my bad” and then lucia picks her nose and wipes it on everett. peak.

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s0fter-sin · 6 months

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soap's whole deal being sniper and demolitions gets me going bc on the surface they sound so different but when you get into it, you realise it's bc soap's smart

sniping is all math; calculating distances and wind interference and bullet drop. something i think people overlook is he was listed as a sniper first so it can be implied that he's better at it than demolitions. he does more sniping in both campaigns than demolitions work; in capture or kill, ghost specifically calls on him to take down the aq snipers

and demolitions is math with a hit of chemistry; knowing what mixes with what, knowing how much to use, recognising environmental factors and adjusting accordingly. it's not just about the boom; so much work goes into contained/ planned explosions. especially when having enough power for a breacher charge and not bringing down the whole building is the difference between mission success and failure

the chemical bombs he makes in alone can't just be any old cleaners, they have to have the correct reaction to each other; he just knew off the top of his head what would mix with what to create what reaction. he would also potentially have to recognise them by sight/smell bc they would’ve been written in spanish

soap would also have to know architecture; recognising structural integrity and weak points so he knows exactly where to plant a charge to bring it down and how it'll come down

he has an incredible soldier's mind people just forget that bc he's sociable which itself is a skill

we know he tends to buck against orders he doesn't agree with like when he pushes back against ghost in capture or kill and shepherd when he tells them to release hassan

he gets closer to people and sees if he can trust them and that's when he follows them without question. really think about how he talks to alejandro and rudy; he asks about their home and alejandro's family and rudy's relationship with him. those aren't questions you ask a stranger after a few hours of knowing them. that's not even touching on his relationship with ghost

he also deliberately brings people of higher ranks down to his level; talking informally with ghost and giving him a shoulder punch, addressing alejandro (a colonel!!) by his first name and rudy by his nickname despite literally just meeting them. he personalises all of them and it’s in direct opposition to the reason most characters do that; it’s not due to insubordination or lack of respect, the more he respects and trusts someone, the more casual he is with them

he digs into people; he wants to know what makes them tick and that determines if he can one, trust them and two, follow their orders. once he decides that, he's the ultimate soldier; he bleeds loyalty which makes him vicious when that loyalty is taken for granted

he isn't naive or bubbly or insecure; he's an incredibly smart and aware soldier. he's aggressive and bloodthirsty and loyal and intuitive and i love him so much

#i cant believe i never posted the soap meta that got me twitter famous™️💅#as with damn near every piece of characterisation in this franchise soaps is only apparent in subtext and connecting tiny little dots #it is very easy to just pick up his surface personality and think thats all he is #but soaps not a sunshine character #hes not super friendly or bright #hes just willing to talk to people and hes paired up with ghost who never wants to start a conversation #every time i see soap presented as this bubbly airhead thats super sweet and just blows stuff up i lose a year off my life #and i dont blame people for getting this vibe from him but im begging you to look a lil deeper #this isnt getting into his anger or the fact that he is a soldier which automatically makes him a wee bit fucked up #like he is hyperviolent and takes joy in it #we all know ghosts snuff film joke but soaps the one who responds positively to it #he returns the joke and only calls him out on it when he says he wont watch it more than once and even then its teasing not grossed out #and if we take the ‘he tried to join the military at 16’ factoid from 09 as current canon then he very easily could have a rough home life #no one tries to repeatedly join the military early without having some kind of problems #soap knows his worth and his abilities you dont get to be as good and specialised as he is without being completely sure of yourself #we know ghost has an ego but soap constantly butts up against it with his own affirmations #‘you wanna be better than me johnny’ ‘maybe i already am/i will be’ ‘a little helps not so bad eh lt’#being a sniper makes me hate the ‘cant sit still’ hc hes literally an sas sniper he wouldnt be complaining after a few hours of overwatch #i like the adhd hc and maybe he fidgets in his day to day life but the second hes at work hes At Work #tldr soap could be just as complex a character as ghost if cod would stop treating their campaigns as an afterthought and actually commit #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #talk meta to me #john soap mactavish #soap cod #cod mw2 #soapghost #save post #call of duty modern warfare #cod meta

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devilandacat · 2 months

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ARE YOU SEEING THIS??? I NEED MORE OF THIS SHIT IN MY LIFE.

#PLEASEEEE #ITS ALL I NEED #nick if u see this i swear im the love of ur life just give me a chance #nick ruffilo #nicholas ruffilo #i’m losing my mind i need him so bad #bad omens #badomenscult #noah sebastian #bad omens cult #clawing my body apart #nick folio #jolly karlsson #joakim karlsson #matt dierkes

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xxplastic-cubexx · 18 days

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Chat have we discussed drunk chess with cherik cause i just think. That would be the darnedest silliest thing they could do

#xmen #xmen first class #xmen dofp #cherik #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #snap chats #sorry still thinking about dofp and i reminded myself of the plane scene #the idea of drunk chess sounds so stupid fun i wish i could play drunk chess #‘snap how do you play drunk chess’ simple !!!! every piece you lose you take a shot #anyway i think itd be silly …….#id like to do something with that idea but i still have to decide on execution #omg xmen fandom hasnt seen my twelve million ‘i wanna draw this so bad’ tags yet #but yeah i sy tht a lot </3 so many things i wanna draw all the time #either that or write …. but i draw more #i love comic makin. and i blame these damned comics for gettin me into it what tha hell !!!#ok im done rambling i wish i had more to say but i dont #i lied i do. this doesnt have to be after erik apologizes on the plane this could be lit any damn time they play #i just live for the progression of them Trying to play semi seriously for a solid twenty minutes before they lose it #and now they wont stop giggling and being stupid asses #theyre still trying to play but ‘trying’ is doing a lot of heavy lifting #imagine it with me chat … itd be so beautiful i could cry frankly #ok my classes are done for today im gonna sit in my room and think of cherik #maybe ill TRY to draw this … if not then def somethin at least

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jubmato · 4 months

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guys. guys hear me. out. pelase hear me out im cooking i swear guys ple

#art #my art #dsmp #dream smp #dsmp fanart #technoblade #ctechno #technoblade fanart #half life #SORRY half life fans .........#i fucking ahate drawing the hev suit so bad ohhhhh my god #like oooh yeah let me spend an hour staring at machine plating and whatever the fuck #just for a dtupid fucking doodle that turns out mid anyways #FUCK YOU HEV SUIT 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕#< jokes btw. its actually pretty fun when im not losing my mind #the other contender for this wouldve been ctubbo. i think he would do well in half life #ctubbo would see a rocket launcher and adjoining rockets 100 ft away from a military helicopter #and think 'maybe god does love me.'#however i think ctechno has just enough Kill That Guy Disease to pull it off smoothly #as opposed to ctubbo who might die at the end

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rinbylin · 5 months

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圣人有情而无累

dihua + 情 | 莲花楼 mysterious lotus casebook

#莲花楼 #mysterious lotus casebook #asiandramasource #dailyasiandramas #cdramasource #asiandramanet #cdramagifs #cdramanet #gifshistorical #cdrama #cheng yi #dihua #lhlgifs #jielin's edits #my posts #情 sentiments (not romance or love) / 圣人有情而无累 a sage possesses feelings but is unburdened by it #sgm lxy was described to be cold and unfeeling to the extent he's likened to a ''dead person''#not bc he was above feelings. bc clearly when he was made to face it...it went very badly #so llh ending at the point where he's so composed and at ease despite having to leave everything he cared about behind. yeah.#one would think llh would have been dead from bicha by then. but he's never been more alive tbh #very much a xianxia/cmyth narrative. by the theoretical definitions of xianxia/cmyth #it's a dihua thing to me also since it is them that evoked in one another each of their own ordeals with 情 #dfs said to lxy that 你的弱点就是喜欢当英雄. what is good pretending your motivations are so noble #bc dfs had lived his whole life for himself and only himself. he does not pretend to be more than that #and the interesting thing is when it's followed by 一个剑客不该有弱点 as if he's speaking as the 理 of wulin.#being weak is bad and it means you'll lose. that's just the rule of wulin #he is that sort of paradoxical existence...#lxy goes on to prove otherwise as llh. while existing to bring to surface the 情 in dfs #-> just know i do not know what i'm talking about anymore i just have lots of convoluted thoughts about these two im incoherent about #uhhh enjoy some nice gifs!

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obisamya · 1 year

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SAM OBISANYA Ted Lasso (2020-2023)

#ted lasso #tedlassoedit #tledit #tedlassosource #userblues #sam obisanya #toheeb jimoh #gifs.#i tried my best w these n i think half of the gifs look So bad but if i think abt it any more i'll lose my marbles so im just posting as is #i just want him back. i NEED him back. sam obisanya light of my life pls return to me <//3333 #actually cried a little bit halfway through making this. got to the 'do the rightest thing' ep and the tears just Burst i love him so much

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sky-is-the-limit · 1 year

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"What's better than sex?" Discovering new music that hits every fucking spot.

#especially as a band girlie #i just discovered Bad Omens and Sleep Token and im losing my shit over how they're exactly my taste in music #it's so hard to find good bands nowadays and I'm obsessed #music #rock music #quote #sleep token #bad omens #metal #punk

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zukosbangtan · 3 months

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one thing that really makes my eye twitch is when people pretend like suki isn't part of the gaang!! likeee we saw her early on in season 1 for the first time and she was a recurring character until she became a permanent and integral member of team avatar later on!! it's so sad when she's basically reduced to nothing but sokkas gf and ppl don't deem her important enough of a member and just exclude her from the group. and it's so weird bc not only was she already part of the group even before zuko, she also played a huge part in ending the war together with the gaang but people keep disregarding her and everything she's done which pisses me off so bad like omg.

what i'm trying to say is PUT SOME RESPECT ON MY GIRL SUKIS NAME!!!