#im literally so unwell about them
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I'm thinking about Jon and Martin in the safehouse after the Change
I'm thinking of them laying in bed together, comforting one another, distracting themselves from what waits outside.
I'm thinking about how Martin would begin to gently stroke Jon's head. Slowly, subtly, he would begin to run his fingers through the length of Jon's hair. Eventually, Jon would notice the light tugging of Martin teasing apart the knots, and he would murmur, "What are you doing?"
and Martin would sadly whisper, "You haven't been brushing it..."
#the magnus archives#martin blackwood#jon sims#i think jon would stop taking care of himself#maybe he would forget#or maybe he would be intentionally negligent#feeling like he didnt deserve it#and martin would feel like he has to do it for him#but jon isnt very good at letting others take care of him#maybe its due to pride#or again its because he feels like he doesnt deserve it#so martin would try and find ways to be subtle about it#god i love them so much#im literally so unwell about them#martin blackwood my beloved#tma#jonathan sims#tma podcast#magnus archives#martin tma#jonmartin#teaholding#tma spoilers#tma season 5#tma s5
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sin eater
#sorry its been a minute!!! the horrors. you understand.#anyways yall ready for another gloom tag essay because here we go!!!#im constantly thinking about the ramifications of uzi literally eating cyn and her now being apart of her.#specifically how it impacts uzi mentally. like dgmw i LOVE the silly cyntail shenanigans in fanart (ive also contributed to this) however#when i really think about it in relation to uzi's arc i go crazy insane#uzi is a character who is grasping for control after a lifetime of not having it.#she has no control over how her peers treat her. she has no control over khan neglecting her for reasons that arent her fault.#she quite literally has no control over the solver taking her over and making her do monstrous things against her will#which solidifies her feelings of being a freak monster who everyone was right to outcast and mistreat.#because im Unwell i interpret her calling herself god as a way to convince herself of having control- and to lock away feelings of impurity#if anyone is in control- if anyone is loved and cherished despite any and all wrong doings- its a god.#and that all comes to a head when she eats the heart of cyn thereby destroying the AS- a literal manifestation of a corrupted god- for good#finally taking back control from the entity that had been terrorizing and traumatizing both her and her loved ones. but did she really?#cyn is apart of her now. powerless sure- but that doesnt take away the horrors she wrought previously#and even so- has uzi ever stopped being just a host? do you think shes terrified of cyn regaining power out of the blue?#do you think uzi ever stops feeling like a monster?#“sin eating” was a thing that happened where someone would consume ritual foods to take on the sins of a recently deceased person#thus absolving said deceased person of any sins and putting them onto the sin eater. being a sin eater ensured eternal damnation.#and i just think about that a lot. when applying that (symbolically ofc(somewhat literally. she very much is a cyn eater)) to what uzi did.#“gloom you're reading way too much into this” THE LITTLE GOTH ROBOT. MAKES ME INSANE IN THE HEAD. OK!!!!!#gloom.art#murder drones#murder drones fanart#murder drones uzi#uzi murder drones#uzi doorman#uzi md#md uzi#uzi fanart
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ghost who sleeps in nik’s black hawk when his insomnia is at its worst
when he can’t sleep for the paranoia eating away at his chest, when every creak and sound is an enemy creeping to his door, when everyone and everything is just too loud he asks nik for the keys
personal weapons aren’t allowed in the base housing but the hangers? those are fair game. he can load himself up with enough bullets and knives to be a one man army; rifles pointed out each window as he hunkers down with only a blanket to protect himself from the cold hard metal
no one but nik knows he sleeps out here and with the base asleep, if ghost hears anyone, he’ll know it’s an enemy. that surety settles the beast in his chest enough for him to finally drift off into a solid sleep for the first time in a month
no one but nik knows on these rare nights that he stands watch outside the hanger while ghost sleeps; gun in hand, standing guard for the man who tirelessly protects the rest of them, no matter the consequences
#like i said im deep in my nik protecting ghost feelings#quiet support literally kills me#nik doing everything in his power to look after ghost#including not letting ghost know he’s aware of why he does this all so he doesn’t suffer from his vulnerability?#i am Unwell#this dynamic with them being platonic hits just as much#it not being about protecting your lover just the pain of a understanding a brother in arms#of seeing the protector and knowing hes never had anyone protect /him/#and voicelessly watching his back bc it what he deserves#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#nikghost#ghostnik#nik cod#cod nik#cod nikolai#nikolai cod#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#cod mw2#cod modern warfare#cod mwii#cod fic#save post
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a redraw
#i got this ending and literally messaged my friend 'im gonna fucking throw up /pos'#im so unwell about them#augh#my art#signalis#elster signalis#elster#LSTR#LSTR 512#ariane yeong#ariane signalis#screenshot redraw#signalis fanart#signalis spoilers#robotposting
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AND WE JUST DONT TALK ABOUT THIS?!?!?!!????
#THIS IS LITERALLY LITERAAALLLYYY THE BIGGEST FORM OF CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT SUGISHITA COULD HAVE#NOT ONLY IS HE DOING WHATS BEST FOR UMEMIYA BUT HES PUTTING HIS TRUST IN SAKURA TO HELP HIM#AND OH IM SO UNWELL#HIS BODY IS PHYSICALLY REACTING TO HIM MAKING THIS DECISION IM JUST#IM SO PROUD#and then sakura acknowledging all of this too i just love them sm#they really have one of the best dynamics 😭😭😭#wind breaker#kyotaro sugishita#sakura haruka#wind breaker spoilers#wind breaker manga spoilers#ok nvm im still talking bc the second image literally gets me everytime i look at it#first off the way they drew sakura in that scene in the first place is just so beautiful thats the only word i can think for it rn 😭😭😭😭#second seeing this scene from sugishitas perspective and then learning later that the reason he has this reaction was because he thought-#-sakura looked cool and hes never thought that about anyone before just really gives us so much more for their relationship#specially how sugishita acts towards him 😭😭#add that onto what umemiya says to him (which i couldnt include in this post </3) about how hes never really shown emotion to anyone-#-till sakura showed up then it gives us an even BETTER understanding of why sugishita acts the way he does around sakura#my brain is so frazzled by the sun today and words are not coming to me easily so apologies if none of this makes any sense 😭😭😭#ill revisit it another time anyway#also the way they describe all of this really makes it sound like he has a lil crush and its so sweet 😭😭😭😭😭😭
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just realised the captain only let the other ghosts refer to him as captain probably only partially because the war and his rank was everything that mattered to him and also because the last thing he heard before he died was the love of his life saying his name in the most loving and gentle way and he probably wanted to keep that memory and it also probably would feel way too intimate for any of the other ghosts to say his name after that so he just tells them to call him captain.
#screaming crying throwing up#bawling my eyes out rn#capvers#janthony#idk which is actually being used anymore#im so unwell about this show#i literally just realised this while sitting in school and had to not burst out crying about a fictional dead gay guy#im not okay actually#bbc ghosts#just thinking about how none of the ghosts were there for his death so they must have asked his name at some point#and he must have told them to call him captain rather than his name#and then thinking about why he would do that#and then crying#idk if someone already said this but i havent seen it so i thought I'd put it on here#bbc ghosts spoilers
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hello
i'm like 99% sure when stone flips through outfits for robotnik one of them is called the redmamba-nik with leather and a super high collar
is this a niche reference to megamind ? please say yes
#maid outfit this maid outfit that#AGENT STONE LIKES MEGAMIND BECUASE HE THINKS TECHNICAL GENIUSES WITH EMOTIONAL INSTABILITY ARE COOL SEND TWEET#megamind robotnik parallels helpp#i'm obviously very popular in school.#oh moyo what did you do this weekend#i thought about bald pansexual supervillains#i thought about them#and i thought about agent stone.#i'm ALWAYS thinking about agent stone#hi hello i'm a sonic fan because of the animated show(s)#then they dropped movies#and made the robot man gay and gave me a fun gay side character#who became a important gay character#and they confirmed black BLACK african ass knuckles#i love black people and i HATE the gays#yes i am both yes i hate myself#dr robotnik#sonic movie#i am unwell#because this means stone watched megamind and was like ''that is literally a blue version of my husband oh my god DOCTOR-''#because that's literally a less evil version of my boy ivo#ivo robotnik#agent stone#my beloved agent stone#never forgetting that idris keeps the gloves on for the role I LOVE KNUCKLES ARGGAGAGAG#megamind#I LOVE THIS MOVIE SO MUCH BTW I USED THE DVD TILL IT BROKE WHEN I WAS LITTLE#AND NOW ITS ON HBO IM UNWELL
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I have a enemies to lovers-lovers to enemies toxic yuri story with mattel i guess
#ever after high#eah#mattel#seriously i prefer the mattel winx and disney princess dolls#i hate on mattel but there is always worse things#they are bad with quality but they serve face i guess#im not okay thinking about eah again ofc..#i want to collect every eah thing#and i just found about kuu kuu harajuku and now im in love ugh i love dolls#enchantimals still exists and guys tbh i think i need to have its media because its what we still have from eah#like its an spin off and even tho i like mh g3 its like the monster high less related to eah yknow#so enchantimals is literally what was left#there were some things that could be released but werent#like the duchess lets down her hair book#and an apple playset called back to school#as much as i hate the most recent eah dolls this was an okay one#i was looking over the dolls and now i find some of them really pretty lmao#the line book party is all good but the kitty doll is 10/10 seriously i love her#and cedar birthday ball is actually so pretty? i used to hate birthday ball and hated their colorful hairs but i love her now#and these lines mentioned are still with the old facemolds and are fully articulated#i just found out about the eah merch site so im unwell#sorry i have lots of thoughts mattel is probably responsible for all my problems and blessings#the day it was oficially confirmed that eah was cancellef was 08/28/18#the same day the book duchess lets down her hair was supposed to be released#we lost so much dude
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The Librarians and Gravity Falls are in the same universe. to me. i'm not confident in my knowledge of the timeline well enough to know who was the librarian in the 80s but i am certain Ford would have gotten a letter from the library as certain as i am that the sun will rise tomorrow i know it in my heart he would have been a fantastic librarian just like i know he would have absolutely scoffed at the idea of employment there and lost the letter immediately after putting it down
#there is as REASON i love ford so much and it is because he is so much like flynn carson#my posts#anyways this is cause im rewatching the first movie and flynn literally says ''how did (the egyptians) do it''#''unlock the secrets of trigonometry; calculus...'' and then says they had a muse#and i was like ''ah yes. Bill.''#flynn would have the biggest crush on Ford btw just like he did that one librarian that traveled forward in time#was his fav and he fangirled over that guy bigtime. i forgot his name im sorry edit: DARRINGTON DARE#gravity falls#im unwell about both of these universes#i have been sick for over 20 years with love for one of them. and over 10 for the other#and it will never stop#the librarians
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so theres this half elf... 💜
#bg3 fanart#shadowheart#sorry i gotta be unwell about baldurs gate for like a little bit. somewhere. online. so. sideblog moment.#tav: faldan#OH also im like learning how to draw digitally like literally just this month. wow! hard. but its also satisfying#but i did just screenshot this out of some sort of laziness cause its from the corner of a doodling canvas. i just love them sm
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clampler….clampler…
clampler… sigh
#PHYSICALLY UNWELL ABOUT THEM#I THOUGHT ABOUT THEM FOR AN HOUR YESTERDAY#I THOUGHT ABIUT THEM FOR SO LONG MY STOMACH STARTED HURTING#THEY COUKD FIX EACH OTHER#IM LIKE GEHAGBRHWVEIGKWG#THEIR FRIENDSHIP IF LITERALLY EVERYTHING TO ME AND I NEED TO DRAW THEM MORE#I DO NOT TALK ABOUT THEM NEARLY AS MUCH AS I SHOULD#OLD MAN YAOI SAVE ME#SAVE MEEEE#dndads#dungeons and daddies#dndaddies#thrush rambles#thrush talks#clampler
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twitter gives me a notification to a post from someone i unfollowed (you would think i unfollowed them not to see their posts) then as i’m taking this in they join my party and leave like some weird ass taunt even tho they have me blocked everywhere?? i just alt f4d and shut my laptop off we’re getting any early nights sleep it seems
#i’m not one to vent here but i feel so unwell like i’m about to throw up and literally no one is up who i could tell#just#leave me alone#what the fuck even#vent#i’m so done#im probably just being paranoid because it makes no sense but i feel like shit enough about them already leave me alone ffs
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@halphcs asked: ♡
Send ♡ to see what my muse thinks of yours | Accepting!
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#halphcs#ask tag#literally. Literally. if cana wasn't an idiot and they both communicated. they would have been together.#but honestly what really set them apart was lisanna's death. and on top of that.#Cana becoming resentful of her and erza becoming S-Class mages#and making her feel like she was being left behind...#god but it truly is just the trope of 'right person wrong time'#and make no mistake. Cana /loves/ Mira#Cana will always love her and will never forget what they shared...but it was too little to late#and thats what makes them so fucking tragic and I'm so Unwell about them :)#canajane tag#canajane /#they are the literal Doomed Yuri meme but Real I fucking hate it here lakjsdflkajsdf#god i gotta write those fucking drabbles im foaming at the MOUTH
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Connor is so pretty but while most other ppl w that shared opinion want to kiss him or something my first thought is "chew his face off" or "put him in a blender"
He is like a stim toy. To me.
#i want to like slap his face purely for stim reasons i have no fucking clue how to decribe this#its the exact same urge i get to slap or pet a car bc it looks Texture to me#lineko.txt#like literally his skinless hands are so pretty and im fascinated by the Textures and want to feel them#also just how unwell i am about him as a character#seeing pinup art of him has me kidna meh#at least throw some blood on that thang cmon now#sorry its almost 12am i need to sleep im having an adhd moment i think
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see. my issue is NOT recognizing i have an alcohol problem.my issue is recognizing that i am just some person and i cant handle every single issue i face alone
#ask to tag#alcoholism#alcohol#listen. i am the big sister who failed and i cant keep failing. I CAN HANDLE EVERY PROBLEM THROWN AT ME#i am literally das ubermench nietzsche taleld about#i can handle ANYTHING#that cather jn the rye quote. im in a field and theres a cliff and everyone's little no one s big. Except ME !!!#and its MY job to stop them from going over the cloff because km bigger and i can so i WILL#🙊🙈☺️😌#i may be unwell#addiction
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Do you love me? (No response) DO YOU LOVE ME!? -stabs you- (still no response)
DO YOU KNOW I HAVE YOUR SICK MAN IN MY DUNGEON!?
“I’m gonna fucking kill you.”
This is art this is wild yall telling me this isnt a danmei? Wack they just gay af like that for no reason love it thrive it when i finish this i think im gonna snort so much fan art and fic up my nose itll give me even more brain damage than the show already has
#frostpost#watching mysterious lotus casebook#im literally so unwell#di feisheng like only i get to fight him to the death#but if anyone else hurts him or he actually dies im killing everyone#gay gay gay#why are they just the sorry daddy kitten has to go kill himself sofkfkfkfkf#jiao liqiao just must epic of girlboss digging her own grave scenario#figures out these bitches gay and not good for them#she decided to be homophobic about it in like the wildest funniest way possible so im giving her a pass
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