#im literally so unwell about them

[thegaydepressedone]

I'm thinking about Jon and Martin in the safehouse after the Change

I'm thinking of them laying in bed together, comforting one another, distracting themselves from what waits outside.

I'm thinking about how Martin would begin to gently stroke Jon's head. Slowly, subtly, he would begin to run his fingers through the length of Jon's hair. Eventually, Jon would notice the light tugging of Martin teasing apart the knots, and he would murmur, "What are you doing?"

and Martin would sadly whisper, "You haven't been brushing it..."

[trauma-bot]

sin eater

[s0fter-sin]

ghost who sleeps in nik’s black hawk when his insomnia is at its worst

when he can’t sleep for the paranoia eating away at his chest, when every creak and sound is an enemy creeping to his door, when everyone and everything is just too loud he asks nik for the keys

personal weapons aren’t allowed in the base housing but the hangers? those are fair game. he can load himself up with enough bullets and knives to be a one man army; rifles pointed out each window as he hunkers down with only a blanket to protect himself from the cold hard metal

no one but nik knows he sleeps out here and with the base asleep, if ghost hears anyone, he’ll know it’s an enemy. that surety settles the beast in his chest enough for him to finally drift off into a solid sleep for the first time in a month

no one but nik knows on these rare nights that he stands watch outside the hanger while ghost sleeps; gun in hand, standing guard for the man who tirelessly protects the rest of them, no matter the consequences

[flowersnax]

a redraw

[queer-omens-in-the-archives]

so we've spent the past three months writing MelloNear daily, and we've worked on enough different pieces in that time that i now have some Thoughts as to the narrative purposes they each tend to serve in our own works (this is not. about canon though i suppose it DERIVES from their canon dynamic. this is very much about how we personally play with the blorbos)

by and large Mello serves to drive the plot, regardless of the position he is put in within the universe. we don't even have to actively be trying to do anything with him -- even in our more Near-centric pieces, as long as Mello is present? his emotions, whims, wants are what shapes the trajectory of the story, his emotional beats are the beats that drive the plot forward. he feels, he impulses, he injects stuff into the sequence of events. things happen because Mello wants them to (or pushes Near to make them happen if/when he himself cannot).

meanwhile Near is much less of a driving force for the plot and more of a reflective force for the story. he isn't IRRELEVANT to the plot, he doesn't do NOTHING, but most of what he does from a plot progression standpoint is reactive. like, he acts not because of an inner drive, not based on his own wants or needs, but largely when his circumstances require action of him. (by circumstances i don't just mean Plot Events. sometimes what he reacts to are his own emotions, like in sweet atonement, when they are so overwhelming that he cannot put them aside to strategise effectively anymore -- the keyword here being "effectively", because even then his first response will still often be to try to strategise.) by and large what Near does do is provide space for reflection, for thought, for analysis. things happen to him, or through him, and he thinks about them a bunch, and he'd leave it at that if Mello wasn't pushing him.

so they make for super neat storytelling when you figuratively drop them together in a jar and shake them around, because it's like. Mello pushes Near into action Near wouldn't take on his own; and then Near adds weight to Mello's direction, provides a deeper sense of spacetime, fleshes out the places where Mello takes him that Mello wouldn't necessarily stop at or consider on his own. like at their core, in the way we write their dynamic, Mello Does and Near Is. and mixing them up, you get: all of the essential elements for a compelling story!

and obviously im not like, talking in absolutes, none of this is true 100% of the time or the only possible reading of them, nuance exists etc etc. but that's the general trends we're starting to notice in our own MelloNear writing over the past few months

[extravagav]

AND WE JUST DONT TALK ABOUT THIS?!?!?!!????

[thevashta-narada]

just realised the captain only let the other ghosts refer to him as captain probably only partially because the war and his rank was everything that mattered to him and also because the last thing he heard before he died was the love of his life saying his name in the most loving and gentle way and he probably wanted to keep that memory and it also probably would feel way too intimate for any of the other ghosts to say his name after that so he just tells them to call him captain.

[crypticcraftin]

hi hi hey howdy I would like to hear about some blurclancy if thats ok. do you have any tidbits to share pretty please 🥺 i love fucked up abusive doomed yaoi so much

hhhhhh this is the best ask thats ever graced my inbox anon i LOVE you

I feel like none of my blurclancy thoughts are THAT original, but that's okay, because I can make up for it with ✨️enthusiasm✨️

first thing you need to understand- Nico is a freak. the other Bishops aren't great people either, they abuse their power over citizens too (YES, even Keons), but NO ONE does as much fucked up shit as Nico. he is an outlier. you think your Bishop is bad because he's physically abusive? Oh, buddy. if you only knew what's going on in Nico's district, you'd know better than to complain.

that being said, obviously, not every single citizen deals with it to the same extent. it's a huge city, most people are going to fly under his radar. So Nico has favorites, y'know? people (victims) he takes a particular interest in. those people generally bear the brunt of his freak-ness.

Clancy is one of those favorites. no- Clancy is THE favorite. the favorite OF the favorites. you could interpret this in a million different ways, how long has he had his eye on Clancy? why him in particular? I, honestly, don't have any specific answers to those questions that I consider better than any others. all I know is that Nico is COMPLETELY obsessed with him. unhealthily obsessed. he is deranged.

now, as for Clancy, I don't personally have any specific timeline or details that I subscribe to more than others, but during SAI, he's obviously getting super messed up. idk if I'll be able to explain this right >:[ but I'm gonna try

Nico's sadistic. Obviously. He enjoys Clancy being in pain, he enjoys his suffering immensely. Nico would probably hit him for no reason, just to see him cry. He does... even worse things to make him cry too.

But that isn't enough. like I said, Nico is deranged. Imprisoning him isn't enough, beating and torturing him ISN'T ENOUGH. Nico wants to own him not just physically, he wants to mentally break him too. Not just to the point of obedience, like the others do, he wants to be Clancy's everything. He wants worship. He wants the sun to rise and set with him. He wants Clancy to look at him like he put the fucking stars in the sky. he NEEDS that, he needs Clancy to feed his ego.

and do not even get me STARTED on how much worse it gets when you add smearing into the mix...

as for, like, other hcs about what their dynamic is like. idk I feel like publicly, in front of other Bishops, Nico at least TRIES to keep up a facade of normalcy. doesn't always go well, anyone who pays even 0.01% attention (Keons) winds up going 🤨🤨🤨, but he tries. privately, I feel like they're both really touchy/ clingy? Clancy's the clingy one, he's so touch starved / deprived of any kind of affection, he's constantly seeking it out, even if he's still bleeding from injuries Nico made not five minutes ago. Nico's less clingy, more... creepily physical? He's constantly moving Clancy around instead of just asking him to move himself, he always has an arm around him or a hand touching him or whatever.

idk man they are just soooo so toxic and then they kiss a bunch and it's great 👍

[bunnyboy-juice]

awawawawawawa

[kang-yina]

I have a enemies to lovers-lovers to enemies toxic yuri story with mattel i guess

[micamone]

The Librarians and Gravity Falls are in the same universe. to me. i'm not confident in my knowledge of the timeline well enough to know who was the librarian in the 80s but i am certain Ford would have gotten a letter from the library as certain as i am that the sun will rise tomorrow i know it in my heart he would have been a fantastic librarian just like i know he would have absolutely scoffed at the idea of employment there and lost the letter immediately after putting it down

[onyxursa]

so theres this half elf... 💜

[piepiepiemag]

twitter gives me a notification to a post from someone i unfollowed (you would think i unfollowed them not to see their posts) then as i’m taking this in they join my party and leave like some weird ass taunt even tho they have me blocked everywhere?? i just alt f4d and shut my laptop off we’re getting any early nights sleep it seems

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[verved]

Connor is so pretty but while most other ppl w that shared opinion want to kiss him or something my first thought is "chew his face off" or "put him in a blender"

He is like a stim toy. To me.

[myownprivatcidaho]

see. my issue is NOT recognizing i have an alcohol problem.my issue is recognizing that i am just some person and i cant handle every single issue i face alone