#im leaving rhat in there its fine

[nu1lst4rs]

my artstyle fluctuates so much, how do you guys put up with it. like DAMN!!! nearly never have the same amount of effort over 2 different posts. i dont even know if i can blame this on the dissociative identity disorder cause. omfg. how do you draw two such different drawings in. the period of one day. pull your shit together bitch.

[br1ghtestlight]

zeke and jimmy jr are so fucking stupid. immediately a 10/10 episode just for tankbottoms (tank tops for your bottom™️)

THEYRE SO FUCKING STUPID THERES TEARS IN MY EYES..... if anybody ever hurts these boys ever in their lives i dont know what im going to do. probably cry about it

BABYYY ZEKE HES SO ADORABLE 😭😭💕 love how squished his face is. he's Three apples tall snd very very small

Hey guys :D love how she's dropped the "hey jimmy jr!!! ZEKE." thing and started being normal about greeting them. sorry we're not even a minute into the episode i just love these kids so much they're sooo sweet and so stupid. accurate middle schooler representation

jimmy jr and tina talking :') they're buddies. love that he's already explained this tankbottoms idea to tina and she Does Not Like It

HEY GENE BROWN EYES MENTION!!! always love to have rhat confirmed

oh that jimmy pesto impression is UNCANNY. aww why are they fighting they were sorta kinda becoming friends. not really but in my heart they were after the christmas episode and them racing cars together

"aahh im bored' oh so he's literally just gay? is that what this is?

JIMMY PESTO SAYING ITS BEEN SLOW AT HIS PLACE LATELY LMAO i wonder why that could be!! surely no real world events coincided with that happening!!!!

jimmy pesto is so stupid i missed him so much. i missed ur stupid stupid handsome face SO MUCH u idiot. kisses him

YOU GET ONE PACK OF RATS COVERED IN ROACHES 😭

love how he's Literally just trying to be friends with bob and bob is like. can you leave? could you please leave?? there's something going on here not even gay people have a word for. this is a brand new type of interaction

"our rats and roaches dont get along" "aah well you're lucky"

"right that was ALMOST a normal conversation but you're you soo you said that" *fart noise* "THATS YOU" why is jimmy literally the equivalent of a boy teasing a girl he has a crush on on the playground bcuz he likes her and doesnt know how to show it. what is their PROBLEM

aww louise reading the burobu magazine 🥺🥺💕 sorry this is relevant to a fanfic im working on. also love these new views of the playground thats also great to have (also for the same fanfic) (there's a lot going on in this fanfic)

jimmy jr is so fucking stupid and literally my baby boy. ACTUAL love of my life. he's so dumb <3

"teatherball? oh my god. another TB" there's literally zero braincells in that boys head this is already one of my favorite jimmy jr episodes. also zeke getting jealous that tina is spending time around a boy who hates zeke?? kinda cute. he liiiikes her :) i think he's also just terrified of will but i think he's also a little jealous maybe. zeke contains multitudes

"I just, uh, don't want to have fun... like that. With a bunch of balls in my mouth."

"Fine. Some people are just more open to new ideas."

presenting this conversation with no context. AND jimmy pesto being gay in the background bcuz of course he would be

okay well im already assuming this b plot is gonna go in the direction of jimmy pesto copying bob bcuz business has been slow for him and he thinks bob is generally a better cook so if he copies him maybe he'll get more business too. which is ADORABLE and reminds me so much of the christmas episode where jimmy pesto recommended bob's food bcuz it was so good. also if jimmy thinks that bob is copying his business FJDMDJFKDKDSJ reminds me of a past episode i cant remember the name of but like better.... bcuz they're gay and stupid

gene is a sweet boy <3 sweet song and moment. love that him and louise are just always hanging out together

ohh jimmy jr he's so sweet 😭 he loves zeke so much its adorable. i know there's nothing anybody could do or say to make him stop loving zeke or wanting to be his friend and its actually really cute. he's been great in this episode

"My sweet best friend. My sweet, sweet Zeke..."

love jimmy jr being just as heartbroken over somebody being mean to zeke as i am FJDMDJDKSKS he's literally DEVASTATED by this news. who would bully zeke he's literally a baby? just a baby boy??

"I don't like bullies. And I especially don't like them at our school. And in our sister's grade. I mean, what if he makes Tina pee and embarasses her? She's already fighting an uphill battle."

louise is both very sweet and protective and also VERY funny lmao SHES ALREADY FIGHTING AN UPHILL BATTLE

love jimmy jr louise and gene's dynamic in this episode. they care so much about their babies (zeke and tina) its cuuute

"i feel bad for zeke too but i just dont think aggression is the answer" coming from the kid who got his ass beat by a nine year old. on MULTIPLE occasions

love mort ordering the burger of the day like he has a gun pointed at his head FJDMDKDKSKSS also mort and teddy getting along!! yay!!!! big win for the tedmort shippers in the fandom

"Zeke... I just want you to know that I'm here for you and I care about you." when did jimmy jr get all emotionally mature??

WOLLY BULLY

"I get why you wouldn't want to tell me, because I'm one of the cool kids..." gonna need a citation for that one jimmy jr

if there's one thing louise is gonna do its ignore EVERYBODY telling her not to do something for revenge and do it anyway. like girl u gotta know when to let something go i know you're protective but FJDMSKSDKDK

"whats going on down there" dont even worry about it rudy

i love school episodes they're so silly. still a 50/50 chance zeke WAS the bully vs being bullied and this is a misunderstanding but either way this is very fun and i love seeing all the kids hanging out at recess and lunch etc

tina has had like three lines total in this episode where IS that girl

"i was the bully" yeah i figured since this episode still has half the runtime left and no other possible way this conflict could go LMAO but on that note its kinda sweet that he's made friends and a life for himself at wagstaff and he's not mean to kids anymore. he's a good kid in his heart & he always was

NOT THE APPLE JUICE 😭😭💔

not tina crushing on will in the background.... its not ur episode girl get outta here

"i can see that" rudy is there something you'd like to share with the class 🤨🏳️‍🌈

"SORRY me spraying juice on you wasn't bullying! That was just an accident." POOR GENE he's so worried about upsetting someone or hurting their feelings

BABY ZEKE COMPILATION TJIS IS A BIG MOMENT FOR ME gonna need to screenshot this after bcuz he's so small. maybe the smallest boy in the whole entire world

"i was always the new kid and it wasn't easy making friends" 😭😭💕 AND NOW HE HAS TINA AND JIMMY JR GENE LOUISE RUDY and even tammy and jocelyn (kinda sorta) and he doesnt need to be nervous anymore..... he has a home and he's never going to leave. sorry brb im crying i love zeke and their littlr friend group so much

BETWEEN THAT AND MY IMPULSE CONTROL ISSUES I JUST STARTED WRESTLING KIDS sorry zeke is many things but he is NOT smart thats why him and jimmy jr are two peas in a pod. not a braincell between them

HE JUST HAD A LOT OF NERVOUS ENERGYYYY okay adhd zeke is literally canon now. to me. like i dont care what the episode says thats true now in my heart they basically said it

and then i kept trying to make them laugh :( zeke noo he's such a sweetheart and a good kid. he never had anybody who LIKED him before who really saw him for who he was until jimmy jr and their friend group. sobbing. I HAD A GROUP OF FRIENDS AND A NICKNAME IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I FELT LIKE I REALLY BELONGED....... CRYING SOBBING THROWING UP ETC

ive been told i have the perfect neck for headlocks. okay thank you rudy

jimmy jr is soo emotionally mature and thoughtful in this episode. TINA WHAT ON EARTH R U DOING IN THIS EPISODE she didnt even react to zeke's story bro. its so over

like a little italian squirrel :)

"Linda's right, Bob. And my therapist would say that you should focus on your own happiness and not compare it to other people's."

"Your therapist is an IDIOT!"

"You take that back, Bob! Do not speak of Doctor Marjorie that way. That woman has put up with SO MUCH in her life! The balls haven't always rolled her way!"

😭😭??? this was so funny lmao. also love how casually teddy mentions his therapist (throughout the entire show!! she was mentioned in his first appearance) and how normalized it is. like yeah he has a therapist and he has mental health issues & trauma and its just something he casually mentions

also mort always talks about ordering the soup at bobs burgers but we've NEVER seen soup on the menu or anybody else eating soup there what is up with that?? does bob make the soup especially for mort??? what is going on there. so many unanswered questions

"Look I don't know what THIS is..." *gestures vaugely to bob and jimmy pesto* Thats literally exactly how i feel whenever i watch an episode with them now. i dont know what the hell is going on between them and quite frannkly thats none of my business!!!

"im not SHRIEKING!!!!" he shrieked

"Zeke! Listen. We've all done things we're not proud of. I used to tell Andy and Ollie that there was actually only one of them. It messed with them for weeks. The point is... we recognize our mistakes and we learn from them. It's how we grow."

ONE we got a big brother jimmy jr mention HELL YEAH‼️‼️ love him tormenting andy and ollie he's such a terrible big brother (affectionate) and TWO in my head this is kinda jimmy jr apologizing for how he's fucked over tina in the past?? maybe im literally delusional about them but him admitting he's done things he isnt proud of and that he's hurt people before. cmon. thats gotta be about tina right. just lie to me at this point

JIMMY JUNIOR LMAOO he's literally so silly in this episode im obsessed with him

WHAT THE HELL WILL??

did zeke make fun of will for being a dancer lmfao thats why he wanted jimmy junior to leave right. he doesnt want jj to hate him

HE MADE FUN OF MY LISP 😭😭 no thats literally actually worse bcuz jimmy junior's lisp is soo. god. but zeke loves jimmy jr so much i know he would never do that to him. he literally LOVES that boy so goddamn much

YOUR LIPS FJDMDDJDKDKDD THEY LOOK FINR TO ME. somebody needs to sedate me im gonna become a jimmy jr fan account after this episode

JIMMY JR NOOOOOOOO ZEKE LOVES U HES UR BEST FRIEND. if they stop being friends after this episode im killing myself. like it would be so over for me. couldnt live after that theyre besties. theyre BESTIES

imagining if this was jimmy jr instead of will and actually literally crying real tears over it

I DONT EVEN THINK I WANT TO DO TANKBOTTOMS WITH YOU ANYMORE. thats literally worse than divorce whats even the point

"I mean, a lot of people don't know this but I have a speech impediment."

"Huh."

"Really?"

"Ooh I never noticed..."

"Yeah. I worked through a lot of it but sometimes it still shows up."

love this dumbass autistic boy. he's my sweetheart angel i would die for him 1000 times over and over

I THOUGHT TINA WAS GONNA ASK ZEKE TO SHOW HIS BUTT SAYING "I mean you could...." i was like ooohkay tina sure. okay

aww bob is so smart. and cool

JIMMY JR HOLDING ZEKES BACKPACK FOR HIM sorry idk why i thought that was so cute. gonna need a screenshot of that

LOVE GENE AND LOUISES EXPRSSSIONS IN THIS SCENE sorry okay im paying attention to their gay little fight too ig

AWWW HAHA ZEKE IS SUCH AN OLDER BROTHER this scene is so cute. him teasing gene and louise <3

THIS EPISODE WAS SOO ADORABLE OMG i loved jimmy jr in this episode and his friendship with zeke. maybe my favorite episode this season?? its hard to say bcuz all of them have been so enjoyable and good but i love school setting episodes and zeke is such a good character. the subplot was also really good w/ jimmy pesto although i will NOT be letting bob forget what happened between them in the christmas episode and when he brought jimmy pesto his pain meds. he might forget but i will NOT. they were seriously for real gay there

[solardick]

Every proud obstacle… That is a curious set of words.

“That keeps people from knowing god.”

What is pride in this day and age? In the face of such deep shame. The antidote is demote pride. Be proud of who you are. You are changing the world for the better. Peace and love all around, the hippies are dancing on the moon.

The moon means itself a couple of things. The night, the lamp in the dark, the feminine cycle of attraction and repulsion, romance, mania/sanity. It is taught to mean, history, needs, and nurturance. The mother and the family. The emotional.

This stipulates that wants and needs of the material plain, are cyclic. And will never last or advance. Only reflect the state of that solar power. Is it functional? Active? Needs set task.

Knowing god and knowledge of god can speak the same message. But becomes more complicates by knowledge of. This will depend on position. What side. The side of god, or the side of man. One is clearly with and the other is aside. But the knowledge of what is god. Is functional. One implies direct contact with. The other is of wisdom from.

One is soft, sincere, and the other is an dickhole. Morally ambiguous.

What is inspiration. A failing dream. Learnd not to.

The price of not bein go fucked with anymore is a permanent desease.

Dont really like the instructor. Sme type of pwrsonlity as the eldest brother with the co stant jokes made in all seriousness. Except for admiting that it was a joke after it was said.

Hello dick in ass desease how are you doing. Fine morning is it? I dohno. I doibt im surviving mich konger. First thing i feel in the morning. Last thing i feel before falling asleep. Its sll there is to life.

Pills dony work. And im not “allowed” to see a doctor. Especially one yhat speaks my language.

Because im jusr a eice of shot fag bashing asshole that throuws cats agaisnt walls and treats wemen like trash. Yup. Thats me. Alright. Being punished for how othe rpeople treat me.

But the ttruth is, there is no reason. Pwople have always. Taken it for themselves to put themselves over me. Simce my first memory. Thats all its ever been. And i cant do it anymore.

An issantiable itch at the end of your nose rhat you can’t scratch becaise ypu have no arms. And scratching isnt going to do anything anyway. And upu just eant to cut the nose off your face.

Guess ill never know what internal growth feels like.

Thats what happens when your born in hell you get raped for 40 straight years and then you kill yourself.

Im here to conclude my fakily disfunction karmic history. Im my father long lost drowned brother and my mothers expelled and hated brother. Put them both together and you got me. Someone who gets abused into suicide.

At work im bieng shuffled around again. Like its always been. Paired with people im not compatible with. Who fucke with me. And being switched to

12 hours shift. Never lasted 12 hour shifts before. Dont know why i would now. Not like im getting another job. Thye made surenof that.

They brought in another girl. A pretty litle thing for that venus aspect the other day. Not really my tyoe of pretty. And too young. But it does give me soemthing. Soft and feminine to look at. To contrast the endless years of chaos. She’ll pribably fuck with me like every other girl they lined me uo for. But she has tatts. And tatts are really unattractive.

Vaca time coming up. Use that time. To detoxify from all external influences. Cause nono e of them are good. And see if this desease gets better if not. More doctors. Maybe anti depressants. Since it causes severe suicidal inclinations. Anyo depressants never worked before. They made me worst but whatever.

Maybe i can get some more estrogen laced weed and smoke and game. Its not like ill notice. Im too busy concentrating on getting killed.

Like i said half the people here are leaving. All new people coming. More certainty ill be getting fucked with.

With dick in ass disease you’ll be a 65 year old man still craving to get fucked in the ass everyday. Sex overrules the survival.

Wonder how many gay men im going to be worki g witb. I bet their gonna multiply. Because apparently according to the census. Canada is 6% queer compared to the global 1% but according to wrsonal experimece. Ita more like 30 to 40 percent.

And apparently the entire world lives by my horoscope. Alone. They dont have one. Its only mine.

But its ok though because ill be entering the gate of man soon.

Hello asshole. Want to shit mucous for breakfast. Ok. My asshole is my only freind. I dint even have a sex drive anymore. But thats ok becias their bringing in a new girl to sexually harrass me with and then they rape me again.

12 hour shifts. Yeah. Ok. Thats gonna work. Get up ear breakdast go to work. Have nothign to eat so, ficnish work go grocery shoping. Get home. Not have enough time to

Cook anything. Tv dinner. Microwave shower bed. If i can sleep. If not. Gaming and tv for a

Fee hours go to sleep wake up 4-5 hours later. Eat breakfast. Go

To work. Drive a forklift for 12 hours or manyla

Labour. Leave go back grocery shopping and repeat. By the third day. All have had maybe 12 hours sleep in total. Gor back to

Work. Druve forklift. Yup. Aure is safe amd secure around here.

Never lasted 12 hour shoft sbefore dont know why i would

Now. Ill be back

To welfare and suicideagain. before too long

I dont know how to live and maneuver society. So i cant work for

Myself.

Im not surviving what they’r

Doing to me. They all get away murder.

Well, lost all the hairs on my left foot. And over half on my right foot. And only now after a couple weeks or so. Theres starting to have a couple retarded growths come back. Shins are now patchy. Finer patches all the way up the left thy. Less so on the right. Patch on thr small of the back. Is gone. Good riddance to that one. My ass went from a jungle to a desert. Everything above the waist unchanged.

The cock just doodled. Time to suck on some coffee.

Think im just goi g to stay consistantly high for the rest of my life. But its ok. Because my govenrment supports it.

I quit weed for a few years, then they legalized it. I quit tv and gaming was weaning my way off cigs. And the. They got their hands on me. Erased all my good work. All the weaning off of base lunar desires. And fucken raped my life. Beat me into a beligerent mess. Back into base desires. And said go get therapy. I tried. Said i havd an enyore community of fucken retards raping my existamce. Amd she said sorry i cant help you. Then waited for 6 months for a half ass notice for a shrink. By that time i no longer cared. Because im not important enough to be taken seriously. Sorry good lord. This is hell uou have no say.

Hurry up 10 am so i can go buy some drugs and game the rest if the day. Like a good little boy. What im supposed to be doing. Sedated, pacified, oppressed and receptive.

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

I think the interesting thing w my two interests rn being jrwi and the qsmp is how different pacing is n shit like. After being into the dsmp for likeee 2 years i think i got used to it being like. So much Stuff all the time but being caught up. And then like 3 years after that i get into jrwi and the pacing is so different and the story is linear and theres no way u can miss anything unless u skip an episode or whatevwr and its very like. A lot more slow paced tbh but also more like equal. Like in mcrp stuff there can be like 4 hours of just minwcraft gameplay and then maybe 30 minutes of rp and then another 2 hours kf minecraft. But w dnd its ofc very evenly spread. Ofc theres like battles which i dont find as interesting, but everything is story orientated, everythings just following the plot like. Like in dnd formats the plot is like the stem of a plant and then therell be the occasional lil leaf thats a battle rhat isnr AS plot surrounded but still as important. But in mcrp its more like. A bush. With a few leaves inside it being plot. And like. Fucking. Vant focus on my words rn. Basically what im saying is. W the qsmp i nevwr know whats going on evwr bc its impossible to stay caught up and i only wanna watch my like 3 sillies. W jrwi i cant rlly BE not caught up bc i can alwayd just rewatch what i dont get qnd not worry about Tomorrowd Episode bc we have 2 weeks beyween episodes (would b 1 week but my patreon sub expired just as i caught up w pd) and like. W apothy n pd 4 example i didnt focus a Lot. But thats fine bc rewatching is. Easy enough. But rewatching mcrp stuff is. Hard. And. Yeah. Bssically. U.m. amth ive also noticed w charlies qsmp streams is. Ir feels more similar 2 jrwi bc he doesnt do much actual miencraft. And hes like. In character all the time as well. And like. His pacing is good. So tired. Cant think. Oy ym gid i need ros neeze. ITS FUCKING GONE gonna kill someone.

[mirtifero]

I dont typ e it because i lack the emergy ans my head hirts. Funnn fun fun fun fun i want to kill myself i wished i was dead isnt it funnt isnt it so fucking funny i love saying that bevause it doesnt feel serious right everyone feels rhat everyone doed ! Why would you care if i said i was going to kill myself. Im a hysteric little bitch an annoying ass teenager i think too much i live in my own dumb world and jmahine things tjay arw nkr eeal ams make everyone angrynat em and eberuone LEAVES Isnt that funy isnt it. It is funny it has to be. Kt need s to be funnt. Im hysteric and thats why no one tales me seirlusly . If i wastn tlike this people would take me seriously. Ah yes thank you for your interesting imput nook ineed to say it like a weird bitch i cannot be normal for fucjs asake i thi k im always rigth i thing k im always correct and i al2aus always need everyothing to be funnt and good and everything has to have hope i. Jt because it NEEDS to because otherwise i will DIE. the ghosts of people who left because thwy couldnt care leas about ne haunt me and j think abkut them coming back and laughing at me all the time. Everyone laughts at me. Its so easy to laugh at someone whk wants to be funny all the time. Isnt it funny. I find it funnt. Im laughing rght now. Shsoukd ng i?every noght i dream i cant speak i cant breathe i cant move and everuone laughs at me and everyone thisnks im crazy. And every dream i see people loving me and laughing bevause they KNOW they wont coome backk they are GONE . I cant do anything right

Its been 24 days since winter break statterx. 24 days. 24 days and i STILL FWEL LIKE THIS. I STILL FEEL LIKE THIS. AJBQQNBS ISNT IT AMAZING. ????? . GOD IM SO STUPID.

Im just on my period oh im just a teenager oh itll pass im justt FINE. EVERYONE feels like this. Everyone has a perdect body and perfwct everything and looks in the mirror and feels like a hysteric ugly weak bitch and thinks why am I even trying. I habe what? More than a year clean. Provavly more than one year and a half. And i still dream about cutting myself in front of people i think about BEGGING to be listened to I dream of BEGGING to be HEARD.

But my psychologist is right everything is OKAY

I'm just a teenager.

It will go away

I need to wait

I need to wait

I' normal im just like any other girl.

Perhaps as hysteric as any other girl. As fake as any other. Im just like the ones who bullied and abused me.

I just need to wait

EVERYONE feels like this. EVERYONE commits suicide in most of their dreams. EVERYONE is horrified and thinks about how everyone is going to leave them. EVERYONE WANTS TO DIE. AND EVERYONE. EVERYONE. IS STUPID AND WILL NEVER EVER EVER EVER BE LISTENED TO BECAUSE THEY ARE A HYSTERIC PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT WHO CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT AND IS JUST EMBARRASSING AND EMBARRASSING AND A LITTLE KID WHOS EMBARRASSING TO EVERYONE AND I AM JUST TROUBLE AND I AM just. I just. I wanted to have just died back then. I wanted to have just died before I discovered that life can be better. I didn't need hope. I feel forever tired. No amount of winter breaks will fix this. No growing up will. And if it will I'll kill myself for it. Because it's just too embarrassing to lie. And I'm not lying. I'm not. I'll kill myself. I'll kill myself if I was lying. I'm not lying. I'm not exagerating im not being dramatic im not im not im not i just want people to HEAR me. I just want to be heard. Please. Please . Please. Please. Im so sorry. Please. Please. I hate myself and all that i get embarrassed for. I hate evrything i am. I hate how i cant seem to do anything. Im a liar. Im a liar im a dirty liar. Please. Please.

[autism-homosex]

dude ive talked about this before oh my god youre so rigjt and so real. its a little funny that the only time he leaves any sort of visible fingerprint is when his hands are Covered in His Own Blood 😭😭 this reminds me of a oneshot i wrote a while ago pertaining to this same idea ooojjhggggfhhggjj

while writing this i found the fic and its not. that good. but im gonna paste some parts of the fic rhat reminded me of this post because omg im insane finally soemoene else recognizes my guys Freak Weirdness

this is really embarrassing to be posting your turn to die fanfics from over a year ago publicly on the internet but its ok itll be fine (positive reassurance and affirmations)

“[wash your face twice daily — many people skip hygiene when getting your life back together…]

no.

shin lay with his back facing the laundry-covered floor of his bedroom, his head resting right against the end of his unsupportive mattress, holding his phone right in his face. for the past thirty minutes, he’s been watching those “tips and tricks” videos, crossing self-organizing ideas off of a mental list, with face cleaning being the fourteenth tip from the current video he’s scrapped so far. because he’s not dirty — while there is hardly anything shin can call himself proud of, he is at the very least clean.

though, not because the rest of his living situation is organized. quite the contrary, actually; rather, he just hates the feeling of grime anywhere on his body. any amount of dust or dirtiness that any normal person would find impossible to recognize heightens shin’s senses tenfold, making him feel like he’s sitting in a vat of expired sink ramen”

“shin reaches his hand toward the broom next to the sink, then falters. there isn’t even a visible floor that he could sweep. every item of clothing he owns is strewn all over the floor in different parts of his shitty apartment.

the back of shin’s brain heats up a little, as if little fans are working to keep him from getting overwhelmed over the mess he just didn’t notice until now. his upper body collapses onto the small counter, holding himself up with his elbows, and he sighs into his hands, exasperation seeping through his fingers”

and then in the notes i wrote “his brain-world probably looks like and old brick mill factory building so maybe i could add some references to that throughout” this shit was elaborate shin tsukimi autism propaganda and i damn well knew it 😭😭☠️

considering how Shin is canonically presented as a bit of a germaphobe in canon (his hands literally being spotless, meaning he definitely washes them often) i think the fandom should really decide to collectively headcanon him as "untidy" rather than "unhygienic" because there is a massive difference.

Shin, who changes his outfit like twice in a single day because he can't stand the feeling of the slightest bit of sweat- but because he goes through those clothes so fast, he doesn't ever get to iron or coordinate them, consequently giving him a dishevelled appearance regardless.

Shin, who washes his hair almost daily because he hates when it's not perfectly clean, as well as brushing it way too many times a day because just a few knots drive him up the wall- yet, it refuses to lie down flat and sticks up all over the place, resulting in a scruffy look that he hides most of in his beanie.

Shin, who uses all sorts of sprays and such in every single room to keep the place smelling fresh, takes out his rubbish the minute the bins are full, never lets dishes pile up in the sink- however, after a draining day at work and all that, he hardly has the energy left to organise any of his belongings, letting them build up in precarious piles around the apartment, making it look a mess even though it's completely clean.

[evandorepart2]

ok deleted this on my main cause that was a bit Too personal. but i am literally such an angry and petty person. i get upset sooo much like about stupid things. if anything does Not go my way or the way i specifically planned it to go i will lose my mind. i was called a crybaby a lot in elementary cause its fucking true lol i get upset very very easily and this can make me be very mean.

HOWEVER. this is deflected with my ability to Not hold onto any emotions longer than a few minutes. so i can just. Leave. i can go on a walk or do whatever and then im fine. i have poor impulse control but enough sense to just. do ofher stuff when i start getting upset. so im not one of Those people online whod respond to smth with like an entire essay and get needlessly upset whatever before pulling the guilt trip thing cause they want sympathy. i Could be. very close to being. but i am self aware

theres no real point to this just now i am sitting here shaking like an agitated chihuahua opening and closing my hands so i dont snap

i lied. im talking more LOL but also its like at the same time i cant just. Talk with people about why im upset because then thats gonna make me even More upset and im not great with communicating so people misunderstand what im tryinf to say which upsets me More. and while i cry a lot when that happens i also like. get physically angry. like i want to yell and throw things around but i cant do rhat cause then im being like my mum

its hard to grapple as someone who expresses and feels (like. mentally feels. emofions happen but i only am aware ro a limited degree) very little how Angry i can be. like my best friend has anger issues (tho hes gotten help for that), my cousin has anger issues and severe adhd, my mother is bipolar. so like im surrounded with people who experience that stuff but there was always just a degree of seperation when it came to me. like an outward and inward perception that doesnt match wtf is going on inside.

idk! idk. it feels weird talking abt it cause like the degrees ive gotten to curate my life to Prevent that from happening. like an unconscious choice to stop myself from being super upset by cuttinf people off or dropping out of school or being very limited in my online engagement with people or my interests. cause nothing good happens when youre angry i know that cause i grew up in it.

that being said i am tryinf very very hard not to be petty and mean about stuff i see on tumblr but certain constant trends are Incredibly upsetting me and i am two steps away from snapping. thank god i have limited followers so i can snap into the void in peace but still.

[tendcrness]

I Want to Whine About Carolina but I did it In Front of her last time and she felt guilty and showed me affection then but like my thing is I don’t wanna have to ask for attention and I also don’t know what to say to her anymore and im scared and it’s spiraling to me feeling unlovable again! or maybe it’s just 1am

[kusundei]

insignificance is a weird one. one must imagine sisyphus happy. was his life insignificant? no. did the gods make him out to be that way? yes. but dod he sccept it? no. he concluded that all is well and it makes me wonder and it makes me think. i condemn people for not understanding the truth behind the story of sisyphus but even i wonder what he was thinking, or moreso what camus was. i resonate to a degree but its also so hard to keep feeling. to keep being. to keep trying knowing nothing will come of it. his tragedy is defined by his consciousness. why am i conscious and why does it make everything worse? why does it add more weight to my shoulders? i keep thinking abt that quote. abt the suicide and when someone can determine whether or not a life is worth living. i do not ever contemplate my life anymore especially not in that context trying to determind whether it is worth living. i wont lie and say that i feel like it is because currently i do not. but then i will leave later and suddenly i will feel that reason that keeps me going. that makes my life worth livjng and it is slightly sickening. but no i contemplate the idea in which when can i finally say ive had enough? at what point does alot become too much? people have different definitions of it and it confuses me because i do not know how to define it either. some people say hardwork pays off and is fufilling and i agree, but then it is also taxing. at what point do you determine a balance between too much? because i keep feeling like im doing too much then think about it and feel like no actually jm never doing enough. exhaustion plays a big role in it but what is the differentiating factor where you can say its something else and not laziness? How long do you get to justify that sort of thing? what justifies it?

i dont even know what i am going on abt i am just thinking. my hands r freezing over and its getting harder to type but i have nothing better to do but think. idk. maybe there is a significance in therapy. but then it goes back and forth. the same question and same feeling i e felt for years and they ask me the same question everytime and i think abt it too. why do i feel so undeserving? why is everything laced with guilt and why do i constantly feel like i am burdening others for existing? and i say its because of my mom. yeah probably but i dojt know. why havent i gotten over that yet then? i dont refuse help i just feel better without it. ive lived on and off with independency when i didnt need it then a lack of it when i did. when i needed my mom sje was not there. when i needed to do something mysekr i was not given that option. moreso always was i not allowed that independency so i feel like it festered sometjing in me that nade me feel like i needed to hold onto it as much as possible. or just generally rhat i couldnt count on people. do i though? yeah. bur when it matters no. i feel like i am all over the place always. emotionally definitelt but also mentally. like thought wise. even my brain doesnt like me and cooperate. why do you tell me different things than i know? park that car. drop that phone. sleep on the floor. dream abt me. idk im being weird i just keep getting mad ar myself because why dont i communicate. well its not like i do but i dont communicate. things. things that bkther me. things i am actually thinking. but rhn saying that makes me feel pretentious because why do i think i am unknowable? rhat someone is not going to understand me? but then it all ties back. stupid dumb webweaving quote. this is my tragedy. because i understand them but they do not understand me. but even i acknowledge how pretentious that mindset is. i am not different. i am not special i am a person the same way everyone else is. idk i keep acknowledging thay i should help myself. i have helped myself in the past but that is the past. i think i just struggle to acknowledge that again . not linear. can get bad again. just dont like that. i should be fine there is no reason for me to be bad. but then god keeps testing me and i feel awful and i feel bratty for not growing up. why does this effect me? why am i even worse abt it than i was before? oh but i really am not. if anything i have enabled unhealthy coping strategies again but i then again enable myself once more by doing other unhealthy things that i deem r “less harmful”. i try and be mindful and do things to prevent it but then i always come back. i get so hateful just people dont tend to notice. then the hate is directed back towards myself and it is a neverending cycle. i keep thinking abt what that final thing is gping to be for me to completely go back but id like to think and hope and pray it never comes. Abut then i keep realizing that subconciously i keep waiting for that awful thing to occur for me to justify that happening. ans then it draws back to when is said thing justifiable?

i am tweaking out or spmething. need to stop thinking abt it. i just feel rlly awful still and then i think abt how that one insignificant thing has made me spiral like this already. so what does it take. ? making me question again. after talking abt it w ajax i felt rlly weird. didnt like the validation. because its made me ponder. not like it is a bad thing i just do not. need that. i do not havw the time and evergy and motivation to find out another reason why i am the way i am. of course i feel so much better connecting everything (because everything is connected) and knowing why i am the qay i am but also. So much more condemning. moreso in the way that it gives me an excuse and also jusr make sme lazier. then again i feel bad flr connecting its an odd thing. j also feel like a liar and i dont know why. im getting that weird guilty feeling again.

it is so cold and i am. feeling very odd. trying to lock in but also cant fight the feeling from being lashed earlier like sorry ^_^;. but idk judt generally i cant lock in. i mean im doing it likr halfassed but it rlly isnt working. like i dont know i am fighting a very guilty feeling for some reason and jsut tjinking aloott. i like being out like this but alsi i amCOLD. cold cold cold but the scenery is nice. i dont like thr building being next to me i feel like i am being percieved. just feleing bery odd. its no big deal though i am just like… errr..’idk. very tweakish. keep being reminded the weight of my assignments. i need to lock in and get so much shit done but i feel like dying just a little bit. or moreso just staring off into the distance and thinking. i have just a little over an hour lect and sigh. sigh sigh sigh. still fighting a feeling. feel like im going to get lashed for being here when i WORKHERE like i am so sorry……….. i woill stay in my lane.

i dont know theres just so much shit to do and i want a break but i feel weird bcuz why am i undeserving. tiktok has sent me spiraling into a raabbit hole and the constant stress and lashings and being treated like i am burdening and bothering others wont leave me alone. do i acknowledge i am probably overthinking it? yeah. do i still feel awful? yes. i am falling behind. moreo accademically and it is bothering me bcuz why am i struggling.? and then i get bothered again bcuz why am i struggling in general. i am generally happier but then i wonder to myself if i really am because why do i feel so? vulnerable? its weird and scary. like why am i abt to crash out. constantly. why do i keep getting overwhelmed why do other people and their thoughts annd opinions bother me. why am i constantly on some kind of verge. like there is nothing wrong yet there is always something wrong. i feel very exhausted. ish. mentally. physically. moreso mentally i think but i will not give myself that break and it is odd. i judt feel like all the work is making me fester that self hatred i get again. i hate myself again. and its bad brcause the feeling comes and goes but it has always stayed longer that it is welcomed for. it will come easier than it will leave me. what even happened?? nothing. just alot. i fesl like i am missing slmetjing. i feel like i am dumb. insignificant. but ive always felt like that. then i think abt it and i feel like i do matter sometimes. lkke i do something and people know who i am and remember me and suddenly i feel like ive done something and that my life matters. the sun is fading and as it gets closer and closer towards that date again i keep asking myself whyyy. why do i bother. i have a textbook answer ive told myself over and over for years to keep myself sane but is that true? or am i lying tomyself in the same way ive lied over and over? because why do i do that? i lie to the truth. i am the truth. my existence and the way my brain works and how i think and function as a person is my truth. i fight a feeling im afraid will never leave me

the sun is setting. i am feeling. odder. more webweavy maybe. anthems for a seventeen year old girl. used to be one of the rotten ones and i liked you for that. now youre all gone got your makeup on and youre not coming back.

[weabooweedwitch]

You know what fucks me up though. Is that like. I'm clearly not doing good mentally. But if I go to a hospital and say I think I need to be admitted for a while, because I feel like rhat might be one of my best resources right now because need evaluations and need doctors and new meds, but they kind of. Won't do it unless you're in crisis right at that moment??? So im not really. Sure what my options are.

Do you guys remember when we were homeless and I had to camp in a tent for like two weeks and had a mental breakdown and had to call an ambulance cause I was having dark thoughts and just was extremely bent out of shape

I still remember the uh, one of the EMTs basically kind of asking me in this vaguely annoyed deadpan voice "do you actually want to kill yourself or are you just saying that because you're upset" and he was essentially asking me that to decide if they were gonna leave me there or not

And I just. Still think about that sometimes. And its like "well I guess since I'm not in crisis 24/7 maybe I'm fine, i don't wanna bother anyone"

[pixiecaps]

🌻

TUBAAAA

us fr gossiping

okay so idk if u know but i wear glasses thats a fun fcat about me i dont do contacts and itve sorta worn them my whole life and sometimes i forget that not everyone wears glasses like the fact that some peoples eyes are hd all the time freaks me out. i also forget that i have glasses myself like sometimes its just kinda ALMOST LIKE BREATHING u know how its just something u dont rhink about and then when u think about it ur like fuck (sorry if that made u start breathing manually) ITS SIMILAR TO RHAT WHWRE I JUST FORGET ITS ON MY FACE AND RHAT ITS LIKE AN OBJECT. i feel like i sound a little odd. but hopefully u understand. i just forget rhat people can see i have glasses on and its like not a thing everyone has. and that its one of rhose features things similar to having a lot of piercings or tattoos (even though those arent like necessary to function) its one of those features that can make u look distinct. ya know i feel like im going in circles. whatever weird story i used to have a friend rhat loved glasses even though she could see perfectly fine she’d literally steal my glasses and wear them as like a fashion thing and leave me BLIND AND BLURRY wlaking around

[alex-fucking-dempsey]

SPOILERS FOR 13 REASONS WHY SEASON 4 EPISODE 1: WINTER BREAK

i was high almost the whole time this is a reaction ig sjsjsjs

Clay is narratating baby boy

Who tf died?

I called it monty fucking lived I FUCKING *flips tables*

So winston shut the fuck up if alex fucking goes to jail 🔪🔪🔪

Monty is horrfying omfg also the way hes talking abt the racial system

period tell him clay

aYO WHAT THE FUCK CLAY??? Is monty alive???

Clay looks so good shut the fuck up everyone

Dylan Minette pls sir get in guts

Clay is going insane lowkey scared

I miss Ryan Shaver n Scott Reed, end post

CLAY PUT THE GLASS AWAY MF

clay is too pretty im-

i hope tyler is okay ;-;

They are dating iM IM SORRY????

i just realize wtf is sheri? Where has been😭

clay lowkey reminds of tony

Tyler :(

tyler and clays friendship>>>

"ass shoes" - jess

Shes MOVING????

"Clay-cray" "clazy" the way i wanna marry Jessica

The way im high as hell the monty illusions i hate em

Alex dad >>>>

The only cop i stan

quick break: black lives matter.

okay Tony serve the looks

Where has justin been

ZACH MY BOY I LITERALLY LOVE HIM

PLEASE SIR LET ME LOVE YOU

ohhhhh justin was OHHHH

Okay but im zach showing up eveeywhere high as hell

justin n clay >>>>

Matt >>>>

jess n justin >>>

god i love this show sm sm

WE BITCH WHO IS WE

tony = tylers mom

Zach n alex stay a million feet apart for no reason

wAIT THIS DUDE

did he replace scott where is scott fuck u

US??? BITCH YOUR NEW GO AWAY WHO IS US

cookies: stan

alex is so nervous

oMG TYLER N NEW GUY HAVE VEEN CHILLING

I love zachs vibes

AGAIN WHO TF IS WE ANI SHUT UP

oh new guys name is charlie sisjsj

oH MY

justin what ;-;

you know what you tell her honey :(

I feel you lowkey jess :(

mERRY CHIRSTMASSSSSS

oh no ;-;

iF ALEX IS BEIBG LINKED BACK TO THW MURDER BY THIS STUPID COP IMA MD RIOT

alex looks so good rn sir pls

everyone: alex dont say anything

alex: SO FUCK YOU-

why does bill looknso diifferent

winston: mourning over his bf :(

winston needs to stoo being weird

Justin n clay getting new phones so sweet

Clay looks so good in that pic ;-;

why does everyone look so goddamn goos in the season wtf

hEY QUICK MF QUESTION DOES CLAY FUCKING DIE 🔪

ani n jess would make good friends with Sheri :(

I am one of the few who does like ani ngl

Justin serves looks sir pls

i swear i lean toward women but yall 😭the men in this mf show

Clay quit being awkward

I want ani and jess to live together

she best see her mom every weekend

sHE SAID: HER CURFEW IS 5 MF 🔪

does ani not like clay????

Yall jess best not be starting a forest fire

I forgot ani and bryce were fucking

ani is thicc lowkey

Yall i have work im upset

Is that the same whisper sound from assassins creed

WTF JESS SEEING BRYCE SCARED ME JESUS

ayo what the fuck?

yes jessica you fucking tell him

wtf is metal detector gonna do bro

I hate boland anyways

wINSTON QUIT LOOKING SO MF SUS

Estella is so pretty

Who is she Jess??

What???

Im confused

Zach >>>>

zach breathes and im all "wow so hot"

is no one going to college???

wINSTON GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM TYLER 🔪🔪🔪🔪

you getting cut if you are mean to my boy

thank god for ani

Fuck winston this lil mf gives me the heebegeebes

justins going to college imnso proud

oh shit winston is fine tho

also wtf do you mean it can kill you ima mess this mf up

wHY DID JESS GO BACK WITH- ANI PLEASE SHUT UP

okay ani pls dont call clay out (she wants a knife to her face)

poor clay has to pretend hes okay for everyone else

Im tired of seeing monty beibg a creep

Ani: *whispers* clay no wait-

LEAVE ESTELLA ALONE PERIOD

fuck off yall bitches

yEAH CHARLIE YOU TELL HER

who the fuck ONG

RHATS MONTYS SISTER WTF

monty n hannah n bryce: haunts ppl

CLAY GO RUN UP ON THOSE MFS

yall mfs really wanna box HURT CLAY-

OMG CLAY IS SO HOT PUNCH THAT MF

ani n clay: know who killed bryce

Also ani: THEY DONT WANNA BELIEVE HE KILLED BRYCE

im sorry???

tell ani clay :(

wINSTON DONT FUCKING TOUCH TYLER I WILL WHOOP UR MF ASS 🔪🔪🔪🔪

zACH N ALEX ZACH N ALEX EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP

alex: worried abt alex

zach quit being mean to ur bf

zach is being so inconsiderate eat ass bro

HES GONNA TAKE ALEX OUT OKAY NVM I LOVE HIM

:( they still wont take them back annoying

justin dont-

Snitches get stitches end up in ditches qnd get no bitches bro you know the code

okay clay dont get all pissy bro

that was a weird transition

EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP IM LITERALLY I HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES ITS SCOTT OH MY GOD MY BOY

i had no idea he was a senior why didnt they say that

oh ny god this explains the absence of ryan then ig but i miss scott more than anything ong

This confirms clays in love with scott i dont make the rules

LOOK AT HOW SWEET SCOTT IS BEING ONG EVERYONE I LOVE HIM FUCK

clays jeans >>>

i was expecting hannah tbh not ani

omg no clay :( u cant save everyone- it would have been more powerful coming from hannah lowkey disapointed

clay is finally getting help, proud

Clay looks so fine omg im sorry but he looks great

everyone in this seasn is looking so fine wtf

Winston is so pretty :(

he rlly liked monty my heart lowkey is broken

wHAT THE FUCK ZACH

the WAY ZAHC JUST SAVED ALEXS LIFE

WHAT THE FUCK

IM SO CONFUSED

HE JUST KISSED HIM

ZACH SHUT THE FUCK UP

no :(

Im going to sob

I have a feeling theyll kiss again and itll be on zachs volition

The anxiety i havfor alex

Also lowkey zach kissed back

the fucks i give ima write so many fics istg yall

brb ima go get high rq

they are gonna trace it all back to clay im so nervous

tyler best keep his mouth shut

Clay is so funny sjsjsjs hes so scarcastic like okay emo edge lord

season 2 is still superior i stand by that statement

[avannak]

A long, long time ago (probably around 2015 because I started wanting to do it by that time) a girl requested you to translate your work Hitchups to Spanish, but dropped it, due to several reasons. The main one being rhat required a lot of research for terms and a lot of revisions and that it was a lot for a first timer. 40 chapters! And Im that girl! Hi Avannak! Its been... Five years. Wow. I've been doing fine, and I'm happy to find your blog is still active and hopefully you are doing fine.

I was revisiting an old tag on httyd and I always remember how I gave up on this project. Which it was understandable, for that age, trying to take such a big project? It was hard. I deleted the account I first published the only chapter I did but let me tell you, with all due honesty, it was a beginner's work. Really not worth the effort you put into that fic. And now, I don't know how you feel about that story in particular anymore. People usually dislikes their old stories,whether they were

+popular or not. Im sending you this to asl you, how do you feel about me retaking this project? I would be finishing to its completion this time. Im requesting your permission again, but its totally alright if you don't want to, of course. I wanted to come by and explain why I never quite finished it (family, school, selfworth issues, yknow). I'm happy that you are still wanering through tumblr and still into httyd, though I miss the old hype that the fandom used to have. Have a great evening!!

W-woW! Okay, first things first, I DO remember you! And I’m really glad you’re doing okay in this crazy time. This message was such a throwback! Thank you!

Hitchups is an exception to the rule when it comes to ‘Old Stories’ for me. I’m still proud of it and I still stand by it. I did “revamp” it to better streamline into the trilogy canon (i.e. Valka’s not dead, she’s just ‘assumed dead’) but for the most part my initial ‘knee-jerk’ reaction to seeing the first film stands strong. That there are dozens, if not hundreds, of “hiccup!leaves” fics existing today and that still manages to put my wee fangirl heart at a flutter.

Honestly, I was, and still am, impressed that you’d be willing to get so much as a sentence translated, let alone the whole thing. I was humbled you wanted to take on such a project in the first place. Seriously: I am completely honored that you’d even consider coming back and attempting to translate this monstrosity again.

If you find its too much again, I completely understand, but whatever you manage to translate, know that I admire your ambition for such a project and that I am still incredibly flattered!  <3

[annasilvester]

Idk how to feel ab my dads (frankly disturbing) lack of respect for many groups, but in this case trans ppl

Like hes definitely uneducated

And idk if he knows that

And hes also very closed minded

But how much is that because of being a bad person and how much to do with upbringing/environment etc

Is he lazy for not educating himself? Does he even think of that as an option? As necessary?

I mean he is definitely rude

And he definitely has no compassion, respect,

But what if he just thinks he’s right? And morally so?

Where is the line at being able to call someone a bad person? What is a bad person?

Selfishness, laziness, but how much is it up to environment and upbringing,, again

Like, if hed gone away and educated himself and tHen decided “uh im still gonna call this trans women a HE, blatantly, and ridicule my daughter for correcting me”

Then he would be doing it with knowledge of exactly how inappropriate and disresepctful and immoral that is

But if he isnt educated about it (and has no desire to)

Then how much can i condemn him

Like i dont wanna condemn anybody

And i struggle to believe in people being purely bad

But if he is Like That then i just really dont wanna surround myself w ppl like that, who find it easier to use a blunt logic because its less effort than the uncertainty of moral questions

But if its not his fault, then i dont wanna cut him out and leave him feeling like a useless father, and thinking that I’m being selfish, when in fact he’s making certain moments of my life unpleasant, and maybe i should just be patient and try and understand why he’s like that

But he blatantly has no respect!

But he views it as “sensitivity” rather than respect, so because HE doesnt see it as disrespect, does he think he’s being moral, and if so, can i really condemn him?

Like, something in my eyes could be Not Ok, so ill react negatively, but from his life perspective/experience it could appear Ok, so in that case does it mean we’re the same amount good/bad person?

Like from my perspective he has a corrupt sense of morality, but from his perspective he is fine. So he believes rhat he is not personally doing anything wrong. He’s not knowingly being rude.

And i mean, he struggles to see things from other peoples perspectives. But thats not his fault. And the fact that he struggles so much to see past his own personal struggles, that could be to do with a declining mental state rather than choosing to be a bad person, so

Is he a bad person?

Is it right for me to view him as a bad person?

Is it right for me to want to cut him out of my life (well, just not spend sm time around him) as soon as i can, even though i know that itll have negative repurchssions for him? Does anybody deserve to be treated that way?

If he doesnt realise that so many of his actions appear to me to be selfish and conceited, is it right for me to act in a way that I KNOW will appear to him to be selfish and conceited

Well

It’s been fun

[strawberryspeachy]

I wonder if im about to get fired again

Last year i got fired because a teacher who acted like he wanted to be my friend hated when I reciprocated that want.

Ive worked with about 55 other teachers since him and none of them

Ask about my weekend every week. Ask about my friends. Ask about my personal life. Stare at me in the office. Lean over me and touch me. Come look through my folder that im holding to just point out the paper im looking for (they just offer me a new one if they think i dont have it)

But. I was totally stalking him. And got fired.

Now im working at 2 schools

One with 4/5 horrible teachers

The other with 4/5 wonderful teachers

At the horrible teacher school one has been (and i dont say this about people often. Actually ever. I assume ppl hate me... but this woman has bee - well)

K so i made a newsletter for the schools. The good school put it out for the students and that was that. The bad school told me i could distribute it. So i asked this teacher where

She took me into the hallway and showed me a board. She told me to put the papers on those walls. And then she gave me pins. So i did.

Then she told my company i put papers up without permission

Ive worn the same clothes to all 7 schools ive worked at plus two camps. Never got a complaint. Until now. She complained about my skirt and socks

She said in a fly away statement when i started that because were teachers we cant travel because of corona and must stay home - it irriated me because i clearly understood that she was telling me that i need to stay home when im not working. Fuck that! But i just agreed with her. Her first question after my summer break was “you had a long vacation, did you go anywhere”

She asked in a happy voice - pretending that was wanted to hear about something exciting. But. Bitch i have a good memory. I told her i mostly stayed home and only went to a nearby town.

K so like. Thing is. She knows im probably lying (cause im young and not from this country. No one would stay home for a month) so the way she responded was kinda pissed off that she cant prove me wrong or report me or anything - then in the middle of class she asked about my housemates

1) i have no control over them

2) your first question was already invasive and this is stupid

3) youve asked me a question that i cant answer correctly. If i say i dont know youll say i might have corona because my housemates probably brought it home. If i say they went out - same thing. If i say they stayed home - another obvious lie. I told her that they are all students and had class so I think they were home. Again. She was annoyed by this answer

She constantly makes side remarks about “foregners”

She wont translate the questions that students ask her to ask me - and when i understand them and answer she acts flustered and annoyed

Shes bad at english and writes shit incorrectly - gives it to me to cold read - then gets mad when i trip over shit thats written incorrectly

She changed the song early last month because I liked it

She talks to me like im a clown hindering the class - walking over and telling me (a person standing quietly waiting for instruction) that now the students must study - the way a parent would tell a 7 year old not to bother the sleeping dog.

I TRIED to have a normal conversation with her because she seemed to be trying and i felt bad. She said it was hot and cold off and on and told me what temperature it would he the next day in celcius. I just said oh. And felt the tention. So i tried to ease it by chuckling and telling her “sorry. You know how america uses Fahrenheit? I dont really understand celcius.” She immediately —- wait hold on

This school makes us write down our temperature in the morning as though that does ANYTHING to stop corona - they dont even check - she harrassed me upon walking in the door to WRITE DOWN MY TEMPERATURE

—- k so no. No easy conversation. She immediately got serious and went how do you understand celcius for your body temperate then??? I told her i convert it.

A couple periods late she inturrupted another teacher talking to me about class and stopped me from going to class to ask me ‘if you dont know celcius how do you write your temperature down in the morning?!?’’ I told her i have a japanese thermometer and just write down what it says. Then she tried to play if off and chuckled like - oh ha i was just wondering. Whats the difference (her face was like enraged before that btw) she asked what the average temperature in Fahrenheit is and i quickly spit out 98.6 while grabbing my book to leave for the class i was now running late for

Shes full on feuding with a boy who “CANT SPEAK JAPANESE” and is “NOT JAPANESE” she tried not to bitch but also bitch about him to me - through this i learned that his mom is Australian. He was born in Japan. Also if her english didnt suck so much she would know that hes not fluent in english

She like the other teachers ask me questions that they dont want answers to. And sometimes is not even just - i wanna write this sentence wrong - does it make sense

No. It doesnt (correct answer- anything you write is correct. Dont worry. Dont ask me. Your perfect)

A couple weeks ago she told me that the song the other teacher chose is a japanese song that was translated into english. She asked it its gramattically correct. I told her that songs dont need to be grammatically correct so its fine. Then she asked me if it makes sense. I told her that its a bit vague but its fine.

She didnt know what vague meant. She asked me to write it down so she could look it up later. Not sure how she took that as an insult but Im sure she did.

And the song is vague. Id figured out that it was a song that was either written for a weird tv show or translated from something else before she even told me

Shes always late for class. She doesnt even leave for class until the bell rings. If she walks in and i was talking with the students - she looks highly uncomfortable - so ive stopped talking to them before she arrives

She wont let them ask me questions. Only her (these past two points go for the other crappy teachers too)

She cant make up her mind whether she wants me to say hello first or her. She cant make up her mind on what she wants me to read or whether she wants me to stop at commas or read full paragraphs or what - and she gets annoyed when i cant read her mind avout it —the others do this too

She reads sentences she wrote (incorrectly) out loud even more wrong - but apparently (going from her face) even though she doesnt know the word for fucking SENTENCES - and calls them “englishes” she heard me add the s to a word that should have been plural but she wrote as singular. She never says the fucking plurals or adds them where they shouldnt - but of course she heard my quick slip of adding an s onto a fucking word

- which really just shows thats she pays way more attention trying to find me doing something wrong than literally ANYTHING ELSE she does

Theres more. Im tired. And so very stressed. Tomorrow i have a meeting after school which i told my company rhat if they want my time they should pay me for it and told them theyre welcome to come to my schools (the one i like and normally can he stress free and get home early from) station

They made up bs as to why they can pay others but not me but did say theyre gonna come to the station

Last tome with the fucking “hanging stuff up without permission” i was of couse told i was in the wrong (BECAUSE JAPANESE CAN DO NO WRONG) and forced to say that i need to communicate better 3 times

Howd i start this? Watch me get fired? Yea i was fired on like the 23rd last year. Watch me get fucking fired again - for again. One racist ass peice of shit teacher

“Well you just gotta suck it up and accept where you are on the food chain” k look. Do you know how much easier and less stressed id be if i was able to do that?! I just. CANT ok. I refuse to think that i am less of a person than any other person. People can treat me that wat and do all they want. But i refuse to think that i am lesser. I am a person. And if i have to respect them they should respect me. Its a reciprocal fucking thing i cant fucking kiss ass

I lived in a house with a woman who wanted me to kiss her ass - and i basically chose not to be treated like a dormat and pike she was my lord. And thus got mentally and emptionally abused for 24 years.

I cant fucking kiss ass. I can be polite. But i cant kiss fucking ass dude. I just cant

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Franklin" like so mistakes happen and im sorry "

Tammy " so can you get in rhere heads "

Franklin " ok no need we are in a garage so , also you should of said that sooner "

Franklin gives tammy her self back

Tammy" holy shit this is messed up and my car look at it

Franklin puts his had on her

Tammy "oh ohh stop it no stop rhis shit that totalling a violation of my privacy"

Franklin " sorry you just needed to calm down and so i was trying to help "

Tammy" ewww thats just no dont do that no "

Tammy tries opening the car door and it wont open

Part5

Franklin " you cant leave at the moment ok because you will only tell the cops "

Tammy " no i wont we are best buddies now so .everything will be fine

Franklin taps his head " i know rhings and i can see rhe unseeable so lets just wait for our next ride to pop up , ok ".

Tammy" so what happened to you "

Franklin " i had a plane crash and was almost dead maybe d.o.a im not sure but these guys did a few experiments which so i cant remember everything but rhey took something from me "

Tammy" how long ago "

Franklin" months or years or months and years , so my only concern is getting away , far away as possible before a little bit because im scarred of that hell hole its bad news and unforgiven

Part6

Tammy" so you had a gun and my insurenxe might cover this which you better promise after your caight that you tell them you held me at gun point "

Franklin " i will not be caught , which you would rhink that they would be after that other guy that they lost control of".

Tammy" another how many of you ".

Franklin " i only know about him because he was ruining rhat place and killing alot of people , so i had a opportunity to run .

I made it to that parking lot when i wreacked rhe truck and a cop saw it which lead to our little incounter "

Tammy" so the lab is outside the town the only thing out there is where that explosion happened last year , the clean up site .

Part7

Tammy " um but that all started because of something falling from the sky ".

Franklin" my plane "

Tammy" no outer space sky it was all over the news "

Franklin" im not a alien "

Tammy" well your not freaking normal either well since you keep sedating me you are cringy like most rapists ... You better not be forcing me to get naked or touch you wiener ok pervert "

Tammy loos away and mumbles " damnit i really hate this guy ".

Franklin " that other guy could be the alien. I never read a mind since i was always interacting with machines and voices ".

Franklin" maybe i was transporting a fellow alieb criminal acrossee the galexy and a fight broke out of the ship and i bumped my head "

Tammy" no the u.f.o wasnt a big thing more like the size of a man or a man sized capsule"

Franklin " ok here comes are new ride "

Tammy looks around " you son of a bitch again , right when i started to trust you . im going to have trust issues yo."

Franklin" oh you will be fine just admit your a noisy ass person and you love this gossip shit , your thinking about who your going to tell first ".

Tammy" oh my god this hot guy that ive been looking at isnt even real "

Franklin " it kept you distracted tho "

Part9