#ive literally talked about this before back when i was shinfixating a few months ago

[autism-homosex]

dude ive talked about this before oh my god youre so rigjt and so real. its a little funny that the only time he leaves any sort of visible fingerprint is when his hands are Covered in His Own Blood 😭😭 this reminds me of a oneshot i wrote a while ago pertaining to this same idea ooojjhggggfhhggjj

while writing this i found the fic and its not. that good. but im gonna paste some parts of the fic rhat reminded me of this post because omg im insane finally soemoene else recognizes my guys Freak Weirdness

this is really embarrassing to be posting your turn to die fanfics from over a year ago publicly on the internet but its ok itll be fine (positive reassurance and affirmations)

“[wash your face twice daily — many people skip hygiene when getting your life back together…]

no.

shin lay with his back facing the laundry-covered floor of his bedroom, his head resting right against the end of his unsupportive mattress, holding his phone right in his face. for the past thirty minutes, he’s been watching those “tips and tricks” videos, crossing self-organizing ideas off of a mental list, with face cleaning being the fourteenth tip from the current video he’s scrapped so far. because he’s not dirty — while there is hardly anything shin can call himself proud of, he is at the very least clean.

though, not because the rest of his living situation is organized. quite the contrary, actually; rather, he just hates the feeling of grime anywhere on his body. any amount of dust or dirtiness that any normal person would find impossible to recognize heightens shin’s senses tenfold, making him feel like he’s sitting in a vat of expired sink ramen”

“shin reaches his hand toward the broom next to the sink, then falters. there isn’t even a visible floor that he could sweep. every item of clothing he owns is strewn all over the floor in different parts of his shitty apartment.

the back of shin’s brain heats up a little, as if little fans are working to keep him from getting overwhelmed over the mess he just didn’t notice until now. his upper body collapses onto the small counter, holding himself up with his elbows, and he sighs into his hands, exasperation seeping through his fingers”

and then in the notes i wrote “his brain-world probably looks like and old brick mill factory building so maybe i could add some references to that throughout” this shit was elaborate shin tsukimi autism propaganda and i damn well knew it 😭😭☠️

considering how Shin is canonically presented as a bit of a germaphobe in canon (his hands literally being spotless, meaning he definitely washes them often) i think the fandom should really decide to collectively headcanon him as "untidy" rather than "unhygienic" because there is a massive difference.

Shin, who changes his outfit like twice in a single day because he can't stand the feeling of the slightest bit of sweat- but because he goes through those clothes so fast, he doesn't ever get to iron or coordinate them, consequently giving him a dishevelled appearance regardless.

Shin, who washes his hair almost daily because he hates when it's not perfectly clean, as well as brushing it way too many times a day because just a few knots drive him up the wall- yet, it refuses to lie down flat and sticks up all over the place, resulting in a scruffy look that he hides most of in his beanie.

Shin, who uses all sorts of sprays and such in every single room to keep the place smelling fresh, takes out his rubbish the minute the bins are full, never lets dishes pile up in the sink- however, after a draining day at work and all that, he hardly has the energy left to organise any of his belongings, letting them build up in precarious piles around the apartment, making it look a mess even though it's completely clean.