#im just thinkig about it

[resonabilis-echo]

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[pup-pee]

otp is angel fangs x snake bites

[xxplastic-cubexx]

so insane that x-men evolution was a show and now its over like what the fuck man... come back .....

[wowa-bublord]

guys text tone is such a problem for me i am only active in one public discord server because i gen can't read any tone at all HELP ME 😭😭 something i haven't seen people talk about is how people will lie while using tone tags, it's something i saw a lot when i was in a bunch of active discord servers. People will say like, /j or /lh but they can be LYING and they are ACTUALLY MAD AT YOU. terrifying. i learned that the hard way like 80 times

[todayisafridaynight]

SORRY TO TAKE SUCH A HARD LEFT BUT HOW DO YOU THINK JO FOUND OUT ARAKAWA WAS DEAD

IM GOING TO SCREAM IF I TRY TO THINK ABOUT THAT NOOOOO I GOTTA GET BACK TO YOU IN 5-7 BUSINESS DAYS WITH THAT ONE............

[djenxuelmxue]

Somethig is seriously broken about me.

And I don't know why.

[watch-out-it-bites]

:-) <3<3<3

[wowa-bublord]

OMGGGGG OMGGGGG

@wowa-bublord

[rustytheraccoon]

During the last three days I played my first few proper games of Battletech - and i can say that didnt had do much fun playing tabletop games for at least several years! Maybe this is just effect of new game system - to be honest all GW systems is pretty close together - but it was fun, i needed to make important decisions every turn for almost all of my models, etc.

First game was big classic Battletech battle - me and other new player both taking a lances of inner sphere mechs aganist our opponents clan star. Highlights of the battle - first critical hit of the game was my Wolverine blowing up after enemy Warhawk blow up his SRM ammo, enemy Nova which was able to hold up for the five round of shooting of three mechs of my ally, score the mission and only then blow up and finally my Atlas that survive three round of shooting by Executioner, Timberwolf and Warhawk, lose almost all of his armor and than after the first structure hit get his gyro destroyed and fall on his face.

And today I played two games of alpha strike - our local group prefer to play it on the grid map too. And this game variant was as much fun as Classic if not more - at first I was afraid that game was too much simplified, but I was sooo wrong - at this level, with so many mechs it was whole different set of decisions you need to make that this much lighter version of tracking weapons and damage didnt matter.

So, as conclusion - if you thinkig about playing Battletech - its totally worth you time and im so glad that I decided to try it

[junipers-insects]

thinkig about that post where edge throws fell?? and fell just shows back up like "hehe"

sci would be mortified

"oh yeah my boss threw me once-" "I'm SORRY?? WHAT"

(p.s. im asking you things on my puter so they might be formatted weird)

Fell should throw sci to demonstrate the throw

(everything looks normal to me so far 👍)

[terukanesghost]

thinking about how i dont know if im actually queer or if all that confusion during the pandemic was just little me """following the trend" of ppl online coming out

but i remember cutting my hair super short bc i wanted to look like a guy, changing half my closet to basic baggy shirt, crying myself to sleep bc i had a feminine body, researching about binders and thinking about buyihg one when i started living by myself, trying 2 sports bra under a shirt in the middle of the night to see how myself flat chested in the mirror, praying to god that i would wake up as a cis boy, using masculine pronouns to refer to myself by accident and feeling so happy and confused and perplexed, daydraming about going back to shool looking masculine and ppl would mistake me for a guy before realizing they already knew me, researching about testosterone, thinkig about having a boyfriend that would call me his boyfriend etc

i still have some of these thoughts and wishes, but not as intensely or less frequently, but i can not just ignore this and feel 100% okay as a cis girl. i genuinely can not believe that was a phase, especially when i started thinking about those things before questioning my gender, and even tho i feel way better now when i look more feminine, i want to look masculine when i move away from this city, i want to make little me biggest dream (and one of current me dreams) reality, and i can just hope im not wrong about it

[javatello]

Thinkig about like. Before Hollyleafs return, she realizes she shouldnt base her self worth and morality on the warrior code. And that StarClan doesn’t really know anything, and caused this all to happen with their hypocrisy and lack of direction. Like. She spent her life chasing after the warrior code and StarClan, only for her to end up how she did and not be in the prophecy (which is both a blessing and a curse). Just like a “wait. We’re spending all our time being secretive and following prophecies and being shamed for love and for what.” And she thinks about all the life she could’ve lived if she wasn’t so strict on the code.

I think, especially after her forgiving Leafpool and having time to think down in the tunnels, she did some major self digging and found that she wasn’t happy with following the code just because it was the right thing to do. Especially how all the stupid rules hurt those around her, and in the past. Honestly i think OOTS and PO3 couldve been set up fix the code before TBC now that I think about it.

I dont think shed be happy to be among the cats who set her and her family on a harsh path before her birth. I think she would side with SC in the big battle because lesser of two evils, but I think she realizes that being strict on the warrior code and following it because “its the right thing to do” would be in her best interest, or anyone elses.

I also like her spilling this epiphany onto Ivypool and Dovewing, which causes them to become closer bc StarClan pretty much caused their entire dilemma.

Idk if this makes sense im just like spitballing here but. I just rlly hate how StarClan is set up as the great godlike guys and then they just ruin peoples lives

[aroaceconfessions]

I got a squish recently and oh my god take it away i dont want it i dont want it i dont want it i dont want it i dont want it i dont want it i dont want it. Someone make it stop or at last tune it down or let me take a break from it. I never had to deal with situation like this before (im aroace aplospec/demiplatonic) and fuck i don't get why pepole activly look for someone to get cruch on this is so disstresing for me. It almost scares me how ""obsessed"" i am on this guy like fuuuck why am i even thinkig about him and making up scenarios in my head? Because he's cool and intresting and a geniunely nice person? He's not the only person i know who this apply to! So why do I wanna be his friend so bad??? Why??

(There also comes my fear that i would eventually get a cruch on him what would be a tragedy on it's own. For one thing i would definetly don't know what to do with that feelings. For the other he has a girlfriend and they're very happy and im happy for them and I really wouldn't want to cause any drama, nither of them desrve it. In that situaltion i would probably cut myself from them but that would mean giving up on afterclass club that means a lot to me. But well, that are just my anxieties for what if situation)

Submitted May 6, 2023

[transientcuriosity]

blehhhhh :33 fursona reveal also holy shit first art that isnt Homestuck fanart !!

the name i went with is Carmine and im thinking like full name Carmine Rayleigh because the thing about Rayleigh scattering was super cool to give up on it. i got the name Carmine from @m3wmeowmeow (on instagram) so huge thanks i love it so much!! yeah

i wanna yap about the design a bit- so when i was first doing it i knew i wanted it to be a cat like i just am a cat i wasnt gonna not do that buuuut when thinkig about the design i really wanted to make it a bit more interesting so when i saw some hybrid species i though hey thats cool i could do that but duuude i didnt realise hpw much i love moths until i started doing research for this like ive always loved butterflies they were my thing when i was younger but like idk moths are butterflies just a little queerer a little more emo yknow :33 so yeah- ALSO im nonbinary right and i bind and honestly i think thats all i wanna do buuuut i think the stylised top surgery scars are a cool detail and who says i cant give my fursona scars?? i make the rules bucko

[kiruyeen]

A thing I never spoke about because it never surfaced is that we had a lot of fursonas, although never actually furry-fluffy-mammals. Like, for years I had a sona of a reptile (and only once a gryphon) and Magpie has a titmouse. And I still have a faceclaim of a shrimp mimic alongside non-animal ones, LOL. Idk when I stepped out of furry scene, but I guess it's because we didn't draw a lot of actual mammals and mostly were into reptiles. Kinda need to slide back in.

And a though about skull-thing, I am tempted to make its face kinda like an amorphous void just so it can switch skulls whenever it likes. Like "today I am in an alligator mood" sort of thing.

Because why the hell not? I kinda jumped into making whacky characters a long time ago, why stop there?

oh IQJJSOWMS my bad then T T and yeah theres a big focus on fluffe animals Ive noticed, unfortunately Im no exception ( they feel naked or unfinished without fur most of the time :( ) but Ill gladly welcome u back to the community with open arms... paws... hm.

but OOOUUUHHH I LOVE THAT IDEA A LOT :3 Ill try to get creative if I ever draw em (thinkig.... bird or snake skull)

[howabhwmwn]

Venting tw for eating disorder and bad internalized fatphobia ig.

All i can think of is that i gained a lot of weight. And im moving. And i keep thinkig about all the clothes that i cant wear anymore and how im not as pretty. And why does everyone else get to look pretty when theyre fat but i look shit. Why do i look horrifying. And i was pretty but even when i was pretty i thought i was ugly and i thought i needed to loose weight but i didnt. But doctors told me i should because i was 7kg above a normal bmi but i literally didny even have a belly or anything. And i tried to diet and i tried to starve and the more i tried the more i gained weight because im a failure like that. And now everytime im depressed i gain even more weight and its so shit because why cant i just be not interested in food when im depressed like that. And now im so heavy and im moving and im meeting all these new people and they will think less of me because im just so ugly and i should think about anything else while moving. But packing clothes and meeting people and thinking about having to come up with a personality for them to like and ugly while they get to know me. And theyll have to look at me everyday and theyll wish i wasnt there. And im going to be in a flat with a perosn and theyll see me cooking and eating while im fat and its going to be so embaressing. I was planning on starving myself this past week but i got so overwhelmed i ate so much instead and now i cant even think about weighing myself because its so scary. Im so disappointed in myself. I hate everything. I wish i could just starve forever. I wish i didnt want to eat ever. I wish i could just lie in my bed doing nothing for weeks on end because starving while working is horrible because i get so stupid and uncreative and dizzy and i dont want to seem like a failure on top of being ugly.