#im just so proud of myself i love myself sm lmao

[badcountryofficial]

Also I realized earlier in all facets of my life I like a healthy Challenge and I wanted to squeal and kick my feet that's so cool. I'm so cool

[ironmanstan]

I am coming to the realization i have been slowly killing myself with work i think oops

[elis-blawg222]

November 8 - Friday

Whew! Caught up at last!! (took me long enough)

Today was actually pretty good. I called Angel before school which made me really happy!! (I love him sm ill sob rn actually). My class wasn't toooo bad. The teacher talked sooo much ugh, but I drew the whole time so it was fine. I made my oc thinnn n pretty, love him. Also we had to go around the room and talk to people for like 30 minutes. 30. (did yk you have 30 minutes??)

It was so nerve wracking, especially because I was unprepared lol. I bet I looked like such a total weirdo with the lack of eye contact I was making, but at the time I was just trying not to break a nervous sweat LMAO.

Then, after my class I went to the library (on call w/Ange) and did an assignment. I went home afterwards because my phone was gonna die, and I needed my charger.

After a bit at home, I went to my next class, and I had a test in this one. It went good I think! We studied beforehand which I'm really grateful for.

We had a break in this class, so I went to walk around for a minute, and during this my mom texted me with:

"Eli

What did u eat today"

...

nothing. So, I said "I had some chicken nuggetss after my class hehe"

to which she responded "No fries no pop. How many nuggets"

GURL. So i was like "I did get some fries lol? and i got 10 why?"

and she just CONVENIENTLY NEVER RESPONDED. UGH.

(but wait theres more.)

After my class ended I went home and got ready for work. I was otp w/Angel (because seriously when am I not?) and he was playing minecraft. It was so peaceful and entertaining to watch and listen to him play- I loved every bit of it. Then, we talked about how we should play together (I ltrly will do anything to idc).

Work was actually ehh, not toooo bad. My dad and friend and her mom stopped by which was nice, and also my hairdresser LOL. They both tipped really well (obviously my dad did but yk).

I went home after what felt like one billion years, I was so so so happy. When I got home I just said a few things about my day like I usually do, and made sure to slip in the fact that I got a free meal at work. Which isn't wrong, I did, but I didn't get anything. I actually am just gonna let my friend get something tomorrow. but they don't have to know all that shhhhhhhh.

Then my mom stopped in front of me and was like what did you eat? and so i repeated myself bc no one listens to me <3

(I told her fried chicken tenders, fries, mac and cheese for context, a very 'me' meal tbh or at least it was)

Then, she was like "how many chicken tenders?" "no drink?" "did you finish it? all of it?" "so then you ate 2 full meals today?"

oh. my god. like. genuinely.

why. is. she. interrogating. me. pls. fucking. leave. me. alone. IM GENUINELY MORTIFIED AND HONESTLY IM SO AGGRIVATED. LET ME STARVE IN PEACE HOLY FUCK.

I tried to act like a normal person and be like ??? why are you interrogating me? BC WHY ARE YOU (as if I'm not literally starving myself)

She was just like "because I need to make sure you're getting nutrients." ok girl.

Then, I went to my room and she went to bed. I cleaned my room a bit and did a homework assignment, so I'm pretty proud of myself.

Also if you couldn't tell by now I fasted today. I was gonna either 48 hr fast or do 2 24 hr fasts back to back, but I think I'm just gonna do around 36 hrs. I wanna eat in front of my mom tomorrow so maybe she'll start leaving me alone (I seriously doubt it).

It just gets really frustrating when every meal I have she thinks isn't enough, even when I'm genuinely full. I can't eat like I used to like I physically cannot, she has to get that.

Anywho, I was thinking of making some cucumber boats tomorrow, I think it'll be fun.

Total Steps: 6.7k

Look at me meeting my step goal for once. I'm gonna start really making an effort at meeting it!

'Til tomorrow :)

(P.S. actually getting activity on these makes me so nervous but haiii)

[fizzywashere87]

:(

@serendipitous-girl i remember when i first met you on here and we started talking about rottmnt and generally getting to know each other

and we made lil scenarios

and you were so kind and friendly to me and i was so excited to talk to you because you were the first online friend that i had made :(

and i remember when some weirdo dmed u saying 'i like your blog' and then they asked how old u were and then u told them you were a minor then we tried to find the blog and it was nowhere to be found:

"i like ur blog" *deletes bc ur a minor*

and remember when

and remember when we face revealed to each other and we were like omgomg ur so pretty and just like LUIYTRDHCGFVJFTGH

and remember when we manifested that u got discord so it would be easier to text and i would have to keep logging back onto tumblr

and remember when we made the blog and tried to troll our moots on it :(((

@fashionablysouly i remember when lori told me i should text u and that ur super cool and i said the only reason i didnt is bc i was too scared (i thought u didn't like me LMAO) but then i did it like a minute later

and you replied pretty quick

and you were like HIIIII

and i was like :DDDD

and we texted sm and abt rise donnie and i loved talking to you

i thought you were so so so so sweet

and then i got ur discord

and then i yapped more aboyt rise donnie ( i was so scared u wanted me to stfu but werent telling me)

AND REMEMBER WHEN WE STAYED UP TILL 4AM TALKING AND WE FACE REVEALED TO EACH OTHER

MY JAW DROPPED IN SHOCK BC OF HOW GORGEOUS YOU WERE AND YOU MADE ME SO HAPPY WHEN U TOLD ME U WANTED TO EAT ME

i was like THIS GORGEOUS GIRL THINKS IM PRETTY

and i had excited hand flaps or whatever tf

and then remember when i suggested i make a gc with lori so we could be bsfs and The Trio™

and then u had to do it bc i didnt know how

and then we all started chatting

@serendipitous-girl @fashionablysouly remember when the gc was made and we IMMEDIATELY all clicked like it was meant to happen

and we had the most fun time ever talking

and remember whenn i went through my breakup and you guys were telling me he aint shit and that i will be okay

(i was :D)

and i remember when the first thing i did when i came home from school was text you guys and we would text until late at night

and

and

the autism jokes :((((

remember when we would all three of us rant to each other and we would get hype with each other

and remember when u and lori got mad at each other and i was trying to fix it

i was littttt himothy

i like listening to the music i listened to at this time bc i was rlly happy and i always remember the feeling i had when i would text u guys

and @fashionablysouly remember when i tried your math work and i understood it

i felt so proud of myself bro

@serendipitous-girl i could NOT do urs tho LOL

and remember when we made ocs with each other and we made up the whole ass backstory

and remember when lori started her server and we became staff

i felt so himothy

remember when i was paranoid asf (lowk still am) but i was hella spiralling and u guys were like mf chill but liie <3

and remember when i made fun of u guys for sleeping so early

and remember when we got into beef with some people and we lit thought we ate

that shit was so entertaining i was cackling

i also remember actually laughing at ur guys' text msgs

like thats actually so hard to do

but u guys would actually make me laugh

istg i thought we were all platonic soulmates

i loved the racist jokes we made (towards each other)

i remember when lori almost stopped being friends with us and we didnt text her for two days until we couldnt take it anymore and then i literally ate and brought us back together

shit was so romantic omg

*literally combusstsss a nuttt*

pause

anyways

remember when lori started the mha roleplay and the server and then we got into hella beef and we started cooking like fr

that server was so fun

guys remember when i got into my fitness arc and i started lifting heavy ahh weights like i was himothy

my winter arc is coming up dont even fret

OMG GUYS

remember when souly was talking to one of her friends and then he started hinting that he wanted her so she took ten steps back LMAPAOAOA

and remember everytime souly mentioned a guy i would be like send that mf my way

and then i would crashout bc u guys always said no

and remember when we used to rate each others booties

and remember when we used to tmi

and remeber the tmnt OMG THE TMNTTTT

theres sm more that will come back to me but this was my peak 2024 :(

we didnt even make it to my birthday :(

ily guys sm and im gonna miss our gc and our servers and our tmi

i miss it sm :(

[fishii28]

haihaihaihaihaihiiiiii

hehe ik ur asleep but i petted a cat today!!! she was so cute argh i wanted to squish it/pos but i was running late cuz i had to study so i couldn't play with it more ough

since we moved out from my last house, i haven't been seeing any cats often (this locality has only dogs. everywhere. no cats like at all) sooo i kinda made a uhhhhh idk i just told myself that seeing a kitty=good luck for that day so I'm very veryyy happy that i got to pet one hjkshfkdlsalslk and it was sooooooo cute like ugh i wanted to hug it so bad 😭😭😭😭😭

okay atp im just yapping hahaha. im alone at home and i dont wanr to start studying yet (tomorrow I'll study promise. not taking any risks for physics) also why do my parents go out in the evenings only ugh cant they go out during the morning so i can be home alone and increase the chances of us talking on call arhfkfoekfmfldnskl

uh ok thats all ig rahhhh i love you sm pookie /p ur literally the most gorgeous (<< learnt the spelling for u and u only so i wotn make any typos there) OH WAIT thers 1 thing my luck is absolutely worst in and that is finding a good guy friend yknow. the only one i have now makes me uncomfy kinda soo i drew my boundaries tho (yay the ppl pleaser doesn't gaf anymore!! lets see how long it lasts haha) okay this is all for real now i yapped a lot here hehe

i love you sm mwah/p (did i say this already? probably. to lazy to read back and see) also

i cant stop thinking of u while listening to this song (NOT IN A CREEPY WAY I SWEAR) uff anyways this is getting more and more long haha I'm gonna have dinner now and then I'll read Agatha Christie's giant's bread (my sister got it from her school library!! will try to finish it cuz she's gotta return it now) bye love you sm 🩷

heeyeyeyey!! :333

WHATTT LUCKKY KITTY KITTY KITTY AW NOOO :((( im sure it wanted to spend more time with you 🙁🙁🙁

ahh i see, doggies are cute too. seeing a kitty is yes always good luck!! you got to pet one aww 🙁🙁🙁 im so glad thats so cute 😭😭

NOOO UR NOT YAPPING I LOVE HEARING OR AT LEAST READING YOUR TEXTS AND WHATEVER YOU SAY TO ME IJEWIVJCWIVWFEUHVE aww i hope you ended up studying 💔 good luck for physics!! <3 and REAL. like bro go out more... so i can talk to my glorious wife 💔💔💔IUIEVIUEIUF REAALLLL

i love you toooo!!! /p

WHAT OMG THANK YOU 🤤🤤💔🥀🧼🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🗣🗣🗣🗣😝💝💝 thats so sweet what why does everyone have sm rizz 😭😭🙏🏽

WHAT EWWW why does he make u uncomfy :(( im glad you drew your boundaries, that takes a lot of courage <333 im so proud of you bbyyy <3 LMAO DWWW i wanna do this more often its nice talking abt our days together

i love you toooo mwah mwah <333 /p

WHAT I LOOOOVEEEE CHEMTRAILS OVER THE COUNTRY CLUB THAT SONG IS SO US FR

HOPE YOU ATE WELL AND TELL ME ALL ABT THE BOOK!!! <333

SORRY FOR ANSWERING SO LATE I WAS RLLY TIRED BUT TELL ME MORE ANYTIME HAHHA <333 :3

[seaweedbraens]

GIRL AHSGRKAKAGSJSLSGDSJSJSHDDGDGDGDGDGDHDGDGDGDVXBCBBXBDHSHSHAHHAHAHSJAJAJAJAJA

The last chapter ??????? Annabeth's eye????? (Actually share your thought process for that decision me is interested) APOLLO ARE YOU OK? THE BATTLE OMGGGGGG

BOW BITCHES YOU NEED TO TORTURING MY LITTLE BABIES LIKE THAT

Glad to see that luke is not proclaimed a hero because tbh he isn't maybe he turned good at the end that doesn't make him a hero that doesn't excuse all the people who died because of him turning good at the end didn't justify Silena's actions they don't justify yours either. I said what I said.

Thank all the gods he didn't ask Annabeth if she loves him that was wild af

Tysm for the therapists

im impertinent gold

Smalltalking??? smiling??? Are we sure these are the same gods 💀

He's follow her straight through the gates of Tartarus if he had to, and he'd do it with a smile.

YOU DO THAT IN ANOTHER UNIVERSE ACTUALLY.

Also love how that references the title in a way

I am shooketh this feels like the end of an era honestly tysm for this gem I haven't read the epilogue yet but I'm sure it will also be earth shattering good too

Also THANK GODS PIPER AND FRANK ARE OKAY ASUGSUFSUSUGSGIGS

Still not over the deaths of others i absolutely hate you for that ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ (no I don't)

I love you sm for writing this gem

ufafugkgjg i end my rant here ty for coming to my very *eloquent* ted talk lmao

idk how i missed this!!! but AAAH thank you thank you ily <3 and i LOVE that you caught the title reference! i actually had that line be the title exactly, but i scrapped it because it was way too on-the-nose haha

the 'did you love me' line from luke...not gonna lie i did consider putting it in just so annabeth could like definitely clarify that she loved him like family and that it was never ever romantic, but like you, i hated that line in canon so much that i couldnt keep it. it's...it's just bad.

and omg i did wonder if i made the gods too...smiley? but i think the situation called for it. like they were on the edge of extinction (to some degree) and it didnt fit for them to be haughty and hoity-toity. like. they AND the demigods know who saved their asses. i think they'd be thankful for it (at least for a while). i do think they'd truly try to change and be present and all of that, but if i'm being honest, over time i think they'd slowly pull back to something like we see in the canon pjo series. like they're there but definitely not parental. but that's okay, because like we see in the fic, the demigods know now how vital they are and they intend to create a world for them. they'll be okay.

this truly does feel like the end of an era. it's so weird waking up and not having to put something into my planner related to writing this fic. it's very emotional and while i know this fic isnt perfect, i am so proud of myself for finishing it. i wish i could put it on my resume haha

as always tysm for the support <3 it means the WORLD fr. ily <3333

[aachria]

AACHRIA.

WHAT.

WDYM ACE WAS STILL KIDNAPPED AND TAKEN AND MIGHT DIE.

☹️

im in so much agony.

what the hell man ☹️

ALSO SABO (semi, he never got clarification 💀) KNOWING LUFFY AND ED ARE MARRIED LETS GOOOO 🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥⁉️⁉️⁉️

SABO AND ED DYNAMIC IM IN LOVE.

imma be so fr i understood maybe half the plan. like i got it, i kinda know whats happening, but thats only for phase one..... phase two and three im so fucking lost they both said sm and i felt my mind explode. i forgot to read half the sentences and my mind was so blown i just decided to not go back and read them even though they will probably fix me and make me realize exactly whats going on LMAO

i once again request a 10k chapter, although still no threats bc im scared of my weird dream curse 💔 which i still have..... its better tho- its evolved into tumblr becoming a weird celestial being because when it said ur discontinuing ur fic as an ad and caused chaos people ended up worshipping tumblr to try and get you to keep writing ur fic- so no longer a nightmare just a really weird dream.... 😭

UR SO AWESOME, AND SO COOL, AND I LOVED THIS CHAPTER, I READ IT INSIDE THE MOVIE THEATER FOR THE DEADPOOL AND WOLVERINE MOVIE BC I COULDNT WAIT (10/10 movie btw) UR FIC IS AMAZING 100000/10 MAKE ME SOB NEXT CHAPTER 💞💞

Teehee. Be so honest with me did you think I would just leave that prime angst real estate unpoked?

Poor Sabo will get real answers one day. Hopefully. He was so damn much fun to write I just love him. Him and Ed are the two smartest people you know who also happen to be the most unstable and likely to cause an international incident by being a lil silly and goofy.

That plan... oh that plan. Writing that plan was fun and I got very carried away. I was terribly proud of myself for remembering half the shit in there before I had to pull up the wiki, and the Enies Lobby bit will be my smartest move until the next time I do something remotely smart.

Baby I'm going to hold your hand as I say this because I am being so for real, at this point if you are still having this dream every night you need to genuinely consider seeking professional help. That's not normal or healthy. Talk to a therapist or guidance councilor or something.

I hope to god you mean before the movie started or when it was done because if you had your phone out while that movie was playing I will be very disappointed. I wanted to go see it this week with my mom but it didn't end up happening ✊😔 I did rewatch both Top Gun movies though. Love those.

[adhdduckie]

jjk headcanons ( as people in a class)

ft. Toge, maki, yuuta, nanami, todo and sukuna.

pt 2 of jjk headcanons ( as people in a class ) pt 1 here

my masterlist here

( should be studying for exams but procrastination so oh well)

Toge we all know hes such a sweet misunderstood boy. We love him tho. He's definitely gonna have either the worst grades you've ever seen or he's gonna be in the deans list ( honours list? depends where ya'll at) we all know how he talks in ingredients, but that's not gonna stop him from having a bunch of friends that hang out around him just for his aura yk. He's gonna be the sweetest boy and he'll remind you of a little cat. His handwriting, it's gonna be so cute. i feel like he has little stars on the Is instead of the usual tittle. he writes small and slightly cramped but it is so easy to read. When writing essays i feel like he'll have so many pages of all these tiny tiny words. I think he's definitely got an affinity for the sciences and maths. I think that there would definitely be many people who would be interested in him romantically, but he's only going to have eyes for one person. ( maybe i'll write a fic abt that ( x reader maybe ) )

Maki Zenin

def a girl boss. so proud and pretty. I think she would be a jock like yuuji but man shes got some of the best grades you'll ever see. she's gonna be really intimidating to everyone when she first introduces herself in class, but that isn't going to stop a bunch of guys from going up to her and being rejected ( lmao at their pain) her handwriting i think, would be like close to calligraphy. She's so extra like megumi but special in her own way, like her z's would be crossed. I think that she would be quite good at drama and acting but her preference would be in musical theatre, and hell she's good at it.

Yuuta

quiet boy reborn. Man, he's gotta be the most awkwardest boy you're ever gonna know, but he's also very shy and kind. Would not hesitate to beat someone up if they've hurt his friend. personally, he would be the one i would like to be friends with. His grades are above average for someone who doesn't spend a lot of time studying, and his friends get so annoyed about that. His handwriting would be cute and childish, but still really neat. I think that his laptop background would be a collection of images of his friends, like him and rika when they were really young, and everyone else is several different locations. When you first see it you instantly know he's a really good friend, and would cherish everyone. Gotta paint his nails. idk but i would want to so badly

Nanami

he's practically the professor. Super serious, constantly asking questions and getting answers right. His exams results are like in the 99 percentile which is like insane. HE is so consistent with his grades, like damn bro what else you do with life?? He looks so tired and done with life half of the time or he's just sipping on his coffee. I think he drinks two cups of pure expresso in the morning and has a cup of tea for the rest of day, in his fancy little cup. His handwriting, i don't know how to describe it but it's like so extra. Definitely prioritises his handwriting over contents of notes but he does well either way.

Todo

you would never see him in class. He's got like some crazy excuses, but i swear you're not even aware he's in your class until you get paired up for something and he's like, "wanna meet up? if you get it wrong Im doing it myself" I think he would be so annoying to work with but like if you're friends with him he would actually be quite helpful. You would have no idea what his handwriting is like. He's never written a thing in his life for school and he's happy about that. He skips out on school a lot to go see the model meets like takada. No clue how he even passed high school if ur in uni together.

sukuna

bro if i was in school or uni with this man i would instantly drop out. He's a fucking pain in the ass and i hate him sm rn. But i'm sticking to the head-cannon. His grades- probably pretty good, maybe like a genius or something but so irritating. His looks gain the attention of many girls, but his misogynistic and shitty personality pushes a lot of people away. He's a pain to work with for group projects, would totally run off and do the work himself and get everything wrong and blame everyone else for not doing anything when he wouldn't let you help. He's fine, but like not impressed with him. His handwriting would be old and traditional and if you live in japan, he would write in traditional Japanese. and practically no one knows what he's writing.

lemme know if you have any suggestions for anything else i should write! hope ya'll enjoyed, have a nice day/night!

[burnyouwithacigarettelighter]

Omg I’m so happy you replied!! I definitely have more questions.

1. What Cillian character do you like writing about the most and why?

2. What story from your master list are you most proud of?

3. Do you personally have any fic recommendations/ must reads? Other sites included.

4. What gets you inspired to write? Following that question have you ever abandoned a fic?

5. What do you think made you a better writer? If you have any doubts about your work, how do you get past it enough to continue?

6. Is there a Cillian character that you just don’t like, or aren’t interested in watching/ writing about? (Sorry if that’s a loaded question)

omg thank u so much for this!!! i srsly love interacting w u guys, tysm for the thought provoking questions😄🙌

i think i like writing most about robert fischer:) ik it probably doesnt translate considering ive written most for jonathan crane but robert fischer is just such a little sweetheart to me,,, and can go both ways in being a sassy dom douchebag or being a sobbing daddy issues sub darling LOLLL i just think he has a lot of duality to delve into and develop (which ive definitely not done so far☠️) and it helps that his characterization in inception was also very surface level— i have a lot of wiggle room y’know??

i think im most proud of “dine & dash” which im aware probably no-one has read, but getting chris o’doyle’s sassy little dialogue down was like taming a wild beast,,, otherwise, considering my more well-known work, i rly liked writing “honey, i’m home”. i go crazy for the unhinged readers (if u couldnt alrdy tell lmaooo) and seeing jackson get messed with like that was a real treat.

i seriously just recommend anything by @mypoisonedvine,,, they’re literally genius & are the reason i started writing for cillian:)!! other mentions include kitten fics by @pictureinme and, a personal fave, @floralcyanidee’s jackson rippner mile-high club fic!!! these writers are all incredibly talented and im just blown away at their work every single time🫶

my thirst is such a big motivator for writing LMAO😭i wrote “guinea pig” ‘cus i wanted to absolute wreckkk jonathan crane and have him be a sub, and i got a 6.8k words long fic out of said thirst! music & book quotes motivate me a lot too— i spend sm time digging thru my pinterest for a good quote for the beginning of my fic its actually insane☠️and yes,,, im ashamed to say ive abandoned fics numerous times,,, but thats because they were series’, not oneshots. i get bored of series’ pretty quickly, ‘cause i feel kind of trapped by the initial dynamic or mood set in the first chapter. with oneshots, its like writing one long chapter of this trope and this kink or whatever and then its done, and i dont have to exhaust myself going back to tropes or kinks or storylines ive already done.

i think reading made me a better writer. expanding my vocabulary through the words of others was a biggie; seeing something be described in a certain way in someones story had me thinking of out-of-the-box ways to describe another thing (that doesn’t make much sense but lets pretend it does😭). i have many, many doubts about my work, like constantly, but i usually just suck it up. i sound like an attention whore but seeing the reposts & comments & tags on my other work reminds me people like what i’ve written before and certain people will enjoy what ive written now, so i should just finish my work for them. i also take like 100 years rereading my stuff until i think its good enough lmao,,,

ive kinda watched his whole roster of films (atleast ones i could actually find on the internet and not gone missing as a lost piece of media lmao) and i could probably write for any cillian character given i had a good idea and proper motivation. writing for certain characters is definitely harder for me to do though, so its likely i wont write for them/will take a long time to do so. an example is lenny miller— anna was such an insufferable movie to me, and lenny’s screentime wasn’t long at all, atleast not long enough for me to properly grasp his character. he just felt like a horny hardass fbi goof the whole time i could not take his 5���7 ass seriously😭cillian is smexy as hell in anna tho, so we’ll see😈another would probably be robert capa from sunshine,,, hes beautiful and deliciously musty in that but the whole spaceship setting kinda freaks me out (considering i know 0 zilch nada about space, spaceships, or anything of the sort, so it’d definitely be inaccurate). an au with him id definitely do, though! (with that hair of his my mind is already forming a 90s band au, guitarist!capa x singer!reader story…)

again thank u so much for these questions!! i feel like i rarely get to chat to u guys so this was well appreciated😄🫶thank you so much for reading, for sending these questions in, and for being an overall sweetheart, anon!

[sweetnnaivete]

ii. 10 things i hate love about you

i give you with a book boyfriend / girlfriend after a short description of yourself and your fandoms! + moodboard

HII POOKIE CONGRATS ON THE FOLLOWERS!!! LOVE YOU SM AND IM SO PROUD OF YOU <3333

ahem lemme try & describe myself lmao I am easily anxious but brutally honest, I'm mean as a joke but I can be a genuine bitch to ppl I don't like/are rude. I am very loyal and clingy to my friends, i also love to flirt with my friends (as a joke). I am kinda like.a black cat with golden retriever traits. I try to be optimistic but I am mostly a realist. Grumpy asffff (Lmk if i should add more)

Fandoms: pjo/hoo, aggtm, hp, kotlc, bttm, tmnt, caraval series, mha uhhh yeah. Even if i don't know the boy/girl that's ok :) it'll just give me sum book/media recs

10 THINGS I HATE LOVE ABOUT YOU for mori

a/n why are we the same person help

ok so i had to put a lot of thought into this because i was like "hmm, you need someone who compliments you in having a more chill personality while also being able to have fun and whatnot" SO i went through a couple options in my head, the first one being jason grace. but ultimately i think peeta mellark would be a better choice for you

hear me out !! ik it wasn't on your fandom list, but if you haven't read it then what are you doing go read it /j !! if you read it but didn't like it then .. erm 😐 mb you guys ✋😔

so here are my thoughts: peeta would 100% value your honestly and love love love your clinginess. his generosity and compassion can balance out your more grumpy/brutal side, and you guys would have so much fun together! it's definitely a "he fell first" situation, too, which honestly 🤭

here's the moodboard!

[usuallymyenthusiast]

there was so much I loved about that episode!! lowkey super disappointed in some of the endings (rip 🛋️) but at least the fandom-verse is so great in 911 and we always have amazing fics.

a few things I loved, off the top of my head, in random order:

bobby corralling the team in the beginning

HEN WIPING BLOOD OFF OF BUCKS FACE .. no listen that revived me body and soul. oh my god

eddie in the hospital “he refused to take anything!” “I’m fine” “NO, you’re not!” SOOO eddiecore of him. also his pained face the whole ep was so chefs kiss

Seeing more of Henren’s foster kids!!! THEM POSSIBLY ADOPTING A BABY GIRL!!!! yesss!!!!

“Marisol it Eddie” what an idiot lol 🫶

Buck delivering Kamerons baby was SUCH an amazing scene, Natalia or not. His tears and the “he’s all yours” whooo boy. And I was so glad to see Connor and Kameron reunite 🥹🥹

The Madney of it all!? Chim being so proud of his ring, Maddie so relieved to hear he’s okay, THEIR HANDS IN THE HOSPITALLLLL

Speaking of Maddie, she was so amazing at dispatch. Ugh 🫶

Bobby and Athena. Like what else can I say ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Soulmates

I loved Athena and Maddie in the hospital too. When Athena said “all the 118, except ours” I loved that line!!!

Hen wiping blood off of Bucks face I’m gonna say it again bc I loved it sm. She was concussed and confused but that’s what she knows, healing people, trying to help. And that’s basically her brother and like KAJSJS I just can’t 😭 so soft. Hen this whole ep was amazing. Her dedication to trying to get to Chim 😩

Also the emergency itself was pretty awesome like I really found myself gasping

A glimpse of Christopher I’ll take what I can get

The meditation scene at the end. First of all, yes so important. Second, and this is weird, but I loved Buddie’s reactions, so on brand. Eddie like 🤨👀 we doing this? alrighttt fine I’ll close my eyes 😤. And then Buck idk kinda fully on board taking it almost too seriously?? Idk I just feel like Ryan and Oliver nailed the micro expressions here lmao

Im sure I missed some stuff- not at all a perfect episode but lots of great stuff in it. I might make a post about what I DIDNT like but what’s the point lol. Anyway see y’all on AO3 🫶

[konata-the-izumi]

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GOGO GADJET LIGHTNING AND FANNY GIJINKA REF SHEETS1!!21!!1!1!1!1! Plus nationality hcs and some doodles because yes.

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First off Lightning!1!1!1 ⚡️⚡️⚡️ and yes i headcannon him as French.

Theres literally nothing wrong w/ my gijinka of him, hes literally perfect ahhh 😭😭😭 I LOVE HIM SM RAGGAGHAGAHAGHAJAJAJAHS i might platonically steal him from fanny /JJJJJJ

(NO BUT SERIOUSLY WHY DO I WANNA GIVE MY GIJINKA OF HIM A HUG SO BAD??????????? WHAT?2!2?2?2,2?1,1?,1,1,2?1?1,1,,1?1,1?1,1?1,1?1,,1,1?1,1,??1?1??)

I love him grahhhhhhhhh 💛⚡️✨

heres some side doodles i did of him 💛💛💛

(is it just me or does his face look slightly different here? maybe bc lack of makeup or something but it still looks good either way 🥰🥰🥰)

OMGGGGGGGG 💛💛💛💛💛 *epic fangirling noises*

Oh and also this one thing i can’t remember why i drew it- at least i got to draw my daily dose of lightfan yay

There’s also a couple more side doodles of him that i did but i reserved them for another post 🤫🤫

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And now for Fanny’s!1!1!1!1 🌀🌀🌀 i hc her as haitian! (fun fact im of haitian descent myself lol)

I’m so glad i finally have a consistent hair texture for her yay. Now one thing I’m currently having trouble drawing consistently is her face. She just looks different averytime i draw her help 😭😭😭 (you’ll see once you get to see the side doodles i did of her, actually i currently have the same problem w/ my ruby gijinka ever since i redesigned her 🥲)

Btw i drew her w/ no face paint this time cause i wanted to actually make her other facial details visible.)

Anyways off to the side doodles (I’m not too proud of these).

i actually tried drawing her w/ different hairstyles (i usually almost never give human characters the same hairstyle or outfits twice lol, but since i had trouble with finding a consistent hair texture for my fanny hummie she was one of the exceptions)

Also this is what i was talking abt when i said i couldn’t draw her face consistently…

OMG WHAT????? FANNY IS SMILING2?!1?2?2!1?1!2?!2?2? (I don’t like this doodle either LMAO, in fact i think it’s my least favourite of all three of them)

And finally small side doodle again

This one is definitely better than the other three lol

I really need to practise drawing my fanny gijinkas face properly or else ill end up with odd results like the latter three-

Anyways that’s all the refs i have for now! I’m working on some for my other character gijinkies as well so stay tuned lol

[icyfox17]

mayyyhapz 24 25 26 ? for ur ask game u reblogged ? (one thing ur proud of urself for, fave season n y, fave color n y)

24. what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

Oohhh hmmmm I'm not sure which to choose hmMmmM

Honestly? I've been really proud of myself on this trip!! I was terrified to be away from home for a whole month. I was terrified to be in another country. Like dawg I thought I was gonna DIEEE dhfjfkd

But I've been handling it pretty well!!! I havent been nearly as homesick as I would've expected from myself and Im a lot more street smart than I originally thought. Maybe a little too paranoid at times hahaha but better to be safe!!

Oh also, I'm proud of how my social skills have developed over the years!! Bro I used to be terrified of interacting with Any stranger irl, and now it's something I actually get a lot of joy from:)) ive been socializing with ppl at the hostels and just ppl on the street. I've gained a lot more self confidence over the years!!

Also speaking on the trip, I've been trying a *lot* of new things. I've been ordering sm food I've never had before. I went to the opera because I could even tho I was worried I wouldn't enjoy it. Ive also!!!! Done cooking!!! I made dinner!! And pancakes!!! Without worrying I would die!!! That is HUGE for me, oh man Im so proud of myself for going to the grocery store and cooking.

I feel like I've done a lot of personal growth and I'm proud of that:))

25. fave season and why?

Spring!!! This used to be a hard question lmao. I used to always be like ALL OF THEMMM!!! And i DO still love each and every one of them but over the years I've learnt that spring makes me the happiest. It's a time of life. Flowers are blooming, baby animals are being born, the birds are starting to sing again. The sun is shining but not in a way that it's unbearably hot. The rain is fresh and with it comes petrichor. You get to look forward to summer and going to the beach and stuff. I just aaaaa, I love spring:))))

Autumn is a close second but as much as I love it and love the colourful leaves, the leaves are representative of death and shfjdkd i dont like the coldddnfnm😭😭

I do love autumn tho it's a close second bc i LOVE cinnamon and autumn has everythinh cinnamon. Pumpkin pie YASS pumpkin spice YASSS apple pie and apple cinnamon YASSS hot coco YAAAA hot coco WITH CINNAMON YASSSS

But yeah!! Spring just beats it out for me bc it feels more hopeful of a vibe:)

26. fave colour and why?

So blue and green have been tied for almost my whole life with blue being my default if I have to choose one. However,

One day in Discord lmfao i had my nickname colour as teal BUT my friend also had their nickname colour in teal and bc my nickname was "[friends name]'s number one fan<3" everyone kept mixing us up HDFKKFFM AND THUS. I changed my name to pastel green and then uh. That just kinda became my colour. And going forward every server I joined I made my name green. And then I started to have pfps with a character who was green coded so it reinforced rhe green theme and now like 5 years later I realised I connect way more to green than blue because of that djfkdks

Like all my clothes r green now too 😭😭

So green is!! But blue is a very close second and my fav colour combo is the two of them:))

Idk if pastel green is still my fav specifically but it's a green. of some kind LOL

For this ask game !!

[what-if-nct]

Hiiii I saw your post from a few weeks ago about not getting many asks and messages recently! I’m sorry that there are less :/ but I don’t think it’s cause you say nonsense or yap. Tbh I don’t think you say nonsense and I actually like that you yap a lot! I used to send you ( and other blogs) messages more in the past but lately, I’m so busy all the time. I also use tumblr a lot less now cause I was kinda sad in the past and spend a lot of time indoors online. These days, I’m really busy and life has changed a lot. I feel like I could talk about this forever but I’m looking at which uni I want to go to which feels unreal because a few years ago I thought I’d be dead by the time I got to uni (I was very sad, probably depressed but I had no diagnosis). I’m doing really well in my studies lately and I’m currently aiming for one of the top 2 universities in my country. I’m a bit nervous because sometimes I question whether or not I really am that clever and there’s also going to be a lot of people who have had extremely privileged lives at that uni. I’ve got a pretty shit background but I’m trying to stay positive and use that to motivate me! The course I’m hoping to do is called human, social and political science but it’s split into three sections: sociology, politics and social anthropology. (Also I went to an open day there recently and there were 2 guys who were quite hot lmao one looked simultaneously a bit like the white version of Jun from svt and Devon Bostick and was extremely tall, taller than 6’5” and another guy looked sm like Ben Barnes with long hair and he kept looking and smiling at me hehe) I’m really excited for whatever is going to happen next in my life and I’m really proud of myself! Ik I’ve gone on a tangent but basically, I really like your blog but I don’t have as much time as I used to :/ I totally appreciate you and I honestly think you are really kind and lovely! Thank you sm for continuing with this blog for so long and ilysm 🫶

Its fine don't worry and i don't spend as much time on Tumblr as i used to either but i try to check in once in awhile. So i understand. Firstly i really hope everything is well for you now, and things only gets better for you. And i'm sure you absolutely are clever enough for the top universities in your country. You've got this i just know it. And sometimes having a more difficult background is exactly what will set you up for success and that is a great motivation. Im sure the next chapter of your life will be filled with so much happiness, opportunities and success. And it will make everything worth it. Thank you, you are so very sweet. I really appreciate it. You are so lovely and i send you so love and positive energy🌸🌸🩷🩷🩷

[katronautt]

KAT'S 2022 YEAR REVIEW & THANK YOU NOTE

well hello there everyone. i'm not sure if this is still a thing this year because i haven't seen anyone doing this (or i just wasn't tagged in one at all sdjfkfkf) but that won't stop me from writing another year review and saying thank you to my wonderful internet friends!

at the end of last year i finally moved out of my parents house so i've been officially living alone for a whole year now and i'm proud to announce that i still live haha its not easy sometimes and it's hella expensive but i enjoy it nonetheless. i continued decorating and furnishing my apartment and it slowly but surely became my comfy little corner on this earth and im very proud of it :3

i know i said last year sucked and i was hoping for a better one in 2022 but boy oh boy was i wrong lmao

this year was shite. like utter shite. i didn't get a job that i enjoy doing or pays well BUT at least i still have a job lol the job sucks and sometimes i wanna jump out from the 3rd floor window but i managed to make wonderful friends among my colleagues so i'm definitely thankful for that. i only work there for 7 months but i already feel like we've known each for years and they definitely make working there bareable.

this year i also finally get to meet my bff (braincell for life), Ariana (@queenofthefaceless) in person and i am very much grateful for that. i'm sad no more meeting could happen in the rest of the year but maybe in the next one 😉❤

towards the end of the year i started working out again because i gained a little bit of weight and altough i became much more confident this year, it started to bother me so i'm proud of myself for not letting it slide and now i'm mostly focusing on getting my strength back i used to have instead of being the couch potato i was all year lol and one of my new years revolution for 2023 is to eat healthier and work out even more.

and yes i am still not over the fact that you guys putting out those wonderful fics for us for free. you still rock !! 💜💜

next year i will continue to hope for a better job, one that i enjoy and pays better (or at least one of these lol) and to be even more confident and open to new things ( and finding a rich husband 🙏)

ALRIGHTY NOW ONTO THE THANK YOU NOTES:

⭐@queenofthefaceless i still love you bro sm. you rock & i can't wait for another year with you (and your amazing fics)💜

⭐my dearest cee @fuckyeahdindjarin. you started writing for the pedro fandom earlier this year and you decided to start it all with a bang haha. i was hooked on consent after the 2nd chapter and was never let go. your writing is brilliant, my favorite thing is how you can amazingly combine comedy, angst and smut in one chapter in such a kickass way i found myself rereading sentences and conversations just so a chapter would last longer. i loved that series and i cant wat to see what you will bringing into 2023! 💜

⭐ i am so honored to call you my friend kc @avennger. and i'm now so glad that i had the courage of sliding into your dm's and start incoheretnly screaming at you (YOU KNOW AFTER WHICH CHAPTER).. because that started our conversation and i love love love chatting with you and bonding over our disaster saurondriel couple haha. you are one of the most talented writer i've met and you have such great potential i'm honestly in awe. the research and work you put ito your works is absolutely mind-blowing and i hope i'll get to read many many amazing works from you in the future! ily 💜

⭐ @foli-vora foli, you continue to amaze me with your amazing fics and your wonderful and friendly personality. please never change and here's to another year filled with insane horniness towards middle aged man 🥂💜

⭐ i think we can all agree that cristina @pedropascalsx is the nicest and most supportive person on this hellsite right? you always surprise me with the insane amount of goodness you have for the people you care about and you showed nothing but supportiveness and kindness towards me too and for that i am so so grateful. you are a wonderful and talented person and i hope you'll have just as wonderful year in 2023 🥰

⭐ @sirtadcooper ruth, even tho you spent a good amount of 2022 taking a break from tumblr (which i completely understand, believe me) like i said before, i was so happy seeing you back on my dash, you were always so supportive and i hope you won't stop making those amazing edits of yours 😘

⭐@mandosmistress mari, you wonderful, wonderful friend.. i was honored to be your best reader of 2022 very early in the year and here i am hoping to achieve the best reader of 2023 next year just as quckily while we continue our horny brainstorming in the dms because i love doing that with you 🤭💜

⭐@ithinkhesgaybutwesavedmufasa i love and miss our late night (& horny) conversations so much. you are such an amazing and nice person katryn and i hope we get to chat again in the new year! ily 💜

and here's tagging the rest of y'all who i owe my life to because once again your amazing fics give me absolute joy and i know i will never be able to pay it back to you beside the support i'm always trying to give back in reblogs and reviews and promotions and such. here's to you all!! 🥂❤ (i am forever sorry if i missed someone):

@absurdthirst, @the-darklings, @softpedropascal, @write-and-buried, @oonajaeadira, @honestly-shite, @outercrasis, @qveenbvtch, @javier-pena, @toomanystoriessolittletime, @storiesofthefandomlovers, @lellowberry, @frannyzooey, @charnelhouse, @krissology, @juletheghoul, @dincrypt, @f0rever15elf, @the-ginger-hedge-witch, @astroboots, @brandyllyn, @littlemisspascal, @radiowallet, @just-here-for-the-moment, @letterfromvienna, @amywritesthings, @the-scandalorian, @whataperfectwasteoftime, @orcas86, @saintmurd0ck, @demonscantgothere

HERE'S TO 2023!!! 🥂💜

[tklpilled]

ty for the tag @cantsaythetword <3

fandom faves of the year !!

favourite new fandom: i guess bsd considering i've been hyperfixated since april LMAO but mp100 is also a vv good one!!

favourite new ships: skk, satosugu, and akiangel

favourite anime/tv show: chainsaw man !!

favourite movie: the only good ones i watched didn't come out this year so. none

favourite character: do Not make me choose i'll cry

favourite soundtrack: the csm soundtrack goes So hard

favourite book/manga/comic: TGCF OMG i havent even finished it (if anyone knows where i can read the whole thing translated i'll love you) but its so good

favourite game: i dont think i played any that came out this year!! been wanting to play legends arceus though

highlight of the year: i am forgetting literally Everything that happened this year. reigen sans queen of england was definitely a fun one though

community faves !!

favourite tumblr moment: goncharov was certainly a time

favourite fanart: this, this, this, this, and this are some :)

favourite fic: oh this one is. very hard .... but some that i find myself revisiting often are -if we're being honest by thequeenofwhump -now and forever (and before then, too) by radstarmuffin -difficult patient by stargazingly -birthday tickles for the child(e) by anonymous

favourite ask game: gonna be honest i remember absolutely zero of the ones i reblogged

top achievement as a creator: i hit 500 followers !! which is so cool ily guys

best fic of mine: in terms of impressions, on ao3 it was looking out for you and here it was kiss me hard before you go, which is wild because i wrote it last week, but if we're talking fic that im most proud of, im a fan of my akiangel drabble here

most underappreciated fic of mine: dandelion didn't do very well on ao3 </3

post that got more popularity than expected: that akiangel fic. what the hell

something on my blog i changed: my layout. numerous times.

next year !!

something i didn't do this year but would like to next year: commissions!! i plan on opening them soon :D

goals for next year: i feel like i didn't write much this year until these past few months, so writing more!!

2023 releases i'm looking forward to: botw2 definitely!! as well as the new seasons for bsd, jjk, tgcf, and sxf :)

spreading love !!

shoutout to people who made my year better: of course all of my friends and partners!! i love you all sm <3 and shoutout to those mutuals i don't regularly talk to but we're still chilling together

(too nervous to tag anyone so just go for it lmao)