#im just gonna have to try to edit this shit myself since no one will peer review me correctly

[mystic-mae]

i need some motivation to do shit, so like... notes thingy i guess

100 notes - water consumption for the body. marching band season made me realize i dont drink enough fucking water out here. (alright, i guess i need water now... I WAS DRINKING TEA EARLIER. THATS CLOSE ENOUGH, RIGHT??)

200 notes - food consumption, i guess. i'll try to eat 3 full meals a day. enough to make my body full and stuff. (gods dammit. well, i already ate breakfast and lunch, and i have leftovers from lunch, so, i guess dinner's all set for me.)

300 notes - homework completion. i've been lacking in my homework game, and i definitely need to improve it this semester. (...i'll start my chem homework tomorrow since saturdays are my rest days, okay??? MOST OF MY WEEKEND HOMEWORK IS DONE BUT THANKS FOR CARING, CHAT)

400 notes - writing hobby. i need motivation to write lore for my dnd campaign (#runaway ruler dnd / #convict ruler dnd / #ruined ruler dnd universe if you want to follow along my shitposting for that) (i already started shitposting for runaway ruler again, so check it out. I WILL WRITE LORE FOR EACH ARC DONT WORRY IM JUST BARELY GETTING STARTED ON THE SECOND ARC SINCE ITS VERY LONG)

500 notes - animation gift. i'm making a little valentine's gift for my spouses, and it's gonna be 1:34 seconds long... I need motivation to actually animate lmao. (i'll do bits and pieces throughout the week. don't worry, i plan to figure this out [i haven't animated in months, and even then i barely scratched the animation surface])

1000 notes - script memorization. i uh... need to memorize my silly little script for a production coming up in a month. im performing in front of kids so like... the script's pretty short and easy (im the antagonist in my cast >:]).

2000 notes - chest binder shopping. i'll ask my parents if i can get a chest binder. ive been meaning to get one for myself for some time now. im getting desperate for one.

3000 notes - leaving the closet. i'll come out to the rest of my family that i'm trans, aromantic, all the nine yards about my lgbtq+ identities. i'll definitely have to schedule a good day to do that.

EDIT: 10 NOTES PER PERSON GOOD GODS

[coridallasmultipass]

It took me, ugh, MONTHS (2), to get to cleaning the two shrimp tanks I have... I had IRL issues going on that would have made it extremely difficult to do a water change especially while injured, and I just had to keep putting it off. It's just shrimp, so it wasn't like, the worst situation, especially since I have established plants and the tanks are a couple years old. There was just a lot of algae build-up on the glass, and, well... Let me just say it was not contributing to my mental health and well-being while the tanks were in that state.

I tested the water before I started cleaning and the parameters were fine (like, I could have left the tanks even longer if I would be okay with selling my soul to the Algae Collective), and the plants and shrimp look fine, too (I mean, I've obviously been keeping an eye on the tanks bc I sit right next to them). Actually, I'd wager to say that the plants are looking really great (the lilies haven't died off [yet? This is the longest period of time I've seen them stay... foliage... fol... foliated? Idk.] and the cryptocoryne in the 10gal is fucking huge and needs to be rearranged, just not right now). That fucking algae was a motherfucker to get off the 10gal (it's a plastic tank and I think that makes the algae grip harder than the glass 5gal).

[Also, fyi, depending on the tank's needs and stability, recommended water changes are a small one every week or every other week. My parameters don't seem to do anything dramatic, so I usually aim for a 20-30% water change every third week (just depends on how much vacuuming needs to be done and how cooperative the shrimp are with moving aside). So 2 months is still a lot. I still did the normal 30% ish amount, since doing more will risk the shrimp's well-being if there's a sudden change in everything, and my water parameters indicated a change was unnecessary - but I don't test for more than the minimum freshwater tests, so there could be a buildup of some mineral I'm not testing for, which is why the change IS actually necessary regardless of what my test kit says - because these tanks were evaporating a lot in summer, it condenses the minerals added with each water addition, even tho I usually top up with R.O. water.]

My back is fucking killing me lol. It has been killing me since spring when it 'went out' for the first time, and I'm not getting any relief, it sucks. But this had to be done.

The 5gal is looking pretty cloudy still, since the filter was super gunked up and I accidentally spilled gunk back in, so I may need to retest the 5gal parameters tomorrow just to make sure I don't have to do another water change, but it'll probably be fine, right? Shrimp love mulm and detritus. I did give both tanks a big ole algae tab for their trouble, tho. (I need a fuckening dish for the big tank. I really wanna clean off that white quartz rock again, but being white means it's an algae magnet, and it's just gonna go green again after a month or two.)

Anyway, shrimp tax:

I lov thees widdle oange bebies.

Wish I could take better pictures rn, but I am. Like. Dying. My recommendation: never live in an A-frame style room if you have the option. The wall above my tanks is slanted, and NOT fun for my back to bend underneath the wall for maintenance. (My only flat wall in the room is for my TV/PC.) Also, treat your back nicely, in general. I unfortunately have not had the option to treat my back nicely since spring (fall now), because 'when it rains it pours,' and heavy shit that needs to be moved will not move itself. Once I get a few more things in my room in order, I will hopefully be done with the IRL chaos, bc I have Halloween socks to knit, and I'm not putting that off for another year. (I'm still mad that I couldn't make the ones I planned last year. And I found more Halloween yarn I forgot I bought, so I'm gonna try to make multiple socks.) And I just really need to fucking chill and knit and stop having panic attacks and meltdowns.

[the-kipsabian]

can it be called lazy breakfast if its 1pm and i have been awake for 12 hours orrrrr

[cappurrccino]

three of my classmates still haven't peer reviewed my portfolio stuff from earlier in the semester and I'm just over here like

blease? blease give me reviews that are thoughtful and helpful? I know my portfolio could be better, pls give me reviews to make it so???

[suryp]

Date: unknown

Year: inconsequential

Region: central Tartyryn straight

The snow crunches beneath our feet, the wind howls like the devil, and while we all show fear, I've reason to think my brothers know not that we walk over a frozen sea, more than 30 metres deep with fish heavier than our entire platoon. I doubt my commander knows, either, but that suits our real mission just fine.

The mission. Ha. Everyone knows the only safe spots for a town are off shore, we've already done the math, there's nothing out here worth finding.

Good thing Commander Reijean is such a greedy fuck, then.

"HALT!"

Thats him right there. Most would say he just wants to prove himself, but I know better. All humans hide their worst traits, tone 'em down for the public. We're all worse than we seem on the outside.

"..."

"whats out their c-"

"shut your trap private, I won't have my skill split be-"

*Crack*

"Mission complete, I suppose"

In an instant, Clark pulled out the rifle on his back. it was cheap shit, like all the gear for this trip was, but He's among the best "weapons guys" I've ever met.

Fortunately, the gun jams, and he vanishes into the blizzard.

"Clark? Buddy? Clark? Clark!"

"Circular formation, weapons up, we are-"

"...Commander?"

Just a few more to go. Our platoon used to be larger, but wandering for days on end through an empty void of ice and snow will take its toll. Just a few weeks ago, we might've won this fight.

Good thing banshees are smart, then.

"SpLit up!"

"Commander?"

"Split Up!"

"h- He's right. we're no more than a larger target like this."

"Just gotta find the right time for it."

Sabotage wasn't the plan, and it leaves a bad taste, but there's nothing for it.

"Now."

"..."

"..."

*Cr'Ack*

"..."

*Crunch*

"..."

And finally, a blood curdling scream cut short, by a few extra holes in the lungs.

I stand up, spread my arms wide, and make myself the most clear and easy target I can."

-...-

Two hours later

The blizzard dies, I see my siblings dead in the snow. Three have a mulch of bone and Metal shards, alongside frozen blood, in place of their heads. Commander has a crushed neck. Charlie's kevlar is punched through, frozen blood all along his chest.

There's a sixth carcass, some ornitherian, I think, though it's hard to tell considering how much was eaten. The ribs are gone, and only Two and a half legs remain.

I begin to walk off. A meal, even the frozen remains of a hippogriff corpse, is the last thing I d-

*crunch*

"..."

"you not fight me. why?"

"..."

"all humans try to kill us. take sea from us. take tyk'yk from us."

"...take egg from us."

"..."

"you not fight. why?"

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alright thats a wrap! The official intro to Fisher and the Flame and the world of... well, I suppose she doesn't have a real name yet but hey, we can make this work.

for a bit of context regarding appearances, if you need that, "Ornithere" and "Hippogriff" refer to pterosaurian animals, most similar to (and heavily based on) Trollman's "Cuvier's Isle" a small spec one-shot. It does not refer to the serinean animals of the same name.

Banshee are a bit easier to describe, being a rough combination of Utahraptor osstramaysi and a Leopard Seal, very similar to @tales-of-kaimere's *Updated* xuul design, along with the Adzakoordu and the White Cockatrice, as well as the Tamakai.

The narrator, Jake Fisher, is getting a drawing, by someone who appreciates men far more than I.

now go read about kaimere on Keenan Taylors twitter, bluesky, deviantart, and youtube channel, along with trollman's various sickass works on the same websites.

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edits: minor word changes, removal of unneeded dashes, and Commander is now cishet, because killing the first queer confirmed in story feels a bit too rude.

Reijean is still his name tho, since there has to some reason this unit was sent out.

also added a new tag. sorry y'all.

(im just gonna use the most extreme and broad tags that, since im exceedingly apathetic but do want to tag things correctly)

[delimeats-000]

Just the Editor - pt. 2

summary: chris comes to get his sweater back after the edit session him and the reader had.

warning: idk, shit writing

requested.

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(two days after pt 1)

he’s all i can think about. his lips on mine ad i sit in his lap. what i wouldn’t give to be that close again. im scared to call, what if he’s not really interested? maybe im just another girl that he can fuck and dip.

i don’t want to be that.

fuck this, im just gonna call. i gotta play it cool though.

“ok” i say outloud to myself, in my shitty one bed apartment.

RING RING

RING RIN-

“Yo.”

that was fast.

“Hey chris.”

“Sup, goof?”

“I uh, I still got your sweatshirt. I dunno if you want it back or whatever.”

“Uh if you want to keep it that’s cool.”

“Nah im good you can have it back.”

does he want me to keep it?

“Oh, ok.” he sounds disappointed, “Should i come by and get it right now?”

“Yeah sure.”

“Alright send your lo and i’ll be there.”

“K, bye.”

i hang up before i could get a response.

that was awful, i feel awful. maybe he does like me. maybe im just overthinking it. no he could have literally anyone. he’s not gonna like some editor.

an hour goes by and i hear a knock at my door. i grab the sweatshirt and take it with me to the door expecting him to take it and leave, as i open the door i realize i was wrong.

“Hi.” his voice is gentle, he seems nervous.

“Hey?” i look down he’s holding bags of chick-fil-a.

“Can i come in?”

“Oh right, yeah.”

he walks in right by me with a faint smile. “I didn’t know what you liked so i got a few things.”

“Thanks.”

“Yeah, no problem.” he pauses for a minute, i can tell he has something to say. “I uh, im sorry for the other day.”

i knew it, i knew i was just another fuck buddy.

“Oh it’s cool, i get it.”

“Get what?”

“You just needed to get off, right?”

“No. No, not at all.” he seems kinda offended. he looks down before continuing. “I like you, a lot. I thought that you’d get weirded out or some shit if i told you and in the heat of the moment i thought you liked me too.”

“Oh.”

that’s all i could manage to say.

“Look im sorry, ill just go home.” he starts to stand up but then i grab his hand and pull him back down towards me.

“Dont go. I like you too chris. I just dont want to be a booty call.”

“Never. I want you, only you.”

“Chris, im just the editor. You gotta know that im not special.”

“You are tho, you’re so sweet and pretty and ever since the other day your lips are all i can think about.” he grabs my face with both hands and pulls me closer to him. “I’ve always been scared of relationships, but for you, i want to try. I want you all to myself.”

“Ok.” i smile and hold his hands that still rest on my face. he leans in and kisses me.

“FUCK YEAH!”

we both laugh and eat the chick fil a he brought while finally reviewing the newest pod i editited.

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pt 1, love you🫶

[thegnomelord]

pfu blet you scared me so much with that trans reader being raped by ghost thing

i legit thought you turned into one of those people

i only clicked on it because i had hope that there would be critique following and i was so glad that there was

anyway yeah it's really gross to write something like that and seems a little transphobic?

idk im not trans so i could be reading too much into it but like taking someone who is trying to transition into a male and regaling them to the sterotypical "feminine" "submissive" role just because of anatomy seems really gross

it read like a bad bl where "big dom daddy top rapes sweet submissive little fem bottom but it's okay since the rapist is hot"

what is it with this fandom and writing ghost (an SA victim) as a rapist like ??????? why?

straight people scare me sometimes

(i've never seen queers romanticize rape and abusive relationships only straights but maybe im not experienced enough so maybe you could say more)

Ah man sorry to scare you like that, but you can rest easy I'll castrate myself before I become like those ppl :Dd also lol that phu blet made me laugh my ass off lol

I mean, it comes off very transphobic imo, by delegitimising transness via corrective rape — and that thing, from what I've looked up on Google and been told by trans ppl has been a long fetishised concept amongst trans people, basically "You're only trans cause you haven't been fucked hard enough."

And like, trans people fetishise trans ppl with that shit too, the same gay men can fetishise other gay men (irl example I've seen: gay guy with nail polish assumed by other gay men to a fruity bottom and the 'woman' in the relationship), or black people can fetishise other black ppl. Just because you're in an X group of people doesn't mean you can't also fetishise X group of people.

Idk man, my running theory is that many of the writers who make ghost into an abuser have only watched the cutscenes or edits of him and didn't dig deeper into his character. Same with other tall dark and masked chars like Konig or Nikto.

Also you are 100% right on that last bit. Nothing is ever fully guaranteed but If you took a 100 fics written by queer ppl and a 100 written by straight ppl, there's gonna be a ton more fics written by the straights that romanticise this shit than those written by queer people.

[hiroshotreplica]

im sorry you probably dont want this in your askbox but i dont really think it makes sense to talk about madness and leafi the same way for a lot of reasons. Idk maybe im just seeing a transgirl getting relentlessly dogpiled because of old screenshots and having an over-empathetic response but fuck man she was 13 when those screenshots were taken. Shes not even 18 right now shes crazy young for her level of play (like literally should be community banned for lying about being 13 for multiple years during splatoon 2 to get around discord community guidelines but thats a tangent). She said in her apology she was trying to fit in with a real shitty group of people she doesn't associate with anymore and fuck man im probably giving herself way too much grace cause i seeing a terrifying exaggeration of something i went through on a public scale but like people are editing HER face onto memes and talking shit about HER and constantly misgendering her when madness is not only an actual adult but has been ACTUALLY DOING THIS SHIT RECENTLY. im not saying the shit she was saying wasnt heinous but fuck man this isnt gonna help her and i dont want the dumass bullshit she said when she was a middle schooler to ruin the rest of her life. sorry for the white girl mental illness blast but there is important context in this ranty anxiety and projection goop

anon asked for a tldr for the situation w/ jackpot as a whole, which included leafi's part in the situation. as the post was about how jackpot as a team has made racist statements. i chose screenshots that put my point clearly, which just so happened to be screenshots with madness and leafi. i'll go more into it here, though

i did not mean to compare her to madness when including screenshots of her old statements. i was compiling the most blatant screenshots from the thread i had originally linked in a prior post. i was going to include other things, but didnt have the time to compile them and was beginning to get stressed about being the source of this info on tumblr.

i was also going to include this video of her saying racist statements in 2024, but i didnt want to include a twitter link for an anon that couldnt access twitter. im realizing i shouldve done so

i do feel bad for her getting involved with a group of people THAT bad if she was truly that ignorant when she was younger, but thats where my sympathy ends. she still acted racist and still associated with clearly racist people even when she was older and more mature. ive learned since making that post that she was born in 2007. 16 is still an age where you should be mature enough to understand that those comments are racist, even with america's shitty public education system glossing over racism.

i definitely see why this can look like people dogpiling on a trans woman though, and the people doing memes and editing her into them in general about this situation are disgusting. i had no idea she was trans and that people were misgendering her. anyone making this situation about her being trans are awful and not people i stand by.

but all of that, including her being skilled despite her age, still doesnt forgive or erase her actions. nothing like that does for the other members of jackpot that have also stated racist things. nothing like that does for any other comp splatoon player that has said anything similar. the apology she put out was needed, but from what ive heard from others, it wasnt the best. she is writing another apology, though, so it couldve just been rushed.

no one has to accept her apology, either. as a white person myself, im not one that should even be one to accept her apology. it wasnt an apology for me, and it isnt one for you, either (if you are white as you say but i might be misreading). people should not be painted in a negative light for not accepting her apology even if it were an amazing one.

the way some people are reacting to this situation is not okay, but she still did awful things that she should be held accountable for. the other guilty members of jackpot are not better than her, but theyve all still said fucked up things. none of them have done anything to prove they arent racist, and theres only more evidence coming out that proves that they have been, so its hard to process at the moment.

could things change? yes, of course, but as of right now, leafi has stated racist things as recent as 2024 and put out a poor apology trying to defend herself. people are handling it poorly and trying to make it about her identity and making memes on it when it is not the right thing to do. these racist claims are being put w/ other racist claims made by other jackpot team members so it was included in my tldr post about the entire situation.

i apologize for poor wording in this, im not the best w/ these kinds of posts

[acupofselfcontrol]

Overview for today (a really shitty day)

TW: Sh, descriptions of sh tools, and ed/binging (also warning this is a super long post💀)

Morning: Really bad binge, I felt utterly horrible. One of the things I binged on I have absolutely no way to know the cals but to be safe I estimated like 850 (this could be wildly underestimating but I think it's closer to overestimation but I don't really know)

When I binge I tend to end up binging on and off until I go to bed but a while ago someone told me when they binge they don't over-restrict for the rest of the day because it triggers more binge so I decided to try that

also I was so hungry that even after the binge I wasn't even uncomfortably full wtf

⬇️putting a cover here cause the TW starts applying here (so yeah, TW for sh)

Noon: For context, the other day I found a multi mini tool I got like 4 years ago before I started cvtt1ng. Sometimes when i'm doing rlly shitty I go into these like weird frantic hazes where I feel fucking crazy and several times during those i've searched for this tool -cause i've been using a dull pair of scissors to sh since I started- and I never found it. So today I used it for the first time and it was much more effective💀 Anyway after that I called my friend and that helped me calm down a lot I love him sm.

Afternoon: went to a market and GOT A RED BRACELET FINALLY!! (Wearing it will be a reward for when I reach 115lb) ate a cup of frozen berries and a hot chocolate bomb (not hot chocolate cause im scared of milk💀 just ate the actual hot chocolate bomb😭)

Evening: Went for an interval training run and this shit works holy fuck, burned like 400cals according to my tracker so that's helping my peace of mind, also cause I think i'm gonna get away with no dinner cause it's getting later and i'm not even hungry cause running suppresses appetite!

So (guessing one of the big things so could be off but I tried to overestimate) I consumed 1,950 and I burned 1,740, and i'm still slightly under my maintenance so that's cool ig. This was a really shitty day but I think I handled it well and I feel guilty but i'll try to be done with the regret tmr morning cause it isn't beneficial.

Plan going forward: A trend in my binging is it happens when i'm so desperate to avoid eating actual meals that instead I eat a fuck ton of non-filling empty cals. What im gonna do tn is create a list of steps for myself to do before a binge, one of which will be if the urge is still very very forceful then instead of giving in, make an egg or an english muffin or smt (specifics will be sorted out tn) Because 200cals is better than 1600, I just need my brain to understand that. Tomorrow morning i'm not gonna fast but I think i'll eat an egg cause I saw someone today saying protein for breakfast really helps with cravings (I usually fast for 12-20 hours then eat a cup of frozen berries)

Right now: I've been really putting off practicing my musical theatre dances and seeing how rehearsal is in 2 days I'm gonna go do that for a bit just so I can prove to myself it's not such a horrid task, after I practice ever single song i'll shower, then i'll get into bed and play Unpacking for a while cause it's so comforting to me

I'll be okay.

Edit: I js remembered that I overestimated on a ton of stuff cause I was scared abt underestimating on that one big thing I couldn't accurately count, so for example I took out a 45cal drink and drank 2 sips, but kept the 45cal on my tracker, and I did that for a bunch of stuff

[viscerawrites]

status update 9/28/2024

just a lil post to announce what fics ive worked on/tasks ive crossed off my checklist today! its mostly for myself rlly fcngnhkk buuut its here if anyone's curious ig? Im just chilling

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what ive accomplished today:

wrote 492 words for chapter 2 of where love didn't exist

today was the first time ive been able to work on this fic (w/o anxiety) since i first posted it in january, so that's pretty nice! tbh i lost so much confidence in it after i lost my therapist since i was hoping to use it as a coping fic while i processed shit. but who knows, maybe it'll still help me learn things abt myself. regardless, im excited to be back at it!

wrote 156 words for my sleep token oneshot wip, the body as a temple ; got it to 913!

i havent worked on this one in a while either lol, mostly bc i started it right before The Anxiety started hitting me every time i sat down to write. i was honestly rlly nervous to return to it cuz i was scared I wouldn't be able to keep writing it at all. but im giving myself the grace to move slow, so. rare W for me.

retyped/sorta edited 582 words for chapter 1 of my hollywood undead wip the exorcism of jorel decker

i actually posted this 1st chapter a long while ago! then i deleted it, tried to rework into original fiction, realized i was having much more fun writing it as bandfic, and then foolishly orphaned the original version instead of just deleting </3 but the good news abt that is. idk if i still have it in my google docs at all. so at least i have that to reference LOL.

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soo.

today is saturday september 28 (this month is going by way too fast fr) and it's just past 6pm rn. got a late start today bc i was exhausted as shit for a while, then i talked to my mom incessantly for what was apparently hours. So i only got started around 3pm (but i still needed to warm up, soo it took longer. Bleh).

didn't set my checklist goals at the start of the day like i planned to bc i was having The Anxiety and a bit of decision paralysis. and was also worried abt.. Various things. so it doesn't feel as successful today, but ive still gotten shit done and that's what should matter to me.

out of everything ive typed today, ive done abt 1,230 words in total so far. Most of that was unfortunately just me retyping shit ive already written and am now moving from google docs to ellipsus (which i highly recommend btw). i typically prefer to retype into new software instead of pasting; it gets the brain flowing better.

but i did still write some new words, and a lot of what i retyped was modified and added to. or cut. Whatever it needed rlly.

im still trying to find the proper schedule for myself + the best way to juggle my millions of projects/ideas. I need to allow myself some wiggle room while still having some structure. adhd is making this a bit difficult (as it so often does), but it's rlly just trial and error rn. Plus a lot of self-acceptance and focusing on making things easier and more fun for myself - instead of worrying abt the "most reasonable" way to do things. Or anything others might recommend.

I do still plan on writing some more before the night is done, so I might be back w/ an update for this before I head to bed. I got distracted by my brother while writing this post so it's now just after 6:45 LOL.

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gonna close this post off w/ music ive been rlly liking today! bc,, why not.

Animals - Ice Nine Kills (maroon 5 cover)

Disturbia - The Cab (rihanna cover)

What I Never Learned In Study Hall - Ice Nine Kills

[aikats]

ᯓᡣ𐭩 f/ovember ask game

Gonna be responding to all the days by just editing the post each time, link to the og post with all the questions is here.

♥️ - If I had to narrow down Katsuki to my favourite thing in him, it would be his drive. I’ve always liked surrounding myself around people who have motivation to do things and big goals in life, and I looove motivating those around me too. To be around him who’s so driven to always try his best, to always win, always thinking of how to become better, being around someone like that would ultimately make me want to do better too. Might sound corny but hey!! My blog my rules lmao

🐍 - If we could own any pet, like ANY my heart would lovee to say a tiger lmfao but as an actual answer we’d love a cat, specifically any breed thats reallly fluffy or really affectionate like ragdolla or mainecoons! Katsuki might pretend to not be a big animal lover or he might even not love animals that much at first so I have to convince him, that and I can imagine him having a few cute experiences with a street cat and suddenly now he wants one too. We’d either spontaneously adopt a street cat after making sure its definitely homeless, or we’d go to a shelter! Theres loads of grown cats there that need a home and love to at least give one ☹️. I also think Katsuki would appreciate us starting off with a grown up cat thats already house trained, its more mellow and quite talkative but he gets attached very quickly once the kitty starts warming up to us. It probably loooves cuddling around me and Katsuki because we’re always so warm. Now im thinking of being a cat parent sighhhhh ☹️☹️☹️

🕷️- Im 1000% afraid of insects, specifically the ones that are more known for infestations and SPIDERS. if the bug is tiny and doesn’t move much I’m fine with killing it on my own, but if its a spider I call katsuki IMMEDIATELY bc im NOT dealing with that shit on my own. He always teases me a bit about how tiny to spider is (it feels enormous to me) but he actually really likes the opportunity to answer to a call for help from me, I don’t ask for things often so it does boost his ego how much I dote on him after “saving me” HAHA I’d literally call him my hero and something in him literally twists in the sickeningly fond way. I’m still thinking about whether Katsuki is the type to simply kill insects rather than placing a cup on paper and freeing it from a window, hmmmmm, might add onto this a different day

��� - I don’t believe in Zodiac signs myself and I don’t think Katsuki would either. I feel like knowing his circle of people he wouldn’t even know about them until maybe mina mentions it on a whim. He wouldn’t really get the whole concept, the idea that you as a person is predetermined by when you were born is

🌹 - hmmm, there isn’t a specific flower I associate to Katsuki, but if I were to I would probably pick Dahlias, chrysanthemums or sunflowers, breaching out the question and going onto what he associates with ME it would probably be roses, but the very specific kind that have the exact colour scheme of my hair and eyes :3 (pink and yellow for my selfinsert oc)

🌲 - A favourite place we have that we love going is probably a really lowkey small restaurant, Katsuki’s the first to discover it since they sold all his traditional japanese favourites and even branched out with really good spice levels, its his go-to spot as a prohero, he also enjoys how quiet it is after a long day at work. When we’re closer as colleagues and a little bit more, he introduces me to it. The owner is probably a really understanding and outgoing guy who’d even be able to accommodate to any of my food allergies and such (another reason why Katsuki takes me out there so often). I get a loot of anxiety at restaurants because of all my dietary requirements so it feels so good to have a nice place to eat where I’m at ease without feeling like a bother

🐦‍⬛ - if Katsuki was a bird, hmmmm its hard to assign him to one, but I can picture a falcon or a crow. Meanwhile I’d definitely be a flamingo or a budgie HAHAHA

🌙 - I like the night, its quiet and everything dies down, its also where I get all my free time after a long day, however i am NOT a nightowl, every time I try to stay up late I always sleep before 2am, and on a usual day I consistently sleep around 11pm. On the rare occasion where I do stay up late its SO FUN but thats like once in a blue moon. For katsuki I can’t imagine him being particularly fond of the night, even though he enjoys the quiet and the chance to finally wind down, part of him also hates the quiet, its too quiet. He often ruminates and gets wayy too into his head when he’s alone so it isn’t the greatest. Its nice that he sleeps early though, he usually manages to avoid the rumination by crashing into bed EXHAUSTED after his terrible routine of waking up at the crack of dawn, working out, going work, ext.

🍒 - I do bake! I enjoy it a lot every now and then and often make myself biscuits so I can have them in the morning bc I looove a sweet treat first thing to get me going (consider this my equivalent to morning coffee). Katsuki is less of a baker and more of a cook, so we both have our unique strong points in the kitchen, on evenings where we have the energy to go all out we’re both in the kitchen teaching each other things and helping out with the easy tasks. I get to mix the vegetables in a pan to make sure they don’t burn while he gets to measure my dry ingredients.

��� - Forgetting Katukis canonically assigned animal (sigh, a chihuahua) I actually associate him loaddssss with cats :3 if I had to pick a specific animal other than that I’d say lions, he’s already seen in an official art with a lion but even before that I always saw some similarities between them! + i looooove lions they’re one of my favourite big cats after tigers!

🐈‍⬛ - I prefer cats! I loooove how cute they are, how much personality they have and how meaningful a bond with a cat is, they’re such clever creatures with their own boundaries that take time to overcome, but when you do its soooo worth it, understanding a cat takes a lot of empathy and recognition of body language to reaalllyy know what they’re thinking, and it takes even more to build a relationship with one!! I do find dogs quite cute too, although there are quite a few breeds I dislike. I think my biggest thing about dogs is what is believed about them in my religion, their saliva is considered unclean so touching it means you must wash yourself, so its much preferred for them to not be house pets since they make everything “dirty”. I must say though, i looooveee big fluffy dog breeds, they’re so cute and friendly and ughhhh its so fun to see how playful they are.

⚜️ - hmmm, me and Katsuki have probably travelled various countries, most of the time its when he has opportunities to work overseas, I’m not a big traveller mostly because I’ve simply never had an interest in it. Maybe because travelling always felt financially out of reach within my family apart from visiting extended family back home, so I never dreamed of going to tropic countries and such if that makes sense. Katsuki 100% challenges this mindset of mine, wanting to teach me to enjoy things even if I hadn’t had them before :3 he’s probably bothered by my low expectations or what it takes to please me, I’m a very simple person, watching something at home or even something as simple as quality time gets me super happy, but to him who wants to spoil me rotten this causes difficulties for him

🎀 - hmmmm I can’t quite say I have a specific favourite outfit, but I do know I have a few favourite things he wears!! Accessories are one of the things he wears rarely but when he does he goes ALL OUT, i loveeee the chunky belts he wears with decorative buckles and his silver bracelets. Another personal favourite is whenever he wears a tanktop HAHA quite obviously

🥬- I’ve probably introduced sooooo many snacks to Katsuki, I don’t think he would have a favourite from the particularly unhealthy stuff, but as far as meals go, he’d love Turkish Grill food, seems like a guy to enjoy lamb however he does like the chicken shish kebab I introduce him to as well :3 I used to eat it often as a food for special occasions, however I haven’t bought from that place in a while after money troubles and them increasing their prices. Katsuki probably tries bring back that tradition for me, every couple weeks or so when something good happens, doesn’t even have to be celebration worthy, we order some good Turkish grilled food <33 I imagine that kind of cuisine to be a hard find in Japan? Maybe? So theres probably a rare few places we enjoy to buy from for that specifically

🖤- hmmmm, I’m not sure if Katsuki would actually have a preference of clothes he’d like me to wear? He probably sees the charm in all the clothes I wear in one way or another only because at the end of the day it’s me wearing it. He’d particularly like it when I do make the effort to dress myself up a bit and look cute. One of his guilty pleasures is when I dress in a similar style to him, gives me a different edge he’s not used to.

🐤 - Would me and Katsuki ever live on a farm? HAHA. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. No. me personally I would neeeeverrrrrrr live on a farm, too many bugs and filth, then theres dealing with the animals who despite being very cute must be hard work. I really wouldn’t be able to see myself at one. On a similar note Katsuki wouldn’t either, although theres a surprisingly huge array of fanfic with him as a farmhand / cowboy who works at a farm, in canon verse I highly doubt it, he’s too action driven to live that kind of life. It would need veeery specific circumstances in a very specific au for him working at a farm to be possible

🎈 - Celebrating Katsukis birthday is a special time. you’d think he’s thrilled to have a special day dedicated to him, when actually he probably struggles a bit with it. Feeling awkward from all the nice happy gestures, in our earlier years as teens and even as early adults his birthday is probably a full celebration between me and his friends, sometimes his other classmates even join in, however as we get older its probably well known by then he prefers a quiet gesture and something smaller, something intimate. It gets harder and harder for him to actually have a get together with his friends when they all have different schedules, and while he says it doesn’t bother him, I know that it surely does. I organise a meet-up for his friends and him. Getting him a present is always difficult, but its always something useful. Something I’ve picked up in conversation and stored in my memory for later, something that really shows I pay attention to him. I do try my best to offer a homemade present too if whatever I gave him is store bought, a tradition I try carry on every year.

🌱 - I do like gardening, although I’m not very good at it I think? Im terrible at being consistent with things because I’ve got so many things to keep up with at once. I’ve also lived in a flat all my life, so my biggest experience with gardening is keeping a houseplant that dies an unfortunate slow death 😔. Katsuki’s thumbs are a tinyyy bit greener than mine, he’s not an expert at gardening per se, but I can imagine him growing a few plants like chilli peppers and other herbs that he personally uses in the kitchen. He only started after receiving commentary that he’s a workaholic, he barely knows what to do with himself when he’s at home, already preparing himself for his next day at work. So he took on small time gardening and didn’t stop since.

♣️ - I can’t imagine myself playing card games just me and him with actual playing cards, I would probably be the one to suggest it and try teach him after watching a 45 minute youtube video on how to play. We do probably play uno though on a rainy day.

🐠 - I love the ocean, I also love the sea. I would be lying if I said the idea of the ocean running so deep with so many unknown sea creatures within it didn’t scare me a little. But it does fascinate me, if I had to name a favourite ocean creature it would probably be whale sharks? Their size is a bit intimidating but they’re quite harmless.

[vampfucker666]

hiii sorry if youve gotten this question b4 but can i ask how youre playing sims 2? i know that theres ways to download it these days since u cant buy it anymore...but i dont know how trustworthy any of those options are lol its confusing! i love your little sims posts i think theyre so awesome theyre whats making me want to try the game out myself :D

oh hehe im glad ur enjoying them!!! ts2 is genuinely one of my FAVORITE games so i hope you like it too ^^ i have mine modded to shit so if u ever want any mod recs...

r/sims2help's wiki guide is really good, I would highly recommend using the web installer they link it makes it piss easy. I've installed the game using both the web installer and the g4tw torrent and the web installer is better lol. I've never had good luck with graphicsrulemaker though so u may have to go in and edit that file yourself (fixes the game not recognizing that ur gpu usnt a piece a 2004 shit basically)

I really recommend using lazyduchess's RPC launcher as well, the web installer will download it for you as an option. It fixes an important bug relating to sim genetics and fixes sim shadows without the need for a separate mod. There's quite a few other options too but I don't use them (like high quality lot imposters. crashes my game lol)

If you have an AMD graphics card, you may experience really long start times for your game (like itll show up in task manager for 10 minutes before actually launching) so like. DON'T panic i had this issue lol. You'll want to follow this guide to installing dxvk just don't install it if ur not having #problems bc it does have some tradeoffs.

I think that should be pretty much it as far as getting the game to run goes, there's a few mods that you'll want to have but I really would not worry about it until you know you're gonna be playing this game for a While bc some of their setups are really fucking annoying (clean neighborhood templates...)

If you have any questions at all feel free to DM me or send another ask!! We need more ts2 players lol ^^

[athene-studies]

k havin some trouble keeping out of The Ennui this past while and i realized i had 7 core values listed on my blog (listed on the little explore thing on my desktop theme as "live life on purpose • step off the path of least resistance • take care of myself • contribute to the community • get things done • always learn • appreciate beauty") sooo score thats a weekly challenge right there.

im just gonna start tomorrow (its the night of the 5th as i post this) since im lucky and my week isnt bounded by things like "weekdays". lets do them in order!

6. Tue - live life on purpose: to keep myself mindful I'm going to write down what I've done after every half hour of my day, plus im gonna plan out a couple things at certain points of the day and attempt to stick to those plans 7. Wed - dont get dragged back into my comfort zone: i do have a dentist appointment that day, but im going to also go to the library while im out, which ive been trying to do for a while but just never felt right. im going to wear a cute but maybe a bit weird outfit, and whenever i have an urge to do something (i should go read, i should cut up and eat an apple), im going to do it instead of succumbing to the Nah. ...also this isnt relevant to the daily challenge but i do need to pick up a prescription so im going to try to remember that 8. Thur - take care of myself: im going to try to do all of my self-care habits ive set up. most of them i do once in a while, but i havent managed to do all of them at once in a few weeks. so that means doing my workout, brushing my teeth, turning my phone off at 1 and reading instead for bedtime, making sure my laundry is put away... etc. this one's only a small part of the day but i guess that means its a good chance to rest lol 9. Fri - help others: its a terrible time of year to do things like volunteering, plus short notice, so im going to focus on chores around the house and donations and home political action, that sort of thing. maybe text my siblings to find out how theyre doing. 10. Sat - get shit done: i mean what else is there to say. at the beginning of my day im going to write down a list of things to get done (attempting to include things that are low on my priority list so just keep repeatedly getting pushed back, like calling my grandpa and working on a video edit) and see how much of it i can do. the slogan for the day is gonna be "if i think to myself 'yknow i could go do this thing' i fucking will" 11. Sun - learn: hopefully the rest of the week will have caught me up on my accounting course, but if not, id like to do that. after that, though, id like to set aside some time to read articles on things i care about but dont know much about, and do a lesson or two of language learning or coding or something. learning at my own pace isnt going very well so far considering "my own pace" is ✨stagnancy✨ 12. Mon - appreciate the world: not much else to note other than looking around myself more often. im pretty good at this one already. lets use it to mean "do hobbies"-- take an hour to do some writing, take an hour to do some music, drink a tea ive been keeping aside for a special occasion, idk

and i will let you know how that goes :)

[boileddogchicken]

haha uh oh i lost track of time i started thinking about a character that i have grown rapidly attached to in the past 24 hours and because i decided she i just like me fr!! but that's not the only reason i'm still awake i was going to write some b'rsh content but i didn't really like where it was going so i started writing shit related to the dnd campaign im going to run eventually (see look i didn't forget abt it existing) but yeah after i decided i was done writing i started thinking more about this fucking CHARACTER like holy shit she is so cool and so pretty and like. there's a lot in her story that just feels so much like me as a person in my own story on this wild ride, this passage of fate (haha get it xenoblade 3 reference that one was for a very specific person i'm mutuals with u know who u are teehee :3) but like anyways dendro muted altered my brain chemistry just a little bit bc i'm like "hey gay plant person who has chronic fatigue and pain who does that sound like" i mean of course i'm a flesh person and not a plant person but yknow. plant people are cool as fuck and if that was a thing irl i would be so good at it oh fuck it's so late i'm going to be so tired tomorrow chronic fatigue and not getting. sleep is such a good combo yknow it's like i'm taking a screenshot- oh shit i don't rlly hurt right now but if i start hurting BEFORE i go to bed that'll further impact my ability to go to sleep and then if that happens more fatigue and more pain it's a fucking cycle oh shit a cycle just like a motorcycle LIKE IN FINAL FANTASY VII i am so good and keeping the same train of thought in a singular post like that's something i pride myself in being able to do i definitely don't get completely sidetracked and talk about xenoblade and final fantasy when i'm trying to talk about webcomics and chronic illness (they're connected remember? that was like my whole thesis since dendro is so neat and reminds me of myself) also this has been a brain thought for like months now but i don't know what to do with it: chthonic illness it's like chronic illness but related to greek mythology underworld is that anything or just similar sounding words OKAY SHIT I SHOULD EEP HAVE A GOOD NIGHT MUTUALS :3 also i almost accidentally had a poll on this post and was just gonna hit send but it didn't let me which meant i learned how to get rid of it (LIKE IN DEATH NOTE) fuck i posted but now i'm editing bc i forgot one thing also that so cool abt dendro from muted (also spoilers for the last couple chapters of muted) BUT ANYWAY by the end of the series she uses a cane and so do i!!!! so yeah more of the whole "she's just like me fr" goin on over here but also good night for real have the night u deserve :3

[chigau]

I think health anxiety and general anxiety hold me back

(1/2) I think I am a very weak person. And I dislike being this weak very much. I've grown up around highly successful people, and I've always felt that I related to them. But my life took a turn on a different path. I used to want to be a doctor. I think it's a blessing that I was scared of gross shit though. In the end, doctors make great money, but not that great compared to CEOs and execs. Doctors also only get to do one thing. The only flexibility is what part of the body you work on. But in the end, doctors need to report to the same hospital, or the same office, unless they switch jobs. I think I may have been saved from that. But my past 6 years have been incredibly stagnant like stale pond water. My constant battle with mental health and health anxiety has made me unable to accomplish much. I also have social media addiction lol. Anyways, I always had this feeling that I would do things, or accomplish things, or put out creations into the world. i think it was some predisposition to narcissism though oof. I have an insanely poor work ethic now. The slightest discomfort can change the course of my whole day and keep me in bed. I also cry very easily, I cry about everything. A good song can make me cry. Call me a freaking empath because watching others cry makes me cry. On one hand though, I think I am a kinder and more understanding person now than I ever was. So sadly, not many people have the ability to put themselves in others' shoes and truly acknowledge what a person is going through. It breaks my heart what so many people go through. But anyways, (great time to leave that last topic eh?) I always thought I was going to be a more callous person. but i am not. and i am fine with that. so anyways, please ignore all the bad grammar in this, this is like a thoughts dump, no editing etc. there are some qualities I am sad to have lost or never gained though. and those are tenacity, great work ethic, determination, mental strength, perseverance, self confidence, undying optimism. and those are traits a lot of business leaders have. i think a lot of business leaders are unable to relate to people without these traits, they are too good at survival and often ignore people who have more trouble surviving. business people also have a use or be used mindset - like they profit off the labors of others since someone was gonna do it - "oh you dont like me owning your company and sucking you dry and underpaying you? go start your own company!" i dont like that stuff. anyways more about me now. I want to get those better traits. i have them deep down. i want to be better at ignoring my anxiety. in any kind of leadership, i think I have the potential to be great and caring. I just have really low energy. and im really sensitive. and i get distracted way too easily. it sucks because at my job, i actually have a great work ethic... but i serve tables.... so um yeah i am not trying to do that forever. i was proud of myself for purposely forcing myself to go to bed early last night, and waking up early this morning since i will have to do it for a test tomorrow. im taking these little baby steps towards the person i want to be. It just sucks right now. I want to be the picture of strength and resilience. I want my mental health and feelings to be like god damn stone wall jackson.

[erectedingold]

Blog Post #1

Writing to… absolutely nobody cause who tf is gonna see this LMFAO like nobody reads my shit like that.

It’s been an interesting month. I’ve felt a ton of growth in just the past month alone. Last month was really hard for me, I was struggling a lot. I’m getting better though slowly :)

Right now I’m taking time to be me? Just taking time to figure myself out, what type of music I enjoy, directors i like, hanging out with friends & other stuff. It’s been really nice. I’ve been on this “content grind” or whatever you call it since the 3rd grade & not worrying about posting to my story to be an “influencer” or some shit like that is nice :P I’ve just posted lil life updates now & then but most of it has been in my private life. I’m getting closer with people & Im so thankful for everyone in my life & who I surround myself with. Last year compared to now has been so much better & healthier for me. Everything does get better! I’m still healing from past traumas & recognizing that people from the past weren’t the healthiest for me. It’s been a little bad, I’ve noticed something’s that I’m trying to improve on but after feeling the need to be ashamed of the type of person I am for a year straight. I’m regaining the confidence in who I am as a person & artist i’m not giving a fuck about what people think because I’m going to be so unapologetically me, & fuck you it you think otherwise.

I applied to my dream college as well, I don’t hear about that till next month & Im nervous but oh my god am I so excited to start a new chapter in my life. I’m ready to leave this town behind. I’m ready to leave people behind. I’m ready for 1-18 to be done & the start of 19 in a new location to be amazing. I never thought i’d move from here for some reason? I knew it would happen but in less than 6 months I’m graduating high school, already would know where I’m going to school, & will be a whole new person. Wow.

I cannot wait. This will be the beginning of the rest of my life.

I’m also experimenting a little more, I finally decided to bite the bullet & buy myself a SHIT ton of new clothes LMAO. After being unemployed for a bit then last year never having enough money to spend on myself, I’m taking the time this year to do things for me. Not for anyone else. I bought shirts & jeans & hoodies that I like even if they’re “expensive” because it’s for me & I deserve to splurge on myself, plus I treat my friends & family with gifts a shit ton. It feels good to be independent.

I’m planning on getting 3 tattoos before college that I’m ready excited for :) Me & one of my friends are going to setup appointments at the same time to get our first tattoos together! Currently waiting for her ass to turn 18 before we do it 🙄 But I’m so excited. I also want to get a septum… But that’s scary, but also who gives a fuck I’ll be in college away from here. I’ll be brand new. I think i’ll go for black or silver or maybe gold cause that compliments my skin tone.

I’m currently working on my series. “Periodo Azul” was something I rushed into & then it all came crumbling down. I haven’t publicly said this but I’m planning for a 6-month break to write & produce these episodes along with just being a teenager in my final year here. But I have all the episodes listed & even started editing one as it was just a voice over. There’s no footage recorded yet but I got it planned out ;)

I also started antidepressants… I don’t know if it’s even something I should say right now but FUCK IT! I’m making a video for Periodo Azul about it anyways 🤷. I’ve been bad for as long as I can remember & I just had to do something about it. Nobody in this world is here for you besides yourself, do everything for you. Don’t dim your light for ANYONE. It’s never worth it. But It’s important to know what’s right & what’s not for you. It’s too early on my meds to feel anything but I’ve been in contact with my doctor & I feel myself getting better. I’m proud of me. I give myself a pat on the back. Give one to yourself as well.

School has been great as well, I’m an all A student & have amazing friends that like me for me :) I feel loved & appreciated. It’s strange feeling that cause I’ve always felt judged. I’ve never felt truly loved or appreciated. I know it’s only the beginning of it though. Once I find my people in college I’ll only flourish. I so desperately cannot wait to find my people.

Life has been interesting, but my manifestation of 2025 being my year seems to be working :) Only bigger & better things to come for me. Everything that isn’t needed is in the past, thank god for that.

Treat yourself with kindness & allow yourself grace.

- Diego Muñoz