#im in pain. be niceys to me

[salthien]

bitches with undiagnosed gastrointestinal conditions be like. i'm back in the fucking Bathroom again

[monochrome-stars]

also maybe because these are super acidic, that makes them like that maybe??? sidenote however, lemons/limes dont affect me so maybe im just .funky idk

[volfoss]

Truly I love easy recipes so so much...

[unusualshrimp]

i have a theory that if you touch any part of your body regularly enough it becomes weirdly sensitive. and i know how this is worded but i dont necessarily mean in a sexual way

[euclydya]

i think inshould get blog rights next btw

[inkats]

the best place to take nap ? lecture hall.

[nonbinary-morro]

I was just about to go to bed but I rememberd, why did vriska mind control tavros to spell out a message telling him to kill her quickly with her blood instead of, idk, mind controlling him into killing her?

[txttletale]

niceys positive anon!! i don't agree with you on everything but you are so clearly like well read and well rounded that you've helped me think through a lot of my own inconsistencies and hypocrises in my own political and social thought, even if i do have slightly different conclusions at times then u (mainly because i believe there's more of a place for idealism and 'mind politics' than u do). anyway this is a preamble to ask if you have recommended reading in the past and if not if you had any recommended reading? there's some obvious like Read Marx but beyond that im always a little lost wading through theory and given you seem well read and i always admire your takes, i wondered about your recs

it's been a while since i've done a big reading list post so--bearing in mind that my specific areas of 'expertise' (i say that in huge quotation marks obvsies i'm just a girlblogger) are imperialism and media studies, here are some books and essays/pamphlets i recommend. the bolded ones are ones that i consider foundational to my politics

BASICS OF MARXISM

friedrich engels, principles of commmunism

friedrich engels, socialism: utopian & scientific

karl marx, the german ideology

karl marx, wage labour & capital

mao zedong, on contradiction

nikolai bukharin, anarchy and scientific communism

rosa luxemburg, reform or revolution?

v.i lenin, left-wing communism: an infantile disorder

v.i. lenin, the state & revolution

v.i. lenin, what is to be done?

IMPERIALISM

aijaz ahmed, iraq, afghanistan, and the imperialism of our time

albert memmi, the colonizer and the colonized

che guevara, on socialism and internationalism (ed. aijaz ahmad)

eduardo galeano, the open veins of latin america

edward said, orientalism

fernando cardoso, dependency and development in latin america

frantz fanon, black skin, white masks

frantz fanon, the wretched of the earth

greg grandin, empire's workshop

kwame nkrumah, neocolonialism, the last stage of imperialism

michael parenti, against empire

naomi klein, the shock doctrine

ruy mauro marini, the dialectics of dependency

v.i. lenin, imperialism: the highest stage of capitalism

vijay prashad, red star over the third world

vincent bevins, the jakarta method

walter rodney, how europe underdeveloped africa

william blum, killing hope

zak cope, divided world divided class

zak cope, the wealth of (some) nations

MEDIA & CULTURAL STUDIES

antonio gramsci, the prison notebooks

ed. mick gidley, representing others: white views of indigenous peoples

ed. stuart hall, representation: cultural representations and signifying pratices

gilles deleuze & felix guattari, capitalism & schizophrenia

jacques derrida, margins of philosophy

jacques derrida, speech and phenomena

michael parenti, inventing reality

michel foucault, disicipline and punish

michel foucault, the archeology of knowledge

natasha schull, addiction by design

nick snricek, platform capitalism

noam chomsky and edward herman, manufacturing consent

regis tove stella, imagining the other

richard sennett and jonathan cobb, the hidden injuries of class

safiya umoja noble, algoriths of oppression

stuart hall, cultural studies 1983: a theoretical history

theodor adorno and max horkheimer, the culture industry

walter benjamin, the work of art in the age of mechanical reproduction

OTHER

angela davis, women, race, and class

anna louise strong, cash and violence in laos and vietnam

anna louise strong, the soviets expected it

anna louise strong, when serfs stood up in tibet

carrie hamilton, sexual revolutions in cuba

chris chitty, sexual hegemony

christian fuchs, theorizing and analysing digital labor

eds. jules joanne gleeson and elle o'rourke, transgender marxism

elaine scarry, the body in pain

jules joanne gleeson, this infamous proposal

michael parenti, blackshirts & reds

paulo freire, pedagogy of the oppressed

peter drucker, warped: gay normality and queer anticapitalism

rosemary hennessy, profit and pleasure

sophie lewis, abolish the family

suzy kim, everyday life in the north korean revolution

walter rodney, the russian revolution: a view from the third world

[wavesalwayscrash]

OUHHHHH this new page got me Thinkin

sorry if im wildly offbase abt this but im pondering mariner's whole Deal

he's been forced into a situation he doesnt want (being attached to the cat who killed his mate and also kinda looks like her) and given the order by crane to make him loyal somehow. technically he doesnt HAVE to listen to her, but also crane and the flock are the only reason hes currently in power...(and theres also the question of if he wants to be in power at all)

crane gives him 2 choices--either gain his loyalty by becoming his friend, or violence. Obviously he doesn't want to be friends with the guy who Killed His Wife, but also he finds violence distasteful (but if someone else is doing the violence...not his business. he looks away.)

so he's trying a Secret Third Thing--subtle intimidation. "You killed my wife, but I'm being nice to you! Isn't that remarkable? I could be mean to you, and there's absolutely nothing you could do about it, but see, I'm Being Nice." also him positioning Crane as an outside threat that wants him to hurt lain but he wont bc He's So Niceys, when in fact Crane's first suggestion was to be kind to him and the violence was only a second choice she offered.

this also ties into the end of their first meeting, where mariner puts his claws on lain's chest and forces him to acknowledge that mariner *could* hurt him, and its only by his mercy that he's safe. and also that one pilot comic where mariner's like 'i guess i could take away your name if i wanted :3' and lain freaks out but ultimately concedes that mariner could take his name, and its only then that mariner 'lets him keep it'.

ough...the Mariner...

EATING THIS ANALYSIS!!!

You hit the nail on the head for a lot of what I'm trying to get across with Mariner at this point of the story! Mariner is a deeeeeply interesting character for me for a lot of reasons that are yet to be shown, but one of my favorite things about him is his need to state his morals over and over again. He is putting himself at a higher position than everyone around him; he doesn't hurt others like Lain, he doesn't revel in the pain of others like Condor, he doesn't order for the pain of others like Crane.

And we'll see how far he decides to stretch that moral that he holds in such high regard and makes him better than everyone.

[xx-ghost-rat-xx]

just want 2 be infantalized and treated like a kid whos too sick to go to school forever just fetishize my chronic fatigue and tummy issues and be so niceys meee and rape me a little bit and make me chickey noodle soooop and kissy forehead tell me its cute that im so sick all the time tell me its adorable that im always nauseous and in pain

[feminisedlad]

what i find audacious abt the argument that trans men have privilege bc they’re treated better at the GSA (???) is like. you realize it’s possible for gay and trans ppl to be transphobic to trans men … right ….

like when i went to my first GSA meet after going on T it wasn’t random cis people who made fun of me, it was my trans friend who did it to curry favor with cis lesbians. i don’t even 100% blame her, dysphoria is a bitch, but you don’t forget someone saying “you looked better before, oh sorry if that was rude, im just such a lesbian i can’t help it”. she would say “welcome to male privilege” before i even passed and got other ppl to say it to me including cis ppl

of course i do not think this one encounter can be generalized to all trans people or all GSAs — it certainly doesn’t change how i view trans women as a collective bc, holy shit, why would it? this was just one girl in pain lashing out to be a jerk.

but when people are like “trans men have the privilege of getting treated niceys at the GSA” it does make me want to throw a brick through my laptop screen

[oliviawebsite]

fuck im in so much pain today will the doctor give me the good painkillers if im really niceys and make them cum hard?

[littlcinnabar]

Introductions!!!!

✦•┈๑⋅⋯ About Us ⋯⋅๑┈•✦

interacts from @cinnabarsilly

We're Cinnabar System!!! Collectively we go by Kitty, Binx, and Buttercup, and we collectively use it/kyu/fwu/they/mew + mrr/mrrp prns!! We have autism, BPD, anxiety, and a dissociative disorder! we experience hallucinations, paranoia, and chronic pain/fatigue. Please be niceys!!!

Six of our age regressing alters run this blog! Here are their intros:

Ga Ming

I'm Ga Ming, a fictive of him thats pretty conected 2 source!! I'm a boy, use he/lion/blaze/dance pronouns!! Normaly m 16 years old, but regress 2 abt 7-8 r 11-12!! Also pet regress to a lion!! Rawr!! 🦁🦁 Normally m completely verbal, but sometimes have no talky times! Regress 2 cope with traumas n stress, mostly voluntary!!! Can call me little lion, cub/cubby, kiddo, n pup 4 nicknames!!

Finis

i'm finis beckford. i use he/him pronouns, and am masculine presentng. i am ageless and regress to a primari-school level child. im fully verbal when regressed, and i regress to help manage stress. when little, please still call me finis. if we're particularli close, you can call me fin.

Talias

i have lotses of names, but i like usin huohuo, anne, foxyan, talias, n foxyn. also use lots of pronouns, but yuu can use it/tail/charm/cure/pounce prns on me. dont have a gender, m just a foxian. pet regress to a foxxy, n regress to bout 2-5yrs old. most of th time m have speech shutdownses wen regressed, but sometimes m can speak. regress to cope with traumas. experiences lots of hallucinations/paranoia, specially when regressd. :((( yuu can call me foxy, huji, vallie, n yanyan when little.

Koi/Doris/Clockwork/Tide

m koi, doris, clockwork or tide. im a boy who uses he/swim pronouns. i regress around 4-6 yrs old. i have parshal verbal loss wen regressed, but can type good. i regress to help with stress + for fun, mostly involuntarily. i have social anxiety and find it hard to talk to people lots. can use any ocean-related niknames for me (ex. little blue, fishy, etc).

Lumine/Ghost

M lumine/ghost!! Use she/it/rain/soft prns, m gendrfae, n m fully verbal wif sometimes verbl loss!!! regress to round 1-6 n pet regress to a sheepie, puppy, n kitty!! can use any nicknames for me, but really likes pup, kittycat, n baby!!! regress exclusvy caus of traumas!! sometime voluntary sometms not!!

Uri

I'm uri, a fictive of the webtoon "watermelon." im a girl and use she/her prounouns. im fully verbal all the time, even when regressed. i regress to around 6-7, and its usually impure regression. i regress for trauma purposes lots. please call me uri or kiddo when regressed. ask before other nicknames.

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bolded are hyperfixations, italicized are things we like when little

SPINs: How To Train Your Dragon, animals, dragons!!!

Colors: Our favorite colors are light pink, all the shades of blues, and pastel yellow!!

Shows: We love Bungou Stray Dogs, Bee and Puppycat, Pokemon, My Hero Academia, Code: Realize ~Guardians of Rebirth~, To Your Eternity, Kamisama Kiss, Buddy Daddies, Ouran Highschool Host Club

Games: Genshin Impact, Honkai Star Rail, Twisted Wonderland, Amnesia, Obey Me, Minecraft, Roblox, Stardew Valley, Slime Rancher, Wuthering Waves(soon!)

Favorite Characters: Nikolai Gogol, Freminet, Kaveh, Malleus, Aventurine, Stelle, Barbatos, Belphegor, Sebastian, Chuuya Nakahara, Impey, Robin, Tomoe

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[volfoss]

What is he shaped like 2 u...

[sonicattos]

moon [any pronouns] 20

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FAQ:

“can i repost on [website]?”: no. unless it’s on pinterest with credit. you may share my art via link, but not on reddit.

“can i use your art as my profile picture?”: YES!! :] just credit, i guess. (yes even my fictive art i don’t mind)

“can i reblog?”: yeah.

“why didn’t you do my art request”: because i feel chronic pain and fatigue and can’t draw everything for free. please remove this mindset of yours. artists are not entitled to your will.

do not FUCKING interact:

terfs/swerfs/radfem/(trans)misogynists pro-cop, queerphobic, right wingers (you too libs), facists, proship/comship, profic (if you write fucked up shit [pedophilla, s/a, incest] for pleasure/condoning), racists, anti-semites, zionists, etc just don’t be a dick

sonic dni: if you ship 4+ age gaps of characters under 21 | sexualize anyone who isn’t 18+ (game canon) (so like most of them) | think that shadow is 50+ | ship shadow with maria, metal sonic, or any incest pairing (he’s their uncle) |

(i don’t do background checks on people, im just gonna assume your not a bad person if ur interacting with me)

more info:

i am a system. i often experience delusions and have uncontrollable behavior that might seem off putting. if this happens, im really sorry. this is due to trauma and i can’t quite control it

i have a lot of cognitive issues, so please refrain from making fun of grammar, spelling, etc. from me. if you correct me on something, please do it nicely. i’m sorry.

be niceies tew mew pwease ówò

[psychicpanic]

idk what happened last night. oh yeah i remember now i got very high and laid down to sleep unbothered but the demon tried to scare me with feelings and visions, except he was touching me while showing me child predators but it was straight up terror nightmare fuel (think of the scariest most abysmal thing ever WITH projected feelings of terror to you, that’s what it was) and it actually scared me to like death. it got to the point where i had to talk to cina and tomian and they helped me. i usually never tell them stuff like this. well anyways i also talked to jesus and he protected me. after a few hours i eventually fell asleep. this morning though was weird, its like the demons still here but away from me just observing me. i think this is jesus’s doing, though i can’t confirm. it could be tomian because he’s very niceys to me. idr what was said last night because i usually A. have to pray or B. talk to tomian for relief like this to happen. ??? i can’t remember what was said ln but i will continue to pray and hope things only get better.

im also getting closer to jesus. i have a jesus attunement- if you don’t know what a spirit attunement is, its when a spirits energy is permanently inside of your energy system and you can guide their energy to help you (or talk to them, you could do anything because they’re there really). i remember ln that i asked jesus to help me be more comfortable with him. jesus is a grown man, VERY KIND and selfless, and is a being of light. all of those things make me, like, physically cringe away from him because i am possessed and have an aversion to love and light. today though? i haven’t cringed once. i feel a lot better about being close to jesus. i used to literally cringe and my body used to bend and i would yell out of pain (that was the demon really), but today? nope. i feel okay. i think the demon is slowly but surely leaving my system. sorry for the long post i just wanted to talk about it