#im gonna have such bad migraines

[hummelig]

Im genuinly so pathetic because after years of caffeine addiction I finally try to quit just because my crush told me he quit a year ago 😔🤚

[libraryspectre]

Second silent migraine in two days ☄️☄️☄️☄️☄️

[lokilysolbitch]

y'all. i swear. able bodied people. ohh my fucking god. oh my god

there's a flavor of ableism im experiencing where some people think they are my fucking life coach and handler that i didn't ask for and mind you they interact with me once a month at BEST.

they think that since im disabled im automatically mopey, self pitying, clueless on my own body, etc etc etc, to the point where they're passive aggressively suggesting to my ROOMMATE that they are enabling me????? did i mention these people see me one time in a month AT BEST. and most of those meetings aren't in person. oh. my fucking god. oh my god.

truly they are just mad i'm disabled. they're solely mad that i can't do things 'normally'. they're mad i need more time to rest and that i'm usually in some sort of pain. that's why they keep slapping on basic remedies like just do this and do that and then they get mad when that doesn't work or i literally can't do it bc i am DIS-abled. quite literally bc im not fucking abled to their liking. they'd prefer i was in pain and looking normal for the sake of it.

and they view disability as a sad useless life. the way i hold myself and take care of myself shows inherently that i value my own happiness and capabilities and im willing to take unconventional ways to achieve it. i don't hide it. i don't hide my cane because i need it and it helps me be happy and capable. i don't hide that im semi verbal. if i can't talk i won't talk and i'll communicate in other ways. because i need to. it keeps me happy and capable. so for them to see me, not to be cheesy, living authentically, and for them to see that as me 'doing nothing to help myself/moping/languishing in pain' is a reflection of how they see disability. when they eventually become disabled from age or a major life event, they'll run themselves into the ground, 'pushing through the pain' trying not to look disabled. but that's their choice. that's their body.

what i wanna know is why they feel so entitled to make that decision for me.

[coriander-candlesticks]

Me: I'm not sure if my health can withstand a commute. Should I try to go in tomorrow?

Apollo: no

Me: should I plan to work from home?

Apollo: no

Me: ...

Apollo:

Me: migraine?

Apollo: migraine.

[lilowoof]

ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD

Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!

[marsixm]

being the houston mutual means every couple years i just log on like 'hey whats up just experiencing a natural disaster down here. im fine tho'

[thepandalion]

having bad pain days suck bc I also get migraines and I keep googling if I can just. remove. the parts of my body that hurt. with the most broken grammar ever

[storm-of-feathers]

i love the episode where house gives himself a migraine to prove someone wrong but reacts like. well i was gonna say like he's been shot but we know thats not how he reacts so idk

[catsrightnow]

mytotally real brain tumor which is real is back every1

[sphylor]

my phone somehow managed to make its way from the side of my bed thats up against the wall, all away across my double bed and to the floor.........

[akc-g]

everything going exceptionally weird lately. got lsuch low bloog sugar i lost my vision for like 20 minutes n when it came back i was unable to orocess anything i could see n was struggling to think for another hr n i still feel really wrird. lost sensation in my arms for a bit too (they were numb n then tight i felt it in my hands n then all the way up my shoulders) n took a nap n it helped but still scary to experience n that that can just happen just bc i wasnt paying attention to what i was eating. fell asleep watching needle park while my vision was still on the buffer n woke up. fell asleep again to scarecrow n dda. i think im a person again

[milkweedman]

ah, the ever-more-frequent Urge To Explode My Brain from unending migraines. a migraine that just lasts the day already sucks so bad. whole day is gone in a blur of pain and misery, right ? a migraine that lasts multiple days is sort of like if hell was real and you were in it. time has no meaning, only pain, etc.

months of migraines... with no break or end or effective treatment and also you still have to work and behave like a normal person because you cannot lie in bed for months not paying rent. well id describe it you but ive fucking lost the plot. its gone on so long and its so bad that when the migraine ISN'T at its peaking on the pain scale and making me feel like if i was hit by a truck that would be an improvement, i start to feel like my head is a vestigial organ that has been removed. cant access sensation in my head and it feels literally disconnected from my body. meanwhile the pain is still there (along with the brain fog, vertigo, nausea, etc) but it feels like its happening to somebody else.

[demadogs]

a bumper sticker that says “LED headlight drivers, kill yourself”

[fatcowboys]

my PA for ajovy got denied (booo) but the reason it did was bc a neurologist needed to prescribe it which i already had an apt set up for and gad yesterday (yay!) and the appointment went really well and i like the provider a LOT of migraine management (YAY!!!) so now i am once again waiting for an ajovy PA to be approved lmao

[primsycoldbottles]

guy who wants to watch cool movies but the cool movies dont give a shit about photosensitive people :/

[sanitizarium]

sorry i wasnt active today ummmm. played final fantasy 7 remake for 8 hours straight again