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Today's crab is: little architect
#daily-crabbys#crab#sand bubbler crab#me after fighting off migraines#dude ive been getting a bunch recently?? its maybe a little concerning#im used go them. theyre chronic#but like jesus christ?? ive had maybe 3 in the past weekish#im fighting one off rn#its not bad but i Feel It
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in his dreams โจ๐
#riku kingdom hearts#kingdom hearts#ive been playing ddd lately#oughh...the boy...#i love him...hes such a good little guy..#i got so sad thinking about how hed always chase nightmares and id like to think sometimes#he comes across one of soras sweet dreams to be in#even in symphony of sorcery#while sora was in literal clouds and rainbows my boy was going through it :(#he needs a little break and a little love!!!#my art#also i need to fight both xehanort and xemnas in the game rn and im putting it off by drawing......
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I don't like to post about this stuff publicly but I'm tired of seeing ppl interact with this person while also following me, so I want to let you all know that if you follow/interact with Saturnflower841 then unfollow and block me.
They're very, very vocal about being a prshipper on here, in fact it doesn't even take a lot of scrolling to find the stuff they're talking about. Recently they posted a ship chart saying that they ship parentxchild and siblingxsibling and if you scroll further you can find even more. On top of that, on their twitter (Saturnstuff20), they broke other peoples boundaries by following people who had prship DNI in bio. This is not a callout, do NOT go into their askbox or anything it does literally nothing. This is more of an awareness post for my sake of mind and for anyone who doesn't know. If you do know and keep interacting then block me because I don't want you here.
#clemramble#kind of. idk this is a bit more serious#im leaving the o out of the word so it cant be word searched because i am not wanting to fight people over this#in fact the only reason im posting about this publicly instead of just dming people is because ive noticed it just keeps happening#both on here and on twt.#and im not comfortable having ppl interact with me and them at the same time#im not sure if people just dont check the blogs they like/reblog from or if they dont care#but if youre the latter then im going to need you to hop off my page rn. this isnt a space for ppl who are neutral or are apart of it#and thats like one of the only things im very strict about in my boundaries#this is mainly for the ttcc fandom bc theyve been getting more active in it
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man if we get canon alloromantic brad im gona. lose my mind
#i am constantly fighting the urge to say im gona kms cuz ik its not healthy to say#but good god if we get alloromantic brad im gona cry#maybe not Actually but like i feel like its pretty rare to see a character show literally Zero interest in romance#and brad and jo both show literally zero interest in romance and so its so easy for me to be like!!!!!! see!!!! they r aro!!!!!#but like. AGHH i wish i had better words but i really dont like when romance is just kinda shoehorned in because like. it โhasโ to be#ITS JUST!!!!!#LIKE YA KNOW??? they show bo interest in it and i just have a sinking feeling that one or both r gona be confirmed alloro n its like ughhhh#i just feel very strongly about them being aromantic (specifically apothiromantic)#IM RLLY STRUGGLING to not repeat myself a dozen times but its just nice to see characters who dont show romantic interest like at all idk#n i am just a Little worried that they are just gona throw romance into their characters when it rlly doesnt need to be there#and like idk maybe my reading of them is really off base but like i just feel like romance Doesnt fit with them#like i genuinely cant see them caring about it at all#mythic quest#brad bakshi#vent#? yeah i think this is venty enough to warrant that#jo mythic quest#< this is less abt jo cuz there hasnt been any like talk of jo being in a romantic relationship but this still applies to her#morty talks woah#aromantic#i have a lot of energy rn and i just want to Talk and ive been thinking abt this for like the last few days so#its really not That Big a deal but it is to me even if its silly
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alive i am juggling a millionm things at once
#3 ap classes. one class that requires a lot of high effort upkeep. etc#and literally working to fight the board on something#we got those dumb yondr pouches our superintendent paid a quarter of a million dollars for and rn im working to set up a different system#for highschoolers#bc. heh. people have jobs#and some people are parents#so im gonna be busting my ass off for the next few weeks
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Watching the Obito Reveal in naruto and while I still want to punch this guy in the face, I'm rly enjoying seeing how emotional Kakashi is getting AND how supportive Guy is being to him. Like Fuck You, obito, guy is here and he's better than you in every fucking way. Up to and including giving kakashi the support he deserves โค๏ธ
#speculation nation#fanny watches naruto#and madara just showed up which puts guy and madara in the same area WHICH MEANSSSS#it's guy vs madara soon >:] at some point lol. we have a lot of backstory episodes to get thru first it seems.#actually how cool is it that this fight is madara and obito vs kakashi guy And the two most powerful jinchuuriki#everyone on this field right now is so OP. it's very fun heheh#also kinda funny how five of these people are from konoha. then theres just bee here from the cloud#like shoutout to him for working with them so hard when this is ENTIRELY konoha bullshit wrecking the place#two uchiha here bc of personal vendettas etc etc and WHERES THE THIRD??????#who knows lol sasuke's off on a personal quest for the truth rn. gotta educate himself before he decides on a side to support.#it's so funny. like i mean he already did smth so helpful for the world by helping itachi take down kabuto#but then hes like. well idfk what to do now bc he hates konoha Even More but itachi declared his continued loyalty to it#so hes like. well lets talk to the All Knowing One (???) to ask questions. like ok i mean fair point.#wish we didnt have to bring orochimaru back for this tho. i quite liked him being dead for 200 episodes.#sasuke is in the midst of a metamorphosis... only by learning the Truth will he emerge as his true self... etc etc lol#anyways itd be fun to see sasuke fighting against his fellow uchiha. like come ON stop fucking up the world guys!!!!#but yeah im getting to a lot of big shit. ep 344 out of 500. still got a while to go. but im definitely in the Late Stage!!!!!#not looking forward to the neji thing. thats coming up in the next few dozen episodes. ugh.
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oh also in other news. i finally finished leviathan the other day
#el plays kotor#feeling talkative right when the dash is messed up again. whatever. this is one way to put off playing skyrim#im so worried for bastila rn... please come back to me queen we gotta make up im sorry i called u as bad as the sith... i was upset...#her fate is one of the few things i've somehow managed to avoid spoilers for!!! so dont tell me what happens i gotta keep the suspense#also some of the companions' reactions to the reveal r so funny like...#mission basically said 'well if you don't remember being revan then it's ok :)' huh??????#i love how supportive she is but. millions died bc of liah. something to consider. you can be a little horrified and angry its ok#and like carth is the only one who's understandably angry at revan bc to him it's more personal#but even he sounds too chill. i think its partly bc of the voice acting. everyone speaks with the same even tone no matter the situation#and i almost laughed when canderous was like 'well actually it was malak who ordered the attack on ur homeworld carth#so revan is blameless in this' bro liah was literally the sith ceo you cant claim she had no part in this.....#and like idk it felt weird for canderous of all companions to comment on that#i feel like. he wouldnt care who is guilty of what. he just wants revan to lead him to epic battles he thinks warfare is awesome#i also feel like it was a feeble attempt from the game to make u feel less bad abt it#but thats not how it works game. because. revan was at the top of the chain of command. therefore. responsible for everything.#like!!! idk the writing in this game is so..... juvenile sometimes.......#yknow how some ppl talk abt the superior writing in old bioware games???? part of it has to be simple nostalgia#like they played the game when they were 10 and at that time it was the best thing ever#and they haven't revisited it at an older age with developed thinking skills#and im not saying the writing is dogshit! its just really goofy at certain parts! but really strong at others!! overall the game slaps!!!#but im just saying. u gotta see beyond just the nostalgia if ur gonna compare old and current bw#but idk ! anyway what else. the fight against malak was cool... with the red lighting in the corridor and everything...#he kept running away too... perhaps deep down he still fears his old master ๐#no but like if he hadn't been scripted to survive that fight i would've won. i was beating his ass#tho maybe it was just meant to be easy so that i would feel overconfident going into the final battle. who knows
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You know its really easy to [not do a bigotry]. Here are some tips:
[A list that on its own mostly sounds nuanced and sensical, a couple orange flags but nothing outright terrible.
Except that its vagueing recent discourse and painting nuanced issues and reactions and conversations into a neat little "Im right and theyre wrong and bigoted towards me" package with zero recognition of "and I mightve been bigoted towards them" because thats the black-and-white smoothing over at work, "They just need to recognise when theyre being bigoted, eg when theyre telling me maybe I did an oopsie doopsie because actually its bigoted to suggest I could ever hurt someone. But lets leave this between the lines so people without context will all agree and make me feel good and the people Im calling bigoted will feel small. This is a normal reaction to a complex intracommunity dynamic. Remember nuance folks!]
And then its reblogged "this all seems correct to me, always remember nuance"
And you sit there like, is the reblogger clueless or are they engaging in the erasing of serious discussion and conflict that needs curiosity and thoughtful resolving into "dont be a meanie because thats bigotry, think with your nuance goggles.on!".
And you sit there like. Not wanting to engage. Wondering if you should unfollow or.block the person putting it in front of your eyeballs or are they clueless. Tired of the disingenuinty because this happens in some variation every week. Sometimes you know what its referring to, sometimes.you just see [nkt being bigoted is really simple, hereas a reasonable sounding list] and youre just like, what didnt I see and what actually are the perspectives other than this one.
Its so fucking condescensing to. "If these silly people just realised theyre being bigoted towards me and stopped asking me to examine myself at all, they would realise theyre obviously wrong amd bigoted and I have never done anything wrong in my entire life ans youre especially a bigot if you disagree".
It reminds me of the first time someone told me that by me confronting them about the fact that they were bullying me, it really triggered them so it really wasnt a conversation they could have, I was triggering them! Deny, accuse, reverse victim and offender, DARVO, right? I didnt know how to react then but that was a long time ago.
This is using therapy-progressive-leftist speak to be manipulative, and it isnt less manipulative or shitty behaviour because you belong to a marginalised identity and are using therapy-speak. Its not bigotry every time youre uncomfortable, its not bigotry when people try hold you accountable for hurt or harm you have caused, its not bigotry to criticise you. Your identity and your trauma are not a free pass to be a piece of shit. If you cannot concieve of healthy conflict you need to remove yourself from public spaces until you can behave like a healthy adult, because passive agressively calling everyone who disagrees with you a bigot is not acceptable behaviour. If you cannot handle criticism or reslonsibility, remove yourself from environments where its required until you can handle yourself. Go to therapy, meditate, find some kind of healing practice that works for you. You are not allowed to just be an asshole on main whoever you are. No ones fooled.
#mine#might delete#im just pissed off i see it regularly#always have to stop like am i being an asshole. this is not an accurate representation of the discussion#im gonna look like a bitch if i speak up about it#and I dont want to get into fights#no one will get anything good out of it#im just tired of holding it in bc it wont achieve anytjing#because it absolutely is manipulation and possibly gaslighting#sitting there like hang on. is this a legit perspective. this isnt how i saw it go down. no this person js NOT accuratrly reflecting events#and im so tired of every week or so sgarring w the benefit of the doubt and then wondering if im crazy and then realising its the same#fucking pattern again#its only gaalighting if its deliberate and i camt say for sure but the โyou all just need to not be dumb and stop bring bigotedโ in various#forms. is really getting to me.#i should just be blocling ops of whoever is doing this bc i havent been keeping travk#bc I only just noticed its an ongoing pattern#i dont think these people will be open to my message of go heal till you can be civil. o wish they would be#just rwally angry rn#aaaaand this one was a reblogged anon. idk what to do with that.
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k fine i'll turn do not disturb off ๐
#ive had it on for like 2 weeks#like idk man im in a 'dont text me dont call me' phase#but its bad ..... cos i should talk to ppl/leave the house/be available to my loved ones!!!#i Should and its Bad whatever im moralizing a lot for expediency#but yeah basically my phone has notified me 0 times and its been awesome#but also!!!!!!!! every time ive joked w my friends/family/therapist that im fighting off 'agoraphobia' in quotes theyre like#'the quotes are not necessary youre literally just agoraphobic'#so its fun thats what everyone thinks but they r WRONG!!#im not 'afraid' i just dont want to process any stress rn and so im refusing to do it!! big difference#im just stubborn and avoidant which is worse !!! dont group me in w ppl w real agoraphobia they dont deserve that!!!#i am procrastinating doing shit by posting journal entries onlineeeeee#ok bye
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*grits my teeth* school is important .
#bah. mostly its important for uni points#but god i feel so off balance rn#my executive dysfunction's been kicking my ass#curse my unmedicated adhd#which. i just found adhd meds are illegal in my country so woooooo#i can't even get a proper diagnosis without fighting tooth and nail#and then politicians wonder why people are leaving this country#DUDE LITERALLY NOTHING'S AVAILABLE HERE. NO ACCOMMODATIONS NO MEDICINE NO NOTHING.#moving west has literally never sounded so appealing to me#there are just times where im overcome with such hatred over this country#todays one#vent
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Me to myself: you are SO behind on finishing your izzy bingo prompts. You definitely won't finish the whole card now, and you've gotten so little done today. We DON'T need to research if this roadside coastal motel in our head actually exists anywhere. NO ONE IS GOING TO GIVE A FUCK
Also me: Time to search google maps for coastal motels and hotels and cabins and things while my word doc that's got a nearly fucking finished draft on it rots waiting for me!
#text post#tbh im just glad im finally making headway on one#been fighting my brain all day on this#hopefully at least i can get this one finished tonight#then i need to hit it again hard tomorrow until i work#i know i don't HAVE to finish the card at all#but my brain needs an easier win rn and this is probably the easiest one#so if it's going to demand I put more pressure on myself to feel like im being useful then let it be this#also it's a jim/izzy which I'd held off on writing a lot of bc like#just talking abt the ship back when the show first kicked off got me ppl telling me to kms over it#so you can understand how i put that on the backburner#but now? im so tired. i don't care. one of my prompts is literally 'jim'#and this is a heavy one shot abt grief and losing a parent/parental figure while it storms at the beach#and no other ship with izzy that I've tried for this idea has fit like jim/izzy#so im gonna enjoy it and anon is off so if ppl wanna send shit let them#idc anymore
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moss when it sees a male character who just sucks. is a huge dork. tries so hard to be cool but is so fucking uncool: auuuughhh (hearts pop out of eyes)
#fighting my instincts rn im gonna die#if i dont stop seeing that one mk guy something bad is gonna happen#i feel like theres radiation#coming off my screen
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the urge to redraw official oot art w my au............
#hhghhhgghhmmmm..#THE ONE WHERE THEY'RE FIGHTING OFF A BUNCH OF ENEMIES TOGETHER#hi im admiring the art and artifacts book rn (i should be studying)
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hey so i really dont appreciate being confronted with graphic depictions of something that i know is a trigger for me. like. i have a dozen tags and key words blocked around this one thing because i know it's my responsibility to curate my own online experience.
but if you're going to post this thing, which is vastly different from your regular content. with absolutely no appropriate tags. is extremely graphic. all for the sake of guilting me into caring about a current event i already care about but have fuckall control over as a poor cripple who lives oceans away. i really don't appreciate it.
#vent#look i already blocked the person who did it#and sure whatever im the asshole here by not caring enough to stare at something that's extremely triggering#because that's going to magically give me the ability to fix the issue#but im seriously fighting off a major goddamn panic attack rn and i am very not okay#might be quiet for a while#i no longer make any promises about my halloween posts#being bombarded from all sides about political issues i already had filtered so i had ONE place to get way from it#was the reason for my last multi-year hiatus#and this one hit an extremely specific trigger#i hope i can shake it off and be back quick#but fucks sake man what the hell#if you wanna post about something you find important that's great#but please tag#it's not like it was just a general post#i wouldn't be this upset over that#this was a very graphic image with zero warning#not cool
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got an invite to audition for the renfaire
unfortunately they messaged me today and auditions are on sunday. which rolls over my work week. please I've wanted this for years I'm so mad
#๐ก ooc#my life is. definitely happening.#i might try to do a virtual audition but.. it's harder. not having people to work off of y'know#anyway. my life update rn is basically#im in major debt but trying to fight my work to get me a loan#to finally get a car so i can get a second job#i have so much anxiety and stress over this that my beard is going white in places LMAO#writing this down in the back room at work while i stare at the renfaire email. one day.
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#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it#its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul#crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to#say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to#let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to#physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill#somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes#energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating#and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make#work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics#so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while#i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation#rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all#the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals#like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too#but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them#if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she#works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology#i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying#at least i get to work with some culturs this week#unrelated
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