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bacchuschucklefuck · 5 months ago

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pygmalion and galatea for aroace people

you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.

#fantasy high #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #riz gukgak #baron from the baronies #fh class quangle #class swap babeyy! bard!riz that's whats goin on!#I really need tags for these now I think lmao #ask to tag #I feel like this should be tagged something. but I dont know what #in my brain after the initial kidnapping class swap baron's thing is every time riz keeps his story abt them up in front of his friends #they get a little bit closer. they send him pictures of where they supposedly are n stuff #theres a scene in my brain only of kristen and riz on top of the van and kristen is like everything kinda sucks rn can u tell me abt baron #cause what you guys have is so nice and beautiful. and riz almost doesn't but he ultimately can't deny kristen a little peace #lmao I feel like dipping into baron stuff with the class swap is like showing my whole ass online again I just. I'm a #horror person before all else... I cant stop myself. canon baron is Great and Cool but that is kind of the thing. for a horror thing theyre #Too Cool. I think cool is kind of the neutralizer of scary. when a monster is a certain amount of cool it overrides the scary #and now u just have a Cool Monster #its so fucked for bard!riz this year bc he doesn't have an office (he's mooching off the school wifi from the AV club room lol)#so there's no buffer between adventure and home life. so baron just shows up in the strongtower apartment lmao #sophomore year bard!riz looks like a slasher protag so I just leaned into it I guess. he gets a mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon kennedy #well. its worse actually. they can show up where he is at any moment theyve proven this. but they dont #they choose to punish him slowly as he lies to his friends instead. baron is mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon and also a bitch #I think its gonna pop up if class swap baron ever speaks in a comic I do but their voice comes from like. inside their hollow face #it sounds like it's a lot deeper in there than that skull should be #tbh what I have rn is kinda like a bag of loose pieces that Can fit together into something great but I dont have the energy to #really sit down with them yet lol. Im doing this inbetween other things #it comes or it doesn't! it's fine. funny how today's bad comic day also. I wont say this is for bad comic day bc all my comics are #flawless and beautiful and perfect and awesome and beautiful and the best #but u should. if u havent drawn a comic today or at all ever u should draw a comic

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alexandriaellisart · 8 days ago

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So now i have migraines apparently 😭

#wahh #it started this morning and i had to lay down this afternoon #all the stress of the past 24 hours i guess #it’s like a nightmare #literally having flashbacks to 2016 #not as bad the second time lol starting to get used to it #real dark #never ever underestimate how much america hates women #the saddest part is that u can just See It #all of the men / a lot of them / where i live act like him #big fat misogynistic jerks #they’re all such cruel bullies #im trying not to let it get to me but it’s hard #one day at a time #there’s so many good people out there too #kind nice people #idk #kinda feels like drowning rn #but u gotta keep going #sometimes thinking about all the art i want to make is literally the only thing that keeps me going #so that’s good!#make stuff #draw paint write whatever #and fuck trump #notes tag #i couldn’t stand the thought of there being any doubt #so #i hate trump #boooo

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lemongogo · 1 month ago

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#hi im j here 2 talk . saw this cow yday so i drew her and now u get 2 say hi #but omffgg my gd i dont know if any of u relate but i feel like my ability to socialize w others #specifically online and speciifically in interest-circles has gotten so much harder for no reason whatsoever #like im just becoming more self conscious ab how i portray myself and its so weird bc like . LIKEE I DONT KNOW like . ok #people r super njce . always super nice and reach out to me and talk w me or i reach out first and they respond and r soo sweet #and something happens in my brain where like . i feel like im suddenly like . inserting myself where i dont belong (not true) but why am i #the bus driver all of a sudden . in all of these situations . me when i just show up like hey #i think i j feel annoying >__< . and i dont want to bother other people but said people r literally never bothered ykwim like Will Reach Out #and im the one that pulls back but 4 no reason . i cant even think ab why i do that .why am i doing this 🧨#so many ppl i want to genuinely befriend in all of these spaces but im self sabotaging soo frwaking bad #literally rn thinking of some dms i left on read bc i panicked or mutuals ive talked w before who im nervous 2 be familiar w . hrmm #anyways . i kind of wish i had the ability 2 just talk to new people and not actually gaf ab the outcome #HELPP .. early tmblr or wcf or devart where u have thirty million friends 2 now where u r too scared 2 say hi to an almost friend .#me problem though . if not alr clear HEJAHHAAHA i think part of my reluctance also stems from the fact that i know i get this way #and so i dont want 2 rope someone else into that insecurity so i try to keep it at an arms length until i fix it #but i think i also know its a longer & more introspective thing to work on so i do need to just try anyways

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camelspit · 1 year ago

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uhh very quick alternate graphic novel clothing design ideas for sophie.

@skylilac @callas-pancake-tree @arson-anarchy-death @steal-nightmares-leave-dreams @neverseen-nevermore @abubble125 @purplesoup-lad-le @gay-otlc @thefoxysnake @keeper-of-the-lost-dadwin @ravs6709 @did-i-say-you-could-get-up @kamikothe1and0nly @that-glasses-dog @presidentroarie @even-if-in-another-time @nyxpixels @slozhnos @katniss-elizabeth-chase @sofia-not-sophie @moontoastt @lemon-girl-in-devil-town @three-bunnies-in-a-trenchcoat @purpleunicycle @just-a-honey-badger @loverofallthingssmart @antisocialdork @tamsong @cutebisexualmess

#these arent very well thought out but still! not that ugly!#i do kind of get the gn artist now though #she wants to blend into the background and she has little to no experience with elven clothes #she doesnt like fancy things but she also has a certain weird girl charm that needs to be kept #all while keeping things simple enough to draw over and over #overall i dont think mine are bad but! would def have to go through more drafts that i dont feel like doing rn #im guessing the bird dress from the last scene in the book #and the weird greenish orangish dress from everglen #came from the desire to make her a bit weird and out of place #this girl wears gray her whole life! shes suddenly tossed in a world of bright colors and fancy clothes!#ofc shes struggling #i think dellas really the one to blame. for buying her those outfits in the first place.#kotlc #kotlc fanart #sophie foster

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bunnyboy-juice · 25 days ago

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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner

#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr #me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel #and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need #space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time #but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single #Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was #much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh #i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups #and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that #definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him #its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh #cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did #like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess #guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here #and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno #we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff #that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting #i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it #i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu #anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu #publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago #n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus #being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the #stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)

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alienaiver · 3 months ago

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not me realizing what caused my flare up and why it hasnt gotten better 😭😭

#its my SHOES #the insoles r completely trodden down now and causing pain 😭😭😭💀#as if i can afford new ones this late in the sneakers season #i use skechers arch fit bcos theyre literally the only shoes ive tried that doesnt cause me massive pain from feet up to shoulders #and the insoles r done for now (which i feel is silly that i didnt realize sooner)#im looking @ alternative insoles for a lower price since the shoe itself is technically fine. but u cant buy the skechers insoles seperatel #(fuck u capitalism) but spending that kind of money on insoles that might not even work is also p terrifying tbh #ill see what i can do but for now im basically cuffed to the bed whenever i Dont have obligatory engagements with the irl outside world #my brain is sooooo fried i might as well be put in a medically induced coma 😭😭😭#arfids still rly bad too but tbh its easier now that i dont move a bunch? require less sustenance energy 🙃🙃😭#abyways sry for my rant. im holding out nd miss u all so so so much !!!!!!#these r the longest words ive written for a while. im surprised im so coherent rn #nohr.txt

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piningpercussionist · 3 months ago

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(ooc)

hey guys! You may have noticed some slowed posting over the past couple days and I just wanted to let yall know that it's literally only bc of the heat where I live. I'm like, regularly waking up feeling like I'm suffocating so it has Not Been Fun!

I'm hoping to either get a new fan, or if I'm lucky, a new AC unit again so that I can hopefully return to my usual obsessive tag searching and being able to think in complete, logical sentences 👍 anyway sorry w the delays

#i have stuff drafted to tag later i just literally cannot stress enough that this heat is making me feel like im dying #im actually kind of heat sensitive so this has been. real fucking bad for me and my roommate. we have 4 fans going rn and the room cannot +#+seem to get itself below 80 degrees except MAYBE during like the midnight to early morning hours- and I must heavily stress that maybe #(im counting my current shitty ac as a fan here bc it is. definitely not doing an ac unit's job)#(it's set to like 60 and it has been trying to hard but it just. can't. not even making a dent #hit enter. im not retyping that. thought can be over #anyway you all please have a better and hopefully cooler time than me i am going to go press a cold water bottle to my neck now #ooc #txt

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bunnihearted · 5 months ago

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#i hope no one reads this bc my avpd is crazy rn and i cant be affectionate #BUT...#i know there are some good ppl in the world #many ppl on tumblr (and twitter) has been very kind to me #i know not everyone are bad ppl #im just stuck in this bpd mood where only ONE thing is true #and i constantly feel so hurt and trampled on and disrespected #and i feel like i cannot trust anyone #so my brain hones in on that i feel unsafe w everyone #but okkkk listen i know i know some ppl are very nice to me #and i appreciate that more than i can ever have words for #so.. like yeah i've gotten some asks but i cant reply bc i cant be social directly #but no i dont hate everyone on here or think every single person is awful #like when ppl are nice to me no i dont think theyre horrible #but with my trauma brain... and my past experiences #i get very sensitive sometimes and i feel like everyobe are lying to me and making fun of me #and everyone is in on a joke abt me that im unaware of #and i feel like if i lay myself bare i'll only be taken advantage of and humiliated #i just feel right now very weak and like all my skin's off #and im walking around like a huge wound and if someone even breathes on me it hurts so much #so im sorry for being mean and saying so many rude things rn im just kinda falling apart #but i still have capacity to recognize that ppl are nice to me on here ok i just dont know what ro #what to do with it*** bc im not used to that #im used to ppl bullying me or being mean and i hate that but i just cry and hurt myself and i know what to do #when someone's nice to me i feel like the world is upside down and the sky is like green and the water is red i dont get it #anyway.. yeah i hope no one reads this and when i ramble and write a lot the chance of less ppl reading gets higher #anyway... i just wanted to write this and get it out into the universe #bc i sometimes do things to isolate myself even further bc i've never had community or support or comfort or friendships so lowkey i dont #even want to nurture things that can lead to that bc idk what to do with that. how to not fuck it up.#anyway... idk what im saying or thinking even

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novampiresremain · 2 months ago

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hello long vent / kinda updates ( in tags for both ) & also i love you all sm

#life is hard man #i cant socialize for shit #i appreciate everyone whose been reaching out to me and stuff #i wanna clarify my lack of responses is due to the mess that is my life rn #but also im autistic as hell and bad at messaging #tbh #i just have lots of trauma / problems there so communication is really difficult for me #and i am not sure how to navigate it #im doing my best but it is so hard #im not good at messaging back or knowing what to say etc #its been really hard #im an anxious mess most days #and its honestly not getting better its getting worse #i have lots of untreated mental stuff going on #managed to do a screening yesterday so the ball is rolling but its slow & im out of time #rn my partner + friends & wrestling are whats getting me through this #like aside from my cat and a junk drawer full of small things thats about what i got #and life is not very kind to me / us #feels like its working against us actively tbh #and theres some family stuff that went down thats intense #after my nightmare day at all out. i learned a lot more about my place in my family that i didnt really wanna learn rn #so i am. a mess #all my problems are literally so severe i cannot function. i cant do tasks. i cant think. i literally have panic attacks over everything #anxiety attacks that last whole days or hours cause my skin just stays shaking and wrong #my ocd is unbearable #and i cant leave my house really anymore #and select moments i can but. i dont even have those anymore really #i wish i could explain the mess of how bad im doing and also express the gratitude for the people still around #or the people checking in #i am trying to! i am still trying.

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savetheghost · 6 months ago

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wanna be put in a room with craft stuff for 10 years

#i cant focus on anything rn but the stuff i wanna make and its turning my brain into mush #the weird brainfucked fear that if i dont get these things started Soon ill forget it #my memory is so fucking borked man and my brain runs too fucking fast to hold on to anything #i make so much that i went and made my own hell lol #the two jobs thing i think is probably the crux rn cause ive got even less time than i used to and my time blindness gives me troubles #ill get adjusted to it #sometimes with all my fucked up processing issues makes me feel like im kind of stuck in a weird bubble #like i have no idea whats happening or whos around me or what people are saying and i just have to stumble through it yknow #shouldve been born as a tiktokers pet snail #not tryna be complainy or in a bad mood or nuffin im fine i literally just want to be making stuff rn #even though works like a big Thing its also been understimulating the past week because theres nothing to do i just gotta Be Here #i need to be put under pressure i need squeezed i need smushed and i aint getting that #if i ever make something for u plz hound me about it #so i can explain in excruciating detail what step im on and how im doing it and what still needs done and how ill do THAT #i should make tutorials #i feel like im way too stream of consciousness to make anything actually helpful #idk i want a toast chee

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donnyclaws · 1 year ago

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I was gonan make a post apologizing for lack of regular art but I feel like jts already clear im sporadic and in and out of it bc chronic pain and circumstances. So for now I'm gonna hibernate, get my health steady again, deal with money issues, and art will happen when it happens.

#i do feel kind of worn down by it. i wish patreon and commissions didn't feel so taxing even with accommodations ive made for myself #maybe it'll feel better in the future when less is going on but rn it #places this barrier of management in front of art that makes it less relieving to do #cause there's always a part of my brain reminding me it needs to serve a purpose and needs to pay off in some way #which isn’t a new feeling for artists obviously. maybe doing it all since hs js also why it's tiring. and patreon changjng the way it does #working part time now too. idk if maybe id like to step back from it #it's abnormal that i worked taht hard and it did help me get out from my parents and stay out. but im also tired ect #idw let people down by not being able to keep up with a self imposed expectation or #be irresponsible and remove sources of income for myself. redbubble inprnt and patreon all suck in ways that bother me hugely #i only really enjoy itch.io at the minute #not to say anything bad abt patrons or commission clients you've all been excessively kind and patient and understanding always #i wish i could make them better i feel like there's no way how it is at the minute is of value compared to my output as an older teen #but yknow. self imposed worry. im just worn out and id like to just make things without the management and the fretting and the #i havent made a comic post for patreon in ages or this or this i havent made a speedpaint or a song or #yadda yadda lmao #sorry for the impromptu ramble #this isnt to say id never do commissions or a store or anything again or i want to not make money off art #god knows i will need to be grinding out comms once im well again but ex #i feel like im getting less and less able to manage it and then putting out less and less #and hoping ill somehow get very healthy and active again one day and make it worth the wait yknow.#it's not a feeling i want my art to carry in me.#part of me and the parent in my brain is saying it'd be selfish to give up income but the rest is like #that's cruel. i want to feel good and healthy

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macroglossus · 10 months ago

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being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right?????#this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh.#when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like #two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that #time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore #is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and #when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up #and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not #that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on #listening. if that makes sense #IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive #like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!!#idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that #im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy.#epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍

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mimir97477906 · 8 months ago

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im so sosry for ranting abour this again but auhgufhgh im making a ref sheet of my ocs for myself beacse EVERYTIME I DRAW THEM THEY LOOK SOOOSK DIFFERENT os i thoguht maybe this can help me memorize their faces but EVEN THO IM USING GUIDELINES THE SAME CHARACTER LOOKS LIKE DIFFERENT PEOPLE ITS JUST A HEAD TURN AROUND I CANT DO THIS I FEEL SO VIOLENT WHY IS MY ART STYLE HAVING AN IDENTITY CRISIS HOWWWWWWW DO I FIX THIS

#everytime when im drawing any of my ocs and someone mixes them up with another oc my heart shatters to 7463874693 pieces #that either means everyone i draw looks the same or the same oc i draw looks so different every time #at that point they just went with whoever they think is the closest #im having the hardest time making my sentences right now what is going on my talkşng abilites have went down to zero #no like also ive always struggled w same face syndrome without realising #all my art life i had ocs that looked exactly the same from an outsiders view but they looked sososooo different to me #like i just erased my ocs frrom existence when i was 12 cuz everyone mixed them up and it frustrated me so bad #and i look back at that era AND THEY REALLY ARE EXACTLY THE SAME I CANT TELL WHO IS WHO #AND THIS KEPT HAPPENING until i got into sims which pushed me to egt out of my comfort zone #this is why its very important to be obsessed with the ugliest character u can find ^_^(NERVOUS SUBJECT)#and now im scared i once again convinced myslef that my ocs look very different when they actually arent #ok maybe this is a transitional period from having a same face syndrome to being able depict different kinds of people #and im in between rn cuz since im nnot used to this i just cant draw the same face again #and everytime i draw it loks like a dfifferent stuyle whatfevrrrr whatevr #wow writing down your feelings really do work maybe i should get a journal #ramblings

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rapidhighway · 6 months ago

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#oughh i need to restart my diet im feeling so baddd TwT #literally feel like garbage from the way ive been eating but ive been just so stressed and so much has been happening #that i didn't have ghe mental space to keep up with the diet and just kind of put it aside #but now i just feel constantly sick and full and im not even trying to restrict to eat like normal amounts im just going crazyy #doesnt help that my scale ran out of batteries and i keep forgetting to buy new ones #ughh #but yeag i feel reall bad and stuffed and sick constantly and the hunger cues are all over the place again and it's just #a horrible time #dude i felt so good physically when i was dieting i need to go backkkk #but it takes.... so much mental energy #i guess i have to pick one over the other ughhh #diet mention #weight mention #fuckk i dint wanna fuck up my progress either but tbh im not that worried about that rn im not going to regain everything from even a few #weeks of eating like shit #even now i just woke up and i feel really bad physically because of everything i ate ughhhh

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dandyshucks · 10 months ago

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everyone pray for me that i did not just give myself food poisoning (;･∀･)

#i may have made a bad decision with the meat i cooked shdjdkl BUT I THINK IT'LL BE FINE #it was past the date on the packaging but it didnt smell or look or feel off at all so . i decided to risk it #and now im panicking bc i think perhaps that was actually rly stupid fhdkdl #but it was. so much money. i had no idea the date was so soon on the package when i got it from mum #I would've frozen it if I'd known dhdksl i should've looked #alas !!! i think it'll be fine tbh bc it genuinely did not seem spoiled at all so ... now we just pray #i had a fairly small serving of it and I'll see how i feel to figure out if the rest of it is safe to eat or not #im just fhdjdkl crying a little rn bc the past two days have been so awful and im so tired #i rly dont want to get sick on top of everything else going on #i would like one thing to go well fjdkdl just like. one thing. this feels like divine punishment for having the old lady group go so well #im just kind of losing my mind rn i think actually fhfkdl i have a therapy/counseling appt on monday though so we'll see if that helps #i do not have high hopes fjfkdl #MANNNN. can the universe give me a break PLEASE. I've been trying so hard the past three weeks to do well 😭😭#im putting in so much work and effort fhdksl can i PLEASE have this one thing go okay djdksl i do not want to get sick !!!#if i do get sick then im just. hhhhh. idk djdkdl it's just one more thing to add to my pile of Bad ig djdkdl what can ya do djdkdl #i am going to pull myself together and stop crying and go play stardew maybe idk fjdkdl i feel like im starting to crack a little bit #augh. augh. i would love to catch a break djdkdl #dandy.cmd #vent //

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1roentgen · 2 months ago

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#incurable yap disease #i wonder if theres a medicine that makes people shut up bc surely i need it. i just feel bad for talking a lot idk but ig i just wanna #i wanna eat/drink something but i dont know what #maybe i want an ice cream #popsicle stick #if i go to 711 i will probably buy alcohol lol #i had bamboo soup and baozi for lunch today #wasnt that much but im not hungry rn #bored #im currently reading ‘the myth of sisyphus’ by camus #its pretty dense for me i gotta say. although a lot of it so far does resonate very much #i also cant help but compare many points to some basic buddhist #concepts. For example suffering being an inescapable fact of the indifferent universe and the ‘weariness’ or ความเบื��อหน่าย that arises #in rare moments of clarity #philosophy is kind of a lot to get into but i drive myself crazy by thinking so much anyway may as well give my brain actual substance yk #honestly it just feels like my thoughts are sludge these days #horrible mixture of unidentifiable shapes and liquids #ie egotistical angstlord nonsense and brainrot internet memes #there is nothing worthwhile or interesting in my head so i am not a worthwhile or interesting person when u really get down to it #i read a quote recently somewhere; how u spend ur day is how u spend u life #theres gotta be something more than this state of non-oblivion #if i die right now #well no thanks to me but ive had a pretty good life. so i wouldn’t say it was all wasted #but i just dream of something more. existence at another level #something more purposeful #man i got a stomachache maybe i am hungry #watch me say all this then change nothing

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