#im dying of the allegies

[im-still-watching-anime]

i remember breathing oxygen once….it was nice hope i get to do that again some day

[hopefullyababe]

i dont like that anxiety can keep you awake at night. leave me alone. let me sleep

[yuridovewing]

the conflict i feel between just doing my own unique nextgen au for yuriverse or keeping the same general cast and just doing some parent swaps (which im already doing for spark and alder)

[schnitzelsemmerl]

"im dying" "im karen my hair is shiny" ok. i dont mean to brag. once i was one of you. but now. i am the flag. you pledge allegiance to. i am. the dream you chase. im your amazing graaaaaAAAAAAACE YO PARTY AT MY PLACE I WILL NEVER SHUT UP AGAIN I WILL NEVER SHUT UP AGAIN BRAND NEW DAY NOW WERE FINALLY FREE FREE TO WORSHIP ME CAUSE ILL NEVER SHUT UP AGAIN

[rippleap]

into the wild kitties! #1

HI GUYS MY FIRST ART POST

since i have no clue what kind of art to post on here yet i decided to do something fun!!!

I'll be designing and drawing every single cat in the into the wild allegiances, hopefully uploading each day! yeah im only doing into the wild (for now) cause i would like to stay alive and breathing thanks!

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also designing ISNT WHAT IM BEST AT, these are just for fun!

im gonna start explaining and babbling about the designs now,,

firepaw is TECHNICALLY not the first cat in the allegiances but come on i have to do him first he's FIREPAW. I didn't have much of a thought process for him other than mmmmm yes fire. I really wanted to add some blue to his eyes cause like, blue fire haha but i couldn't find a way to do that without making the whole design look weird.

Next is bluestar! bluestar with long hair my beloved. i tried to make her as BLUE as possible without making your eyes burn off, but she is VERY BLUE

Now for redtail! this one was a bit more tricky to be honest, i wasn't too sure of what to do because, i sorta forgot how i perceived redtail lmao?? most of what i was thinking while designing him was.....hmm spottedleaf brother...... of course he has his signature red tail, and i wanted to give him that sort of calico kinda hair color, like how people dye their hair to be calico yeah i was going for that. like he dyed his hair but it's actually just like that.

And lastly, spottedleaf! i think you all can clearly see the neapolitan inspiration here lol. I was thinking of how i was gonna design her, and a lightbulb lit up above my head and went ICE CREAM ICE CREAAMMM so here's neapolitan spottedleaf! i also this these colors make her look like she smells good which is a trait of hers i guess, like look at that cat and tell me she doesnt look like she smells like vanilla and strawberries and chocolate. I also made an effort to have spottedleaf and redtail to resemble or mirror eachother! that'll probably become a pattern with the siblings I'll be designing.

also side note, literally i drew these with a pencil on paper, lined it with black paint and a stiff paintbrush and THEN transferred the drawing into ibispaint. just wanted to put it out there...heh... probably one of my new favorite ways of drawing ever.

I'm gonna be using the #into the wild allegiances to tag all of these in case you wanna find them all later.

umm idk how to end this, bye guys!!!

if you have any questions about using these designs orrr whatever feel free to ask!

i posted the higher quality individual versions of the designs on my instagram! same user as here!!

[alphaketoglutaricacid]

man im glad kabru put his sword down n acknowledged hes no good w monsters. He hurt himself so much trying to be a person hes not… dying over n over again… becoming so good at killing people in the service of that goal n it gets him no closer to it… and i dont think dungeon life is actually what he wants either… he had such a miserable time but i feel the people he met…was the journey. Maybe. I think theres something moving about him venturing out n meeting ppl from all walks of life.

And a life of many more…and i may be about to do a horrific misreading but i always thought part of the reason kabru got namari n toshiro to go w him instead of his own party was trying to keep em outta harms way esp rin. But in turn he cut himself off of his closest connections while interacting w ppl who bring up really bitter memories for him. Man kabru n rins relationship… they dont love each other in the same way but u can tell theyre always thinking of each other. Like interacting w the canaries is hard for him. But also on another level he may have taken them bc they do in fact live up to his idealized version of ppl who can effortlessly slay monsters n its something he knows he lacks. But idk if being good at slayin monsters particularly helped in the end of that situation tho it was good to have a few ppl good at it on retainer. Kinda bummed they cut out of a lot of kabrus interactions w namari and shuro bc i do find them interesting in the short moments they interact. Thats the b team (w mithrun acting as the antag of it so he flits in and out)

Like kabru has a moment of vulnerability in telling his own story to them honestly. It was hard for him. And if they cut out namaris genuine moment of unconditional kindness when she reaches out for kabru while everyones trampling over each other and hes having a ptsd moment ill be at their doors. I think it was a pretty vital moment in reminding him why he feels so strongly abt autonomy. I feel kabru very rarely gets acknowledged for his kindness often no string attached. N ppl are much quicker to note hes manipulative n a charmer but i think some of these moments he just likes listening to ppl some of whom have never been listened to in their lives…. Its sad how much kabrus willing to accommodate others n give em grace n yet he wont give it to himself : ( But also that those two were genuinely moved by his moment of vulnerability and even tho theyre mainly there for their frat bro allegiance towards laios where theyre like idc if he did that #freemyman, i do think what pushed them over the threshold is thinking about what he said about the elves trampling everyone and how they trampled over this delicate infrastructure ppl built for their livelihood . I like to think their lil turn everyone against the canaries was them pouring one out for him. Carry his dream on a little bit longer bc they dunno if he survived. I found it like aw. That all his like kabrus been trying to carry a mountain on his back, trying so hard to be a manipulative charming person to that end, but he can move ppl just as he is. By being open n vulnerable .

the last survivor of utaya… but is just surviving enough? Think its good he makes a new home in melani so that he can move onto the next part of his life while keeping every place hes ever been close. A dungeon that wiped out all life. A dungeon that created a new one

[wisecrackingeric-2]

talk about the warrior cats AU that was MY SHIT back in elementary school for real

EEEEEERMMMMMM HEY HI HELLO IM SORRY THIS TOOK ME SO LONG TO GET TO. I. MIGHTVE GONE OVERBOARD. SO YKNOW. THERE IS A L O T OF TEXT UNDER THE CUT. But I hope you like it either way I am OBSESSED w this dumb au!!!!!!!!!!!

Also none of it is proofread at ALL this is ALL word vomit I’m sorry BXNSHENEJENDJ

Character allegiances just so people don’t get confused;

Smokesun- Luis (Ex-Windclan Medicine Cat)

Lionfur- Leon (Thunderclan Warrior)

Badgerheart- Rebecca (Thunderclan Medicine Cat)

Ashpaw- Ashley (Thunderclan Apprentice)

Ada (Rogue)

Note before I start: I’m making this take place in the old forest territories from arc 1 because this is basically just a copy of the second arc HXNSHSNSJSJ and it’d make more sense for their long journey to the ocean to take multiple months rather than just a few days like it would if they were in the new lake territories, so alas, no Skyclan in this AU- Only Thunderclan, Windclan, Shadowclan and Riverclan

OK ok so this AU starts BEFORE the actual story starts with Smokesun (Luis); Windclans only medicine cat. He is, obviously, very well-liked amongst his clanmates and he’s got a particularly strong bond with Starclan and receives pretty clear visions from them as a result (Starclan is like Cat Heaven and Cat Gods and Medicine cats are the only cats who can communicate with them)

So when Smokepaw (he’s still an apprentice at this point) receives a VERY SCARY vision from Starclan telling him that a sickness is cursed to ravish their clan, he obviously panics and tells everyone, and IMMEDIATELY begins working on a cure with guidance from Starclan

,,,,,,,,Only that cure DOES NOT work and in fact makes them become sicker EVEN FASTER. Some cats question whether he was even getting visions from Starclan in the first place or whether he was receiving them from the Dark Forest (evil cat hell where Bad Cats go)

SO when Smokepaw/sun starts getting punishing visions from Starclan so horrible to the point they have him physically coiling on the ground the clans like. Yep!! He fucked up!!!! He needs to be punished!!!!!

And ofc Smokesun does NOT wanna be punished and he also wants to escape Starclans visions so he. Runs away from Windclan off into the wilderness never to be seen again (If a med cat goes outside of clan territories they loose their connection to starclan and can’t receive visions from them)

So with their only medicine cat gone and their clan slowly dying from a mysterious illness, Windclan shut themselves off from the rest of the clans and don’t ask anyone for help (because this is Warrior Cats babey!!!!) and the other clans just go. Oh ok. They’re probably plotting a war or something. Let’s leave them alone.

And it’s against the code for other Medicine Cats to talk about insider Medicine Cat stuff with the rest of their clan so even though the other clans med cats notice Smokesun is missing, they’re not allowed to say anything

That is until Badgerpaw, Thunderclans medicine cat, (our beloved Rebecca Chambers) spills the beans to Thunderclans leader (presumably President Graham in this AU AGABSGEBEYDNSHXJ) that oooOoOoOoO a spOoooOoOoOoky evil medicine cat cursed Windclan and that’s why they’re sick!!!!! But because this is warrior cats the leader doesn’t say anything so moons pass and nothing really happens

Then we FINALLY cut to where like, the ‘main story’ starts- Lionfur (Leon) isn’t Thunderclans DEPUTY but he’s definitely a high-ranking warrior and as such mr leader president Grahamstar tells him first that his daughter, Ashpaw, has come down with a mysterious illness oOoOoOoOooOOoooo and Badgerheart (now a full medicine cat) suspects that it’s the same illness Windclan got from that super scary super evil medicine cat.

This is all obviously FRESH NEWS to Lionfur cuz the leader hasn’t told ANYONE abt this and it’s ESPECIALLY WORRYING cuz Ashpaw is more like a lil sibling to Lionfur in this AU (just for the sake of making the au make sense please don’t spin this BXBHSSNS) so he’s a liiiiiiil more understanding when the leaders like “ok. Now I need you to go outside clan territories and travel for MIIIIIIIIIIIILES to find a cure and reach the ocean and find that evil medicine cat. May starclan light your path lmao. Oh also Badgerheart got a vision that the ocean is where you’ll find the cure and we need to bring that evil medicine cat back so that they can repent but Badgerheart has to stay here so there aren’t any plot holes lmao”

So Lionfur is about to set off to god knows where on a god knows how dangerous mission when Ashpaw is like “:DDDDDD hey hi hello I’m coming with you!!!!!!!” And Lionfurs like “??????WTF NO YOU'RE NOT YOU'RE SICK????????” But It’s already too late so he begrudgingly let’s her tag along

Along the way after they’ve made it past clan territories, they somehow stumble across a mysterious cat who understands their clan language!!!!! He introduces himself as Smokesun and he knows an oddly large amount of knowledge about herbs and medicine and the territories outside of the clans and he’s also just so handsome and so charming and hey he’s a sweetheart to Ashpaw and I mean shucks they need somebody with proper herb knowledge to join them anyways so he tags along!!!! (Lionfur probably wouldn’t recognise him cuz Smokesun was only an apprentice when he left and also Medicine cats from other clans don’t usually interact with other clan cats)

So the three of them go on wild and whacky adventures together and I imagine if this was a warriors book this is where the main story would take place!!!!!!!!!!! I don’t have anything in mind but I imagine they’d probably have to fight against rogue groups (maybe a stand in for so Illuminados idk they’re not really relevant in this au) or giant dogs (again maybe Krauser) all while laughing and having fun and growing closer and oh god is Lionfur falling in love with this total looser from the middle nowhere he knows nothing about?????? He totally is!!!!!!!!!!!

But along their journey, Lionfur starts to notice some,,,,,,, weird stuff happening. Like, Smokesun will randomly double over and claw at his head but then sit up a few seconds later saying he’s totally fine (he’s not my boy is cursed with The Visions still!!!!!!!!! He’s being forced by starclan to feel what his Windclan clan mates are feeling!!!) and Ashley’s only getting sicker and sicker so they need to REALLY get a move on and reach the ocean sooner or later and find this damn mysterious evil medicine cat!!!!

Also I’m not sure where else to slot this in but Ada’s important to this au too ofc!!!!!!!!! When Smokesun first left Windclan he had no clue how to fend for himself and Ada managed to find him almost half mangled so she picked him up and helped him but they kept accidentally crossing paths and every single time Smokesun looked worse and worse (those damn visions amirite) so she taught him how to find specific herbs thatd help and he realised oh!!!!! I can make a suppressant from these!!!!!!!!!! So he dedicated ALL of his time to making a proper suppressant for Windclan (all the while. Y’know. Experimenting on himself and clawing his chest open and giving himself god knows what. Y’know. Classic Luis body horror shit amirite)

But he was too afraid to go back to the clans and give it to them himself so Ada would trot over there and drop them off for him and leave before anyone could see her (they probably thought it was a gift from starclan or something BDNEHWNEJSJ)

And that’s basically how Ashpaw didn’t just straight up die throughout their journey cuz Smokesun knew where to find herbs to make the suppressants- also in a similar vein to the actual game, Ada kinda follows them around like a shadow and helps them before they can get in TOO much trouble (ie, scaring away dogs, knocking over dams etc etc)

ALSO also again idk where else to put it but I think it’s funny to note that Ada’s not a clan cat- she’s a rogue and thus she doesn’t believe in Starclan so she’s not ENTIRELY convinced Smokesun isn’t just. Slowly going insane ANSNHDNEHSNS

Everytime he gets a migraine and starts shouting about the dead cats in his head she’s just like “oh my GOD dude PLEASE just GO TO A V E T GODDAMNIT”

Anyways after a LONG while the three of them FINALLY get to the ocean but. There’s no magical starclan-guided cure there. And even worse????? Lionfur has come down with the same illness so ALL tensions are high at this point.

And Smokesun is SO FULL OF GUILT because he’s under the impression that he’s been cursed by starclan and so it’s HIS PRESENCE that’s making Starclans cure not show up but he can’t just. Run away from his problems and from Lionfur and Ashpaw like he normally does. Cuz y’know. They’re sick and he’s the only one who knows how to make a suppressant.

So he has to very woefully admit to Lionfur that HES the mysterious evil medicine cat they’ve been looking for and he’s the one that “cursed” them. And obviously. Lionfur is PIIIIIIISSSEDD. But Ashpaw sick and so is he and none of them can leave the ocean so they all just kinda. Have to sit in a cave and talk about their emotions.

Lionfur and Smokesun have a Heart to heart and wowie just like in the base game Lionfur forgives Smokesun for his actions because he’s clearly so full of guilt and is doing everything in his power to save them yadda yadda yadda we all know how this goes anyways they kiss and make up and tell each other that they love each other but now they’ve got a NEW dhilemma cuz cats from seperate clans can’t be in a relationship and medicine cats are forbidden to be in a relationship but honestly?????? Lionfurs kinda considering just,,,,, not going back to the clans (after they drop Ashpaw home ofc)

Also hilarious to note that Ada is still hanging around watching all this go down like that scene in Brokeback mountain and she still delivers suppressants and herbs to the clans but every now and then she’ll poke her head up and be like “oh btw the warrior you sent out and your daughter are doing fine lmao” and the cats will be like???????? Wtf???????? Who are you?????????????? I can also imagine Badgerheart and Ada form a lil friendship over this too BXBDBNSBDSND

Anyways Smokesun realises EURIKA I CAN MAKE MEDICINE FROM THE SALT IN THE OCEAN (hey if a new prophecy did that plot point so can I) so he gathers up the medicine and makes it and voila!!!!!!! It works!!!!!!!!!!!! He’s not cursed after all Starclan are just cruel omnipotent gods!!!!!!!! So with Ada’s help they all race back to the clans and give them all the medicine and Ashpaw back everything is happy as Larry Wahoo

But. Y’know. Theres still the problem of. Smokesun. He doesn’t wanna go back to Windclan even after they’ve been healed for obvious reasons, and Lionfur realized he finds a whole lot more fulfillment in going on crazy adventures with Lionfur and by god he’s in love with that dumb cat too. So they all say their teary goodbyes to Ashpaw (and watch as she gets her Warrior status and her new name, Ashsun after Smokesun :,,,) ) and Smokesun and Lionfur run Off into the sunset never to be seen by the clans again but always in love and living their best gay kitty cat lives the end :))))))))

Lastly I think it would be HILARIOUS if Ada became the medicine cat of Windclan after Smokesun. Because she does NOT believe in starclan so whenever they’re like “OH NOOOOO THR CLOUDS ARE COVERING THE MOON WE’RE ALL GONNA DIE!!!!!” She can shove poppy seeds in their mouths and tell them to shut the fuck up HDNHENEEJDJCUXJ

[life-deep]

Just a Ghost

i knew what i was

you don’t have a clue

your indecision inclusive of what i foreknew

but something inside me start slipping

tripping like did i miss something or was i true

did this tightrope im walking finally give way

or was this the way i was supposed to fall

right into my heart’s grave

fell at the feet of my ghost and it showed me my soul

took a look and saw it’s blacker than coal

told me “you’re so angry, watch! you reap what you sow”

living my life in miseries and woe, “want to see the hell you’ve bought with what you sold?”

“in three years, isn’t this all that you know?

“smoking to hide your intelligence, bury yourself in indifference

“isn’t it your ambition you abandoned,

“yet your pride is always heightened

“looking at people feeling indignant

“you indite them for lack of allegiance to their own lives but look at your own life?”

just a ghost grinning at me in my dreams when i get my daily lack of sleep

kept seeping into my thoughts, what are you reaping?

are you reaping your soul? carving out all you know to make room for yourself and more of yourself

ego never been bigger, swagger never so superior, hell never been more severe, the fires never been hotter

just a ghost smiling at me, holding a deflection of my own inventions

so dark i can’t see my reflection

but i’d never stop to take a look, just a stranger

my feet never stopping, ghost never not haunting

running from the coroner but i’m the murderer

all i’m good at-

just a ghost running from the grave

anything but the deeds i left in my wake

never see the burning bridges which i razed

just a ghost running to my next waste

my next crave, living convinced im dead digging my own grave,

can’t get the image of my own face, face of the devil all the sins i hate

sick fascination i can’t look away

twisted in pride at my own fate,

setting fires and running like it doesn’t matter anyway

just a ghost, all i’m good at-

“look what you’re doing motherfucker?”

“given this life acting like a martyr?

“but what do you stand on? the ground you run on, crumbling behind ya?

“keep running sweat out all your water

“but you’ll never fight the hunger

“polydispia, you’re plagued by nature”

“you’re not dying you’re already dead like another

“you said you’d never forget now look at ya?

“said life meant something now you’re going round humping and bubbling in fiery water

“remember what it felt with the knife to your throat?

“remember promises made you broke years ago?

“remember every failure you’re miserable you know you are, you’re dying like a wilting flower the power of the flood from above is drowning ya, you can’t bear to look at the sight of life

“you kept doubting, you can’t bear to look at the self you distorted, this life you contorted, convinced you’re a ghost when you’ve been given breath in the Father

“who are you fooling? keep pouring oil on your soul till you die in your cesspool

“or let yourself fall into the arms holding heavenly water

“turn away and quench this thirst you can’t fight,

“let the light fill the void only the truth can set you free

take a look at me!

“embrace your suffering little one and never stumble, you’ve been running so long you know how to hustle, turn your eyes from the pavement, look at the stars and behold”

Oh my soul!

[blazingmicah-wc]

spoilers for the changing skies preview allegiances: here

i like the new kit names

why is every protagonist's sister/ off screen lesbian gf having children

nightcloud is an elder????? since when

if crowfeather doesn't retire this book im dying

i rly don't like owlnose. this isn`t a spoiler i just wanted to let you know

i haven't read a book since the last hope who are these ppl???? who tf is songleap and ridgeglow??? honeyfur???? birchfeather??? what??

WHO IS FLOATSHIMMER?? WAS SHE HERE IN THE LAST ARC??? /gen

why is there a kit called leafcurl and also how is she a warrior??

[dawnfinchh]

i made full "canon" allegiances for the start of forest of secrets: google doc link

this is a part of a series im doing where i've made the full allegiances for the first book of every arc in order. now i'm making allegiances for other main series books. these will not be adherent to the changes with the new graphic novels

here is the masterpost for all the allegiances

"canon" is in quotations because a lot of this is guesswork about who logically would be around at that point in time, but aren't listed in the allegiances or mentioned in the book

this is mainly meant to be a resource for fanworks

general stuff that's still the same as last time:

wiki pages are linked to character's names

med cat = cleric

characters are listed by age. where there are no concrete ages, i make my best guess

tc is the only clan without a "kit" rank as all kits born into or taken into the clan have known parents

like last time, there's a lot of decisions to be made about prequel cats who just stop showing up. i'll be providing insight into why i believe that they're still around or not. check the previous fire and ice allegiances for more insights

thunderclan:

cinderpaw - still listed as fireheart's apprentice

brightkit, thornkit, and cloudkit - still listed as kits

snowkit and mistlekit - listed as mistlekit showed up (unnamed) in fire and ice, tho snowkit doesn't show up until rising storm, after mistlekit is implied to have died (tho she is also implied to have recovered from greencough lol). they probably would have been old enough to become apprentices around the same as like, cloudtail

goldenflower - she has tawnykit and bramblekit this book

shadowclan:

whitethroat, applefur, and ratscar - i have given them all their warrior names due to their appearances in tigerclaw's fury

snowbird - she does not show up in this arc at all but she is stated to be ratscar's littermate

rowankit and cedarkit (and lavenderkit) - rowanclaw is an apprentice in tigerclaw's fury (cedarheart and lavenderkit are not mentioned), so i had darkflower listed as (expecting kits) in the fire and ice allegiances. they do not become warriors until sometime after arc 1 so they were probably born in mid fire and ice, like ashfur and ferncloud. i've also removed their father scorchwind because his job is complete and he hasn't shown up since like, a blackfoot's reckoning flashback set in into the wild

volewhisper - due to continuity issues with blackfoot's reckoning, he needs to die before blackfoot reappears in shadowclan, but given that that doesn't happen until late FoS/early RS, i think it's fine that he's still around

stumpytail - he is one of the shadowclan exiles in tigerclaw's fury and blackfoot's reckoning but he is listed in the shadowclan allegiances for both FaI and FoS (while the shadowclanners are exiled) and appears in FoS as a clan cat, so i still have him listed within the clan. he also, of course, still has an apprentice in brownpaw

brownpaw - he does not show up in either tigerclaw's fury or blackfoot's reckoning, but he is still listed in both the forest of secrets and rising storm allegiances

all their non nightpelt and cinderfur elders are gone. none of them show up in forest of secrets (and really didn't show up in fire and ice) and some of them like featherstorm are shown in starclan during tigerclaw's leader ceremony in the ultimate guide. IF any of them show up alive again in the graphic novel i'll consider adding them back in bc them seemingly dying en masse after they just got their clan back is really weird and sad lol, esp since this is pre carrion sickness

other comments on tigerclaw's ceremony - dawncloud, tallpoppy, and darkflower are all hanging out in starclan beside cinderfur during tigerclaw's leader ceremony. obviously tallpoppy is alive as she is in arcs 2-4, but i guess dawncloud and darkflower could have both like, tripped and died between when they are seen in tigerclaw's fury before he goes to the moonstone and when they appear in his dreams

riverclan:

silverstream - she is tagged with (expecting kits) as she is, obviously, pregnant but is still a warrior as her pregnancy is secret

frogleap, woodkit, and robinkit - they die in the flood this book. mosspelt's litter is not born yet so robinkit and woodkit are never listed in an allegiances but they did briefly exist

mistyfoot - again, reedwhisker is not listed bc i've gone with the tnp timeline for him. her other kits are listed

silverpaw (not silverstream) - likely also dies in the flood? the last time they are ever mentioned, they are trying to keep a den from collapsing alongside shadepaw/shadepelt the first. silverpaw stops showing up in the allegiances after this book while shadepaw and heavypaw continue to do so

greenflower - it's semi-canon that she dies of greencough shortly after giving birth, so she will not reappear again

rippleclaw and emberdawn - disappear after nightstar's first gathering as a leader

windclan:

stagleap and sorrelshine - per onestar's confession, they've rejoined windclan. this could happen later but i just chose to put them back in the clan now. given that pigeonflight does not show back up, he has been disappeared

tawnykit/tawnyfur - like i mentioned in the fire and ice allegiances, she is a kit because she becomes an apprentice in rising storm and a warrior in dangerous path. she is older than gorsepaw, and should definitely be an apprentice already because of the tight timeline between RS and DP, but her mentor tornear still has an apprentice in runningpaw at the start of FoS. it does definitely seem like she's in a background shot in the graphic novel alongside webpaw or runningpaw, but this is just a guess

crowfur - he's an elder who speaks at a gathering but isn't listed in the allegiances. i've listed him

cats outside clans:

shadowclan exiles again get their own group. they return in like, mid rising storm, before whitethroat and littlecloud make a break for it, per tigerclaw's fury

added bailey and retroactively added her to previous allegiances, bc apparently she dies soon before darktail is born

i could probably cut down on the number of kittypets listed, like fireheart & princess' siblings, but ehh. it's a decent reminder that they could, in theory, be encountered in the area

[angelonasher]

[this gets a bit ramble-y heh]

the way i imagine the scars in the life series working would be based on emotional significance

the more emotions based on the death (or maybe not death?) that caused the scar, whether that be stronger emotions or by more people, or both, the more uh dark? obvious? the scar is.

or it can also be based on what that death symbolizes/the significance in the story

so- the winner's final scars would be bolder(? i cannot find right word.) i think it'd be the same with jimmy's last deaths, because it's the canary curse continuing

so uh take an example like explosion scars from Pearl and Scott's last death in double life, where Scott exploded himself and Pearl won. I think Scott's scars would be bolder, both because yeah it's significant for him that he blew himself up, but also for Pearl.

The thing important about that death isn't that Pearl blew up, it's that Scott blew up. Scott doing that is what made Pearl forgive him; it was a very emotional moment for her and significant for the story. But it's not significant because Pearl died, it's because Scott did.

Or take Martyn's winning in limited life. Impulse and Scott's scars would be bolder than Martyn's, because whats unique about him winning is that he betrayed them (probably bolder scars for Scott, considering they were allies from the start). The thing significant about Martyn's winning is Impulse and Scott dying, not Martyn running out of time (however that would scar) or him being /kill-ed if you wanna go with what actually happened and not lore.

And Grian and Scar would probably have bold scars from their 3rd life last deaths, Scar's being the significance of Grian killing him, betraying his day one ally he owed his allegiance to, Grian's being the grief or whatever made him yeet himself off the cliff.

Make sense?

Or when Ren got beheaded in 3rd life. Bold scar, definitely. I didn't watch much of 3rd life or either of their povs, but from what i understand it was kind of a trust thing? Ren was putting trust in Martyn as his hand, Martyn was showing his allegiance to Ren, it marked the red winter beginning, it was an extremely significant event for them, the whole server, and story. I think that scar would be very bold.

Jimmy's last death in 3rd life prob would be bolder than his other last deaths, at least in my general headcannons, since in my brain/lore/headcannon it was that first time being the first one out that sealed his canary curse.

Also, Skizz's last death in 3rd life- apparently that has lore that the death being such a bloody/hectic(?) death was the birth of the boogeyman curse (hence the reason the curse wasn't there in double life or why Skizz has never been the boogey), and given that the boogeyman is so significant in the seasons it is present, that would prob be a bold scar.

In my headcannon, the eye scar Pearl had in her Scarlet/5am Pearl skin represented the separation between her and Scott. So, whether or not she did that herself in bitterness or got it because her soulmate wasn't there to defend her, it sort of was a visual representation (and a non-death scar)of that plot point everyone loves.

(I imagine they both got glass eyes after that season, and Pearl removed hers when being 5am Pearl in limited life for the spooky effect. i refuse to believe Scott didn't get a scar bcuz hello they were linked also empires s2)

I can't really speak too much about scars given that i definitely need to watch more povs of the life series (last-life im so sorry i know so little about you) but uh yeah. ✨headcannons✨

[power-chords]

It is 1936 and Eddie Ross, having emigrated from his native Odessa, wants passionately to be 100% American. In the determined pursuit of the American dream, Eddie, né Itzik Goldberg, changes his own and his family's names, in addition to the names and decor of his Canal Street tavern. Eddie is equally passionate about who he does not want to be: an East European Jew. He has escaped Eastern Europe; the Jewish part is harder.

The problem is, Eddie does not know how to be Jewish and American. He bitterly cites the terrible fate of his own orthodox father, also a tavern keeper, who met a terrible end during Prohibition when his allegiance to God and the law were no protection against bootleggers. Although Eddie scoffs, "He had his head in the Talmud, his foot in the grave," he cannot get the paternal voice out of his head. He lays the blame on the annual postcard he gets from the Sons of Moses reminding him of his father's Yarzheit. "Wherever you go, they find you, those Sons of Moses," he fumes.

Eddie has not renounced Judaism; he has just made his own "deal with God, doing the minimum observance to keep Him calm and on his good side." That sends mixed messages to his two sons. He insists that Charlie attend Hebrew school until his Bar Mitzvah, "Because all God's gotta do is come through once to make Him worth your time... just when you die so you ain't scared shitless." But when Charlie leaves the house wearing his kippah, Eddie explodes, "How many times I gotta tell ya, kid — that is not an outdoor garment. That is an indoor garment only." The older son, Joey, having absorbed his father's principles and ethnic pride, enlists in the Navy the morning after he sees the vandalism on the sign over the Jewish Daily Forward to make it read, "Jew is for war." "Show 'em kid," cheers the proud Eddie, "show 'em how a Jew fights." But when Joey is killed, having refused to leave his battle station, Eddie is mad with grief and rage: "… tonight I go to Beth El, I go to the East Window because this is where God's supposed t'hear you better — and I tell 'im … get this, God. I ain't a Jew no more! Over, pal! Fifty years of bein' a Jew Loser... Take 'em, take the resta them, they're yours — you chose 'em, you got 'em."

Twenty years later, the adult Charlie confronts Eddie with the consequences of his upbringing. One of the happier ones is the critical and financial success Charlie, a writer, has had with his novels about a feisty immigrant bartender and his two sons. Eddie stubbornly withholds recognition of Charlie's accomplishments. He dismisses Charlie's Izzie character as unbelievable: "What kind of Jew is that?" he demands. Charlie retorts: "He's your Jew, Pop, you made him up. He's your Jew and so am I; no history, no memory, the only thing I'm linked to is a chain of bookstores."

That, of course, is not true. Although Charlie will obey Eddie's dying wish to be buried in "an aggressively non-sectarian joint," he lights a Yahrzeit candle for him and recites Kaddish. Besides, he cannot forget; he gets an annual postcard from the Sons of Moses. "They find me," he says, defeated by his own emotion, "those Sons of Moses."

—Ellen Schiff, "They Find You, Those Sons Of Moses": Collective Memory And The Disconnected Jew, 1981. Dude I spent like five minutes trying to figure out if that is a fucking piece of matzah Nate has on his plate lmao.

[beansproutdarkness]

I just had the weirdest dream

ok for some reason there was this giant party thing that my school was hosting and I think it was supposed to take place shortly after the election but anyway and my principal asked me why my ears were blue(???) and asked if it was something liberal and I guess I dyed my hair blue earlier (even though im very much not allowed to do that at my school and later you will see it was in fact not blue) and then it panned (yes it was cinematic) to my entire school wearing blue, including my principal, like, his hair was dyed blue and everything but he also had these weird paper cone things on his ears anyway and then we started saying the pledge of allegiance but the election of 1800 was playing but it wasn't or maybe that was the new pledge of allegiance idk and the background and you'd just faintly hear "it's quiet uptown" oh also I was crossing my fingers as I always do when saying the pledge but anyway oh also even though this was a school event some of friends who do not go to my school were there. also there were 6 cats. including a blue one. my friend and her sister brought them. idk why this is relevant bit it is. moving on, after the weird pledge that was also longer for some reason, I just started singing Hamilton and said that Hamilton should be the new national anthem then this lady person idk got mad at me. and then we left and sang "you've married an icarus and he's flown to close to the sun" and we all started crying ok now we were weighing the cats but all together and we had to subtract 15 from the total weight and then after we left my friends sister had to do that (with the same cats might I add) but couldn't figure out like 103 - 15 or smth and everyone kept trying to tell her the answer or smth idk (the answer is apparently 183) but she wouldn't listen and then all of us got in the car and left

yeah, it was odd

[vampvelvet]

actually idk how much this has been talked about but the american school social dynamics changed SO much after i came back from lockdown. i dont know if it was just me and the grade i was in and when i started presenting more gnc, but its at least partially got something to do with trump and right wing extremism. half the cis boys came back with mullets and blue lives matter flag apparel and a vocal, violent, newfound patriotism that wasnt nearly as present before.

before then, nobody said shit about me not standing for the pledge of allegiance, in fact many people often didnt cause they just didnt care. but suddenly more people started up again and harrassing those who didnt, forcing those who didnt want to get trash thrown at them to just stand, or even just find reasons to leave the room every time.

the harrassment against queer people became so much worse (as far as i cpuld tell) especially trans people. a lot of people had the sentiment of "idc if youre gay or ehatever just dont be one of those freaks [trans people]"

a lot of men at the time were practically worshipping alt right podcasters and misogynistic idols like andrew tate

i dont know. it was a scary time to be in high school. because theres these teenagers with strong strong hatred but who arent held to the legal standards of adults and so therefore are allowed to just keep going and going until it crosses some line. im glad im not in high school anymore but i fear for those who are

not to mention a lot of people i knew were kind of forced into online/alternative schooling bc of the bullying, pushing them into the shadows of society bc theyre not accepted where everyone else is. admittedly its a lot better than any alternative from before online schooling was widely available, like dropping out or dying. thats just at my school tho idk what its like elsewhere.

students deserve to be safe

[funkylilblob]

clone high discord are you okay why are you people worshipping abandoned pools

I mean like im a hugeeee fan of his music but Jesus fuck

I am nothing without Abandoned Pools. They are the best thing to ever happen to me, and I'm nothing but a simple peasant with no purpose in life without my glorious gods, Abandoned Pools. Without Abandoned Pools, I am nothing. Please forgive me for even thinking about listening to other music. I am forever devoted and will stay that way until my dying breath. I pledge my allegiance to Abandoned Pools, and I will devote my life to spreading their music and praising them forever. Abandoned Pools is my lord and savior. I will forever devote my life to spreading the word of Abandoned Pools and will destroy all other music in the process. No one will ever listen to any other music ever again. Everyone will love Abandoned Pools, and I will be a part of it. Abandoned Pools is the only band that matters, and the rest of the world must realize it. Abandoned Pools is the greatest band to ever exist, their music is far superior to any other band that's ever existed. I am forever loyal to Abandoned Pools and I will never like any other band ever again. I bow down to their greatness and their brilliance. Abandoned pools taught me how to spell abandoned Abandoned pools.

[the-walking-memelords]

hello everyone it's your local memelord here to say that chapter 16 will be out sometime tomorrow (today i guess??? its like 5am???) and that it will be the longest chapter yet at over 6k words