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I think this is one of my favorite lines from the Wraith route because of (imo) how much the meaning changes depending on if you got there via Spectre or Nightmare. For Spectre, it honestly strikes me as a genuine question. Why are you doing this to her? If you're on the Spectre route, you presumably already know the Narrator can't really be trusted, since you had to reject his reward to get here. What are you hoping to gain from continuing to hurt her? For Nightmare, it honestly just makes me sad. As the Shifting Mound describes her, "She desires only companionship, but the only thing she knows is how to hurt." This line feels like a plea from someone who genuinely doesn't understand why you keep rejecting her. She wants to be with you, but she just can't understand how to do that in a way which doesn't hurt you.
#at the risk of getting put on a list there is something tragic & relatable in nightmare#someone who desperately wants to make connections but just can't understand how#anyway wraith is one of my favorite princesses for stuff like this (and bc tragedy aside her route is a riot)#also im sorry if she doesn't say that line if you got there via nightmare#that's how i got her and i could've sworn she did? But i only found footage of her saying it in spectre#slay the princess#stp#stp wraith#the wraith#stp spectre#stp nightmare#side note archetypal/heart#(slash so i don't accidentally tag them)#pointed out on another post of mine that you get wraith via nightmare by killing her and via spectre by leaving her in the basement#in both cases its a rejection of her (rejection being one of wraith's main themes)#which makes me speculate on spectre's ch 3 (which i think we currently have very little info on?)#Trying to run from Nightmare should technically be a 'rejection' as well#but you get MOC from that (and from choosing to stay with her)#imo bc you're just repeating the same inaction which got you into this situation in the first place#you don't want to slay her. you don't want to set her free. So you just leave her there (again)#and so you get MOC where things have only gotten worse and you have no choice left. Because you chose *not* to take action again#So I wonder if spectre 3 will be a similar 'repeating your past mistakes' type of deal#i was skeptical about it coming from stabbing yourself while she possesses you or trying to crush her bones#but it does make sense with that in mind#im curious if it'll parallel MOC#except instead of having no choice but to free the princess you have no choice but to obey the narrator again#maybe you both end up stuck in the cabin forever again?#idk#sorry i probably should've put all of that tag in the post lmao
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the fact that kui had laios refer to chilchuck by only his first name more than once in the manga and then went oh btw only people who are very close to half-foots are allowed to call them by their first name. and it's simply never addressed
#banebabbles#i don't actually need to know bc it's a fun space to play in but also#i DESPERATELY need to know how laios got in a position where chilchuck allowed this#mostly im just curious if laios started using it as a nickname and chil opted not to correct him#or if laios KNEW the significance of it and chilchuck gave him. PERMISSION??#chilchuck ill leave you all for dead tims letting laios cringefail dungeonparty leader touden use his first name without comment#before ever once admitting out loud that he cares about whether or not laios (and the others) die. dude#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi
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I've been musing on Mhin's curse and their relationship with monstrosity again now that we have a silhouette for their full monster form from their standee backing, and the differences between the Halloween artwork posted on RSS's twitter and Bluesky account, respectively.
Their monstrous form promises grotesque body horror: it's emotionally and physically painful, and it looks like Mhin retains a vaguely human silhouette. Their monster form is bipedal, and has what appears to be an arm that might be where their wings split from. Their spine is twisted into a tail-like appendage, and they drip gore behind them as they move.
In the Halloween art, we have two versions of Mhin: one, which is the Mhin we know. And two, with glitchy effects added, another version of Mhin, with the whites of their eyes blackened. I'm willing to bet that this isn't Mhin, but instead some emergence of their monstrous side.
It''s been accepted that monstrosity is painful and abhorrent for Mhin. They despise monsters and monstrosity, repress it in any way they can, and they especially hate monsters who indulge in their own nature.
However, I have two questions as a result of this new art. Firstly, to what extent is their monster form a part of them? For example, is it their id made manifest, their worst impulses and desires unrestrained? Or is it akin to possession, where the monstrosity is imposed forcibly upon Mhin, some outside source implanted in them? Either way, I believe that this monstrosity is now a part of Mhin in a way they refuse to accept.
Secondly, I wonder if any small part of Mhin wants to indulge in monstrosity. Is part of the reason they're so focused on restraint and control and a cure precisely because there's something freeing about the destruction they enact? If Mhin sees themself in Vere and Ais, does a part of them feel jealous of the latter two's lack of restraint and hedonism? And, in turn, does this jealousy only reinforce their own self-hatred for considering, even for a moment, what it would be like to let go?
#liya.texts#touchstarved#mhin#im sooo excited for their monster form reveal you dont understand#there's also so many different paths rss could take with mhin's current issues#from what they've set up so far in the demo#and im actually so curious to see where mhin's character arc will go#but it's also fun imagining every possibility#anyways they wouldnt be so desperate and uptight#if a part of them hadnt considered what it would feel like to act like ais and vere lol#control issues mhin when their control slips: fuck. time to twist this situation in a way to further my hatred of myself and monstrosity
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has any character even come close to the sheer power of boba fett. fundamentally shaping an entire corner of a fictional universe because you were just that badass. inspiring entire cultures and millions of derivative characters from your thirty minutes of screen time. and you got eaten by a desert pit. incredible
#best thing about OG trilogy rewatches is realizing how little the expanded universe had to work with#text✨#star wars#boba fett#mandalorians#fuck lucas but also i am so desperate to know what his original interpretation of fhe#clone wars was. it’s spoken of SO specifically in ANH im so curious.
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okay its no secret i dont buy into marazhai being the persona he puts on. so as i've officially met him in game now, im making a list of all the in-game reasons i think he's a bit of an idiot [which i love btw. i find him far more compelling if he's a bit stupid/weird and he's trying so hard not to be but you just know nobody in commorragh is inviting him to parties]
the very first time you get a glance of him on a rooftop and. 'deal with this' "of course" proceeds to just walk off like 3 seconds after the other two
ambushes you. has you cornered. is in optimal position to kick your ass frankly, high ground and better weapons and utilising shock against you. ...he bitches at you for a while, gets insulted, then runs off into the forest with a maniacal cackle
heinrix fired a mild insult [considering what he's like to everyone else its barely an insult] and he took big enough issue with it to start saying how he'll break him and turn him into a pet. oh sure dude you're responding super well to this mild comment from the guy who accidentally insults everyone and their entire ancestral line at some point
i think it says something that he's learned to speak your language fluently too. that Has to be some kind of Yikes moment to admit publicly in drukhari culture. buried family secret great great grandfather drukhari-georg learned to speak mon keigh and now we claim he just spoke oddly because was shot in the head as a child to prevent the shame
he also knows the mon keigh lore that says youre a super special little guy as rogue trader and actually LISTENS to the fact you're the special little guy as rogue trader. and he does treat you as more equal/with more respect than the other characters. thats not just a drukhari culture yikes thats what gets you checked for a concussion or brain damage
literally socially atrocious enough its believed he's working with you [read: with you. not using you, not manipulating, cooperating. this is a big difference i feel] and only he himself doesnt believe it
ignore the fact he eventually DOES work with you which. is its own follow up statement
challenges you to fight him, to give chase then and there. i made him wait while i went through english government simulator where i queued for multiple days, did multiple day/week voidship trips back and forth, got distracted by accidentally starting jae's romance, pasqal telling me to servitorise her, getting blackout drunk with her, shipwide broadcast tm, giving her a voidship, her getting me a space cat, attacked by pirates, dealt with a plague, explored a few extra systems.......................
he destroys your palace. ...its rebuilt effectively within a week. most of the damage is in bodies which are just sent to the poor district to rot [almost feels worse than the damage done good job imperium]
the throne has claw marks. he could've blown it up or shot it or piled corpses on it but no he wanted to sit on the fancy chair and so turned into a common housecat mauling the sofa arm
how long was he just sitting there lounging on that chair? again see how long i kept him waiting. he was just sitting there trying to find a comfy position on this [for him] kinda small chair JUST so he could briefly taunt, break your window with his space motorbike, jump off the chair in a dramatic [but not gunna lie not that impressive] feat of gymnastics, then fly out. he doesnt even shoot at you as he leaves
i will continue my list as i see more that entertain me
#warhammer rogue trader#rogue trader marazhai#marazhai rogue trader#marazhai aezyrraesh#dont listen to how he tries to portray himself hes LAME and i thoroughly enjoy that about him#like. marazhai is a social outcast on so many levels and he is trying SO hard to compensate. it makes him incredibly interesting#ive seen some stuff of him later on but not all that much so im really curious how it'll go/how well i've grasped him#my current thoughts on him? he's just. fundamentally someone who desperately wants to be understood#but in all his long life he's never found it. and commorragh isnt a place for weakness like that. so he acts over it#he pretends to be some great evil mastermind with a lot of flair which is Intentional. because he doesnt know how to act like other drukhar#so concealing that is the best he's got. he doesnt realise the yawning gaps that show it for what it is and bring distain on him anyway#drukhari hate him because he's not like them. he's odd and dramatic and takes things to heart when he shouldnt but dismisses things he shou#he's tolerated for his blood connections and how it killing him could be an invitation for feud. he's also easy to get out of the way#send him to go chat to some mon keigh he'll be so fixated on setting the stage for the meeting he'll miss the important stuff#humans hate him bc he's drukhari. they believe the way he portrays himself because it fits propaganda#hell he may've even learned how to act drukhari from human stories. it'd fit tbh. ....i want to think more on this now#either way he loses. and tbh thats why i do like the idea of him with pasqal. theyre both freaks and social outcasts despite their ranks#robot rambles
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Sure Buggy and Crocodile have devil fruit powers, but Mihawk is the only one who could get their house key if it fell to the bottom of a pool, so really who's more powerful
#one peice#op buggy#op crocodile#op mihawk#cross guild#im new to the fandom so im so curious on how the no water thing is handled in modern aus without devil fruit powers#is hydrophobia just the number one fear in modern aus?#mihawk desperately searching for a hotel that doesnt have a pool so his partners dont have a panic attack on their romantic getaway
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Readers and Writers of Tumblr:
#poll#writing#reading#thinking about posting a big essay on my gripes with the state of genres and tropes#and im curious about this for science#asexual#queer#i am desperate for nuance
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I finally watched Desperation Road last night and oh my, Garrett baby, you’ve moved me yet again. Then when i was supposed to go to bed, the love story of Russell and Sarah WOULD NOT LET ME SLEEP. I was already in the feels when they showed him carrying her picture.
I adore them already, off the little we got, the actors acted their asses off and gave us so much in their limited screen time together.
They’ve moved into my head and heart, so naturally something angsty full of longing and emotion is in the works….already 8 pages in and once its ready it will be on A03. 💕 I’ll update Garrett’s master list with the link too. I’m liking a looser format these days, like connected one-shots, more than traditional chapters.
I can’t stop thinking about them 😭 that scene on the steps killed me. It was also nice to see Ella, who I was already familiar with, briefly paired with one of my hubbies. Its a treat for me 😁
Also please read up on this film and the book before watching. There are some serious trigger warnings in it. Just a heads up.
#Russell Gaines#Desperation Road (2023)#garrett hedlund#Ella Thomas#my loves ill get you back together#i did enjoy the film over all and now im curious about the book#such a heartwrenching story#Russell x Sarah#Russell Gaines x Sarah Magee
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you know shit's bad when youre looking for content of the stuff you like on reddit, devianart and fucking amino
#text post#EMBARRASSING CONFESSION. YES. I KNOW#i read fanfiction on amino this year because i was desperate for content no one talk to me#i also went through pages of DA and sadly you can't see certain posts unless you have an account BUT IM NOT SUBSCRIBING TO THAT SHIT!!!!#i shall stay curious
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ive been putting ttpd onto different playlists, mixing taylor’s albums around, and the storytelling while listening on shuffle has been fascinating and really allows for a huge shift in perspective if you’re looking for new ways to listen to these albums in conjunction with ttpd. sonically some of the shuffle arrangements are actually genius so this is just fun to do on a lot of levels! anyway i was just curious what other fans listen to or would lean towards so im throwing this out there. right now i am listening to 1989, rep, and ttpd on shuffle but “the tortured midnight lovers” playlist is my favorite so far 🩵
#poll#ttpd#just for fun#i specifically left out folkmore bc I don’t believe ttpd fits in that universe#I’ll listen to the three on shuffle together but#it doesn’t all fit so nicely like you think it would?#anyway thanks for voting or reblogging ����#pls don’t flop im desperately curious what other people find connections and parallels in
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assume that it was killed as humanely as possible and there was no cruel industrial farming etc,,
#poll#i think i would in desperate circumstance#from what i heard dog meat is mid af so i have no desire to do that#actually wait maybe id eat a dove#im curious about a pigeon#what if they made gołąbki out of real pigeons#no desire for cats dogs rats etc tho#oh wait. rabbit. is that the same as bunny or a different species#i woild eat a rabbit#that's like common meat i think
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still tidestrider posting I wanna know what the chain of command is in the undersea, specifically in regards to gillion. the elders are on the very top, obviously, but where does gill fall relative to them?? he was directly raised by the elders and trained in the capital's palace, he's believed to be the chosen one (which would make him a holy figure by default,) he has the power to knight people, and the title of "champion of the undersea"- but did anyone actually answer to him? is he near the top, in terms of power, or is he treated as a citizen in that regard? do people even know who he is, or is "champion tidestrider" some unknown person, while gillion was just the guard that stood with the elders at religious events or announcements?
#i want to KNOW#i like to think people know who gill is just bc i think it would be a little silly for him to be a celeb#but ONLY in the trench. outside the capital hes just another guy but in the city? coolest guy around#no idea if that could realistically be the case but i digress#desperately want undersea arc please please please im so curious#jrwi riptide#jrwi#jrwi show#gillion tidestrider#jrwi gillion#gillian tidestrider#jrwi gillian
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i feel like something happened here
#i desperately want to know what was said that lead to this notice being added#i know im the reason ‘liberal wet dream’ is on there i told grigori someone on tumblr called vanguard that like 6 months ago#im just far more curious about this than i logically should be#not personif#no return#no return vanguard
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#i mean considering my personal interests im my follower base is definitely going to be skewed (spoilers) but i’m so curious#ninjago people have been talking about the bizarro ninja and i’m desperate to know how many actually know what it’s from#it’s not like……. obscure#dc comics
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I have to be so honest and vulnerable with you for a second. I keep thinking of getting another complete works of Shakespeare
#tales from diana#my riverside 1973 is still my beloved baby but she's really worse for the wear these days#i didn't start thinking about it till i got one for my friend like 6 months ago for his bday#and i kept looking at it and being like oh wow. his doesn't have all the scratches and rips mine does#mine is still BETTER obviously bc it's MINE. it's in worse condition objectively but it's MINE#making it the best copy in existence. to me#and it was my aunt's textbook at boston college. my grandmother let me have it. i think of it as a family heirloom#and the coating on the front cover side of the spine has been slowly tearing off :(#like there's one long vulnerable rip almost all the way down. idk how to prevent it from breaking further#other than just by not using it. and idk how to fix it wo making it potentially worse#i didn't know how to take care of old gigantic books when i got it at 19. i never considered it#i hadn't had one before. but now im more experienced#and im also just curious about what's inside other editions. especially newer ones#i only have 6 plays and at least 3 of them i plan to read in a copy other than the riverside#like my 23 plays and sonnets (1953) edited by t. m. parrot has 2 and another play im gonna borrow from library lending#and id definitely wanna get rid of a lottttt of books i have right now before getting a new one#im already planning on which books to donate when i declutter#and i need to declutter my books DESPERATELY. so so desperately#it'd just be nice to have another complete works in my collection. for a number of reasons.#that way i also suppose ill have two big books of shakespeare for auntie diana to pass down someday#i don't plan on getting one soon im just in the contemplative phase. but boy am i tempted
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alright, netflix. i see you. do soul eater next.
#FOR LEGAL REASONS THIS IS A JOKE#…….or is it.#am i that deranged. am i that desperate for se content.#tbf i was never into one piece but the first opla ep actually kinda fucked#we don’t uh. talk abt what happened with death note.#but idk man if they did a live action se created by ppl who actually loved the original#listen. im just desperate and thinking.#id be curious to see who would be cast. it would have to be just as goth and silly and campy btw.#im talking their over the top outfits and kids stripes. all of it.#could u imagine lord death…….#i need to stop while i’m ahead (i never got there)#soul eater#one peice#opla#one piece live action#netflix
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