#im coping in normal and healthy ways

[shyaringan]

arcane fandom is this anything

[basu-shokikita]

tbh one of those things I’m completely hellbent on is that murderface is gay. not bisexual and definitely not hetero. gay. men lover. cuck slurper. pillow biter. a fully fledged HOMO no doubt about it

[windupaidoneus]

picture me like a ffxiv minion running around in circles at very high speed I FEEL LIKE SUCH A BURDEN AHHYAAHAHAHAAHAHA!!! WAEEEHHH XD okay im good No im not i need to be euthanised

[neptune-scythe]

If I ever write a fic without major character death or graphic depictions of violence assume I have been kidnapped and am calling for help

[elasticitymudflap]

you think your boy Simon is gonna come back for season 2 or is he all arced out?

LISTEN *GRIPS U* SORRY IM ALL CAPS IM JUST BEING VERY NORMAL RN

SEASON 1 WAS BASICALLY ABOUT GETTING HIM TO THE POINT WHERE HE WAS SIMPLY NO LONGER LOOKING FOR AN EXCUSE TO THROW HIS LIFE AWAY, AND RECOGNIZING/NOT ROMANTICIZING THE CONCEPT OF SACRIFICE IN HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH BETTY BECAUSE OF HOW DISPROPORTIONALLY SHE SACRIFICED HERSELF FOR HIM IN WAYS HE WASN'T COGNIZANT OF.

IMHO:

SEASON 1 BARELY TOUCHED UPON ADDRESSING OR WORKING THROUGH HIS ICE KING TRAUMA. THIS IS MY FIRST MAIN THING I NEED THEM TO TOUCH UPON.

IT CONCERNS ME THAT SIMON DIDN'T EVEN COMPLETELY CONNECT THE DOTS IN THAT ALL THE CRAP WORLDS THEY WENT TO WERE HINGING ON WHO HE IS AND THE IMPACT HIS LOVE AND SACRIFICE (OR THE LACK THEREOF) HAD ON THE WORLD (DID SORT OF FOR A MOMENT IN THE STAR BUT NOT NEARLY ENOUGH IMO)

HE'S OBVIOUSLY STILL PROCESSING HIS YEARS TAKING CARE OF MARCY IN THE APOCALYPSE???? THERE WAS NO FOLLOW-UP WITH HER PHONECALL EVEN IN THE FINAL MONTAGE???? WHAT HAPPENED IN OOO WHEN HE DISAPPEARED??? THESE TWO NEED TO FUCKING TALK FOR REAL

WHAT DOES SIMON'S LIFE LOOK LIKE WHEN HE'S NO LONGER AN EXHIBIT?? HOW THE HELL DID HE BECOME/CONSENT TO BECOMING AN EXHIBIT IN THE FIRST PLACE I MEAN WHAT THE FUCK?? HOW DID HIS LIFE CHANGE SO DRASTICALLY (OR DID IT NOT) FROM OBSIDIAN??

THE MORAL OF "MAYBE WE SHOULD HAVE GONE ON THAT TRIP TO AUSTRALIA INSTEAD / WHO KNOWS WHAT LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE" IS SO BAD FOR HIM TO END CONCLUSIVELY ON AFTER EVERYTHING WE'VE SEEN BECAUSE THE WORLD STILL FUCKING ENDED??? MAYBE HE FOUND THE CROWN, MAYBE HE DIDN'T, BUT EITHER WAY FROM WHAT WE SAW IN THE ALT WORLDS IT WAS ALL GOING TO END IN TRAGEDY AND MAYBE THIS IS THE ONLY WORLD WHERE WE GET A BITTERSWEET END INSTEAD OF A HELL WORLD THANKS TO THEIR DESICIONS??? IDK!!!!!! I'D LIKE TO EXPLORE THAT CONCEPT I THINK

THE UNIVERSE IS OUT OF HIS NOODLE, BUT DOES SIMON'S HEAD-PORTAL STILL WORK?? CAN HE CONNECT TO FIONNA WORLD IF HE'S IN HIGHLY CHARGED MAGICAL ENVIRONMENTS??? ACTUALLY, WHAT THE HELL ARE THE LONG TERM EFFECTS OF A HUMAN HAVING A UNIVERSE IN HIS DANG HEAD

HE'S CONNECTING WITH ASTRID NOW AND SEEMS TO BE ON MUCH BETTER TERMS, IS SHE GOING TO INSPIRE HIM TO START WRITING FIONNA AND CAKE STORIES AGAIN TO COPE IN A HEALTHY WAY WITH HIS PAST THIS TIME??

SIMON'S RELATIONSHIP WITH ICE THING???

SIMON'S HUMAN PAST IN GENERAL: WHY IS THIS DUDE THE WAY HE IS??? WHY DID HE BELIEVE THE THINGS HE DID, STUDY THEM, MAKE THEM THE THINGS HE HINGED HIS LIFE AND CAREER ON???

ON THAT NOTE: FLASHBACKS. MOTHER FUCKING FLASHBACKS. MORE OF HIS ADVENTURES WITH BETTY. WE ACTUALLY SEE SO LITTLE OF WHAT THEY WERE LIKE TOGETHER WHEN ACTUALLY HAPPY, HUMAN, AND IN A RELATIONSHIP TOGETHER, IN THEIR ELEMENT, AND NOT STRICKEN WITH LIFE-OR-DEATH DESICION MAKING EXCEPT FOR HIS DUMB ASS GETTING BRAINED BY A CHERRY JAR

HIS YEARNING TO FIND BETTY AND APOLOGIZE TO HER WAS "TECHNICALLY" HANDLED IN THE SHOW, BUT YOU CAN NOT TELL ME THIS DUDE DOESN'T HAVE LASTING ISSUES AND TRAUMA AROUND THAT. ABOUT THE FIRST TIME HE PUT ON THE CROWN AND BETTY DISAPPEARING FOREVER. ABOUT THE GUILT AND FEAR ABOUT HER BEING DEAD DURING THE WAR. ABOUT LIVING NINE FUCKING HUMAN LIFETIMES IN A HAZE WHERE ALL HE KNEW WAS HE HURT THE PERSON HE LOVED MOST AND HE JUST NEEDED TO FIND HER. IT BECAME AN INTEGRAL PART OF ICE KING'S CHARACTER, HIS MOST DEFINING TRAIT STRIPPED TO THE STUDS. HE HELD ONTO THAT LAST PIECE OF SIMON PETRIKOV SOME HOW UNTIL SO MUCH TIME HAD PASSED HIS ONLY HOPE TO EVER FIND HER AGAIN WAS TO USE TIME TRAVEL. I'D LIKE SOME MORE OF THAT, IF YOU PLEASE.

HOW IS HE ACTUALLY COPING POST-SEASON 1? WHAT ARE HIS THOUGHTS ON ALL THE WORLDS THEY VISITED, THE THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO HIM, THE IMPLICATIONS, HIS INTERPRETATIONS? HE MAY BE IN THERAPY BUT HE'S STILL DRINKING.

ANYWAY

[cringefail-clown]

at last, where doing it man where MAKING THIS HAPPEN

cringes jakehal fic rec list

just so were clear: some of the fics are unfinished, and havent been updated in a while. leaving a comment to let the author know that youre reading and youre enjoying it is fine, but dont be a bag of dicks and harass them over when the new chapter will be up. have some decency or else ill be inside your walls.

Heart by fawn_writes || rated T || 1/1 || 663 words - man its so good. short and sweet. jake comes by to witness the construction of hals new body while also reminiscing about the times he fought brobot and his untimely demise. a good sparkling of body worship. "Everything will be normal. They’ll manage to keep it normal. After all, Jake has enough of his own heart to share." - fuck, that lines so effervescent.

What he needs by fawn_writes || rated M || 1/1 || 1259 words - another banger from the same author. they be doing the horizontal tango, but nothings too graphic. healthy serving of body worship from jakes perspective, as well as his internal struggle with his apparent robotic attraction.

Dead Weight by squirtgunplay || rated M || 5/9 || 27337 words - oh that fic. oh my god. love me some zombie apocalypse au with existential horror sprinkled on top. hal and dirk are twins but with a twist in this one. theres mystery. theres injuries that make you incapable of moving around. theres ship of theseus discussion. its nourishing. its beautiful. jake and hals banter in this one is fucking amazing, and the author captures their characters so well. the relationship between hal and dirk is also very fucking good and heartwrenching and just ugh. stellar writing, the forth wall break made me laugh out loud, hal gets called a security camera (derogatory). theres graphic depictions of violence, so beware of the tags.

Tennessee Whiskey & You by MistLaFey || rated T || 5/? || 12217 words - major character death and graphic depictions of violence tagged, so beware and read the tags. no-sburb au. dirk fucking dies (its in the fic description so i dont feel like its a spoiler). beautiful exploration of grief, unhealthy coping mechanisms and trying to get back into the normal life when theres a big part of it suddenly missing. hal and dirk are twins. jake is not doing well. hal is also not doing well, but pretending he is. its heartbreaking and some scenes made my chest hurt. very good fic and i dont understand why it doesnt get more love. it deserves it. go read it, even just for the funeral scene, i got teary-eyed over it.

seconds by squirtgunplay || rated E || 2/2 || 18698 words - graphic depictions of violence and its no joke, presidential alert the girls are fightinnn!! but its also so funny and the authors so funny and its also really hot! no sburb au, hals a human and dirks twin. he gets kidnapped by a craigslist hitman jake who mistakes him for dirk. the banter is top game in this one. hal cant keep his mouth shut even in life or death situation. jakes a dork, but hes a deadly dork, and also cant keep his mouth shut about his personal problems. theres fistfighting and knifethrowing and hal gets a weapon put to his head at least twice and he thinks its pretty damn hot. theres banging in second chapter. what more can i say to sell you on this one. the characters are on point, the action is tense but its also written in a cheeky, fun way, smut is good, a npc gets unsubscribed from life. amazing fic, 10/10, will read it again.

I Think Therefore I AR by Taxi_Boy || rated T || 25/? || 30417 words - im saving the best for last. major character death. hal has to start the game and get his friends into the medium while dirk is missing, while also pretending to be dirk as to not raise their suspicions. im not going to say anymore about the plot, you just have to go and read the fic. genuinely my favourite jakehal - and homestuck in general - fic of all time. i love caliborn in this one. i cant wait to see what the author has cooked up for us in the future. its plainly genious.

these are only ao3 fics as i have no clue how tf you search other fanfic sites for a specific ship, but if you have any other recommendations feel free to add them onto this post! we all need some good jakehal fic recs in these trying times!

[thepatchworksys]

ppl be normal about alters having different opinions from the rest of the sysyem. harmful ones. radqueers, bigots, pedos. whatever! the system cant control that. no it doesnt reflect on the rest of the system. and most of all its not weird or uncommon.

But hey, you might ask: why? why would your mind form a racist alter?

its a good question! the brain tries to help us cope in a lot of weird ways. An alter can form as a stress response, its the brains way of "helping". But it can be bad help because the brain is far from perfect.

Heres an example: Jamie has did, she is having intrusive thoughts about sexual assault. its horrid and she cant deal with this anymore! -> brain splits to cope -> this new alter has thoughts of sexual assault and enjoys those thoughts and fantasies. the new alter doesnt believe sexual assault is wrong, so they can handle the thoughts- unlike jamie, who was disgusted and horrified.

Another example: Silas is gay, but he is having a hard time coping. His parents dont accept him. -> brain splits to cope -> this new alter is very homophobic. they try to convince silas to renounce being gay, so he can become straight and not struggle as much. They also agree with the systems parents when they front, negating conflict.

Another nother example: Lucy is healing from her trauma, she grew up in a cult and has osdd. However, she feels deeply uneasy - her new life is safe but different and unfamiliar. She is deeply homesick and feels guilt for it. -> brain splits to cope -> Lucys new alter is a cultist. They become a xenosatanist and join a "faux online cult" in the radqueer community. It feels comfortable and familiar to be in a 'cult' again.

Those are 3 examples of alters forming with harmful mindsets. Traumagenic alters form as a result of trauma as a way to cope- But that doesnt mean the coping mechanism is healthy.

As well as this, alters are identities. You may view your alters as their own people or as parts of 1 people, but either way alters are identities based around personalities, traits, and opinions. Just like any singlet, they will pick up their own opinions which might be harmful, because they have their own identity!

Example: Julia and Yuki are a system of two. Julia is very pro trans! However, Yuki has started spending some time on reddit and has been exposed to TERF ideals. Yuki is convinced and agrees with them, because like anybody, Yukis opinions can change and be swayed by her environment. Julia is upset and disagrees, but the terf mindset aligns with Yukis morals so she believes it.

Its not Julias fault that Yuki expressed autonomy and free will. Yuki's mind was changed by an outside force and Julia couldnt control that. The only thing Julia can do is try to convince Yuki otherwise but she cant force it.

This isnt to say its ok to have/act on these beliefs- im just saying that it is not a moral failing of the system to have a harmful or bigoted alter, and there are tons of valid reasons why. So please please be nice to your sys friends. Their alters harmful opinion doesnt mean the whole system shares it. The sys is probably doing their best, you just have to support them along the way.

[syscciht]

really dumb question, why do you ship dreammare? (YOUR ART IS SO COOL BTW !!!)

tahnky uou…

i think i enjoy dreammare a lot particularly for the sun and moon motif. its like. so poetic and elegant and gives me a reason to make them pretty and celestial when they kiss fhdkkd. though also a part of shipping them (and other ships im a little more private about) is just a thing i use to cope and have fun.

i think topics like incest and guilt and abuse etc make a story flavorful and better than a happy healthy normal couple. when i do rps or just think about them i enjoy working out their feelings and why they’re the way they are (trauma or mental disorders)… a psychology topic im really obsessed with are paraphilias and i like incorporating them into my writing and ideas (especially since paraphilias can cause guilt in those who are affected). snickers i just like making my favorite characters guilty for wanting to kiss their brother (dream and swan in particular).

i also think theyre just pretty together?? my most recent drawing of them is so pretty i think. dream’s glowy yellow is so pretty against nightmare’s dark teal. sun and moon.. dark and light.. negativity and positivity.. good and bad.. opposites attract :3

[nobody-is-here01]

back on my bullshit, (im here to spam you Marine Luffy stuff)

Thinking about Marine Luffy’s dynamic with the 7 warlords and it's one of the funniest things ever.

Boa Hancock is going to get her own post because I have SO MUCH to say about her and Canon! Luffy along with Marine Luffy’s dynamic with her.

Anyway, personal headcanons of what I think Marine Luffy and the Warlords dynamics are.

Doflamingo: Luffy is usually the one who during Warlord meetings has to deal with Doflamingo’s bullshit. This is partially because Luffy is the only thing that really puts the fear of god back into Doflamingo. Also, Marine luffy is absolutely feral, and terrifying, and does indeed bite. I think in some twisted ways Luffy in this AU reminds Doflamingo of when he's younger. In some fucked up way of trying to cope with trauma Doflamingo tries to simulate situations that he went through as a kid to see how Luffy reacts. To see if things had been a bit better, if things had been different, if Doflamingo could have been a better person. The Dressrosa Arc still happens in this AU except a bit later. As Doflamingo’s tyrant rein finally falls he realizes that “huh maybe we never were that similar…”

(I have no idea if this AU is a Crocomom AU or not but I’ll go ahead and write up how it would go in either situations.)

Crocodile: Dynamic is definitely more cold and distant than in an AU where Crocodile is Luffy’s other parent. Luffy is seen as a threat, and Crocodile has at least 15 different drawn-up plans on how to deal with him. (none of these plans would actually work in practice.) The dynamic is pretty much just business, you leave me be I’ll leave you be.

Crocomom: Similar to the first one. Except the first time he meets Luffy and he hears that he's Garp's grandkid he's freaking the fuck out. Because holyshit, that's his alive, grownup, kid. Crocodile has no idea how to explain to Luffy that like “hey im your biological mother, now a man, hahaha…” So Crocodile simply doesn't. (The two of them do have a heart-to-heart much later alone in Impel down during the breakout.)

Moria: Honestly I don't have much to say about him. Luffy absolutely hates Hogback and Absolom though. So Luffy has a dislike for Moria and what he does. But Moria out of all the warlords not including Kuma is the easiest to deal with, so that earns him some brownie points.

Kuma: Im not sure if you caught up with the latest chapters. (specifically his backstory chapters) so I will be staying silent for now as not to spoil anything for you.

Mihawk: Mihawk is both intrigued and concerned at the beginning. Because that is Shank’s hat, and Shank’s kid. Why is Shank’s brat in the Marines?? Mihawk also like all the other warlords tends to use Luffy as some form of a coping mechanism. It's not uncommon to hear about Luffy and Mihawk getting into another physical fight. But after a while, Mihawk does realize that he has been accidentally treating Luffy as if he is Shanks. Mihawk realizes that he can't force Luffy to become his new sparring partner. Luffy is not Shanks, and he can't fill that hole either. After Marine Ford Mihawk reads the news regularly, a rare grin on his face whenever he catches sight of a straw hat.

Jinbei: That is Luffy’s emotional support parental figure your honor! The only one who is normal, safe, and sane. Also, the only one to look at Luffy and go “Are you okay?? I don't think healthy humans are supposed to act like that.” Also, the one to get Luffy to open up and heal slowly after Marineford. Also Luffy definitely knows the full truth of what happened to Fisher Tiger in this AU, so yeah that's something.

(I am so sorry, this is a really long post 💀)

Aaaahhhhhh!!! I've missed you and your bullshit bombarding my asks!

I love how with each dynamic all of them are also like, 'alright this kid is fucked up, keep an eye on him' but for different reasons

So here are some of my thoughts on what Marine Luffy’s relationship is with the warlords (love yours so much)

Crocodile : so unfortunately not a coco-mom au, like you said their relationship is strictly business, Luffy doesn't really care for the warlords as long as they don't get in his way.

Domflamingo : Luffy finds him kinda annoying so he tries to avoid any situation where he would meet him, unfortunately he can't at warlord meetings, but he's tried, probably one of the only warlords Luffy wouldn't mind punching out of the blue, dude would punch him without reason (gets away with it too)

Kuma : (no sadly not that far yet but I know a bit of his background not much though) but Luffy likes him

Moria : almost the same relationship as Domflamingo, except he just straight up avoids him, unless he has to deal with Moria then he will and he'll do it quickly

Mihawk : one of the few warlords Luffy actually respects, he admires his fighting and his character, granted it annoyed him a bit to constantly be reminded of Shanks, like you said he also like the other warlords used luffy as some form of coping, but after he realized what he did he stopped and him and Luffy kinda became like gossip buddies, like they'd hang out whenever Mihawk was in the area, but Luffy wouldn't actively seek him out, Mihawk would have to come to him if he wanted someone to talk to or spar with,

Jimbe : only warlord and person that Luffy actually likes from the warlords, yes he likes Mihawk, but Jimbe is different, Luffy has a sort of awe for Jimbe and felt very honored to know about him and his past with Fisher Tiger, Jimbe is the only one who knows that Luffy secretly wishes he was a pirate instead of a Marine, when Jimbe asked why Luffy didn't just become a pirate now Luffy replied saying that he's made so many promises to the people he protects that he doesn't want to go back, not now at least, Jimbe is also the only one who knows about Ace and Sabo and how much Luffy misses them and how proud he is of them

absolutely love your asks 🩷

Have aa good day/night

[oilyfry]

Heyo Im gonna rant about a horrendously bad and disingenuous take I saw on twitter concerning pricesoap

Undermine and invalidate???

What Price says is that the radiated wild dogs feeding on human corpses in Pripyat are more fearsome than the regular domesticated Russian K9s. That is all he says (and he's right). To think what Price is doing is invalidating Soap, of all things...christ

For the sake of the argument though, lets imagine Price said something along the lines of "You think these are scary? You haven't seen the dogs in Prypyat." it still would not be invalidating Soap's feelings. Do you know ribbing eachother is what soldiers do all the time? Do you honestly think Soap would be hurt over this???

But yeah I mean, they should have had a long heartfelt convo instead, and on the same freq. channel for Roach to hear, in the middle of a covert infil on enemy ground. Yes.

First of all, Price most likely didn't know about the rabies. In the journal, Soap writes he doesn't want to tell Price, and Nikolai "seems capable of keeping a secret".

Second of all, again--Price literally says none of those things oh my goddd. Soap doesn't bring up his personal experience with Russian dogs, but his feelings towards dogs in general. All what Price does is fucking talk about his own, not Soap's, experience with dogs.

Third of all, AGAIN-- they are special forces operators. If Price knew about the rabies all he would likely do is tease Soap about it, just like Soap teases Price about his age, moustache, and Price about Soap's near death experiences. This is normal for them, they're bloody soldiers not HR office workers, graveyard/offensive humour is a coping strategy and a part of the military culture as is banter!!!

Third of all, Soap is happy because his friend/mentor he thought to be gone is alive and kicking. When Soap says "good to have you back" it's an indicator of how much Soap values Price. Soap likes to keep the comms clean. During 'the gulag' mission, Soap tells Ghost off for yapping, but here in 'Contingency' Soap is so glad to have Price back he breaks his own standards to tell him that. Price doesn't leave Soap hanging either and acknowledges it with a situation appropriate "Roger."

So like. How the hell did that person inferred toxicity where there is none? Idk but i guess it's part of this strange phenomena whereby you have to have an argument for why you don't like a ship, even better if you can paint the ship as toxic or other flavour of problematic.

But yeah Soap and Price's relationship could be interpreted in many ways, not all of them being healthy of course, but toxic? Get outta here

[cysomen]

im gonna talk about the title of my cypher character study bc its very important to me! and im adding a readmore for spoiler purposes :)

i wavered between a couple of titles, the closest possibility being "i just need enough of you to dull the pain". this was mostly because the possibility of it being misinterpreted was lower compared to the actual title of "i'm in love with my own sins". i settled on the latter because i think it's truer to what i'm trying to convey; that being, cypher's relationship to sova in this fic and how it doesn't matter at all.

i've tried to show different types of dynamics in my cypher/sova fics, a handful of those being sexual but nonromantic (the bounty hunter/outlaw fic, the enclosed space fic, and some other WIPs) but this one is important in particular because there's such an absence of a platonic or even a compromise in place of a romantic relationship. cypher and sova have basically no chemistry beyond understanding each other's humor.

cypher's perspective of himself as someone who hasn't earned everything he has kind of captures the first point; him viewing pleasure as a "sin", or something to be guilty about. he doesn't think he deserves what he has, independent of sova-- that he shouldn't be able to put down his work or the physical burden he has turned his grief into.

then there's the other aspect of that, which is the fact that he's "in love" with his sin. i was worried about misinterpretation on that point because i really didn't want to create the assumption of romance (or even a solidly platonic relationship between them). cypher's not in love with sova, or even technically with what he considers his "sin", he's trying to tell himself he is. convincing himself to like what he's doing, or to fall "in love" with it is key to how he's failing to cope with his grief. if he were to think of it any other way, it'd be to accept happiness that he does not deserve, or to acknowledge that he's failing to handle it.

despite cypher's lack of a perspective on sova's character, sova himself is very important to the fic; sova views his dislike of cypher as a flaw in his professionalism, and he feels compelled to tell cypher that. to me, there isn't a whole lot of an implied relationship of any kind between them in actual valorant canon beyond general dislike from sova towards cypher, and even then i don't think sova would allow it to become something that impacts his professional relationship when working with cypher. so i tried to write it at a point where sova's distant from him, but there is that vague idea that they're skirting around a legitimate improvement of their relationship because cypher doesn't want a half-apology and sova isn't willing to give him a real one.

there's still that question of why sova accepts. he recognizes that cypher's dealing with something and he's not dealing with it in a healthy way. he's not there to question it. sova in this fic cares, being a mentor figure in the protocol, because he's used to having to act as a sort-of buffer, but it's not much more than that. he's content to let cypher work through what he's working through. it could be sova trying to understand cypher instead of disliking him on the principle of honesty, but cypher (or me, to be honest,) isn't clearheaded enough to see that. all of that may have left him a little flatter than id like, but i also think it makes sense from cypher's perspective for him to be characterized like that.

in general, this work was a really big change from how i normally characterize and portray them, and i enjoyed it a lot! but, that being said, i would probably find it painful to write another fic that leaves sova's character so unspoken. i just wanted to practice some of the details of cypher's character that i'm not very good at expressing.

[xxbvtt3rflyb0yxx]

apparently my state wants to ban phones and headphones from schools next year if that actually happens and i can’t find a way around it i might actually kms

i need to listen to music to function and regulate myself and i have extreme anxiety about my phone if i don’t have it with me i get panic attacks because i worry about people finding it and looking through it or someone calling me in crisis or an ememergency and missing it they can’t take my phone i legitimately can’t function without it and even more if they take my headphones

i have it on my 504 that i can have noise cancelling headphones but they might not let me have the electronic ones and normal ones without active noise canceling cause me even censory issues than not having headphones because they fit wrong and they make an echo noise and they’re all made for fucking children and i don’t just need the noise canceling i also need my music to self regulate when im at school listening to music is basically the only healthy coping mechanism i have when i have panic attacks and stuff because i don’t have access to what i would do at home

i’m sorry ik im complaining about first world problems and its not that serious compared to other things but its very distressing to me and i dont know what to do

[kevin-the-bruyne]

something must be in kt’s water lately because the man’s been extra princess-y lately, he’s almost got this…….pregnancy glow. he looks like he’s getting husband-ready. I feel like fk are slowly settling into this husband-wife dynamic and it’s surely something!! and it’s domestic too so I mean, I approve ✅ and it makes sense considering how domestic CFC is set to be, but it’s still so different. I’m struggling to cope with first bringing this hand-around-the-waist-“my omega 🤨” attitude to the table but maybe it’s just their mutual underlying possessiveness thats being pushed to the forefront for the time being

I also think It wouldn’t be surprising if their dynamic shifts again if their next project entails a tenser relationship between their characters

ok ramble done 😛 hope you’re healthy and doing well ❤️

man im going to come out and say it - I find it a little weird and im not really drinking the KoolAid and it seems like a lot of people didn't either. like something is about to happen professionally I think everyone can feel that things suddenly changed??? and the way X handles it is by being The Most Annoying.

I don't think their brand will break up or anything like that but I feel like the sole reason there is so much breakup anxiety despite them being committed to each other for at least a whole another year because of C4C is because something indeed seems to be up???

My theory that they already know they're going to have a lot of solo work coming so they're preemptively readying fans to see one without the other seems to be the most normal one. Everyone else is on Khaotung is secretly dating Joong/someone as though Khaotung wasn't a slut from Day 0.

But this tweet points out the biggest reason why my theory does NOT hold:

They still don't have broadcast channels on IG!!!!

If they truly had taken on the mantle of managing solo side hustles this is the Very First Thing they would do. Cannot explain how I follow only two celebs on broadcast: Net and Joong and this is as CP free a space as one can get.

But yes, your theory is actually really plausible too. The frontrunner in fact. I'm embarrassed it should have been mine. They went through a similar phase of confusion between OF and THK and we know Khaotung struggled to get into Bison's headspace. And it's very possible that as they're going through filming/script workshop for C4C they're trying these dynamic out for themselves and feeling the characters out. I think stories that are not plot driven, put a lot of burden on the actors to bring unique nuances to their characters - aka I think there's probably a lot more ways to be Lynx and Tiger than there is to be Bison and Kant and First and Khaotung are making some decisions now as they're workshopping.

[pointing firmly to my delulu hat]

But I think what's different this time is that First is doing it too. Usually I see these shifts as being led by Khaotung, but like you said, First is really pushing the 'thats my omega' vibe onto Khaotung and I don't know that Khaotung is really built for that. He is princess, he is princess but he doesn't seem to take these compliments with the giddy embarrassment that Gun and Nunew are so good at portraying. He looks kind of...regular embarrassed. Khaotung needs to start choking First on live TV like Mix does to Earth if First insists on saying these embarrassing possessive stuff I am embarrassed to admit that im being 100% serious

I think if Khaotung is princess, he has to be a slut [like Ray] or girlboss it some other way [aka via murder like Bison]. If Khaotung is endlessly devoted, he's the dog and the chaser [Ayan or even Gaipa]

When he's both endlessly devoted and also the princess, he is Chonlatee which...hey is this just misplaced PoddKhao breakup anxiety??? Khaotung's little crinkle eye'd smile is his smile of lies as we have understood from his time in PoddKhao and boy those crinkly smiles have been really??? frequent???? recently?????????

thank you for this ask - I was totally bedridden for two days [and spent my birthday in bed :(] from a nasty stomach bug but now that im better im having more fun and my makeup birthday dinner is tonight.

[smallestdogswilldie]

ok you know what makes me sad. as like a former self proclaimed misandrist man hater that would cry and scream about how much it sucks to live in a mans world etc etc etc put estrogen in the water fountains (was never a terf. yall can still die)

for anyone who is still… like that… how can you live in that hatred and misery every day. are women paid less yes are we denied reporductive care by old fart men who are going senile and some by some middle aged women yes. are men statistically like responsible for almost all violent crime and child crimes yes. the more you focus on this shit JUST TO GET MAD ? No ACTION? your fucking soul will get torn apart. genuienly whats the fucking point of just sitting in a circle and hating men. its such a stupid fucking “personality trait” to GENUINELY hate all men sorry babe but you are self harming your soul is shriveling. im sorry please cope. i dated a “””bi””” man because i “hated straight men” for 2 1/2 years…

tldr i hated “masculine” men so much i ended up in a loveless touch deprived relationship with a man who wouldnt touch me because he was actually gay (didnt feel the need to tell me this for 2 1/2 years..) nothing wrong with that but you see where my hatred of MASCULINITY landed me. in a relationship that was about to kill me from stress trying to figure out why i was untouchable because i chose the most feminine man in the midwest to date. hitting myself with sticks in the forest hoping someone would come kill me all because i refused to date a straight man. SWORE never to date a straight man. then i fucking did and hes normal. are they all? not at all. maybe i got lucky but im sorry. girls who are attracted to men but hate them genuinely just are in a cycle of not knowing how to pick them or of unresolved trauma. its on you to fix that. are they going to say sorry? no 😂 so YOU fix it because we all have to.

are the majority of straight cis men uneducated, rude, bigoted and kind of stupid? yes! literally yes. if you feel some type of way or anger towards men because of trauma i ABSOLUTELY understand. but we still gonna need a therapist tho girl. i cant even feel bad if you don’t address your issues and spew hatred at half the population for no other reason than to hear your own voice, and making no effort to heal yourself.

i like to believe, ground breaking statement here, that some straight men are actually great fucking people with manners and decorum and emotional intelligence. do you have to risk it to find them? yes. is it worth it? yeah. 1000000x over. there is beauty in TRUSTING SOMEONE. if they hurt you? ok ouch! do whatever has to be done to keep loving. you cannot shut yourself behind reinforced fucking bars because 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 men hurt you. easier said than done yes esp if you have trauma. do you have no desire to HEAL????? and become full of love again???? stop w the bullshit. like actually its tired childish and im going to say it its pessimistic, annoying and posionous. keep that shit to yourself until you resolve that shit. or dont and shut the fuck up!!!

some of us are trying to keep faith which you clearly have lost. and its a sick, stinky attitude to have. keep it to yourself because it makes anyone with a healthy relationship and attraction to men feel like a wet blanket. like sorry that happened to you and you havnt put any effort into healing and that you are seething with hate. its not my problem. survive like the rest of us and for your heart health, literally get help before you have a heart attack or get ulcers.

[crystaltreebee]

incorrect quotes ?

based on my friends groups quote book:

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Jack: “War is just next level bullying” (Pulitzer interaction coded haha)

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Someone(idk ok?): “I’m proud to be normal”

Race: “IM SORRY YOURE BASIC”

~~ Albert: “Mass Murder is ok”

~~ Race(losing at uno): “you’re so… unamerican!”

(fun fact the context behind this was our principal losing at uno to me and a friend)

~~ Davey: “Dad can I have a few friends over to take on |the newspaper|” (original quote was the Canadian Coast Guard)

~~ Race: “you may be fruity, but you ain’t a snack”

~~ Pulitzer: “go away you homeless hallucination”

~~ Albert: “that statement makes me want to become homophobic”

~~ Katherine: “I just really like women”

~~ Albert: “I’ll gouge your eyes out and shove them down your throat…. Mmmm boba!”

~~ Race; “every seconds a hot second of you look nice enough.”

~~ Specs: “Romeo is that even a burger?”

Romeo: “it is a burger it’s just got 19 patties.”

Elmer: “wha- why?”

Romeo: “I’m a hungry little boy”

Buttons: “ ITS THIRTY DOLLARS ROMEO!”

(I witnessed this 😔)

~~ Les: “You’re not gay???”

Davey: “….no?..”

Les: “But I was an ally, man! Now I’m forcing you to be gay like everyone else.”

~~ Davey: “I don’t like men!…. Ok when you look at me with those eyes maybe I do.”

~~ Specs: “Australia doesn’t exist, Romeo.”

Romeo: “yes it does??”

Specs: “no. DAVEY! Australia doesn’t exist right?”

Davey(sighing): “Yea,”

~~ Sarah: “I hate to break it to you but men……no”

~~ Oscar Delancy: “No electric pencil sharpener? That’s homosexual.”

~~ Spot: “you know when I’m angry I like to say I’m going to commit war crime in |manhattan| and I think that’s a healthy coping mechanism.”

~~ Les(looking at pride flags): “I’ve been to all those places.”

David: “are you sure?”

Les(pointing at bi flag): “I’ve been there”

~~ Jack: “you heard it here guys! Axe body spray is the #1 cause of marriage.”

~~ Hannah: “I’m a good person I swear! I just mildly support child labor”

~~ Race: “you’re alone in my room and I take out my |harmonica| and start playing careless whisper.”

~~ Race: “do you feel picked on, harassed, unloved? Good, then my work here is done.”

~~ Sarah: “you’re embarrassed because you like men, and you absolutely should be.”

~~ Specs: “you thought Germany was part of Britain.”

~~ Romeo: “Call me America the way I be spying.”

~~ Davey: “How do you sell your mom for a pack of cigarettes?”

Race: “they were cigars, coronas actually.”

Davey: “they were lung cancer”

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I’m so sorry for how long this is, the quote book is a year or so old by now

[yuukei-yikes]

you know ive never thought about it before but why is shintaro such a codependence magnet. this guy is out here polarizing his relationships like a professional. ayano. takane. ok that's most of it i guess. like i genuinely do mean this lovingly but it seems like whenever this guy has a problem his default course of action is to cling to his nearest Emotional Support Girl like a koala. AND HES SO IRRESISTIBLE ABOUT IT TOO they can't even tell him no (or at least not easily). they just see his big wet puppy eyes and they're like ARGH fine you can stay over. or i guess in ayanos case she just immediately falls back into affectionate patterns.

its kinda sad that the main healthy way to interact with shintaro is at arms length bc if you let him get too close he just Clings. saying stuff he doesn't even really mean to get you to stay bc he's so Scared of abandonment that his first priority isn't processing how he feels, it's Convincing You To Stay. which i guess makes a LOT of sense given ayaki(?) and the whole isolation thing afterwards (forgive me if this is inaccurate I've only vaguely kept up with the lore since like. 2016).....

and then u have kano who grew up feeling like the only healthy way to interact with Anyone is to keep them at arms length and. and. where was i going with this. augh anyway your kanoshin is doing things to my brain. (i hope im not wildly misreading your authorial intent bc whatever you're doing it's amazing.)

raghhhhhhhhh i just wanna hit shintaro on the head repeatedly with a cartoon mallet that squeaks like a dog toy on impact..... basically its just so sad bc he genuinely can't be trusted to cope with his feelings & kano already has trouble trusting :(( but yayyy yippee hooray more takane and haruka next update !!!!!!!!

also hope u have a good day :)

YA LIKE i wouldn't say he's codependent with ayano but it's like u said, she easily falls back to that pattern. she has a weak spot for shintaro. that was her first love and like... they were WRITTEN for each other. so no matter what shintaro and ayano do, they can't keep away from each other too long. it's in their damn code...

and yesss i do think that's what draws shintaro to kano at the beginning. he'll always hold him accountable lol. in the end, that's how shintaro feels truly understood. though of course with shinaya breakup shintaro did deal with a fair share of ayano's rage too hehe. and currently, i think ayano would be able to put her foot down too

as for takane. i'm making takane (and haruka) more of a comic relief and the Best Friend archetype of a romcom, where the character has no real purpose other than trying to reason with an incompetent protagonist and only shows up after a good deal of bad choices has been made by the protagonist. hehe. which is kinda funny considering haruka and takane are my favorite characters LMAO i think they work as a good foil for shintaro and ayano though. they're currently living a normal ass life while shintaro and ayano are... doing whatever the hell they're doing! their codependency is currently doing better tho. takane has another priority before shintaro now (baby)