#julez1sn0t0k

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moots! ask box! now!!!! /nf

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nuv’s emily co09 pfp inspired this

@faggotvirus @ultraadespair @gruesomeghost-boy idk if all of you know class of 09 but if you do lmk if you agree (all based on vibes but nuvco had to be emily obviously)

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chat i love my girlfriend so much

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the one good thing about being an active anorexic dating a recovering anorexic is that i know what triggers feel like so i know what to do and what to avoid

asking about her safe foods, letting her bring her own food on dates, answering any questions she has about food i make for her, taping over nutrition labels on candy i give her and stuff like that is kinda just a given in my mind

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ty for the tag nyx :3

@di3tdr3amz @sm4ll-limbz-and-corpses @crucispidey @s4ge-s4ge-s4ge

Tag game!

What are your lock screen and your home screen set as?

Ignore the weird eye thing, I had to take individual pics because I cant take screenshots on my lockscreen.

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And anyone I missed!

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seeing teenagers on here “getting into ana” makes me so mad

not even mad at them, just mad at the fact that this disorder is viewed as a diet or a lifestyle change that’s totally up to your choice and the way it’s romanticized. being seven years into anorexia at 16 is so weird because i feel like ive been condemned to this, i’m already at the point where my ugw is my only goal in life, ive already tried and failed at recovery, ive already been from bmi 19 to 13 to 24 to now 22 and going back down. this disorder is my life, it’s all-consuming, and the idea that there are people my age “getting into ana” breaks my fucking heart. i just want to shake them by the shoulders and tell them they don’t have to do this shit. and at the same time i’m jealous of them because they’re further along in life than i was and they’ll probably be out of it faster. they’ll be new enough to it that they can still hit their life milestones and end up replacing it with the need to live and take responsibility, which i will probably never be able to do. it’s not necessarily and issue of severity, but longevity. i’m not old enough or far enough into my ed to be in the severe and enduring category but i don’t doubt that i will if i don’t die before that. but statistically, sixteen year olds “getting into ana” are not likely to be in that category. and even if they do, the people on the coquette girl blogging aesthetic side of edblr don’t expect to. they don’t know what they’re condemning themselves to if they do stay in it long term and as much as i hate that, part of me wants it, i want to be able to romanticize this shit i wish i didn’t know what the long term side effects are but i do because a lot of it’s happening to me now and i wish i could be a crazy anorexic druggie delinquent teen like from the movies who romanticizes their life and does whatever they want and not have to face the consequences until i grow up but i got into all of this shit way too early and now i feel like my life has run its short and shitty course already and there’s no point to anything.

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i must sleep i need to no longer be awake

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how do people not realize that it’s ableist to demonize anorexic people for having a disorder like “oh they’re glamorizing it” no you stupid fucking cunt they’re just existing in their body, mentally ill people are allowed to have a life we don’t have to be miserable and crying about our disorders all the time

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oh cool i’m applesauce and gas station coffee

epic

You are what you eat.

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this post is angry and political, if you’re not in a space to read that then scroll but i strongly encourage you to read because it’s important especially if you’re in the us

ICE is coming to my school district starting today and i’m terrified and fuming about all of this, they’ve already been to homeless shelters and apartments in my area and there’s been raids minutes away from my home. i am privileged to be a white person born in the us and i want to do everything i can to fight this by educating myself and other people about the fascism in the us and use my anger productively not just because i have close friends who are immigrants or people of color but also because this is fundamentally evil, fascist and white supremacist. no one will benefit under supremacy except the 1% rich white men who own more than they deserve and play us like pawns.

my girlfriend, the love of my life is a second generation immigrant from mexico and is very visibly a person of color, her father who’s first gen passed away but she still speaks spanish at home with her brother and they’ve stopped speaking it in public for their safety. she is documented but we know ice doesn’t actually care about that as long as they’re a person of color. i’m terrified for her and her family.

the policy in place of arresting 70 “suspected illegal immigrants” a day is proof that they don’t care about the legal status of people, it’s just the way they’re attempting to justify genocide of people of color, especially south american people. if you don’t believe that, just think about the fact that they’re not arresting white people. it’s only been non-white immigrants.

a lot of people are avoiding using the word but trump is a nazi. this is so similar to everything that happened leading up to the mass murder of jewish people and other minorities in ww2, the patterns match perfectly. i’m angry and im scared and im mourning for the people that have already been arrested and taken from their homes by the mass deportations.

many of you have probably seen this already but it’s a good recourse and i’ll be posting more about ice, resistance and general angry posts about all of this shit as long as it’s relatively safe for me to do so

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to all my moots in the us: we can scream and cry and be rightfully fucking angry but we are not going to let him win. our lives are valuable and if we give up we are giving him what he wants. fuck the government, fuck him, fuck everyone who supports him and fuck elon with his pretentious speech and fucking nazi salute

survival is the best form of resistance

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when you stalk a moots blog and you’re like oh my god i need to protect this person let me make you a warm cup of soup or tea and wrap you in a blanket and put on your favorite tv show but you can’t do that so you just spam like their posts

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fit check bc i actually feel kinda cute today

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whenever i have height dysphoria i just tell myself that 5’4 is the ultimate loser guy height, im not unmasculine im just pathetic

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sh moots PLEASE tag your posts with tw sh and put fresh cut pics under a read more, im really on the verge of relapsing rn and im trying not to but seeing other people cutting deeper than i have and stuff like that is so triggering, it’s a competitive illness just like an ed

i care about all of you a lot and i want to stay moots but i really don’t want to be triggered into a relapse rn when im fighting hard not to

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the law is a horrible judge of morality but also that person probably isn’t even breaking it, like the retweet said, telling people their rights isn’t against the law. undocumented immigrants still have rights and protections even if they’re not legal citizens and a lot of what ice does is actually against the law (unwarranted search and seizure, denying right to a fair trial, cruel and unusual punishment, etc)

this just goes to show that as long as rich right wing white guys are the ones breaking the law it’s ignored if not enabled, but if marginalized people do anything even slightly seemingly close to breaking a law then suddenly it’s unacceptable. and even if laws are being broken, undocumented immigrants break laws to protect themselves. the white supremacists in our government and law enforcement break laws to violently hurt and ruin the lives of people. literally. outright.

Slaves who escaped were breaking the law. Literally. Outright.

Jewish people who escaped the Nazis were breaking the law. Literally. Outright.

The law is a horrible judge of morality.