#julez1sn0t0k

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wait what huh come again what???

Oh my god. Mr. Beast assassination attempt????????????????????!!??!!???!!????? What is HAPPENING

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kill me now my dad walked in on me getting freaky with my girlfriend and she just started laughing rlly hard and i felt like there were bees in my skin

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if i could just burn like 1000 calories per autistic meltdown i would be at my ugw by now

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last meal before i just stop eating until someone physically forces me to because i hate myself and i feel like im going insane :333

i wish they made low cal oreos

actually i wish that oreo coke stuff wasn’t limited edition because that shit is so good

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how do i get a packer and trans tape without my parents knowing someone help me out

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REPORT AND BLOCK THIS CREEP ‼️‼️‼️

asking a random teenage boy with a vent blog to let you exploit their addiction for porn is fucking wild

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i escaped school >:3

walked to a park and now i’m just chilling here til i have to go back for class

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me but with vegetarianism instead of allergies

Okay so how the FUCK are we doing thanksgiving

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i admit that the black parade is objectively and artistically the best mcr album but three cheers will always be my favorite it’s just comforting for some reason like my brain latched onto it and now it’s my go to album for any emotion i’m feeling or every situation im in ever

it’s my autism music fr

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why is everyone a fucking raccoon i thought i had a unique theriotype but apparently not lmao

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i’m gonna try to get clean from self harm and stop abusing pills

i already threw out my blade and flushed my percocet, and i’m gonna try to slowly go back to taking my lexapro the intended way instead of abusing it (i might switch meds if i can’t stop tho im not sure)

i’m probably gonna block sh and maybe drug tags but if ur a sh blog or u talk about any of this stuff on here and we’re already moots then it’s totally fine for u to interact with me still :3

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how do yall restrict and stay within a calorie limit without planning everything out in detail? /genq

i cannot fucking restrict without planning out my meals i just end up not eating at all and then binging at the end of the day :/

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it’s confirmed i’m getting admitted

see u guys when i get out :>

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i might be getting admitted to a mental hospital so if i’m not active for a while that’s why

context/vent under cut

i woke up feeling horrible and had a really bad meltdown because i’m so overwhelmed with everything in my life and everyone who needs things from me that i can’t fucking do and i don’t know what to do i don’t want to fight admission anymore honestly i just want to be under someone else’s care and not have to take care of myself anymore i can’t handle everything being my responsibility i can’t handle life i want to die and im not safe

i’m scared

i’ve been to the psych ward before and it’s not a fun place to be at all it probably gave us more trauma i don’t remember it that well but i can’t handle being in the world and going through life alone the suicidal thoughts and delusions and paranoia are getting so bad and i feel like im going insane

i don’t know what to do

i wanna cry in someone’s arms i want my mom but she’s on the phone with the doctors in the other room and she’s upset because of me

my dad is angry, he drove away and i don’t know where he went but im scared he’s gonna kill himself because of me he told me im not the only suicidal one and im being selfish and he said if i wanna die so bad i should go and do it and he put his hands around my throat and my mom was crying and its all my fault

i don’t want to be taken away from my mom and my cats and my girlfriend but i can’t control getting admitted and i’m not safe it’s so hard im fighting so hard not to just end it right now

i don’t want to put the people i love through that though i’ve had a friend kill himself and i don’t want ivy or rose or sparrow or any of my friends or my moots on here to go through that i don’t want to leave my mom or my brother he’s only nine and he needs me he said im like a parent to him he said he likes me better than our dad and we’re both scared of our dad i don’t want to leave him alone with him

we’re going to the emergency room soon

i want my mom why did she leave my room i don’t wanna be alone

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pov a politician with POTS

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wieiad 9/11

2nd day of the duo diet with nyx :3

i was too lazy to write it all out so here’s a screenshot of my log doc