#im bi enby so maybe its just a bi trans thing?

[chonkymoth]

jumping on the trend- choose some men but it gets progressively worse & i’ll tell you what i think about you

[spikrock]

my mad t party lgbt hcs explained

very messy post below! some are genuine reasonings and others are just "yeah haha trust me bro"

tarrant: bisexual & nonbinary

i mean for all the bi characters the hc is pretty self explanatory, i mean look at them yknow. hes a little too fruity with mally and thackery 🤨 but tarrant and alice are literally bi4bi couple of all time as for the nonbinary hc, i dont know! id like to know if anyone else sees him this way or if its just me :) hes just got too much enby swag 

alice: bisexual & trans

its all spiderwebs fault!!!!!!! it made her gay!!!!!!!!! /j but seriously, kissing ladypillar and different numbers such ho hey (you know how every now and then theyll switch alice standing with mally to someone else like thackery or absolem, the few times she did it with ladypillar are so funny because they cant rhyme the pronouns 😭). also ik this sounds silly but i really appreciate that in the mtp shows once ladypillar was added they didnt stop doing spiderwebs or change it to be like “haha were both girls 😵‍💫blehh this is so weird 😂”/play it off as a joke or anything because they very easily could have done that. shes trans. i already made that post with her and mally but again, if shes not trans then why is her color palette blue and pink? checkmate liberals. 

thackery: bisexual & bigender

yeah hes bi i dont know what else to say he and mally are in love frfr i actually just completely made up bigender. made it up, i dont know where i got it from i just remember early february drawing mad t party on my laptop and suddenly thinking “bigender thackery” and its stuck with me since then. (the two genders i hc him with are male/female though so) i wouldnt say he feels just one or the other, he feels both at the same time

mally: bisexual & trans

he is top ten bisexuals of all time,, whenever they do the pretender and tarrant and alice stand on either side of him and take turns singing he is DYING. passing away HE IS TRANSGENDER!!!!!!! we all know it. instead of coming out as trans he made up some crazy story about being killed in a war and then coming back as a man 🙄/j hes just dramatic like that

chessur: gay & trans

haha this is mostly because of @thatrandomartistjavi's hcs xd chessur is special in the sense that hes the only mtp character that never really gets a chance to flirt with anyone else since hes always hiding behind that drumset. from what ive seen he was shipped with dinah a lot, presumably just cuz theyre both cats since they rarely interact, so ive never really understood it :p i usually hc cheshire cats as nonbinary/something under that umbrella but this guy gives me transgender vibes. idk

absolem/ladypillar(? dont know if she ever got a real name): lesbian & trans

shes very much a lesbian. just. just like yeah. i think the most prominent character that she flirts with (other than alice) is mally. from what ive seen it only really happens when its el dormouse on stage but before i started seeing that i always saw mally/absolem/thackery as like, a trio. i mean obviously everyone in the band are friends, but idk. i have lots of drawings of those three hanging out so maybe thats just something my delusional brain has completely made up. but anyway the point is i dont ship those two and i sort of see them with a more sibling dynamic. mally always holds her back when shes trying to touch the little castle music box thing, at the end of sets he’ll pull her antennae to take her off stage/she'll pull him by his scarf, etc. (also theres a clip where she kisses him on the cheek and as they begin to walk off stage she turns to the crowd and mouths “no” and does the throat slitting gesture thing which makes me think theyre sorta just playing around :p)

sooo in a post a while back i said i hc her as genderfluid but ive changed my mind?? actually before i made that post i headcanoned her as trans but then switched to genderfluid and now ive uhh changed my mind again. im very indecisive like that and very easily swayed on my opinions haha,,, @ticktockteapot's metaphor for her “becoming the beautiful butterfly she was always meant to be” is very nice i like it lots. also the fact that ladypillar has a much higher stage presence than absolem (obviously not including the spiderwebs number…or crazypillar) was always so sweet to me cuz like,,,aw shes finally more comfortable being herself and performing :’)

tl;dr none of them are straight none of them are cis. happy pride month and thank you for coming to my TED talk

[night-rhea]

Hey, I think I might be drinkin a bit of the genderfluid if you catch my drift. I was curious about your self-discovery and what you found out about it. You do not have to respond but it might help if you did. Thank you, Sash.

Hello there Sash! İf my words can help you even just a little bit i would be glad to tell you about my experiences ✨

İ am now very very comfortable about my genderfluidity, but discovering that wasnt that much comfortable.

Actually it was pretty hard for me.

Since my middleschool i was the "im not like the other girls" kid. İ never knew why, i just knew i different and actually i was pretty okay with that.

But in highschool, i started to question why i was different. First i discovered and came out as bi and i was expecting like "Okay that was why i thought i was different now i can continue being normal because being bi is normal"

Ho boy how wrong i was. İ wasnt like other bi girls either?

The thing was sometimes i really wished i looked other boys. Without the curvy body i have. İ was mostly jealous of their flat chests. İ was jealous of not accepted into boys friend groups because well i wanted to be like them. Not in just being masculine way. İ even felt i would be more comfortable with being feminine if i had a male body.

That made me thought maybe i was a trans boy.

And sometimes i was feeling so distant of all other people. "boys are like that" "all the girls are like that" and i was "No im not like any of them". İn these times i neither wanted to be seen as girl or boy. İ was even saying "im a dragon"

That made me thought maybe i was an enby.

And also sometimes i was very comfortable in my body, dressing like a fairy sometimes, feeling very girlboss, like i was so okay with that. Good chest good hips, i was asking myself why i was not liking myself like that.

And that made me thought maybe i was just a girl i was born as.

Not being able to understand if i was a boy enby or girl made me feel like i was faking it. Because how i feel was changing all the time. İ didnt think that was normal and maybe im just looking for attention. That was why understanding that i was genderfluid was so hard.

İ went through other genders and their gender dysphorias to understand its just changing.

When i understand its not me not fitting in any of gender identities its just my gender changing, then i understand i am genderfluid.

İ cant even explain how relieved i was. Because again, i found out im fitting in something, even not in all society.

To understand if youre genderfluid or not, all you need to think is if your gender changes or not. Just this. No "but"s. Genderfluid is also an umbrella term, it has mini terms under it and they can be more spesific than genderfluid so looking at them also helps if you have "but"s about genderfluidity.

İ hope i did clear somethings in your mind, if you have anything to share or ask please dont hesitate to reach to me again

İ hope your gender discovery will be more comfortable than mine 💜

Take care, Naz.

[starlightomatic]

ok, hot take incoming, but the way queer communities, and in particular sapphic communities and bi women/enby communities, talk about men is weird as fuck. as an example, someone brought up just now that some sapphic fb groups don't allow mention of male partners. on the surface that makes sense, they're spaces to center sapphic relationships. sure! but like, there's a difference between using a sapphic flirting advice group to ask for advice about a male crush (clearly not what the group is for) and mentioning a male partner in conversation (eg. talking about gushing to a male partner about a sapphic crush in a poly context).

someone defended this saying that the whole world centers men and sapphic spaces shouldn't. and on its face i get it. that is true! but there's a difference between mentioning and centering. more to the point, it's just... when you put restrictions like that on how people can speak about their lives, you're assigning a value judgment to their life choices whether you mean to or not. the message is clear: if you're bi and you choose to be with a man, you've made the "wrong" choice. here's the thing. men as a class are oppressors of women and nonbinary people. more specifically, cis men as a class are oppressors of women, nonbinary people, and trans men. but, while the personal is political, there is a difference between men as a class and men as individual humans. and some of the shit i see is straight up dehumanizing.

another example. all those jokes by bi women/enbies about how shitty it is that they're attracted to men. idk. i think it's worth thinking about the way we slide from recognition of men's positionality into thinking that it's "better" or queerer or more sapphic to lean away from attraction to men and not to date them. like you're more pure if you only date women. and i get it, after dating a ton of men it did feel super important to me to take a break and only focus on women and nonbinary people. but how much of that was taking "the personal is political" to a place it was never meant to be? put another way -- the reason "not all men" was an issue was because it was being used to deflect from issues and deny that men operate as an oppressor class. the idea was never that in fact, all men are terrible. genuinely, on an individual level, not all men!! and what does it mean for trans men and trans mascs? that they're doing something wrong by exploring masculinity? what does it mean even for cis men, esp cis queer men, who spend a lot of time in spaces that see them as lesser? idk im just not here for it anymore. im not saying forget positionality. im not denying that a huge amount of gendered oppression occurs on an individual level, and often within a couple. it's in the home that so many men are enacting unfair divisions of household labor and childcare on women, in the home that men are demanding emotional labor of women, demanding double standards, etc. but what does it mean then when you encounter men who genuinely are conscientious, and kind, and gentle, and pull their weight and more? who think deeply about justice and who are there for the people in their life? men who step up for acts of service and community/interpersonal care? it's hard to understand how all this fits, then. by all means keep calling out bullshit. keep speaking about patriarchal oppression. keeping flirting with women! and date only who you want to date. but maybe we need to start changing the way we're talking and framing things.

[lovermyme]

I saw somebody sharing their lgbtq+ headcanons of the rrverse and i do not agreed 😡

So im sharing mines :3 💕

Percy: i love the bisexual hc, but i actually think its funny hetero percy, especially cause noone will ever believe. So i have both.

Anabeth: trans woman straight. But i also shipp pipabeth, so, same thing with percy, she has bi and straight hc.

Jason: transmasc omnisexual, and some rare times i hc him as gay too. He, piper & leo are not only the lost trio, they the trans multi lost trio. Hes polyamory

Piper: transfem, bisexual. Preference in fem. Polyamory too

Leo: trans nonby (demiboy), panromantic. Hes assexual with none sexual attraction, but hes sex positive, and feels alot of aesthetic attraction (like me 💕). Polyamory too.

Frank: hes trans agender (& goes with all pronouns), unlabealed.

Hazel: half of my heart loves lesbian hazel, but the other half loves frazel alot. I know that lesbians can feel attraction to agenders, but its kind weird when agender frank is not canon, and people might think im into mspec lesbians :(((. I think of her as bi or unlabealed too. And trans fem, shes just too cute 🥺💕. Uuuuhhh, she is full of headcanons, cant decide 😔

Nico: we all know hes canon gay, but do we all know hes canon enby? Nicos is totally non-binary. I hc him as agender, and as bigender (male - neutral), and as demiboy, and he totally is xenogender too. But most of time my nico is agender. So maybe he fits better in genderfluid. Plus: he uses neopronouns, and they/them and he/him, & hes gnc.

Will: transmasc gay.

Bianca: shes lesbian.

Reyna: they assexual canon, but i hc of them as demimantic also. And sometimes i hc they as trans boy 👉👈

Thalia: mutherfriking Bisexual. And shes a big flirty girl, she flirts with everything alive (just like her dad 🥺💕), especially new hunters, this sassy girl love make lil girls going red and then getting punched in the face by the old ones 😾. But its just for funny, she could never betrayal the hunters. ✌️

Luke: hes aroace.

Calipso: its kind of lesbian ya know 👉👈

Octavian: mean gay 😈

Rachel Elizabeth Dare: shes pansexual and xenogender. Shes also poliamory.

Silena, Charles, chris and clarisse: they were like a polyamory bisexual voltron mecha, but for now its only chris and clarisse :"(

End i guess 🤙

[frostironfudge]

eeeeep hello here’s my little fancast for now :3

these might not make sense to others this is just what my brain went with fmgshdhe

nia !! as !! hailee steinfeld !!

this just clicked in my brain immediately, maybe bc i wanna be besties with kate bischop, but look how pretty!! ofc thor would be a simp for her

i also imagine nia with glasses and as a bisexual. idk my gaydar is just going off with her :3

also can i just say that you gave thor a better love interest with better chemistry than marvel gave us with jane? bc i love thor and nia as a couple already :p

i imagine emery dua saleh, mainly bc they played my most beloved enby in media, cal bowman :)) can’t wait to see more of them!!

i imagine clark as sam collins bc he’s my favourite trans youtuber :)) he’s helped me a lot with figuring out i’m nonbinary transmasc

miles as danny pudi!! probably bc he’s my favourite actor as of now so i imagine him in a lot of things

the dean as tony leung. idk i just watched shang-chi again and he plays an old dad with like a leading position. i know being the leader of a thousand years old mob and being a dean are quite different from eachother but eh it clicks in my brain lmao

and whoever it was that attacked y/n as david tennant. probably bc of his roles as kilgrave from jessica jones and barty crouch jr from harry potter 4 i naturally imagine him as a lot of kinda insane villains like that lol

fmgahdhshs i’m sorry for not going into deeper details like with the other fancast i’m rly tired lmao. lmk if i missed any characters :)) i hope you like it!

— zylith :p

ZYLITH YOU BEAUTIFUL HUMAN THIS IS SO GOOD AS ALWAYS

more under the cut!

Nia:

you and i both wanna be besties with kate bishop she is so badass but is a lil smol bean

honestly i can see hailee as nia, oh and you're spot on about nia being bi!

IM ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING (honestly thor deserves the best and not to toot my own horn but Nia is one of the best for him if not the best!)

honestly writing thor and nia is such a joy i want to explore them in further chapters and i have a rough outline for the chapter im doing that in

emery:

honest i enjoyed the breath of fresh air dua saleh brought to sex education as cal, their characteristics and journey was truly mesmerising to watch and the representation it brings for several others is a cherry on top

I honestly picture them with glasses and they have this just absolutely comforting air about them, more of emery is coming into the lime light is all i can say for now

in my headcanon emery and y/n meet on day one and they are very nervous because they have only been open with their pronouns and sexual orientation for the past year and university is a new place and dr. stephen strange (department head) makes sure everyone says their names and pronouns because he knows how daunting a course can be and it makes emery very happy that they can introduce themself to the fellow students and just seeing the radiant smile emery gives upon their turn just has everyone in smiles and awe.

clark:

the photos you have provided do fit the aesthetic i have in mind for clark, i'm so happy you had a positive influence to help you realise that you are nonbinary transmas, be you unapologetically and proudly, you have an ally here with you and a friend ❤️

miles:

i've seen danny pudi in quiet a few different roles i'm hoping to start watching community what are your thoughts?

I do think they would also be a good choice for miles!

the dean:

honestly i think it is a spot on recommendation, as we've seen in shang-chi he does have that authoritative side but a softer side as well which i think loads of teachers/professors should have

y/n's attacker:

well i can't confirm who i have in mind as it will be revealed but honestly how did i not think of kilgrave?????????????? (might just give him a role cause he and his ability would fit in so well.)

awww don't worry its alright if you did not go deeper we can have more discussions in the future always! i'm so sorry i did not reply earlier i was so caught up and i was just trying to push the chapters out since i want to be a week ahead of schedule like this week i posted chapter 5 while writing chapter 6 almost did not complete it in time but now fortunately i've got the structure for chapter 7 so i'm contented

[tedwithhairclips]

okay.

I know this is unnecessary but i had an impulse to write it. anyways.

I

keep

seeing

people

with

their

friends

liking

the same things.

and i'm sitting there

hyperfixated on bill and ted

STARING MY FRIENDS STRAIGHT IN THE FACE

and not seeing one who would ever get into this stuff like me.

i have ONE friend who has seen all the movies. One i was excited to have over so i could finally have a bnt nerd friend like me.

I said those words out loud.

"I'll finally have a friend who likes bill and ted :DD"

lmao false. nope.

They like the movies, they think the plot is good. But they just dont like the movies.

I know this sounds super like pushy or whatever to make my friend like the same stuff i do and then i sit here not trying to like anything they like but i DONT KNOW WHY I NEED IT SO BAD.

IM STANDING, TALKING TO MY MUTUALS,

KNOWING I HAVE FRIENDS WHO LIKE BILL AND TED.

IT MAKES SENSE, I FINALLY DO

BUT THE FRIENDS I'VE KNOWN FOR A LONG TIME

THE ONES I TALK TO IN REAL LIFE

THE ONES I VISIT.

NONE.

NOT ONE.

AND I CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHY I NEED IT SO BAD.

I have thought maybe,

because i'm so focused on it, and its going to be hard for me to NOT be focused on it, then i should just talk and talk about it.

It makes me happy, bill and ted, all the headcanons make me happy, all the fans make me happy, every single movie makes me happy, the characters, the people, the representation within the media, that makes me happy and personally connected to each character.

Bill, has been headcannoned mostly as trans and bi, and has adhd. Thats wonderful. I can connect to that because i am a bisexual person who is underneath the trans umbrella. And i have adhd and can relate to that too. I can connect to how he's been seen. I've read fics on his dysphoria. That made me both sad and connected at the same time because i deal with that, every day, and i have nothing to do about it. Reading about him, using a binder, getting sugery, cutting his hair, changing his name, i sit there wondering if one day i could do that. but i cant. so i see him do it.

Ted, has been headcannoned as mostly nonbinary and bi (or pan i dont know which one is more used) but i connect to that on such a deep level. Also, adhd and autism has been a thing seen from Ted. This makes me happy. I have self diagnosed with adhd, and i've read into autism and the fact that i'm seeing someone who i love, who gives me comfort, also like this, it makes me feel appreciated.

Believe it or not, Bill and Ted has helped a lot with my identity. My gender mostly. I read more into a lot of nonbinary hc for ted and stuff and i kept seeing how there wasn't a mold for being nonbinary. For a while i didn't use the label because i felt like i had to have a certain way to be enby. But i kept reading and seeing art and photos and stories about him and i realized i didn't have to be a specific kind of non-gender conforming person. I can still be me.

They made me read more into adhd, gender identities, autism, orientations, and even just anything i needed help on.

They may be fake but they are always there.

And seeing how people have close friends who relate to things like this on a personal level and they can talk, and talk, and joke about it and understand it is just a wonderful thing.

They are comfort characters. They are BIG comfort characters. And to have someone you know that also find them comfort characters is crazy, because you both know why you love them so much.

Bill and Ted have helped me with so many things, and they have calmed me down during moments of sadness or sensory overwhelm, or dysphoria, or anything negative.

When i watch the movies, i feel something so...nice, its so hard to explain.

I don't get why i feel this way. I just always have when it came to these movies.

And to see that none of my friends will ever understand this kind of stuff, its sorta heartbreaking at times.

i have no one to understand the personal bond i have to these films. Or to know why i am so extremely emotional reaction to the ending of face the music or the songs that play in the movies.

No, i'm not obsessed. No, i'm not weird about it. No, i'm not forcing my friends to love things they don't enjoy.

I'm telling you why i love it.

I'm telling you why i would want to give it to someone.

I'm telling you why,

I need bill and ted.

[slcklekind]

im not arguing this tonight but I’ve noticed there’s one key difference between inclusionists’ idea of what the words “gay” and “lesbian” mean whereas everyone else has something entirely different: us inclus recognize that gay and lesbian can be umbrella terms.

like fuck, queer people say “im so gay” all the times even if they aren’t exactly gay because you understand, in contact, what that’s supposed to mean (“I’m so gay” as in “oh she’s so pretty and I’m attracted to women”.) but i have a partner, a bi woman, who said something along the lines of “im so lesbian” in that EXACT context and people suddenly lost it? at the idea of a bi woman having Lesbian Feelings, explicitly described as such? (side note you know sapphic and lesbian as adjectives are interchangeable, right?)

and it’s not like people don’t use the labels/identities themselves as umbrella terms. example. first we say being a gay man means you’re a man attracted to men — okay, we’ll what about masc-aligned enbies? ok so now it means being attracted to both men AND masc aligned ppl. … now what about nonbinary people who aren’t male or female? ok so now I’m gay for anyone who isn’t a woman. what about nb people who are men AND women? and the list goes on. you’re generally understood if you include trans and non-binary people in your definitions of gay. (and BEFORE you try me- no this isn’t a bad thing. It’s good, that’s my whole point!)

now maybe im just old but i remember a time — not too long ago actually — when you were allowed to use as many labels as you feel comfortable with. I see that shit all the time on here, genderhoarder is a whole label of its own now! so why is it a problem when someone wants to use multiple SEXUALITY labels to describe themself.

i mean i personally don’t think the fellow member of my community who uses pan, bi, and omni to describe themself because they feel comfortable and accurately described with all of them is such a big deal. nor do I see the point in fighting them. i kind of have bigger issues to worry about, like the people who want me dead for being queer.

[nonbinary-safe-haven]

@letters-to-lgbt-kids has 22 questions for Enby’s to answer, feel free to answer on your own.

22 Questions for Nonbinary November! (Mod Jordan answering)

1.Which labels do you use?

I just use nonbinary, but sometimes i say im transmasc or that im a nonbinary trans man. nonbinary is the most accurate label for me, aside from neutrois

2.What are your pronouns?

they/them (primary), and xie/xem and ae/aer

3.How old were you when you came out to yourself as nonbinary?

14

4.What’s one thing you’d like to tell your younger self?

you can take youre time transitioning

5.Is there a myth about nonbinary people that annoys you the most?

that we are all children lmao. the infantilization of nonbinary ppl is super frustrating

6.Is there a nonbinary celebrity you look up to?

Gerard Way and Jonathan Van Ness

7.If you’re out, how did you come out?

so ummm i was forced out to my family which is a whole thing but i just casually tell my friends n ppl around me

8.Is there a gender-related pun you like?

since im also bisexual i like that i can say im non(bi)nary

9.Do you have friends who identify as nonbinary, too?

yep! my partner and some of our long term friends, and one of my roommates

10.Do you have a favorite lgbt+ character?

wolf from kipo and the age of wonderbeasts, and Seem from Jak 3

11. Lgbt, lgbt+, lgbtqa+… which one do you usually use?

LGBT

12. How do you explain the term “nonbinary” to people who have no idea what it means?

i say “im not a boy or a girl” and then extrapolate on that if needed

13.Tell us a fun fact about yourself (gender-related or random!)

im also intersex so sometimes ppl assume im already on hormones or they think im a cis guy n its all rlly fun

14.How did you find your name?

tbh i dont totally remember? i think i just looked up names that started with J

15.If you’re in a relationship, how did your partner react to your coming-out?

I was out before dating them so they knew going into it. theyre also bi so we are a super sexy nonb bi couple

16.Do you prefer partner, datemate, significant other or something else?

i actually rlly like datemate, though me n my partner tend to say partner now more often. I am also cool w the term boyfriend sometimes

17.A piece of advice for questioning kids?

it’s okay to change labels, pronouns, names, and presentations as often as you need! don’t let people hold you back from discovering yourself

18.Which flag(s) do you use?

nonbinary and trans flags

19.Any tips for bad days?

i usually turn to clothes. piecing together new outfits, looking for style inspo, and possibly even buying smth new on ebay. Presentation is rlly important to me so i find a lot of comfort in curating my wardrobe

20.Do you have a favorite nonbinary blog on tumblr?

i personally don’t follow many nonbinary specific blogs

21.Feminine, masculine, androgynous - or none of those things?

androgynous with maybe some masc leaning?

22. What are your three favorite things about yourself?

i can cook really well and i love to make food for people! i am pretty confident in my appearance and the way i present myself. i am super crafty and can knit, crochet, sew, weave, and any number of things i try to teach myself!

[tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors]

hey what are the loaft guys sexualities?? i remember you said logan was demisexual at some point, and obviously harley and elliot are trans and enby and virgil probably doesnt know since he didnt know that gay was a thing, but how about the others?? -ro

Patton and Roman are both gay, Logan is, as you said, demisexual

(maybe - im not entirely sure if falling in love with Virgil while he’s still in the casket technically falls under the demi umbrella, but Logan is definitely gray-ace, regardless - the other three comprise the complete list of people Logan’s been attracted to)

and Virgil is an audible shrug roughly translatable to “why are you asking so many questions i just work here”

Also, building on that, Virgil’s agender (though obviously uses he/him pronouns) he saw the mortal gender binary and was like “I would really rather not, thanks”

On the other end of the fae spectrum you have Remus, who’s pansexual and his gender is “HELL yes absoLUTELY *party popper noise*”

(Fae range from very ‘meh’ about gender - as Virgil - to fluid as hell - see Remus - and everything in between. For example, a LOT of sprites are - what we would consider - intersex and nonbinary, because theyre born from flowers and flowers are just Like That. Its not a hard and fast rule, but its a pretty common tendency.)

Remy is gay, Emile is also pan, (so’s Elliot, who’s also genderqueer), Harley is bi and a trans man, and Sloane, Corbin, and Kai (who’s a demiguy) are all bi, unless new cartoon therapy content comes out and contradicts that, at which point i will AdjustTM.

I think that’s everyone i havent covered outright (like Bell being a lesbian and Greta and Larry being bi) but lemme know if you want a particular character i missed!

[stillebesat]

Does Logan get nightmares after being with Virgil for a while? Does Virgil know of Logan’s old situation with his mom? Just curious about A Special Delivery! Love this story btw! Had me hooked from the beginning!

:D I’m glad you loved the story!! :D  Does Logan get nightmares after being with Virgil for a while?   Nightmare Logan struggled to draw a full breath as he stood on the very tippy tops of his tippy toes, trying to reach the handle that would free him from the horrible attic. 

“Momma.” He whispered, fingers slick with sweat from the heat. “Momma please.” It was too hot. Far too hot. Momma couldn’t be mad if he came out now right? “Momma.”     

But no matter how high he reached he couldn’t do more than touch the bottom of the round knob. He whimpered, letting his feet fall flat, turning in the too hot space. Sweat dribbled down his brow as he staggered away from the doorway. Maybe there was something to climb on? Something to help him?     

He squinted his eyes, catching something glimmering in the corner. “OH!” He ran straight to the sewing machine that glimmered dark brown like the melted chocolate on TV. If he could drag it over to the door--maybe maybe--he could climb it and reach the handle!     

Logan grabbed the metal bars of the table.    

“LOGAN!!”     

Logan yelped as the bars burned his fingers and turned to stare up and up and up at his Momma.     

“WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT BEING IN MY SEWING ROOM!” Her eyes shot fire bolts directly at him, with a scream he ducked, the heat from the flames scorching his back.     

Too hot! Too Hot! Momma was going to burn him in the attic! He tried crawling to her, but the floor melted around him, sucking at his legs. “I’m sorry! I’m sorry! I’m sorr--”     

“Lo?”    

A deeper voice, cold like the tap water washed through his head as cool fingers touched the back of his neck. 

Logan gasped, shooting upright in bed, looking wildly around. “Sorry Mo--” He cut off as a lamp clicked on revealing his Daddy right there in bed next to him. “Daddy.” He gasped, practically flinging himself into Virgil’s chest, clinging tightly to him. “I too hot. Too hot!” His eyes shimmered as he fought not to cry. “Too hot.” He hated being in the attic. HATED IT.  

Cool fingers ran through his damp hair as his Daddy pulled him closer, picking him up easily into his arms as he slid from the mattress that had been pulled into the living room where the big windows were. “Let’s get you cooler then, okay Lo?” He whispered like he’d done every time Logan had woken up from the attic dreams. “You don’t have to be too hot. We can be as cold as you want.” 

Logan drew in a shaky breath. “I--Ice cream---outside?” He whispered. 

Virgil huffed, voice tinged with a laugh. “Sure Lo. One cream pop only though, okay?” He said moving them to the kitchen and pulling open the freezer. 

--------End snippet. 

If he gets too warm at night, Logan will dream about being stuck in the attic while his Mom is talking to people downstairs. It takes Virgil a bit to figure out the right temperature to keep the apartment at at night so Logan stays cool enough to not have nightmares. But if he does, Virgil’s right there to help cool him back down in whatever manner Logan decides he needs. Sometimes it’s simply keeping the blanket off of him for the rest of the night, other times its cold wash cloths on the face or neck, a cream pop, sitting outside, cold baths...or a combination of them depending on how bad the nightmare was for Lo.  

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Does Virgil know of Logan’s old situation with his mom?

Virgil knows it was bad because he’s familiar enough with Remy’s duties as a S.T.O.R.K. to know just what it takes for a child to be taken away from their original family. Plus Logan had quite the bruise on his cheek when Remy brought him to him, and his son was practically skin and bones when he held him for the first time. It takes him a while to ask Remy just what sort of situation Logan was in when Remy found him though because in his wildest dreams of hoping they were still alive out there somewhere--Virgil couldn’t imagine the girl he nearly married becoming such a bad mother. Of course...he never really knew her.

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I love ur au so much but now I cant stop thinking about shapeshifter magnus. Particularly trans and/or nonbinary shapeshifter magnus. Thoughts?????

*chanting* genderfluid magnus genderfluid magnus genderfluid magnus geNDERFLUID MAGNUS GENDERFLUID MAGNUS GEND

i actually have had Thoughts™ about Magnus being able to change his appearance to more or less masculine/feminine/neutral/mixed according to what he's feeling that day. just. a more prominent jawline, or a slimmer waist, or small boobs sometimes, or just come and go with the facial hair, stuff like that. also (warning, big projection ahead) i kind of like to see magnus as this sorta genderfuck person who wants to look like a mix of everything, just have elements from all sides in this beautiful sort of mixture and hhnhhggggghhgg which is exactly what i dream of being tbh (honestly as an enby person who doesnt want to look neutral Magnus has inspired me a lot when it comes to gender presentation and really helped me figure out what i want from my transition so i mean im projecting but its not that far fetched to put him here) and like..... hhggghhhgh the Idea that he can change his body to do exactly that and exteriorize exactly who he is while also changing it everyday depending on how he feels is just *chef's kiss*. alec wakes up one day and finds that magnus' waist is slimmer and the goatee is gone and maybe he looks a little more curvy and soft? and he smiles and asks what pronouns he's feeling today and magnus is so relieved because every time he wants to look more feminine hes scared Alec wont be attracted to him anymore. He very rarely uses female pronouns but he does like the occasional they/them and sometimes he does want to feel like he has a more "girly" body. And Alec doesnt care because every version of Magnus is beautiful and he loves him and is attracted to him and his appearance doesnt change neither of those things

also im sorry but im a whore and like the sEX POSSIBILITIES??? god this reminds me of when i was younger and i had these fantasies that involved both parties being able to change whether they were AMAB or AFAB (i know, i cant believe i didnt figure out that i was a queer, bi little shit right then and there, but what can i say? Im stupid) and just hggggghhhhgggggghhhhhg magnus changing from pussy to bussy when he wants the particular feel that the prostate gives (which is way stronger than the G spot for him anyway), or wanting to have the particular feel of alecs fingers around his cock, or back to pussy when he wants the multiple, mind blowing orgasms only clit stimuli can give him???? hhggghhgghhggh also magnus can come from penetration when he has a prostate but not when he doesn't so i love imagining alec fucking him rough and Magnus is like whining and crying and dripping and desperate for it but Alec wont let him change so he can cum from penetration??? until Alec does put out and let him and fucks his ass and Magnus sees fucking stars and djdhejeidndkf i just Love This

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1/6 Hi! Im the questioning bi enby anon that is afraid of having ruined their life by questioning lol What can I do if there are no ways to chat to a professional online without spending money (im not economically independent) in my area? I dont live in the US and everything seems to be there. Aside from the pandemic, im not ready to go to any group in person yet. I’m very distressed about my queerness, to the point where it’s difficult to concentrate on other things like study.

2/6Part of me hopes this is not real and im just imagining things.I do have a therapist, but one time she made a weird comment about tinder including multiple sexualities so I never felt good about telling her about my possible bisexuality, but now things have escalated and im having suicidal thoughts in regards of my gender. I talked to an online friend about this but ofc these are things that exceeds him

3/6 i dont want to act on my thoughts, but im tired of having them so I considered talking to my therapist about this and see if she can relocate me with a gender therapist or something (and telling my parents something else) but im not sure if that’s a good idea

4/6 i do keep a journal and a private blog, but sometimes putting my thoughts there doesn’t make me feel better and I struggle to find the words to what im feeling. It used to help me a lot for other things, but for some reason is not as effective for this

5/6 i have joined a group online for nonbinary people but we cant talk about things regarding suicide and it seems like most ppl are more chill about these things that I am and sometimes it makes me feel worse to be in a group because it reminds me that I probably dont fit in standard society. I hate being sad about this.

6/6 so my questions are basically if there is somewhere i can talk to in chat without being US exclusive or requiring money and if it’s a good idea to tell my therapist about this even if she may have some prejudices. Honestly I dont know what to do, i want my life back lol (Tiger answered my previous ask, if they can answer this too it would be nice. If anyone else has something to say its welcome)

Hi anon. Have you actually told your therapist about your suicidal thoughts, if not about the cause of them? I think you do need to talk to a professional about these thoughts, ideally someone who is at least sympathetic towards queer people (if not queer themself) and qualified to address the suicidal thoughts with you (though obviously someone with experience of dealing with suicidal thoughts stemming from sexuality/gender related issues would be best, but may not be possible to find easily). Since you do already have a therapist I think she should at least be your starting point for this. Even if perhaps she doesn’t really understand queer identities she should at least be able to talk through the suicidal thoughts more with you and if she is not able to address the gender/sexuality issues specifically herself perhaps she can point you in the direction of those who are more understanding about those issues specifically (and if she is outright bigoted and unhelpful about this then she’s not a good therapist and you really need a better one but hopefully that won’t be the case, she may well be just lacking an understanding of other identities currently. Lots of people do make vaguely offensive comments about queer identities but because they’re ignorant not because they’re actually hateful).

Also I don’t want to pry too much but are your suicidal thoughts purely coming from your gender/sexuality issues or are there other things too? Other issues that you’re trying to deal with too, or mental health issues, something like depression or anxiety that may itself be causing or contributing to the suicidal thoughts? Because I’m certainly no expert in dealing with these things despite my own issues but if there are other issues in play here then those may need managing (or managing differently to the way they’re being managed currently) in addition to addressing the issues you’re experiencing specifically in regard to your gender/sexuality issues. Again I think that is something your therapist is going to be best placed to address, whether she can deal with it herself or needs to direct you to someone else.

I’m afraid I don’t really know very much myself about what kind of resources there are for people to access, about either specifically queer issues or suicidal thoughts and especially when I don’t know what country you are in. Where actually are you, anon? Unfortunately a lot of things will be US-centric or US-only, but most countries must have some kind of resources for queer people as well as broader support for suicidal people generally. (If anyone does have suggestions for those kind of things that may help anon then please add to this.) 

If it helps, you definitely aren’t alone and you aren’t the only one to have issues with or related to your orientation or gender or to feel isolated from ‘standard society’. Maybe it feels like you’re the only one like this but I promise you, you’re not, all of us who don’t fit the ‘norms’ and the ‘standards’ of wider society are probably going to feel excluded or isolated or invisible because of this at some point and feel varying levels of anguish over this. And while many people are chill about their gender or sexuality and some people it’s true never really experience any issues with them, many aren’t really that chill about it at all and only appear so on the surface, or many only become happier and accepting and able to embrace their identities after doing a huge amount of questioning and worrying and stressing out and having to seek help and support from others. And many people are going to be happy about it sometimes and then experience issues at other times, they’re not going to be constantly happy. Also many of your issues related to gender are probably very similar to many binary trans people’s issues and experiences. I know that there is still a lot of erasure of and even bigotry towards non-binary people even within parts of the wider trans community but overall I think there is more understanding and acceptance than erasure and bigotry there, so don’t think you automatically have to limit yourself to non-binary specific groups and communities because there is often huge amounts of overlap between non-binary and binary trans people’s experiences and in some ways they can be practically identical.

My main advice really anyway is try to talk to your therapist about this, she is there to help you and even if she may not feel able to deal with your specific issues herself she still has an obligation to help you and she should be able to guide you towards someone who is better placed to deal with them.

- Tiger