#im being caffeinated

[lineffability]

*newsperson voice* news of the day: I'll give you the new Meanwhile chap tonight I swear. it's almost done. also, personal slice of life: i spontaneously worked at a food truck today bc someone was ill, got free lunch and cash and then at the café I currently work at during the holidays, me and the boss decided we'd just pay my wage under table so I got several hundred euros in cash that I've been carrying around with me all day I'm feeling rich but in an illegal way

[ghost-bison]

<3 family picture <3

[hehe-etc]

another sketch dump :D

[safety-pin-punk]

yall Im so fucking tired. This month has been exhausting. I promise Im alive, just barely functional atm.

[sourpeachsayshi]

itadori yuji (28) madly in love with the single mom reader (33) - he's known you for five years and is so, so grateful that you finally divorced your shitty husband.

[scooplery]

my body feels better today.... i slept for 11.5 hours last night. i think a two trazodone night of sleep can cure a lot of my ills. i finally have a sleep study scheduled for September and I'm almost scared of what the results are going to be bc i already know i sleep like shit Lol even as a kid i was up and down all night, never sleeping all the way thru. trazodone helps a lot but it's not perfect

[theninjazebra]

The problem with anxiety as you get older and meaner is that you know it's mostly a lie. It's a different schedual not a lion, it's a meeting a group of new people not a lion, etc.

BUT

Sometimes it's a warning signal about the danger in you, not the world around you.

And this is inconvenient because there isn't helpful tickertape coming out of my ear saying "it's just the stress, apply (3) rotations of trashy pop album of choice to brain and power through" or "WARNING system overload imminent. Psychotic depression, intense suicidal thoughts, and self harm likely should you proceed."

Like, it'd be helpful, is what I'm saying.

[shesmore-shoebill]

so far i have not had 30 spare minutes today but i have had two minute gaps where i keep glancing at the amanda lehan canto and smosh tag and then having silent, furious joy-induced meltdowns over the stuff im seeing from WWAD. im chewing through my walls (silently and internally bc i am in a professional setting). u all thought i was posting hard yesterday. u havent seen anything yet.

[pamped-up-pup]

i forget that theres a stereotype of "bait" proship accts that use a very cutesy theme/pink theme or whatevr. sorry ill stop being cutes forevetr..............and go die...........

[monprecieuxx]

no cause the 'to the core' thing has not left my mind since i first read it...

eddie diaz who enlisted fresh out of hs, already so burdened w/the weight of the world. never got to explore on his own (neither did shannon, the marriage thing still trips me up they fucked up these kids lives forever), never had a chance to fuck up and grow from mistakes. at least not trivial mistakes, always life changing missteps. someone who doesn't even know himself to the core of his being.

he loves buck like that.

he sees past all of buck's walls, his hurt, his pain, his miniscule joys. sees through them, sees buck with them, sees buck wholly as someone to love.

love with, love despite, love because.

[lightbulb-warning]

Heya Maiora did. Did you actually go to sleep after that last reblog?

god i wish that would've been so stupid funny- if a bit happens, no audience no announcement no awareness no fanfare does the tree get to leave the desert??

alas, ive been awake since 4am and now the sun's up so my brain will revolt in rigorous restless rage until i get my daily dose of dumbassery and/or (derogatory) do my daily """""responsible adult""""" tasks/obligations and/or get in my daily staring-at-walls-trying-to-explode-my-mind-with-my-mind-in-anxious-paralysis-™ in, until my beautiful beautiful gorgeous and sexy 9.30pm bedtime!!!!!

...a nap sounds delicious divine delightful. i would love to sleep. i am so sleepy.

drew eepy maiora with my eyes closed for EMPHASIS!!!! also. *points* drawn and drownd. hehehehehhhhhhhhhhhh

[meldelreina]

real

[aropride]

nobody asked and its not relevant to anything im just traumadumping for fun but im thinking about the time i was leaving [redacted]'s room and he was like "here take this" and put a pill in my hand and i was like. "what. is this" and he was like. "dont worry abt it just take it" and i was like. seriously what is this im not taking a random unmarked pill??? and i had to like Argue with him and he was like "but don't you trust me??" like no not if you try to give me an unknown drug and get mad and guilt trippy when i ask what youre trying to get me to take! he eventually told me it was melatonin but it's the Principle of it. i'm not taking your unmarked pills bro idc if we're friends! show me the bottle it came from and let me read the label what the fuck!!

[meanya]

Drank a Caramel latte. I have acquired ADHD²

[martyrbat]

awful migraine for a week straight where i cant keep a single thought and can barely open my eyes and cant sleep because of it (but cant do anything else because of it too) and i have to throw a 5 year old a birthday party tomorrow 👍

[lustly]

I wish alcohol had zero calories, the best I can do is cutwater (90 cals ugh) but it makes me aggressive 😭

Fuck being addicted to it, fuck having a cal rest of 600 and meeting that cap just by drinking