I'm saying goodbye for the final time to the first place I picked out for myself and made a home, a safe sanctuary for two years and two months time and I'm feeling very emotional.
Besides the obvious reasons, it's also because I feel like I'm moving backwards thinking of the current place I've got. I feel don't belong like I instantly did in the first place. It wasn't my dream home but it was close but the current one is too far away from everything I've dreamt of. I feel like I took thousand steps backwards with where I am right now; professionally and personally
I wanted to move forward but I was forced backwards and I hate it. I hate everything about my current situation; the place I work, the place I stay, the people around me, the society, the town and facilities and I know I sound so materialistic but so what? I break my bones for my pay so it's my right to live how I want
But it is NOT how I want
Starting this year, I didn't have a resolution, no goals but two months in, I know what I want changed before the year end
I want to get the fuck out of the system and spread my wings and fly cause I deserve it. My loved ones deserve it
I want to welcome next year looking down at the sky again, with champagne in my hand, luxury around me, life stepped up several pedestals and surrounded by my loved ones
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hey so can we stop tagging ed & bpd tags to posts that have NOTHING to do with them!! like i get bpd/ed blog tags if ur a bpd/ed blog but i am genuinely so fucking tired of scrolling through tumblr trying to find relatable content while im bawling my eyes out just to see a post about someone and their bf having sex and happily getting ice cream together. yes good for you but like ur making everyone else feel bad
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Sydney Sweeney, Ana de Armas, Vanessa Kirby, and Daniel Brühl will be going to TIFF for the world premiere of Eden on September 7th
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I KEEP ENTERING GAMES WHERE I GET DPS & CHOOSE CASSIDY & KILL AN ENEMY DPS LIKE ONCE AND THEN THEY SWITCH TO REAPER PLSSSS I JUST WANNA PLAY MY COWBOY REAPER HATES MY WILL TO LIVE MY WILL TO PERSEVERE I CAN ONLY ROLL SO FAR WAGGHHHHHH
He'S SO SCARY I'M UNASHAMED TO ADMIT I SCREAM LIKE A RABBIT
JUMPSCARE JUMPSCARE JUMPSCARE !!!!!!
i have only met one(1) reaper that apologised for the grief ty chad
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Ich muss immer funktionieren, immer das machen was andere sagen, könnt ihr mir nicht einmal das leben geben was ich will? Einfach mein Leben genießen?
Aber das geht nicht oder? Weil ich sowieso eine menge auf den schultern trage! Probleme, Erkrankungen,.. ängste ,… zwänge,.. und so weiter? Also ich kann mein leben nie genießen weil das immer ein großes thema sein wird!!….
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I was like: time to control my fucking diet, eat healthy and shit. And then, I remembered this is my last guaranteed day of my being in this place AND that delish fried chicken place being open so -
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is there a way to burn calories that doesn't include using my legs at all? I have shin splints in my right shin and it's excruciating standing on it, even more so walking. So I can't walk, run, or dance to music. I feel like there's not many other options? I don't know!
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Glimpse of Us by Joji is so Eddie coded.
Like, look at the lyrics??
Isn't this very "I'm dating Ana but it doesn't feel right why doesn't it feel right"?
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I do think the 1 thing I noticed is that post covid vaccine my vitamin B levels were low but not deficient and going on B supplements fixed much of my neuropathy, and now sometimes if I stop with B supplements while I am flaring up neuropathy does come back even if my blood tests show normal B levels (not even in low end) so I do think supplementing B helps my neuropathic pain.
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