#im a bi lesbian and im not the only one. were not going anywhere

[mommyclaws]

look as a lesbian I don’t get why it’s so awful to just want lesbian spaces?? We as queer people all have different experiences and we can have smaller spaces while still embracing the whole community.

Lesbians go through different experiences than bi non-men do. That DOES NOT mean “we suffer more” or whatever because I hate the whole oppression olympics shit. We are not attracted to men neither sexually nor romantically, and that’s what makes us oppressed in this heteronormative world. We go through harassment, corrective rape, violence, and conversion “therapy” because we are homosexual. If my dad ever found out I was exclusively attracted to women I would get kicked out. Why is it suddenly so awful and “gatekeepy” to ask us to have our own spaces? We still have sapphic spaces! We even have bi spaces and pan spaces! Heck, I see gay non-women are allowed to have their own spaces!

It’s harmful to be treated as a monolith. I’m not attracted to men, and saying im an “exclusionist” for this is lesbophobic. I’m not evil for being exclusively attracted to non-men. I’m not evil for saying we should have our own spaces while we’d still have sapphic spaces!

Words have meanings, and the lesbian label is important to me, for all of its history and all of my struggles. I’m tired of us all being seen as “big mean lesbians who hate men” so so much. It reeks of misogyny to me.

I am heavily disappointed, and I ask everyone to please understand why bi lesbians are harmful.

I'm disappointed you've missed the point of my post. I was talking about the history of different lesbians and sapphics being excluded and hated in our community through generations. The conversation wasn't about bi lesbians specifically, it was about the butches, transfemmes, Pan/Bi, Aro/Ace, nonbinary, and countless other identities that were or ARE still considered not "valid" members of our community at point or another. I was pointing out how this "Bi Lesbian exclusion" is just a repeat of past mistakes and in the retrospective it is rooted in radfem/terf ideology that claims sapphics have to present and feel a certain way to be accepted. I didn’t say anywhere that being attracted to non-men is evil, I didn’t call anyone a “big mean lesbian”. You’re putting words into my mouth. That entire post was about defending sapphic’s right to attraction and expression.

Lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, non cis women and etc can all be oppressed, harassed, hate crimed, rejected by friends/family and other terrible things for their non heteronormative attraction.

Some people are failing to realize these exclusively “one identity spaces" they feel are being threatened don't actually exist in real life. Sure someone can have like, a "nonbinaries only" discord server or a meet up with friends who are all the the same identity. But a majority of queer spaces in real life? They don't have those rules because theres no way to separate queer identities neatly like that- There isn't a need to. You're going to find bisexuals and pansexuals and nonbinaries and trans people and all sorts of other identities at the same lesbian bar, the same sapphic support group, the same circle of friends.

So what exactly are these "spaces" that every other identity has and lesbians supposedly don't? Maybe ask why bisexuals, pansexuals, etc also being in a sapphic space feels so threatening to some in the first place? They have a right to be there as well. We are a community.

A label can be used and defined as whatever the owner of the label is comfortable with! "Lesbian" has always been an umbrella term. It can be a singular identity or it can describe any sapphic experience or it can do lots of things, labels have always been flexible in this way. Someone using the label differently than another person isn't harmful. It's expression.

[hadesoftheladies]

so i was reading a paper that someone wrote on a study they did on BL/yaoi fans and fandom (i didn't know a lot about it until like . . . this year), and it had me thinking. some years ago i made an observation on female obsession with gay romances in popular entertainment where I said that I didn't think fans were all interacting with this content from a fetishistic perspective, as much as fetishism and homophobia were common.

as much as there have been straight men that fetishize lesbian relationships, i also thought that perhaps bisexual or straight women's interaction with BL could be a bit more nuanced than entitlement to gay men and their experiences. i thought that there was an element of detachment that gay romances gave women, where men were humanized and female characters did not have the burden of humanizing him. it was an avenue where women and girls could enjoy their attraction to men or what they loved about men without being visible, without any romantic or sexual demands being put on them. it was a way to explore not only their own sexualities, but also their weird (in regard to the predator-prey situation) oftentimes tragic attraction to men. it was a projection of an ideal relationship with a man, one based on true equality in an especially semantic sense.

i think some of these fascinations can be classified as more voyeuristic than fetishistic, especially when they aren't about injecting the female experience with men into the gay experience (like making gay sex more heterosexual in descriptions) and are much more focused on fictional characters/symbols than parasocial relationships with gay influencers/celebrities. rather, some of them seem to be using the (sometimes idealized) gay experience to escape the female experience with men. men loving men (romantically/sexually) seems to be a purer version of male love that women hope to experience but oftentimes do not or cannot, given the homoerotic admiration and respect men hold for other men, but do not extend to women. therefore they opt to be voyeurs. not saying this is necessarily good or bad.

i'm not an avid participant in BL and won't go anywhere near yaoi, especially because of like . . . well everything about yaoi, but I do enjoy gay romance (and lesbian romance) stories, and which i gravitate to more varies according to whatever season of life I'm in on the bi-cycle XD. but i have noticed that i do enjoy these things differently, or rather, what i enjoy about them differs based on my own experiences with patriarchy. it is difficult to imagine het relationships outside the patriarchal hierarchical dynamics, even in fantasies. whereas, removing that relation feels . . . idk, safer, less stressful and more natural to me.

i'm just kind of thinking through things, like, sexuality (not orientation) can be really complex because of how much culture can influence it and the perception of self and I'm just wondering how much BL is escapism for women attracted to men.

anyway, im just thinking out loud here. just putting words out there hoping to find something concrete. but I'm curious, how many radblr users interact with bl/gl or yaoi?

and please share with me your personal opinions/experiences with bl/gl or other variations/genres of it like yaoi

[wizardsix]

oh cool, thanks for sharing your thoughts too. I completely agree with you (especially your second paragraph). it's very frustrating to see people believe that creating/consuming media about bad things means you approve of said bad things, which only proves how people can't think for themselves...

this increasing trend is unfortunately a decline in media literacy and increase in short attention spans. people don't know how to "read between the lines" anymore and need their hands held. if something isn't explicitly stated, it doesn't exist. we're at the point where people need to be told shit like "misgendering is bad :)" instead of showing us how this could affect trans characters and the kind of pain that comes from knowing people don't see you as who you really are. there needs to be a balance of showing and telling, and also not being biased. I don't doubt that there are talented writers on the team (currently and formerly) as there is good writing to be found across the franchise, but most of the time bioware can never find that balance and I don't know why.

(and yeah putting relevant lore and plot from the games in books/comics etc, like varric and harding searching for solas, should have been in veilguard. it's not established how rook and varric even got to this point, which alienates the new players they so desperately wanted as well as people who can't afford them or don't want to follow a bunch of different mediums just to get a coherent story. there's too big of a gap between inquisition and veilguard that should have been mended somehow)

as for the romance... I do agree here but it's important to have gay and lesbian characters bc even though our experiences overlap with theirs they are ultimately different. in my opinion I think it just depends on the amount of companions. like dragon age 2 worked fine bc there were only four romanceable ones, so making them all bi for balance made sense (idk if that's why I'm just assuming here). whereas in inquisition there were eight, so they could stand to make two of them gay while making the others bi or straight or whatever (and with the replayability, someone could just make a new oc and experience those. especially since being gay is a big part of dorian's grief, it just wouldn't work if he was bi or god forbid straight). it's definitely our lack of preference speaking, since I also wouldn't mind bi being the default, but we can't leave the rest of our community behind. representation helps normalize what the masses think is abnormal. at the end of the day though, writers should not base a character's personality around their sexuality and gender identity because we are more than that. if it's important, there's always a way to do it well without it being yet another coming out story... and here's where taash was done dirty.

taash's story had potential to be about questioning their identity as a whole, and I was really hoping that their gender was just the tip of the iceberg, but it just. didn't go anywhere. im a second generation immigrant (greek-canadian), so it did hit close when taash was questioning where they even belonged, but then bioware ruined it by watering down the immigrant experience to one choice where you have to encourage taash to either choose rivain or the qun... which, to put it bluntly, was incredibly stupid (especially with bioware's racist writing of making the qun/qunari and everyone who follows it bad, most people would just pick rivain).

why do they have to pick one? why are we deciding that for them, especially when we barely know them? why can't they learn how to create a new life And reconnect with what they lost? a lot of immigrants hold onto culture bc it's all they have despite being disowned by their own people for "abandoning their country", but still live their new lives without sacrificing their roots. like to this day I still question if greeks would ever accept me because I was born in canada. my relatives and greeks as a whole just see me as another stupid american with no culture, "not a real greek", even though I know the language and still celebrate greek holidays/practice certain parts of the religion because of my mother. this struggle and disconnect doesn't just go away overnight, and it's incredibly sad how we could've had a character who is a pillar of perseverance and represents the loss/reclamation of identity be reduced to... a joke, I guess. it's a real shame.

that one conversation between emmrich and harding and the argument between emmrich and rook..... why is bioware trying to make the age gap an issue and why is their age even mentioned. why are they trying to make rook a fresh-faced adventurer. what if someone is playing as an older character huh. idk what's so wrong about two consenting adults in a relationship but ok

[rouge-the-bat]

uh oh another person whos repeating allll the same bullshit thats totally havent been shouted out to me a million times before ! seriously yall, i havent changed my mind about bi lesbianism even after being attacked and told to die so many fucking times, wtf do yall think ur gonna achieve here lol.

lesbian isnt an exclusive term and never had been, learn some queer history idiot! i literally have sources on my bi-lesbian blog in my #history tag! and plenty of people use it as an umbrella term still bc ~gasp~ people use words different than you 😱

literally explained the nonbinary situation in my last ask but like whup dee doo that doesnt matter bc u clearly talk for all enbies ever huh? what do you think about very man aligned enbies also? are they all inherently excluded or included in your eyes? (rhetorical question, dont actually want an answer obv youre an idiot) again not all enbies are comfortable with lesbianism since people like you think its ~oooh so strict~ and others deem it ~exclusively women loving women~ and a lot of enbies dont want to be possibly perceived as just a woman, even if theyre woman aligned! (while some man aligned enbies are perfectly comfortable with fallin under lesbian attraction bc, identities are complex!) if yall fucks would finally let lesbian be defined fluidly and can sometimes hold exceptions depending on person, like every other gd fucking queer label, then i think this issue would be resolved since more enbies would feel less like theyre just being seen as a women due to exclusionistic lesbians.

yeah bi women or other mspec ppl love women just the same as lesbians, i literally never say otherwise, so idk why ppl always say that to me lol? like it feels YALL have some internal biases yall need to convince urself through, not me. lesbian has simply included bi women for forever before lesbian separatists (aka radfems) deemed them as lesser (and aiding in their own oppression) and tried forcing them out. / but oh yeah me calling myself a bi lesbian is tooootally saying i think bi women are lesser forms to lesbians /s 🙄

people who have exceptions to their sexuality or EXTREMELY extremely rare attraction to certain genders is not just "bi with a preference" unless they feel like that accurately describes them, but a lot dont. me as an example! if ud look at any of my posts i have a really complex/confusing attraction due to being arospec and cupioromantic, and dont see how defining gender-based orientations extremeley rigidly can work well since gender is extremely complex and fluid. along with a ton of other factors that makes me feel best described with bi lesbianism. bc ppl by nature are complex and dont need to and cant always fit into lil neatly defined terms, darling

you probably also deem the split attraction model as an aros and aces only thing too, huh? because sexuality being complex and different than yours is just soo so impossible right?

"invalidates both lesbians an bi women" ah yes becuase thats totally an objective, factual statement! and no lesbians and bi women who are not bi lesbians would ever support bi lesbianism huh? except, oh ive met plenty who do! surprise surprise a lot of queer people support other queer people who are different than them and have complex identities, bc thats what the whole fucking community is for, lol. stop acting like you speak for everyone of a label, queer people are not monoliths ♡

maybe branch out of ur lil exclusionist circle for once and try talking with more queers with complicated orientations and stop trying to fit all of us into rigid boxes 🤪 trying to assimilate the queer community in a neat and tidy and ~respectable~ way isnt gonna win you any brownie points with the homophobes, honey

stop drinking the radfem koolaid, also. all of this literally falls right into their rhetoric. a lot if not all of exclusionism does, actually

[bi-demon-ium]

ok umm i've really not seen any kate stuff? anywhere? so i'd like to hear your thoughts on kate (preferably angst) please!! you are awesome btw <3

ok i don't actually know if you are intending to talk about book!kate or show!kate but i will be mostly if not completely discussing show!kate rip if that was not what you meant but i've seen the show a lot more recently

OKAY. so. i'll start small with some headcanons:

kate is soooo autistic. and adhd. audhd my beloved. yes i say this about pretty much every character i like but with kate it's PARTICULARLY true. (i believe i said in the mbs server the book!kate feels like she has adhd with a side of autism while show!kate feels like she had autism with a side of adhd and i stand by that. but it's vibes based not like, literal.)

but like she can have trouble expressing her feelings, even to herself. she'll either be unable to hide her reactions/expressions, or she'll barely have one at all, and seem unbothered. she's also very blunt and unafraid to state her opinion to anyone, even if it seems "rude". but she isn't rude, really, as it's not that kind of "blunt truth" some assholes like to parade about when they're really just being dicks to everyone. she's still kind, she only says something negative if someone has done something negative (ie, "you are very unpleasant" to someone actively antagonizing everyone in the room is on the table, but just randomly insulting someone for the sake of "blunt honesty" is not. she's never like, mean.)

also shes GAYYYY. or possibly bi, i don't have an opinion on that. on one hand lesbian energy on the other i could definitely see bi bi bi. but if you don't think her and martina got something on i don't know what to tell you. that being said i could also see her as a-spec, but not necessarily in a way that conflicts with Whatever's Going On With Martina. (to be fair, hpwever, one could argue martina was more into kate than vice versa, i could see an argument for aro kate for sure)

green beanie is comfort beanie. she very rarely takes it off. where do you think she got it? angsty answer is somehow it's from her dad, but realistically she probably got it later in life. (doesn't mean she didn't choose it for similar reasons, though... not knowing why she was drawn to the green hat, not remembering it's the same shade as one her father wore....)

also the bucket. i do wonder when she got the bucket. this one, while again a milligan-related reason would be super fucked up (in the fun sad way), i feel like. i feel like it's more that as a kid she felt like she needed to be Prepared. maybe something happened where she wasn't, or maybe she just felt like she wanted to be ready, just in case, all the time. but like. her getting a bucket, modifying it herself, experimenting with different ways to put it on her belt, the inventory changing over the years as some things were discarded or added over time... idk i just think. kate developing her bucket

kate & constance was so good and i want to see more of their friendship. so bad. each realizing the other isn't so bad bc they're forced to work together... chefs kiss. also, the only person other than mr benedict we really see constance actually seem to openly like in some capacity.

kate & sticky underrated. their talk before the cheating was such a good scene. i also want more of this dynamic

i should also mention kate & reynie, which i do genuinely like--the hug is sweet--but i admit is my maybe least favorite of the society dynamics with kate. although i do enjoy the contrast between kate "IM GONNA GO CLIMB THAT TOWER" wetherall and reynie "please why am i the only voice of reason holding this group together" muldoon

i've only explored it in that one fic but i actually think kate & mr benedict would be such a good dynamic, especially because in the show it's inexplicably established he's into engineering. LET THEM BOND OVER BUILDING WEIRD SHIT PLEASE

okay to get a little more into specifics methinks,

i just think a lot about kate like. immediately after season one, and--we'll just. we'll ignore season 2 for now, let's set this in my current anomalous idea of them all in season one (which, rip wetherall farm, but is currently number two & rhonda off at the airshows with mr benedict, constance, milligan, and kate in the house) so like just.

you've been alone your entire life. you've been independent, and you've grown up thinking that the only person you ever had just left you one day for no reason, and in doing so broke a direct promise. and then now, you not only have friends who've you learned to rely on and not just try and do everything yourself, but suddenly you have reliable adults. and more importantly, more specifically, your dad, who never left you but had been taken. had been erased, and even brainswept had never truly stopped looking.

and kate isn't stupid. she heard his story. she knows he must have been through Some Shit. and that he'd have come back if he could. but there's still that pain, that ache, of how long he was missing, for like, more than three quarters of her life! he vanished when she was 3! but now it's like. oh. he did want me. he was taken. he was taken.

so that's an almost identity altering shift in her worldview. and on top of that, her current world is now so completely different: rather than independence and circus life, she's got friends her age who genuinely like her, who she's bonded with through major adversity, and she has adults who actually listen to her and like her. and she has her dad.

and it grates sometimes--she's independent, she doesn't need to be treated like a baby! but also it's like. it's bizarre, because they care, but they don't condescend to her, they do understand she's intelligent and capable even if they want to protect her. and she's never really had adults like that before. not since she was three

so it's a weird mix of like being sort of happy/pleased, because they care, she can rely on them, and being kind of annoyed/frustrated because while she's learned she doesn't need to be entirely independent she still struggles with it. because she's kate wetherall, and she's always prepared, and she feels like she has to be prepared for what will happen if they leave if they're taken from her. she can't rely on them completely, can she? what happens when she loses them again?

and then the mix feelings of old long-buried resentment/anger under buried sadness/loneliness under a crisp crust of i'm perfectly fine, mixed with the new feelings of anger on his behalf, at curtain, sadness at the missing time, at how close he'd been for all these years without either of them knowing it, sadness for him, for herself. but like all of it is still like. under her trying to pretend like she's fine. (and her difficulty expressing emotions, even to herself, does Not Help.)

not to mention as much as genuinely loved the mission in some ways--her new friends (including martina), the adventure, helping people, her bucket coming crazy in handy, etc.--it wasn't exactly a cake walk.

she has nightmares, sometimes: about martina's face when she walked into the waiting room. about sticky's face when he walked out of it. about falling and falling and falling except there aren't warm, safe arms to catch her. about the nodes attached to her face and the long, metallic spires pointed at her, ready to wipe her like her father had been wiped. about her father leaving and never coming home, never being found. about being caught. about losing her friends. about curtain. about all of it.

but she doesn't want to share it because one, she doesn't want them to feel guilty: she did what she had to, and she doesn't regret it. two, and more importantly, she doesn't want them to not let her come on the next mission. (kate had already kind of had the idea that they would have another--they were a team! teams didn't just split up!--but now she's sure of it. curtain's still out there, after all, and he didn't seem the type to just give up.)

i think maybe constance might bully her into talking about it--we already know she can feel dreams (with her comment about sticky dreaming about steak and sticky asking her how she knew that) and as they're on a more even ground she'd be more likely to actually say something. but constance would poke at her about it and probably get her irritated in the process.

(also possible, she talks to mr benedict about this, bc again im a sucker for their dynamic + part of the problem is not wanting to hurt milligan's feelings, and one thing i like about this is i think mr benedict would be extremely kind and understanding about it, and really help like, gently guide her through it, and she'd be like wow adults have never actually helped me before, wild, and then the second she leaves he's like [collapsing into a mess] oh god. oh god. because on one hand he just desperately hopes that helped, and on the other hand, he's having a million crises. oh god. he put actual kids in danger. she's so small number two. number two she's so fucking small and she's having nightmares and it's my brother that took her dad and ohmygodohmygodohmygod. like literally it's like he goes from "kalm" to "PANIK" the second shes out of range. like the dissonance between mr benedict (around the kids, a calm and kindly mentor who seems to know what he's doing for the most part) and nicholas (0.0003 seconds from a panic attack rn, full to the brim with anxiety and guilt) is. hilarious, in a sad way. but i digress, mr benedict tangent over, sorry)

ANYWAY also kate and milligan. like. getting to know him again, and vice versa. this is personally painful for me. like so many years, this disconnect between them hurts, but like. it starts with that hug, with her letting herself lean into his side, letting him put an arm around her shoulders, and he's like. in tears a bit. and like. then over time just. trying to tell each other about their lives--particularly kate recounting her adventures--and marveling a bit at how similar they are in many ways. milligan slowly getting memories back and remembering her as a little girl and seeing her now, all grown up but so small and hurt still, and like. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i also have so many thoughts head full on them & mr benedict, and also throwing in constance and everyone really, but that's too many and this is already long and i dont even know how to put it to words so i'll refrain for now. anyway my point is: kate wetherall. hug her please

[papirouge]

That article you posted about lesbians and pedophiles really resonated with me. Its something Ive observed over the years lurking on gay and lesbian blogs and so on when i was younger and thought i was bi. I remember that gay men would write about their first relationships being with older men on their 20s, 30s, 40s, even 50s when they were young teens, and while some were critical of it, a lot others recalled their memories with nostalgia and longing. And sadly, if someone dared criticize the older man for being a creep, these guys would get defensive and claim that there was nothing wrong with what happened, that the man treated them right and they consented to everything. On the other side, you got lesbians usually sharing about having their first relationships in their 20s and sometimes even in their 30s...

And Im not saying that every gay man was preyed on by an older gay man and that there are no lesbians predators, but one cannot deny that there are obvious patterns, and that is that theres an obvious pedo problem in the gay male community. And it isnt talked about anywhere but some communities exclusive to gay men, and sometimes by lesbians, which i guess its out of fear of being seen as homiphobic.

Some lesbians nowadays seem to try to gloss it over, but i think it's because they don't want gay men to turn against them (because sadly many gay men try to sweep this issue under the rug out of fear of homophobic backlash) due to the fact that gay men have more visibility and higher positions than lesbiana, thus they need their support if they want to achieve anything.

Also a little off topic, but youve been talking lately a lot about misogyny, female socialización and male approval, and i think this seems to be an issue even within gay spaces. Like Ive seen lesbians do the most for gay men while gay men barely even have the same energy for lesbians. Some even spout outright hatred towards them... Like a while ago this gay man said he wished lesbians would get r*ped straight by het men. Super sad.

You nailed it anon. I myself witness this creepy enabling or male abuse on gay relationship on twitter with people sharing their first sexual experience and it was with much older males.

Honestly this inclination to gloss over sex abuse and inappropriate age gap isn't exclusive to homosexual but men as a whole. There's this TikTok of a mature woman saying she hit on a boy who was a just graduating (so barely 18 y'o), and a few years later he came back to her and they hooked up. She had the age to be her mother.... And apparently the only people finding it inappropriate/predatory were women, while males cheered on that groomer and saying how lucky that boy was... Men are inherently more predatory than women / more prone to overlook/enable abuse, and that's the hill I'm going to die on. Sorry not sorry.

You're also right about the weird caping of lesbians towards gay male. I once made a post calling out Alfred Kinsey & his institutional pedophilia, and lesbians started freaking out bc the whistleblower exposing Kinsey endorsed a book which theory is that the Nazi regime used gay SS as a leverage for recruiting Nazi youth. They accused her, and then me of being homophobic... And I was like "girl.... is caping for gay nazi really the hill you wanna die on? 🙄" like, they were so caught up in the fact that some criticism was directed at gay men they totally overlooked the fact that these psychopath were nazi and didn't deserve any respect/defense whatsoever lmao Being gay doesn't make anyone above reproach IDC. I don't get what's homophobic to acknowledge that the nazi regime did weaponize gay men for their recruiting. As far as I know, they did the same for children and women.

I'm not familiar enough with LGB space but you might be right about women/lesbians being afraid of 'losing' men on their side if they started more straightforward in their criticism of their problematic behavior. Once again, regardless of their sexual attraction, females are always catering to males feelings....

I'm not surprised there are gay men being outright verbally abusive about women... I mean, look how 'straight' transwomen behave with women...

[pluviophile-imagines]

Could I ask what your sexuality headcanons are? I love comparing mine with other peoples’!

Ok second half of this; this is just like. non-students who i Actually have thought about HJBAFV not at all a comprehensive list. Again disclaimer i write all these chars as bi in my fics, also i am bi myself so the vast majority are also bi, and also leaving a lot of these vague so u can imagine ur favorite ship or urself or w/ever

ok lets start this off with Aizawa. I think....... hes another one who's rlly unlabelled, doesnt super care to think it through and define it, but calls himself gay bc his interest in women is very, very rare and it's just way easier to say than explain all that. Definitely do buy into the idea that he had a crush on Oboro in hs but i do NOT buy into the easermic agenda sorry. Definitely not someone who goes looking for dates, but doesn't say no if someone asks him and hes interested (also im not gonna give her a whole section but i saw a hc a while back that the Ms. Joke stuff is literally that shes a lesbian and hes gay and shes fucking with him and i love that so much i just wanted to put it out there)

on the topic of the erasermic agenda: Hizashi's pan and knew it before HS, had a sudden & intense crush on Aizawa for the first month they knew each other and then immediately got over it in favor of a similar sudden, intense, and then immediately fading crush on Midnight. Hizashi and Aizawa r just rlly good friends imo; maybe they messed around for a bit in their twenties but it never went anywhere serious. He dates around a lot, not even necessarily to settle down just to have some fun

Midnight is aro/ace but does get in qprs & gravitates towards women wrt that. Most people dont read vigilantes but theres a woman in that, Kazuho, who i imagine she's been in a long-term qpr with; her relationship with aizawa and hizashi leans a little more towards a qpr than a normal friendship, too, but it's not rlly defined that way

All Might is married to justice queer but v much not interested in relationships. He and that one guy from the first movie are ABSOLUTELY exes and i won't hear otherwise; it's the only relationship he's ever had, and they broke up bc he had to go back to japan. He was heartbroken but did eventually get over him; his lack of romance afterwards is from genuine disinterest and not being hung up on his past. I can see him finding someone else in his later years, after he's retired. Definitely feels like he's not worthy of it tho

Hawks is bi but unfortunately didn't get to figure that out until like Now in the timeline...... if youll let my dabihawks history shine through i think dabi was the reason JHBASFGJHB he was basically brainwashed by the commission to become a hero so he didnt have time to Figure That Shit Out; he knew he was into women bc that was easy & what the commission expected from him but then he started this undercover assignment and met dabi and realized Oh...... Fuck. Hawks is hard tbh, bc i think between the control that the commission has over him and his own convictions as a hero he doesn't pursue any romance (tho he does get crushes or find people attractive) and most of his flings are done to keep up his prettyboy act, not out of genuine interest in being a fuckboy. Can't imagine him having a relationship until well after canon but I do see him being interested eventually

Onto the villains, Shigaraki is unlabelled but probably would call himself queer if asked. Definitely admires women more but isn't very interested in romance; AFO actively encourages him to pursue the things interested in so imo if he were he'd talk abt it more lmfao. I kinda see him as demi as well, not the type to fall immediately but requiring a friendship beforehand; tho unlike Bakugo as i said in my last post I dont think it happens suddenly but rather slowly. Y'all know im a big fan of shigaraki being absolutely whipped for his s/o so i do thing hes a big piner, tho he's also pretty bold and unashamed of his affections. I'm a big fan of him falling for a member of the league or a civilian; definitely can't see him falling for a hero unless the hero was already halfway to turning sides already. I think he's also attracted to intelligence and someone who pushes him to think more abt his ideology...... maybe im just projecting at this point JSHDFBVAJKSHD but my point is that the gender of his partner is definitely the least of what he considers/notices

Dabi is bi and, here's my bold take, demisexual; not interested in sex unless its with someone he loves. Absolutely doesn't even think abt romance for most of the years where he's on his own. He's got revenge to plan. By the time he joins the league that hasn't changed much, and he's demi so he's not interested in sleeping around, plus he rlly denies any attachment to people at all. As I said in that other ask tho I do rlly like the idea of him with Magne, so I think they have a fling for a bit before her death :( it's one of the things that leads him to isolate himself further, unfortunately, even from Jin and the other League members with whom his relationships aren't romantic. I can see him dating someone post-canon bc i think hes gonna be redeemed lol. It could be someone he knew before but they probably didnt date again bc he was v guarded; i think magne was rlly the only person he dated

Magne is pan and heres the kicker: I think shes t4t, which led to a little moment just before she and dabi got together where he was like "she wouldnt be into me :/" but she was into him anyway so all was good. She got around in her circles, mostly casual stuff tho she yearned for something more serious.

Spinner's bi & trends towards women but does occasionally get things for men and they're almost always intense. He thought he was straight for a while even once he joined the league and then suddenly got a crush on Shigaraki (around the time of MVA) and realized otherwise LMFAO he's definitely a hopeless romantic type, the whole mutant prejudice thing makes it rlly hard for him and i can see him being rlly happy with another mutant-type; i feel like as he matures he starts to gravitate towards them

Toga is canonically pan to my understanding, iirc her interest in Uraraka and Deku is the same (and romantic) in canon tho i might be wrong. Poor girl just needs therapy. I like the idea of the two of them becoming her friends over her being involved with them but i totally can get behind her having a thing with Uraraka (and maybe Tsu) at some point post-canon (presuming she gets redeemed), tho I think a qpr between the two/three of them would be longer lasting. And again presuming she gets therapy i can see her settling down with someone, gender irrelevant

Jin is unlabelled bc he hasn't much thought abt it, definitely had a thing for dabi and for hawks which does make me sad on both counts. I think he likes women slightly more abstractly/aesthetically and gets crushes more on men,. The dabi thing fades as they get closer and start to view each other as brothers. In his later years he doesn't rlly care about romance, I think he enjoys the experience of crushing but doesnt like dating people; his found family in the League is far more important to him. But i can see him falling head-over-heels for someone quite suddenly and having a bit of a whirlwind romance. Also someone for whom gender isn't much of a factor

Mr Compress is also queer and also hasn't rlly thought abt it. Definitely leans more towards women; he's like 30 but i like to think he also goes for older partners, 10 or 15 years his senior KJBADSJFHB idk he just has that Vibe with the way he calls himself an old man etc. A lot of the league i cant see sleeping or dating around much, i feel like they prioritize each other, but I do think mr compress gets around more than the others. i can see him having a bit of a fuckbuddy who he catches feelings for

Kurogiri is fun; as Oboro I do think Aizawa's crush was reciprocated, tho he wasn't around long enough for them to act on it :( he's bi, tho kurogiri isn't supposed to have personal interests. I like to imagine the brainwashing isnt as good as AFO wants it to be tho so I like the idea of him falling for someone anyway. I also like the idea of the heroes managing to undo the nomufication and I 100% can see him, aizawa, and someone else (someone he was involved with as Kurogiri) ending up in a triad as a result of aizawa and the third partner helping him through the aftermath of all that shit

Lady Nagant is a manga-only minor character but im in love with her so imma talk abt it. Shes bi and leans VERY heavily towards women, probably spent years questioning whether she was rlly bi or a lesbian before finally having a fling with a guy that she genuinely enjoyed. Has only ever been in long-term relationships with women and I v much think she has a gf at home who stayed even when she was arrested 🥺

Finally imma talk abt Natsuo bc i love that boy. He's one of the few unmarried chars with a love interest and he canonically has a gf. I do see him as IDing straight in canon ngl, but the kind of straight where he might actually be bi but his preference leans so heavily towards women and he grew up in a bad home so he just doesnt rlly think abt it bc hes v happy with women anyway. In shiganatsu thoughts shigaraki is the first man he has a thing for; i rlly can see the two of them in a triad with a woman specifically, who helps the two of them find each other and is the one who initiates bc its definitely a weird situation for natsuo

[thxngam]

hey! i was wondering if u have any hcs u see tww cast, sexuality wise?

i mean i think they’re all gay but ill go into details lol if that’s what ur asking!

i think sam is queer, I just cant decide if I think he’s gay or bi or pan 

I get a gay vibe 

also literally it’s always him when they’re talking about LGBTQ+ issues; DADT, when charlie is getting interviewed by josh, he gets called a fairy by those dudebros in the ep with zoey’s panic button

he might be bi bc of lisa, and the chemistry he had with ainsley was NOT platonic 

but I do get gay vibes from him so I can’t decide

also I think josh is pan?

i think when he was figuring out his sexuality in college he’d just experiment and try things and decide that gender doesn’t actually matter that much to him? 

like

he just likes pretty people, period - literally all the people he dated were gorgeous; donna? gorgeous. amy? i love her. sam? he’s a pretty man (did they date in canon? no. do i care? not at all)

cj!! my love!!

i think she’s bi (I feel like I'm saying all these people are bi but that might be me projecting) 

it might literally bc I think she’s gorgeous but cmon cj/toby is not platonic, at least not totally, and I kinda think cj and donna hooked up once? is that weird?

also @claudiasjeancregg has a great series about cj/toby/andy that’s gotten me on the bi train

cj doesn’t hide hide it but she’s not gonna make it obvious

(it’s the early 2000s and she’s in a male-dominated field, she’s already kinda the only woman in the room. I don’t think she’d want to be cast as the gay woman in the room, even though she says it doesn’t matter in that ep where ppl think she’s gay) 

toby is...i can’t decide

I honestly can’t see him as queer

idk why

I guess he’s straight? he’s straight

I still love him

if you disagree pls let me know why 

leo and bartlet!!! they’re queer

they never named it specifically but they know they like more than one gender

cmon leo and bartlet had a thing that is totally why they stayed friends - their paths would not have crossed that much, why the hell would they be bffs? bartlet was a congressman and a governor ig but he in academia for a while too and leo was in the military and the private sector before he was chairman of the dnc and labor sec’y so. other than the personal aspect, they wouldn’t really work that closely together, so they must’ve had a hell of a first impression 

abbey knows it happened and she constantly makes jokes about leo stealing her husband

leo has an on and off again thing with marbury

it’s scratching an itch more than it is anything with feelings but 

yeah

abbey is pan

I love her

she tells jed on their first date and tells him if he has a problem he can go screw himself

jed stammers and comes out too

and they’re both like ‘oh. ok. cool’

they go to pride parades with liz, ellie, and zoey when the girls were kids 

someone uses a picture of them at a parade to ask if he’s gay and bartlet’s just like ‘im showing my support to the gay community and I'm not gonna raise my children to be homophobic bigots. next question.’

neither leo, abbey, nor bartlet ever come out

but they’re happy

I'm considering if they ever had a poly thing but idk

lemme know what yall think?

donna!! my lovely lady!!

i think she’s a lesbian (@tunennbee and i have talked about it!)

freeride is still a man

after that disastrous relationship she decides to try women bc she was like ‘maybe the reason that sucked wasn’t just because he was an asshole. let’s try something different’ and she was curious even before that 

she decides that even though that whole relationship with dr. freeride sucked, the thing that was missing wasn’t just the fact that he was a dickhead. it was also the fact that men didn’t really appeal to her. 

she tries men one more time with cliff and she tells him at the beginning and he’s like ‘cool. if nothing else i’ll get a meal and some companionship  instead of crashing on my couch at one am with cspan’. 

she’s like ‘i get that!’

literally no tww character has a healthy work-life balance

after that date with cliff she decides ‘nope, not for me’

i also think she tells ainsley when ainsley tries to set donna up with cliff

‘ainsley, I'm not exactly straight. ill go, because i want to be sure, but you should know.’ 

ainsley’s cool with it

i maintain that ainsley and donna had a stronger relationship that was offscreen bc people don’t set up someone who’s only sort of a friend with  old friends on dates 

so i think ainsley knew that donna was questioning, or at least would be open to going on a date

and i think they slept together once and was no ‘yeah not going anywhere else’ but i think they enjoyed themselves 

hope you enjoyed anon! lemme know what you think :) 

[im-not-a-joke]

tell me about ALL of them. plz and thank you

ok so im doing character bios for all of them, thank you for asking

Brody (he/him)

- left-handed

- president of the chess club

- he pretends to be a huge nerd but he’s really not, he just likes the logic of chess and finds it grounding to have something to think about

- he stress picks at his nails and has a moderate anxiety disorder

- ids as panromantic demisexual

- he’s also a beanpole and a pole vault master

- he had his “oh shit im not straight” moment at 8 years old, and it was less “oh shit im not straight” and more “theres a cute boy and i want to rant to my moms about him!!!”

- he also has 2 moms

- he was the last one to be like “hey,,, i like all of you” and the other three were relieved that they didn’t have to awkwardly ask another person out

- he also plays trombone and caden loves it

- he’s the common sense that the chaos trio needs

- “you can’t do that, you’ll get caught, instead you should do it like this”

- best buds with jack

Piper (she/her)

- piper is ambidextrous and loves to brag about it constantly

- she plays rugby and she’s really good

- she pretends to be a jock type but is actually a huge nerd

- used to id as lesbian, but the caden came out as enby and she also started dating brody as well as mallory so she’s been in an identity crisis ever since

- she likes order and not having a label that she likes really stresses her out

- so she just goes with queer, but she still sometimes stays up until 3 am crying over not having a definite label, and fears it makes her not valid

- she was the one who originally brought up wanting to try a poly relationship to caden

- an absolute math whiz

- also cannot drive

- her parents are confused but supportive heteros (tm) and like to ask her how her partners are doing even if they don’t understand their relationship

- she plays the guitar and banjo and mallory and caden laugh at her constantly for it

- she likes to pretend she’s not in the chaos trio but she is

Mallory (she/her)

- she’s right handed, and only writes in cursive (it drives brody crazy)

- a bi icon

- she loves making clothes and then having her partners model them for her

- she drags piper with her on thrifting trips because piper can do math and mallory can’t

- but! she’s really good at writing and likes to write poetry and short stories

- she’s sarcastic until you get to know her and then she’s a huge softie

- she’s got social anxiety and people scare here, it’s a defense mechanism

- part of the chaotic trio because she loves piper and caden

- she’s very physically affectionate and is always clinging to someone, usually brody because it helps with his anxiety

- her favorite show is “i am not okay with this” because she sees a lot of herself in dina and also wyatt oleff exists

- pretends to be a theater nerd but she knows like, 3 songs off the heathers soundtrack because she has a big gay crush on barrett wilbert weed

- can drive! usually the driver whenever the four of them go anywhere together

- she’s got a twin named jack and theyre buds

- she’s not out but only barely

- and it’s not because her parents are homophobic, her brother is trans, but she just never mentions it

- she is the type to write her partners love letters and mail them when she could just text or call them instead

- but everyone loves her for it

Caden (they/them)

- right handed, but you really can’t tell a difference because their handwriting is so sloppy

- disaster pansexual

- chaos incarnate

- “wHaTs In YoUr PaNtS???” “chaos” - mallory, brody, and piper all at the same time

- the reason the chaotic trio exists

- really insecure but hides it behind jokes

- when they make a lot of jokes, their partners sit them down to talk

- craves validation

- not as bad a driver as piper but still can’t really drive

- they are the one that really knows how to help brody, so they give him a lot of attention

- really smitten with all of their partners

- the kind of person to make playlists and pick up random objects for people they love

- “brody!!!! i saw this really neat seashell and thought of you!!!” “piper!!! i got you more colorful bottles to put on your windowsill!!!” “mallory!!!! i made you this playlist of songs that made me think of you!!!!”

- an absolute sweetheart

- all of their partners would kick your ass if you insulted them

- but you really should be afraid of them

- they will commit a crime if they hear you talking bad about any of the people they love

[squigglywitch]

Dear lesbians,

I’m really sorry men feel entitled to you. I’m sorry your have to spend so much time telling them you’re off limits just for them to not even listen anyway. I’m sorry that people beg you to be bisexual so that you have at least a chance of ending up with a man. Im sorry that ‘corrective rape’ happens. I’m sorry that womanhood has been twisted into being synonymous with wanting male attention. I’m sorry that representation is taken away from you when people want to make sapphic characters still accessible to men. I’m sorry that you feel like you’ll never be able to have the romance you deserve and also the safety at the same time. I’m sorry that some people won’t say the word lesbian. I’m sorry that people think it’s dirty and wrong. I’m sorry that people have called you queer in hatred and anger. None of these things should be happening to you. They aren’t fair and they aren’t right.

But bisexual women aren’t to blame for the worlds hatred. Trans women aren’t to blame for the worlds hatred. Other queer people aren’t your enemies. I understand why you’re angry, I am too. I expierience homophobia too. Yes, I could possibly end up with a man and be happy, but that isn’t the privilege you think it is just because bad people spit it at you in anger. Despite what they may have made you think, those people would still hate you if you were bisexual. There is no way to love women and win their acceptance. Men would not stop attacking and hurting lesbians if bisexual women stopped existing. Our existence is not confusing men into thinking lesbians like men. They know the difference, they know you don’t like them and they don’t care because they’re bad people. Trans lesbians are not secretly male predators. No one is telling you you have to sleep with them. I’m certain they don’t want to sleep with you if you don’t think they’re women. You sound exactly like the straight girls who think you are a predator. You are doing to trans women what those girls did to you in changing rooms and school hallways and sleepovers.

The queer community fights for you, even if you don’t want it to. The queer community cares about you, even if you don’t like that word. You don’t need to be on your own. No one queer wants you to change or like men or be bisexual or go anywhere near a dick. You can come as you are. No amount of hating trans people or bi people will ever make homophobes care about you. It will only alienate you from a community that genuinely accepts you for who you are.

[bodyofvvater]

sweetheart

quite frankly got no fucking clue if this is even good at this point but i spent time on it so im posting it anyway. it’s soft. it’s gay. thats it

julia ortega/f!sidestep, 2.1k words, basically just a long-ass discussion about sexuality. slight retribution spoilers ahead

--- “So how did you know?”

The question comes out of the blue, breaks the sleepy silence that had settled between you. Your thoughts were elsewhere, muddled and quiet for once, still a little high off of Ortega’s hands, but her words drag them back to the present.

“How did I know what?” you ask. You can’t tell what thread she’s pulling on, can’t even dig into her head for answers, so you have to find out the old fashioned way.

“That you’re… Well, not straight,” Ortega explains. A little sheepish smile; “I guess I never asked you what you call yourself.”

A short silence.

“Lesbian, I guess,” you say then, and you’ve never said that out loud before, but that tends to be how it goes with Ortega. She asks questions you never thought to ask yourself, and then you spit out your gut reaction and hope it doesn’t come back to bite you.

Not that this is entirely a gut reaction. Not that you haven’t spent too much time trying to put words to it. Trying to find an answer for why you’ve found yet another way to set yourself apart from the hive. Another defect, you used to think. These days you try not to think about it at all. 

Not that Ortega knows that.

“I told you how I figured out I was bi earlier,” she continues in the absence of any further explanation on your part, and you try not to linger on earlier, because what comes after that is warm hands and soft kisses and no, not going there right now. 

“You did,” you agree, because you know she wants to continue, and you shouldn’t let her, but she’s smiling and you don’t want her to stop. Sucker.

“I guess I… Well, I’m curious,” she admits, hand reaching out to touch your shin next to her on the couch. The casual intimacy of it makes your heart leap into your throat. “If you don’t mind talking about it. Not that you have to! We can leave it, if you want.”

I do, you want to say, and don’t ask me again. You don’t know why it’s a sore spot; if anything, this is one of the few things that should be easy. This is one part of you she knows, one secret you don’t have to keep. Not even really a secret at all--if she ever had doubts that you liked women, sleeping with her probably dispelled the last of them.

So why do you want to keep it anyway?

“It’s… a little complicated,” you sigh in the end, because as much as you want to keep this to yourself, you also want to see the way Ortega’s eyes light up when she realizes you’re sharing. It’s a stupid, soft look on her, and you’re even stupider and softer for the way your heart flutters in your chest, but you’ve already indulged yourself plenty tonight, so what’s a little softness to top it off.

“How so?” she asks, interested. In you. You try not to dwell too much on that. 

“I don’t know, I guess no one ever really told me what I was supposed to be,” you say, and maybe it’s a bit of a lie in the grand scheme of things, but in this particular instance it’s true. You weren’t built for feelings or romance, not beyond necessary performance. You were never expected to think about it. “It didn’t come up. All of that wasn’t even on my radar until—”

Until I met you, you stop yourself from saying, and suddenly you can’t look at her. That’s another layer to this you don’t need; Ortega knowing what she does to you. What she means to you. Still.

You dare a half-glance at her out of your peripheral, and it tells you all you need to know; your silence speaks too loudly. Even if she doesn’t know, she has an idea now. Ortega’s expression has gone all gentle and open, looking at you like something precious. It makes you want to scratch at your arms, but you wring your fingers tightly together in your lap to keep them still.

“I,” you start again, but the words don’t come, so you start over. “It’s not like I wasn’t… looking, before. The implications just didn’t register.”

That part is honest enough that you cringe a little. Even before you had a mind of your own, you were always aware that women were aesthetically more appealing than men. It just took you a while before you realized that wasn’t a universal truth.

“So no, uh… relationships before? Then?” Ortega asks, and the absence of her usual smooth demeanor would be a triumph if the unspoken before me? wasn’t so blatantly obvious. As it stands, you force yourself to meet her eyes, because you need the upper hand back, and head-on is the only way you know how to get it.

“I told you this was my first time,” you say with a scowl, stubbornly ignoring the way your face flushes.

“Right,” she amends, wearing a smile that’s halfway between smug and apologetic, “I just meant normal stuff, like dating.”

The word normal feels like a punch to the gut, and it’s a struggle not to get angry. You’re not entirely sure you succeed, and you think she sees it too. The smile dims considerably, just the slightest shadow of it left.

“Sorry,” she says, although you don’t think she knows what she’s saying sorry for, and you’re not about to tell her. 

“No relationships before Sidestep,” you say instead, backtracking to the last semblance of comfortable territory in this conversation. “Or during, for that matter.” You both know that part’s not entirely true, but you’re not about to admit that.

“That doesn’t really answer my question,” Ortega says, all careful and quiet. She knows she’s stepping on uneven ground, but she does it anyway. That’s your fault, you suppose; you’ve let her get away with too much. You’re gonna let her get away with more.

“What do you mean?” you ask even though you know, because you’re not giving up without a fight, at the very least.

“I asked when you knew,” she says. “Or how you knew, I guess. If you have an answer.”

You keep your eye contact out of sheer spite, but it’s a close thing. You’re not sure why it hits as hard as it does; it’s just a question, and a personal one at that. It should be annoying. Maybe it still is. That doesn’t stop your eyes from burning a little at the tenderness you find in hers.

Maybe it’s just that she cares. You’re still not used to that. You don’t know if you can ever be.

“It’s not a very interesting story,” you sigh, and for a moment you can’t even remember if there’s much of a story at all. Then the memory hits you, hard enough to force something that might sound like an embarrassed laugh out of you. Not that you would ever be caught dead actually doing that. 

“I went to go get antiseptic and band-aids a little after my debut,” you mumble in the futile hope that Ortega won’t be able to hear. As if the room isn’t quiet enough to be able to hear a pin drop. “I wasn’t very good at the whole sidestepping business yet, and I needed to patch myself up. I didn’t know the layout of the store, though, and my eye was kinda swollen, so I had to ask the clerk to show me where stuff was.”

You pause, waiting for Ortega to make some quip about you? Asking for help? I never thought I’d see the day, but she stays quiet. Just looks at you, like every word out of your mouth is a favor.

That particular thought gets booted as soon as it appears.

“So this woman follows me to the right aisle, and she’s, like, stupidly gorgeous. Tall, dark hair, dark eyes, looked like she could pick me up no problem.”

This time, Ortega doesn’t stay quiet, and you realize what just came out of your mouth a second too late. “Got a type there?” There’s a smug smile on her lips now, and it would be so easy to just kick your leg out and wipe it off, but you decide to have mercy. You’ll have plenty of opportunities to fight her later, of that you are sure. 

That’s the only reason. Definitely not because the warm presence of her hand on your leg is a comfort you don’t want to give up.

“Shut up,” you say instead, and she does, but she keeps smiling. Idiot. “So she shows me where the stuff I need is, and she gets something off a shelf for me, and as she hands it to me she goes ‘here you are, sweetheart’.”

“Aw, was that when you realized?” Ortega cuts in, sounding much too fond and much too smug. “A pet name?”

You sigh, weighing the pros and cons of letting her keep her assumptions and ending the story there. It’s a plausible ending, and Ortega certainly doesn’t need to know any more embarrassing details about you. She already knows what you sound like with her mouth anywhere lower than your collarbones, and that’s more than enough.

But she’s looking at you and her eyes are all lit up, and the hand on your leg is on your knee now, and you feel so human it’s almost a little overwhelming. Just one step removed from normal, so close. You want to step closer. Just to see what it’s like. Just to try. Hand on the stove just to make sure it’s hot.

This is stupid, you tell yourself, this is the stupidest thing you’ve ever done, and then you do it anyway, just to spite yourself.

“Not exactly,” you mumble, trying to stop your lips from quirking up into a smile. You don’t need to give Ortega outright permission to laugh. “I got… a little flustered. I guess. And I started backing away and I-- well, there was another customer crouched down to get something on a shelf right behind me.”

“Wait, you--?” Ortega begins, but you don’t let her finish.

“I fell on my ass and took some old dude and two shelves of band-aids with me.” Your face is burning, but you’re determined not to acknowledge it.

“Hania!” Ortega exclaims, sits up straight so suddenly the movement nearly makes you jump. A huge grin takes up her entire face, and you hate that it’s contagious. “You’re kidding! That doesn’t even sound like you!”

“Yeah, well, it was a different time.” You try for your best approximation of a scowl, but you think it ends up more like reluctant amusement, which is too true to be comfortable. “Figured that wasn’t the average straight experience. The specifics came later.”

“And all that because of a pet name.” It’s not a question. Ortega raises an amused eyebrow at you, and Christ, you’re going to regret telling her this, but it’s worth it for how average you feel. Just a moment where the constant wailing storm of what you’ve done and what you have to do calms down to a faint hum.

“Not all because of a pet name,” you protest, because that’s what you do.

“Oh, is that so, sweetheart?” she asks, all self-satisfied confidence, and the hand that has lightly rested on your leg until now curls to your calf, grips securely and pulls. You want to be angry at how easy it still is for her to just move you as she pleases, but you can’t help the little thrill as she smoothly coaxes you off the armrest you had been propped up against. 

“Shut up,” you say, most definitely not smiling like an infatuated idiot, now lying flat on your back on the couch. Certainly not smiling wider when she moves to join you, chest to chest and noses almost touching. All soft, warm pressure, a comfort you’re going to complain about later to regain a little self-control.

“What’s the matter, babe?” she asks, hand on your thigh now, and you ignore the resulting flip of your stomach in favor of rolling your eyes at her. “Baby? Honey? Love? If you don’t pick one, I’ll just keep using all of them.”

“You’re such a pain in the ass,” you complain, bumping her nose a little with yours. If you’re creative, you can convince yourself it’s an acceptable substitute for the punch you should be throwing.

“Are you saying you don’t like it?” Her voice is all feigned innocence, and you want to call her on it, because she knows damn well that’s not what you’re saying. But that would entail actually telling her as much, and that’s not going to happen.

“Shut up,” you say again instead. Then you kiss her to make sure she does.

[chimura-arts]

background characters for Greenwood! they’re all part of Third Mark!!!! im really trying to practice different angles of the head and im really proud of how some of these came out. details about their name symbolisms under the cut. their classes and alignments arent final, so some details i list may not stick

(rbs appreciated)

- im just gonna preface this by saying all these charas are based off real people i have bad relationships w/. victor and kadri are recycled from another story

- Victor aka Calystegia (or cal for short) is 22 and is a lawful evil warlock. he was one of haru’s first friends but the two clashed too much and the two gained a strained relationship of mutual hatred

- calystegia is also known as bindweed or....more commonly known as morning glory! it means dead hope

- the guy i based victor off of was a very pessimistic guy who didnt want to get better as a person and so yeah. he always acted very hopless and like he was never going to get anywhere

- he’s also trans/bi

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- Kadri aka Nettle is 24 and she’s a neutral evil rogue. haru viewed her as an elder sibling type and he respected her but one day he said someting wrong to her (that he didn’t realize was wrong) and then she began ignoring him 

- nettle means you are spiteful which......she’s very spiteful

- she is agender but likes female pronouns. she’s also a lesbian

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- Syd aka Sorrel is 22 and she’s a chaotic neutral ranger. she and haru had a fairly good friendship but haru thought she was too peppy and weird for him, so he tried to stay away from her by sticking to nacht

- at one point she showed feelings for him which made him stick even closer to nacht (which yknow, really sucks in the long term cause nacht was an asshole)

- sorrel means ill timed wit which fits! cause she’s the jokester type but a lot of her jokes are misses

- she is cis and pan

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- Sylvie aka Thistle is 19 and they’re a chaotic neutra bard/fighter. haru viewed them as a younger sibling type and was fond of them. when shit fell apart in Third Mark, the two became very distant. aside from nacht, who haru had a good relationship with, sylvie was a very close friend for haru while he was still a mercenary

- thistle means misanthropy which sylvie held a lot of for humanity in general. they hate the world and a lot of the people in it

- they are nonbinary (they also use he/him sometimes) and are a lesbian 

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- yall already know about nacht so im skipping him

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- Esme aka Marigold is 22 and a lawful neutral cleric/wizard. she and haru were friends for a while until shit fell apart. now haru holds a deep grudge for her and hates her.

- she’s nice, but she’s got hidden motives that make her way more sinister than she lets on. 

- of everyone in Third Mark, she’s the only one who has higher education (aka wizard school aka college lmao)

- marigold means jealousy, despair, and grief in love

- she is cis and bi

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- yall already know about nacht so im skipping him

- Burn aka Lilium is 23 and a true neutral paladin/barbarian. he’s a jock-type meathead through and through. haru used to like him and the two were friends, but now holds a deep annoyance with him

-  unlike esme who’s actually smart, he’s a fucking dumbass and blindly follows nacht. he could be a good guy but nah he’s too stupid 

- lilium = lily, but SPECIFICALLY yellow lilies mean falsehood and gay

- i chose that bc he’s based off my last ex boyfriend who.....over the past few years decided that he was straight. so. hm. yeah. i turned my ex boyfriend straight (i was his only bf too, he only dates girls now :/ )

- he’s the only cis/het character i have

[riv-ika]

nobody kill me but i actually,,, liked the rise of skywalker

SPOILERS BELOW

like obviously im bitter about oscar isaac not getitng his finnpoe but otherwise i thought it was good??

i was never a big fan of reylo but i’m not upset about how they ended it. i want more movies to actually put effort into their redemption arcs and not kill off the characters needing to redeem themselves but oh well

the gay joe russo thing is getting old disney are cowards. lesbian resistance pilots are cool-- thanks-- but how about mORE THAN TWO SECONDS OF THEM

leia’s death was depressing AS FUCK but the poetic cinema of rey and kylo’s thing going on halfway across the universe just as she died and rey feeling it and ugh *chef’s kiss* AND THEN CHEWIES REACTION NO THAT WAS SAD AF

the shots were gorgeous and the scenery was beautiful as always

i genuinely thought there were gonna kill chewie and FLIPPED my shit. when it happened i heard my dad whisper ‘upsetti spaghetti’ and nearly lost it laughing which was awful

them sliding in a potential female love interest for poe last second was kinda :/// like ok i headcanon him as a bi disaster but finn is RIGHT THERE yall just dont want people to think he’s a Homosexual fuck off disney

also hey what the fuck with the spice runner thing? i thought his parents were rebels or smthn????

i’m glad they didn’t force the rose/finn thing again? but im upset they shoved her aside she was a really cool character and i loved her. also the new character who was also a turncoat from the first order??? i loved her but i didnt even catch her name

SPACE HORSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

poe taking over the resistance gave me goosebumps it’s what my boi deserves

The trio banter killed me instantly. the first half of the movie was a Whole Meme. i love that the shining stars of the resistance are just bickering like children while Finn, the only one leia can take anywhere, is like “pls for the love of god stop fighting”

also idk what was up with Finn needing to tell Rey something i know people thought they were hinting at an I love you confession but i actually thought he was just gonna tell her he was force sensitive? also lmao lil jealous poe right there thank u for ur service oscar isaac

rey and kylo with the fuckin!!! lightsabers!!!!! bro that was beautiful with that smooth bond-pass that was so cool i think i died

han’s ghost literally broke my heart and it took me a straight 12 hours to realise that ben meant to say i love u and han just i know and when i figured it out i sCREAMED

also thank god they confirmed somebody uses Dad in the star wars universe instead of Father do u know how much easier that makes my fanfic writing

FURTHERMORE if i hear one more motherfucker say rey taking the skywalker name was a disgrace because she’s a palpatine, i am going to SNAP. yall get upset that there isn’t enough found family in a movie and then u get mad when they actually use it??? SHUT THE FUCK UPPPP she’s a skywalker ok the Force ghosts approve

the NOSTALGIA!!!!!!!! the ewoks at the end made my sister :D and going back to luke’s home on tatooine i was like !!!!!!!! why would u do ani dirty burying his lightsaber in the sand. bUT REYS NEW LIGHTSABER BRO THATS SO COOL

anyway i actually really enjoyed it! i think it’s nice for my generation to have our own set of star wars movies, especially one with such a diverse cast and developed characters, despite its flaws

[razzmatazzzzzzzzzz]

hi there and welcome to im having a

break down

at 12 am

theres a bunch of triggers revolving around invalidation so dont read if you can’t handle those

i was drawing

as i often do

and i suddenly remember the only person i currently have in my blocklist.

a panphobe.

they’ve been in there for about a week now, and only now have I given it thought.

I’ve always hated blocking people.

On deviantart I have a few people blocked.

some weird pedo is the first to come to mind

and the only other one i can think of off the top of my head is someone who came at me for even considering to use he/him and then promptly shat on my gender identity as a whole, said that he/him lesbians were weird, said that d*** and f***** weren’t offensive, and that neither was the n-word. He was caucasian. He then verbally abused on of my best friends on discord according to someone else. That whole fiasco honestly didn’t affect me as much as this is.

right now.

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The person in my tumblr blocklist is a warrior cat artist that I SO want to do a call-out post on because I took a look at their blog and they still have supporters. It’s sickening. But I won’t because I simply do not have the heart for that.

They drew what I believe was their wc sona holding a bi-battle axe, and then they got an ask asking if they were a panphobe. They responded with an affirmative.

I considered just unfollowing them, but I honestly didn’t want them anywhere near me, ever, so I ended up blocking them.

Now we’re here tonight, where I’m fucking crying because,,

we

as a fandom

managed to get a terf off the writing team

but somehow we haven’t ‘cancelled’ a panphobic blog that most likely has about 300 followers.

I remember reading their asnwer to the ask and if I’m correct they said that they hated pans bcs of a ‘past experience’ and like, no? fuck you?

that’s the equivalent of “oh well, i met this one little girl that hated my guts, so therefore all little girls do,” that is SO fucked up and

oh my god i can’t even type anymore

im going to sleep

im not going to say who this is. if you know, you know, if you dont, you dont

im sorry for throwing my breakdown at y’all

[valravnocs]

I HAVE FOUR NEW OCS theyre Jr. OCs bc they’re made 2 go with Draha and Warren BUT im gonna post lil baby summaries of them all..... YES i have pics made but even tho the picrew maker says edits r allowed i feel bad........ so idk if im gonna post them or not lol *dies* ANYWAYS

all 4 of these dudes/dudettes r Kin (supernatural beings)

1) Frej (it/its + masc; gay)

Frej is an Ekimmu Netrunner.... roughly summarized from the Nightlife guide, it’s part of a race of kin, appearing as a gruesome corpse that’s born after someone breaks a vow to tend to a grave. Frej was twenty when it died in a car accident, and is one of the rare group of Kin associated with Draha who were born after the transition into the cyberpunk future of the 2020s. Coming from a low-ranking Corporate family, its parents abandoned its grave after both receiving large promotions (grief can disrupt corporate loyalty, after all). When reborn, Ekimmu maintain any and all injuries sustained before death, meaning Frej looks rather gruesome— that’s part of the reason it chose to become a Netrunner, living in the world of cyberspace where people only see its avatar; there’s a lot less fear and judgement on the Net. Moody and rash, Frej takes a long time to warm up to people, but it’s close friends with Eumelia. Vega and Cassian can’t stand it— they feel like it doesn’t take its work seriously enough. It and Eumelia share a morbid sense of humor, though, part of their ways of coping with being a reanimated corpse, and in Eumelia’s case being nearly 3,000 years old. When not jacked in to the Net, Frej tends to dress in bright colors and tacky fashions. He has bright pink hair, no eyes (he usually wears bandages over them), greyed skin and multiple large lacerations on his chest, hands, and smaller ones face (a cut lip, a cut on his forehead, and a chunk torn from his ear).

2) Vega (she/her; bi)

An Animate, Vega awoke in a panic and, upon seeing her body, crushed the head of her creator with her bare hands. That was when she knew if she wanted to live any normal sort of life, she’d have to become a Solo. The head of Draha’s entire squad of Solos, Vega is the best of the best of the best. Incredibly strong AND incredibly smart, Vega also gas excellent reflexes and always knows how to keep her cool. She’s close friends with Eumelia because their work often draws them together— with high quantities of cybernetics and regular weapons as well, if Vega ever needs a repair she goes directly to Eumelia. Vega is fairly close to Cassian as well, viewing him as a younger brother (even though he’s older than her in years). Though er body and mind are that of an approximately 36 year old woman, Vega has only truly been alive for about fifteen years. She’s rebellious and antisocial, rarely interacting with humans, even ones within Drahomír’s ranks. She keeps her hair in a curly black undercut, and her eyes are a cloudy white (she relies on cybernetics to see). Her skin is divided in patches of a dull green, grey, and normal flesh-colored, showing the variations of freshness among the corpses her creator used. The thick black stitching has become a fashion statement for her, as much as her ear, eyebrow, and tongue piercings.

3) Cassian (he/him)

He may look like a fourteen year old, but if you underestimate Cassian it will be the last thing you do. A water spirit called an Asrai, Cassian has actually been alive for forty-five years. He lives in the fountain outside Draha’s mansion, and acts as a lawyer for the vampire. Once working for one of the largest Kin-run corporations, he left that job when he realized he’d much rather avoid the ruthlessness of the corporate ladder. The most respected of Draha’s team and the most ruthless, Cassian benefits from the naturally high intelligence and cool of his race. Serious and aloof, Cassian rarely makes true friends, though he is relatively close to Vega, and he tolerates Eumelia. While he acknowledges Frej’s talent on the Net, he doesn’t think it should act anywhere near as childish as it does. Cassian has light blue-tinged skin and often sheds water droplets, with uniform blue-green eyes (no irises or pupils) and shimmering white hair. He dresses only in suits, generally tailor made because his body is both young in appearance and only around four and a half feet tall.

4) Eumelia (she/her; lesbian)

2,897 years old, Eumelia is a Medusa. Born in ancient Greece, her mother raised her within a small clan of Medusae, but a falling out would mean that eventually Eumelia would go off on her own. Much, much older than Draha, she has more than earned his respect through that fact alone— she doesn’t really have any aspirations for control, though. She’s seen men struggle for power and fail too many times. The best Techie in the business, Eumelia can make any sort of gadget or cybernetic implant your heart could desire, often spending time around Vega; they share a love for the weapons of the future. Casual and laid-back, many men who come to her underestimate her intelligence... and wind up turned to stone. While glamoured, she appears as a regular woman with green hair (the style varies)— when not glamoured, she has snakes for hair and batlike wings growing from her back, as well as luminescent yellow eyes. Her dress style tends to be rather free; why should she stop herself from wearing whatever she wants? She’s almost three thousand years old, after all. If she wants to wear just overalls and a bra with her high-heeled boots, goddamnit she’s gonna. She has a girlfriend currently, a Daemon also on Draha’s paycheck, and they’ve been happily together for about ten years. Eumelia gets along well with both Frej and Vega, but finds Cassian a little too uptight for her tastes.

[androdragynous]

twitter anon here is your reply post, im putting it under a break bc i dont want ppl to reblog it like a discourse post. preventative measure. also bc its a long post

[ link to my tweets for context ]

Anonymous said to canonkiller: June 2nd 2019, 4:05:40 pm · 12 minutes ago yee haw, u asked something about why sharing an ace identity to strangers is necessary? being ace is something not accepted by others 100% of the time, and it is still an oppressed group which is why it’s part of the lgbtq community bla bla, especially when being horny/making sexual jokes can be the norm, and especially when you want to have open convos about attraction and sexuality. that’s. Kinda why.

Anonymous said to canonkiller: June 2nd 2019, 4:06:57 pm · 11 minutes ago I’d also like to add that! Sexual attraction is weird so that maybe you’re not comfortable with some things as an ace person as others are,, and being ace is seen as negative pretty often. It’s nice to say Hey I Exist

im going to try to phrase this in a way that makes sense but my feelings on the whole thing are a lil nebulous so bear with me on that front; none of this is meant to come across as accusatory or hostile, it’s a genuine confusion when present 

i guess where i’m coming from is like. telling strangers that you’re ace is still telling strangers about your sex life, where telling people that you’re gay / lesbian / bi / pan / trans / nb isn’t. nothing about that prior list reveals anything about your sex life, and all of them can be present alongside being ace. whereas ‘ace pride’ is just like... the opposite of a hentai / ahegao shirt or whatever. it’s non-sexual, but in a sexual way, if that makes sense? its like. it’s still information about your sex life that i, as a complete stranger, do not need or want to see.

it also, unintentionally or not, feels like it’s implying everyone else at pride is sexual. as if by specifying, it’s marking the others as others. ‘here are the gay people, here are the lesbians, and here are the ones who aren’t sexual deviants’, kind of. and i know it’s probably unintentional! again, i don’t mean to be like Ace People Are Evil or anything, but it’s just... it feels uncomfortable, as someone who is treated as being inherently sexual for not being straight. and uh not gonna lie but your addition of being horny / making sexual jokes as being the norm for the lgbt community is uhhhhhh not helping with that one, actually, it’s kind of proving it. which is less than ideal.

also - again, genuine, honest question - what is the oppression ace ppl face for being ace? because practically every form of oppression i can think of - being denied housing, jobs, adoption, rights - simply won’t apply in the day to day life of an ace person. from my perspective - which i admit is limited, which is again why i’m asking - the only time you could, for example, be fired for being ace, would be if you routinely brought up that you were ace and your coworkers got uncomfortable about the fact you continued to talk about your sex life or lack thereof. and i don’t think that’s the same as being fired for having a same-gender partner who just exists, because that’s not mentioning your sex life, or transitioning, which also has nothing to do with your sex life.

i... really don’t think that discomfort is tied just to being ace, though? like, a lot of non-ace people are uncomfortable, as an example, kink / bdsm at pride. or horny / sexual jokes (you’ll notice, for example, that i don’t post those despite not identifying as ace). or being uncomfortable with people who make their sex lives or lack thereof a major focus of their identity. there’s no reason for that to be the common ground for ace experience when that’s something... a lot of people don’t like. it’s not like gay people go over to some dude in a hentai shit and start congratulating him. we all think its fucking weird, because that’s being sexual in a place where people aren’t giving consent to seeing it. you know, basic human decency standard.

it’s also... the description of seeing other ace ppl and relating to them is all fine and good, but it’s in the context that like... everyone who doesn’t give you intimate details about their sex life is then automatically not ace. you have no idea! you have no idea about most of the people you see! is a lot of media sexualized? yeah! and a lot of people - ace or not - have a lot of issues with that! it’s not like people who feel sexual attraction are 110% comfortable with some sex scene in a crowded theater, it’s fuckin weird for everyone.

i do also have to bring up my experience w the identity in fandom spaces, which is important, because to me it is PROFOUNDLY uncomfortable when people are like “this child character from this children’s series is asexual and this character is gay!” because it’s like. they’re 12. this is a book series written for twelve year olds. none of them are sexual. pointing out that one character is Very Not Sexual and the other is gay has some aforementioned unfortunate implications about how people view being gay! i have the same concern seeing ace pride flag stamps on a minor’s deviantart profile as i do when i see a fetish stamp there; the simple dread that children are being exposed to sexual content - or being told they are abnormal for not experiencing it when they’re children - and it’s expected to be a point of pride. that concerns me. i fear for kids who are ‘proudly ace’ because, from my experience, the ace people i have met bring up sex far more often than those who aren’t ace or haven’t made it a focal point of their identity. at the end of the day, i don’t want to know about how much or how little anyone, ESPECIALLY A CHILD, wants to have sex! and i think thats a pretty normal thing to not want! 

it’s not anywhere near my business unless they are my partner, in which case we can talk about it, like people in healthy relationships do. and if we break up because we can’t reach a compromise, that’s... normal? like, wanting different things from a relationship is generally why things don’t work out. that’s not ace oppression or anything. thats just normal dating.

my question still doesn’t feel answered! it still feels like it boils down to lgbt people aren’t telling people about their sex lives, ace people are, and i don’t need to know why i need to know the details about ANYONE’S sex life without my consent - which i’m not giving when im looking at pride merch on etsy or people’s profiles on deviantart. especially when the meaning of ‘asexual’ has been diluted to the point where it means ‘someone who isn’t wanting sex 24/7′ which is. how most people are.