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puckpocketed · 4 months ago

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26/09/2024 - R7 vs 100T

WELCOME TO WORLDS - R7 make history as the first LLA team to beat a major region (LCS) in a Bo3

[ID: Video of the final moments of R7 vs 100Thieves in the 2024 League of Legends World Championships play-ins, day 2. Ceo (R7 Lucian) ults Tomo (100T Jinx) in bot lane under tower. Tomo does not use flash and dies, to the casters' horror. Summit (R7 Renekton) goes for 100T's mid lane inhibitor as both teams posture for the next fight. Eventually, both of 100T's inhibitors go down, and shortly after Oddie (R7 Wukong) engages with his ult. R7 dive 100T under their nexus turrets, and a messy teamfight unfolds. R7 win the fight, and the match. The feed cuts to R7 at their PCs in the final moments and they rise to celebrate; hugging, cheering, shaking hands, and taking photos. In the background, the casters yell about the upset in disbelief. /. End ID.]

#lol esports #100Thieves #league of legends world championship #LLA #LCS #100T:lol #R7 #lolwc 2024 #puckgaming #flashing video #sorry i do have to document this <3 even though lolesports is . MUCH better at archiving video than the nhl #im STILL a little paranoid #it was a beautiful cast too. <3

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amygdalae · 3 months ago

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'based on inconclusive evidence i think my bus driver is mad at me' and other phrases for the utterly deranged

#ive been taking the buses home all semester and im still a little paranoid im somehow breaking some unspoken bus rule #that nobodys warned me about

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pansyfemme · 4 months ago

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for a looooong time now i’ve had this particular… thing? (i know it’s related to my psychosis/being schizospec bc. thats what my therapist says. but i don’t know what’s the right term..) everytime i wear headphones at night where i swear i can hear people i love talking badly about me but can’t quite make it out over the music but it completely disapears when i take them out. ive been dealing with it since middle school and it used to drive me fucking nuts but now it’s all just part of the music listening experience for me… hashtag i lov e music

#it still drives me nuts a little bit im ngl #i have a lot of. paranoia about people talking about me #whenever im living somewhere with. thin walls. i have to sleep with white noise/earplugs because if i hear anyone speaking but can’t quite #make it out i will stay up obsessively thinking its about me. its a bad habit and i dont want to eavesdrop but trust me i hate eavesdropping #i wish i could turn it off im just very paranoid #^ but the music ones are hallucinated to some level. i just also have paranoia related to overhearing things #i don’t. usually hallucinate these days at least not. strongly #i haven’t had a full hallucination since.. highschool? but at times there are. bits of ones but its mainly paranoia

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bandtrees · 5 months ago

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copper is already setting in as hymns for the roads' Ollie-Guy(tm) i like them so much

(ft glass because this bit scared the shit outta me)

#babbles #hymns for the road #same va as a character i'm already insane about? check. protagonist? check. uneasy and paranoid? check #i like the idea of the main one in a 'all we have is eachother:(' apocalypse group still being pretty cagy even if theyr a more passive typ #anyway new episode was real fun i'm starting to get into it more YAAAAAYYY #i have loooose designs in mind for the main guys but im really not sure how to approach outfits #beyond like. post-apocalyptic. modern kinda? yeah sure #and of course color coding. cuz look at em #in my mind copper does look like how i also imagine love findusalive but a little to the left.#more ragged. shorter hair. more visibly quiet and uneasy. frightened lil bug eyes

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qoldenskies · 3 months ago

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I stayed up SO LATE to read all of the canary continuity and I’m sitting in my bed shell shocked and I need him to be okay you don’t even knOW good lord-

anyway wanna be friends 🥺🥺🥺

HEEHEE THANK YOU ❤️❤️❤️ he'll be okay!! eventually, just gotta get through the immediate danger first

and i kind of develop a rapport with everyone who talks to me consistently, so if you wanna stick around we can be buds!! i am under pseudonym though, be warned pfhtrhh

#ask #maybe one day i'll develop the courage to unmask a little #im secretly..... a furry artist. GASP #genuinely not surprising in this fandom actually and its not why im in hiding LMFAO #im just in hiding because im weird and paranoid like that #but its wild im talking to so many people who have never seen my art before ... crazy #i dont really like it very much . but still! wild

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defectivegembrain · 5 months ago

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Going home today instead of tomorrow my mum is coming to meet me and help me take the metro a bit later I don't think I could do it alone atm

#uni halls #im still a little paranoid about leaving the room overnight but I'll have to sometime #and it should be fine really

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crystalkitty1220 · 8 months ago

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Man I wonder where the leader of the fear realm could've gone, it's alMOST LIKE NEVIN HAS AN

#had to re-edit the image real quick because the original edit was from a post I made about Drew years ago #and while the Drew thing is becoming less and less likely. Nevin havinv one has basically been canon since #someone mentioned Greg's (was it Britney's) aura being familiar in s2ch1. ive been putting together a list of every line #that points to Nevin's aura throughout the whole thing (most from s2ch1 but then s2ch10 came out and it was really canon at that point)#but clearly i'm running out of time to say ''i fucking called it'' before it's explicitly stated and i dont want to be in another situation #where somebody else will beat me to a theory and me posting anything about it will seem like copying them. sorry about that btw i had #thought i had already mentioned theorizing that nevin was possessed by a demon in that old theory i made but i had forgotten that one was #super old and was about sigma. so no copying there i just got extremely paranoid there was a mention of a cult and i was like ''nuh uh #that's way too specific and out there of a detail to end up in both our theories'' and i forgot the rest of my super old post was outdated #as hell. and echos had gone ''yeah they're so similar!'' and i took their word for it but now i'm realizing they were probably just trying #to be supportive. so yeah no copying there i was just beaten to the punch of saying something. but i will NOT back down from the aura shit #because i have been calling that shit FROM THE START or at least since i started reading ibvs back when ch20 came out.#also not backing down from saying chris was the worse friend because these past few chapters are the first time isaac has done anything tha #could knowingly upset chris meanwhile chris has. let edward drag isaac to the lair after isaac said edward would beat him up. chose not to #believe edward was holding the secrets over their heads because 'it was something isaac had said' and then immediately distrusted edward in #the next chapter because a random person he didn't know said to steal a book (might i mention how that entire scene proves chris' lack of #development and refusal to take responsibility because it perfectly alludes to when chris had brought those fireworks into his old school #and makes me wonder if charlie has actually gotten him in trouble with his past schools or if he's still just not taking responsibility #and if him following nevin to the woods to test out their powers is an extension of ''if something bad happens its not my fault''#like seriously this man would bring a mysterious suitcase onto a plane if he's told to). uh what was i talking about agai #anyway on a related note my mental state has only gotten worse since i left tumblr and the habit of thinking about chris instead of sleepin #or doing schoolwork has not stopped. so i was still failing for a while and might graduate now but am still staying away from tumblr.#so yeah this was a little update and im not going to linger this time im just going to leave tumblr again right after hitting post #addendum because i just can't let things go. and was thinking about chris again. i don't think his lack of development is because of bad #writing (anymore. i used to.). instead i'm certain his character arc is going to continue into him following someone (nevin probably) into #doing something really bad. and then he'll finally get actual consequences and go 'oh shit i fucked up real bad this time'#if you think that theory is reaching too far into the future you should hear mine about isaac dying at the end lmao

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horrorsequel · 1 month ago

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something sexy abt watching my 20 y/o self loose his mind on camera with a green mouth from all the creme de menthe and oh my god he was like so miserable but he was still... happy in the moment that was captured here, and that's important to remember. i was in what i consider the most miserable few years of my life (so far!!!!) and i survived it AND managed to find moments of happiness inside it. i got this. even if i never make something out of myself, i think the happiness i've found in my life is important.

#kirbco brand cola #like yeah i am a little miaerable rn #and i have so many things to do to prepare myself for life On The Outside #it rwally does feel like getting released from an institution #i wanna leave so bad and im so scared i dont know how to exist outside this #i look back on the times i had some freedom and its like #god i really have no safe places to go sit do i?? theres nowhere i can get to where i can relax #isnt that so fucked? the closest i get to relaxing is being home alone #which honestly im still always paranoid my parents r watching #i wonder !! if i ever wont be?#whatever. once again i need to purchase a diary methinks #i think if i get a diary then i can get out all the unfiltered #and i can chew on the ideas and then maybe i'll write better poems #instead of just kind of barfing into a document

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drivemysoul · 4 months ago

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every time i say i want my septum pierced someone says id look bad with it so now i’m sitting in my bathtub crying over other things and being upset that i’d look ugly with the piercing i want really bad

#taylor.txt #i brought it up again and the person i said it to was like ‘i don’t think it’d look good on you’#and then said i’d look good with an eyebrow piercing instead #and like. it’s not like i don’t want my eyebrow pierced i think it’d be fun i guess #but i wear wigs and i get my eyebrows waxed and i have two young nieces and i’d be scared of it getting pulled out somehow #like there’s a lot of risks that i’d be paranoid over #i already had to get my helix taken out because of my wigs and i’m still sad about it #i don’t want to do that with something that’s literally on my face #plus (and this is stupid) but three of my brothers have had eyebrow piercings #and i’ve always associated eyebrow piercings with like. dudes #just because my brothers have had them and i know that’s a dumb reason #and given i already feel like im not feminine enough and like everyone thinks i’m a guy no matter what i do to look girly #i just. this is entirely my issue and it’s not like. a valid thing to be upset about #but i just wanted a cute little septum piercing i could put cute jewellery in and feel cute #and i just. i know it’s so dumb but now im just kind of sitting here sobbing

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phagodyke · 7 months ago

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yeah I'm not gonna talk abt it am I...

#well thats okay. eventually itll come up naturally. and if not well. it doesnt make me feel very okay. but its not a big deal #and i guess ill meet ppl in the future who will curate a different idea of me and maybe therell be fewer misunderstandings #<- coward who CAN communicate to save their life but not in any lower stakes situation for their happiness n quality of life #we <3 repression n insecurity. maybe if i keep digging at the corner of this bit of the labyrinth with my spoon ill get out someday 😌#anyway.. theres my daily vague vent post got it out of my system #wanted to do it earlier but ended up not having much time after work n then called friends which was nice :^)#also i never have signal at work these days.. my boss has said shell get me on the staff wifi tho cuz i do need it for work reasons #its rare to need it for work purposes bc we all use work pcs n stuff anyway and not rly supposed to use mobiles in the lab #but yeahh.. god i have so much admin shit to sort out also gotta text family back before i sleep i forgot to earlier #its all good.. also my memory foam pillows turned up so i no longer have to steal my roomies extra one for my neck pain <3 #ik she was missing it... not to sound like a creep but it was nice that it smelled like her a little. just familiar innit #we're always around each other so its just what being home smells like to me.. listen i have a sensitive nose 😔✋️#if we were a lot closer i would ask if i could sleep in her bed while shes away but we're not so it would come across sooo weird..#and i would feel rly weird abt someone sleeping in my own room without me there. well maybe not actually. as long as they werent snooping #<- guy whose mother used to go thru their shit all the time n struggles to not feel paranoid and distrustful when it comes to privacy #was thinking recently my ideal living situation w a partner would be separate rooms but we still share the bed sometimes #but not every night bc im a sensitive sleeper... but we can switch bedding so i can still smell them if i wake up in the night alone #like how new mothers trying to get babies used to cot sleeping each have a cloth or blanket and swap every night #so the baby is comforted by the blankets smell and sleeps more peacefully.. and momma finds it easier being apart from the baby too #sorry this is getting gooey and weird my meds have been wearing off the last couple hours im so sleeppyyyy 😭#well.... maybe everything can wait until tomorrow..... bed is calling..#goodnight everyone muah #.diaries

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dandyshucks · 5 months ago

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i cannot take photos of myself bc when i finally get one that i think looks okay, i notice my eyes and i feel like i look like that blue-eyed dachshund. dis one 👇

ALSO I DONT REMEMBER if i ever explained it. but the reason i bring Lil Guz everywhere interesting and take photos of him is partially because I likeys him soooo much, but the original idea of like. having a plushie that i take photos of. is because i have a really hard time with taking photos of myself (various reasons for that) so I decided one time on an outing a few years ago to bring a little plushie friend to take photos of to replace taking selfies. so then I can see that i have been somewhere without the photos having to include me necessarily !! highly recommend it honestly even if u do enjoy taking selfies, just bring a lil guy to take photos of too :3

#my eyes used to be more grey idk what happened #maybe i've just started noticing them more bc of all the blue eyes memes fdsjkl that is entirely possible #yall i wish i could just post photos of myself but i am so paranoid(? maybe justified) about internet safety LOL #BUT LIKE. ngl the two polaroid artworks featuring me are ... honestly pretty much exactly what i look like irl dsjkl its a little freaky #i still do not know what sort of ... insert drug here. that i was on to paint those so fast HFDSSJKL #i think it took me 4-8 hours total for each one. i think the very first one (where he's covering his face) took 2-4 hours #im just ???? now it takes me 16+ hours to make one 😭😭😭HOW DID I DO THAT BEFORE AUGHHH #i need to focus less on tiny details probably fdsjkl just get the gist of it and nobody will notice if tiny details are missing or wrong #dandy.cmd

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rosesradio · 5 months ago

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i think my university fucking bit me wtf