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puckpocketed · 2 months ago

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26/09/2024 - R7 vs 100T

WELCOME TO WORLDS - R7 make history as the first LLA team to beat a major region (LCS) in a Bo3

[ID: Video of the final moments of R7 vs 100Thieves in the 2024 League of Legends World Championships play-ins, day 2. Ceo (R7 Lucian) ults Tomo (100T Jinx) in bot lane under tower. Tomo does not use flash and dies, to the casters' horror. Summit (R7 Renekton) goes for 100T's mid lane inhibitor as both teams posture for the next fight. Eventually, both of 100T's inhibitors go down, and shortly after Oddie (R7 Wukong) engages with his ult. R7 dive 100T under their nexus turrets, and a messy teamfight unfolds. R7 win the fight, and the match. The feed cuts to R7 at their PCs in the final moments and they rise to celebrate; hugging, cheering, shaking hands, and taking photos. In the background, the casters yell about the upset in disbelief. /. End ID.]

#lol esports #100Thieves #league of legends world championship #LLA #LCS #100T:lol #R7 #lolwc 2024 #puckgaming #flashing video #sorry i do have to document this <3 even though lolesports is . MUCH better at archiving video than the nhl #im STILL a little paranoid #it was a beautiful cast too. <3

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amygdalae · 15 days ago

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'based on inconclusive evidence i think my bus driver is mad at me' and other phrases for the utterly deranged

#ive been taking the buses home all semester and im still a little paranoid im somehow breaking some unspoken bus rule #that nobodys warned me about

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pansyfemme · 2 months ago

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for a looooong time now i’ve had this particular… thing? (i know it’s related to my psychosis/being schizospec bc. thats what my therapist says. but i don’t know what’s the right term..) everytime i wear headphones at night where i swear i can hear people i love talking badly about me but can’t quite make it out over the music but it completely disapears when i take them out. ive been dealing with it since middle school and it used to drive me fucking nuts but now it’s all just part of the music listening experience for me… hashtag i lov e music

#it still drives me nuts a little bit im ngl #i have a lot of. paranoia about people talking about me #whenever im living somewhere with. thin walls. i have to sleep with white noise/earplugs because if i hear anyone speaking but can’t quite #make it out i will stay up obsessively thinking its about me. its a bad habit and i dont want to eavesdrop but trust me i hate eavesdropping #i wish i could turn it off im just very paranoid #^ but the music ones are hallucinated to some level. i just also have paranoia related to overhearing things #i don’t. usually hallucinate these days at least not. strongly #i haven’t had a full hallucination since.. highschool? but at times there are. bits of ones but its mainly paranoia

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bandtrees · 2 months ago

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copper is already setting in as hymns for the roads' Ollie-Guy(tm) i like them so much

(ft glass because this bit scared the shit outta me)

#babbles #hymns for the road #same va as a character i'm already insane about? check. protagonist? check. uneasy and paranoid? check #i like the idea of the main one in a 'all we have is eachother:(' apocalypse group still being pretty cagy even if theyr a more passive typ #anyway new episode was real fun i'm starting to get into it more YAAAAAYYY #i have loooose designs in mind for the main guys but im really not sure how to approach outfits #beyond like. post-apocalyptic. modern kinda? yeah sure #and of course color coding. cuz look at em #in my mind copper does look like how i also imagine love findusalive but a little to the left.#more ragged. shorter hair. more visibly quiet and uneasy. frightened lil bug eyes

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qoldenskies · 15 days ago

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I stayed up SO LATE to read all of the canary continuity and I’m sitting in my bed shell shocked and I need him to be okay you don’t even knOW good lord-

anyway wanna be friends 🥺🥺🥺

HEEHEE THANK YOU ❤️❤️❤️ he'll be okay!! eventually, just gotta get through the immediate danger first

and i kind of develop a rapport with everyone who talks to me consistently, so if you wanna stick around we can be buds!! i am under pseudonym though, be warned pfhtrhh

#ask #maybe one day i'll develop the courage to unmask a little #im secretly..... a furry artist. GASP #genuinely not surprising in this fandom actually and its not why im in hiding LMFAO #im just in hiding because im weird and paranoid like that #but its wild im talking to so many people who have never seen my art before ... crazy #i dont really like it very much . but still! wild

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago

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it turns out that, in moving, i have traded out having to deal with many small spiders for having to deal with the occasional fuckoff huge one

#what the FUCK was that thing #ive never had such an instant-panic killing out of desperation moment #it was giant. i could see Everything and it was horrible #im still breathing a little too fast that was just. get me out of here #it was Fast and Big and Spindly #i havent seen many spiders here but every single one ive seen has been bigger than im comfy with #if only there was a magic spider-repelling spell i could cast around myself an a ten foot bubble...#unfortunately no such thing exists!#absolutely unprompted #im gonna be so much more paranoid than i already am #if THAT can get into this house. jesus fuck #id love to look up what it was but that would mean looking at high resolution spider pics and i dont think i can do that #currently looking up spiders #i love torturing myself #its like 'normal picture normal picture normal picture WOLF SPIDER FACE CLOSEUP normal picture-'#thank you webbed site for that jumpscare i feel unwell and not in a good way #YEP OKAY THAT WAS FAR TOO MANY SPIDER PICS AND I STILL DONT KNOW WHAT IT WAS #it was huge and light brown with long legs and it was fucking Fast

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defectivegembrain · 2 months ago

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Going home today instead of tomorrow my mum is coming to meet me and help me take the metro a bit later I don't think I could do it alone atm

#uni halls #im still a little paranoid about leaving the room overnight but I'll have to sometime #and it should be fine really

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darkartistyt · 6 months ago

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Inquisitor Layton in the PLvsPW art style

(er, my best attempt at it, at least)

this was part of an ongoing study of kazuya nuri's art style. i put a lot more focus on anatomy than anything else, so the rendering isnt exactly in his style, but i tried to mimic it as best as i could from a reference of darklaw. ...before completely losing the plot and fucking around with overlays anyway lol

#ever since tumblr introduced their ai policy ive been super abrasive to posting my art here #like i opted out and everything but im still paranoid about it #and apparently i have the worlds shittiest gpu so no tool that ive tried has worked so far >:^#so i just put a crusty overlay on top of it that (hopefully) isnt super visible but might still fuck up an ai a little bit. who knows...#my art #inquisitor layton au #plvspw #plvsaa #hershel layton #atticus tries to kazuya liveblog

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crystalkitty1220 · 6 months ago

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Man I wonder where the leader of the fear realm could've gone, it's alMOST LIKE NEVIN HAS AN

#had to re-edit the image real quick because the original edit was from a post I made about Drew years ago #and while the Drew thing is becoming less and less likely. Nevin havinv one has basically been canon since #someone mentioned Greg's (was it Britney's) aura being familiar in s2ch1. ive been putting together a list of every line #that points to Nevin's aura throughout the whole thing (most from s2ch1 but then s2ch10 came out and it was really canon at that point)#but clearly i'm running out of time to say ''i fucking called it'' before it's explicitly stated and i dont want to be in another situation #where somebody else will beat me to a theory and me posting anything about it will seem like copying them. sorry about that btw i had #thought i had already mentioned theorizing that nevin was possessed by a demon in that old theory i made but i had forgotten that one was #super old and was about sigma. so no copying there i just got extremely paranoid there was a mention of a cult and i was like ''nuh uh #that's way too specific and out there of a detail to end up in both our theories'' and i forgot the rest of my super old post was outdated #as hell. and echos had gone ''yeah they're so similar!'' and i took their word for it but now i'm realizing they were probably just trying #to be supportive. so yeah no copying there i was just beaten to the punch of saying something. but i will NOT back down from the aura shit #because i have been calling that shit FROM THE START or at least since i started reading ibvs back when ch20 came out.#also not backing down from saying chris was the worse friend because these past few chapters are the first time isaac has done anything tha #could knowingly upset chris meanwhile chris has. let edward drag isaac to the lair after isaac said edward would beat him up. chose not to #believe edward was holding the secrets over their heads because 'it was something isaac had said' and then immediately distrusted edward in #the next chapter because a random person he didn't know said to steal a book (might i mention how that entire scene proves chris' lack of #development and refusal to take responsibility because it perfectly alludes to when chris had brought those fireworks into his old school #and makes me wonder if charlie has actually gotten him in trouble with his past schools or if he's still just not taking responsibility #and if him following nevin to the woods to test out their powers is an extension of ''if something bad happens its not my fault''#like seriously this man would bring a mysterious suitcase onto a plane if he's told to). uh what was i talking about agai #anyway on a related note my mental state has only gotten worse since i left tumblr and the habit of thinking about chris instead of sleepin #or doing schoolwork has not stopped. so i was still failing for a while and might graduate now but am still staying away from tumblr.#so yeah this was a little update and im not going to linger this time im just going to leave tumblr again right after hitting post #addendum because i just can't let things go. and was thinking about chris again. i don't think his lack of development is because of bad #writing (anymore. i used to.). instead i'm certain his character arc is going to continue into him following someone (nevin probably) into #doing something really bad. and then he'll finally get actual consequences and go 'oh shit i fucked up real bad this time'#if you think that theory is reaching too far into the future you should hear mine about isaac dying at the end lmao

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drivemysoul · 2 months ago

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every time i say i want my septum pierced someone says id look bad with it so now i’m sitting in my bathtub crying over other things and being upset that i’d look ugly with the piercing i want really bad

#taylor.txt #i brought it up again and the person i said it to was like ‘i don’t think it’d look good on you’#and then said i’d look good with an eyebrow piercing instead #and like. it’s not like i don’t want my eyebrow pierced i think it’d be fun i guess #but i wear wigs and i get my eyebrows waxed and i have two young nieces and i’d be scared of it getting pulled out somehow #like there’s a lot of risks that i’d be paranoid over #i already had to get my helix taken out because of my wigs and i’m still sad about it #i don’t want to do that with something that’s literally on my face #plus (and this is stupid) but three of my brothers have had eyebrow piercings #and i’ve always associated eyebrow piercings with like. dudes #just because my brothers have had them and i know that’s a dumb reason #and given i already feel like im not feminine enough and like everyone thinks i’m a guy no matter what i do to look girly #i just. this is entirely my issue and it’s not like. a valid thing to be upset about #but i just wanted a cute little septum piercing i could put cute jewellery in and feel cute #and i just. i know it’s so dumb but now im just kind of sitting here sobbing

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dissociative-degenerate · 1 year ago

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He stresses me out. I feel like I'm going to puke. Who the fuck is he talking to, he doesn't tell me shit. Lord knows I never see his phone.

#you see like we moved in together and I eventually figured out he was still talking to and sexting other people #so like #im paranoid #he like deleted everyone off snapchat and im the only one he talks to regularly on there #or was #someone took my spot as his best friend on there #the little heart is gone #its making me crazy suspicious #i feel like im in highschool or some shit #but im so paranoid #and just feel like im not good enough and just not enough #hes allowed to have friends!#just tell me about them #a friend shouldnt need to be a secret #fuckkkkkkk #my shit #i want to cry #lol im being ridiculous maybe #idk

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phagodyke · 5 months ago

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yeah I'm not gonna talk abt it am I...

#well thats okay. eventually itll come up naturally. and if not well. it doesnt make me feel very okay. but its not a big deal #and i guess ill meet ppl in the future who will curate a different idea of me and maybe therell be fewer misunderstandings #<- coward who CAN communicate to save their life but not in any lower stakes situation for their happiness n quality of life #we <3 repression n insecurity. maybe if i keep digging at the corner of this bit of the labyrinth with my spoon ill get out someday 😌#anyway.. theres my daily vague vent post got it out of my system #wanted to do it earlier but ended up not having much time after work n then called friends which was nice :^)#also i never have signal at work these days.. my boss has said shell get me on the staff wifi tho cuz i do need it for work reasons #its rare to need it for work purposes bc we all use work pcs n stuff anyway and not rly supposed to use mobiles in the lab #but yeahh.. god i have so much admin shit to sort out also gotta text family back before i sleep i forgot to earlier #its all good.. also my memory foam pillows turned up so i no longer have to steal my roomies extra one for my neck pain <3 #ik she was missing it... not to sound like a creep but it was nice that it smelled like her a little. just familiar innit #we're always around each other so its just what being home smells like to me.. listen i have a sensitive nose 😔✋️#if we were a lot closer i would ask if i could sleep in her bed while shes away but we're not so it would come across sooo weird..#and i would feel rly weird abt someone sleeping in my own room without me there. well maybe not actually. as long as they werent snooping #<- guy whose mother used to go thru their shit all the time n struggles to not feel paranoid and distrustful when it comes to privacy #was thinking recently my ideal living situation w a partner would be separate rooms but we still share the bed sometimes #but not every night bc im a sensitive sleeper... but we can switch bedding so i can still smell them if i wake up in the night alone #like how new mothers trying to get babies used to cot sleeping each have a cloth or blanket and swap every night #so the baby is comforted by the blankets smell and sleeps more peacefully.. and momma finds it easier being apart from the baby too #sorry this is getting gooey and weird my meds have been wearing off the last couple hours im so sleeppyyyy 😭#well.... maybe everything can wait until tomorrow..... bed is calling..#goodnight everyone muah #.diaries

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tamagotchikgs · 2 months ago

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everyday all day i am just being sharply juggled against my will between im ok :] .. im not ok i am feeling the fear and dread so hard my organs r trying to evacuate and crush me at the same time every part of my body hurts and then no youre ok ! :] no im not . yeah ur ok :] wait nope . not ok. alright im ok :o) ................... no

#currently in the nos #i was fine i was so joyful just a few seconds ago and then suddenly the weight of the world hit #for no reason #and now i am just scared #stressed #worried so bad my entire jaw aches #my heart Hurts #i feel nauseous #everything is going to go wrong #my worst fears are on their way and its solely because of me its because im afraid of them #everything i care about is gonna get hurt & destroyed because of me #i cannot breathe #i dont want to be here to watch it happen #maybe i was wrong maybe the curse is real n its never leaving #what if i get too happy #and it takes everything #i miss when i finally convinced myself it wasnt and i was just a paranoid little mess #and everything was actually caused by the surroundings #and even without me it would have happened #but now its too important #i cant let myself risk it #even if anything would without me i still have to prevent it #i dont even know how. im powerlesss. nothing i do works nothing my brain tells me will fix things does

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dandyshucks · 3 months ago

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i cannot take photos of myself bc when i finally get one that i think looks okay, i notice my eyes and i feel like i look like that blue-eyed dachshund. dis one 👇

ALSO I DONT REMEMBER if i ever explained it. but the reason i bring Lil Guz everywhere interesting and take photos of him is partially because I likeys him soooo much, but the original idea of like. having a plushie that i take photos of. is because i have a really hard time with taking photos of myself (various reasons for that) so I decided one time on an outing a few years ago to bring a little plushie friend to take photos of to replace taking selfies. so then I can see that i have been somewhere without the photos having to include me necessarily !! highly recommend it honestly even if u do enjoy taking selfies, just bring a lil guy to take photos of too :3

#my eyes used to be more grey idk what happened #maybe i've just started noticing them more bc of all the blue eyes memes fdsjkl that is entirely possible #yall i wish i could just post photos of myself but i am so paranoid(? maybe justified) about internet safety LOL #BUT LIKE. ngl the two polaroid artworks featuring me are ... honestly pretty much exactly what i look like irl dsjkl its a little freaky #i still do not know what sort of ... insert drug here. that i was on to paint those so fast HFDSSJKL #i think it took me 4-8 hours total for each one. i think the very first one (where he's covering his face) took 2-4 hours #im just ???? now it takes me 16+ hours to make one 😭😭😭HOW DID I DO THAT BEFORE AUGHHH #i need to focus less on tiny details probably fdsjkl just get the gist of it and nobody will notice if tiny details are missing or wrong #dandy.cmd

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rosesradio · 3 months ago

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i think my university fucking bit me wtf

#it started last semester or maybe even last year but they infected me with an anxiety that completely rewired my brain #i have general anxiety disorder & i’ve had the occasional ‘something bad is gonna happen’ day where im anxious the whole day for no reason #but then it changed to this like. academic anxiety that got so bad i was like. nauseous all the time throwing up i had to go to a counselor #and now i’m straight up paranoid. like idk maybe i’m not using the word right but i’m convinced every day all my worst fears are gonna—#just happen one after the other. my tumblr will be revealed to my family. my toxic ex will come back into my life—#my money for school is revoked things like that.#because adult life is just so confusing and convoluted and works against people #and my anxiety just goes through this loop of ‘everyone dislikes you/hates you/thinks you’re annoying’ so -> ‘you’re gonna get in trouble’#so -> ‘your life will be irreparably damaged and/or you will die’#the ‘you’re gonna get in trouble’ bit especially gets me because it’s like bitch how!! i follow laws!! i cheat a bit less than the average—#student! any time someone has a concern with like my work performance or something they politely tell me #why do i have the anxiety of a fucking hunted animal over these things!!#i wanna be numb actually i miss that time. it still sucks but at least i don’t make myself sick #things would be so much easier if i was a house spouse who cooked & cleaned (with no kids) & didn’t have a job or go to school #ofc managing a house has its own challenges and i don’t wanna undermine that but ykwim #i want this fuckin eye of sauron off my ass already 🧍#and don’t even get me started on the ‘you have to do this little task in this specific way or else everyone you love will die’ thoughts #that’s a whole other mess #tw vent #rose.txt

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endlessfuckup · 6 months ago

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Should I do a face reveal?

#I haven't shown my face on any social media for about a decade now #i may or may not have been having truman show delusions for a little while there #my crazy ass is slightly less crazy nowadays and I am tired of being totally anonymous online #also I don't actually think I'm that fugly looking anymore lol #id probably fuck my clone #but I wouldn't date him he's crazy #dan and phil #lol #i dont know #will probably be a partial face pic cause Im still a little paranoid #still crazy lmao

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