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I think. What's imperative is that Troy hasn't ever had to even begin to come to terms with his sexuality before the show specifically because of how like. Split his sense of self is. He's never Troy Barnes when he wants to kiss a boy. He's just... some guy. just troy. and just troy hasn't ever actually wanted to kiss a girl, but that doesn't make him gay, because he's not just troy, he's Troy Barnes. And Troy Barnes is a quarterback and prom king and Troy Barnes has a girlfriend and Troy Barnes doesn't daydream about kissing that cute guy in his physics class. just troy daydreams about it, but that doesn't fucking mean anything.

And then he gets to Greendale and suddenly he can't be just troy, because that's all he ever is. Troy Barnes doesn't exist here; he's not anything to anyone, and so he's always just troy. And just troy still daydreams about the cute guy in physics class, except for now it's the cute guy in his study group, and now it's his best friend, and now it's his roommate, and if he's gonna commit to this, if he's gonna commit to being just troy, he's gotta commit himself to this, too.

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The ONLY people who didn't stare or treat me like an alien or just get really concerned about my messed up hair when I was a kid were other disabled kids I met in special ed. The first time I went out in the yard this girl I later became friends with showed me around and introduced me to everyone she could find and nobody was mean I didn't even see any weird looks because everyone was different and they had lots of different disabilities. And part of that is just like, oh we're all stuck together and hidden away from the normal kids who have either never seen us or treated us like shit. But I have never found that kind of understanding in any other irl disability space. Wonder how it would've been in the neurodivergent group I used to go to if I still had hair that messed up. I trust groups of people with a mix of disabilities more because of this.

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when I say “Let me ask my husband”, one (or both) of these things is taking place:

1. I am in a loving, happy relationship where we value and respect each other’s opinion

2. I am using this as an excuse to get out of something I don’t want to do (sorry habibi)

what is not happening here: I am being oppressed

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The lifelong sexual tension between me and neglect of hygiene

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idk how “the world wasn’t built for us” turned into an example of shitty autism discourse when ever since I got my wheelchair I’m taking -1hp every fifteen minutes as I encounter another obstacle that could have been easily avoided with better architecture, interior design, urban planning, or management logistics

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tumblr is a pretty tolerable place when you have thousands of people blocked and hundreds of content filters active at all times

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I think people have gotten far too comfortable making fun of and scapegoating autistic people in the disability community and I think a lot of criticism directed towards able-bodied autistics is unwarranted

however I also think that if you are an able-bodied autistic person, it is worth remembering that you are still able-bodied and you are not representative of the entire disability community. it’s okay for you to step back and go “oh I don’t know what it’s like to have physical disabilities” and then make space for those of us that do. you’re not a bad person for Having Autism or for Being Too Loud, you just need to recognise that some dimensions of different experiences are ones that aren’t yours to speak on

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sometimes it is very clear that the ol’ “able-bodied” is whacked in front of “autistics” as a get out of jail free card for being ableist towards autistic people by people who are able-bodied themself. in the same way that “white queers” is used by white people when they want to be homophobic in a Progressive way or “cishet women” is used by misogynists for the same purpose. like it’s pretty obvious what you’re doing there and it’s not cute or fun

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"I love you but you're doing wrong in a way I cannot condone" and "I hate you but you're being wronged in a way I cannot stomach" are top tier and I need more of them.

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Strong person confused as to how they're losing against me at arm wrestling. I'm stronger than I look. And I'm eating their hand.

Athletic kid is confused as to how I'm winning at Wii Bowling. I'm eating their remote.

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Person with great spatial awareness is confused as to how I'm winning at Tetris. I'm eating the blocks.

Athletic kid is confused as to how I'm winning at Wii Bowling. I'm eating their remote.

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Athletic kid is confused as to how I'm winning at Wii Bowling. I'm eating their remote.

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I love calling stuff "the greatest thing since sliced bread" while replacing "greatest" with a different superlative that makes no sense to be used to refer to sliced bread. like, a really good joke? that's the funniest thing since sliced bread

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pov: you’re watching the community movie

original image from @escuerzoresucitado

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babygirl and his boyfriend

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i really like the show community. but honestly, there should have been way more gay sex! hope this helps.

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so progressive of them to name the main character of the matrix after pronouns