#im just in hiding because im weird and paranoid like that

[qoldenskies]

I stayed up SO LATE to read all of the canary continuity and I’m sitting in my bed shell shocked and I need him to be okay you don’t even knOW good lord-

anyway wanna be friends 🥺🥺🥺

HEEHEE THANK YOU ❤️❤️❤️ he'll be okay!! eventually, just gotta get through the immediate danger first

and i kind of develop a rapport with everyone who talks to me consistently, so if you wanna stick around we can be buds!! i am under pseudonym though, be warned pfhtrhh

[gremlingottoosilly]

in if you need to be mean, would the reader ever try to escape? and if she did, how would konig react? thinking about like, she planned for a few months how would she escape him, and she feels very conflicted bc she loves him, but she wants freedom and thats the only thing konig would never give her. so when hes away she takes the car and just goes. i dont know where, but shes so desperate te be free again to do whatever she likes without him hovering and always by her side trying to control what she does! would he feel sad? would he be devastated? would he go after her? i know that theres like a 1% chance of it happening but im so curious about how he would react and how it would change their relationship.

anyway, love your fanfics gremlin you're a genius!!! 🫶

Konig made everything in his power to prevent her from escaping without locking her up and breaking her legs, but it doesn't mean he won't do it.

He refuses to let her study German because he moved her to this foreign country without her knowing the language, and he specifically chose a distant tiny town in the middle of the Austrian woods, where not a lot of people know English and therefore, it would be hard for her to communicate. She doesn't have his car keys or a driver's license, he didn't leave her a lot of cash, so she forced to use his cards with updates of withdrawal and spending sent to his account, and she also just has a dependant visa that wouldn't allow her to do independent anyway. Her only way would be speaking to the police and hoping that they would start the investigation. It would be really hard because, well, Austria doesn't really care about immigrant's problems unless it's an international scandal, and Konig would know anyway - because he has cameras in the house, which he doesn't even hide, and if the investigation would die down, or his girl wouldn't go to the police, he wouldn't really break the contract and run to her immediately. He has quite a few friends around, especially if Krueger or Klaus are around and not on deployment with him, so he could ask them to go and visit his...wife. She is scared and a bit hysterical because of the foreign country, so she can tell weird things about kidnapping and escaping, they shouldn't listen to her! Konig won't be so nice when he returns. He really wanted to play this fantasy of having cute little housewife, nice house and a girl that is absolutely in love with him. He knows that you like him, at least, that you didn't want to escape, you're just silly! He infantilised you before, mostly because of the age difference, but it would be even harsher now. You are not allowed to leave the house, he often simply locks you in the bedroom so you won't have anything to do besides waiting for him to return with groceries and fuck you into the mattress. He didn't want to break you leg, but if you keep resisting, he might kinda push you a bit further. He would assign you a no-nonsense older caretaker so you would have company and help while your leg is broken! She also thinks that you have some sort of weird mental illness that made you paranoid and afraid of your husband, so you can't even get help from her. You can forget about going out while he is on deployment either. And he is very reluctant to let you out, even with him, the first few months after your attempted escape. The world is too dangerous for you anyway,

[pearlprincess02]

taurus sun, scorpio moon, virgo rising

taurus sun: you're the sight of freshly baked goods on display children beg their mothers for a taste. you're a warm cup of coffee enjoyed in the streets of paris, a garden of fresh flowers tended to for several hours. you're my stubborn moments in time where i know im wrong, but i'll still fight. you're the image of precious gifts i buy despite being shy, to express my love.

scorpio moon: collectors. you enter their room and they have all type of weird stuff like miniatures and gadgets looking at you like. it's a creepy good kinda feeling (i found they're into animal's skulls too). it's not rare to hear them talking to themselves, they're not crazy, it's their way to release stress lmao. headphones on 24/7. not available for your bullshit, they got stuff to do. "don't disturb or i'll kill you" on the door. plan a whole murder but archive it because in this world it's not worth making it. but they have a heart i swear, just for those they love, that's it. likes playing with kitchen tools, to test all their abilities. just in case. they plan all the best hiding spots. just in case. learning that new taekwondo move. just in case. yeah, they're a liitle paranoid. can leave a bit of dust specifically so they see if someone touch their things. likes boiling hot food and beverages. i swear, how can you even drink that tea and not burn your tongue, i'm impressed. is the last one to fall asleep in the whole building, or family members, usually stay up until very late. sleep few hours, i honestly don't know how they can even stand, they're for sure resilient. don't like hugs, but gives them when they feel like it. they're like cats, 100%, you got a cat?

virgo rising: they look really “clean” if you know what I mean - like they always look neat and simple in a good way, beautiful skin and symmetrical faces, i've noticed these people can get along and talk with anyone about anything thanks to their mutable energy, likes to match everything - clothes and accessories, nails with outfits, etc, can look younger than they really are

(anon ask)

ᵒᵇˢᵉʳᵛᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿˢ ᵃʳᵉⁿ'ᵗ ᵐⁱⁿᵉ

[lefarte]

Could you maybe write relationship headcanons for Samarie?

THIS IS ALL THE WAY BACK FROM JULY IM SORRY ANON I usually don’t go in chronological order I go for whoever people in my inbox are begging for the most

I’m putting a big TW here for disordered eating and mentions of self harm. It’s all about recovery though

I think she likes to draw! It’s just a little hobby, she doesn’t like showing people her drawings. It’s because she mostly draws pictures of you and her holding hands. Then she gets too giggly and shy when she looks at it, like kicking her feet and stuff.

I think she keeps a journal where she logs everything that happens in her life. If she had access to them, she would put stickers in it too. She can be cute sometimes.

I believe that Samarie has a silly habit of hiding in dark/confined spaces like closets or under beds (your bed, specifically) because it gives her comfort. She watches you - not trying to be a creep!!! Just because she’s already in there, and it’d be awkward if she came out now, and she likes you so so much and you make her so calm and happy-!!

So it sometimes scares the hell out of you when you see her standing in a dark closet or something staring at you through the crack in the door in the middle of the night.

“oh my god, Samarie, I had horrible dreams last night, I think our house is haunted” “k-kaaa…. I’ll…. See what I can do about it….”

In her several dens throughout the house, she loves plushies! She never got a chance to have plushies growing up. She’d really love it if you bought her plushies….. she loves all plushies, but she especially loves ones of ‘misunderstood animals’, like bugs, sharks or black cats.

I can imagine her trying so hard to win you a plushie in those claw machine games and failing every time…

Of course, she is very protective of you… she specifically is paranoid around men from her trauma and abuse, so when a man gets too close to you she gets…. Really weird about it…. But she’s working on it! She’s working on being better for you. She knows it’s not healthy. She never wanted to hurt you…

She has trouble eating. I think she has sensory issues with 80% of foods, and she’s also avoidant, so it’s very hard to convince her to eat and she’s scared of eating new foods. Some of the foods she considers safe are plain bread with butter (NEVER EVER JELLY), tea, and fruits. She loves grapes.

With help she comes out of her shell and tries new things and finds she loves dark chocolate (only dark), seafood, pasta, and ice cream! Shes less scared to try new things if you hold her hand and help her through it.

She swears off ever hurting herself for the sake of grogoroth again. She’s free from that awful cult, she won’t let them abuse her any more. In fact, she’ll swear off magic. Her dream is to live a normal life with you. Far, far away from the Vatican.

On a softer note, she always feels timid about touching you, so sometimes she just looks at you and pokes your cheek randomly.

She keeps a picture of you in her pocket and it’s covered in lipstick marks. <3

[prettyboykatsuki]

TELL US THE LORE????

dkjfhsdgj ITS KIND DERANGED LMAOO. sorry for yapping about her backstory but its relevant to their insane dynamic lmao

my self insert / oc is basically like. disillusioned software engineer. shes based off edward snowden. she's from the planet of talia (which is desert wasteland) and she's an orphan and was raised with other bandit gangs lol. she learned how to write software and engineer thru trial and error. she's an orphan and doesn't really have any family with the exceptions of like two people she considers. but no blood. no idea who her parents are lol

she gets picked up by the ipc when she's in her teen years because she gets caught trying to steal from them using some phishing software she made. they offer recruitment instead of jail-time bc her skillsets are valuable and she sees it as a good opportunity.

she quickly finds out the ipc is crazy corrupt and she gets really like. she wants to get out but the contract is insane. so she basically. like. steals a bunch of money from the ipc and then goes permanently on the run LMAO.

she finds refuge in different planets but the ipc is everywhere. she keeps stealing from them though and interrupting their business models. very robinhood i guess. she has more of a moral conscience than other inserts i make she's really upright.

her personality is really like super antisocial and paranoid. complete loser forreal. after all that jumping around, she ends up hiding in penacony bc its huge and even with ipc presence, it's really easy for the blend in

this is where her relationship with sunday starts. he's really into her because he doesn't like the IPC for one, but also because he finds her to be benevolent (and she is to her credit she's really morally upright). he offers her like . complete refuge and protection in exchange for being part of the family.

she. adamantly refuses this proposition (he will keep asking though) but offers to work for the family as a contractor in exchange for protection. sunday agrees, she's an important and valuable asset with tons of insider information but also he feels weirdly comfortable around her.

they have such a weird relationship LMAOOOAOAOA. sunday develops this very possessive feeling about her and is really coercive and manipulative to her in general. he comes and goes as he pleases but she's not allowed to stray too far. quick to tug her leash basically. he has a really complete control over her and he's paranoid about her trying to leave him. always pulling her into corners and being kind of humiliating and controlling about how she dresses and acts etc

THE INSANE THING IS THAT SHE'S KIND OF. FINE WITH IT. she's really aware that sunday is crazy and manipulative and batshit. but she has HELLA abandonment issues because she has no "home." sunday constantly breathing down her back to stay with him and be his possesion gives her a comfortable sense of belonging and she doesn't think of him as evil - so she's weirdly content with him and just wants to be with him

SOMETIMES. WHEN SUNDAY IS IN A GOOD MOOD. he'll ask her what he wants and he's always expecting her to like beg for her own freedom but she never does. always asks for like intimacy like bathing together and cuddling. and it always shocks sunday LMAOAOA because he's convinced she secretly depsises him but its like dude. Lol.

they're genuinely so in love. this is deranged im aware but they really genuinely love each other and feel understood by one another. but its insane by all accounts

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

what happens to nhw after muse? like, publicity wise. especially regarding ashe. idk if you talked about it before or not, i remember seeing things about like. nhw tv appearances and such, but i don't remember if there was anything specifically regarding the pr nightmare of a boy getting mused and going on a murder spree like a localized natural disaster

do they make him go on tv and talk about it? do they rebrand? both? what happens here. i mean it would suck for ashe no matter what probably but yeha

OH NY GOD. I FORGOT I NEVER ANSWERED THIS IM SO SORRY. in my defense i got sick and my brain has been goop since like. sunday. not even going to put this one under a cut everyone gets to see my muse ramblings (muse musings. ha)

ANYWAY. SO. FIRST OFF. nobody knows who he is !!!! to the general public, muse and auxiliary are two different people, and like... there's not really anything there to tie them together. aux's costume was so like bulky full coverage that his identity was Very much hidden, and muse like.... doesn't hide his face at all, but at the same time he's not Ashe because ashe doesn't dress like that or do his hair or makeup like that so. even though his face is on full display I don't think anyone other than his family/friends would make that immediate connection either

obviously like... the prt knows what happened, because of course the wards needed to tell them. publicity-wise, as far as the public is concerned, auxiliary was killed. aux is dead. you remember that one interlude from Vista's pov where she had to look at the greyed out memorial images of the wards who were killed in the leviathan battle? yeah imagine one of those for aux. as far as anyone else knows he died in the fight with overlord (lmao. not like anyone could distinguish identifiable corpses from that mess anyway)

we have played with the idea a few times about a few different topics that there's a subsection of conspiracy theorists on parahumans online that actually connect the dots and get everything right (aux and muse being the same person, Tide and magma being made from the endbringers, etc etc stuff like that that isn't supposed to be public knowledge) but it's extremely funny if they're just a weird fringe group of freaks so nobody ever takes them seriously

the idea that after ashe gets back from being mused and has to go on TV about it makes me so fucking SICK btw that's such a horrid scenario oh my god. I made such a face at that. torture for him!

anyway what actually happens after he gets back from being mused is like.... nothing? really? Trickster takes Mal in exchange for ashe and then they just kind of disappear. and they're left in this horrible paranoid calm period. adn because theyre also gone i think people just assume that either muse went with them or also got killed in that final battle. unsure which option is worse, ashe hearing people talk about muse like hes still out there somewhere (ouch!) or talking about muse like he was killed by his friends (actually now that i type this out i think ashe would prefer this option so much more. man. he has so many issues) it takes ashe a loooong long long time to even consider using his powers again much less entertain the idea of going back to hero work, so it's not really like... an issue? for a bit? we haven't rlly nailed down that period of time yet but I would assume the prt has him under some sort of loose supervision until it's decided that he's not an active threat anymore and he gets to fucking REST for a little bit ! we're intentionally leaving late game nhw a little loose rn because I know I personally just really wanna see how s3 of pd turns out before we nail down anything too solid bc if there's one thing i love about nhw it's referencing back to things happening in canon and making them so much worse ^_^ but I think we've talked about ashe potentially going back to hero stuff eventually under a new name. and nobody can say shit because if a cape has a new name that means they're a different person and nobody can say anything (cough cough looks at armsmaster/defiant) !!!

[glibble-glonker]

i also saw first now that you liked the 3rd hc list so i won’t include that

also i angstyfy it because im listening to billie elish rn she slaps

so here are proper Izzy hcs feat. my dyslexia and self projection

- Shs has a hat that says “this hat hides my lobotomy scars”

- Definitely wants to be like her sister to some level (whom i have said multiple times is scarlet)

- she’s a MASTER at hair styles, she just doesn’t always feel like doing them. But eats it up whenever someone asks her to do their hair.

- her favourite food is mejillones a la marinera y pan and her favourite drink is aloe vera water

- heterochromia

- can hold her breath for a crazy long time and definitely played mermaids in the pool when she was younger

- always a little late when it comes to typical teenage things like “hey you should start using oil on your skin to get rid of those stretch marks y’know” “no why the fuck would i do that it looks like i was struck by lightning that shits epic”

- i said this in another post but i think her and Heather used to be very good friends until Heather got a taste of popularity and then ditched Izzy. But yeah i think she was one of those friends that weren’t really smart but also very smart. “my mom said i had to watch my weight, so yeah i can’t have that.” “tell your mom to stop lecturing you about your weight, and tell her to lecture your dad cause i saw him on my moms couch this morning.”

- also her short hair slayed i just had to say that

- has some form of tics (tics not tourettes, i can make a whole essay on the difference)

- i had a dream once that her and ezekiel were neighbours by farm and used to go to a crunch together so im gonna add that too (idk man dreams are weird)

- VERY messy room

- distances herself from people that she’s close with (friends specifically) so that she doesn’t have some form of breakdown in front of them, and they end up thinking she’s insane and leave her.

- ^ i think that ship sailed but she’s a little slow 👍

- begs her friends to teach her how to cook. they mostly just reject it cause they know she’s gonna fuck up, but it’s mostly cause her parents had a tendency to yell when she made a mess or fucked something up. so she’d rather learn it from someone like Noah or Cody

- ^ i’m not a noco shipper i just think Izzy and Cody would be good friends.

- also her and duncan first met at a pistol safety course

- her friends definitely have to look twice whenever she falls asleep somewhere because idk she’s just not the kinda person you’d expect to fall asleep ykwim

- ^ like they know she’s a fucking human but they get thrown off when she suddenly gets tired like damn girl you sleep?

- she’s a floptok icon she just doesn’t know it

- duncan and izzy are younger sister older brother type shit

- ^ they both probably got arrested by duncan’s parents themselves

ALSO, i’ve done crazy research on psychosis for an english essay, and the things i say about psychosis are backed up by research from the international mental health institute

- ^ she’s not one to get scared and/or paranoid, but when she does it’s BAD, like she’s checking every cabinet, locking every door three times, closing all blinds. and sometimes her friends (i say friends cause what are the chances her siblings don’t already know about this) get scared too cause like damn who doesn’t get scared when their friends start checking behind every door while saying that someone is outside.

- “there are bugs under your skin” and she’s throwing herself off a boat she’s gone

Oh my god that’s a lot i think i’m gonna stop there

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OMG OMG AHHHHHHHHHHH HETROCROMIA IZZY AHH

[stripysockstumb]

TMP EP 1

.Gewn, Alice, Lena (boss), teddy (just got another job), colin (IT), and sam

.FREDY, search engine for looking for incidents

.Already mentioned ‘dolls watching’ and ‘dolls, human skin’ the Stranger????

.The universe that the entities got pulled through to??

.MARTIN VOICE/Alex (NORIS)

.FREDY started reading out certain statements in different voices around a year ago

.There are 3 voices

.Alice has named them NORRIS, CHESTER, AUGUSTUS

.NORIS and CHESTER are the most common

.Assuming this is the statement format

.Statement 1: checking in red by NORIS

.Statement reading less robotic voice, more Martin

.Could be the Burried?? Cemetery mentioned

.The Stranger? Dead dude skin/ voice

.Defo the stranger

.Taken over the dead husbands body, ‘it’

.Statement ends

.The enitites sound the same

.Partial reanimation crossreference

.Gewn seems to have a LOT of experience, sus

.Gwen and Lena in office

.Audio interference and different audio quality

.Interference by the eye???????

.Giving Elias

.Manipulation 10000

.Gwen wants Lenas job

.Lena warning Gwen about trying to take her job because of what it ‘entailes’ sus

.Colin is defo hiding something, kinda a scary dude, could be an avatar, he is trying to fix the system eg.FREDY

.Is this recorded through security cameras????? The audio keeps being different

.Also recorded by the pc cameras??

.No one realy likes colin

.Alice and Sam know eachother from uni, she got him the job

.Introducing the idea that everyone who works there has had an ‘encounter’ which leads them there

.JONNNNNN/john/ CHESTER

.YES YES YES YES YES I MISSED HIS ANOYING VOICE OMG

.Statement, Magnus Institute Ruins

.Statement made on April 10th 2022 3.31pm

.Manchester???? Not our version of the institute

.No pictures of it suprise suprise

.‘Realy weird place’ yeah no shit honey

.No pictures are uploading (just like the ‘real’ statements, they wouldnt be able to be uploaded onto the computer), she is realy paranoid after going there

.Was a fire about 20 years ago (so in 2000 ish)

.‘Got a realy cool vibe’ offices, old furnishings, the feeling that ‘doors would randomly shut even through most of the doorframes are empty’ ALRIGHT HELEN CHILL

.No old papers????? All files gone????? SUSPICIOUS Old graffiti???

.Symbols on the walls, stains, from a ritual??? Could be an alternate universe Institute where the Desolation managed to complete their ritual??

.The photos have disappeared off her phone

.She found an empty box with symbols on it, picture wont upload or format

.‘Photographic distortion’

.Getting threats from random people on the internet about the box she took

.Anonymous dms coming in

.‘Image removed by moderator’ she finally managed to upload a photo of the symbols at 2.01am but it was taken down

.‘Canaries should stay above ground’ the mod of the chat is incredibly sus

.People saying the picture was ‘gross’ before it was taken down????

.‘Are those eyes’

.Was potentially a gore pic about eyes

.She was banned from the chat room

.She real dead

.The thread was then locked by the moderator

.Statement ended

.No one has heard of the Magnus Institute except maybe Sam?

.Listening through a phone??

.Sam is thankful for the job, something to focus on? What happened to him

.Gwen is his ex?? Or Alice??

.Alice doesn't believe the cases are real, apparently the pay is good

.‘To new beginnings’

.Colin trying to ‘find’ someone???? He knows something, he could be talking about the voices in the server??

Overall an amazing start to the new show, so many mysteries already and im so so so exited to hear the third voice and see if its Jonah/Elias, also to find out which universe we are in and the timelines matching up with og Magnus Archives!!

[purpleglitch]

in goign to wxpldoe. WHAT WPULD CSAPNAPS REACTION BE WOULD HE HAVE A FEELING SOMETHINGS WEONN AND TRY AND ALSO PROTECT GEORGE BC DREAM CANT BE TEUSTED WOULD HE THINK SOME OF DREAMS SCARS SEEM FAMILAE What would cq's reaction be.

👀👀👀👀👀👀 OK IM HAVING SERIOUS BRAINROT OVER THIS

i think there has to be a set up for that scenario, like the reaction c!dteam have over meeting each other on season 2, i think c!dream wakes up near c!clingy while c!snf wake up near each other, so they would all hide what they felt with a smile and "hi nice to meet you ^_^" but i think they feel things before progressively starting to have flashbacks of places they used to be, things they said and stuff

also this got long LMAO IM SORRY 😭 and sorry if there's parts that don't make sense i was watching sap's stream so i kinda lost track of what i was writing,,

c!dream would feel some kind of relief like he can breathe again but also be anxious like they're going to leave him again soon, with c!sapnap he feels scared of doing something that angers him and deep heartache, old memories from them being kids long forgotten. with c!george he feels like a spark of light on his life and warmth like a deep bond between them but then replaced with guilt and regret

c!sapnap would feel happiness of seeing c!dream again but a weird mix of uneasyness because he feels like he has to do something to c!dream (fulfill his promise he doesn't remember) and his hands twitch for a second but he stays still, he avoids eye contact because it makes him feel weird.... (doesn't rationalize he feels sad and guilty) also he's very close to c!george because of the weeks they spent roaming the world together after meeting when they woke up

c!george would feel like a weight got lifted off his shoulders, the first few days with c!sapnap convinced him that he's not dreaming, he doesnt know why he would think it was but by the time he meets c!dream he feels awake, and the deep longing and yearning that at some point became part of him in season 1, finally leaves and he resists the urge to hug him (dorry my cdnf demons)

so when it comes the point of c!dnf's relationship growing and with that c!dream becoming c!george's protector, i think c!sapnap would notice that closeness and feel weirded out about it, something telling him to not trust dream with george's safety, that he's putting on a facade to later betray everyone, but he tries his best to ignore those thoughts, he just met dream, why would he think that about him? but yeah i think he would try and go with them or maybe spy on them but it's all so weird for sap, he sees how protective and paranoid dream is and how his hands tremble holding the sword

it isnt until something happens that hurts dream that george and sap carry him to the main base and after taking his armor off and clothes to bandage him they see his scars and it's sickening, the jagged scars, the clean cuts, the burn marks, everything, what if they try to ask dream about it but he says he doesnt know as he starts tearing up. i think after that, sap trusts dream more but is still wary about that weird dynamic he has with george, and george tries to make dream stop acting like he's his knight. OMG WHAT IF THERE'S MISCOMMUNICATION. dorry that's another au that i have in mind LMAO.

also with c!q..... when cdream meets him there's something about his eyes, the way he looks at him and the scar over his left eye that makes his skin crawl and he feels nauseous. what if c!q has a mannerism of washing his hands constantly because he has nightmares of having them covered in blood. also what if c!q and c!sapnap are also protective over c!george when he's alone with c!dream (memories of mexican lmanberg). what if c!dream avoids being alone with c!q for too long, he doesnt want to fully assume but he knows c!q is responsible for his scars but not at what extent, and when he's around him he's trying not to have a panic attack every time he hears q laugh or move too fast near him. what if c!q without knowing much about c!dream, he knows what scars he's hiding under his clothes (which cover his entire body, only the ones on his face are visible)

[whatifimthestrange1]

ARG/Unfiction Personal Tier List

just because i want to share some great series + i'd love some recommendations! //and i can keep track of the ones i've seen this way//

these is a personal ranking, so you won't like the same thing I do!

S:

marble hornets (.)

daisy brown (.)

don't hug me im scared (.)

pizza time pizza (.)

A:

echo rose (.)

weird birds (.)

chainmail chasers (.)

everymanhyrbid (.)

local58 (.)

hi im mary mary (.)

omega mart (.)

lasagna cat (.)

lacey games (.)

how-to-henry (.)

tulpa effect (.)

B:

cat ghost (.)

i am sophie (.)

seventybroad (_)

generation loss (.)

dad (.)

petscop (.)

angel hare (.)

unedited footage of a bear (.)

gilbert garfield (.)

2h32 (.)

teeny toys (.)

mandela catalog (.)

shipwreck 64 (.)

welcome home (.)

C:

catastrophe crow (.)

pbhere (.)

meatsleep (_)

10tapes (.)

short wars (.)

alan tutorial (.)

pbhere (.)

(.)

happy meat farms (.)

wilbur soot arg (.)

paranormal paranoids (.)

ash vlogs (.)

sabrina miller (.)

gemini home entertainment (.)

rhees rapture (.)

a/s/l (.)

D:

poppy (.)

the sun vanished (.)

hiding in my home(.)

F:

eckva (.)

peaceful watcher (.)

cut dat (.)

[saltnsugarbear]

Pervy roommate Carmy who insists that you two do your laundry together and he uses ur underwear to get off or having a jack and Jill bathroom where he accidentally walks in on you like showering/u don’t notice and he like watches

sorry if these are like weird

so i actually have a lot of anxious and paranoid thoughts about people watching me in the shower Im so sorry

anyways I was yapping so much to Olive about panty stealer Carmy and I'm even willing to say fuck my digital footprint and bring panty sniffer Carm to the table if anyone wants to discuss that

but I think at first your underwear just got stuck in the dryer and then subsequently in his clothes after he dried them!

and you're always home when he is, so he can't sneak it back to your clothes and I mean you haven't noticed already so maybe he can just hold onto them for a little longer

and hes too embarrassed to say anything about it so they hide under his bed for a month before he thinks about them again because of course your parading around on laundry day in just a tee shirt and undies and you happened to fall asleep on the couch and he can see just where your shirt rides up and now he's got a very obvious boner

[sunshinestardrop]

A NEW Daydream about welcome home because Im insane:

New (Neurodivergent) character comes to home, unexpectedly and without a house of their own. OC knows there something wrong because they were from the real world and know about the ARG but because its new they had no effen idea whats going on. So they start to sneak around, they stay suspicious about their neighbors but especially about Wally.

Wally and them don’t really butt heads, but there’s this weird tension when theyre together. OC thinks it’s mostly them because they’re hyper aware of everything around them and no one else is (except said puppet) Where Wally does know there’s something wrong with this new comer and is told by house/ He really isnt trying to intimidate them but OCs paranoid just makes it seem like he is.

So OC goes about their day, stays ‘kid friendly’ cause everyone else does but still has mindset of someone from our world. They eventually really start to like this world because they dont really... need anything. They can keep doing their hobbies without worry, they eat when they want to but dont seem to need to, and the neighbors are sincere with their kindness! if they were a simpler person they could really just live like that.

But they cant. So they keep digging further (It’s at this point that Wallys appearance seems to deteriorate and while he says he’s ok he just seems all... fuzzy and out of it) They go out at night more. They stir up some trouble, and one or two times accidentally drop their little kid friendly act and set the Neighbors on edge. it would have been shrugged off if Wally didn’t catch onto it... and by extension Home.

So eventually OC get’s into Home for some reason and pretty much goes through a horror-esk situation until they reach the basement and kill Home. They get out as Home is set ablaze and watch as it burns down- screaming all the while.

And then the rest of the neighbors come out, along with Wally who OC thought they accidentally killed in their struggle, just to watch the house burn. It’s revealed that the town- all individually without each other knowing- were aware that there was something deeply wrong with Home, and it was affecting Wally but no one knew how to stop it. As all of them were on the more ‘cautious and scared’ spectrum of personalities everyone was too scared to take the next step to get rid of Home for good. Because of OCs impulsive personality they were able to go in and take care of the threat- of course not without incident. The conclusion would be that if they had all spoken to each other instead of trying to protect the outward appearance of this perfect little neighborhood things would have turned out better. But since whats done is done they now have to move forward.

 And move forward it does! OC gets a place of their own and the Neighbors welcome they with opened arms (Again!) Wally takes up residence with Barnaby while also trying to get closer with OC. He dosnt feel like he ‘owes’ them anything but he is very thankful that they nosed their way into the chaos and honestly really likes them! The world starts to settle into something still kind of kid friendly but without the pressure to keep up the ruse they had going before. OC, who wasnt very friendly or willing to open up before, starts to become more extroverted around everyone. They share hobbies and communicate their feelings more. The townspeople also start to communicate their concerns more instead of hiding behind an ‘always happy’ charade. Its very cute.

And sure, there’s the possibility that whatever that thing was will come back, but theyre ready for it, Because this time they will face it head on- together! 

[serial-desig-z]

for the love of god—

Hi.

Apparently this dumbass called @dubious-cats made me this thing called an “ask blog” where…you, weird, flesh bags, ask me questions. For the love of god I’m not looking forwards to any of this stupid shit.

Main blog: @dubious-cats I do silly art on there

Lore below to give you a starter on asks

So the beginning of the lore, it’s at the mansion on earth of course, a pile of discarded worker drones, butlers and maids, just, well yeah, discarded. And just like how the normal lore of the DD goes, Z is picked from that discarded pile and redone.

She mainly spoke German, not much English, but she overall was sort of a quiet drone, never the one to strike up a conversation with others. She usually did what she was told, but sometimes had an attitude with it, but kept it to herself or else she would just get discarded all over again, so she wasn’t always wanting to do what she was told.

During her time living there and doing, yknow, chores, she came across a room that had some plushies, finding a cat one, and growing much attached to it. She would carry it around with her when she could, and hated letting go of it.

It was all pretty normal until Cyn arrived, being chosen to be repaired from the discarded pile. Of course, just a normal drone until Cyn just started to act weird in general, now leaving Z and others paranoid.

Fast forward to where Cyn was getting really silly, and now constantly hiding in the basement doing god knows what.

It was one time where Z walked around the entrance to the basement, just taking a route to head somewhere else, where an Eldritch tentacle of Cyn’s yoinked her into the basement. She was held down by the tentacles while Cyn began to start a small experiment on her; turning her regular hand into a set of claws. Cyn messed with her right hand, and after an attempt to transform it, it began to crack and ultimately cracked and shattered/exploded, leaving her with no right hand. This obviously terrified her, as Cyn let her go after that session of torture/experimenting. Her right hand was never fixed, so she had to do everything single-handed, and eventually found a hiding spot that she would stay in for a long time, pretty much randomly disappearing for a few days.

Eventually we get to the error 606 fiasco.

The error 606 message was displayed on many of the drones, including Z. And for a reference, think of the infected maid V; Z’s missing hand was replaced with the odd claws, and now just think of Eldritch infected maid V.

She was involved in the Gala Massacre, killing along under the control of Cyn; so yes, she has killed a few humans before becoming a Disassembly Drone.

Now hence forth the time they become disassembly drones (im sure I’ll edit some of this once other episodes come out because I’m sure things will change with lore of solver and stuff.)

Z is the shortest disassembly drone that was created; don’t know why, but she is.

Her squad consists of S.D. M, S, and A; S being the pilot and squad leader, as well as being Z’s younger sister.

The strength tier of this squad (weakest to strongest): M, S, Z, and A. A has more of the size and strength, while Z has more of the agility, speed, and durability. Only around almost a year or two in, Z ditches her squad in frustration, and also a mixture of fear after the whole incident with M getting injected with solver, now on her own. Their squad wasn’t quite successful, as they landed in a spot with the lack of workers and nearby bunkers.

Z flew hundreds of miles away from where they originally landed, finding a bunker within the woods and mountains. Her own spire settled at another bunker surrounded by a city, which was lowly populated with workers. Her spire home is only a couple miles away from the bunker in the forest + mountains, so she was living a pretty stable life without worry of a worker shortage. The spire where she lived in had a base (the spire has some construction on it), plus a landing pod, showing that a squad used to exist there, but must’ve moved away somewhere else, leaving her to finish the construction of the giant spire. And since the Disassembly drones living on Copper-9 for around an estimated 18 years, she was able to finish off the spire by herself, and adding a small space inside for her to stay.

And while hunting one day, she spotted a worker out in the woods, just leaving the bunker. She immediately flew after them, but they were only a few feet away from the giant door of the bunker. The drone slipped inside, and pressed the emergency button, which would make the door shut at high speeds; such a coincidence, she flew right under the door as it came slamming down onto her (get hydraulic pressed idiot.)

The door was lifted up again once more, which after a minute her regeneration kicked in; but there was a small problem—an error occurred during this, screwing up a part of her systems, which is why she becomes weak within a radius of solver when it’s activated. The error is also a cause of how she lost her real voice. Lucky, there was some sort of spare voice box that came with her, but it functioned differently: she doesn’t have to move her mouth when she talks, and she can mimic other’s voices overall perfectly if she wants to.

Random facts abt her: she has these additional blades in her legs, which she uses for pinning others down or using it as a form of air combat. Maid Z had a bow in her hair, around the hair band of her low loose ponytail would be, but it was removed in her DD form. Z often forgets she has a right hand in her DD form, referring to mansion Z, so she is practically left-handed. Maid Z read a lot of books about cats, as that was a great interest for her, she’s also interested in arachnids (spiders) as well. DD Z’s wings are abnormally large, especially for her size. For a physical sign of aggression, she sort of arches her back like how a cat would when feeling aggressive as well. She flares her wings to make herself look bigger and intimidating, courtesy of her abnormally large wingspan. Her teeth are a bit sharper than a normal DD. It hurts her to use her real voice, as of how damaged it is.

She only has a few people she secretly cares about (because everyone hates her; L bozo) her younger sister Sula, which is actually a malfunctioned clone of S after an incident, S, even though they both fight all the time, they both actually secretly care about one another, and this murder drone named C, which is a friend’s OC (she also owns S, Sula, and M as well. She is not active on tumblr if you’re wondering) and she may or may noooottttt like C rAAGAGDGFH go ahead, bully her

[the-sslimmest-shady]

The weird part of having paranoia delusions is that so often things just "make sense". Like, you're aware it's not true, but you feel an immense compulsion to fully believe it is. Or something "connects" in your head, but it's not logical. You know it's not. But it could still technically be 100% true against all logical odds.

More after the cut, slight nsfw warning kinda

For example, last week I had fully convinced myself that a group chat I was in wasn't real and I was making it up. I don't know why I would make it up, but it was on an app that I'd never heard of before and my friend was very vague while telling me about it, and I hadn't seen anybody in the chat in weeks (I was on winter break) so, to my fucked up little head, there was no way to prove that the chat existed. I ended up having a bit of a breakdown in the chat, begging someone to text me a photo of them holding a piece of paper saying that the chat was real (since I already knew that texts were real since I'd talked to them irl about texts and seen them text me).

I'd never had this type of breakdown infront of them before, usually being able to sort it out through seeing them in real life and slyly asking questions that would "prove" the reality of the thing in question, but now they just thought I was batshit crazy asking if an app I'd messaged in like 500 times by then was real or not. And honestly, they were right! I WAS batshit crazy.

And, at least for me, it's influenced by media too.

For example, earlier this week, I was listening to an episode of the magnus archives during lunch at school while just casually roaming around to try to find my friends. But, it happened to be an episode based off The Lonely (if you don't listen to the magnus archives, The Lonley is basically one of the god-type things in the tma universe, it affects feelings of loneliness and shame, and these god-like entities can affect reality in the tma universe causing events to happen irl that are similar to their type). And because it was a Lonely episode, and I was walking a route that I usually don't go, and I couldn't find anybody I knew, and I hadn't actually talked to anyone at school all day, I had yet another delusion. For just a moment, which lasted all of about 8 minutes since I found my friend shortly after, I was Fully Convinced that I wasn't actually at school and that I was still at home, probably getting yelled at for standing around being hours and hours late. "How could I sleep in so long?!" I thought, "I'm fucked I'm so so fucked, how am I still asleep i need to leave!! I need to get to school or I'll be even more late!!". Just absolutely freaking out in my head, showing nothing on the outside cuz I didn't want anyone to "think there's a ghost here by moving the air air around", which, even if somehow it was true that i was astral projecting into the school or some shit, thinking that i couldn't/shouldn't move around weirdly was inherently illogical. Because like I said, I was already walking around *quite fast*, basically running at this point since im naturally a fast walker and was freaking out, and therefore I was moving a lot of air around.

And okay this is gonna be a gross one so I'm sorry but it really shows just how much of my life this paranoia shit affects, but like, I can't even "get off" without being paranoid. I constantly, 24/7, believe there's a camera watching me if I'm doing anything wrong/embarrassing. And I *know* it's illogical, I don't know why anyone would wanna watch me do weird shit nor how they'd get the cameras around, but still, whenever someone says "hey Mike, cm'ere I wanna talk about something" my first thought is that they're gonna pull up camera footage of me smoking weed or something else I'd get in trouble for, or smthn that'd just be plain embarrassing! I litterally like, *can't* get off without hiding myself somehow cuz I ain't into voyeurism or whatever. Depending how how bad my mentalscape is that day, just keeping my pants on can keep me from feeling watched and exposed, but sometimes I gotta wear 2 blankets and put heavy boxes infront of my already locked doors and keep all my clothes on and wear headphones at 1% volume. (and for the record, I always wash anything I was wearing after that. I may have poor hygiene but even on my very worst days I can AT LEAST change my boxers). And I ain't just tryna infodump aby my dick here or smthn, saying this is only to point out how this kinda paranoia can affect so many odd corners of your life. I debated mentioning it at all, but it feels important.

I don't really know where this is going at this point, kinda just me venting about my paranoia and delusions I guess. I guess im hoping that this sparks some kinda thread talking about these types of mental illnesses, I don't see a lot of posts about these. It makes me feel inhuman sometimes, not even as a delusion (though that is a frequently recurring one), but in the way of not even being able to talk about it to find other people like me. Humans are a social species, and not being able to talk about this without being outcast paired with the delusions that other people aren't real, makes me feel *really* inhuman.

I want to help yall because I know firsthand how shitty it feels. If anybody has coping mechanisms for this that they favor, even if they seem obvious, please tell me. Someone who reads this might also be struggling with paranoid delusions with NO coping mechanisms. Anything helps. Share your stories, and ways people have helped you. Even if the "people" was just yourself.

I know this post prolly won't get a lot of notes, it's just the ramblings of a sleep deprived madman after all, but I really hope it does.

[krunchylegs]

hi i havent been here in a min

i literally hate how ill have a few perfect days of eating in a low cal range but then when i start socializing i almost feel like i have to 'prove' im eating something to avoid suspicion but also i want the ppl around me to eat more but then my dumbass ends up eating more. also my mum caught me getting rid of half the chips on my plate and i was terrified shed ask if i was trying to starve or something 😭 idk if im paranoid but i think my parents r kind of aware that me and my sisyer have weird eating habits (i think they focus on my sister more than me anyway), bc she used to be underweight so i think that sometimes they get suspicious of us. like every now and again my mum will say something like "dont be trying to starve yourselves" and its like do i look like im fucking starving?? no i dont so im not.

its actually so annoying and i really hope that ill be able to drop weight without it being suspicious, but literally no one cares or notices it at all, i think im the only one that can see it :/.

also weight update, my weight fluctuated up to 54kg (kms) but i managed to gradually bring it back down to 51kg, im not sure how much ill weigh in at tomorrow but im praying it doesnt shoot back up bc i decided to be a fucking big back today. it felt like food was everywhere and i had to eat 5 meals in front of other ppl today in social settings so i couldnt even avoid it. i dont wanna pull out the "im not hungry" too much bc for years it would be a routine of eating something at my friends house every time i visit (bc his mum likes to make sure ppl are fed) and then its like my mums all like "you better not be starving yourself" when i say im not hungry or not in the mood to eat, like most of the time im genuinely not even hungry, like idek why i eat sometimes, like maybe its boredom, also i think sometimes i become a bit obsessed with food so then i start craving it more, but when im busy or just not interested in it then its like whatever, but i cant even lie im a "foodie" and when youve grown up with easy access to eating highly palatable fatty sugary foods your whole life, you end up developing a sweet tooth, but tbh ive been quite good with my food choices on my good days, which is most days really, like i try not exclude food groups because i dont think thats a good idea 😭 and plus it makes hiding this a lot easier, but the meals that i prepare for myself are low calorie but i feel like people r gonna like find out and stop me from reaching my gw, like i at least want to not feel like a fucking balloon for once

[aspen-of-the-gentry]

Dude (gender neutral), you and me both 🤝. I find myself much more paranoid about people on Tumblr now and I was already paranoid about my safety.

The whole discord thing was and still is a big deal to me. It was traumatizing because for the first time since I realized I was queer, someone discriminated against me and hated me just because of who I was and all in the name of Christianity. Now I'm having a religious crisis too because even though I have been christian all my life, if that's what Christianity is about then I don't think I want to have anything to do with it.

I'm sorry I'm dumping all this on you but my emotions are being weird right now and you're the first person I've found that feels the same way as me. Thank you for saying something--I don't feel so alone now.

I was just feeling some sort of way about it today you know- and don't worry, im christian too. it sucks that people like to hide behind religion to hate others.

I genuinely think that people who hide behind the bible to hate other groups aren't Christian. That is not what our religion is about, when the bible said love thy neighbor it didn't say If You Want To at the end, you know?

I hate how the bad people in my religion defines it.

I understand if this makes you reflect on your faith, and its okay if you decide that christianity isn't for you - that IS okay, and as long as you're happy, you should do whatever you want with yourself and your own personal beliefs

It is absolutely despicable that I am having to block people who claim to be of the same faith as me because they think that being queer is sinful or whatever the fuck. It's upsetting that they are both making this fandom less safe for queer people like me and making it seem like all christians are bible thumpers who hate other groups of people like it's a career.