#ily i want to protect my girls forever

[strongheartneteyam]

I wet you like water but she stained you like blood.

Pairing: widowed!dilf!jake sully x younger!female!human!reader

CW: slight sexual language, can be triggering to some, heartbreak, age gap kink, hurt/no comfort, age gap relationship problems, angst, reader reminiscing (pls tell me if I missed anything) 

So, yeah... I never know when I'm gonna come back with another writing. My hiatus n working periods are all a bit unpredictable lol sorry. Anyways... I literally spent the whole night awake n I was struck by a sudden lightning of creativity early in the morning and I edited this chapter n wrote a bit more, but I still haven't slept at all, so, I apologize if some parts of this make no sense at all. I'll fix it when I can. Hope you guys like it <3 ily guys a whole lot :)) obs: this chapter is a shorter one.

Slightly proofread.

Chapter 4 𓆩♡𓆪

They say all's well that ends well

But I'm in a new hell every time you double-cross my mind

You said if we had been closer in age maybe it would've been fine

And that made me want to die

The idea you had of me, who was she?

A never-needy, ever-lovely jewel whose shine reflects on you

All Too Well - 10 minutes Version (Taylor Swift)

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It had been 1 year since the last time you saw Jacob Sully. Or Jakey, like you used to call him. The wound never healed. It still throbbed and bled every time you remembered the words he told you that dreadful day. "I think we should stop seeing each other." It felt like you would never get over him. How can one get over such an overpowering, raw feeling? He marked you forever, like a bruise that seemed to never disappear from your skin.

The flashback came like thunder in a storm, haunting your thoughts with a loud pain that echoed through your mind. What you told Jake that night.

“The truth is I love you. The truth is I can't take this anymore. I'm giving you my everything but you don't seem to be doing the same. You're still guarded.” There was a tense period of silence “Jake… I love you. But I don't think you feel the same.”

Maybe you shouldn't have said anything. Maybe if you had kept your mouth shut, he would still be with you.

Ugh!! Stop that, now, (y/n)! Some self love, please? You're better than this. You deserve better.

You tried to convince yourself of that, at least.

The pain was unbearable at times and almost easy to conceal at other times. It depended on how distracted with work or your studies you were. These days you ran to any distraction that could ease the perpetual angst that squeezed your heart inside its hands all the fucking time. It had been like that ever since Jake left you. What were you expecting anyway? You should have known you were never truly loved by Jake. The love of his life was Neytiri and it would always be, alive and walking through Pandora or dead and with Eywa.

It felt beyond weird to have to hear people talking about Jake and have to pretend he was a stranger to you, someone you barely knew, when he had actually left a mark so strong on you, a memory ingrained in your brain, a feeling, a pain buried inside your heart that made you want to scream and hit your head against a wall. That's how much it hurt.

You would never have his body against yours again, warming you up when it was cold, after you spent the whole day in that damn lab, studying Pandoran plants but all you could really concentrate on was how much you missed his reassuring, protective presence. He made you feel safe for the first time in your life. But now he is gone. Just like every single good thing you ever had in your life. But you know what? Maybe your mother was right, maybe love wasn't really something that could ever last forever.

Did Jake ever really make a real effort to be with you? Thinking back, it was extremely easy for him to just come to you and fuck you anytime he felt sad and lonely. What if you had just been a naive, dumb girl all this time? Were you mourning a love that never actually existed? It was always so hard to talk to him about his feelings for you, he never actually let you in, to be honest. All the time you two spent together, you were never able to know if he ever saw you as a partner or just a fuck buddy. 

Oh, but the high… it was worth all the lows. The butterflies in your stomach every time you guys were almost caught fucking in the back of your work room by Norm. Eventually you guys had to tell him about your situationship because, oh well… he already knew what was going on, really. Norm is not a fool or a child. He could add 2 plus 2.

The adrenaline was worth all the tears. And, fuck… you would do it all over again in a heartbeat.

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[rileysluvr]

fun fact i actually did write this on valentine’s day so just ignore how late it is and eat up ily all <3 könig nsfw!!

“So perfect,” he groaned deeply in your ear, though still with the desperation of a tired working man that drove you wild. Your body was slack against his brooding frame, on his lap and legs spread in front of you while he loomed behind you, supporting your exhausted, finger-fucked out form. With your head tucked under his chin, eyes closed, the side of your face on his chest like you were embracing the last man on Earth.

He remained fully clothed while you had abandoned all but your white and pink-accented panties of which his hand was down, the thin necklace that had a small, pink heart he had gotten you for Valentine’s Day resting so delicately on your collarbone. Your sundress was discarded somewhere on the floor near you, one of his favorites you wore to dinner. His other arm wrapped tightly around your waist, sleeves of his black dress shirt rolled up and palm massaging at your tits, and you had both hands clung to it in an attempt to fight the overwhelming sense of it all, nails digging into his exposed forearm in the way he loved most.

A tall mirror in front of you so you could watch yourself unravel, watch the man who was doing it to you. Who had suggested it in the first place was something you had already forgotten, but the words and excitement in his voice for you to finally be able to see, understand just how gorgeous you were when you made love, will forever be engraved in your brain. The flowers he surprised you with were visible on the nightstand in the back, as well as the box of chocolates you had already gotten into; it was cliche as hell, and he knew it, but you adored it more than anything. Floor-to-ceiling glass behind you overlooking the bright, lively city that contrasted with the pitched, starry night. Like a scene straight from a favorite romance film.

Your breathing was erratic, in and out through your agape mouth almost like you were deprived beforehand. His broad shoulders engulfed your smaller figure, consuming and guarding like a predator's freshly-caught prey, except the loving dynamic was nothing of the sort. He’d always protect you, he’d always keep you safe no matter the circumstances.

“You’re doing so good, my darling- scheisse, do you see yourself? Right there in the mirror? Such a beautiful sight, yes? It’s like you were made for me, Angel.”

Between his words, he brought his hand up under your chin to turn you, to fix your eyes on the mirror in front of you, before returning to your belly.

There was definitely something about it you couldn’t ignore, that made the experience all the more intimate. He would worship you like a goddess and treat you as such in every pathway of life, and while you didn’t quite understand the reasoning for his strong aptitude in it, you happily gave yourself to him every time nonetheless. Two fingers buried in your cunt while the heel of his palm provided friction to your clit in all the ways you needed the most, every once in a while your hips bucking up to chase his hand, though to no avail with the gentle strength and grip he had on you.

“König, baby—please, I’m gonna—…m’fuck fuck fuck!”

“It’s okay, my love, you don’t have to beg. You know I’ll give you anything you want. Can you do the same for me, Hase? Can you cum on my fingers for me?”

You bit down on your bottom lip and locked eyes with his through the mirror, glassy and big and his filled with lust and drunkenness. Nodding frantically before your lids were forced shut again, you did your best in relaxing your body, having not even noticed when you tried to push further back into his body. His big and dangerously comfortable, warm body that he graciously offered to you every night since you first met.

“That’s right, Hase. My best girl, always so perfect, so pretty like this. Let go, for me. Just like that…wunderschön, my love…it’s absolutely perfect. My little showstopper, eh, always so cute.”

You braced onto his arms and came hard with a long moan, followed by a string of swears directed at nothing and nobody. You grit your teeth as the pressure in your lower belly shot directly to your head and refused to dissipate. Breathing with long-lost rhythm, the skin on your face felt ten-times heavier, and you slumped back impossibly closer against his shoulder.

He cooed you through your high with continued, light pressure from his fingers and small praises against your scalp, peppering kisses between almost every word. You tried to catch your breath as he held you, then kissing every square inch of your hot neck and face. You’d be squirming and giggling in his arms, pushing him away and maybe even fighting back in a ticklish fit if you weren’t so fucked out and exhausted from his treatment. You almost did fall asleep in his hold, interrupted by his

“Did that feel good, my love? Can you do another for me, sweetheart? Please? Just one more and we can rest, I promise. We will sleep in as late as you like, and I will bring you breakfast in bed. I will make your favorite. Would you like that, meine Perle?”

He assigned you practically every petname in the book, and each gave you that all familiar fuzzy feeling in your heart and gut. You’d hope you never get used to it, because it’s just so sweet it’s damn-near tooth rotting.

“God, you…always take…such good care of me,” you managed to get out, smiling and turning your head to see him with doe eyes and without the help of the mirror. You took a hand and brought it to his farthest cheek, leaning up to kiss the bump of his jaw the best you could with the awkward angle and your weakened, trembling limbs you could only blame him for. “But I don't know if I’ve got another one in me, König... You said the same thing last time,” you breathily laughed.

He melted at your words, very noticeably so, and your smile drove him even further insane. He pulled you tighter to him, like how he does each time he makes a vow to never leave you hungry or broken for more.

“I know, I’m sorry, my love. I just can’t get enough of you.”

He thought you somehow became prettier with each time you came on his fingers, or his mouth or thigh. On his cock, even your own hand as he watched—with every second that passed of you being louder, whinier, and downright messy, he never wanted it to end. And you made him feel pretty, and worth something, just by being next to him, being on him. You lost in your pleasure, and him lost in yours as well. He got drunk off every moment he spent with you because—well, why him? What did he do to deserve you, your ravishing body and clever mind and beyond ethereal company? It spun his head around, and in the best possible way because your reassurance was all he lived for, and he wanted to be sure to return the gift in full.

“I mean—…what about you? I wanna make you feel good, too,” you pouted. You really mean it; you’ve been waiting all day for your chance. He looks at you with utter love and adoration, and you the same to him.

“Oh, trust me, my dear. You do plenty,” he returned with a gentle kiss to your temple, holding your gaze through the mirror. He spoke so nonchalantly for a man who just tore through you and turned your brain to thoughtless mush several times like it was nothing. Like it was just another activity, another hobby of his that granted him unending and radiating joy. “Your pleasure is mine.” He takes your hand in his, an overbearing difference in size having you dizzy once again, and he kisses your knuckles. “You know that, don’t you?”

You could never bring yourself to deny him or what he wants.

[kiryoutann]

I have read 'a man's heart is truly a wretched, wretched thing' and when I tell you it leaves marks in me, it is. I still can feel the pain, each words, I still can feel it at all. It's been years I didn't read any CoD fanfic and I found you, It's like I've been searching for a mystic flower everyone is so sure it is a mystic but I found it lol, and I also love your writing style. And the funny thing is, I kinda relate to the reader lmaoo.

Idk what I want to write more about this, but I'm glad I found your blog hehe, and dont forget to take care of yourself 🩶🩶

-🍞

when i tell you i immediately smiled when i saw this!!! omg. made my day, made my whole week my whole june and my whole july. thank u for giving me my first feedback for my lil ghost fic🥺💘 you’re an angel

funny thing about me is that i rely on feedback so SO much when writing fanfiction, and usually the lack of it makes me feel like i’m doing smth wrong or that it’s not interesting (i’m TRYING to not do this tho). but when i saw this??? and i read the part where u relate?? THE MYSTIC FLOWER??? ILY ILY ILY FOREVER.

and this is gonna be long and random but GOD. i’m sorry that you relate to it but i hope you can find comfort in the story and the upcoming chapters. AND HEY! sometimes we cope by reading something that we relate to so it’s ok

here comes the long unasked explanation…

the main reason why i came up with the plot is cause i need to get smth out of my system and maybe it’ll help others to process whatever they’re feeling too. and also, it’s the fact that i gotta pour my heart and thoughts that i gathered after making a playlist of it.

so like, the URGE to somehow write it all down, to explore simon’s character, my portrayal of him, and THESE TWO – this destructive duo with the MC and her anxious attachment style while simon’s more on the avoidant attachment side. the way he thinks he’s protecting her, not wanting to hurt her—but in reality it was just some kind of justification for his self-sabotaging habits, his inability to accept that maybe he deserves smth good in his life.

can’t say much about MC cause she’s probably gonna be a more complex character (surprisingly) than him. mostly gonna be linked to her parental issues. my pathetic, sad, love-starved girl who’s gonna learn that maybe mother was right all along – that a man’s heart is truly, a wretched, wretched thing.

can’t wait to share more with u 🍞 anon<33 have a great day lovieee. stay happy n healthy and TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. xoxo!!!!

[mrsnancywheeler]

OKAY SO-

You said onetime that Finnick and sweet girl have major hadestown vibes and that’s so real!!! (That literature paper I wrote that was around 4,000 was actually about hadestown! I was writing about the contemporary political themes and love)

The sudden way Finnick went to talk to her for the first time reminds me so much of “come home with me” and overall their love story reminds me of “all I’ve ever known” because of just how much they’re like “the world is shit but when I’m with you everything is okay” yk? And Finnick is so Orpheus, willing to risk everything for Eurydice.

ALSO!!! Sweet girl reminds me of “flowers” specifically after the capitol took her after the quarter quell. I mean the whole song takes place when Eurydice can’t remember Orpheus but all she can’t remember is the feeling of safety, the feeling of belonging,

I could talk about hadestown all day (my original draft was 5,000 words) , and I could talk about the lakes all day

-🌾anon

YES YES YES I've be wanting to fully explore this so buckle up guys this is a long ride, ily so much pookie bc I've missed your thoughts while I've been sick 😭

(also that as an essay topic is so real and I bet it was absolutely amazing)

starting off with all I've ever known because it is so absolutely them in every sense of the song

"this is how it's always been, all I've ever known is how to hold my own, but now I want to hold you too." finnick only has people he perceives as fair weather friends or those who use him, but then there's her and suddenly he doesn't have to worry about that. and she's so used to masking, protecting herself but then there's him, all she longs for.

we know sweet girl is always cold and finnick is the warmth to contrast that, her sun to keep her from freezing "you take me in your arms, suddenly there's sunlight all around me, everything bright and warm and shining like it never did before and for a moment I forget just how dark and cold it gets."

"now I wanna hold you, hold you close, I don't wanna ever have to let you go. now I wanna hold you, hold you tight, I don't wanna go back to the lonely life." both of them longing for each other's touch, presence, the release found in being with one another

readers anxiety about not being worthy and deserving suffering is so, "I don't know how or why. who am I, that I should get to hold you?"

and finnick knowing she's the one before they've even really spoken, he just knows it's right is so, "it's like I'd known you all along, I knew you before we met and I don't even know you yet. all I know's you're someone I have always known."

and him and his sweet girl as the back in forth at the end, chef's kiss perfect

"say that you'll hold me forever. say that the wind won't change on us. say that we'll stay with each other and it will always be like this." with her never ending anxieties

"I'm gonna hold you forever, the wind will never change on us. long as we stay with each other, then it will always be like this." as finnick trying to reassure his sweet girl.

side bar to a line in hey, little songbird that always makes me think of her when she's trying to differentiate reality from lies in the Capitol

"suddenly nothing is as it was. where are you now, orpheus? wasn't it gonna be the two of us, weren't we birds of a feather?"

moving onto flowers which is so her

"dreams are sweet until they're not. men are kind, until they aren't. flowers bloom until they rot and fall apart." the dream of being with finnick getting her through the games versus the reality of winning and what that took. the trafficking faced in the capitol AND when conway turned on her, playing into the romantic facade in the end. her when she was young, become a husk of that.

and then the feeling when she's in the Capitol and can't verbalize how she's feeling, she just needs people to know because it's all too much. she doesn't want to be unreadable, she longs to be herself again but isn't quite there yet.

"is anybody listening? I open my mouth and nothing comes out. nothing. nothing gonna wake me now."

then out of all the negative, twisted memories, the positive anecdotes she does have. and the way she's so scared but still longs for finnick regardless.

"flowers, I remember fields of flowers, soft beneath my heels. walking in the sun, I remember someone, someone by my side turned his face to mine."

"you, the one I left behind. if you ever walk this way, come and find me lying in the bed I made."

AND FINNICK IS JUST SO WAIT FOR ME CODED

"wait for me, I'm coming. wait, I'm coming with you. wait for me, I'm coming too." like he so desperately wanted to instantly go back to the capitol and save her or just be with her that he was stuck in a constant state of sedation when they refused to let him.

"that town'll try to suck you dry. they'll suck your brain, they'll suck your breath, they'll pluck your heart right out of your chest." the lengths he's willing to go, the trials he'll endure for her

a small time to flash back to wedding song because on a fluffier note it's so a back and forth between them

sweet girl is so "lover, tell me if you can, who's gonna buy the wedding bands? times being what they are, hard and getting harder all the time."

and the ever reassuring finnick "lover, when I sing my song, all the rivers will sing along. and they're gonna break their banks for us and with their gold be generous. all a-flashing in the pan, all to fashion for your hand, the rivers gonna give us the wedding bands."

okay and the way reader views herself and what Snow manipulation to hijack her, and how they always mention fate is tearing them apart is very akin to when the chips are down.

"help yourself, to hell with the rest, even the one who loves you best."

"what you gonna do when the chips are down? now that the chips are down. " " oh, my aching heart."

"ain't nobody but yourself to trust"

"aim for the heart, shoot to kill. if you don't do it then the other one will."

"cast your eyes to heaven, you get a knife in the back. nobody's righteous, nobody's proud, nobody's innocent, now that the chips are down"

AND PROMISES like finnick trying to work them back though what the Capitol did to her and she's so desperate to be herself again even if she's struggling. and he's trying but he uncertain on how to do it especially since this isn't the future he necessarily envisioned for them.

(in a sweet girl then finnick line set up)

"let's go, let's go right now"

"okay, let's go. how?"

"we'll walk, you know the way. we'll just come back the way you came."

"it's a long road, it's a long walk. back into the cold and dark. are you sure you wanna go?"

"take me home."

"I have no ring for your finger, I have no banquet table to lay, I have no bed of feathers, whatever promises I made. I can't promise you fair sky above, I can't promise you kind road below, but I'll walk beside you love. anyway the wind blows."

"I don't need gold or silver. just bread when I'm hungry, fire when I'm cold. don't need a ring for my finger, just a steady hand to hold...just walk beside me love, anyway the wind blows"

and both of them "do you let me walk with you? I do. I do. and keep on walking come what will? I will. I will. we will."

this is all for now because it's so long but they're literally them and I'm convinced this is just one of the lessons they've learned in a past life when he turned around. so now he's learning to trust in this life.

and as evident so can I lmao 😭 I'm glad we're on the same page though. love you 💋

[stevie-petey]

GOD the last chapter was so so heartbreaking to read :( bug just wants steve to live his own life without dragging him with her to college in fear of it being the cause of their relationships downfall in the future UGHH and max and bugs sisterhood will never not make me cry they’re just so alike that it actually scares me bc they’re both willing to do anything to protect those around them (and are both stubborn about it!!) i don’t even know where to begin with dustins crying 😭😭 he’s forever bugs baby brother!! i love how even if they’re going thru a rough patch as siblings they still care for eachother just as much if not more now that they’re aware of what’s happening in hawkins <3 robin is still hawkins #1 bae like if no one’s gonna take her out Ik here im ready please give me a chance!! sorry vickie! (sorry i just had to share my thoughts about rob) AND IM WISHING EDDIE STRENGTH FOR WHATS ABOUT TO COME oh btw nance and bug?? i love these two so much!! and i love how instead of creating a big fight over jealousy between the two girls we got them as supportive gfs who literally praises eachother everytime <3 my adhd is so bad excuse this very very long anon letter

but yeah jonathan..ily but not on my watch….you leave bug and steve alone okay? please and ty <3 btw i hope school is going okay for u!! sending love  x 

-a very very stressed anon (leaving this strawberry & star cuz ik i’ll send more rants soon! 🌟🍓)

every time i watch season 4 im just like damn rip eddie u didnt stand a chance. poor lad.

but YES bug n max <333 theyve always had a cute lil connection so them fighting literal demons together seemed very fitting. same for nance and bug, i see them all on the same wavelength of "we all mutually respect each other even though we are lowkey too similar to get along"

now max and bug both willing to die for their loved ones ,,,, oh just u wait <3

steve and bug :(( their first real fight and its about literally spending the rest of their lives together. very typical of them tbh. sucks that trauma is preventing this from happening rip.

and DUSTIN !!! man i love complex sibling relations ugh when theyre flawed its so <333 like yes !! be human !! hurt each other !!

[sammyluvr]

ur so sweet ilysm🤭

no but i didn’t rlly believe in love that much anyway and im not a big fan of it, like i say “oh id do feral shit to sam winchester and i’d marry him etc” but rlly im js a girl who’s scared of love and that sounds so stupid but yk when u try something thats repeatedly had the same negative outcome for u over and over and u try it again thinking its gonna be different n its not, thats what rn feels like.

but i genuinely am happy for him bc he’s found someone he rlly likes and i hope everything works out for them from like the bottom of my heart, i js have hard times distinguishing friendliness and flirting and it’s a problem bc i end up falling for ppl easily LIKE AUGHHH FEMALE RAGE FR

anyways yeah i js need sam winchester to like move my hair out of my face n shit, he’d so do that while ur sleeping, like if there’s any hair across ur face he’d move it and press like the gentlest kisses known to mankind to ur face n skin and it’s he’s js so sweet and gentle, like i js know he’d make u believe in love and he’s the type of person who’s been waiting to tell u his feelings for years and he’ll wait so many more for u to be ready, like even if ur ready and he’s on his deathbed, he’ll still accept u lovingly until his dying breath and then he can die a happy man

anyways sorry abt the somewhat angsty hc im feeling angsty rn😋🤞

-💽

hey that's so valid.. love scares me too :,) i think it's real for sure but that's part of the reason it's so scary imo. but that's really hard T_T it really can be very difficult to tell flirting apart from being friendly... and sometimes guys will flirt but not mean it and that's super sucky :(

dw babes i get the angst <33 i love it too :,) yeah sam's the type to wait forever but never ever pressure you... and might self sabotage by never telling you how he feels if he doesn't think it's the right time for you. sometimes he's too careful, too afraid of hurting you to do anything outside of watch you from afar with big heart eyes and a heavy heart. he also of course thinks he's protecting you by letting you be. he doesn't want to be the cause of your death or you getting hurt or anything. but he still makes you feel so loved and cared for. he'd do anything for you and even though he doesn't want to hurt you with his proximity, he can't hurt you by denying your love if you express it to him. plus his so in love with you.

ugh i love the super angsty idea of him hiding his feelings for you to protect you but that somehow being the thing that gets you hurt/killed. he can never be happy ig :D that's just the type of thing that would happen to him that would affirm his belief that he can never do anything right hahahahahhaha screaming crying why would i say that

anyways ily babes i hope you're doing okay <333

[shrimplymoray]

I was told I could request more so….

Can I have a funny Ruggie x Sapphix story, about Ruggie (or Sapphix, either one is fine lol) getting jealous over her hanging out with someone?

Like i dunno what else to ask except for maybe more sea kelp content 😭

STARES INTESIVELY AT YOU If u request Sea Kelp i will cry, ily beeeeee/p Also, hope u don't mind me taking inspo from that one drawing u did full of Sapphix and Ruggie stuff!

Ruggie Bucchi x Sapphix Laurentius - Jealousy

Sapphix was excited to come see this years VDC. She had come to the last years one, but due to how... torublesome, it was, she was afraid to attend to one of the musical performances again. However, even though left and right she had to give her autographs, she was happy to see so many interesting researches and artistic renditions of the world. And she had the company of her favorite Hyena, to make it even more fun. "Shihihi did'ya see the price those dumbasses are paying for those snacks? I could make them for half the price and it would be thrice as better." "Oh I bet it! I still remember when you made me those donuts, what did you even put on it to make them so tasty?" "Chef's secret. Buuuut every secret can be paid to be spread..." "Oh shush it!" As the duo (couple? who knew at this point!) made their way around the stands, they found the... Mountain Lovers club? What even is this? "Oh no..." Ruggie said before the tall teal haired boy gave his soft and lowkey condenscending smile at Sapphix and his Hyena almost-boyfriend.

"Hello there Sapphix-san, Ruggie-san. Would you care to hear about my research?" "Hell no, we were just going to-" "I want to! These mushrooms look so adorable, is it about them?" "Wha- Hey! He is gonna try shoving them on ya or something, i've seen Jade do that before." Jade put his hand to his chest, and looked almost hurt, though his tone didn't seem to share that same sentiment. "Your words wound me profusely, Ruggie-san. I was merely trying to explain the intricacies of this mushroom species I've so carefully and effortly cultivated myself." "Aww look Ruggie, it looks like it has a little veil on it! Let's hear it, pleeease? I'll pay you some food in return."

Ruggie mumbled and grumbled about not wanting to, but accepted nonetheless, he was actually hungry and wanted something fancy for once. "Thank you for your attention. My name is Jade Leech,, Junior from class 3-E, and I am the founder of the Mountain Lovers club. My research is solely based on the phallus Indusiatus, or Veiled Lady mushroom. You see these species [...]" Sapphix kept intringuinly looking at the examples Jade cultivated, and inquiring him about the little mushrooms, which only helped to sour Ruggie's mood even more. He wasn't really the jealous type, usually. He was pretty confident that he could do whatever he wanted if he wasn't caught, but with Sapphix it was different. He didn't want to steal from her, or do something that would hurt her. He actually, genuinely, liked to be around her and to hear her laugh and see how she would smile so cutely at him. Seeing all this attention, he is used to only seeing being given to him, given to someone else... It actually hurt.

Ruggie didn't even noticed that his ears and tail were droopy, and that he had instinctively gotten closer to Sapphix. It was like an instinct, protect the mate or whatever. One who noticed, however, is Jade, he looked at Ruggie and smiled "Would you have any questions about the mushrooms, Ruggie-san?" "No, Sapphiiiiiix can we go now, i'm starving in here hearing him ramble" His glare was clear as day, however Jade didn't retort at all. "I do believe I've finished my presentation. Hope you have a great date." "Oh, btu we aren't-" "Yeah, thanks, bye forever or whatever" ruggie pushed sapphix away into a fancy food stall, still with a pout on his lips. The girl was not dumb, and she had noticed his jealousy, but all she did now was get near him and hug him, making him all flustered. "Hey Hey! What's that for?!" "Consider this my revenge from you playing spelldrive with Vil's pupil instead of Going out shopping with me" "Wha-DO YOU MEAN EPEL? YOU DID THIS ON PURPOSE?!!"

Ah yes my fave romance troupe: payback jealousy to the hyena boy. God I love ur ocs so much bee, hope u enjoy this!!

[youuuimeanmee]

My ILY 219 Thoughts

When I first read this chapter on fastpass, my head was in mush the whole day, it feels like I've fallen in love. Even after today, 4 weeks later, I still can't put this chapter down. Everything was so intimate, it might be more intense than any romance media I've read so far. (I swear romance in slice-of-life genre is the best). With all that mush, there's also a silent dread in the back of my head, like, if tonight is the peak of Nolan's happiness since forever, what kind of pain and torture that awaits him in the future? Hhhahah let's stop thinking there.

1. I was pleasantly surprised when Nol was about to apologize to Shinae about the whole awkward-morphine-thing! I thought he's gonna use this opportunity to let her stay away from him, but nope. I forgot this is The Nolan Who-didn't-shy-away-from-Shinae-because-she's special Lochlainn. I should've known, despite the dread of loving (and losing) someone again, he also couldn't let her go easily.

2. The trio! YESS!! I was hoping they'd come! "How are you doing, stranger?" Damn right Shoushi, Nol hasn't introduce himself with his real name yet. "Oh shut up, let us have this!" Damn right Shinae. Just let them love you for God sake.

3. Awww that red blush! That crooked smile! It's the similar crooked smile Yeong-Gi had when Shinae gave him ointment for his scratch!

Nol really is touched by Shinae who doesn't give up on showing her care, despite him pushing her away many times 😭And Daww look at Lil Buddy on Nol's side ready to protect him!

4. Nol:

Also Shinae on ep 2, the first time she met Nol:

😏 Nice throwback Quim 😏

5. Soushi. "It's not like anyone's stealing my lunch money anymore." Is it because Soushi's high school is better than his junior high? Because he has friends who can kick ass now? Or because he kept receiving benefits for being Kousuke's spy? Kinda sus there. BUT! Since he finally realized just how severe Kousuke's relationship with Nol, I should trust him. Plus, Lil Buddy didn't attack him tonight! I trust Lil Buddy who trust Soushi.

6. DUCKIESS!!

If he wasn't impressed before because Dieter only described "Yeong-Gi," not "him," he definitely is now 😭 'Cause the boy who wondered where the duck is in the pond? Now that's Nolan. No wonder Nol is so touched 🥺

7. SoachRoach? Daww Soushi nooo :( I don't want you to consider yourself as a pest! Well, if being a pest means he won't leave Nol alone and continue to be his friend then I don't mind, but still-

8. The "I love you guys!" that Nol exclaimed at Dieter and Soushi, and the silent "I love you so much" that gaze straight into Shinae's eyes is *chef's kiss* 🤌🤌

9. "Shinae! Why are you standing so far away? You're a part of this group too!"

No Dieter, Shinae is a league on her own 😏

10. Haha, the "It's a Girl!" balloon that were changed into "It's a Gift!"? Nice save Shinae, real smooth. And oh, almost forgot. Fun fact, Quimchee said on her cc that if Nol were gonna have a child, he'd definitely want a daughter. Surprise surprise, the balloon Shinae brought on this ep is a gender reveal balloon, with "It's a Girl!" written on it. Quim, are you teasing us? Or is it a foreshadowing 🤣🤣

11. Ngl the panel where Nol is staring at his friends with red/pink sunrise and snowfall is soo pretty it's like shoujo manga. I'm soo sooftt 😭

12. Oh boy. That burger analogy he made is definitely dark. So his birthday is definitely:

1) getting stepped on by Hirahara; and

2) he found his birth/birthday leads to his mom's death/disappereance.

I really hope #2 is just some bs nonsense Yui has told him, but idk. Yui is the master of manipulation, some of what she said might contain some ugly truths, which, could be hard to counter :((

13. "Luck? Maybe bad luck..." Oi Nol, Shinae wouldn't know it was your birthday if it's not for the bible. You won't be able to celebrate your birthday in a good mood if it it's not for the bible. And you definitely wouldn't chase after Shinae in the first place if it's not for Nessa's letter in the bible. So it IS a good luck. How could you forget that?

14. Haha I knew she'd pick the orange! 🤣 But that doodle! I didn't expect her to do that but it's genius 🤣 And that message!

Not only it's a nod to Shinae's line when they first met (Humans suck), it's also the answer of his question earlier!

And it must mean so much to Nol cause, ugh, how do I explain it. For Nol who hate himself so much, hearing "you're a good person" might be a bit too much since it's hard to believe. But "you don't suck that much"? To me, at least, it's easier to take because it means Shinae acknowledged his downsides, but she accepts it anyway. Because she sees some good in him. Because he's special to her. For someone who were used to be told he's nothing? For someone who were told to disappear just a few hours ago by certain someone? That, UGHHH 😭😭

15. Oohh that tapping hand! I remember Nol said he knows how to do scales, so maybe he's playing imaginary piano in his head? Maybe he's reminiscing how his mom used to teach him christmas songs? Don't know if that's really the case but I thought it'll be a nice headcanon :) Shinae must've noticed how lost he is in his own world, so the way she brought him back using a finger dance, it's like she's saying "Don't go. Just look at me." 😭

16. The whole finger dance is so cute, but Nol's darken facee. It's like he's thinking, "Why do you think we can't dance? I don't care how much pain I'm in, I can dance with you. I want to." I swear, Nol's "take your shoes off" is much hotter than any "take off your clothes" from any ML in romance manga.

17. I see Yeong-Gi when I see one. With that smile, that happy remark, and that peek-a-boo? Definitely Yeong-Gi, alright. After he decided to live his life as Nolan, just this once, he wears his mask again to ease Shinae's worry, because he won't let her know alll the pain he felt (maybe I should write an analysis/theories about his motive in the future). He doesn't want to scare her, he wants to see her smile for as long as he could because By Gods he needs it. Their dance is like a sweet, silent goodbye, and they both know it.

18. Lastly, I wanna mention how good Quim is with gestures? Nol is holding only 2 fingers, like he still has a wall that says "I'm only asking you this as a friend. Not that I try to hit on you or anything." Almost like he's scared to invite her, afraid she might be scared of him.

But she's not. She accepted him with her full hand. Yet, he doesn't fully hold her hand because he's not ready to completely accept it, he's not ready to open up yet.

Despite all that, he holds what he can (Shinae's fingers) with all his might, because he's unable to let her go?

QUIMCHEEE 😭😭😭

I wanna write more but it's getting long and there's a pic limit, so I'll continue in another post! I'm gonna dump all my thoughts about what Nol might be thinking the moment he's alone with Shinae. Thank you for reading this far! 😆

[nerd-at-sea5]

the last s2 chaos dump post. spoilers ahead

also i think i just lost my shit while watching this ep

oh all of his joy is abt to go away SO FAST

FUCK WHAT DID SHE JUST SAY????

LOTTIE BABES PUT DOWN THE POISON-

shauna. shauna. SHAUNA.

van tai nat the judge-y lesbians of all time <333

yeah lisa's dying.

TAISSA'S LITTLE THUMBS UP IM DYING I LOVE HER SO MUCH

hate to say it but misty's right lottie pls get some therapy

nat defending her wife (kinda?)

'we got over it' *taissa's head tilt* oh nat honey none of you got over it

oh my god the look of terror when misty tells lottie nat drew the queen

MISTY STOP FUCKING SMILING WTAF

SHE NEVER WANTED THIS!! THEIR MAKING A GOD OUT OF A GIRL WHO DOSEN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT SHE'S DOING!! AAAAA

ok technically shauna started the cannibalism

nat....MISTY STOP LYING WTF OH TAIVAN :))

#letnataliescatorcciodecksomeone1996

ok no give him time to greive.

....at least their taking off his clothes first?

thank you natalie

HAND SHAKING HAND SHAKING. REMORSE OR WANT???

do not. do this. while fucking. blindfolded.

and after all of it, van is still squimish about blood....gonna sob

van is making some painfully good points rn

she's dulling down the knifes...SCRATCHED OUT EYES.

jeff YOU are on tv...callie's facial expressions alone i love her-LMFAO SHE KNOWS EXACTLY WHERE THE GUN IS-

KILL THE CREEPY COP!! LET THE WILDERNESS DECIDE IT.

nat's trying to protect lisa....she's so dead!!! oh my god nat and lisa im gonna s o b

BEN BAD FUCKING TIMING ALSO GOOD GOD THATS A LOT OF BLOOD-

he wants to go with her because he think she's not like them but she wont let herself go with because she thinks SHES WORSE.

van's minor case of insanity should not be as hot as it is.

ok she's phrasing it weirdly but she has a point

walter's gonna kill kevyn.

HAHA I KNEW IT

'are you one of the cult people' 'no i'm from the shire'

HA JEFFREY.

his heart is so small....OH SWEET FUCKING LORD.

yeah ok ive gotta fast forward that. DUDE IT WAS RAW.

misty i'm rlly not liking you rn

van just kicking the fire ily

FUCK CALLIE NO RUN. OH SHE HAS A GUN. SHOOT HIM.

vannnnnnnnn OH she wants to die-nvm.

it's gonna be nat i stfg and im gonna die

this gives me to much anxiety oh good god. lottie??

NO NOT AGAIN.

SHAUNA????????????

fucking hell.

WALTER KILL HIM.

CALLIE SADECKI GODDAMN

'it was vans idea' *the face of bitch pls*

AYE VAN PRINCESS BRIDE NERD CANON.

ben?

oh lottie-wait i wanna hear van's story....

it's van or nat. nvm it's nat. CALLED IT.

FUCK NATALIE OK-

lottienat pls makeout NOW challange. BOTH timelines.

IM SO SORRY NAT BABE THAT IS THE FACE OF GAY PANIC

ben watching like: i do not understand lesbians, also. i want to die.

nat you want to kiss her so bad, ur also having a midlife crisis at 17

omfg akilah's little curtsy and the way she and nat smile at each other

misty it was cute but the way ur looking at her makes me think you want to kill her

fuck. damnit lisa.

misty if you do this i will forever hate you.

SHIT NAT'S DYING-

yep. misty i hate you. idgaf if it was an accident.

JAVI??

just when she wanted to live. SHES NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

pls tell me shes got like a tolerance to this stuff?? pls.

SHIT HELLO SOPHIE THATCHER.

IM SHAKING OH MY GOD

'this is exactly where we belong' no, no you deserve to live you just haven't realized it yet.

LOTTIE?!?!!? IM HAVING A FUCKING STROKE

jesus the way she's smiling at her. she just wants to help!!

fuck she's actually dead.

i am so fucking furious right now.

god van's entire face is just 'it's supposed to be me.'

FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WAHT THE FUCK BEN WHAT THE FUCK IT WAS BEN

van palmer i should not find this hot.

VAN GET THE FUCK OUT

hey at least their warm now right

[foreverisntenough]

I’m so obsessed with this book it’s not normal,

Don’t get me wrong Trent, Y/n and Teddy girl will always be my number ones forever but I’m genuinely down bad for Jude!

I know I haven’t given my opinion on the book yet but honestly I’ve had a hectic few weeks.

The fallout broke my heart but the way Jude has MASSIVELY turned things around just for her, melts me. The way he wants to meet her family but has asked her if she wants to open up to that part of life, just ughhhh.

Also the flirtinggggggg, girl what???? Im hooked.

The difference with these two is as much as Trent and Whit flirted they just had a different type of love, there’s was more soppy and adorable. But Jude and Y/N, they are the definition of cheeky love. They will be the ones who banter forever, who wind each other up always and just are always having a good time.

If I could have a new chapter everyday I would because I can never get enough.

Also the one shots! Wow unreal need more of those also

Proud of you girl you’re smashing it! Xx

Aww <3 Thank you.

No, I get it! I will always love Teddy, Y/N, and Trent but Act II is a different vibe and I like that it is different.

I'm sorry you've had a hectic few weeks. TYSM for reading between it all!

The fallout in 'Act ii' was sad I'll be real. It bummed me out for Y/N. But I feel like that was interesting for me to write because I didn't want it to be overly predictable. Maybe it still was but I think Jude had been silly but he also became really patient with Y/N now that he understood and outwardly truly cared for her.

I like the way they interact as well because there is this ebb and flow, this push and pull that makes them much flirtier than Y/N and Trent. And you're right, Y/N (Whitney) and Trent was more of an all consuming heart aching type love , where as this Y/N (Lauren) and Jude is really quite different in my opinion. I think it's fairly reflective of the two girls personality types.

I think the two relationships share a lot of values like chemistry, intimacy, comfort, respect, and empathy. Also, Jude and Trent are very protective, giving, affectionate, possessive in a good way lol, they want to spoil those girls but there's a big divide I think with how they look in terms of relationship growth.

I hope people enjoy the one shots! I really like that I get to continue writing about that 'Ours' fictional family or just whatever someone may request.

TYSM <3 ILY

[happypoppin]

𝘑𝘶𝘮𝘱𝘪𝘯'!

[ellieswaifu]

hiiiiiiiiiii :0 may i request a small modern au fic where fem reader, who is jesse’s little sister, asks ellie to help her make her ex bf jealous ? tyyyyy ily

i don’t date my brother’s friends | ellie x f!reader

summary — ellie (kinda) helps you make your ex jealous/also she’s a little jealous too hehe

word count — 2.77k+

genre — modern!au, ummmm fluff ? jealousy stuff

warnings — mentions drinking, kissing, childhood friends kinda, hmm big brother jesse!!, ellie has a crush uuuuu, heavily influenced by one fast and furious scene

a/n: i am literally watching fast and furious while reading this request so now i feel inspired to write about that one scene in the kitchen heheheeeeee ;-; also not proofread:< i hope u still enjoi reading ty for requesting !!

You’ve learned not to date you brother’s friends. It never ended well with you or him. At the end of the day, your big brother, Jesse, ends up punching someone in the eye and that friend is never to be seen again. In a way, you felt guilty. Jesse had a smaller group of close friends now, containing fewer boys in the latter who just wanted to get into your pants. It kind of became a rule that you wouldn’t ever go on a date with his friends ever again. He wanted to protect you in that way where he didn’t have to worry about you and losing some of his friends at the same time. You felt bad, but he always told you, “good riddance.” If he only had friends that would break your heart, then he would choose to not have friends at all.

You were his baby sister; sworn to protect, love and annoy forever.

But, sometimes, you hated that rule. Even though Jesse kept a few of his friends close, there were so many people that knew him already. He’s smart, sporty, and goes to an Ivy League university. Everybody in town knew who he was. It made it kind of hard to date in general. So, the outcome of that was you going on dates in secret. You weren’t some kind of woman who shamelessly had billions of relationships with different people. You were young and you just thought you should experience what romantic aspects life has to offer.

There was someone you went on a couple of dates with just recently. It only lasted for about two weeks before the two of you decided to stop and call it quits. He was a pretty good sport about it, not seeming to have ill feelings or anything.

Despite being on the look for someone to date, you already had your eyes set on someone special. Her name was Ellie. She was a girl who plays guitar, sings, loves art, is space-obsessed and, not to mention, one of your brother’s best friends. You would be lying if you said that she wasn’t even partly the reason why you date a lot of people. Ellie being one of Jesse’s closest friends made it so hard to approach her and even if you wanted to or had a chance, your brother would beat both of your asses.

You don’t talk to her much, especially now that you’re older. The first time you met her, she was someone your brother brought home from middle school, along with other friends like Dina, to do some group projects with. She was nice to you; played with you a lot when you were all alone in the living room with your toys and even helped you with some of your homework sometimes when Jesse wouldn’t. You’ve always had a crush on her. She was pretty. Growing up only made you realize how attracted you were to her.

But in the end, she was your brother’s friend.

It was only until Jesse decided to throw a semi-party at home after finals week when you see her again. You’re sitting at the front porch with a glass of soda, watching as Jesse’s group of friends walk into your house when Ellie comes in with them in her typical baggy attire; jeans and flannel-over-a-shirt look, sporting her usual canvas shoes at her feet. They all greet you with a wave and simple hi’s and hello’s, knowing you were Jesse’s little sister. You make sure to watch Ellie when that happens and she doesn’t say anything and only gives you a short smile and glance with her eyes.

You let out breath as soon as all of them walked through the front door, leaving you alone on the front porch with nothing but the night sky and your soda to accompany you.

After a while, you watch as a familiar car pulls up in your drive way. You close your eyes, hoping and praying it wasn’t the person you thought it was, trying to avoid the upcoming embarrassment you were about to feel in your chest.

Unfortunately, you were right. Your ex walks up to your front door slowly, his eyes on you the entire time.

“Hi,” he call out awkwardly.

“Hey,” was all you said back.

He look at you only for a moment, eyeing your attire. You grow uncomfortable under his gaze but thankfully for you, he didn’t stare for too long.

“You look good,” he compliments you, nodding as he spoke.

You give him the smallest smile you could give, “They’re already inside, eating or something, I think. You can head on in.”

“Thanks.”

The interaction was short, but you wanted it that way. Any longer, you probably would’ve walked away from him rudely. It’s not that you hated him or anything, it’s just the constant awkwardness almost made you nauseous and you couldn’t bear to interact with the person who has been calling and texting you all month about getting back together. You thanked god that he just walked into your house without adding anything unimportant to his dialogue.

You turn to into the window behind you and look through the glass as Jesse’s friends laugh and talk and drink in the living room and dining room with music muffled by the walls of the house. You’re not sure what they’re celebrating but they seem to be having a great time. You let your eyes wander for a moment, looking for a certain girl, until your eyes meet green ones. You immediately turn away and stare at the glass that was now empty in your hand as you hear your heart beating louder and faster in your chest.

What the hell? Was she looking at me?

You decide to shake off your thoughts, fingertips tracing the rim of the glass before headed back inside to refill your cup with some water.

Ellie fixed her green eyes on you the moment you stepped through your front door. Your dress hugged you in all the right places and rippled accordingly down to your knees as you walked through your house. Your hair was pulled back and showed everyone set of dazzling, angel-white teeth, greeting them as you walk past.

Ellie knows you’re pretty. She never really saw it until a year ago when you had just started your senior year in high school. She drove by your place to pick Jesse up, starting their first year of college together. You were no longer that dorky kid she used to know. You’ve started wear prettier things, do your makeup and act all mature. She understands why some of Jesse’s friends try to get to so close to him sometimes—a way to get closer to you. That was until he told everybody that his little sister was off limits. But thinking you were pretty was way different from being attracted to you. Ellie was sure Jesse would have her head for even mentioning taking you out on a date.

Still staring, Ellie watches quietly as you disappear into the kitchen. Her eyes go back down to look at the red, plastic cup in her hand, filled soda.

“Uh, I’m gonna go get more to drink,” Ellie calls out to Jesse who returns with a nod.

Ellie stands and walks over to the kitchen doorway, peaking her head in slightly. You had you back turned to her, looking out the window with a glass of water in your hand and you other hand against the dip of your hip.

Clearing her throat for you to hear, Ellie watches as you jump slightly. You turn you head to look at her with your hand against your chest and a face looking like you were about to scold someone.

“Jesus, Ellie.”

“Sorry.” She smiles and steps into the kitchen, placing her cup down on the marble counter.

“What happened? Is Jesse getting boring?”

Ellie lets out a small, breathy laugh and bows her head before looking back up at you in amusement, “Something like that… I actually was just gonna get more beer.”

You eye the girl in front of you carefully with a smile playing at your lips as you lean against the counter, “But, your cup is full.”

Ellie looks down at her shoes with a smirk. You caught her red handed. You let your eyes wander up and down her body and the way she fidgets only slightly with her feet, avoiding eye contact. Ellie was never one to get nervous, but here she is.

“Do you remember that time you helped me study for my algebra test and I gave you a kiss on the cheek after I got a hundred?”

The girl in front of you smiles at the thought, “Of course, I remember. You were cuter then.”

“Shut up.” You let out a laugh, “You know, I’m pretty sure I had a crush on you around that time.”

Ellie cocks her head to the side, “Oh, I knew you had a crush on me.”

You almost spit out your drink, “What? Since when?”

“For a while,” Ellie smirks. “It was kind of obvious.”

You take a deep breath and smile again, “Yeah, I guess I didn’t work hard enough to hide it. I’m sure your new girlfriends in college would kill me if they knew.”

Ellie raises her eyebrows and shakes her head, “No new girlfriends. But I’m sure they wouldn’t mind if they knew you were Jesse’s little sister.”

“No new girlfriends?”

“Nope.”

“And why’s that?”

She shrugs and shakes her head again, eyes staring directly at yours before looking back down at the laces of her shoes. How could she be with anyone else when all she can think about is you all the time? You were the reason why her relationships never lasted any longer that a month back then. It drives her crazy.

“Ellie,” you call.

“Hm?” she hums. The way her name slips your mouth makes her heart feel fuzzy. For a moment, that’s all she can think about but after a few seconds she remembered how that boy, who talked to Jesse just earlier, kept looking at you out the window. Her green eyes meet yours once again, “That guy wont stop looking at you.”

You stop and think for a second before putting the palm of your hand to your face, “Don’t even get started with him.”

“What happened,” Ellie asks, watching you carefully. “Don’t tell me you dated him.”

You let a sigh escape your lips, “Just a fling, Ellie. No strings attached. Besides, I told him not to contact me anymore.”

“Well, it doesn’t seem like it.”

Ellie’s tone catches you slightly off guard. You keep a close eye on her, watching as she fidgets with her ring and pinky finger, avoiding your gaze.

“Don’t tell me you’re jealous.”

The girl in front of you doesn’t say a word. A part of you is delighted that the girl you’ve been crushing on for a while now has feelings for you. Another part of you feels blue with the fact that the girl, who now has feelings for you, is one of your brother’s bestest friends.

“Oh, Ellie,” you step forward, slowly placing a hand against the side of her face softly, caressing her cheek with your thumb. “I don’t date my brother’s friends.”

Ellie stares at you, hypnotized by the way your lips moved and how close your body was to hers.

“Then why’d you date him?” she says softly, laced with slight jealousy.

“Like I said, Ellie,” you smile. “Just a fling.”

Ellie continues to stare down at your face. It takes all of her strength to ignore her impulsive side and not kiss you right then and there. Your hand on her face feels warm and she just wants you to keep it them for as long as you can.

Unfortunately, you let her go and back up as soon as the two of you heard footsteps coming your way.

Your ex stands at at the doorway, suspiciously eyeing the both of you. His eyes dart to Ellie then back at you as he furrows his eyebrows in confusion.

“Hey, (y/n),” he calls out. “Can I talk to you? Alone, I mean.”

Ellie stands up straight and picks her cup back up from the counter, heading towards the fridge, “Oh, don’t mind me. I’m just getting a drink.”

You watch Ellie peak her head into the fridge, seemingly looking for something to take. You look over to your ex and shrug as you take a sip of your soda.

“What do you wanna talk about?”

“I’ve been texting you,” he says as he eyes the girl at the fridge. “We on for another date? You can wear your favorite dress and I’ll take you anywhere you wanna go.���

You roll your eyes at him and scoff. You’ve made it very clear to him that you didn’t want to interact with him afterwards. You watch as Ellie steps away from the refrigerator, pulling out a bottle of beer before placing it down on the counter. You can’t see her eyes, but you can practically steam coming out of her ears.

There were a few more moments of awkward silence before you speak up again, wanting to get rid of him immediately and tease Ellie at the same time.

“Hey, what was that place you, uh, wanted to take me to? Italian?” you ask him with a sultry voice, taking a few steps close to him.

“Oh, the one with the lights?”

“Yeah, yeah, lights and stuff…” you say, reaching out to play with his necklace as he smirks at you. “What was it called?”

“Valentina’s,” he replies slowly, smirk growing wider by the second, buying your fake flirting.

You can practically feel Ellie’s eyes boring into the back of your head as you continued to flirt with him right in front of her.

Your lips curved into a devious smile as you pulled away from him slowly, letting go of the thin chain that wrapped around loosely on his neck before turning over to the girl behind you. You step into her personal space, bodies so close together that they were almost touching.

“You can take me there,” you say, looking up at Ellie with a sly smile, playing with the buttons of her unbuttoned flannel, “What do you say? Pick me up at ten?”

Ellie stares at you. How could she turn that down?

“Yeah, ten is good,” she says, smirking slightly as she glances up at the guy you were just talking to.

Ellie watches him curse and walk away, infuriated at what he had just witnessed. Footsteps fade away and after deciding to ignore him, Ellie turns to look down at you once again.

You stand still and your eyes were no longer looking up at her. All she could see, feel and smell was the top of your head, hair giving off a fresh scent of some fruity shampoo you’ve been using lately, and your small hands still playing with her buttons and the graphic tee she wore underneath it. You were still so close to her and it was surely driving her more towards the edge.

“Hey,” Ellie says.

“Oh, sorry.”

You look up and smile as you were about to step away from her, pulling your hand back away from her shirt. To your surprise, Ellie grabs your wrist and pulls you closer as close as possible, the front of your body pressing against hers.

“What are you doing?” you ask her.

“I’ll show you.”

Before you know it, Ellie slips her arm behind your waist and presses her lips against yours. You melt at her touch, wrapping your arms around her neck pulling her deeper into the kiss. Her teeth sinks down to your bottom lip softly, making you moan in surprise. Ellie takes that opportunity to slip her tongue into your mouth, groaning against you. Your tongues clash and fight each other with breathy moans before Ellie suddenly pulls away from you.

“What?”

You can see Ellie’s eyes staring right past you, towards the doorway of the kitchen with a serious look on her face. Her jaw clenches for a second right under your nose as you gaze at her in confusion. It only takes a second for realization to hit you hard.

Pulling away from Ellie as quick as you can, as if it was any help to the situation, you turn around and stare at the figure behind you.

Jesse stands at the doorway with eyebrows furrowed and and his jaw hanging slightly.

“What the fuck are you two doing?”

a/n: hehehehhehehe ok as i was writing, i realized it wasnt really ellie “helping” and i’m rlly sorry if u didn’t enjoi it :< ty for reading

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[purple-babygirl]

hi im not sure if you’re taking requests so you can ignore this if you’d like, but i really liked your mafia bucky fic !! and i was wondering if you could do one where maybe someone breaks into the house and the reader has to force themselves to be big for a little bit just so they can fight them off and then she runs to the little safe room and goes little there and Bucky finds her there and comforts her and it’s just all fluffy? sorry if this is so specific i just loved the last fic sm 😅

Pairing: Mafia!Daddy!Bucky Barnes x f!little!reader

Word count: 1,958

Warnings: reader gets attacked (includes harassment and mentions of violence, cursing, guns), reader gets hurt, mentions of killing, Bucky's softness (yes it's a warning), ddlg dynamics.

A/N: I've been holding onto this one for forever now I'm really sorry for taking so long, dear nonnie🥺 it means the world to me that you liked mafia!daddy!bucky and i hope i delivered with this one and that you like it as much, love. Please enjoy ily xx💜

~

safe

You’re a big girl.

You’re a big girl.

You’re a big girl. You can do this.

It all happened too fast. She woke up to guns shooting, Bucky’s men yelling at each other before all the voices suddenly stopped and the door to their bedroom was violently kicked open.

She didn’t even have time to scream before she was dragged from under the large bed by her ankle.

You’re a big girl.

You’re a big girl.

You’re a big girl. Just like Daddy taught you.

“Let go! You don’t wanna do this!” she shrieked, warning the person trying to snatch her off the floor, her leg kicking as she struggled to flee his vice-like hold.

She’d suddenly forgotten every single self-defense move Bucky has ever taught her and was thrashing in panic.

“Oh, I don’t?” the man laughed, his grip painful on her limb as he tried to get on top of her.

She screamed when he dug his fingernails in the flesh of her shin, forcing her legs apart.

“Such a delicate little thing.” He licked his lips when he drew blood, running his gun up her bare leg, pressing down when it reached her inner thigh, “beg me to let you go.”

The words infuriated her big self. If Bucky had taught her one thing that she could never forget it was how dear and precious she was.

“Do you know who my man is?” Her free foot collided with the intruder’s chin, hitting him just right for his teeth to slam together, making him groan and loosen his grasp.

“I beg no one for nothing.” She spat, clumsily standing up, rushing inside Bucky’s large walk-in closet.

“You’re gonna regret that, you little bitch!” The masked man threatened, banging his fist on the door, “I’m gonna make that man of yours weep blood over your dead slut body!”

Her breath was coming out in puffs as tears blurred her vision. With trembling fingers, she moved Bucky’s hung-up suits to the side, revealing the metal door to the panic room.

You’re a big girl.

You’re a big girl.

You’re a big girl. Just a bit longer.

She could hear the man take a few steps back and she knew he was going to shoot the closet open. Her shaky fingers pushed the buttons and typed the number code, the date of the day Bucky had asked her to be his.

I feel safe knowing I have you, angel, so it’s only fit that we make it the safe room code, he'd told her with a playful shrug.

She slid inside as soon as the door moved, pushing her back against the concrete wall, trying to take her breath. The door clicked shut right before the wooden one to the closet was thrown open.

You’re a big girl.

You’re a big girl.

You’re a big girl. You got this.

She let out a relieved sigh that broke into a sob as she tiredly slid down the wall, still hearing the scary man curse, bang and shoot on the safe room door.

Where was Bucky? She couldn’t hold on any longer. This wasn’t a situation she wanted to be present in. Her body started folding up, taking fetal position as her mind led her to the safer side against her better will. Even her fists closed upon themselves, tears leaving her eyes and traveling down the bridge of her nose. She was losing consciousness of her present surroundings, pictures of Bucky’s eyes spreading in her vision instead of the dull, grey walls of the room.

She was crying too loudly to hear the firing of Bucky’s gun right outside the door or the peeping of the door as it slid open once again.

“Angel!” Bucky’s voice sounded so distant. She felt like she was drowning with how muffled his calls were to her ears.

Seeing her body shake with sobs on the floor like that made Bucky want to walk out and shoot the man’s dead body again and again until he couldn’t be identified.

How dare they send someone here? How dare they violate the sanctity of his home? They were certainly not going to live another day to repeat or repent from their sins.

“Angel, are you hurt?” He kneeled beside her, gently untangling her limbs to check if she was wounded anywhere.

Aside from a couple of nasty scratches by her ankle, she was physically okay and Bucky could breathe a little better as his body sagged on the floor.

He swallowed and lifted her on his lap, signaling his men to leave when they stepped in the room to check if they were needed after ‘cleaning up’.

“Get me water.” Was all he said and they were running to the nearest fridge.

“I’m sorry, my angel. I’m here now. You’re okay.” Bucky mumbled, lips hovering over her temple.

“Dada.” Her body leaned into his warmth but her cries didn’t stop and Bucky could only hold her closer as he tried not to let guilt rip him apart.

She was like that now because of him. Had he been a normal man with a normal life, she would’ve been safer. She didn’t deserve to be startled awake only to be chased by a criminal in the middle of the night. She didn’t deserve any of the bullshit that hit her because she was with Bucky.

He kept planting kiss after kiss to her head, wishing he could go back and be there to protect her.

“Shh, you’re okay, my angel. You’re safe,” he kept telling her as he supported himself up with her in his arms.

Her cries were dying down and she was getting comfier in Bucky’s protective hold, fingers digging in his shoulders afraid he would leave again.

“Please, calm down, baby. I’m here. No one can hurt you, angel.” Bucky took her out and to the bathroom so he could take a look at her leg.

“Baby, are you hurt anywhere else?” he asked after sitting her down on the cold counter.

Instead of answering, she pressed her forehead to his chest and kept sniveling, hands clutching Bucky’s jacket. She wasn’t ready for him to let her go yet. She may be too far gone but her body knew it needed to be close to Bucky’s.

“Baby, please come back to me,” Bucky begged, tears threatening to spill from his once hard, cold eyes.

“Angel,” his thumb brushed her cheek and she finally looked up to him.

“Dada, I was so scared.” She sobbed, shaking at the memory.

“I’m sorry, my angel.” Bucky pressed his lips to her forehead, “I’m here with you, baby. No need to be scared anymore.”

“That man- he-” she hiccupped.

“You’re okay, angel. Breathe.” Bucky stroked her back warmly as she buried her face in his chest again.

He took the bottle of water from one of his men, waving him out of the bathroom.

“Here, baby, drink some water.”

She wouldn’t move. She just wanted to be close to Daddy. She was scared and Bucky was safety. He was home.

“For me, baby. Just a tiny sip.” Bucky twisted the bottle cap open, gently cupping her cheek to coax her away from his body.

His heart swelled when she leaned her damp cheek on his palm, enjoying the warmth. Her smaller hand cupped his and her eyes closed, her face further pressed into Bucky’s hand as a soft sigh escaped her lips.

Bucky bit his lip, holding back the waterworks. He should’ve been here; should’ve prevented it all from happening. His thumb brushed her chin and she opened her eyes.

“Drink a little, angel.” Bucky offered a kind smile.

She nodded, sitting up straighter, her lashes wet with tears as she looked up to Bucky, her gaze holding no blame.

He brought the bottle to her lips and she gulped down, the chilled water soothing her sore throat.

“Better?” Bucky cocked his head to the side and she nodded, sniffing.

Bucky bowed, holding his forehead against hers. He just wanted to feel her breathe soundly; wanted to make his mind stop telling him he almost lost her forever.

“Dada.”

“Yes, my angel.” Bucky pecked her lips.

“My leg hurts.” Her voice was awfully small as she pointed to the burning scratches ruining her beautiful skin. Bucky wished he could hide her between his ribs in place of his heart.

“Daddy’s got you, angel.”

Bucky cleaned her wound, apologizing with a kiss to her cheek every time she hissed. He had her tell him what happened to distract her and it worked. She wanted him to be proud so much she eagerly told him all about kicking the bad man. Tears gathered in her eyes once again when he applied ointment but she continued with her story, Bucky’s smile keeping her calm.

“Angel, you were so brave! I’m so proud of you, baby.” Bucky kissed her bandaged leg, “how did you do that?!”

“Kept thinkin’ dada thoughts.” She hugged Bucky again.

Bucky was a puddle on the bathroom floor. She was telling him she was brave like that because she was thinking of him through it all. He adored her so much he didn’t know who he was if not her man.

“I promise this is the last time you would ever have to go through anything like that,” Bucky assured, chuckling lovingly when she squeezed him harder and nodded.

She believed Bucky. She knew he could keep her safe. This wasn’t a usual occurrence, Bucky’s always made sure she was protected. She had no doubt anything would change. She trusted her Daddy with all her heart.

Bucky knew that and it scared him to death. He was scared one day he might not be up to the trust she’d put in him. He feared disappointing her; not being there for her in time. He was terrified a day would come where he might let her down.

“Never again. You’re safe, my angel. You’re always safe with me.”

Bucky’s soft lips placed a languishing kiss to her forehead. Her eyes were next, Bucky kissed her eyelids and under her eyes. Then he left wet kisses on both cheeks before pecking her nose. She smiled shyly when he pressed his mouth to the corner of hers.

“I love you, angel,” Bucky whispered against her lips before kissing her.

~

Bucky carried her back to their bed. The room was organized again, nothing was out of place and she was in Daddy’s arms. She was safe once more.

Bucky held her to his chest all night, his mind too loud to let him fall asleep. She went back to bed almost immediately though. Bucky’s presence was all it really took for her to feel peaceful enough to close her eyes and dream again.

When she moved out of his embrace in her sleep, Bucky carefully left the room and went to his office to review the security cameras footage. He knew watching the attack would make his blood boil again but he had to see what happened and how the unlucky asshole got inside his mansion.

While she already told him she’d defended herself, Bucky was the proudest seeing it unfold on the screen.

“Do you know who my man is?... I beg no one.”

The words brought the largest smile to Bucky’s lips. He was so proud of his angel; so amazed by her courage. He thought he couldn’t love her any more than he already did and he was wrong. His heart has picked the right girl and for that he was grateful. Bucky took one last look at the shining ring in his top drawer before shutting it and walking back to continue cuddling his precious sweetheart.

~~

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[ivoryratdoggerythethird]

I JUST WATCHED THE DANGANRONPA 2.5 OVA THINGY i’m going to explode this was sheer perfection except not really except yes actually it was

-> NAGITO-FUYUHIKO-SOUDA WAS THE BESTIE TRIO I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED TILL NOW

-> LMFAO WHAT THE HELL IS THIS MAKOTO IS SMOOTH

-> that pikachu girl’s hoodie!!!! kizakura!!!!!!!!

-> OMG SEIKOOOOO CHISAAAAAA and the rest of them too i guess. anyway

-> holy shit is that yasuke??? I SEE YA THERE BUD HI i haven;t read zero yet but you are very pretty i must say

-> lmfao indirect leon cameo

-> is this how ibuki starts them off everyday that’s so freaking cute i’m gonna cry

-> LOOK AT THEM THEY’RE SUPPORTING HIM I CAAAAAN’T

-> that speech tho nagito hell yeah find happiness it’s between hajime’s tiddi-

-> what the hell is this anti-nagito-mindset propaganda and why do i find it entertaining

-> woah ok komokomo gettin kinda close there bud, watch it, your bf’s alter ego’s in town and fuyuhiko’s wifey is right fucking there you boutta get slashed from a bush

-> “It’s who you are.” FUYUHIKO SIR ARE YOU AWARE THAT I WOULD DIE FOR YOU

-> MIKAN SWEETHEART OH GOD LMFAOOO NAGITO NOOOOOOO YOU POOR DUMBASS ILY 

-> ??? hiyoko protective bully moment????

-> KAMAKURA KAMAKURA YAS QUEEEEEN

-> SONIAAAAAAA SO CUTE SO PRECIOUS THAT LITTLE SELFIE WITH SOUDA AWWWWJWNHIOKEWSAJILE

-> pekopekopeko pls step on me queen 🙏

-> omfg he fking dead

-> we get fuyuhiko with a gun! pekopeko with a sword!!!

-> SONIA WITH A ROCKET LAUNCHER SONIA WITH A ROCKET LAUNCHER SONIA WITH A ROCKET LAUNCHER SONIA WITH A ROC- *dies*

-> wait what wait no izuru no no no bad izuru bad

-> i never wanted to see a dead fuyuhiko or sonia in my life help

-> alter ego izuru be nicer to your body’s previous host’s boyfriend will you

-> i already knew it was coming but that building collapse though lmao the screws were raining

-> WAIT WHY DID HE SHOOT HIMSELF HOW DID THAT BULLET EVEN COME BACK TO HIT HIM WHAT 

-> i know he’s not dead but what was the point of that?? the falling building would kill him anyway right??? was it for a quick death????? or am i just being stupid

-> the only one who’s never died in any telling of this cast that we’ve seen is akane and i feel like this is a sign to accept her as the strongest and most likely to be immortal person in this class imo

-> his hoodie’s back!!! 

-> aww there you are back to normal ily hope boy in this reality and that one

-> AWWW HAJIME’S THE ONE LEANING OVER HIM NOW this is so cute i cannot

-> the junko hand he got from claire’s-

-> YES THEY’RE ALL ALIVE AND WELL MY BABIES MY ANGELS

-> well except one of the best girls. rip chiaki we love and remember you legend

-> THAT HUUUUUUUUUUUG

-> yes take his hand oh my life my heart 😭😭

-> new hand!!!! hecc yeah

this was so nice i was honestly expecting to not like it but damn wow; fuyu-kazu-gito brotp will live in my heart rent free forever now

[userlaylivia]

Caroline Forbes,Landon Kirby,Diana Meade,Veronica Lodge and… drum rolls…Cassie Blake :D

ohhhh ily lol I did cassie already so I'll do the others <3

caroline:

first impression: I don't know if I like her she seems needy and a little bitchy and insecure idk

impression now: I love her so much she's my baby like how could I have ever not loved her period is beyond me!!

favorite moment: I have a lot but the one that comes to mind is when her mom finds out she's a vampire, the first time.

Idea for a story: I really don't have one except I wanted her, elena, and bonnie to go on a girl's trip!!

unpopular opinion: idk if if it's unpopular but I wasn't the biggest fan of the no humanity storyline like I love her but I got bored pretty fast same with elena the only one I really loved was hope lol

favorite relationship: stefan/caroline, tyler/caroline, caroline/elena, bonnie/caroline/elena

favorite headacanon: she and stefan find each other in the afterlife and live out the rest of their lives together like they should've alive. <3

landon

first impression: I really like him he's so shy and adorable god!!

impression now: THAT'S MY BABY ALWAYS AND FOREVER PROTECT HIM HE DESERVED BETTER!!!!!!!

favorite moment: 211 when he comes back to.life and he and hope hug in the bathtub <3

idea for a story: he, hope and Rafael get the f*ck away from everyone else and live happily ever after somewhere else!!

unpopular opinion: I don't really have one most of my opinions are popular lol

favorite relationship: hope/landon, landon/rafael

favorite headacanon: he gets out of limbo finally and he and hope leave mystic falls forever and spend the rest of their lives together!!

diana meade

first impression: oh I like her she's such a sweetheart and shelley!!!!

impression now: that's my baby nobody hurts her she needs protection at all cost!!

favorite moment: when she finds out cassie is her sister!!

idea for a story: I really wanted her to give into her dark magic and go evil for a bit lol

unpopular opinion: I thought there were times she was bitchy to cassie like in 108 and when she she found out they were sisters and I get it her whole world was turned upside down but cassie didn't deserve it lol

favorite relationship: diana/cassie, faye/diana, adam/diana

favorite headacanon: her and faye hey together after like 3-4 seasons because they would've gotten together lol

veronica

first impression: okay i love her so much the way she defended betty was everything to me!!

impression now: she's my baby the light of my life if you bash her or hurt her I hurt you okay??? she deserves only good things!!

favorite moment: when she and the pussycats kick Nick's ass in 2x05!!

idea for a story: I don't really have one atm except I want her and betty to stop fighting over archie lol

unpopular opinion: every opinion I have seems popular but yeah lol

favorite relationship: archie/veronica, betty/veronica, cheryl/veronica

favorite headacanon: she and betty finally being real best friends again and realize it's more important than a guy!!

[teresa-moyocoyotzin]

QOTS 5.09 “I Love You” Scenes Meta

MAJOR SPOILERS FOR 5.09 OF QUEEN OF THE SOUTH ABOUND

Okay this is basically just me trying to place James and Teresa’s ILY scenes within the larger context of their relationship and other kisses, and analyzing their respective reactions!

(Also just a disclaimer that obviously this is just one fan’s interpretation, there’s no right or wrong here! This is just how I see it and hopefully it’ll connect w some of y’alls insight too!)

Oh boy okay so I’m just gonna do this in the style of my old Bolivia visions meta b/c I think the best in bullet point form, so we’re just gonna go thru the scenes like super in depth, w/ way more detail than necessary. Think of it as a close reading, but instead of a piece of writing, it’s a tv show, and it has no sources except My Opinions lol

I’m still planning to actually write out my reactions to the whole episode when I re-watch it, but I can’t stop picking apart the I Love You scenes b/c honestly there’s so much going on there! Come on y’all this has been building since the second episode of this show there’s a lot to unpack here. I’m mostly focusing on how these kisses are vastly different from any of their other kisses IMO and how that affects the love confessions!

THIS IS GONNA BE UNNECESSARILY LONG AND NOT VERY ORGANIZED, BE WARNED

Let’s start when James says “You wouldn’t let me do it, so why should I let you?” shall we? B/c THIS MOMENT

SO as others have pointed out, this line really feels like a love confession in and of itself, and I’m sure if they hadn’t confessed their feelings in the same scene we would all be obsessing about it. I low-key am anyways..

Sure they’ve acknowledged that they do things to protect each other etc. etc. but this is really James making sure that she knows that he knows that SHE knows that they both feel the same way, and he’s not dancing around it anymore, not when she’s throwing herself into danger yet again. Teresa doesn’t have an answer, but it does make something click in her brain. No matter what moral code she’s following these days, if James was walking into a death trap like that she wouldn’t want him to go and would try to stop him. And right now, he’s feeling the same thing for her, he knows that she cares as much about him as he cares about her and that it’s a LOT, and he’s telling it straight to her face.

When she kisses him, I think it’s an acknowledgment of that, as well as her sort of trying to return the sentiment. And also, she doesn’t have a good answer to his question and wants to kiss him so she does!! James is clearly surprised by the kiss, as evident by his posture and slowly relaxing into the kiss. But THEN

After James’ brain catches up, he kisses her again, and even tho it’s short it looks to me like a pretty powerful, strong kiss!!?? (hard to tell b/c as usual…. they filmed it in a black hole..) and to me, it reads like he really let all his true feelings come through in that kiss POSSIBLY FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER

Now, lemme explain. Their first kiss in 3.05 was undeniably full of feelings and emotions, and I’m sure that night was super passionate and full of love! However, knowing what we know now about how everything plays out, I don’t think they were really at the point of saying ILY yet. Even if they did both love each other then, and I think they did, they had a lot of trust issues and abandonment issues to work through first. And as we all know, after that night everything goes to shit and they go about 12 steps backwards. My main point here is that I think both James and Teresa are still feeling generally unsure about each other’s feelings during their first kiss. This is also true for.. literally all of their kisses? Until now. Because in 3.09, they’re just super horny from taking over Phoenix but Teresa is just barely getting over Guero’s death in that episode.. I think that kiss was more about them feeling like the King and Queen of phoenix and less about their Actual Feelings (just imo obviously). And then they kiss after Teresa gets back form Bolivia but Teresa is suspecting him then and he’s certainly feeling her hesitation so no big feelings in that kiss either. Then of course there’s the goodbye kiss at the end of s3, and yes in that one I do think they were both letting their true feelings show in their kiss but they were both misinterpreting the other’s feelings and both were in a way lying to the other in that scene. James about his reason for leaving, and Teresa about her true reasons for wanting him to stay. And THEN, the kiss at the beginning of s5 is very much a “I’m happy you’re back, I want to be with you, but we can’t” kind of kiss, and again, there were feelings there but they were both still holding something back, and still not on the same page about what they wanted and were working towards. But in this kiss, they are on the same page , working toward the same thing, which is to get themselves OUT, together. Ever since they made that decision, there is an implicit agreement between them that they’re getting out together, and I think they both know that they want to be together if they make it out. And they both are desperate to have the other know their feelings before any potential deaths. However, they don’t really KNOW that they’re on the same page until that KISS.

SO ALL THIS TO SAY that in my eyes, the main reason Teresa’s so shocked is that this is the first time that James didn’t hold ANY of his love for her back when he kissed her, and she FELT IT babeyy. Teresa initiates this kiss to show him her true feelings, which takes him bit by surprise, but then he returns the feelings Full Force which takes Teresa totally by surprise.

I mean just look at her face after they part, before he says ILY. She looks shocked and confused, almost a little angry? I don’t think it’s really anger though, so much as it is being taken aback by the emotions that James is laying all out on the table for her to clearly see. Her face here is actually what drove me to write this meta, because at first I was so confused as to why she looked so shook up after the first kiss, cuz like girl U INITIATED IT?? I think part of it is that Teresa was a bit taken aback by the strength of her own feelings in that moments and the urge to kiss him despite them not being out of the business yet. She’s realized that if she’s gonna die tomorrow, she wants to kiss James first, and she wants that like, really bad. And also she loves him and was overcome w the urge to show him. But mainly, I really don’t think she expected to be met w/ such strong love from James’ kiss, because all the other times, he had been holding back his feelings.

James’ face after the kiss totally plays into this theory for me - he looks like he just got CAUGHT. She’s looking at him like what the Fuck was that!!! And he’s like oh SHit now I just gotta say it. The way he looks at her and shakes his head a little like, wow I’m really about to say it. I think it’s been on the tip of his tongue all episode, but he realized he just totally showed his hand with that kiss and there’s no going back now.

But omg you guys his face when he says it just SENDS ME TO THE FLOOR his little smile???? Like he’s thinking “how did we end up here? am I really about to tell Teresa I love her? YEP”

I don’t think she had any intention of telling him her feelings so outright yet, to me it totally makes sense that he tells her first. At the beginning of the season, Teresa made it clear that she does want to be with James, but she felt restricted by their life. So, James has spent the past season coming to terms with a) that Teresa still wants to be with him if they can get out of the business, b) that she’s changed a lot and no longer follows her old moral code, and c) that he still loves her even if she’s not entirely the same person he fell in love with originally.

Meanwhile Teresa came to terms w/ the fact that she wanted to be w/ him early in the season but pushed that Right down after indulging in 1 kiss (which I think was also meant to be a reassurance that she did want to be with him) but spent the rest of the season trying to grow her business, which in her mind would forever keep her from being able to be with James. So even if she acknowledged her feelings, she was not letting herself dwell on them. James, however… oh boy has he been dwelling. Especially since Dumas so kindly pointed his feelings out to him lol. So I think Teresa’s strong feelings for James have been building under the surface but she wasn’t allowing herself to acknowledge them at all, and therefore I think she kind of surprised herself a bit by kissing him, was then even more surprised by how strongly her feelings were showing, and then James hits her with a Big Feelings kiss and then an I Love You??? Oh boy

Taking this into account it totally makes sense that she looks super shocked after James tells her, even if they both have ~known~ for a long time. Y’know?

Okay so then there’s the sex scene which I LOVED omg, like absolutely zero complaints, super hot, exactly what they and we deserved. I’m not gonna get into it b/c I think it speaks for itself, but like, would happily read a meta about it if someone wrote it 👀

Anyways I think the morning after, when Teresa is laying in bed admiring James, is when Teresa is really digesting all of these feelings and the fact of them being out in the open, and she’s deciding that she needs to tell James she loves him, like ASAP. She is also at the same time having to accept that she’s going on a super dangerous mission today that she night not come back from, and if she does come back from it, they’re gonna have to still find a way Out. All in all, safe to say she’s got a lot going on in her mind, but it’s clear by her gazing at him that James is a big factor in all of it.

I love the next scene so much omg

They’ve gotten ready for the day and James is once again pulling tricks out of his bag to ensure her safety, and she’s just.. staring at him. My personal headcanon here is that Teresa’s intuition was telling her that a) the phonegun was gonna be irrelevant, and b) that she had about 30 seconds before her phone rang and she had to leave for potential death. Therefore it just blocked out literally everything but James and needing to tell him that she loved him. The moment I love the most is actually when James says “Here, try it” and he steps closer and she sort of jolts like they’re physically connected. The first time I saw the scene I literally gasped from that one step he takes because they just had this electric pull between them that was so obvious that I literally felt it. The chemistry!!!!

She’s just so focused on him in that moment and that whole scene, and the way she whispers “I love you” likes she just HAS to say it, she has to make sure he KNOWS she loves him before she runs off to risk her life. And the fact that it happens while James is actively trying to set her up for protection??? POETIC CINEMA I tell you. Kudos to Alice for that because apparently it was her idea and it’s my FAVE

Another thing that I really don’t know how to interpret but I find interesting from a cinematic point of view: James and Teresa are literally left in the dark during James’ love confession. It’s at night, and there is NO DAMN LIGHT AT ALL ON THEIR FACES (I bet the gif makers really appreciated that one huh…) so we can’t even see their reactions very well. Meanwhile, when Teresa confesses her feelings, it’s super brightly lit, in a white room, she’s wearing white, we can see all of the emotions on their faces. IDK what this is meant to symbolize exactly, so if anyone has thoughts PLEASE share them.

James seems a little in shock after, I think he really didn’t expect her to say it, even if he assumed she felt the same. And I think he was okay w/ that and had accepted it, knowing it would be really hard for her to say. After all, once she acknowledges it, it’s that much more painful if they have to say goodbye…

I think the way she says it perfectly captures how hard it is for her to get the words out, even if she feels an overwhelming urge to say them and make sure he knows. She seems very sure of her feelings, and I don’t think she hesitated to tell him at all, but it’s still a big step, and presumably the last person she said ILY to, in this context, was Guero. And his death destroyed her, so ofc she’s be scared to admit that she’s in love and put herself at the risk of losing it again. God Alice did such a good job w/ that line it really gets me every time. So sure, and soft, but with no room for doubt. Like she knows he doesn’t expect her to say it, but she can’t bear to let him think she doesn’t love him back. And it’s so simple too, like she’s saying “of COURSE I love you, how could you think I don’t?” AHHHH

And just the way she stares at him the whole time like she’s just waiting for him to stop talking so she can say it, and while she waits she’s perfectly happy to ignore the situation at hand and think about how she loves him and he loves her and also probably how good he FUCKS cuz like……………y’all saw his hand goin’ down there after he flips her over right 👀 okay ANYWAYS

So she finally tells him!!!!!! That she loves him!!! And kisses him!! Just to really drive the point home. And because, again, I think something was telling Teresa to kiss her man and tell him she loves him because she was about to get a call from Kostya’s men any second.

I really think James’ sort of blank look after she tells him is just him being in shock that she actually said it. I would have loved to know what he would have said after that, but alas.

That final shot before the phone rings though ❤️ their foreheads together, her hand on his heart and his hand on her hand, also the way that visually her arm (clothed in white) is across his body (clothed in black/gray) and vice versa w/ his arm is across her body, sort of continuing the sort of yin-yang theme they have going this season, I just think is a cool touch on the behalf of whoever choreographed/directed the scene.

I also interpret it as a very grounding moment for both of them, rooted in physical touch but not sexual in any way, just comforting. They finally can completely take comfort in each other because their feelings are out in the open and they’re completely connected. AGH they really have me in a chokehold lol

Anyways this is so fucking long and rambly, I don’t know if it makes sense but I did my best to proofread, I’m so sorry but thank you for reading if you’ve made it all the way here, or like even if you made it thru 1/16 of it lol I APPRECIATE YOU

I’m not sure what the main point is here, but anyways I think the actors, writers, directors, etc. did an amazing job w/ their I Love You scenes and I’m personally feeling v satisfied w/ it!