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spearxwind · 5 months ago

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Happy 10th birthday to Cercerion!

OUGHHH UR RIGHT CERCIE IS 10 YEARS OLD NOW !!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BOY BELOVEDEST DID NOTHING WRONG EVER IN HIS WHOLE LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#ALSO IM RLY HAPPY HIS OLD DESIGN IS NOW MUCH OLDER THAN HIS FIRST DESIGN WOAH!!!!!!#since i drew the old one SO MUCH back in 2014 i remembered it as being so super prevalent. that when i changed his head shape a couple year #it took a while to get used to the not boxy head but god it was so much more fun to draw the beak. and now its the standard #and it makes me rly happy fr fr. i actually thought i changed his design like only 2 years ago but it was SIX YEARS WHAT!! HOW TIME FLIES..#ask #cercerion #SORRY I JJST WANTED TO REPOST ALL OF THESE #omg dude this also means u and i have known each other for 10 years thats CRAZY #this photoset is so funny its like he went from being :D to being >:U over the years but i assure you now hes more chill than before #HIS COLORS HAVE NOT CHANGED FOR EIGHT YEARS ALSO WHATTTTT i just chose the perfect hues forever #sobbing and crying i love this guy so much #i dont show him online a lot or at least i didnt as muhc until recently but hes always in my brain #cercerion may as well be a part of my soul at this point #HAPPYU TENTH BIRTHDAY CERCIE I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BLOWING KISSES INTO A HURRICANE FOR U #windyart #sure ill put it in my tag. this is literally my art

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laqueus · 5 months ago

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i'm rewatching tron uprising again for the first time in a while and I'd forgotten just how... graphic??? some of the violence is

holes punched in chests (multiple occasions)! a bisected guard dragging themself across the floor & trailing digital gore! a (failed) public execution where the prisioners are being pulled apart by lightcycles! dyson's caved-in skull! tron's entire fucking torture scene that was genuinely harrowing to watch! let's carve out his eye! let's carve out tron's fucking eye!

#n0t seri0us #Tron: Uprising #Tron Uprising #ngl I'm having a great time #and I will be forever sad that it got cancelled #u will always live in my heart tron uprising #also I keep referring to tron as 'chronic illness tron' because I was watching him go on his excursion in 'identity' and was like #'i bet he's going to have to rest up for a few days after this'#and then realised he & I were basically having the chronic illness/fatigue experience together LOL #so now whenever he's doing something major I'm internally like 'he's going to be paying for that later :( '#chronic illness tron my beloved #also i still have love for renepaige stored within me like a fine fine wine that's been expertly aged #this is my path & you cannot stop me from loving them

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oonessawness · 6 months ago

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Some art of Regalrains Ivyiplier!! I think hes so so pretty and the idea makes me giddy cause i loveeee poison Ivy ^_^

[ @regalrain ]

#regalrain #for regal #^0^ been forever since ive been drawing consistenly and without fail mark/mark adjacent art always gets me doodlin #im redrawing some of the old drawings from this blog too like the darkiplier one :] i hope theyyyy come out good!#as always rbs and comments appreciated #and requests r semi open! ill get to what i can whenever ♡ and ill go thru some of the old inbox ones!#love u alllll #art #my art #ivyplier #seraph scribbles #annus.img #fan ego #??? idk how i should tag this but i heart regalrain #sorry if the weight of the sweater doesnt look fantastic wah wah #had to add the bracket tags bc it wouldnt let me in the main text >:[

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icewindandboringhorror · 3 months ago

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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting #with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though #you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would #think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page #disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol #THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended #(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever #so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with #no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know #EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably #It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end #point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc #I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc #rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is #not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school #but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia #and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like #the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot #or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are #familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them #Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol

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sickficideas · 1 year ago

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poor aku is not feeling good :(

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 6 months ago

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anyway!!! everything sucks forever I am going to start making my pd character playlists

#ive got so many songs written down in random places i think its time 4 me to finally compile them together.#gonna do what i did for my trigun ones and make little playlist covers. but not take them as seriously as i did for trigun #just like. nice little simple ones. hopefully #blahblahblah #will probably make posts abt my progrss. and bother my friends wirh song choices #but like. always open to recs. send me music in my inbox ill love u forever #logically in my mind i KNOW its like “oh im feeling awful time to die” which means i will get my period in like. the next handful of days #but knowing this information does not make the wanting to die misery any easier to deal with !!!!!!!! motherfucker !!!!!!!!!!#i have been uselessly laying around on the couch/in bed since i got home from work. fuck

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tytonnidaie · 7 months ago

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i love to read meta of knives as an abuser and nod my head thoughtfully at all great points and then once the post ends i go back to considering him as my darling son who never did anything wrong ever

#let him out your honour yeah he did it all but i dont care #he had some points #so what he and his twin brother fell into and perpetuated the cycle of abuse that hurts each other #they broke out of it at the end. that has to count #“we cant go back. we cant be those brothers again. so ill kill you if you kill me. why didnt you kill me. WHY DID YOU SAVE ME”#and then at the end he did the thing vash tried to save him from anyway (disappearing forever and ever and ever and ever and )#sorry. lots of thoughts abt these tragic siblings #forever thinking about how vash threw the first stone between them #like that fuckssssss me up #i know tristamp changed that #but to me its always. knives loving him thru violence bc its the only way that makes sense. only for vash to use it on him #so of course knives lashed out. imagine realising the thing u use to protect ur brother can hurt you back just as bad #imagine killing a town of people that hurt your brother only for him to shoot you #and then you cut his arm off #not taking any critique at this time. im fully aware of the text. im just choosing to love him anyway :)#this is also why i find swap fic sooooo compelling. where vash is the dangerous one and knives is his victim #oooo u are two sides of the same coin. you could have been each other if only a few things went differently #but you could never be The Same

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gentlewreath · 10 months ago

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The first flowers I took pictures of last spring!!

#siberian squill i love u always & forever #mine #nature #plants #leaves #flowers #green #blue #purple #white #siberian squill #dont have the energy or momentum to look up flowers idk right now if i want to keep adding to the queue #but hopefully ill have energy to add them later on

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phagodyke · 6 months ago

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was gonna say smth else but this turned into a vent sorry everyone just ignore. typical weekend post on this blog u know how it is here we go👍

#wild ik so many ppl getting married meanwhile im over here struggling to convince myself my friends even care abt me or want me around #pathetic to admit but i cant even fantasise abt someone loving me bc im too insecure n emotionally unstable #my mind just shoots the idea down like whoa. unrealistic. ur incapable of expressing or receiving affection in any way that matters #no matter how badly u want to... and even if someone did well u wouldnt believe them most of the time #gotta get out of the fucking labyrinth first i couldnt inflict this shit on anyone i cared abt #but it makes me so desperately sad sometimes i dont know how im ever going to get out of this ive been trying for years and years #and im a little better at it snd i dont feel like this all of the time i know it just comes around and itll pass again #but im tired of being in so much emotional pain so frequently. and shouldering it so alone. theres such a disconnect between myself and #others and i dont know how to bridge that i don't know how to stop feeling so isolated and unwanted !!!!!! im trying so hard #it doesnt even bother me w relative strangers in my life like i dont get insecure at all around them i like meeting new ppl #bc theres like. no expectations i guess. like ik they dont care abt me personally and idk them well enough to do that either #and its fun but it doesnt satisfy needs that i have like i need to feel close + connected to ppl i need to care abt them + feel cared for #but as soon as i do start to care abt ppl it gets all tangled and i end up getting rly badly hurt over and over. thru no fault but my own #bc im constantly alienating myself and bc i struggle so much w shit like physical affection which is frustratingly rly critical for me!!!!#it wouldnt fucking matter if i didnt like or want affection ik some ppl are fine without i wish it worked like that for me #but nope instead i have to be constantly messed up over my complete fucking inability to express myself in any form #and ik it makes everyone around me so uncomfortable so it just becomes self reinforcing and eventually they drift and leave me behind #and i just do that over and over and over and every time ill tell myself ill do better ill try harder and itll get easier and someone will #and it happens again and right now im at the stage where the abandonment fear is starting to kick in which is awful n paralysing #and usually a precursor to actually being abandoned ehich is always my own fault bc i start behaving so erratically out of fear or defense #its self fulfilling and im trying. im trying so hard not to let it overwhelm me again and not to start acting out and freaking ppl out #and im coping with it okay i think but just hurts me a lot its all internal my rejection sensitivity is gradually ticking up and up #and argh!!!!!!!!! and some days im okay and some days its like this and i dont know what todo when its like this im so tired and in pain #its not even that bad today tbf. once im done typing this to get it out ill be able to do smth else and distract mysrlf for a bit #and then calling friends later too so exposure therapy innit. but itll be fun and i love them but i will probably also feel very bad after #or even possibly during but thats okay ill still manage fine im not going to let it interfere i dont want it controlling my fucking life #i am going to have a nice time and be okay despite it all. even if i do have to fucking battle this every day forever #and even if it stops me living my life to the extent i want and feeling as ok as i want i just have to come to terms with and be ok w it #and im not going to be!!! a fucking asshole abt it!!! i dont want to hurt anyone else thats the most important thing no matter how i feel #thr rest is all secondary and ik i cant help a few little bumps here and there but trying hardest to keep it separate its not negotiable

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kissingarthurclaus · 1 year ago

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Well it's official rex still makes me blush and giggle and twirl my hair like always

#jane journals #self insert talk #💙 oh captain my captain 💙#i was talking to a friend jude #i put way too much fucking thought and time and LOVE into rex ad my s/i to ever give this up #they are a PART of me #part of who i am and how i define my self shipping #goddd i feel like theres still so much to say but im kinda sillay rn ill say it later but ougghh REX 🥺🥺💘💘#he seemsto be a less popular f/o of mine but idc #hes my biggest f/o forever and ever my husband #my stars and moon #if u all only knew the half of whats in my mind!!#if i could write brea into the fucking series youd all see #youd laugh and CRY but its all up to me which sucks #but whatever im doing my best #i am and will always be my url bye bye

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 10 months ago

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rewatching some disco elysium scenes and thinking abt geto …… the conversation w dora at the end reminds me of him so bad for some reason :// just . him and a reader who moves on…. while he clings to the past…….. sigh sigh sigh

#the atoms don’t form us anymore….. our unborn daughters……. yeahhhhhh 😔😔 that’s just the way it is.#also a later quote that makes me fucking insane;#”in conclusion — you’re ill. you’re an old insane man. and you have to be in hell until the end of your life.”#HHHHHHHHH #geto WOULD dream abt reader….. about a reconciliation that never comes…..#he would dream abt them condemning him and he would wake up with a dry throat and glassy eyes. and a sick satisfaction in his gut…….#he’s so fucking harrycoded it makes me feel ill .#also this conversation will ALWAYS knock me out cold like woww wow disco elysium my beloved my beautiful gem of inspo i will love u forever #ari noises ✩

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collectivecloseness · 11 months ago

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I’m still not feeling 100% unfortunately, but my brain is absolutely swimming with the want to write, I just think full fledged fics are off the table for another day or two because wow I am not doing well

But I would really really love to hear your guys thoughts/hc’s on yandere!characters/polys and chat about them!

Please feel free to send in any of your thoughts on any character/poly/scenario with (eg, yandere Eddie, yan fruity four, yan steddie etc) and I will write and write about how brilliant and correct you are but also how that could all go down and what that could look like and potential worldbuilding and etc etc etc 👀

#I’m hoping to feel well soon but I need to hear ur thots™️ on yandere charas and spend my time #just absolutely delving into your asks and talking about yes u r so right yan Robin absolutely would #cry after kissing u the first time and here’s exactly how it would go before during and every time she kisses u after let’s expand on ur #thought forever thanks here’s every hc ever abt that <333 #or like the multi posts au’s eg abt Nancy knocking reader out/birth ctrl stuff #like au worldbuilding among different asks/all of us I love those types of posts so much <33 #like they can be sweet or V angsty or citrussy or just thought experiments but I would love to hear some of your guys thoughts/imagines 👀💕#like esp any imagine scenarios bc holy FUCK y’all actually make my heart drop to my stomach with those (/pos)#it can literally be any thought ever abt them but I will love u forever I am in dire need to give them some love 😭💔#cc chats #yandere fruity four #yandere Eddie munson #yandere steve harrington #yandere Robin Buckley #yandere Nancy Wheeler #also as soon as I’m well I wanna write a yan f4 fic I am in need to do so </33 #but ofc ur always welcome to send me any chats abt anything <3 #forgive my ill ramblings also lmfao 😭 ily all

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sunhalf · 2 years ago

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made some very minor rules updates! the main one :

i won’t fill out interest checkers or send in rules passwords; it just feels quite formal for what is, to me, a very casual hobby! if we’re mutuals, I WANT TO WRITE WITH YOU — & as king of pulling AUs out of thin air, there’s almost never a time where i can’t or won’t write with a particular muse. just assume i’m up for anything & i’ll communicate my boundaries if they come up!

i totally understand the appeal and, especially for folks who can be anxious about approaching others, the comfort of having it in writing that a mutual wants to write before reaching out, but — well, if i didn't want to write with you, i wouldn't be following!! please assume me following is me jumping up and down with glee at the prospect of writing with you. my rules specifically beg mutuals to send me unprompted asks / starters / etc., and that applies to all of you and all your muses! i don't need to know a ton about your muse / their fandom / their world etc to party hard, and some of my favourite dynamics have come about from somebody just chucking a starter at me and being like 'x and y are friends now and here's the starter to prove it.' i am always down, and trust me when i say that if there was a muse on your blog i simply Could Not Stand To See Or Write With the chances of me following you in the first place are ~ 1%

#anyway i love being loosey goosey w all things rp. plot. characterization. shipping! its all for fun #TBH while total strangers should run romantic shipping by me before jumping in if we've chatted at all #and u wanna throw me a starter that assumes our muses have been besties for 6 years / are exes / once killed a guy together #party hard. go crazy. i think its fun!!!#and if we're friends just straight up forceship w me i dont care GHKFLDSHGDHKSHKFDHKS #write me a starter that begins 'after 6 months of flirting' ill get w the program #its all just a good time babyyyyyyyyy #bringing it back 2 the actual rules update djslghfksgdf sorry i got off track #its 100% fine also if this feels untenable 2 u!!! if that rule makes u uncomfy (or any of my rules do!) that is so so so fine #neither of us are jerks we just have different ways of approaching rp and that is a-okay!!! i wish u so much luck and joy #and i also wish myself those things!#mutual checkers sorta remind me of the uh....what were they called. the like forever starter calls?#'like this if i can always send u memes/write u starters'#cos i was just like 'is that not what being mutuals means'

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archangel-aya · 2 years ago

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somebody with a lot of hatred in their heart who will manipulate me into hurting myself badly, pls hmu /srs /srs /srs /srs

#i cant do it on my own i need someone to make me do it #i love um #u know kinds of thinspo #i always reacted best to the ones that are gentle and caring sounding #i want _____ to tell me shell love me forever if i break bones for her and that ill be so so pretty if i cut and manage to hit a vein

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gay-mooshrooms · 21 days ago

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aUgh 😭

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You are very easy to love, actually. Just so you know.

#ill love u always dear . just fyi 🫂#<- always and FOREVER darling 🫂🫂🫂🫂

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coridallasmultipass · 14 hours ago

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#im losing my mind this drawing is ...#i love it man #i m gonna scream its exactly what i wanted to draw #im not even done w the lines yet #im gonna have to take a break for the night but damn im glad i had this idea #ill probably need to colour it at some point but fuck. the concept. its so. perfect.#weird and funny and scary and most importantly HOT #im really turning up the heat with this one guys #even the composition came out SPOT ON FOR WHAT I WANTED HSHSOWHSKS GUYS IM LOSING MY SHIT #holy fuck man dhiswhjsksd #this is THE art ive ever made #nothing else ive done matters #i was 100% serious when i said the metal bds// m song was broc// al to me #u can see it in the way im drawing this #this drawing was in my heart all along. its always been in there. bound and mouthless.#i dont know if ill ever be able to depict something so earnestly again in my life. its almost ironic that it happens to be this content.#i normally feel like 'oh my Bro is a lil ooc idc' not this one. not this one at all.#(im 100% leaving the piercings on too)#but the activity? lord im gonna fucking scream its perfect #i can even point to canon for the receipts #guys im procrastinating closing the window bc i just want to remember this moment forever #fuck . okay fuck sleep im gonna draw a lil more #i cant resist #delete later / /#i just really wanna scream ab this and i cant bc its not done yet

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