#ill just bother u on discord

[utsuboh]

@rosehearrt asked: ⌨️ YES

wow where do i even start lol, we’ve got so much plotted out for these two. i mean, we know jade’s always had some respect for riddle as a classmate. he’s efficient and hard working when it comes to his schoolwork. but outside of class is another story. at first jade saw riddle as a target for his brother’s boredom. yes, he stepped in when it was necessary, but otherwise jade kept to himself and enjoyed the show.

i think you put it pretty well tbh, they are the slowest slow burn out there. jade finds his own amusement in riddles company, and riddle sees through jades antics impeccably well. its a decent start, there's no outward manipulation on jades part, so he has to be at least somewhat genuine with his classmate from the get go. i think his interest changed after jade did his own digging. and began working more and more alongside riddle for assignments.

riddle has an unpredictability thats very.......unique to him. it's very hard for jade to tell how intensely he's going to react to something. not until much much much later. and even then there are times riddle throws him for a loop. sometimes he's fine and acts very mildly, other times he has a melt down. on the other end, riddle learns more and more about jade. that there's a lot more to him than what riddle assumes.

i like to think jade still makes jabs at him, but affectionately so. he knows when it's too much. knows the lines he cannot cross, but skirts very close to them. it was probably annoying at first, but the closer they get-- the more riddle just accepts it's a part of jade's character. and realizing his teasing is coming from a more positive place than he thought- doesn't mind it so much.

this is gonna get really long if i throw everything i have down here on one post. but i've really come to enjoy their dynamic so much. it's like, organized chaos. they find a perfect balance between them, and manage to maintain it well. of course jade pushes it sometimes, sees how far he's allowed to go. and steps back when riddle puts his foot down. pushing just a little further each time. which actually does wonders to improve riddle's patience.......inch by inch.

so despite it being jade, despite what i've said about jade being really manipulative and flighty. this is one of those cases where jade actually does some genuine good for someone by being himself.

[python333]

HAI! i rlly like your platonic 141 fics and I'm wondering if we could get some more dad price and/or brother gaz sleepy cuddles? :3

stretched too thin — python333

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synopsis gaz notices you overworking yourself one night and decides to step in before you end up pulling an all-nighter.

relationships platonic!gaz & gn!reader.

characters gaz.

word count 2.05k

warnings 2nd person pov [you/yours/yourself], usage of pet names [love, darling], usage of c/n [code name/call sign].

note oh my god im so sorry i disappeared for like. a month. ill try my best to not be gone for more than a week at a time, but with all of my schoolwork and just over all stress ive been experiencing lately, i dont know if ill be able to get fics out every week :< ill try my best though! please accept this fic as an apology—its another big bro gaz one!! special shoutout to everyone else who has an older sibling thats very distant with them, you and me are in the same boat fr!! also, last thing—im thinking about making a discord server where i announce when fics are being written and published and stuff, but i dunno if yall would join or anything, so if u would pls lmk!!

You haven’t left your office in five hours. 

Recently—just about two days ago—you finished up an assignment fairly quickly and, as a result, had to write a detailed report of said assignment. It went over the mission you’d gone on, and listed off every major detail you could think of, though because you just can’t give yourself a break you were constantly thinking of other details you might’ve missed even though there was little chance you’d missed anything.

The mission wasn’t anything too important, honestly. It was originally going to be a week-long camp-out reconnaissance by an enemy task force’s base, obtaining information on their schedule and what they did throughout the day and whatnot. However, only a day into the mission, the small squad of soldiers that had accompanied you saw another small military group observing the same group you’d been observing.

So, naturally, you observed them as well. Aren’t you just the best multi-tasker?

The task force eventually found out about the other group, just a day later, while your squad was still in the clear to continue your observations. So, your mission had quickly come to a close—but, because of the circumstances under which the mission had come to a close, you were required to write an extremely detailed report on the other group and the group you’d been observing.

It would be an understatement to say you were tired. You’re exhausted.

Between the non-stop writing, the coffee sitting on your desk that’s been microwaved five times and has been refilled thrice, and the uncomfortable chair you’ve sat in that you have yet to replace, you’re extremely exhausted. Your movements are sluggish, your fingers aren’t as swift on the keyboard of your computer as they usually are, and worst of all—you still have more to write. 

Your eyes stung and felt dry, your hands felt like they were going to stop working completely at any moment, and you were overall just exhausted. 

You look over at the clock on your desk, and it reads 02:28 AM, indicating that you would only have about four hours to sleep if you went to bed now. I’m too far into this report to stop now, You tell yourself, sighing as you blink slowly at your computer screen, If only my vision didn’t keep getting blurry… 

Suddenly, you hear a knock at the door. Your eyebrows furrow together in confusion, and for a second you think you’re hallucinating until the knock sounds once more. 

Reluctantly, with a voice raspy from not using it almost all day, you call out, “Come in!” 

Your voice is softer and quieter than you’d like it to be, but it doesn’t matter too much to you at this moment—at least, not in your foggy mind that still begs you for sleep, even when you have far more of your report to finish. 

The door opens with a creak, and in walks Gaz. 

“Sarg,” He greets you, not bothering to close the door behind him as he walks up to your desk, “Pleasure to see you for the first time in, what… three days?” 

“Two days and eighteen hours,” You correct him, taking a moment to crack your stiff knuckles, not taking your eyes off of your monitor, “And you know you don’t have to call me ‘sarg’ or ‘sergeant’ or anything. We’re the same rank.” 

Gaz promptly ignores you, “Right, well, anything over a day is way too long for me to go without seeing you. Why’re you all cooped up in here on your computer?”

“‘Cause I need to write a report on my assignment,” You briefly explain, before lightly goading Gaz, “Not all of us need a shit ton of attention every day like you do.” 

“Ehh,” Gaz theatrically makes a thinking face, before shrugging, “Not sure what you mean by ‘us’, but alright.” 

“By ‘us’, I mean everyone but you.” 

“Surely that doesn’t include you, right?” 

“It does.” 

Gaz gasps quietly at your reply, before dramatically responding, “Oh, you can’t be serious.”

“I absolutely can,” You hum, finally taking your eyes off of your computer screen to look up at Gaz, “Is it so hard for you to believe that I don’t need to talk to you every waking hour?” 

“It is, actually,” Gaz scoffs, “Because I know that you do need to talk to me every waking hour.” 

“Uh, no I don’t,” You childishly argue, raising an eyebrow at Gaz.

“Uh, yes you do,” Gaz immaturely argues back, crossing his arms, “Look me in the eyes and tell me that the past two days and eighteen hours haven’t been shit because I haven’t given you any attention.”

You open your mouth to form a response but quickly close it, realizing that yeah, actually, I kind of do crave his attention. 

Fuck.

“You’re not the only person that gives me attention,” You point out, hoping to find some way to change the subject.

“Sure, but you like the attention I give you the most,” Gaz hums, leaning forward to rest his crossed arms on your desk opposite of where you sit.

“You don’t know that.”

“Then tell me that I’m wrong,” Gaz challenges you.

You narrow your eyes at him, glaring at him for a moment before sighing, “You suck.”

“Maybe I suck, but you look like you haven’t slept for the past week,” Gaz points out, “You look exhausted, by the way. And dehydrated. Actually, you just look like the human embodiment of a headache.” 

“What the fuck?” 

“I mean that in the most loving, non-offensive way possible.”

“You come into my office, accuse me of needing attention from you, then you insult me by calling me the human version of a headache?”

“It wasn’t an insult!” Gaz raises his hands in surrender, before sighing, “I’m being serious. You look dead, [c/n]. You need sleep.” 

“What I need is to finish this report,” You huff out, beginning to turn your attention back to your computer, before Gaz’s hand is quickly placed on your chin and forces you to look back at him. 

“No, what you need is some rest,” Gaz argues, more serious this time, taking his hand off of your chin—something you shouldn’t miss nearly as much as you do, the warmth of his hand fading far too quickly from your face—and bringing it back to rest on the desk. 

“Maybe you need rest, Gaz.”

“Sure I do,” He shrugs, “But I’m only going to sleep if you do.” 

You raise an eyebrow at him, “Really? You’re pulling that card?”

“I am.” 

You stare at him for a moment, mentally weighing your options, before sighing and bringing your elbows up to the table so that you can place your forehead in your hands.

On one hand, if you stay in your office you can finish up your report before four and then go to sleep, and hope that you magically feel active even with just an hour or two of sleep in the morning. On the other hand, if you go to sleep now, so does Gaz, and then you both get more than just two hours of sleep. 

After another moment of consideration, you huff out a frustrated breath and mutter, “Fine.” 

Gaz smiles down at you and walks around your desk to your side of it, holding out a hand for you to grab to help yourself up from your chair and using his free hand to save your report and power off your monitor. 

You take his hand and stand up, your legs a little weak and balance iffy from sitting down for so long, but within the next few minutes you’re sure you’ll be able to properly walk. You let go of his hand once you’re positive you won’t fall over, and once he sees that you’re able to walk, Gaz silently walks towards the door of your office. Just as quietly, you follow him. 

He turns off the lights for you and lets you walk out of the office first, locking the door from the inside and closing it once you’re out. Once he’s done, he takes the lead again and you follow him down to his sleeping quarters. It’s not too long of a walk there, only two minutes at most.

Once you’re there, Gaz opens the door and lets you walk in first. Once you’re inside and Gaz has closed the door, you shrug off your camouflage patterned jacket and toe off your already loosened tan boots, leaving you in just your camouflage cargo pants and army green undershirt.

You look down at your pants with a frown, knowing from experience that sleeping in them was incredibly uncomfortable and left you regretting your whole existence the morning after, but before you could even look over at Gaz to tell him of your situation, you felt something being thrown at you. 

You immediately turn your attention to the item that had been hurled at you—the item in question being a pair of gray sweatpants, some that would probably be a little bit looser than you’d prefer on your figure—and then look over at Gaz with a questioning look. 

“Figured you wouldn’t wanna sleep in that,” Gaz shrugs, nodding to your cargo pants in response to your nonverbal confusion. 

You hum in appreciation, not wanting to talk too much at the moment, instead waiting for Gaz to look away before slipping off your pants and replacing them with the sweatpants Gaz had thrown at you. The fit isn’t as uncomfortable as you thought they’d be—they’re loose and hang low on your hips, just like you thought they would, of course, but they don’t feel nearly as weird as you thought they would.

Once you’ve tightened the strings on the waist of the pants, you get into Gaz’s bed, pulling the covers up and over yourself. Gaz quickly settles into the bed next to you, quickly getting himself comfortable under the sheets, and pulling the covers up and over his shoulders in one swift movement.

He gets closer to you, so close that his chest presses against your back and you can feel the tip of his nose ghosting over the top of your head. He wraps one arm over your body to pull you impossibly closer to him, and his other arm snakes underneath the side of your body so that both of his arms are wrapped around you.

He hums contently and his thumb rubs small circles into your clothed stomach, the action—despite being small—causing your stomach to warm up almost immediately. 

“Comfortable, darling?” Gaz asks quietly, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head. 

“Very,” You mumble back, trying to subtly lean your head back against Gaz in hopes of getting at least one more kiss. Noticing your efforts, he huffs out a small laugh and presses another gentle kiss right at the edge of your hairline before pressing one last one to your forehead. 

Even with the comforting atmosphere, you can’t find it within yourself to fully relax, your body still tense and stiff underneath the blanket. Gaz, just like he did with your “subtle” movements, notices and frowns. 

“Just sleep,” Gaz tiredly mumbles into the top of your head, “You have to get up in three hours. The sooner you sleep, the more sleep you get.” 

You don’t respond, instead simply sighing and forcing your eyes closed. You do have to admit, it’s nice being able to actually close your eyes for something other than blinking, and closing your eyes for longer than half a second has made you realize that they were even drier than you thought they were. 

Exhausted and ready to finally sleep, you eventually get to a point where you no longer need to force your eyes shut, and as a result, your whole body relaxes for the first time in almost six hours. 

“G’night, love,” Gaz murmurs, feeling your body relax next to his. You hum in acknowledgment of his words, not finding the energy within yourself to properly respond, instead finding yourself drifting off into a deep sleep. 

And if four hours later, Gaz wakes up and simply lies there, not waking you and instead letting you get some more sleep despite you having to be up soon, nobody has to know.

[salted-caramel-tea]

What are your thoughts about?

I was gonna try and collect my thoughts coherently before I started talking bu ti cant be bothered doing that so like. about the dream and that one circle of mcyt that just fucking hate them .

actually this is about how I have felt observing the dream space recently.

im uncomfortable?? not with the dream team, I still really love them and I enjoy their content and I do still watch sap naps streams if im awake for them but honestly taking time just to spend time on my f1 blog has been like a weight lifted from my shoulders.

just talking about dtblr, ive seen people trying to make the best of the situation by live-blogging sapnaps streams making jokes spreading positivity for all 3 of them but it doesn't really of much to take away from the pressure of the situation. Every day it seems like some cc somewhere has something to say about dream or George or sapnap and every day we rush over here to discuss it. it almost feels like theres this pressure to perform and to respond to what is being said, we need to discuss everything as a controversy no matter how stupid or insignificant the situation is and we contribute to the snowballing of tiny things that honestly dont need the attention the theyre getting and its tiring to watch. like im at the point where im scrolling past 'did you see what x said' because honestly I dont give a shit I dont give a shit about a cc who spoke to the dteam on discord maybe twice talking about their 'truth' I really dont care .

im genuinely just fed up with the way the creator space and fan spaces behave. Dream posts 'pls talk to me' and creators say 'but that won't get me clout' back to him.

who gives a shit if dreams stole punz girlfriend. who cares if dream sent a dm that might have been considered rude to Sara Simons a fully grown ducking middle aged woman with better things to do than start twitter drama. who gives a shit about sniff having one insignificant negative interaction with dream over a year. none f this is your fucking turret its just airing out high school level petty drama that could easily be fixed with a fucking dm . its pathetic. the way so many creators are going 'I too am a victim' and its 'he sent me a private message I didnt like' who fucking cares. and all of this 'ill stream explaining my story' what story. that he made a joke in bad taste. its performative. they want views they want twitters support they want to seem like theyre on the RIGHT side so theyre just pulling any old story out of their ass to add to the mentality of the mob and make it seem like yes I too hate dream because he is so awful when in reality he was probably just a bit of a twat like a lot of guys in their early 20s are . the only way hes gonna know that he did something that made u annoyed or upset or even mildly fucking miffed in the case of Sara fucking Simons is if you tell him. and we saw that bc 5 mins later shes saying oh its all fine he messaged me . see how fucking easy it is to actually fix these tiny ass issues if you actually have a conversation before launching a hate campaign on twitter dot com . and people going off to run with it and add it to the pile of 'poof' they have. hell ive seen someone saying they appreciate dream saying they want to talk about situations and saying they want to chat with him about an experience they had with one of his friends like what does that have to do with dream actually why not just take the initiative and talk to the actual person involved instead of making dream do it for u. its all just drama mongering

on a more serious note I really dont know how to feel with the whole situation with caiti. George didi fuck up and im not moving from that stance- whatever happened he made her feel uncomfortable and went on the defence instead of prioritising apologising to her for the way she felt about the situation.

what I cat fucking stand is how weirdly this situation has evolved. the initial statement was that he had touched her waist and tickled her and cat didnt like that. THAT CONTACT the touching of her waist was spread across twitter as a sexual assault. which its fucking not and it pisses me off as a victim to see how loosely terms of sex crime are being thrown around bc no matter how uncomfy you are touching your waist is not a sex crime. there was no mention of inappropriate touching actually, just that he had crossed a physical boundary with her and ive already talked about why I can empathise with that delayed reaction in feeling deeply uncomfortable with the situation . so it confused me as to why people on tiktok were spreading misinformation that his hands were down her pants and cat coming out of left field with he was grabbing my tits. because none of that was ever discussed in any of her prior statement and that seems like pertinent information when were discussing sexual assault. and from what ive seen her friends timeline of events dont match up with hers. her timeline of events onset even match up that well with her other comments on the situation and all of it just feels so fucking odd. why do the details change depending on who you ask and when you ask them

but I wasn't there. I dont know what actually happened. having experienced it you automatically hold that understanding towards her despite all the backlash because people blamed me too, they didnt believe me either and you never want to completely dismiss it no matter how weird the story seems because what if. keeping myself in the situation is stretching myself in two different directions where one is dismissing the claims of assault because nothing adds up and the other is she might be like me .

the reaction to caitis initial statement has snowballed extremely out of proportion if u ask me. nobody needs to know everyones personal grievances with dream or George or sapnap and to say that youre sharing these to support victims is a straight lie bc it has nothing to do with victims they receive nothing from your story that he made a bad joke 3 years ago or whatever and everything to do with the fact that you are utilising an opportunity to gain relevancy again and I dont want to partake in their relevancy.

I dont want to partake in any of this fucking drama actually. it's non stop. it's constant. its all over my dash all day every day but maybe its just the ppl im following idc. but I dont want to come back into a community where im going to find myself fighting to justify why I still enjoy the content of some creators while there are other creators receiving less vitriol for breaking the literal fucking law . its exhausting . its been years of it for me .

im not mentally well. I have a lot going on in my family life and I didnt realise how bad things were until I told my work friend I hadn't seen in a while my 'family drama' and she and the assistant manager pulled me aside and said 'im so sorry youre going through that right now are you dealing with everything alright?'. I have my final exams within the next month. I need to pass these to graduate. I have so much that is already causing me stress in my life and so much of the misinformation around the situation is so triggering and untagged and I dont want to log on and see another bout of 'x responds to x' 'x talks about dream' 'x shares thoughts on George situation' . I cant fucking do that right now.

people have called it the cowards way out, bailing at the burden of controversy but im not switching sides. im not deactivating. im not becoming a dranti. I still talk about the dteam i still like the dteam but I cannot force myself to endure other peoples stresses at the time being . thats all ive been thinking about rlly .

[bunnybeeofficial]

SOOOO totally happy 2 b here!!! im soooo happy 2 meet u all

do u want 2 b happy?

do u want 2 b beautiful??

do u want 2 b mine???

((RULES AND OOC UNDER THE READMORE))

((another blog by me, bunny, the person who came out of nowhere swinging SEMI-LUKEWARM

CAUTION, TRIGGERS AHEAD, NOT ALL WILL BE TAGGED

honey will randomly blip out of existence with my motivation and energy levels! This does NOT mean that she wouldn't be communicating with your OCs during this time. I know it sucks to pilot an npc but please don't just assume honey is ignoring your oc, i seriously do not have the spoons to be as actively extroverted as her. i am an introvert.

theres going to be So much eyestrain on this blog, like to the point that almost every post would have an eyestrain tag, so please keep that in mind!

gifs are tagged "gif" queue tag is "supes cute" food stuff is "yummy stuff" nails are "perfectly painted" art tag is "artsy shit" selfie tag is "super cute selfie" makeup is "looks that kill" clothes are under "wardrobe"

my name is bunny, im 25+, i am not a social person and do not have the energy to talk to a lot of people at once, so either have patience or don't bother

i have several other blogs im not active on, but im most frequently on jujulebee

do not send me IMs in character, i will accept them as ooc if you don't have my discord, otherwise dont

do not leave Replies on my posts, i have stated this multiple times, i don't notice them in the deluge of activity notifications i receive, if you want to have a conversation on a post i have made reblog the post

youre free to ask for my discord but i dont guarantee that ill talk to you regularly, i am not a talkative person

im not Extremely picky with who i follow and will block freely and without hesitation. im here to curate my ideal experience, not save the feelings of a stranger. 

while i understand that ic=/=ooc if your character is transphobic or racist in any way please dont interact, actually

honey wouldn’t want to talk to you anyway

this page does not accept magic anons

please do not godmod to try and fix honeys issues, i dont want that, genuinely

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honey b azrael was born august 6th, 1998

she’s bi-racial korean, born in texas

she is 4'8" (her boots typically put her at 5’), approx 240 lbs

honey was embraced on january 23rd of 2021

honey's a well-known streamer/virtual idol with a truly Cultish following with a majority of her followers worshipping her akin to a god. she is obssessed with the idea of making people beautiful, with no real concept of what that Beauty is, as she believes beauty is in the eye of the one presenting that beauty, as such she would not change someone without their explicit permission. she loves to be worshipped and idolized, but denying her that adoration does nothing to dissuade her bright personality, there is nothing you can say to convince her she is not worthy of it.

honey is a 6th generation tzimisce, her adoptive sire is delilah and true sire was killed to prevent any complications

⚠️WIP⚠️Strength: 3/5 Dexterity: 2/5 Stamina: 3/5 Charisma: 4/5 Manipulation: 2/5 Composure: 3/5 Intelligence: 2/5 Wits: 2/5 Resolve: 1/5⚠️

honey is a party girl and there will be mentions of drug/alcohol use and i will tag them as “drug mention” or “alcohol mention” if mentioned

nsfw content will be tagged as “nsfw //” or “nsfw language”

⚠️EYES, CULT-LIKE BEHAVIOR, BLOOD, AND BODY HORROR WILL NOT BE TAGGED⚠️

honey is pansexual and disinterested in a romantic relationship but sexually available

honey is doing GREAT and you should trust her

honeys best friend circle consists of dolls, sam, jules, her owl butler hubert, and diana who lives inside of her

she loves making friends and talking to people, though, so feel free to shoot her a message! she WILL talk to you

if your character is rude or just generally mean for no real reason (there are funny exceptions to this rule) honey will not want to speak with you and will probably unfollow you

ooc follows are fine, if i dont interact with your character much ill probably end up unfollowing, though

will add more if i can think of anything

[vern-a]

Chayanne as Cucurucho brainrot/ theories (with my dear friend H.)

H: We just made plot

H: Cucurucho is phils egg

H: Go to tumb and share this brain rot

V: EYE EYE

(outtakes of our discord convo)

H: I love this post (referring to this @dubuthecat 's post (we love you for that one)) I would like to imagine that cucurucho will be more leniet with phil missa and tallulah

V: he loves them your honour

V: thats his family right there !!

H: U know whats funny

H: Cucurucho has only shown up to phil twice

H: So I like to think that cucurucho is fucking with everyone, and everyone on qsmp is like dam he is a menace

H: And then notice cucurucho doesn't do shit to phil

H: Dude never bothered phil because he is too busy hanging out with him as chayanne

V: plus cucurucho has shown up to phil BEFORE the egg event

V: cucurucho really said "i like this one ill be his egg"

H: We just made plot

H: Cucurucho is phils egg

H: Phil and missa are cucuruchos favourite canon

H: It also would explain why chayanne knows so much about whats up with the server and eggs

V: that WOULD

V: and chayanne doesnt want phil to know bc chayanne loves phil sm but cucurucho is feared and chayanne knows phil would stab cucurucho on sight

V: thats why he acts like nothing happened when he accidentally speaks

H: It's probably not canon but it's so funny

V: IT FUCKING SHOULD BE

H: And this all hapened because we now know that chayannes admin plays cucurucho as well

H: we love phils 4th wall break

V: ikr, the perfect streamer to have admins misclick with

H: Also the perfect streamer to have an admin switch with

H: Bruh I can't get over this I'm so worked up

H: Time for some fan art

V: IKR IM TOO BUSY TODAY BUT I CRAVE BRAIN ROT

[mc-glare-is-king]

Funny Out of Context Quotes From My Friend Group’s Discord Server

(I say out of context but some of them have a little context lmao- also this is just for funsies bc i love my friends & our chaotic groupchat)

(idk if my friends have tumblr but if they do- you didn’t see this)

“Also, [insert professors name] is a whore for not just posting our grades online and that’s on god”

“he’s dead💀 sleep well!”

A note I had in the rough draft of a paper for my art class that I shared with my friends:

“I just finished my conclusion, but I keep thinking about how I wasn’t sure if I was supposed to describe the painting or not and it’s like almost 11PM so I don’t want to bother you but also my brain has low key melted and is officially done for the night so I just wrote this paragraph and you can either say yes to the dress or throw this page to the sharks or something.”

And the following response:

“SAY YES TO THE DRESS😭”

“Idk but like kill it girlie KSDFHSJD”

“The pug is on the BRINK of death🥰”

“friggin snappychat whatchamacallit and all y’all youngsters smh”

^ and the “LMAO GRANDPA PLEASE” in response^

“GET UR DIRTY LIPS AWAY”

“SIN COSINE TANGENT HELP”

“u signed with the turkin grease???”

“Can I take over your Brian?” (brain lmao)

“My Brian ??? Sure u can have him he’s not good at his job anyways”

“Wait will he give me your dyslexia”

I would email [insert professors name] like “hey how do I do this one thing on adobe” and he’ll be like “you literally took my graphics class” and then he’ll turn into that Dance Moms meme where Abby Miller is like “HAVE WE LEARNED NOTHING, JOJO”

-And he’s like “GO TO LAVA LAMP YOUTUBE”

“im lesking [friends name] im leaking”

I would say that to them and they’d probably go “lmao get good, we’re the American education system, you stupid little bitch”

my friend referred to my anxiety, adhd, & depression as “um… illnesses” one time and i thought it was funny

“i deal with [friends name] on a daily basis and her fards stank bro” (in response to me saying how much I appreciate them dealing w/ my daily weekly breakdowns lmao)

\/ \/ speaking of my breakdowns👀 \/ \/

ITS GONNA BE WHEN I ULTIMATELY WORK MYSELF UP ABOUT THIS PROJECT SO MUCH THAT I BURN MYSELD OUT AND END UP FEELING LIKE IM A FAILURE WHOS DISAPPOINTING EVERYONE

…

ahahaha anyways-

how is everyone else’s day going lmao

“[professors name] really said “I want you to have fun w this project” but followed it up with “but also it needs to be the best piece you’ve ever given me” as if that wouldn’t stress me out💀”

“HEY💢‼️‼️GIRL🙋‍♀️‼️🚺My name is TSUKASA TENMA🦄I💆‍♂️🗣AM👍👍STAR‼️⭐️🌟I👁AM🌎FUTURE STAR DANCE🗣🗣‼️‼️‼️💃🕺💃🕺AND‼️‼️🆒➕SING‼️🗣🗣🎙”

“I’ll beat his head into the dirt” (in response to my lil brother making fun of part of an art project I was working on)

“Do I need to put your dad on my parents hitlist😭”

[icaruspartharmony]

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Version 3.8, updated Jul. 13, 2024

-Racist, ableist ("dIFFeREnTly AbleD!" Counts as ableist btw), pro cop, zionist, or Xenophobic

Who am i??

Hi!! I'm Joey, Joseph, whatever, but Nik or Icarus are perfectly cool too :) my pronouns page is at the bottom if you wanna scroll down there, there's more info. I live in the United States

DNI

-Transmed, Truscum, Exclus

-Royed (FMA) bakudeku (MHA) shippers

-Transphobic ("CiS iS a SluR") or Homophobic (not agreeing with that lifestyle counts btw)

-"give me money please" centered blogs

-Conservative, or Pro-life, people who call others Narcissists as an insult

Fandoms i sit in

No. 6 (Manga)

NANBAKA (Anime and Manga)

Mp100 (anime)

BSD (Manga)

TPN (anime and manga)

Naruto, Shippuden, Boruto (Animes and mangas)

TBHK (Anime)

FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST (Anime and manga, half of 03 and brotherhood.)

The Owl House (show)

Gravity Falls (show)

Homesick, Weak Hero, Lost In Translation, Teenage Mercenary, Flawless, Windbreaker, Eleceed, Brimstone and Roses, City of Blank, Not So Shojo Love Story, Uriah (Webtoons)

Lookism (Webtoon and animated show)

I can talk movies and books 1-7(8) Harry Potter with you but i fucking loathe JK Rowling

Lord of heroes (game)

Haikyuu kinda (anime)

Hunter x Hunter (anime)

IDW Sonic (Comic)

Fruits Basket (Anime)

My Hero Academia (anime)

Dr. Stone (Manga and first season anime)

Howl's Moving Castle (Movie)

Sally Face (Watched Jacksepticeye play it through at ungodly hours of the night, through a podcast on spotify that did videos.)

I'm not a helluva boss/hazbin hotel superfan but i have watched it (Hazbin hotel pilot, know what happens in-series, keeping up with HB). Problematic media, but to each their own ig

Maybe a few more im forgetting

Stuff you might want to know

-this blog will contain swearing, maybe a sex joke here or there, some caps.

-spam likes and reblogs are 100% ok with me. I do that sometimes.

-if you fit my dni or if i fit your dni, i wont take it personal if u block me. Like if you've been my mutual for a year and suddenly block like maybe ill take it a little personal but dont feel obligated to interact or keep interacting.

-i can come off confrontational and as a jerk but im like a bug, im annoying and im more scared of you than you are of me

-im still learning. Everyone is always still learning. I request your patience in this trying time

-im not the brightest bulb in the box.

-i adore asks and questions because i am self centered

-i do take art reqs and i take them very well

-i have a huge interest in music and i do have a lot of character playlists on spotify! If you have a fic in a fandom i like that isn't pure smut, i will likely make you a playlist for it.

-most of my poor spelling and grammar is just set in for personality.

-do not imply or accuse me in that i am a pedophile. Try not make too many lighthearted pedophile jokes with me directly. I have intrusive thoughts and this will occasionally (and frequently) set them off. It's different if humor is your coping mechanism, I'm not gonna tell you how to cope.

Other socials

AO3: JoeyPartHarmony

Discord: JoeyPartHarmony

Spotify: Deeply Unserious1590

Pinterest: @.LivedAndWillMakeItTheBaneOfAll

Feel welcome to reach out at anytime! You're always welcome! Never a bother! Any questions you have are welcomed.

(Dazai's Bolo Tie :])

[st0rmyskies]

ok, this one is a bit more specific/targeted question?

basically, uh, Stormy deary, as someone who has never studied medicine before in my life, how to write med students/doctors? more specifically nurses tho, but ill take anything-

i'd just like a lil push in the right direction bc idk what im doing really T-T the scene im working on rn is a surgery one, but i dont wanna bother u w hyper-specific questions so. general tips are good, maybe some site recs i could go to do research on my own? thank you v much in advance if you decide to answer this

(yes this is still abt loz fanfic)

-👁

If you’re willing to come off anon and share the draft with me, I can medical-beta and offer specific pointers. I’m st0rmyskies on discord.

When I’m writing scenes where I don’t have enough expertise in a given area, I try to focus on those things I do know, which are usually the emotions in a given moment. Is your character focused, anxious, confident, terrified? Is this their 1st or their 201st surgery? Is something about to go wrong, or is this just background to more banal drama? Being in surgery is, after all, just a day job for some of us.

Also, consider what type of procedure this is. Is it routine or an emergency? Is it a soft tissue surgery, neuro, or orthopedic? This will affect some of the things your character may see, hear, and smell during the procedure.

Johns Hopkins online has a nice rundown of some common surgical procedures that you may find helpful:

But seriously, I am always willing to beta for medical purposes, so if you are interested you can absolutely send it my way.

[nosomatsu]

(( because i feel like subjecting you all to it. here. just for u guys.............. a ramble on fixing bringing the brothers together from s1e25 ina more sensical and not lameass way. and also!!!! s1e24 osomatsu and why he reacted the way he did to all the bros moving out. Under the cut!!!! it's long !!! it's unfiltered 4 am discord ramblings so. hYAAATCHACHA prepare for that ))

My personal headcanon is that. What actually brings them all together is ichimatsu ending up in the hospital from his illness..I mean they were all apart for like Months ic . And he was definitely on the streets for a While. But as you saw he was getting pretty sick and collapsing in front of strangers. He's lucky that the couple was there to help catch him otherwise he would just hit the pavement. But he's clearly too prideful to return back home and doesn't want the shame and stigma of needing help from his family and I know it's a cultural thing but also I think he's just generally very... Stubborn. Absolutely wouldn't want to ask for any help. So it would end until he got brought to a hospital and that's the thing that brings everybody back together and gets them talking. Because the same thing happens in season 2 with the father. They were having a big fight and the one thing that could get them all together was their father in a similar sitch and then they all started taking life a little more seriously? You'll see when we get there but yeah I think that it would be the only realistic thing that could get them talking . Ichimatsu is going to be fine he's not going to be like injured or hurt or anything. He's just going to be very badly sick for a bit

But also. Ichimatsu's self worth is so abysmally low as we know . That like... Not only do I feel that would lead him properly being taken care of and have the others help him understand his worth, and show how they value him... But I also think that's actually something he desperately needs to hear. He's not a guy who lets others take care of them very often. But I think that.. because of how dysfunctional the family has become and the drifting from most of the brothers. Even if they do still deeply care about one another it's clear their dynamics are all sorts of fucked up , and ichimatsus depression and isolating tendencies are left to fester a bunch when jyushi isn't trying to help .

I think it would really do him good to have a reminder every now and then that his family does actually care about him ( or at least his brothers do .. their parents are fuucked up most of the time and don't bother to remember their names idk how to feel about them ) Even if he usually hates such attention It's... necessary sometimes And honestly would kickstart ichimatsus character development to what he Becomes in these next seasons bc otherwise there's no real reason why he just turns to a weird little cat guy Who isn't as much of a freak

And then there could have been a whole reaction from oso himself. Maybe he's even the reason they are all united again, with reaching out to the bros even if he feels like it's a long shot. Maybe he found ichi, too. Would rattle him into loosening up and we know that would be the case cause of season 2. Talking out why he was so angry instead of him letting it fester. AND A FUCKING APOLOGY TO JYUSHI

Personally I think it's like. He genuinely felt betrayed not because he didn't want his brothers to succeed but because he wasn't ready to separate in any way / he is .. like very over protective in his own way ( even if he rarely shows it ) over his brothers. He doesn't care if they have a job or a girlfriend or if they try to better themselves. We see that he is completely okay with that stuff. But he is absolutely not fine with anyone leaving , for a variety of reasons that only make sense if you know the context of osomatsu-kuns series. It shouldn't have manifested as anger but it did and then he just kind of got this attitude like "well clearly you don't care about US if you're moving out so I'm not gonna care about you. You're dead to me."

But then he kept. Hurting his brothers or getting really dicey and mean to them because he doesn't know how to regulate not lashing out Which isn't great but . That's what it feels like they were going for. and on top of that, they all felt like they needed to rush out and get a job and be like choro, grow up and function without any actual guidance or clue as to how to actually make it. Otherwise, the show wouldnt have gone out of its way to show how they were barely scraping by / how uncomfortable and miserable they were; they werent ready for this in the slightest, but it's what is expected of them. even if it crushes their spirit. even if they miss home and they miss their brothers so badly.

anyways ... it was pretty clear that osomatsu absolutely should have received that letter choromatsu wrote. Hed moved out basically the same day he told them he had a job -- all ready to leave without saying a prior word ( and he meant to leave that letter for them but alas he forgot to ) Nobody was happy about anyone moving out but the parents, and with osomatsu refusing to apologize/ getting so physical if you tried to bring it up. None of the other brothers wanted to be around him I mean. Osomatsu isn't a guy you can just drop that on and he'll be ok with it. He needs a lot more heads up before it happens, because he's clearly got some attachment issues and a weird relationship with family feelings.

The others weren't very happy, they said they were pretty sad but wanted to celebrate being happy for choros sake. But you saw how he hurt jyushi, and then how he hurt todomatsu after Todo scolded him for not seeing choro off. which is significant, because despite not acting like it totty DOES deeply care for his brothers ( otherwise he wouldn't have been in tears when choro Did leave . And he left cause oso hurt him pretty bad; if oso hadn't done that I genuinely think he'd have stayed ) Plus also choromatsu did arrange all of the living place arrangements without letting anyone know for a long time. I guarantee he felt betrayed because.. well in ep 23s end in the bathhouse choromatsu straight up lied to them When he said he would give up on a job and a house and blah blah blah He was being weirdly dodgy and nervous and then that carried into ep 24 When it's revealed the reason WHY is because he was about to drop that moving out the same day bombshell on them

]And if there is one thing osomatsu hates the most. It is ABSOLUTELY. liars Of any kind. That is consistent throughout the show. He hates when his brother's lie to his very core. He hates in anybody lies really but especially his brothers. That's why he sabotaged totty's job at Starbucks, because totty didn't think being himself was good enough. Everything he SAID to the girls he was hitting on was a complete lie, he was ashamed to be who he was and osomatsu was having none of it They could handle the insults and the worries about girls. But where osomatsu draws the line is all the lying about University, his home life, his personality, everything. So he got all the brothers to go along with him and make an ass out of themselves to get totty fired Cuz they were being completely normal at first until they found out that he Was being such a liar I have analysis on totty about why he did that too but the focus is osomatsu here

and i just think it's criminal that they were too cowardly to tackle and discuss this unlike in later seasons. didn't grow their balls yet i guess basically though about choro's letter. that could have been key to help osomatsu understand hiding it wasn't a choice choromatsu made out of maliciousness but rather nervousness. i think if anyone needed to hear those words it was very much osomatsu and it was a cop out that he never got to. that wouldn't have fixed everything, but it would have fuckin helped.

...But in a living situation like the brothers where their trust is constantly shattered all the time by everyone but each other ( + all the trauma that happens to them both as kids in osokun and adults in ososan that's just.. shrugged off and never thought about again despite being Canon and very clearly still affecting them in later eps ) and how oso insists many things should be a "sibling discussion" even if it makes little sense to be. and why he's so brutally honest ( too much so at times. he won't even really tell little white lies even when he knows they can be useful ) + prioritizes honesty and hates liars so much. too many people lie to them already, can he not even trust his own brothers now?

so, i can see why he acts the way he does. doesn't JUSTIFY it. i still wanna kiill s1 oso with hammers. but. hey he gets better <:3 also one last addendum my friend theo said becauyse this is also truth

Osomatsu is a character that needs communication. he exists insecurely which makes me rather sad for his existence where he will be in vulnerable situations and ask for reassurance / look for it which is something that he isn't good at, him isolating and shutting down is his way to ask for help and reassurance,. only in season 2 after the scare of thier father is when he actually begins to communicate and be more vocal about the way the world is effecting him and the fear he experiences. that's when he realizes ' hey.. why am I forcing myself to exist and rush through all of this right now because my dad was sick and i realized the mortality and fragility of life and how it can end in a second ' and it helps him grow up very quickly in a short time as we see the effects in the third season ( and the first movie ). HE"S STILL NOT THE BEST BROTHER MIND YOU but he's also in a position where he's learning and growing as a person through his experiences in his life and these crushing realities of how the adult world is and how they are expected to act

all this said. here. i leave you with my favorite oso edit that's been plaguing me for weeks now

[theclosetedskeleton]

hhi!! sorry to bother u i dont mean to be annoying but i was wondering if its possible if i could join the sunshine cult discord?? mika sent me, hes my friend and he wants me to join so i figured id ask- my discord is crystallized_crow ! its fine if not btw u dont have to respond i just assumed no harm in asking lol. ty!!

Hiii !!!! ^_^ (youre not bothering me &/or annoying me dw!/gen) sure !!! Ill send you the server link :]

[lord-shitbox]

entire ask game. send me asks too or ill bite you really ahrd

assuming you said this for the 'weirder asks' game. godbless

who is/are your comfort character(s)?

Gozu and mezu

lighter or matches?

I like lighters more but i only have a matchbox (the striking paper on it is shit anyways)

do you leave the window open at night?

ye

which cryptyd being do you believe in?

none

what color are your eyes?

brown

why did you do that?

do wot

hair-ties or scrunchies?

Hair ties

how many water bottles are in your room right now?

None. 2 glasses and a mason jar though 

which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee?

Cold. on ice

would you slaughter the rich?

Idc about killing them i just want their wealth redistributed

favorite extracurricular activity?

Fucking around at the grocery store en masse

what kind of day is it?

Did not do a single piece of schoolwork but i did every other possible task

when was the last time you ate?

Within the hour. Had a bowl of rice on my desk

do you love the smell of earth after it rains?

ya

are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

no

can you drive?

no

are you farsighted or nearsighted?

nearsighted

what hair products do you use?

none

imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

If you want me to ya

do you say soda or pop?

soda

something you’ve kept since childhood?

A lot of things. Stuffed animals, jewelry

what type of person are you?

chilling

how do you feel about chilly weather?

👍 but i prefer mild temperatures. The kind of just-barely cold that isnt really cold. I don’t like wearing lots of clothes

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing?

Depends on who you are. for u specifically, probly not much

perfume/body spray or lotion?

Mmmm…i dont own any body spray but i have mixed feelings about the texture of lotion. It’s not actually that bad but i don’t like putting wet stuff on me (same genre of sensory dislike as wearing lots of clothing)

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

Uh.. like daydream? There’s one i used to have but its really really edgy and embarrassing 

about how many hours of sleep did you get?

Last night, 12. On weekdays its like 6

do you wear a mask?

No sorry

how do you like your shower water?

warm

is there dishes in your room?

Yes leave me alone

what type of music keeps you grounded?

Heavy stuff. Like fast and hard noises. Nothing slow

do you have a favorite towel?

yeah

the last adventure you’ve been on?

Went 2 bowser movie wth an extended group of people last night and afterwards we walked to winco and did funny things in shopping carts

is there a song you know every word to by heart?

Tbh…no. Im really good at remembering song lyrics in general but i dont think there are any in particular i memorize

what’s your timezone?

Doxx me why don’t you

how many times have you changed your url?

Never <3

someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?

Uhh.. not really? Am not in much contact with childhood close friends (theres one ive seen a few times recently but we haven’t actually talked). I believe i’ve known tuna for upcoming 8yrs though

a soap bar that smells good?

I dont like bar soap i like the liquid kinds. Old spice

do you use lip balm?

During dry lip season (i forget when this is) my lips get dry as fuck 

did you have any snacks today?

ye

how do you take your coffee?

With ice and chocolate in it

an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site?

Discord & instagram 

what’s your take on spicy foods?

yum (reasonable spice tolerance)

you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

Nobody…i hate some people 2 death (i dont think about them so i forget who they are) but theyre not bothering me rn so idc

can you remember what happened yesterday?

Bowser moive

favorite holiday film?

Year without a santa claus (IM MR FREEZE MISER)

what was the last message you sent?

“so far i think the only red text thats restricted to origin is mhin's”

when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

Idk ive had sips in young youth. Parents would give me some so i could go “wow this tastes nasty” and not crave any ever (they were right for this)

can you skip rocks?

I may have done it successfully like twice in my life

can i tag you in random stuff?

Ya sure

[stellatenuem]

lately, writing on tumblr just seems too overwhelming and exhausts me before i can even start,, dunno what to do about it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

anyway bother me on discord (Motawa#5397) ill write with u in my extremely lax script style that is just Easier on my trash brain

[pissfizz]

MAARRIIIIII MARIRIRIR MARRIRIIAAA

hi the wifi at my school isnt working and neither is my phones data so im dying. this morning i literally was like oh ill be reading comics on my phone i dont need to bring books. BRO I CANT READ MY MANHWAS

and like i cant go on discord or like aaaanything rn except tumblr idk why ig its just special

anyway yea u get bothered now cus ive been bored all of my lunch hour

NOOOO IM SO SORRY THATS AUCH A TRAGEDY…. I will gladly be bothered tho :33

[dakotafoxandtheobstacles]

12/30/23

As we approach new years eve i can't help but reflect. Allison i don't think you know the damage that you did that day. Like you cannot just chalk it up to you being a coward. What you did was so incredibly selfish and hurtful i don't think ill ever understand it. You lied straight to my face while we were together. And then you gave yourself an hour to draft a text talking about "its not you its me" when everything you said over the phone, and discord, and through text and when we were together was saying the exact opposite. I will never fucking understand why you did what you did and more so I don't understand how someone can fucking do that. I didn't even have the chance to process it because i was just so fucking hurt by it.

At 26.5 years old, I have been hurt in countless ways; for my academic hoes, my ACEs score is 5. I have been fucking abandoned and discarded like trash in more ways than i can count to the point where it no longer feels like a coincidence it just feels like this is what is meant to happen to me. Based on the patterns I am the variable that is not meant to be loved. I am simply a tool for others to use to figure out what they really want. And what they want is never me. I don't think it is ever going to be me. I think I am just going to keep getting left behind and dropped. Again and again and again.

Sam, Ally, Allison, Keith, Fred, Moms, Dad:

You have all hurt me in each unique way. I am so fucking angry at all of you. I am so angry because each of you have contributed to all the reasons and ways that I hate myself. Having what has happened to me over and over and over again leads me to believe that these situations and feelings will never stop happening to me. I feel like there must be something so wrong with me for things like this to keep happening. I really don't understand what I did wrong or what is inherently wrong with me. I don't get it.

I am trying so hard to get better but this time of year the guilt i feel for simply existing is fucking overwhelming. I feel so guilty for everything I have done or been involved in. I feel like all I do is poison everything I touch and that people should keep their distance from me because of that. I can't help but feel that in addition to being born wrong I guess I have had herpes for over a year now and every day i feel more disgusted with myself. Every person im attracted to im terrified to get too close to because I will tell them about the herpes and they will never want to touch me or have me touch them. And the ones that would like colin was looking for an exit strategy the whole time.

I think it might be impossible for people to love me. Allison made it clear she was incapable of it. Ally tried to twist me into something more appealing to her. Sam ruined me, without even warning me of the possibility and then ghosted me like the 6 months we were fucking weekly meant nothing at all. Colin, Peyton, Abby, Anna, and more who ive wiped from my memory all were just with me until they could be with someone they actually wanted to be with. Peyton didn't even bother to hide it from me.

And I am so angry at my parents for introducing all of these thoughts and behavioral patterns to me in the first place. What the fuck is wrong with yall. none of you should have been parents until you treated your own shit because now i have to pick up the pieces and foot tooth and nail to make sure i don't fucking kill myself. its not fucking fair i did not fucking ask for this and now i have to deal with it. i am so fucking mad. Why did u guys do that i don't get it. Jen always took better care of casey than she did me. she was never emotionally there for me especially when i needed her to be. bonny fucking groomed me and probably abused me. and my dad never wanted me in the first place.

really im just so fucking tired of feeling like i am going to be abandoned at any time because i dont deserve anything but myself.

and i'm supposed to try to heal while there is a fucking genocide being paid for with my tax dollars???? War criminals get free health care but I fucking dont????? fuck u fuck everyone its all a bunch of bullshit i fucking hate this world and my self so like what the fuck is left honestly.

[razors2rosaries]

the absolute tension between me and my google doc of names i would much rather go by

[gardenbiriety]

anyway im dramatically announcing my (tempory) depature from here as i delete the app so i stop fucking myself over but i will be back! one day!!

add me on discord im king crab#2712 yeehaw