#ill be back after im done listening
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
cocotome · 10 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
I had to travel for work today and didn't get a chance to listen to Waccha with Koniyan and Hirarin. From the comments it seems like they had a great time and even celebrated Waccha's birthday!
4 notes · View notes
bacchuschucklefuck · 8 months ago
Text
okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is
#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#not art#fhjy spoilers#its!!! gods I will Be My Ass in the tags rn. but thats so like. deliciously setting typical#like porter's desire is to transcend and his contempt for the world he's in feels. idk Real#like he plays the game bc he wants to win and be done with it. how do I word this#yknow. being a god would like. be his win state. when he gets that happening thats it his story is done he checks out#meanwhile the bad kids do actually just like playing the game lmao. like they love adventuring!#theyre so solidly Of This World. they carry the values that can only be born of it and they like having mastery over it#its a meta angle that I think is very fun specifically for d20 being in such a unique position in the zeitgeist when it first started#the rat grinders are from DnD Writ Large. porter wants to escape. but this is the bad kids' home its Their Actual Play Show#which makes it so fucking excellent to me that porter's question is somewhat of merit! its their show and it tries very hard to punish them#and they just straight up dont listen to him here lmao bc they hate him but! since the moment the academic track ended its been clear#that they save the world bc they Like Playing. With Each Others#thats what riz thinks the core of adventuring is! thats why fig stayed! and I also think thats why this hovers over elmville now and#a dead god is coming back in the school gym. porter is a shit evangelist but even if hes a good one I dont think it wouldve worked like he#wants it to. the only way he couldve escaped is if he'd not involved elmville at all. thats where the bad kids met dude#its a shitty place that fucks with them but they all come back here bc they wanna play with each others#and in that regard I think thats what the stress tokens ultimately means. Is This Game Still Fun To Play. ITS A RAGEQUIT LIMIT#Im literally running from one end to another of this conspiracy board Ive pulled out of nowhere#Ill draw after this I just wanna get this out. gods this episode has done nothing but furthering my delusion of grandeur actually#Im the hottest smartest manthing on earth Im king fucking midas over here. anyways uh! great ep!
318 notes · View notes
shokupanda · 6 months ago
Text
me when time moves forward at a steady pace: how the fuck is it more than halfway through july already. this fuckers rapidly sprinting when im not looking huh
#i have so many things i need to do#before the semester starts again this fall#i need to work on comms. i need to work on a project due the end of the month. i want to do artfight. i want to make art for myself. i want#to do art studies. i want to start an alt drawing more suggestive stuff. i mean what who said that mustve been the wind#and thats just the things related to drawing.#i need to organize my room. i need to learn [redacted]. i want to cook more. i want to socialize more. i want to play games. i want to-#watch and read and listen to so many things#yet i have a finite amount of time to do everything#and half of a day is consumed by me just snoozing#and when i do work on something i feel like im Not Efficient Enough.#i cant just chill in vcs i need to be productive and draw too. and if i dont make significant progress then I Have Failed.#i cant just watch New Season of Show. thats Time Focused on One Singular Activity. gotta do multiple things at once or ill feel bad after#because i know that once the semester starts back up then im gonna be 90% less online#back to the depths of graphic design hell making infographics and powerpoints and brand identities#not having the time to draw anything furry or for myself for several months#anywho its 5am#i should go to sleep#sorry for the ramble im just. only now realizing how little time i have#when i wake up i have to really lock in on drawing and stuff#ive wasted so much time playing a game this past week#if i hadnt played it idve made so much more progress by now and im kicking myself so bad mentally now that im like mostly done w the game#gahhh#anywho yeah sorry for the ramble ill post more soon#sho.scramblin
30 notes · View notes
puffpawstries · 6 months ago
Text
I been on the art grind I think I'll post osomatsu san related art fights here then my main I got like 6 inked one in coloring stage and the other 5 gotta be colored
Tumblr media
3 notes · View notes
girlivealwaysbean · 1 month ago
Text
on one hand completely ignoring your emotions is soo good for my mental stability and productivity but man i miss staring at the ceiling and listening to sad songs on loop
#idk if depression is the right word but yeah that author was right you become comfortable in your sadness you start loving it because#it becomes such a defining part of you#if i don't engage in any bad habits throughout the day i start to feel so uncomfortable and wrong and unfamiliar#that i crash and do something old me would've done again :(#the bounce back time has significantly improved tho so that's a relief#also lol who am i kidding pms will come soon im sure#but anyway#i physically can't listen to waiting room rn i listened to the opening notes and it was like#like a dam about to burst#so i just closed the gate very fast#i can't be sad rn because then i will feel lonely and then i will miss people and they won't miss me and ill cry the gasping for breath#i don't know what to do with this emptiness in the middle of my chest crying#man i hope this doesn't have any long term consequences#also i hope one day being good feels like me again and rotting in bed becomes unbearable again#i used to be so active like not physically but idk just like engaged with life more#curiously excitedly#well there's no going back now but i do hope i find a good balance#i was reading normal people and kinda rerealised that woah this sadness will always be a huge part of me. you only get#one childhood and. welp it got too real too relatable#i hope i don't turn out like her every self help book ive read says kids follow in their parents footsteps but god i hope not#this is why boys will always be so scary to me#future seems so bleak sometimes like not my 20s they'll be fire im sure but after that. am i even capable of being loved long term?#if the person who knew me the most well can move on from me in a flash. well then. i don't have anything more to give this is all#what has this post even become oh god. whatever. ill keep trying to be smarter first interesting second hopefully lovable will follow
1 note · View note
nillial · 2 years ago
Text
just finished ethersea finale pt 1
Tumblr media
4 notes · View notes
snekdood · 2 months ago
Text
i honestly just think gen z and gen alpha have an issue with communication in general and thats causing a lot of fucking issues.
#do you even know how to resolve conflicts without shutting down and evading them? or turning them into something worse?#do you know how to compromise or do you stubbornly insist everything must go your way?#do you know how to confront someone about something w/o coming off as judgemental/confrontational or defensive?#do you know how to *actually* listen to people enough to be able to repeat back to them what they said?#when you confront people- do you come at them with a lot of 'you did this-' and not enough of 'i feel like's?#anyways THIS is why therapy is important ✌️#wouldnt know all this shit if i never went and acted like it could never benefit me ever.#having a conflict with someone? heres how to communicate:#you: I feel this way about this thing that you did#person: im sorry that I made you feel that way. i did that because of x reason.#you: i hear you. you did it because of x reason. i promise to try not to hurt you that way again.#but can you see it from my perspective and how it was hurtful to do?#person: yes i can and I wont do it again.#you: thank you#-obviously an ideal way this would go. with a more defensive person its also possible though#you: i feel this way about the thing you did#defensive person: i didnt mean to do y/i did it because you did x#you: you did it because of x. it still hurt even if you didnt mean to/i know why you did it but that doesnt make it okay#person: it doesnt make it okay for you to hurt me either!#you: i never said it did. and im sorry I hurt you. can you understand how what you did hurt me and try not to do it again.#person: fine. whatever. ill try not to#or something like that. not an interaction you should have to have to that level but. maybe you have someone you cant avoid idk#they SHOULD apologize to you but in a way that resignation is at least an acknowledgment. maybe theyre not someone able to face#themselves yet. idk 🤷. they might come back to you later after reflecting and apologize.#also caveat- obviously this is basically impossible to do with abusive manipulative ppl and i dont suggest trying it#i mean maybe its possible but usually they just lie about not doing it again so yeah#HERE. HERE'S ME GIVING TUMBLR MORE ADVICE IT DOESNT DESERVE FROM ME SPECIFICALLY AFTER EVERYTHING#MANY ON THIS SITE HAVE DONE TO ME BUT THAT IM PROVIDING NONETHELESS BC SOMEONE NEEDS TO TRY TO HELP#YALL SOCIALLY N SHIT SOMEHOW.#IDK IF ITS GONNA BE ME FOR VERY MUCH LONGER. BUT. I DO FUCKIN TRY OVER HERE.
0 notes
phagodyke · 8 months ago
Text
really horribly anxious this morning and can't seem to shake it off :-(
#struggling not to dissociate. just don't really know what I'm going to do with all this i think thats where its coming from#+ exacerbated by so much recent disappointment. its hard not to direct that towards myself even when im not really at fault#not to mention disappointment in other people. which is really just more self disappointment for having expectations in the first place#which are unfeasible/not communicated. i just feel so unreal and unreachable. kind of just incompatible with the world i think#and i dont remember how to weave myself back into it again.im not sure ive ever really known how. immiscibility innit#its ok. going to try and start meditating daily again. and negotiate better boundaries for myself. it might help to journal it out#not on here i mean in a physical journal. i can't hold this exclusively in my head or I'll want to start harming again ik its a trigger#its all okay tho sorry this sounds more dramatic than it actually is. my flatmates gone out so at least i can cry while doing chores#she was dressed up nice and came to say goodbye when she left which she doesnt normally do so i dont think she'll be back for a while#hope she has a good time whatever shes up to. probably shouldve asked in hindsight but im too anxious to be able to talk today#and selfishly it would make me feel worse trying not to compare myself to how much more meshed with reality she is she makes it look easy#she only wanted me to do her suncream but i started trembling rly badly after. just cant physically be around other people right now#well at least i didnt cry in front of her so thats something. okay. ive made a list of tasks so im going to pick them off one at a time#i shouldnt have to think too much about them. and hopefully by the time im done ill feel much calmer#and then maybe i can play a game or smth. but if not i wont be hard on myself ill just go lie down and listen to music instead#man it is a shame about this festival though but it is what it is. therell be other days. i guess im not really a weekend person hey#ah itll all pass its all good. im always okay again eventually however temporarily. i dont need anything other than that#.diaries
1 note · View note
nsingcat · 4 months ago
Text
ON REPEAT! C, LECLERC.
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
summary ✶ fans take notice when charles keeps streaming this underground singer’s two newest songs.
pairings ✶ charles leclerc x underground singer!reader
faceclaim ✶ jueun lee
notes ✶ i am the worst at summaries anyway- i hope you enjoy! i used many artists music for this (for specifics, check the end !). also ignore the fact that their relationship seems kinda fast, lets just act like a time skipped happened !1!1
Tumblr media
#INSTAGRAM: YOURUSERNAME !
Tumblr media
liked by user, user, user, and 10,636 others!
yourusername in the (home) studio (´△`) ♪ 🎧
view comments
user YN NATION ARE WE READDYY
user IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE.. TURN IT UPP 🗣️
user OH MY AGEHEHE
user IS IT AN ALBUM? EP? SINGLE??
➥ yourusername eyee don’t knowww ¯\(◉‿◉)/¯
➥ user AHHHH
user pretty girl making pretty music ☹️☹️
user I USED TO PRAY FOR TIMES LIKE THIS 🙏🏼
user we better get a tour announcement with this song/ep/album 😤
➥ yourusername i don’t think i’m big enough for that yet (゜-゜)
➥ user DOESN’T MATTERR
Tumblr media
#INSTAGRAM: YOURUSERNAME !
Tumblr media
liked by charles_leclerc, user, user and 11,536 others
yourusername i hope everyone enjoys my two new songs every summertime & h.s.k.t ft wonstein off of my upcoming album, love yn coming 09.02.2024 ᡣ𐭩
view comments
user YOUVE DONE IT AGAIN MOTHER!!
user HSKT IS ON REPEATTT
user BABY ILL GIVE UP EVERYTHING TO TRY AND CHANGE YOUR MINDD 🗣️
user ALBUM ANNOUNCEMENT + TWO SONGS OFF OF IT 😵‍💫😵‍💫 WE’RE BEING FEEEDDD
user september needs to hurry up wtf
user did anyone else notice that charles leclerc liked and unlike this post??
➥ user YEAH
➥ user what does he know about MY queen 🤨
➥ user RIGHT LMFOAOA
user talented brilliant incredible amazing show stopping-
user i am NOT sorry for the person i’m gonna become after this album
Tumblr media
#TWITTER: FAN ACCOUNTS !
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
#INSTAGRAM DMS: CHARLES & YOU !
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
#TWITTER: FAN ACCOUNTS !
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
#INSTAGRAM: YOURUSERNAME !
Tumblr media
liked by charles_leclerc, user, f1 and 342,638 others!
yourusername congratulations to @charles_leclerc for winning monza!! i had a blast being there today! p.s, thank you for the dinner ᡣ𐭩!
view comments
user THIS IS THE GIRL CHARLES HAS BEEN LISTENING TO?? GORGEOUS OMGG
user all these f1 fans.. 🤺 GET BACK I SAY 🤺
user HE TOOK HER TO DINNER?? OH MY GODD
user he looks so good in that photo wowza
charles_leclerc As my lucky charm, you are now forced to come to every race until the end of the year. ❤️
➥ yourusername would there be more dinner dates?
➥ charles_leclerc Of course! Maybe even more?
➥ yourusername then i accept your offer, mr leclerc ! (>ω^)
➥ user JUST DATE ALREADY OMG
user okay can yall date now or whatever
user can’t believe my queen isn’t nugu anymore 💔
user all these people in her comments.. yall better stream her album when it comes out 🤨!!
user did yall see the way he stared at her when he was on the podium??? NGNGNNGN
Tumblr media
#INSTAGRAM: YOURUSERNAME !
Tumblr media
liked by charles_leclerc, user, user and 566,234 others!
yourusername my debut album ‘LOVE, YN’ is out now! I really poured my heart and soul into this album & I hope i was able to convey that. i wish you all enjoyment while listening to this album ᡣ𐭩!
view comments
user not you copying album of the year omgg
user AND JULY IS THE BEST SONG OFF THE ALBUM
➥ user not when round and around is right there!1!1
➥ charles_leclerc lovesick stole that spot I’m afraid!
➥ user WHATATAGSG
user THIS PHOTOSHOOT?? MOTHERR
user this is best album ever released i do NOT care what any of yall say
user HAPPY LLOVE YN” DAYY
charles_leclerc Absolutely fantastic Ma Cherie ❤️
➥ user ma cherie… don’t couples call each other that !2!1??
➥ yourusername thank you charlie ♡(˃͈ દ ˂͈ ༶ )
➥ user CHARLIE??? OH YALL KNOW WHAT IM THINKJNN
user charles being a lovesick truther iktr !!!
user you’ve come so far… *sniffs* i feel like a proud mother omg
Tumblr media
#INSTAGRAM: CHARLES_LECLERC !
Tumblr media
liked by yourusername, user, carlossainz55, and 953,621 others!
charles_leclerc God, I’m so lovesick, what have you done to me? @yourusername.
view comments
user i fell to my knees
user IM GONNA CRASH OUT?:?/!2?
user SHES SO CUTE WTAF
yourusername i’m glad i answered your embarrassing dm that day :D
➥ charles_leclerc HEY! you said I didn’t have to feel embarrassed??
➥ yourusername oops uh
user USINGN LOVESICK AS THE CAPTION CHARLES YOU SICK SICK MAN 💔
olliebearman mama y papa !
user HER CAT 😔😔
user charyn pls never die 💔🙏🏼
user idk if i wanna be her or him
ferrari welcome to the family yn !!! (pls sign my cd of ur album 🙏🏼🙏🏼)
➥ yourusername got it admin (・ω<)!!
user i cannot believe this
user THEYRE LITERALLY SO CUTE I CANT 💔
Tumblr media
nymphia talks. artists music i used for yn’s discography! i hope you all enjoyed the fic <3!!
lee hi — h.s.k.t ft wonstein, only
NIKI — every summertime
yves — diorama
yukika — neon 1989
youra — rawww
seulgi — anywhere but home
yerin baek — ms delicate
beabadoobee — the perfect pair
2xxx, miso — girl, interrupted
heize, dean — and july
jo yuri — round and around
laufey — lovesick
445 notes · View notes
moonsaver · 5 months ago
Text
Just allergies.
Unlike the title suggests, reader is sick and has to drink medicine. Who else to better convince you than the Head of the Oak Family, also known as your lover? But it seems he has trouble, aswell..
A/n; another drabble i wrote up. Pretty short. Very short, actually. Barely 100 words probably.
Cw; basically none – reader is sick and sunday helps (coaxes) you to drink your medicine.
--
“Sunday.”
“Yes?”
“Sun.”
“Mhm.”
“Star.”
“Im listening.”
You cough, and feel another bout of phlegm swell up behind your throat – or wherever it might be.
“My loooooooove”
You groan out. Sunday leans over and presses a soft kiss to the corner of your eyebrow.
“Just a moment, dearest.”
You huff, looking up at the small, transparent cap your lover holds above you, an obstacle in your view of the ceiling. Your eyes narrow at it when pink syrup fills the cap – languid, thick. And gross.
“Ill be fine without it.”
“Only 5 millilitres of it, darling.”
“Tastes like raspberries at their own funeral.”
This seems to elicit a soft huff of laughter from him,
“I’m sure your stomach will be delighted to attend.”
You huff, turning your head in his lap, facing his stomach. You sniffle, and then push your face into it, causing a small huff to leave him. 
...
“My love, do not sulk.”
You grumble, the sound muffled by the warm clothing.
“come, drink this.”
You hesitantly leave the comfort of his warmth, sitting up, eyeing the cap filled with syrup in your lover’s fingers.
“Sun”
“My angel”
You groan again. Sunday knows just how to sweeten you up.
“It’ll be over in a moment.”
You stay quiet,unmoving. Sunday patiently holds the cap between his deft fingers, after having placed the bottle of syrup behind him on the nightstand.
“Open.”
You grumble a bit again, before leaning forward. Sunday feeds the syrup to you, and it slightly burns on the way down. You cringe at the aftertaste, as Sunday cleans the leftover syrup with a napkin and fixes it back onto the bottle.
“good. Well done.”
You wipe your lips, and suddenly an idea pops into your head. Sunday turns back to meet your unreadable expression. His head tilts the slightest bit.
“Sun.”
“Yes?”
You lean forward slowly, placing a chaste kiss at the corner of his mouth, then slump over him. He huffs as your weight releases on top of him,
“Unsick me.”
“My love.”
You groan again.
“Fine..”
You retract. Sunday takes a moment to straighten out his clothes, before turning to you–
But before he can utter a word, he sees you running out the door with something in your hand.
His head whips around to the nightstand.
Damn it, you’re going to hide the bottle again.
299 notes · View notes
livinggxd3adgirl · 4 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
synopsis— this is a part 2 of “what’s that supposed to mean?”
a/n— I did not expect so many people to like the first part and want a 2nd part .I thought it was going to going to flop. But thank you guys sm! As always there may be errors so pls forgive me. Likes and reblogs are always greatly appreciated!
It had been about 2 weeks since you left gojo. You had been staying at his best friends, geto’s house. You were wearing getos clothes nice all of your was at your apartment that gojo is currently living in. Gojo had called you a few times, but you never answered. You weren’t sure what he wanted with you, but frankly, you didn't care what he had to say. You sat on the sugurus couch. The house filled with silence. All you could hear was the sound of your beating heart. Your mind ran through what happened that night over and over again until you couldn't even remember your own name.
you were snapped out of your thoughts about gojo when you heard the door click open and getos soft voice. "Hey .. im back, I brought us some food. " Geto had been trying to comfort you with all your favorite foods and just be by your side during this hard time.
"Thanks, suguru.. really, " you gave him a weak smile. Suguru set down his keys before he set the bag of food down on the coffee table in front of you.
"Listen.. I know that you're still heart broken about gojo and all, but he's coming here later. He said he wanted to talk to me about something. " he sounded reluctant to tell you that Gojo was coming and for good reason.
You nod your head as he spoke. He sucked in a deep breath before you spoke. Your throat was itchy because of all the crying you have been doing for the past 2 weeks. "I understand geto, ill leave after I eat." Your weak smile pulled at Geto's heart strings. He truly couldn't reason why he even let you stay so long. Geto felt bad for you, of course, but there was something else he felt for you, but he just couldn't understand what it was.
Before geto could stop himself, he quickly spoke, "You dont have to leave, sweetheart..." he gave your hand a reassuring squeeze. "You can stay in my bedroom while he's here. I can't fathom letting that idiot drive you out of here, too. " You finally let out a real smile as you sniffle. For the first time in 2 weeks, you felt like you finally had someone that was on your side.
"Should we eat?" You ask whike smiling. Geto, let's go of your hand as he starts working the bag open.
2 HOURS LATER
You and geto had eaten and watched movies for a while before gojo texted suguru he was in his way. "Stay here, sweetheart. I'll come get you myself, " Geto reassured you as he gave your shoulder a soft squeeze.
"I'll be here waiting.. and geto thank you, really I'm very grateful for everything you have done for me. " Geto couldn't fathom how stupid Gojo was for letting someone like you out of his sight. God, if you were his, he would never let you leave his apartment.
Sugurus train of thought was interrupted by the sound of the doorbell ringing. He quickly said his goodbyes and answered his front door.
You sat on Getos bed and stared at the closed bedroom door. The mere thought of gojo being just a few feet away from you made you want to throw up. As time passed, it felt like hours, but in reality, it had only been a few minutes.
Your thoughts were interrupted when you heard gojo and getos' voice gradually get closer and closer to the door. You can hear geto say "cmon dude don't go in there really just go wait in the living room ill get it for you".
Before Geto could even stop him, Gojo flung the door open. His eyes immediately widen as he sees you sitting comfortably on Sugurus bed.
"what the fuck are you doing here?"
edit!: prt 3
tags!! @ourfinalisation @96jnie @qashmer @sugurugirlie @gollumsmygel @ritzes28
245 notes · View notes
rafeandonlyrafe · 11 months ago
Text
three: barry
Tumblr media
words: 1.7k
warnings: 18+ only!!!, bi!rafe and bi!barry, established thruple, threesome, cock warming, dom!rafe, sub!reader and sub!barry, male receiving oral, p in v sex, unprotected sex, male on male action!!!, edging, cum play?
“r-rafe.” you mumble out, pressing your face further forward. “please.” 
rafe ignores your pleas, eyes focused on the football game playing on the television, occasionally eating one of the chips that was dumped into a bowl on the coffee table for all three of you to enjoy.
“i- shit.” barry curses, his dick twitching inside of you, causing you to cry out and push your face further into barrys shoulder, trying to muffle your noise, knowing rafe wants you silent.
“told you not to move.” rafe doesn't even glance over at the two of you, both stripped completely naked, barrys cock buried in your cunt while you sit on his lap, bound to listen to rafes command that he set as your punishment.
“should have just been good.” rafe finally glances over to you. “you're always my good girl.” he tsks.
it's true, whenever you get in any trouble, it's always barrys fault. just like earlier today when he dragged you into the bedroom when rafe specifically told both of you not to do anything until he got home.
“‘m really sorry rafey.” you pout, attempting to bat your eyelashes at him, hoping it would work, but rafe knows better than to look at you and break, snapping his eyes back to the tv.
“shit, how are you still so fucking tight.” barry groans, his hands gripping your hips so hard you know you'll bruise. “even having both of us fuck you, you're still squeezing-shit.”
barry curses again as he twitches, hips involuntarily moving slightly upwards. you cry out, knowing you should hold in your moan but unable to help it.
the sound reaches you before the pain does, rafe reaching over to land a hard spanking on your ass, a warning not to move again.
“it was barrys fault, please!” you whine to rafe, a red palm mark already visible on your ass. it was barry who drug you into the bedroom and shoved his tongue into your cunt, it was him who caused you to scream out and alert rafe.
“yet you were the one getting eaten out.” rafe points out. he knows you wouldn't disobey him, that it was barry who was planning to have you bounce on his dick next, but rafe likes getting to punish you, and even more getting to use you to punish barry.
“im so sorry rafey, ill never be bad again, i wanna be your good girl.”
“oh baby.” rafe finally looks over to you, running his thumb down your cheek. “i know. why don't you wait until the game is done, then your punishment can be over?”
“mkay.” you nod. “love you.” you glance behind your back, mouth gaping when you realize the game only just resumed after half time, and you have possibly hours of punishment left, sitting stuck on barrys cock without moving.
“anything you want to say to me barry?” rafe asks, tilting his head to the side.
“nah, man.” 
it's an interesting dynamic, both rafe and barry being obsessed with you, and infatuated with each other, but each being strong willed.
“okay, no cumming for you then.” rafe just shrugs, leaning over to give you a chaste kiss. “my good girl will get to when im done watching the game.”
“fine!” barry groans. “im fucking sorry. next time we'll wait for you.” 
“that's what i thought.” rafe smirks, turning back to watch the game. 
you bury your head back in barrys shoulder, trying to think of anything to distract yourself from focusing on his length buried inside you, on your pulsing clit just begging to be touched.
you listen to the sounds of the commentators, letting out a sigh of relief every time they say how much time is left in the game, as difficult as it is to remain still, you know rafe will make it all worth it.
“come here, pretty.” rafe pats your thigh. you blink your eyes open, letting out a sigh of relief.
rafe works his pants open, tugging them down enough to pull his cock out. you have to move slowly off of barrys cock, legs having cramped up and fallen asleep in that one position.
“you can just watch.” rafe says to barry as you switch to his lap, letting out a shudder when rafe touches you, even just his hand resting against your waist has you feeling close to the edge.
“ride me. make yourself cum.” rafe says. you waste no time lining up with his cock and sinking down, letting out a moan in relief. rafe helps you bounce up and down, doing most of the work lifting you by your hips and bringing you back down.
“so big, rafey.” you cry out, walls being stretched more than barry, both of them being around the same length but rafe has more thickness to his cock.
“such a good girl for me, come here.” rafe tugs you forward, your lips landing on his in a heated kiss, hands moving all over his chest, wishing it wasn't covered by the football jersey he put on for the game.
“‘m so sorry rafey promise ill be good for you forever and ever.” you glance over to barry, hands clenched and sitting on his thighs as his eyes are watching your cunt move up and down rafes cock, barrys dick hard and red, waiting impatiently to be relieved.
“i know baby.” rafe coos. he takes one hand off his own chest and moves it to your clit. you let out a squeal of relief, rubbing your fingers lower to gather some of your slick before moving back up to your clit.
“get yourself off, baby, come on.” rafe encourages you, pushing you down harder onto his cock with every movement, trying his best not to thrust his hips up into you, wanting you to do the work as a final punishment, even if it is his hands on your hips guiding most of your motions.
“barry doesnt get to cum until you do, you're making him wait so long baby.” rafe glances over at barry, an uncomfortable look on his face.
“come here.” rafe cocks his head to barry, who quickly moves closer on the couch.
“suck her tits, make her get off faster.” rafe says. barry moves to his knees, having to move his head up and down to follow your chest as you ride rafe, his lips wrapping around your nipple and sucking it into his mouth.
“that's good, barry.” rafe moans as you clench around him, your fingers moving faster on your clit.
“close.” you warn, barrys tongue flicking over your nipple, hand moving around your back to round your chest and play with the other one.
“cum for me.” rafe commands, pushing your hips all the way down as your back arches, rubbing yourself quickly to orgasm, your high rushing through your body, causing you to squeal out.
barry pulls away, hand twitching to grip his cock while you fall forward into rafes chest. he gives you a brief moment to relax, to let your cunt slow down it's intense pulsing around his length.
“thank you.” you gasp out, picking your head up to look at rafe. “thank you.”
“you're welcome pretty.” rafe smiles, picking your hips up to get you off his cock like you weigh nothing, setting your sloppy cunt on his thigh. “now why don't you and barry suck me off?”
rafe spreads his thighs while you both move to kneel in front of the couch, barry immediately leaning in to lick a stripe of your pussy juices off rafes cock.
you let barry focus on his length, moving up to suckle on the head of his cock while you kiss over rafes balls, knowing how much he likes when you both focus on him at the same time.
“touch him, y/n.” rafe says. “but barry, you don't get to cum until i do.”
you nod, wrapping your hand around barrys length. for his own sake, you keep your strokes unhurried and steady, not slow enough to piss off rafe, but enough to hopefully make barry last.
you glide your lips up rafes cock, tasting yourself on his dick as you meet barrys mouth at the lead of rafes cock, tongues meeting as you kiss over his tip.
“fuck.” rafe groans, hips twitching up slightly as he sees you making out with each other as well as sucking him off.
you switch places, barry moving down rafes cock to his balls while you swallow around his length, doing your best to deep throat him while keeping your hand stroking over barrys cock.
“so good for me.” rafe hums, hands coming to both of your hairs, barrys now cropped short but still long enough for rafe to grip, while yours is tied back in a ponytail.
you bob your head, ignoring your gag reflex the best you can, tears falling down your cheeks. you last as long as you can until you have to pull off and take in a large gulp of air.
“show her how it's done, barry.” rafe tugs on his hair, pulling him up to take rafes cock in his mouth next. rafe wastes no time pushing him all the way down, knowing how good barry can take his dick.
“close.” rafe warns, looking to you. you nod, not even needing him to use his words as you sink to your stomach on the floor, sucking barrys cock into your mouth.
you wait to hear the moans and grunts that signal rafes orgasm as he shoots deep into barrys throat to really suck at his cock, one of barrys hands moving off rafes thigh to keep your head down as he fills your mouth with cum, barely needing any stimulation after being teased for so long.
you pull off and move back to your knees, opening your mouth up to show barrys cum sitting on your tongue.
“such a good girl.” rafe leans forward, shoving his tongue into your mouth in a messy kiss, sharing barrys cum and each other's spit.
“love you.” you coo to rafe, swallowing barrys cum before leaning to him. “love you too.”
barry nods, his face slackened eyes closed, clearly too exhausted to say anything.
“and i love you both too.” rafe says, petting his hand over your hair. “why don't we get both of you in the bath then we can cuddle in bed?”
“mmm.” you nod. “sounds good.” you trail your fingers up rafes thigh, jealous that you didn't get to taste any of his cum. “as long as i can suck you off in the bath.”
barry perks up at that, his eyes opening as rafe laughs. “god, you two are such sluts.”
“your sluts.” you remind rafe.
taglist: @drewstarkeyslut @forstarkey @f4ll-for-you @dilvcv @drudyslut @jjmaybankswifes-blog @rafescokenostril @jjsmarijuana @seeingstarks @angelofcigs @cece45450 @babygorewhore @vanessa-rafesgirl @michelleisheres-blog @outerbankspov @drewstarkeyswifehoe @cutielando @kamninaries @buckyswhxre @rafeinterlude @bellbottombaby @deeaardiary @rubixgsworld @wearemadeofstardust0 @leighbronk @starkeysheart @pradabambie @tobesolovelysstuff @alexiskirkland @rafestar @brioffthegrid @juniebugg @magicalyoura @die4niyahhh
728 notes · View notes
kadwrites · 1 year ago
Text
a man with a reputation | T.S
Tumblr media
read the next part
or check out the series masterlist
summary ; you cannot talk your way out of this , for the first time in your life, you're given no choice.
warnings ; angst, cursing, mild violence i guess??? , arranged marriage trope.
a/n ; maybe i'll turn this into a series? who knows, let me know what you think <3. also the accent is a mess, but im trying.
_
"no!" your eyes are wide , glassy with anger filled tears "i will not be treated like some piece of land."
"would you listen? your father and i are thinking of your future." you mother is looking at you with a stern face, sitting beside your father as you stand in front of them
"what future do you think i'll 'ave with thomas fucking shelby?" you raise your voice
"do not speak to me like that , i am your mother."
"we're old, i'm sick with god knows how many illnesses." your father speaks, his cane in his hand as he leans against it, still on the sofa
"don't start with that talk" you shake your head with a chuckle, you sniffle and turn your head away
"i don't know if i'll live another day , i am too sick to work, too sick to care for the farm, there is nothing left for me to give you" he speaks slowly with a serious voice, and it makes your heart sink "this isn't a joke or some game, i've survived the war and lived long enough to see all of you grow , but i know that my time is near, i cannot risk dying and leaving you with nothing"
your father never spoke to you like that, he was always jovial , happy.
it seems like it hits you for the first time, how much your parents have aged, how much the illness took from your father, how his sicknesses have changed him.
"celest got to marry who she chose and so did oliver and so did abraham, but i don't get to do that? i dont get to choose my own husband?" your tears start falling, your voice cracks
"i need to know you'll be taken care of , that you'll be in good hands when im dead and gone."
"and you think his hands are the good hands you speak of?" you cant help the humorless smile that graces your face, hot tears stain your cheek "you can't be serious"
"he is the most feared man in birmingham," your mother chimes in
"you are willing to sell your daughter! to some gangster!" you raise your voice again
your mother stands and faces you
"i am not selling you off, i am securing you a future, with a wealthy man, who can give you everything you can possibly want. you'll live like royalty" her words come through gritted teeth "i am not giving you away to some old pig, you're marrying a respectable man, a man with a reputation."
"a reputation? don't you know what 'appened to his first wife ? you are securing me a grave" you come nose to nose with your mother, both of you almost vibrating in anger "you are killing me is what you're doing, you're selling me off to the highest bidder"
the next thing you hear is the sound of your mother's palm against your cheek, the sound of the slap echos throughout the empty house, your head is turned, your cheek stings
your parents never laid a hand on you, even as a rebellious teenager when they caught you sneaking out the window or smoking on the roof.
your head turns slowly, eyes wide as you look at your mother, she looks mortified at her own actions,
you turn and run off and up the stairs to your room, hearing your father yell at your mother for what shes done.
at some point during the night, you had fallen asleep, but not for long. you were awake when the sun rose, your back pressed against your bed frame, looking ahead at the painting on the wall, it was a family portrait, and you were sitting on your father's lap.
you knew your sister was here when you heard the sounds of her five children, running around the house.
she knocks softly but doesn't bother to wait for an answer when she opens the door after a few seconds, she walks slowly, and sees you on the bed.
your eyes stuck on the portrait , your face almost emotionless, your tears have dried and stained your cheeks, she wonders for how long you cried, your back against the wood of the bed frame, no pillow thrown in her direction for waking you up, no annoyed words saying "you couldn't fucking come in the afternoon?" . the curtains are parted, letting the light in, which is very unusual for you.
you hear the bed creek under her weight when she gets on it, laying next to you
"i heard about yesterday" she says softly, her head turned to look at you
you only glance at her , but your head doesn't turn, then you look back at the portrait
"they're doing this for you, they want whats best for you." she's not sure if it is you she's trying to reassure you or herself , this wasn't ever supposed to happen.
her little sister was supposed to marry a man she wanted, a simple man, a man capable of love
you hum, or you make a sound at least , acknowledging her.
"he isn't all that bad, you know."
a weak chuckle escapes you at her words "in what world is thomas shelby not a bad person?" your voice is hoarse , from screaming and crying all night long no doubt.
"he can give you a good life."
"ya 'ave a good life don't you? with the man you chose, the man you love." your gaze doesn't move, still staring at the painting "its not fair, you lot got to be happy, and i don't."
"ya don't know that." her voice is full of sympathy or maybe pity, you didn't want to know.
you finally turn to your sister, "do you honestly think that i can be happy with 'im ?"
your sister hesitates , she licks her lips "he's a powerful man."
you chuckle at that too "that tends to 'appen when you're a gangster."
"i tried with them, i really did." her voice is weak too, it cracks.
your eyes well with tears again, you didn't know you could even cry anymore "i know..." your voice is a whisper
you knew she'd be against it, she wouldn't agree, maybe oliver would tell you to consider it, abraham would too, just to please your father.
but celest wouldn't
"what are ya goin' to do?" she whispers back, her tears start rolling too
"what can i do?" you ask "i dont 'ave any other choice"
she looks at you as if she didn't expect that. you were always stubborn, always talking your way out of anything you didn't want, you always got your way with your parents, thats what she taught you.
but this time, you don't want to fight back.
"you're goin' through with it?"
"i cant live knowing i disobeyed my father's dying wish."
your father was sick, and getting worse everyday. you were a stubborn woman, but the little girl inside of you couldn't bear to disobey her father.
celest wraps an arm around your shoulder, holding you to her chest, her hands runs up and down your arm , like she did when abraham would bother you to tears, or when oliver wouldn't let you play with him.
"at least he's easy on the eyes, eh?" she tries desperately to lighten the mood, her lips pressed to your forehead
" hes old." you say with a weak laugh
"hes older, not old." she corrects, with a laugh too.
2K notes · View notes
elordilover · 11 months ago
Note
hi! can you do a walker x reader where the reader struggles with her mental health?? it can be whatever you want! ❤️
yes of course! 🫶🏻🫶🏻
Tumblr media Tumblr media
mental health break
pairing: walker scobell x reader
summary: you needed a mental health break and walker is always there to comfort you
warnings: not really! not proofread! not trying to romanticize mental illnesses
————————————————————————
you didn’t go to school today. you desperately need a break from the at environment. all the stress and burnout finally caught up to you. you just needed a day to yourself to reset.
you and walker had agreed to go bowling and get dinner after he was done with his schoolwork. you really wanted to see him but didn’t want to leave your home. you felt the vibration from your phone, it was a text, from walker.
“hey, what time should i swing by your house?���, it read. you felt bad and didn’t want to blatantly say no, so you thought of something better to say.
“is it okay if we don’t go out tonight? i’m not doing the best and need a break, you can still come over, 4:30 is good for me 🫶🏻”, you replied to him.
“okay yeah that’s amazing, i’ll be over soon”, he replied to you. “are you okay?”, he quickly sent after.
“yeah im okay, just needed a a break”, you sent back.
—————
the doorbell rang and you knew it was walker, it was 4:30 sharp. your parents opened the door and welcomed him in.
“Y/N is upstairs!”, you heard then say to him. your parents absolutely loved walker. he was so sweet toward them and always cared.
he ran up the stairs toward your room, and before he entered, he knocked. that was always something you loved about him, he would knock and make sure you were okay with him coming in before barging in.
“come in”, you said and immediately heard the door open. your heart swelled just seeing your boyfriend in his comfy sweats, ready to comfort you.
“hi Y/N, how you doing bub?”, he asked in a soft tone, using your favorite pet name.
“okay, come here”, you said and pulled him onto your bed.
“i’ve just been so stressed and everything’s been so hard recently, schools been so overwhelming. i’ve just needed a day without that”, you stated while he intently listened.
“i’m sorry, bub”, he replied.
“i’m sorry we couldn’t go through with our plans”, you said sadly.
“no, bubs it’s okay. i promise, we will do it another day. where you can fully enjoy it”.
he wrapped him arms around you and slightly hummed in your ear before you both fell asleep. you were so lucky to have him.
————————————————————————
thanks for reading! sorry this was a bit shorter! feedback is well appreciated! requests are open!!
👛🌂🪲🦋🐬🦩🦢🪽🌸🌺🌞🌈✨🥑🍍🍭🛼
283 notes · View notes
callmeby-mylastname · 9 months ago
Text
shattered glass
warnings:angst,Mindy being silly, not entirely proof read(sorry guys)
summary:a beautifully blissful relation quickly ruined by five words.
A/N:oh boy has it been wild, i am sorry for not being able to do any requests but i should be back now. Apologies if you don’t even want this anymore but i’ll be putting out fics little by little however all requests will be done soon, once again sorry guys.
________________________________________
Three months. Three months of sneaky touches,secret kisses,lousy excuses to get some privacy. And yet no one knows that you and Tara have been in love the whole time.
“I know your secret Y/N.”
Or maybe they do.
The group are currently at Tara and sams apartment having their weekly movie marathon. And here you are under the shadow of Mindy Meeks as she is currently confronting you on a ‘secret’.
“Wha-what? Secret?pfffft. I Have absolutely no secrets, i am a very honest woman.” You awakardly giggled as Mindy was sill glaring into your soul.
“Oh?so we’re playing dumb? Let me sign it out”
“You, plus, woman-“ you already hated where this was going and so did Tara by the worried glances she kept sending you and her fidgeting hands.
Of course you loved Tara but there are countless reasons why no one can know. For starters, sam does not like you and you are terrified of sam.
“Admit it Y/L/N, you used my excellent movies knowledge to flirt with blonde in film”
Wait.what.
To say a confusing amount of emotions were running through you would be an understatement. On one hand you are overjoyed she infect does not know about you and Tara, however… you would debate your film skills are better than Mindy and of course most importantly you did NOT flirt with the girl in your film class.
“I-im-.what?’ You rather smoothly stuttered out.”Clara? You know one of the prettiest girls in school, not to mention BIG crush on you’
You take a quick glance over at Tara who does not look like the happiest girl in the world with this information.brilliant.
“Please the day Y/N gets a girlfriend is the day the word ends” sam ever so handsomely chimes in, shes sat over near the kitchen island sipping a glass of water.
“Oh no, you’d be surprised Y/N may be a nerd but she actually bags” chad continues, if you do say so yourself make the matter so much better.
You feel Tara’s jealousy radiate off her like she was just hit by a nuke and you were the giga counter.
“I left my phone in my room” without another word Tara stands up from the settee and beelines towards her room.
The group share their looks of concerned glances.
sighing you stand up “ill go check on her” and with that you’re walking right after Tara. blissfuly missing the switch from confusion to the most grinch looking grin coming from Mindy as she watches your figure walk after her.
You softly knock three times, Tara swiftly opens the door locking eyes with you.”hey”you sheepishly slime. “’bags’ huh?” She quotes.
“My love you know how chad is, i only have eyes for you i promise.” You cup her cheeks.
“Ill make sure of it” she grins pulling you into her room, making sure to close the door behind you.
It had been hours since you’ve been able to kiss eachother and it shows because neither of you realised Mindy standing at the door absolutely gobsmacked.
“Oh my actual like god,like jesus can strike me down i Knew it.” hearing Mindys voice you and Tara immediately pulled away. “Mindy listen you cant tell anyone please i-“ and abruptly Tara was cut off with Mindy running to tattle to the rest of the group.
“Woah Mindy you good?’ Sam questions noticing the girl.
“Y/N and Tara are dating” she blurts out just in time for you and Tara to run into the room.
Remember that nice,cold refreshing glass of after sam was drinking? Well it’s currently shattered on the floor landing right beside her jaw.
“Tara.room.now” and she’s storming off. Tara give you a gentle squeeze and runs off fete er sister.
“Ill,just ehm. Ill clean the glass” chad awkwardly runs off. Mindy is facing you, a look of concern mixed with regret, “hey,im sorry i didnt think-“ “no. no you didnt Mindy,im going home”
And with that you’re gone.
It had been weeks since then,chad keeps telling you how sorry Mindy is and Tara has ben completely avoiding you.and trust you were feeling the effects of her absence, you had tried your best to talk to her.
Walking up to her in school?walked past. texting?.ignored. calling?blocked,
It was gone,the most beautiful thing you both had tried desperately to protect ripped away because of a silly mistake.
taglist
request by - @ijustlovemaths (i know it’s been months i’m so sorry bro💀)
218 notes · View notes
ivysprophecy · 21 days ago
Text
Am I Okay? Chapter One
Tumblr media Tumblr media
warnings: i dont think there is any? drinking and cursing? i planned on writing a few drabbles here and there for this series so i figured the sooner i get comfortable with it the better.
word count: 1318
summary: reader heads to the beach after settling into her new home where she runs into a blonde who invites her to her party tonight. why not? cant be too bad... maybe shell meet someone new ;)
[ masterlist ]
Tumblr media
from my understanding, being invited to a party by sarah cameron is like being invited by miss amelia mignonette thermopolis renaldi.
who am i to deny the "honor"?
in her defense she seemed so super sweet and down to earth so im sure its just people being dramatic.
honestly i wasnt even sure if i should have come but new home, new me. right?
she'd sent me a message earlier with an address and said to wait by the "hippie van" at eight so thats where i am now.
i hope im not at the wrong address and just loitering by someones van, i really dont wanna be arrested on my second night here. dad would not be pleased.
"Y/N?" i hear a voice call out from behind me, turning around i see a familiar girls blonde locks flowing from the ocean breeze.
thank the lord, i was starting to get worried.
"hey! sorry i wasnt sure if i should text ya that i was here," which wasnt a lie. i dont have to mention my raging anxiety.
"youre totally fine! you look super cute. cmon lets walk down to the beach and ill give you a little debrief so youre not totally unprepared."
"oh youre an angel sent from above," i smile following her down some path.
she starts leading me through the grass and down a small little hill where i can already see the beach in the distance.
"so," she starts "ill introduce you to my group of people that i hang out with but youre obviously allowed to venture out. so the boys are john b, hes my husband-"
"husband?? honey arent you like- 18? 19?"
"19 and happily married," she smiles genuinely, good for her i guess. could never be me though. "then you have jj, hes with my friend jess. pope is with kimmy, kiara and lex are together too. and then theres my brother rafe."
im guessing she can see my eyes blown wide because she lets out a chuckle. theres so much information to obtain i wanna go home.
"should i be writin this down?"
she laughs again but im being so genuinely serious, is it not obvious?
"i think youll get the hang of it once you actually see everyone since theyre all kinda grouped together. youll see once you get there," sarah and i finally reach what shes now clarified as 'the boneyard'? im not really sure why its called that but oh well.
after passing through a few partygoers we reach a small huddle of people who i assume are her friends by their excitement.
an absolutely stunning girl with the cutest braids comes over gushin at sarah telling her how cute she looks, and she isnt wrong.
"oh my goodness where are my manners, hi! im kimmy-" she turns to me rolling her eyes at herself, i assume at least. i hope it wasnt at me, in my defense i havent done anything.
"no youre fine sugar, im y/n- its real nice to meet yall," i smile hoping my voice isnt shaking.
have i mentioned im nervous?
"youve got the accent too! i could listen to you talk all day long- its nice to meet you too, pope cmere!" she turns around waving who i assume is her boyfriend who follows her motion heading over to us. "babe this is that girl sarah mentioned eariler, y/n, this is pope my boyfriend."
"i gathered that much," i chuckle, "its nice meetin you too. is there a place i can grab a drink quick? im a little too sober for all of this."
thankfully they all laugh, maybe i dont have too much to worry about. they all seem so nice im probably overthinking all of this.
"yea! sorry-," sarah looks over popes shoulder shouting, "jj! get your ass off the cooler and toss me a drink! what do you like weve got high noons, twisted teas, those blue smirnoff drinks, coors light... i think thats it," she turns back to me asking sweetly.
"beers fine. easy start," i laugh at her change in demeanor when she addresses me.
"beer please!" she yells back at jj who tosses it over.
he shouting back urging our group back over that way. "whos your friend?" a blonde next to jj whips her head around before smiling and waving at me.
"jj thats y/n- i already told you. she just moved here from texas? sarah met her earlier? do you listen to nothing i say ever??"
"mama i do listen but you say a lot of things. its hard to keep up with you."
"youre such a dick."
i head bobs back and forth between the twos bickering. "sorry do i know you?"
"no- sorry this is a bit awkward. im jess, im sorry im a bit of an internet stalker. wanted to see who you were when sarah mentioned you."
"no its okay," i chuckle, all these people are so sweet. "my best friends like that. im used to it."
"oh my god your accent is everything- i love it. also have you seen the hunger games triology?"
jj sighs and rolls his eyes at his girlfriends inquiry, "babe you cant just ask that out of no where."
"absolutely, hasnt everyone?" i respond naturally. of course ive seen one of the most successful series ever?
"ah ha! shut the fuck up jj-"
"yes maam," he chuckles handing her her drink back with a smile.
"so i see youve met kim and their boyfriend- this is jj as im sure youve heard. sarahs for sure filled you in on john b whos getting more ice... all thats left is kie and lex! i think theyre dancing right now though-"
jess goes on covering her bases thinking of who i have left to meet.
"they?" i turn to kimmy with an apologetic look on my face, "oh sugar im sorry i didnt know you were non binary you shoulda said something. i didnt mean to be rude."
"no you werent rude at all i didnt mention it."
"well im glad i know for future reference," i smile at them still feeling a little bad, thinking back to see if i accidentally misgendered them but honestly so much has gone on in the last ten minutes i cant recall.
"oh she hasnt met rafe," jj mentions nudging jess' shoulder. "hes talking to some old buddies over there though."
sarah rolls her eyes at her brother yelling over to him, "rafe! cmere!"
he turns at the sound of his sisters voice before brushing her off, clearly busy talking to someone.
"its really fine im sure ill meet him eventually."
"no hes just an ass sometimes- rafe!" she yells again and he finally turns around shrugging at her a little annoyed.
and holy shit is he a gorgeous specimen of a man.
thats probably not a good thing for me to think first time im meeting him but i cant help it. that man is hot as hell.
sarah points at me, trying to voice that she wants him to meet me as i stand there awkwardly, trying not to smile like an idiot. he gives me one of those frat guy nods with a cute lil smile and i have to admit it brings a blush to my cheeks.
bar is on the floor so in all fairness i cant help it.
"seems like hes too busy to even come over here. im sure hell make his way over eventually.
"its fine sarah," i open my beer finally taking a refreshing sip. "im just happy to be here. lets get this party started!"
to that the group hoots and hollers. im starting to feel more comfortable by the minute with them.
but all night it feels like there are eyes on me constantly.
i just didnt know they were rafes.
Tumblr media
90 notes · View notes