#if i use spite as a motivator i might be able to actually keep this up

[arodrwho]

i have achieved. walk 2 days in a row

[aspd-culture]

I wish I had the stereotypical aspd that empaths talk about. The calculative and well groomed businessman who’s incredibly independent even at the cost of other people.

I’m honestly a useless loser. I don’t do anything for anybody yet am livid when they don’t do something for me, 80% of the time I forget or don’t do the tasks I’ve been asked to even if it’s the simplest thing. I pass it off to other people. I get threatened by my parents constantly, called useless and a lazy fuck. I’m not motivated for anything, not employed and the thought of it makes me want to rip my skin off or rip their faces off whenever they mention it. It feels like another extension of control. Everything feels like an extension of control and an excuse to assume power over me.

People in my life are moving ahead of me no problem and I’m still stuck on my ass debating whether to break everything in my parents house when they use my lack of employment and symptoms to make fun of me. My friends talk about it like it’s just so simple to suck it up and march forward and I loathe them for it because they don’t understand.

Maybe this is just me being a whiny brat or a bad person

No, this is you struggling with being in a toxic environment - one that will continue to make you feel like this for as long as your parents act that way towards you. It's not possible to heal and recover and learn to process your symptoms and change your behavior in a toxic situation like that. It's likely keeping you in survival mode.

Truly I think in that situation the best way to get yourself to do the things you would need to do to leave the toxic situation is out of spite. Spite can do a lot for pwASPD when we harness it to use for good, since our PD is so reactive to it. If you think to yourself as though you're talking to them "ha, yeah okay sure I'm getting a job just like you wanted right? Except I'm doing it to get the hell away from you", you might find yourself more able to get to do those things. It's not guaranteed to work, but it's something that might help.

And, if it makes you feel any better, prosocials don't actually like us in that stereotype either AND generally ppl who fit that stereotype are in some other way coping destructively. No one who actually has ASPD is managing to not struggle at all with it bc a disorder can only be diagnosed if it significantly and negatively impacts your life. It's important to remember the stereotypes of this demonized disorder are made out to be supervillains - hyper capable beings who choose to be monsters - bc otherwise the prosocials have to admit that they're bullying people who are hurt and wish we could stop dealing with our symptoms just as much as they wish we didn't have them if not more. It's not fun for them anymore if they think about our actual struggles with ASPD, so they try and make it sound like we're having the time of our lives when none of us do. I promise you're far from alone.

It's also worth noting that if you find yourself entirely unable to work without your mental health destructing, that that's called a disability and there are things you can do to either get accommodations or potentially payment for it bc unlike your parents by the sounds of it, the government understands that mental health is a valid reason one might not be able to work.

You're not a useless loser - you're a person with a disorder that is known to be potentially disabling who is being mistreated and stuck in a toxic environment - at least going by this post.

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No, this is you struggling with being in a toxic environment - one that will continue to make you feel like this for as long as your parents act that way towards you. It's not possible to heal and recover and learn to process your symptoms and change your behavior in a toxic situation like that. It's likely keeping you in survival mode.

Truly I think in that situation the best way to get yourself to do the things you would need to do to leave the toxic situation is out of spite. Spite can do a lot for pwASPD when we harness it to use for good, since our PD is so reactive to it. If you think to yourself as though you're talking to them "ha, yeah okay sure I'm getting a job just like you wanted right? Except I'm doing it to get the hell away from you", you might find yourself more able to get to do those things. It's not guaranteed to work, but it's something that might help.

And, if it makes you feel any better, prosocials don't actually like us in that stereotype either AND generally ppl who fit that stereotype are in some other way coping destructively. No one who actually has ASPD is managing to not struggle at all with it bc a disorder can only be diagnosed if it significantly and negatively impacts your life. It's important to remember the stereotypes of this demonized disorder are made out to be supervillains - hyper capable beings who choose to be monsters - bc otherwise the prosocials have to admit that they're bullying people who are hurt and wish we could stop dealing with our symptoms just as much as they wish we didn't have them if not more. It's not fun for them anymore if they think about our actual struggles with ASPD, so they try and make it sound like we're having the time of our lives when none of us do. I promise you're far from alone.

It's also worth noting that if you find yourself entirely unable to work without your mental health destructing, that that's called a disability and there are things you can do to either get accommodations or potentially payment for it bc unlike your parents by the sounds of it, the government understands that mental health is a valid reason one might not be able to work.

You're not a useless loser - you're a person with a disorder that is known to be potentially disabling who is being mistreated and stuck in a toxic environment - at least going by this post.

[rainwalker-dragonblade29]

Um Guys....

Are ya all gon a talk about the elephant in the room because we might have a slight side character crisis.

AKIYU IS ALIVE AND WELL. AND AARAVOS IS OUT. He is back, which means, soon enough if he gains full strength and sees back with his time blindness he would see her and she is in terrible terrible danger.

Now, saying that aaravos would go kill her out of spite or revenge is stupid. Because why go after her than the actual big bad star elves who wronged him. She may pose a threat since her magic worked over keeping him locked away for such a long time, so no doubt she is powerful and he may suspect that if he knows.

And this raises a whole lot of questions. And a possible theory.

Does he go after her?

Say, he does find out where and who she is. He could either choose to:

A) go after her. Meaning she is powerful enough to be a threat but not necessarily beat him and he wants to eliminate all competition so he can accomplish his goal. This means if he does end up vapourizing her or ending her like he did khessa, it could mean he is removing the plausible support his opposition could get AKA callum.

B) Continue on and ignore. She isn't the enemy. Not right now anyway. This gives the dragang a chance to contact her if they learn of him returning.

Does he find out about her AT ALL???

1) Yes? Cuz Star primal has got divination under its belt and "you have seen what we have all seen Aaravos" Means Aaravos IS timeblind. And how vast that ability is depends on him but for an archmage, maybe he can wield it at will unlike Cosmo who can only see at intuitive or random moments and not all the time.

2) No. For him to not be able to see the archdragons' meeting with Akiyu and the Jailor some spell must have worked in concealing that event from cosmic eyes. And if this is the Aaravos will never know of who made the prison even if he can reckon how it was done and it will probably drive him nuts. Which means it could be on his radar and he will find a way soon enough.

If he does go to take revenge and/or eliminate a supposed threat... does he do so alone or not?

Now comes the theory part. A simpler version of this question is: Is claudia involved whatsoever. Like sure the mighty Star could disappear/ teleport in the middle of the night or something to go on a solo mission or he could take claudia along. And both possibilities hint at one thing.... there is an important person who could play a role in his downfall.

One rift that perhaps even Aaravos cannot stop.

Terry.

I am not the first person to say terry will leave claudia. But here i just state maybe how he would. If aaravos makes claudia do things and terry sees... well, terry could leave and go seek help from Callum and Co.

If he does it on his own and terry sees it happen by sneaking behind him... his own views on aaravos get affirmed. It will be seen as "Aaravos is doing all this for revenge" and terry will, split from his company as a call for help if only to save claudia. He will do the right thing.

Is this how the dragang finds out he is back??? Could be. Or it could be Astrid, who flied to aid after Kosmo saw it in a vision.

But this leads to one other question.

Does Aaravos foresee it and try to eliminate Terry?

The timeblind thing comes back here and it would be twisted if aaravos tries to stage terry's demise to further break claudia. I mean i dont want terry to die and it would also be a petty thing to do and TDP most certainly won't do that mistake. It would be tropy over petty but i digress. A confrontation is natural if aaravos learns that terry found out his true intentions or something.

But aaravos to try and kill him, though not impossible, feels unlikely because then aaravos is just evil for evils sake and that diminishes the whole master manipulator angle. Like yeah he told them of Leola, but he who never lies is not exempted from omiting key details. He might not have told us the whole story and what is not revealed may withold more motives. This is a very gray zone to speculate because terry has no relations to aaravos yet and all we know is he is sad Claudia gave into releasing him and that he will be wary since he suspects Aaravos to be acting on the basis of revenge.

And killing Terry doesnt make sense also because of one more thing. Aaravos fears no other, he actively brought down and essentially trash talked the dragang in episode 4 of season 4. He will not care if the dragang found out about him returning. It's gonna unstabilize Callum, anger ezran on top of the whole runaan thing, put Rayla in a pin because should she wait to take Runaan home? And if she has already split, then if she learns later she'd feel she shouldn't have left callum because he was then vulnerable. And soren will just be hurt to hear claudia's bit from terry so boy will ge sad.

The dragang destabilise will work in his favour. He will likely confront terry without claudia seeing, teleporting them somewhere else, set him loose and push him to leave, and give him only one option that will give to tell callum and Co. Terry will on hos own account tame the step to leave. Aaravos comes back and says "he left you" yo claudia and it won't be a lie at all! Terry gets a character arc and is far from harm. Claudia is pushed further into aaravos' grasp and callum and Co have information to anticipate and prepare their next action!

(PS: if he had to eliminate somebody he could go for Zubeia first before akiyu or Domina and that terrifies me even more😬)

[princeescaluswords]

ur addition to ur post about scott being forced to treat derek terribly reminded me of the way ppl react to alina killing the darkling. like yeah her killing him was the only way to resolve the situation she'd been put in (by darkles himself). yet ppl keep doing rewrites where alina is meant to 'fix' him or joins his side like. Huh?????

(I must preface this with the reminder that I have only seen the Shadow and Bone television series. I know nothing of any differences that might be in the novels.)

There's nothing wrong with rewriting a story; that's what fanfiction is for, after all. But if someone wishes to write an ending where Alina Starkov chooses Aleksander Morozova, they have their work cut out for them. It requires them to alter the characters and histories of either the Sun Summoner or the Darkling (or both) so much that they literally become different characters. My concern (and I think you share in this) is that people believe that Alina, as portrayed, could easily have chose to be with Aleksander, as portrayed, and they could have a happily ever after.

I can't possibly see any scenario where this can be true. Let us propose, for example, that we vanish Mal Orestev. Poof! He never existed. Alina's early life would still have been dominated by oppression and prejudice, oppression and prejudice that exists in part because of Aleksander's choices, no matter how noble the motivations for those choices were at the beginning. While grisha have always faced oppression, Alina's youth was shaped by fear and disenfranchisement; her life was defined by either her race, her poverty (exacerbated by the Fold), or her potential as the Sun Summoner. This world, in turn, was shaped by Aleksander's actions. No matter how charming and passionate the Darkling is, Alina's history and her character would propel her to question her own feelings for him and his feelings for her. Alina would be betraying every part of herself if she chose the life promised by Aleksander, and I think the story, as portrayed, makes that very clear.

But let's say she did it anyway; with her strength of will, she decided that she would join with the Darkling and accept the injustice done to her (and everyone else) as insufficient to prevent her from being with him. There still can be no happy ending in sight. Nothing in the history or character of Aleksander Morozova indicates that he would be content or even able to treat Alina as an equal, as a real partner. He certainly didn't respect her when she defied him. Everything we see and know about him indicates a pattern of dominating everyone around him, from his loyal followers to his own mother. I don't feel that the fact that Alina is his equal in magical power would help their relationship in any way. Aleksander would see in the Sun Summoner a danger if he could not control her, and Alina would have to become submissive.

Again, fanfiction has great powers of transformation, but there is a limit to how far a writer can stretch plot, setting, and most importantly characterization before it must be questioned if there is still a meaningful connection to the original material. Once that point is breached, readers like you and me have to question if the writer is actually not a fan but only insincerely passing themselves off as one.

This is my problem with the many spiteful interpretations of Master Plan (2x12). For example, I often bring up that people rewriting that scene tend to ignore the immediate mortal danger Allison was in when Gerard demands Scott make Derek bite him. Their motivation is obvious. The know as well as I do that there is nothing in Scott's nature or history, as portrayed, would lead him to place place Derek's autonomy above saving Allison's life, especially when Scott knows that Derek's Bite will disable (if not kill) Gerard and thus save Derek, Allison, and Derek's pack as well? There is simply no alternative that makes sense.

Like Alina, Scott's decisions had been shaped by what he had endured for the previous twenty-four episodes. While, contrary to popular fandom interpretation, he didn't hate Derek, being honest with Derek would require him to ignore too much. Derek had concealed information from him (the alpha's very existence), manipulated him repeatedly ("It's not going to come for free"), disregarded his needs ("I can't let her live!"), and outright betrayed him three times (the locker room shower, the cure, Peter's resurrection). Derek had demonstrated that he would chose lethal violence repeatedly and -- what is arguably worse -- had been a spectacular failure every time he tried to do that. Gerard, on the other hand, had delivered on every single threat he had made. Peter himself made that point in Battlefield (2x11): "You weren't ready. Because of it, Gerard is winning." The wisest plan was the one Scott went with. The only possible counter argument -- Derek's terrible history with Kate -- was something that Scott did not know about. There's a reason Derek didn't hold Master Plan against Scott, and it wasn't bad writing.

I feel our dissatisfaction with particular fandom behaviors isn't about some insistence that canon is sacrosanct. To us, the transformation they are performing is incomplete and ill-wrought, like a badly Photoshopped picture where someone we appreciate ends up having three arms, because the writer/fandom isn't working with the whole subject but only the parts that they want to change, yet they try to pass it off as a real picture. For me, personally, this dissatisfaction also arises from the idea that there are not-so-hidden motivations for the transformation: racism, classism, decadence, and misogyny.

Fiction often portrays dark events as well as heroic events, and if it is quality fiction, all those events are clearly motivated and make sense according to the plot and within the setting. It's an organic whole. Alina would not choose the Darkling and be happy because it goes against everything we know about both of them; Scott created his Master Plan because it goes along with everything we've watched him experience. Different outcomes would require different stories.

[nerves-nebula]

Are you ever you ever insecure about your art? And could you explain you answer to that?

Venting to you now

Drawing has taken a lot of effort for me, more than usual recently. I started working on something I originally felt really passionate about. It's more common for me to very quickly give up or get bored so I was really excited to be able to post some artwork. But I ended up not liking the result and I'm not sure if I'm willing to try something else. I've given up on trying in a lot of parts of life to try and save energy to do something I thought I was passionate about (art) but I am still lacking the motivation. The reason I reason I really wanted to share it was because I'm terrible with self-motivation. If I can't make at least one person genuinely go 'oh, neat' even for just a second and even if they soon forgot later, I'd feel like I'd have a reason to keep living (to keep making art). If the only people who'd see it end up disappointed I'd want to disappear.

It's not what art should be. I know it's value is like a person's. It's worth more than how someone reacts to it, right? But I can't apply that rule to myself. I should seek support from the people who 'know' and actually care about me, but I don't want their appreciation. I want some imagery status of a 'good artist' because that's what seems to give me dopamine.

I also wanted to mention how much I admire how open you are with your struggles. I want to be the same but I'm scared of people thinking less of me. I know that's dumb but I don't know what I'm good for if I can't make people happy. If I'm not going to be content with myself I want to not be a nuisance at least. I like to think that if I stopped caring about my impression on people, I'd be better off. But I'm scared that I'd have to learn to like myself. I don't like myself and I have no interest in liking myself. I don't see the point.

oh boy, this is gonna be a long one. also, don't take anything i say too seriously, i don't know your situation and I'm barely an adult. anyway, response under the cut

soo lately I'm less insecure about my art and more frustrated when things don't come out well. but i still post that shit !!! I'm still insecure if i'm doing, say, a project for homework, and i don't think i did as well as I could have, but in my personal artistic endeavors it's more about getting it done than it being perfect (for example, my webcomic! my motto is any comic made is better than no comic made and if people don't like that then it wasn't for them in the first place)

the thing about me is that drawing and art and stories is all i've ever had. it's my main form of interacting with the world. these days i make art the same way I live, which is to say in spite of wanting to kill myself. I would LIKE if my art was perfect, and i would LIKE to not be in pain. but i AM in pain and i have to live anyway, and my art ISN'T perfect but i'll make it anyway.

and i like when other people's art isn't perfect either, when it isnt super polished. I think that definitely helped. seeing artists whose work i fell head over heels for when it's never been more than sketches and a bit of shading. it really cemented in my mind that it isn't art being technically perfect that makes it worth while.

i've gotten a lot of people saying kind things to me, saying how much they enjoy my art and my blog in general. and though it doesn't always help, it sometimes inspires me to imagine the number of people who appreciate my stuff who might never mention it to me. I myself am used to lurking and not interacting very much (a habit I'm trying to change since I know artists & creators love feedback most of the time) i know it sucks to not know if anyone gives a shit for sure, but you really can't make that your only reason for doing art, cuz half the time you prolly wont even know if your art deeply affects people or not. it's fine to want that attention but you gotta have something else goin on too, at least I do.

i also know the fear of worrying that you'll lock yourself into something you don't want to do, or something you'll lose passion for. for me, I generally rotate a cast of characters & interests around for years a time before making significant progress. There were spans of times where I'd go years without thinking about loose stitches, but none of that time developing other stories & characters was wasted. it gave loose stitches enough time to properly cook, and the story is still developing under my hands as i draw it, influenced by my other stories and other characters.

it's ok to abandon something and pick it up again years later, or to never pick it up again at all. it's ok to hate the way something turns out but to keep making it anyway because you have to move forward (at least, I do)

moving forward despite not liking the original product is the only way to progress, I think. I don't super like a lot of the first pages of loose stitches but I'm still grateful that past-me posted them because that means present me is at page 76 !!

If I can't make at least one person genuinely go 'oh, neat' even for just a second and even if they soon forgot later, I'd feel like I'd have a reason to keep living (to keep making art). If the only people who'd see it end up disappointed I'd want to disappear.

the problem with this mindset (in my opinion) is that some people aren't going to like your art and that's got nothing to do with the art itself. if you want to find people who go "oh, neat" then you have to keep posting until they see it. trust me, they're out there. like, i don't post for people who can't stand the idea of child abuse, i post to FIND people who want to interact with stories about child abuse the same way i do.

it would be insane to stop trying to find those people because someone else was disappointed or upset by my art. which isn't to say you gotta lock yourself into doing one thing, but that you gotta post what you care about, and people who also care will find it. posting fandom stuff with the same themes as your original art certainly doesn't hurt either, if you REALLY want to find those people faster.

It's not what art should be. I know it's value is like a person's. It's worth more than how someone reacts to it, right? But I can't apply that rule to myself. I should seek support from the people who 'know' and actually care about me, but I don't want their appreciation. I want some imagery status of a 'good artist' because that's what seems to give me dopamine.

art should be literally whatever. it's worth is literally whatever you want, it can be a big deal or not. i'm not sure what part of being a "good artist" gives your brain the Good Feelings juice but I'd investigate that feeling more and try to figure out the roots of it, cuz then you might actually be able to figure out what it is that motivates you. approval is nice, yes, but i like approval for things i enjoyed making even more.

I also wanted to mention how much I admire how open you are with your struggles. I want to be the same but I'm scared of people thinking less of me. I know that's dumb but I don't know what I'm good for if I can't make people happy. If I'm not going to be content with myself I want to not be a nuisance at least. I like to think that if I stopped caring about my impression on people, I'd be better off. But I'm scared that I'd have to learn to like myself. I don't like myself and I have no interest in liking myself. I don't see the point.

i always find it amusing when people refer to my "struggles" if only because I don't really consider them that way. to me it's just like, a thing that happened that sucks. i don't consider myself "struggling" with it, even though I guess that's what's happening. also, let's be real here, it's not like I'm using my real name. this is an anonymous tumblr blog. though, my openess on here has actually lead to me making more art about it IRL so. eh.

anyway, lucky for you, you can stop caring about what other people think without necessarily liking yourself! for me, it's about spite (sort of). I don't like myself much more than I used to, I just decided I hated everyone else more haha. I still care what people think about me, and I'm still scared of what people might do to me, but I'm also not bending over backwards to please people i dislike. I just get annoyed at them instead.

i did this basically just by repeating it until it became true, lol. there's only so many times you can petulantly say "well fuck those guys anyway they suck" before it becomes your true first reaction.

at some point, i decided i needed to pick and choose who i wanted to please, because it can't be everyone. that's just literally not possible. so i looked at the kinds of people i liked and appreciated, and basically disregarded everyone else. it's the whole "don't take criticism from someone you wouldn't take advice from" thing (not sure where that comes from)

obviously you should probably try to internalize the idea that you even HAVE to be "good for something" but that's way easier said than done. i find it more useful to devote yourself to finding a few things (causes, people, philosophies, niche interests) instead of just general usefulness. because then you can form stronger relationships, be useful, AND not burn yourself out trying to please everyone.

take all this advice with a grain of salt though, I definitely need therapy and this Bitter Angry Defensive persona will probably need to be deconstructed soon... idk. i think it's outlived its usefulness to me but i'm not sure what to do next hahah.

sorry if none of this was helpful or the point. im not even sure why i wrote this much, i kind of just ramble sometimes. i hope you figure it out!

[unfortunatesal]

In/Spectre Season 2 is making me lose my goddamn mind

So, I am now 8 episodes and 3 arcs into Season 2 of In/Spectre and oh my god, oh my god, it's so good, it easily surpasses the second season for me, although... it's not reall comparable to the first season, and I'll talk about why

SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS I WILL SPOIL THIS ANIME FOR YOU

So, the first season starts with an episode where Kotoko meets her future boyfriend, and they fight a demon together.

This is not at all representative of this season.

This is not an anime about fighting demons, it's an anime about gaslighting. Or, more accurately, an anime about how fiction and lies are more appealing than the truth. About how you can't convince people with the truth, you have to offer an alluring, yet completely fictitious story, in order to appease them. How fiction is often more logical, and thus, easier to believe than fact. And, ultimately, how rumors and stories can bend and shape reality itself, à la Persona 2. So it makes sense that the gaslight gatekeep girlboss extraordinare, Kotoko Iwanaga, plays an extremely central role and is present in most scenes. This is an anime about her, about who she is, what she believes, and the role she plays.

After the introductory episode, the first season kicks off with a short arc that wonderfully sets up what the anime is like and how it functions really well, before diving into the meat of the season, an arc that spans three quarters of the first season, and deservedly so. It's exciting, the stakes are high, it presents a fantastic main antagonist, the conflict between her and the protagonists works great, and the climax just keeps building up more and more in extremely satisfying ways. The Japanese name for the anime translates to "fictional reasoning", and that's exactly what Kotoko uses to resolve this arc. It's just awesome.

But the second season takes things in a very different direction.

Season 2 of In/Spectre starts with an episode where Kotoko does her usual fuckery, convincing a ghost who is haunting a flat that there isn't a creepy doll also haunting the flat, which there is. And that is an objectively hilarious setup that perfectly fits with the first season. Kotoko stacks lies on top of lies and then reveals she was bullshiting the entire time. That's just what she does, that's what we've come to expect from her.

But... that's not at all representative of this season.

The second season of In/Spectre takes focus away from Kotoko and her ways. Instead of having one small arc and one big arc, the second season has 3 short arcs, and presumably ends off with a longer arc that involves the main antagonist of the first season. The basic structure of each arc is that we're presented with a certain environment with spooky happenings, and we follow the people most relevant to those happenings, before Kotoko and Kuro join in and resolve the situation. This means that the two main protagonists are much less present in this season.

To me, this is a good thing. We already know what Kotoko does, we don't need to explore that too much more. What's more interesting is looking at other people, the way they feel, they way they act, the way they think, and why they do what they do. This season is primarily focused around the idea that people who might seem to be acting in irrational ways that are beyond explanation actually make sense if you put in the effort to understand them. After all, Kotoko's skills as a liar aren't all that impotant in this season. So far, outside of the first episode, she lies one in the first arc but, and then mostly tell the truth. What really comes into play is Kotoko's other main skill: her incredible ability to understand people and their motives.

The first arc is about a man who has been betrayed by everyone close to him and has isolated himself as a result, and how, in spite of his trauma, he's able find peace and companionship wth someone he knows he can genuinely trust and will stay by his side. The second arc is about how easy it can be to paint someone as a villain and a perpetrator from an outside perspective, and completely ignore the pain and turmoil they might be going through. The third arc is about mourning, the pitfalls of resenting someone for not mourning like you'd like them to, and that just because you don't revel and bury yourself in your pain doesn't mean you aren't also suffering.

The true value of this season, to me, is that it seems intent on exploring and portraying how easily people with traumatic experiences are cast aisde by society. How they tend to be judged, suspected and mistrusted, specifically because of their painful experiences, and how that treatement only isolates them further. It uses the supernatural as a symbol of what exists outside of the reach of society, but within the reach of these lonely, stigmatized outcasts who aren't understood or seen by other humans. And... I find that to be a really powerful and important thing to center an anime around. Pretty much every arc has felt genuinely beautiful to me becuase of it. And I really hope the final arc of the season lives up to what it's built up so far.

[mausolealdrift]

Do you have a deathgasm notp??? Sincerely, a canon zakk/Medina was a fucking cosmic fuck up incident truther

oh you’re absolutely right i have So many thoughts about this. sorry this took me forever to answer i needed to collect all of my thoughts together and all of that i am Normal about Characters

so like . for obvious reasons the thought of ppl genuinely shipping zakk and medina as in like……… thinking theyd actually be good together or smthn is a fucking insane idea and im So very glad ive only seen maybe one person say some shit like that. (which like. honestly im starting to think i might have imagined the post in my head just to make myself mad bc i havent been able to find it since ??? but i SWEAR i saw someone shipping them once .) the two of em actually being in a relationship would just be. Awful and unhealthy for both of them

(and yeah zakk and brodie arent exactly healthy for each other either . but in the sense that they both make each other Worse yet neither of them can stay away from the other even if they want to etc etc. which is actually sexy and not just . y’know)

but anyway . yeah Definitely a cosmic fuck up. medina deserves better than that :( like she’s been objectified and treated like shit by pretty much every guy who looks her way and then zakk lies to her abt the one guy who actually respects her to manipulate her into hooking up w him. give her a BREAK

but as much as it was The dick move of the century i think zakk had his reasons for it aside from just boredom. Obviously this is all very much my personal and extremely biased interpretation etc. but i think it was out of frustration more than anything else because he just can’t fucking cope with having feelings for brodie. regardless of whether you see those feelings as romantic or not he Cares too much about him. and he doesn’t know how to handle that so he takes his anger and frustration out on medina in such a spiteful and destructive way because it’s all he knows how to do. and whether he knows why or not, the idea of brodie getting closer with medina bothers him so so deeply – enough for him to try and sabotage their relationship at every chance he gets (and then later trying to keep them apart to stop brodie finding out what he did because he doesn’t want to lose him) under the guise of just being bored or only caring about himself.

and i really don’t think there’s much of a possibility that he did it because he was into her, or jealous of brodie, or anything like that. zakk never showed interest in her at all until then (i.e. when she made a move to try and get closer with brodie) and just….. seemed generally pretty indifferent to her otherwise. if he really wanted to then he could’ve made a move before, but he didn’t.

he purposefully did something that he knew would hurt them both if they (inevitably) found out, maybe not because he genuinely wanted to hurt them but because he’s reckless and destructive in nature, (and maybe a little bit stupid sometimes), and just doesn’t know how else to handle or comprehend his feelings other than to take it out on other people.

i think a lot of the dickhead-ish shit zakk does in the movie seems kind of random and thoughtless and it’s difficult to unpick what his motivations are for the things he does aside from just ‘because’, but a lot of it starts to make a lot more sense when you see it as a result of him caring about brodie far more than he wants to, and not knowing how to handle it. he seems so cruel and uncaring, and he definitely wants to be seen that way, but i think he cares deeper than anyone else in his own (kind of incomprehensible) way. and yeah, it’s still shitty and selfish and fucked up, and he still took advantage of medina and used her regardless of why, but i dunno. i think the reasons for it were a lot more complex than he let on.

(again, maybe i’m reading too much into it all and he is just a fucking cunt who just did shitty things for no reason, but the fact that he still came back for brodie after everything, despite how mad he was, even though it led to him dying in the end, is more than enough to show that he really does care too much for his own good.)

so yeah uh. i don’t fucking know how this went from ‘yeah i think zakk/medina sucks’ to a full-on analysis of zakk. But i dont care actually i love being fucking insufferable about this stupid movie <3

sorry for the massive fucking wordvomit im tortured by the curse of Thinking about characters

[lemme-just-oops]

The urge to make an Obey Me + Arcana Twilight x reader fanfic is so strong 😭 but also I have been wondering how tf do school systems work in both those worlds. Like what is the age do these demons bros and magical casters finally get to graduate or do they not graduate at all??? How the heck did the teachers become teachers at RAD/Contell Academy when none of the students even graduated??? I get that knowledge expands and grows but is it necessary for them to stay at school for more than 1000s of years? I find it so confusing with games that have characters that are over 1000 years of old and are still going to school and none of them ever graduated—

I try to find an answer regularly, so: Here is how it may work in the Devildorm

Of course, a boring answer woud be that developers choose a school setting because their target audience still is in school, and that anyone can relate to it.

But we don't do boring answers like that.

In Obey Me, we know that Diavolo acts like a headmaster for the school. It might be that he -as the prince of hell- attempts to show his skills in leadership through this. And it definitely is a good training for him too, as he is costantly flooded with results from this. High grades show that his plans work, and that he is able to inspire younger generations. While bad grades would show a lack of discipline and a failure in his choice of staff.

Diavolo may use the demon brothers to keep an eye on the regular life of a student. The brothers serve as the first line of report, mentioning whether their workload is too high or understimulating, reporting on the behavior of teachers, the activities of clubs and probably some gossip.

Of course, Diavolo would not need all the brothers at school for this, but the more the better. After all, some of the brothers (*cough* Mammon *cough*) are not the most reliable. And with the differences of everyone's personality, Diavolo gets many different perspectives on the same choice.

But why do the brothers stay? Lucifer, of course, has no choice but to do Diavolo's bidding. I believe their motivations vary greatly, with Mammon being allured by the wage he gets from the position despite not doing much, but he still seeks out part-time jobs too. Leviathan because he can spend most of his time in front of a screen, not interacting with anyone socially. And with Satan constantly searching for more information, a school is the best place to stay. And Asmodeus thrives in an environment filled with beings whose hormones are on the loose and uncontrolled.

I can see that Beelzebub only stays because he wants everyone to stay together, which is why Belphegor has not sought his own path yet either.

Why do other students stay?

Of course, we cannot cover all reasons and we lack a lot of information. It is safe to assume that the devildom offers free housing to all their students, though. (After all, MC, Solomon and the angels do not appear to have taken part-time jobs to pay rent).

Some enjoy the scheduled lifestyle, not wanting to break away from a life they know. Maybe they only stay until they find a stable job and earn enough to live by themselves.

The brothers. All of the brothers (and Diavolo) are famous, and they have been harrassed by fans already. Some students probably stay around to be closer to them.

We all want an independency, with no curfew or rules set by our parents. The dorms offer this, while making it easy to spend time with peers.

And then there is one student. That one little unknown fool, who is older than some of the teachers. Only going to the school out of spite. Constantly saying in history classes: "Well, aCTuaLLy-". It has been centuries. Teachers want that classjester to finally leave.

Why do the teachers keep teaching?

Many people seek out a career that supports their life and interests. We do not know how often teachers change in the devildom. There may be a mix, with some teachers having taught for eons and others only for 50 years.

Some may break under the pressure, or lose interest and leave on their own will. Maybe some cannot keep up with the evolution of technological development.

Some of them may leave temporarily. Just like some humans take a year off to travel the world, teachers of the devildom may take years off to explore the different realms or to simply relax. After all, if they need to keep a job for eternity, they would be able to take years off just to rediscover themselves anew, and possibly switch their careers, or notice that they enjoy their current one.

Other reasons to stay would be: wage, the reputation of the school, interest in influencing younger generations.

[loz-furbies]

Now done with the first dungeon in Majora. It is a little worrying how just the first one took me two hours because it suggests I'll need to do the future ones in parts, which means having to re-collect all the fairies. The whole world resetting each cycle has already resulted in some busywork, like do I really have to do the "help Koume" thing every time I want to do the target practice boat ride mini game? And after the first dungeon there was the mini challenge where you have to follow the Deku butler through a timed dungeon (which the guide aptly calls "specifically designed to spite you"), but at that point I was just done with the dungeon and would have preferred to do something more chill for a bit. But instead I had to do the butler challenge before the time would be reset and require that I beat the swamp dungeon boss again for the butler to become available. Like the challenge was actually pretty fun, but I would really have preferred to do it on my own time.

In general the tree-day time limit has luckily stopped feeling like too much pressure and more like just a gameplay mechanic where you can casually just rewind time on evening of day 1 if you missed something even earlier. And I guess I do commend the game for sticking to its guns about the entire world resetting, and it certainly makes it more clear about what will be reset when the answer is "practically everything except what's in your inventory". I don't see the gameplay purpose of taking away even stuff like deku sticks though, like they max out at 10 anyway so it's not like I could just amass a huge amount of them.

Then there are the side quests and... Eh. Let's take an example. I hear from the town kids that there is a rumour about a Goron booking a room at the hotel, so I go and talk to the clerk, who tells the he booked the room on the afternoon of day 1. I can't find him in the rooms I'm allowed to enter, so I assume I must try to meet him when he enters the hotel, so I reset time and camp out in the lobby all afternoon. He eventually rolls in and I talk to him and the clerk, not getting any useful dialogue, and then he goes into his room without me being able to follow, and I just start getting the generic "can't enter this room" message again. So okay, what am I supposed to do then?

I'm under the impression that this is like a detective game where you collect information by being in the right place at the right time and then use it to your advantage in a next loop. So I figure if I'll just play more I'll learn that I need to first set up some special conditions to get a different result from the Goron, or that I'm not supposed to do anything at this point yet and his event will be in the future. But at this point the game doesn't give me any direction so the whole thing felt like a waste of time. So I could just be like "ok can't do anything about this right now but I'll keep this in mind so it can be useful later, and do some other side quests now", but I don't know what to do about them either. Like I've seen the dancer girls both in the hotel and practicing outdoors, but I didn't get anything I could do about them in either situation, the construction workers haven't said anything useful, I don't know what to do with the hotel clerk and her grandma, and so on. So it's just not very motivating to try to find something to do when all I get is dead ends. Or obviously I could just look it up but that just doesn't feel very fun.

I imagine it will be very rewarding when you do piece things together and figure out where you need to be and when, but I dunno man, if I was 11 I might have the motivation to learn this game inside and out and follow every npc through the whole 3 day cycle, but right now I can think of a lot of other things I'd rather be doing.

[autobot-ratchet]

MTMTE 17-19

MTMTE 17

“No cure for cybercrosis, but you can bet they've invented a million new ways to kill someone...” GOD. FUCKING. THE ABSOLUTE FUCKIGN STATE OF IT ALL I AM GOING TO CLAW MY OWN FACE OFF

“Not everyone's ready to give up on this- this very seductive idea that we're immortal,” he says while fiddling with his hands. Man he knew from the very beginning, huh, or at least had a feeling, even way back in issue one. Like sure, his hands were giving out, which meant the end of his career, but I think Ratchet knew his time in general was running out too. And getting Pharma's hands and being able to continue working never tricked him into thinking otherwise, just let him keep himself occupied while waiting it out

aaauufgdsjk Cyclonus is so upset... he likes Tailgate a lot but he can't bear to say it or to even properly express his grief...

Percy's smile is cute lmAO

Cyclonus is trying to give Tailgate a one-of-a-kind experience before his death...... aaaaAAAAAA........

to this day I am still so sad that Luna-1 igniting after Rodimus and Rung touched down on its surface was because of Rung and not Rodimus because I had so much fun with my “Rodimus knocked up the moon” jokes and it just doesn't hit the same with Rung lmfAO

“We could be looking at the next Optimus Prime or Ultra Magnus!” or the current Megatron, even

eyyy it's Dr. Giggles McChainsawhands

MTMTE 18

aww, Swerve considers Skids his best friend, they're both so cute

I love Swerve's big stupid blaster, I want a model of it for myself, where's that toy line, Hasbro

big fan of Cyclonus disobeying Rodimus's order not to engage with the decepticons alongside Whirl. Also a huge fan of Whirl asking Cyclonus if he wants to attack them with him as if he just invited him over for tea

love Rodimus cursing Tyrest out lmAO same buddy

God Pharma is so weird and gay at Ratchet lmfAO I said it before, I know it's actually pretty tragic how hard he fell off but also god. Look at this fuckin guy

I completely fucking forgot about Star Saber lmfAO

like. Pharma really did just remove Ratchet's head and spark from his body just for shits and giggles huh. I remember the first time I saw that panel with the reveal I thought Ratchet was dead for sure but nah, he's back to normal not much later and we just don't talk about the whole out-of-body experience ever again

love Rung subtly agitating Minimus until he snaps at him to test if he's actually Magnus, love that it works too lmAO

MTMTE 19

poor Magnus getting yelled at by Tyrest, it's not his fault the Lost Light is a disaster ship filled with a nonsense crew

Whirl was actually the first one to refer to Rodimus as Rodders lmAO I always remembered that as a Brainstorm thing

love Ratchet goading Pharma into putting him back in his body. He took him out of his body just to show off, why not have him put him back in, just to see if he can? 'course, it comes back to bite him in the ass but y'know

Whirl talking about how he doesn't get his claws replaced with hands because then the anger might fade and then he'd have no motivation is so fuckin real lmfAO I used to be so much more motivated than I am now and it was 100% out of rage and spite and lemme tell you, depression is starting to overpower the rage and spite and leave me not feeling much at all and it makes a big fuckin difference

aaaaaaaand rip Ambulon

eeeyyyyy it's the Circle of Light! Shame Drift got exiled right before we caught up with them lmAO man that still makes me sad, he was so excited to see them again...

YOU.

There's. Something to be said about Tyrest's bit about cold constructed bots being predisposed towards sin and that they'll eventually slip beyond god's reach, considering, y'know. Who he is lmfAO That's an entire post to be made in and of itself and I do not have to words or brainpower to make it right now but damn is this bit making me feel. something

and yknow what there's something even more to be said about Tyrest's new take on the law what with him being Who He Is. The whole concept of integration of religion into law (as in forcing the rules of your religion to be everyone's rules that they have to follow or be punished, regardless of whether they practice said religion or not) skeeves me the fuck out to begin with but this is. This is a lot lmfAOgfdhsjk a god not knowing he's a god but being a fanatical believer of god to the point of literal genocide is. It's something

[hellmouth-manor]

ophiuchus || miori || mm.3 || re: FOR GODS SAKE

Of course.

Of course it’s Micah.

Of course it’s one of the few people she felt she could have called a friend.

Of course it’s the one person in more than a decade she’s been able to let herself grow close to, the one person that called to mind someone she’d long since lost.

Of course it’s someone who was there for her, continuously, in spite of everything. Who never seemed to be put off despite her flaws, despite the things she’s done, despite who she is. 

Of course it’s someone who felt, at least for a little bit, like family to her, like a brother she hadn’t had in a long, long time.

Of course she has to lose that someone all over again.

While everyone else hurls insults or appeals or whatever they please at him, Miori keeps her eyes down. There’s a long while where it’s hard to tell what it is she’s feeling - she simply stares, nearly unblinking, at the floor.

And then, finally, she speaks. 

“… You said… you said you did this because you wanted, what, friendship? Because you were lonely? Is that it? What— What about your friends here? Your actual fucking friends, not… not someone who used it as a bargaining chip. What…”

She turns her eyes upwards, finally. It looks like it takes everything in her to tear them away from the ground, and when she manages, they’re filled with hurt and sadness and pain. There might be a flicker of anger, a tiny little spark, but it’s far too drowned out by every other feeling to be fed.

“… What about me…?”

She sucks in a breath, and it’s shaky. 

“It wasn’t… Were you… just playing along when you came to talk to me after I stabbed Olwin? You could’ve avoided me, or— or you could have just gotten mad at me, but you didn’t. Or when— when I came up to yell at you at the pool, and you ended up telling me about chicken suit obstacle courses and cucking Texans, and you made fun of me for liking Kamiya, and we talked about Love Live. Or when I greeted you at the theme park by telling you to get your hair out of the way and we ended up playing carnival games anyway. Or… Or when I told you to leave me alone during the motive, and you tried to help me anyway. Or when you kept… treating me like a person after what I did.”

By the time she’s finished her recollection, brought to mind every little moment she could manage to reasonably squeeze in, her voice is weak and wavering. She doesn’t look away this time, though. She doesn’t try to hide the tears that trail down her cheeks. Earlier, she might have been ashamed of showing something she thought to be such a potent sign of weakness, but it was people like Micah who managed to make her think otherwise.

She’d thought so, at least.

“… How can you call that playing along…? I kept… trying to keep you away, and you’d never do it. You’d never leave me alone.”

Miori shakes her head, more to herself than anyone else.

“… You can say whatever you want, but… but I refuse to believe… that none of that was real. I don’t… want to believe that.”

[eukaryotesrool]

"10 Disney Villains Who Were Kinda Right" Is silly

Article (Read to see their full arguements, I'll be taking highlights)

Because when I think morally correct villains, I think Disney.

In fairnes, this article isn't saying they're right... its saying they're kinda right, so I'll keep that in mind, I guess.

I had my pick of the litter, there's SO many articles like this. About Disney and other works of fiction. Welp, lets do this.

The intro gives a us a look into the mentality of this article... it's confusing

"We're not saying their methods are necessarily good, but we can't say we don't understand their reasons..." (Excerpt)

Back home we call that having a motive. Having a motive is part of being a character, anything as good and logical as. "I wanna save the world, to help people." Or evil and illogical as. "I had a bad life, so I spite the world back and destroy it!" Are motives, having a motive doesn't make you a paragon of moral righeousness! Being able to sympathize with a character doesn't make them "kinda right", and trust me, the author sympathizes a lot.

"...It makes us wonder how many of Disney's noble heroes were the ones in the wrong. Get ready to rethink your favorite fairy tales as we look at 10 Disney villains who were actually right." (Excerpt)

Alright, now I get it, the villain just has to be better than the protagonists, lets see about that...

Also, I guess they are RIGHT and not KINDA RIGHT, pick a lane Screenrant!

Mr. Waternoose

(It's almost too easy)

"Kidnapping children is never okay in our books" (excerpt)

what an absolute saint you are.

"but" (excerpt)

Of course...

"At risk of exposing an entire world of monsters to the world of humans, anyone might do anything. If we take the child-endangerment charges off the record, Waternoose intended to keep an entire dimension of monsters safe from human interference." (Excerpt)

You don't get to just ignore crimes, that's not how it works!

Either way, that wasn't his motive.

"It's a case of the needs of the many vs. the needs of the few." (Excerpt)

They never say Sully or Mike are bad people, and there's an argument to be made their version of Waternoose is a terrible guy, but, again that's not his motive. Lemme pull up the quote.

"I'll kidnap a thousand children before I let this company die, and I'll silence anyone who gets in my way!" ~Mr Waternoose

He wants his company to keeo going regardless of who it hurts, he's a fictional version of those god damn petrol barons.

Stinky Pete

(Forgive me, but I haven't seen Toy Story 2 in a while, I did quick research. But please correct any mistakes I may have made.)

"After living in the shadow of space-toys and "spending a lifetime on a dimestore shelf, watching every other toy be sold," we'd be pretty salty too." (Excerpt)

"I'd be angry too if I had a bad dad, the genocide's okay!"

He has a motive, doesn't make him good, right, or better than the protagonists.

"He only wants the love and adoration he's been so long without. Is that really a crime?" (Excerpt)

No, that's a motive, he trys to force and manipulate other people just to give himself a happy ending that is a crime.

Again, no meaningful statements about the protagonists to paint them as worse than the villain.

Shere Khan

(Live action version specifically)

Main character is a child who committed no crimes, main villain is an attempted child murderer.

"Idris Elba's version knew the ferocious power of man and knew that even a cute kid like Mowgli could potentially be a threat to the jungle. " (Excerpt)

"He seeks to destroy Mowgli before the man-cub destroys the ecosystem." (Excerpt)

So... he's playing judge jury and executioner to a child who's only misdeed is being born in a certain way and who's actually lived attuned to nature for years, WHAT A NICE GUY!

"Ravenous predator or a concerned conservationist? You decide." (Excerpt)

I decide? Oooh goody, I choose overzealous misanthrope.

Also, where'd they get "ravenous predator" from? It feels like they're trying to make the opposition look stupid by misrepresenting them... or maybe I'm digging too deep.

Captain Gantu

"After reviewing the evidence, we're not really sure Gantu qualifies as a villain" (Excerpt)

Wait? You reviewed something before writing this? I wasn't even sure you ever watched the movies!

Alright, being a rude little bitch aside. Admittably he's a less evil villain, he even gets redeemed! But, ehhhh

They also don't really make a point of Stitch being worse than Gantu, even though they're supposed to make the villains seem better than the heroes.

He's a bit of jerk, and goes to far, but, oh yeah!

"Sadly though, he loses favor with the council and must join forces with Dr. Hämsterviel in the sequel." (Excerpt)

He's quick to betray the council, but eh, unless I'm misremembering, his inclusion in this list might be fair.

Sid Philips

Nooooooooo! Don't make a good point twice in a row!

"For the sake of discussion, let's remove the blowing-up-toys portion of the equation and talk about Sid." (Excerpt)

Oh thank goodness, even if they're right, they can't present it in a logical way.

"For the sake of discussion, your honor, we shall ignore my client's three counts of 1st degree murder... he ain't such a bad person now, right!?"

"Think about it, he might blow toys to bits, but he uses their parts to create new ones. That's the sign of an artist if you think about it." (Excerpt)

I-... sure, I'd just argue he's a child with seemingly bad parents and HAS NO WAY OF KNOWING TOYS ARE ALIVE.

But no, Sid is a complete monster, as we all know everyone who gave their Barbies haircuts and attempted makeup is evil and should be convicted of torture.

Syndrome

"Syndrome, in the end, was a bad dude. No questions asked." (Excerpt)

THEN WHY IS HE ON THIS LIST YOU MUFFIN!

"But" (Excerpt)

Every time...

"he did sort of have the right idea by making everyone super." (Excerpt)

That wasn't his plan, he wanted to be the most special guy ever by saving the city from a problem he created. He says he'll make everyone super when he's old and bored and ready to sell his tech.

aaaaand then they talk about how he was turned down by Bob, that doesn't excuse him, and it doesn't make Bob worse than him (especially because Bob grew as a person since then)

Captain Hook

(It's almost like the author was arbitrarily given a list of villains and then needed to justify them)

"Let's look at Hook's backstory, shall we? He was just sailing about Marooner's Rock, doing what pirates are want to do," (Excerpt)

Excuse me, is that your newest method of handwaving a villain's crimes? I like it!

"He was just strolling through town, doing what all serial killers want to do."

"the tight-clad hero slices his hand off and feeds it to Tick-Tock the Croc. Who sounds like the villain in that story?" (Excerpt)

Are... are they now trying to insinuate the guy they JUST CALLED "HERO" is the villain? This is just next level sloppy.

"Captain Hook's gripe with Peter Pan isn't out of pure evil, but justice. Losing the hand was one thing, losing it to a flying boy is another, but watching it get chomped by a crocodile just takes the cake. " (Excerpt)

Justice? They're just using it as fancy word for what it is, revenge.

Either way, MAYBE Peter went to too far, but he was still the hero stopping the villain, and any justification the not-so-good Captain has is lost when he drags the random children into the cross-fire of his revenge scheme.

"Is he really the villain, or simply a very driven man?" (Excerpt)

Lines like that is why I love these articles.

To bring logic anyone could probably figure out for themselves: being driven doesn't effect your morality, a good guy can be driven, as can a bad guy.

Captain Hook is both, he's a very driven villain.

Yzma

(She was so evil that it was a literal joke)

For the first time they argue a very evil antagonist deserves to be on this list because they're better than a very evil protagonist.

"Just because she's got the ghoulish looks doesn't mean she would have been any worse than her predecessor. Yeah, there was the peasant scene at the beginning, but would Kuzco have done any better?" (Excerpt)

In fact, that's all they argue, that's their whole point. All while missing that Kuzco GROWS as a person, redeeming himself, Yzma never does. That was the fucking point of the movie!

Edgar

(No, not Edgar Allan Poe. The other, less cool, Edgar.)

"Edgar the butler from The Aristocats isn't a bad guy, he's just been totally screwed over." (Excerpt)

Edgar's not the worst villain, especially beside Yzma and Shere Khan, but he is by no means better than the protagonists.

"A faithful butler playing second fiddle to a family of housecats? Sounds like Madame is just as goofy as that crackpot lawyer of hers." (Excerpt)

He did his job, what does he want? A cookie? It's amazing he's on the will at all!

Yeah, it's silly cats inherit the fortune, but answer this. Who's better? A pet kidnapper, animal abuser, and attempted cat murderer or cats?

Yeah, just take a moment, it's a real thinker.

He's also motivated purely by greed.

"Why, there are a million reasons why I should! All of them dollars. Millions. Those cats have got to go!" ~Edgar

WHAT A LOVELY CHAP!

Anton Ego

I was hoping this list would be closed off with a bang, like Scar, Ursula, or Lady Tremaine (some lists did try to justify all three of those folks, though)... but no, sad.

"Blah blah, he was just doing his job, blah blah" (paraphrasing of the article)

I never viewed the guy as a villain since Chef Skinner is the main villain of the movie and Anton doesn't feel evil, I agree with the author there, his inclusion on this list feels boring, it's not really saying anything of note yet its the last entry. Granted, he IS on the villains wiki, so I concede that he's a villain.

BUT, calling him "kinda right" is foolish, his whole arc in the movie was learning he was wrong!

As usual, this isn't an attack on the author, I'm just lightheartedly mocking the article because I think its... well, silly.

[icharchivist]

I do believe that Belial was always hoping someone would stop him. That's why he helped the Singularity as much as he did.

After all, his goal was never to destroy the world, but to be with Lucilius. He couldn't openly betray him, cause then Lucilius wouldn't keep him around anymore, so he hoped that someone else would stop their evil plans.

Maybe he was even disappointed in Lucifer for not catching on sooner and stopping them before anyone important got hurt.

That might be a motivator, deep down.

Doesn't excuse it though.

yeah ofc i have no intention to excusing Belial's behavior on this blog (in fact i genuinely want to remind everyone of his attrocities at all time)

but i do find it more interesting that he has this edge to him, of, deep down there's a better side of him, but this side of him gets in the way of what he believes he must do to gain Lucilius's love, so he would constantly erase this side of him, no matter how much it pained him.

And in the end, it's Belial's choices. he choses to stubborningly carry on his purpose even if he blames it on primals not being able to fight them. he choses to cause apocalypses even though he doesn't specifically want to destroy the world since he wants to live with Lucilius in it. he choses to do those things even if deep down he wishes there was another path, but acknowledging this other path would mean acknowledging that he has been straying too far from it for too long now.

He choses to be on this path, no matter how much he hates it, and in a sense he convinces himself that this is the path he must follow. But i feel like, he can't help sabotaging himself. When things are the way he wants them to be AND when things are the way he doesn't want them to be.

So yeah i definitely feel like he wishes people would stop him in some way but he's still the one who CHOSES over and over the path he wants people to stop him from.

I also think about the Seraphic quest and how he constantly appears to tell MC to drop the quest before they're corrupted, then MC becomes corrupted and he laughs it off about how he's happy MC is going down that path, then when MC is corrupted he tries to take advantage of it, but the moment MC overcomes the corruption to rebel against him, Belial doesn't force it. He backs down almost immediately. It's like, he doesn't want us to go down that path, but if we choses to do so then he'll have fun watching us go down, but if we fight it, he'll also be glad.

I think originally yeah, like you say, it's all about justifying his place near Lucilius. And eventually it just became a second nature to do that, over and over again, no matter what he truly wants.

And i would love this idea of him spiting Lucifer for not realizing what Belial was doing and still dying even if it was Belial's plan, i love this idea of Belial spiting Sandalphon because if he hadn't been there maybe his plan wouldn't have worked, all while liking MC and co because we're constantly stopping him in the ways that interests him and allow him to get what he actually wants.

idk i just really love this framing of Belial just constantly, compulsively, self sabotaging, because he convinced himself there was only one way for him to do things to fit his nature, and he choses to carry through this path, so much so it becomes a second nature, while just hoping people would oppose this side of him as well.

I think it makes for interesting characterization and nothing in Belial's writing oppose to that idea, and there's plenty of way to still find this reading in his action.

So i really like to think about it that way too.

[knowlessman]

benny no hill adventures (bnha) s2e17-20

why DOES this man have no nose, anyway?

think this OP's growing on me more than the other ones tbh

"look properly at what you want to be" damn I wish I wanted to be anything

hm. is Stain cleaned up, then? nobody's been dying so far, I doubt they did him in by accident (in spite of, y'know, covering him with fire, which can fry your lungs like instantly according to a CSI episode I saw once)

okay, now THAT is either a dead nomu or Mr X, no way that's not lethal force

huh, Brooklyn has a hostage (starting to kind of miss that show, but dang did Goliath Chronicles get boring) -- elemental spears? who are you, Gwyn?

"the fight with Stain probably only took ten minutes" I've played DnD. ten minutes is forever. heck, ONE minute is a long time.

…whut

-- well I guess that one's explicitly a dead nomu

handface's costume just kind of looks like nothing when he's only got the one hand on him. looks like a shitty onesie. thought wearing baby clothes was mineta's bag

:O he DOES have a nose. I guess it was burned off, maybe? kinda looks like michael jackson's, tbh

"at that moment, a broken rib pierced his lung" …deku did you just kill a man

"on that water tower. are those onlookers? why's one of them wearing a black onesie?" wait I think it's not a onesie, I think it's a black long-sleeved shirt with completely featureless black pants but wow is that just not even a look, especially next to portal guy's fucking classy bartender getup

-- googles sorry, apparently what I thought it was was a romper

the piece of chileaf is a dog man. …idk, tracks (as it were) I guess? one of the detectives is a catperson.

-- …this "we have to punish you for intervening but only if this is made public" bit is very long-winded and, tbph, not really understandable. hell, the kids were doing some kind of ride-along thing to begin with, and considering they're all effectively armed and far closer to combat-ready than makes any sense outside of shonen… yeah this kind of just feels like a waste of time. although I guess, realistically, if superpowers became the norm it'd take hella long for any country's laws to be able to change enough for anything to make sense

-- …come to think of it, america would probably encourage this kind of thing but holy shit the place would just look like a pile of warring apocalypses by a couple generations in, the life expectancy would be down the toilet

there was some kid's show that had dog heads on top of human bodies, it was a bit terrifying and I have no earthly idea what it was called but I'm sure it was real. might've just been one segment of a different show

this random newscaster guy either is part tiefling or just wandered in from jojo part 6

DANCING BOY. IT'S THE DANCING BOY, THE BOY WHO DANCES. IS HE THE GUY MAKING NOMUS, DON'T TELL ME -- wait, nomu. yoshimitsu soul calibur, that's what it's been reminding me of. 's one of his mantras.

if a radio buzzes in the forest and no one is around to hear it - oh nvm, apparently alt-color Blanka is around to hear it

ohey it's knife girl… shit, I've sort of heard a little bit about her quirk, wonder if she's a relative of stain's

…wait, handface was literally just competing for ratings? what a loser.

hehehehehe bakugo still has that boy band reject 'do

'XD (todoroki going "I must be cursed, people around me keep fucking up their hands!")

(all might's ringtone) "I AM… ANSWERING THE PHONE LIKE A NORMAL PERSON!"

"stain's Cha stat is too high" krisma. bags of it. -- "those puny little ants outnumber us a hundred to one. and if they ever figure that out…" um, good thing Stain and Every Villain is Losers have nothing in common then.

I thought facepalm's only motive was killing all might. stain apparently thinks All Might's "the only true hero." …shrugs Well, I guess we haven't seen any of these copycats or whatnot actually interacting with the League yet, so maybe those auditions won't go anywhere and they'll have to start their own thing

todoroki: "they said endeavor defeated the killer when he didn't actually do anything. I want to see his expression." deku (to himself, thankfully): "you become kind of mean when it comes to endeavor, huh todoroki?" …! deku. deku wtf, you say the weirdest fucking things

…jeanist's costume is so friggin weird, it has a built-in cone of shame and the cone has a belt on it, I can't get over it

bakugo's fucking internship hair tho 'XD he looks like a snooty nepo baby, rather than… well, the opposite I guess… but anyway, rather than a guy who had to be put in a Hannibal costume after winning first place

jeanist's cone of shame has fucking back pockets, really tho wtf

'XDDD the fucking slime monster hostage thing again, bakugo is gonna be hit over the head with that for the rest of his life and it is gonna be hilarious every time -- "I wasn't captured, I was strategizing" "he's too proud" water's damp

gonna say. earphone jack's costume might be my favorite. it's just regular fucking clothes. it's, like, idk, stylish-(?)-but-not-overstated, normal-ass, comfortable-looking clothes that you can run in. (I might have already said this, not sure)

(froppy's internship with the smugglers or whatnot) "Boss Innsmouth" oh, that bodes well -- Innsmouth must be the Parent Inkling, judging by the size of that tentacle -- …hm. aye, that was fun

next one's a loredump, judging from the title, but let's have it

it's not a big thing, but I swear I don't remember iida always waving his arms around like this in season 1. he just kinda started doing it around the beginning of season 2. still feels kinda weird tbh.

let yaoyozorazoru - …let quiet metal gear (sorry) wear clothes challenge whatever year this was

(rescue race) "who do you think will win?" "deku will be last!" 'XD bakugo could be watching a competition with neither him nor deku in it and he'd still say that

all might with the american thighs. gonna be honest, was not expecting buttcam in this show.

(worst character found something) oh, for fuck's sake -- (kyoka put his eye out) damn straight.

("you remember how One for All is transferred, right?") uhhh… -- JESUS CHRIST

…well dang, ancient evil and everything huh (well, if a handful of generations counts as "ancient." a forgotten evil anyways) -- "as long as you're with me, I can do anything!" you're talking to a guy who coughs up blood every coupla minutes when he's not in super mode

seems like a decent stopping point. -- …they hid more episode after the ending; I coulda missed this bit. : / …I coulda missed mineta yelling about hot springs, anyway. is there anything here that I wouldn't just get from the next episode? -- "that kid will be the next me" dint know orochimaru was in this show

"here's the preview!" thanks for the warning deku; aye, this's my stop

[welcometomy20s]

March 6, 2023

The transition between Early Capitalism and Late Capitalism comes from the shift between how the market is pushed. At first, the market reacts to the natural changes in demand, but more and more the market goes from trying to respond to demand to creating demand where there was none. I know some have blamed Edward Bernays, but if not Bernays, someone else would have created the idea of marketing, because the need to create demand, opposed to simply responding to demand, as the market gets old and more mature is inevitable.

Early on, perhaps because the marketing was always tied to war and aggression, marketers realized that it was anger and spite that motivated, therefore the driver of demand, us the most, not happiness. Anger, like passion, is a dirty fuel, and they have fueled this powerful but dirty fuel, with the help of a physical dirty fuel, fossil fuels, they created a dizzyingly high level of progress with the massive side effect of inequality and discord in other systems.

This rapid rise has interesting consequences in terms of population. In a rapidly rising economy, most of the money will be better as investment, because if you keep the money, then it will be useless because the rise of productivity causes inflation due to Baumol’s cost disease. Raising a child is also an investment, but the investment works that the cost of raising a child gets outweighed by wages/salary given to the child, and when we get development, this stops being a thing. And also because of inflation that initial cost is high, which leads to people making babies later so that they have money to actually take care of the child, which would decrease the number sheerly through just having less time available, including return of investment.

Of course, as you see in the stage of societal development that this actually can go both ways, it might stabilize, like in environmental situations, but like some environmental situations, it might spiral and this is obviously bad, because once the spiral starts, it can’t be contained.

Once you get a fewer working age people, they have to hold up more of the population, which means they need to work more to support older people, which means they might not enough to make babies to support them, which can be seen with the rate of old-age workers in countries such as South Korea, and of course without those babies there will be fewer people, and soon the whole economy collapse due to just not able people to function the parts of society.

Well there is one other solution, which is… immigration, which will bring working people from outside, but there might be other forces that try to stop this, ironically, therefore sealing their doom. Personally I think the rate of acceptance of immigrants is the primary reason I think South Korea has a better chance of surviving than Japan.

[silversatoru]

Can i regurst a gojo x reader smut where y/n is gojo’s ex girlfriend and also a strong jujutsu sorcerer and they get back together asdfghjkl 🥺😂? Tyy 🥺

hehhee yes ma’am here u are!!! i actually loved writing this one (i think i just have a thing for writing gojo lately lmao) anyway! i! hope! you! enjoy!

to heaven and back

gojo satoru x f! sorcerer!reader

synopsis: you and your ex, gojo satoru, beat the hell out of a few special grade curses and then head back to his house to rekindle an old (and kind of kinky) flame

tags/warnings: nsfw (18+), smut, handcuffs, blindfolding, little bit of oral sex, teasing, alcohol consumption, some fluff at the end? just a little

word count: 3.1k

You lifted your elegant glass of random wine that you could care less about knowing the name of, and took a long sip. All of these old rich bastards talked way too much about brand names, aging, and what cheese paired well with each wine. They were missing what was really important — which one would get you drunk the quickest. 

These kinds of formal events weren’t really your scene, and having to listen to a bunch of old, conservative, high-up jujutsu leaders was terribly boring — so why not take this opportunity to get a little tipsy? You deserved it for putting up with all of these assholes. After all, the only reason they invited you to this prestigious event was for protection. If that pesky band of special grade curses caught wind that all of the higher ups from both Kyoto and Tokyo were in the same place, they were sure to launch some kind of attack. The old, wrinkly douchebags couldn’t care less about your opinions of the jujutsu world and how you would change it, they only liked you for incredible cursed technique. 

And so here you were, spitefully wearing your most elegant dress and downing glasses of wine in an attempt to drown out all of the nonsense around you. There was only one thing that could make this event any worse and— 

“Hello everyone! The strongest jujutsu sorcerer has arrived — I know you were all looking forward to my appearance”. 

And there it was. There was that one thing that could make this event any worse. Gojo Satoru.

You dipped your head low, burying yourself in your glass of wine and praying to any god who would listen to not let this man see you. It’s been over two years since the two of you broke up, but he still wasn’t someone you enjoyed running into. 

Gojo was terribly notorious for having a long line of girls at his disposal, and with his incredible strength and annoyingly good-looks, it wasn’t hard to understand why. The two of you had never been in an officially committed relationship, and so technically Gojo was free to do as he pleased — but you were practically dating and your heart ached every time you caught wind of him being with another woman. And so two years ago you cut things off with him for good — you were tired of being the one he always ran back to at the end of the day. 

He’d looked at you with eyes full of pain that night, begging and pleading to stay with him. He showed you a vulnerable side to him that you had never seen before — and he swore to you that if you had asked to make things official, he would have committed himself to you fully. You declined however, because you felt like you shouldn’t have needed to ask for that kind of thing — but maybe that was just your ego getting in the way. 

“Hey, beautiful, I’ve never seen you around before, you must be from the Tokyo campus,” Some random assistant casually leaned against the counter you were sitting at and shook you out of your thoughts.

“If you’ve never seen me before then you must not be very important,” You shot him a distasteful glance, taking another sip of your wine. 

The man’s face lit up with panic — he must not have been expecting such retaliation to his pathetic attempt of flirting. 

“Are you bothering her?” A familiar voice came from behind you — a long, slender hand slapping down onto your shoulder, “Please don’t flirt with my wife”. 

“Ah- Wife? I’m so sorry, sir,” The man stumbled over his words, bowing his head to Gojo and scurrying away. 

Gojo wasted no time sliding into the seat next to you and pouring himself a glass of wine from the bottle you’d already been working on. 

“Really? You’re telling people I’m your wife now?” You gave him a deadpanned look. 

“It worked, didn’t it?” He shrugged his shoulders and took a sip from his glass. 

You rolled your eyes hard, “Why are you here, Satoru?” 

“Same reason as you. The old, conservative pussies are afraid those special grades might attack — so why not invite their two prized sorcerers to protect them?” 

“Fair,” You let out a heavy sigh, “Not sure that was their best move though — I don’t think either one of us is very motivated to save these fuckers”. 

“No, but I brought my students with me today. So, if anything does happen, make sure you put on a show for them,” He winked, already topping off his wine glass. 

You looked over to see a few kids sitting a couple tables away from the two of you, chatting amongst themselves and wondering why the fuck they had to be here. 

And so an hour or two went by, and to your surprise, you found yourself laughing hysterically alongside Gojo. The two of you had definitely drank a bit too much, and your personalities complimented each other a little too perfectly. You shared the same terrible sense of humor and he had quite the knack for bringing out this lighthearted side of you. You had missed moments like this these past two years. 

Neither of you were paying any attention to the current debate that was occurring between the higher ups when a loud crash sent broken pieces of glass flying through the grand hall. Sure enough, the curses had made their appearance and came flying into the building through a now broken window.

“It’s our time to shine, huh?” Gojo looked over at you, and you imagined that his icy blue eyes were swirling with excitement under that mask. 

“Yeah, let’s make this quick,” You found a warm ball of excitement churning in your own stomach — it’d been a long time since the two of you had fought together. 

Your technique revolved around the manipulation of cursed energy and converting it into light. You could wrap yourself in a shield of light, send curse-filled bursts of light at your enemies, and move at the speed of light as well — which was almost as efficient as Gojo’s teleportation abilities. You had a series of more advanced moves as well, but those required more energy output and therefore you used them a little less often.

The two of you were both able to move so fast that the curses really didn’t stand a chance. You found yourself laughing as you flipped through the air, hurling balls of light at the curses as Gojo worked closer in hand-to-hand combat. At one point, while the two of you were flying past each other, Gojo stuck out his hand and gave you a high five, both of you smiling like maniacs who enjoyed fighting a little too much. 

Between Gojo’s Limitless and your extreme agility and bursts of light, the curses were quickly forced to flee. Both of you were feeling much too drunk and much too lazy to chase after them, even with all of the higher ups begging you to do so. Gojo simply flipped them off and stuck out his tongue, saying that he did what they paid him to do — keep the curses away — and now that the curses had been scared off, he was no longer needed. 

“You want to come back with me, relieve more of our old memories together? I remember how much you loved sleeping in my king sized bed,” Gojo looked back at you, offering one of his large, slender hands. 

Maybe it was the alcohol or maybe it was your stupid, stupid heart, but you reached out and took his hand, “Fuck it, let’s go”. 

Gojo’s house on the outskirts of the Tokyo campus was just as you remembered — sleek black interior with modern furniture and extravagantly silky sheets on his bed — his same bed that you were currently sprawled out on, laying in nothing but your undergarments. 

Gojo joined you a couple minutes later, his bare skin warm and familiar against yours. He pressed a few sloppy kisses to your lips, both of you still incredibly tipsy and unable to stop the small giggles from leaking out between your lips while you kissed. 

“Take the blind fold off you weirdo,” You pulled at the back of the black fabric. 

“Mmm, okay,” He mumbled, undoing the knot and exposing his piercing blue eyes.

“So pretty,” You murmured under your breath — his eyes really were the most beautiful thing you’d ever seen in your life

His fluffy silver hair fell down messily over his face, a drunken smile stretched across his lips. His smile quickly turned into a devilish grin as he slipped the mask over your eyes instead, tying a tight not at the back of your head.

“This isn’t what I meant,” You droned, but you didn’t argue — you certainly weren’t opposed to being blindfolded.

“It looks good on you,” He slurred, his words messy and his lips even messier as he pressed them back against yours. 

The kisses seemed to last forever, and both of you were perfectly okay with that — your hands taking their time exploring each other’s bodies for the first time in far too long. 

Gojo’s hands worked their way up your back, tracing lines along your toned muscles until he finally reached the nape of your neck. His fingers entangled themselves in your hair, soft hums coming from his lips.

“I still have handcuffs, if you’re still into that sort of thing,” he mused, massaging his fingertips into your scalp. 

“Damn, I can’t believe you remember what I like. I thought my preferences would have gotten lost among the sea of other women you were pleasing,” You let the snarky remark roll off your tongue, though there was clearly no real spite in your words — you’re both adults and what happened then was in the past now.

“It wasn’t even that many,” He defended, “And you were the only one who ever mattered”. 

“I’m flattered,” You laughed, “Now, where are those handcuffs?” 

Gojo stifled a deep laugh, his hands leaving your hair as he lifted himself up and stood from the bed. When he returned a few moments later, there was cool metal wrapping around both of your wrists. He had two sets of handcuffs, putting one on each wrist and then hooking the other side to the bed posts. 

You were entirely at his disposal now, your hands secured over your head and your vision blocked off by the black mask. 

“I could tickle you right now and there’s nothing you could do,” Gojo observed aloud, pressing kisses up the side of your torso.

“Satoru, I would kick the living shit out of you,” You threaten, goosebumps growing under your skin. 

“Yeah, but you can’t touch me unless I let you,” He retaliated, his soft hands reaching underneath your bra to feel your breasts.

You groaned in response — his Limitless really did make him impossible.

He cupped each of his hands around your firm lumps, gently massaging them between his fingers. His cool fingertips then made their way down to your lower body, swiftly removing your remaining underwear. You were now completely exposed to him, chills running down your spine as you wondered what he would do next. 

You heard a shaky breath leave his lips, his hungry hands massaging circles into your thighs, “God, you’re so beautiful. I missed you so much, you know that?” 

“I’m sure you did,” You breathed, “I’m a wonderful person to be around”. 

Gojo let out a hearty laugh, and you heard what you assumed to be the sound of his own underwear getting thrown to the floor. A few seconds later he was straddling your torso, his warm thighs wrapped around your body. You couldn’t see it, but you knew his massive member had to be right in front of your face now. 

“Remind me what that pretty mouth can do,” He cooed, pressing the tip of his length gently to your lips. 

You graciously granted him access, parting your lips and taking the head of his cock into your mouth. You swirled your tongue around the sensitive tip, earning a few twitches from Gojo’s body. You began to bob your head back and forth as much as the handcuffs allowed, a few quiet moans leaving his throat in response. 

He began to move his hips against you, gingerly pushing his member deeper and deeper into your mouth until you were taking the full length down your throat. He groaned and let a few curse words slide from between his teeth — your mouth was wrapped so perfectly around him. Tears pricked at your eyes and a couple rough gags ripped through your throat, Gojo finally pulling away and allowing you to catch your breath. 

After that, you felt a single one of his long, slim fingers slide into your mouth, and you wasted no time wrapping it in your tongue and sucking hard. 

“Good girl,” He murmured, plucking his finger back out of your mouth and moving it down to your aching entrance. 

Between the saliva on his finger and the slick juices around your opening — his finger slid in effortlessly. He started moving in quick movements, curling his finger up into your g-spot each time. A few light moans left your lips, your fists clenching in the cuffs as your yearned for more. His finger felt good, but you wanted the real thing — you needed it.

“Satoru, please,” You practically whined his name, a tiny bit ashamed for how desperate you were for him right now. 

“Patience, love,” He clicked his tongue and your heart did somersaults at the endearing name. 

He removed his singular finger and intertwined it with a second one before sliding them back into your cavern. He picked up a steady pace again, your breath hitching in your throat. Two fingers was certainly better than one, but the continuous teasing was just making you even more desperate to feel his member inside of you. You mumbled his name over and over, small pleads and shameless whispers leaving your mouth as you bucked your hips against his hands.

“No ones fucked you as good as I used to, have they? You’re horribly desperate right now” He clicked his tongue again, removing his fingers and moving them up to your clit. He rubbed the smallest, softest circles against the small nub, your core growing warmer with desire. 

“I won’t make you wait any longer then,” He whispered, sitting back and positioning the head of his length against your throbbing cunt. 

“Please,” You mumbled fervently, any ego or pride that you once had was completely down the drain now. 

Your pleads were finally rewarded, Gojo pressing himself deep into your tight walls. The immediate feeling was complete bliss, your head rolling back in pleasure as you heard a throaty moan creep it’s way out of Gojo’s mouth. His moans were so pretty — god, you’d missed the sound of them.  

He moved in and out at a tantalizingly slow pace at first, your hips bucking and wiggling as you made fervent attempts to make him go faster.

“So eager…” He shook his head, continuing to move at a pace that was absolutely agonizing — you thought you might die if he didn’t rail the hell out of you soon. 

“Please, fuck,” You gasped, “Stop moving so goddamn slowly”. 

“Your whines are so pretty, baby. Say my name and maybe I’ll give you what you want,” He murmured, his voice low and husky. 

“Fucking hell,” You gritted your teeth, “Please Satoru, please fuck me already”. 

“Shit,” He mumbled under his breath, your words sending electricity coursing through his body. 

After hearing you say that, he was quick to give you what you wanted, picking up his pace and wrapping his hands firmly around your hips. Strangled combinations of moans, whimpers, and cries filled the air as they flew from your mouth. You didn’t care how loud or desperate you sounded, you wanted him to know how good he was making you feel. 

The two of you were an entangled mess of sweaty skin and throaty moans, Gojo filling your ears with praises and compliments the entire time. His lengthy member railed into you over and over, hitting that perfect pleasure point with each stroke and sending warm surges of ecstasy through your veins. 

Your bodies moved together in sync, your breaths aligning and your climaxes threatening to arrive simultaneously. After a few more firm strokes, you felt yourself drowning in pleasure — euphoria crashing through your body like waves. Gojo reached his end point just a few moments later, his loud cuss words and strangled moans filling your ears. 

The two of you rode out your orgasms together, and almost immediately afterwards Gojo collapsed next to you. He lazily reached up and uncuffed each of your hands, leaving the cuffs dangling from his bed posts just in case there was a round two in his future. He rolled the sticky condom off his member and tossed into a nearby trash bin, a relaxed sigh slipping between his parted lips. You peeled the black mask off of your eyes, finally able to meet his again. 

He was staring at you with eyes filled with all kinds of emotions — the emotions that he’d been too afraid to admit to the first time the two of you were together. But he wasn’t afraid of commitment anymore, he was absolutely certain about what he wanted, and it was you. 

“Stay with me,” He asked, his eyes pleading with you, “I’m ready this time, I promise. I’m all yours, if you’ll have me”. 

You found a small smile tugging at the edges of your lips as you looked deeper into his eyes, “Of course I’ll stay, as long as you still feel this way when you wake up sober tomorrow”. 

“I’ll feel this way forever,” He pressed his head into you and mumbled into your chest, “And I’ll remind you as many times as you need to hear it”. 

You wrapped your arms around him in response, the two of you fitting impeccably together. He placed a few gentle kisses to your skin before his breathes began to slow. You found your own breathing to be evening out, your cloudy thoughts pushing you closer and closer to sleep. The two of you slowly drifted off together, your heavy breaths falling perfectly in sync.