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January-August Wrap Up
Hello everyone! This is masterlist #9, #10, and #11 (January, Frebruary and August of 2024!) for all of the fics I have reblogged on this side blog I hold super close to me. Remember to leave feedback and reblog the writings if you read them!
Also, a huge thank you to all the writers mentioned, I adore you so very much and I hope you keep writing <3
Quick sidenote: As you know, we're in 2025 now and you might've noticed that I didn't post any masterlist of recs in 2024. That's because, this below, is all I read last year. It was an interesting year, is all I'll say. I'd quite deviated away from fanfiction to work on my irl writings but, I can safely say now that wherever I go, fanfiction will always be a huge comfort to me -- it always brings me home. So yeah, I hope to sneak some time and present you with a lot more lists in this new year! Happy reading! <3
••• JANUARY •••
Clover | Harry is a newly single father to a brand-new baby, and he doesn't know what he's doing. Going home for the summer, he didn't expect to find himself a new kind of honey named (y/n). - @moonchildstyles
And I Can't Give That To You ♡ | In which Harry has seasonal depression and she doesn't know how to help. - @meetevieinthehallway
••• FEBRUARY •••
False God ♡ | Harry’s having trouble finding enough time to spend with y/n, even after she drops everything and joins him on tour. When they talk, they only seem to argue. When they don’t, they only seem to fuck. - @sleepyhollands
••• AUGUST •••
The one where Y/n just wants Harry to like her - @gucciwins
The one where Y/N is Harry’s personal assistant - @jawllines
Twirls Of Love | Harry’s a ghost and he loves spending time with (y/n). - @sushistyless
Teardrops For Two Lovers | Demon Harry and Angel Y/n finally deem it a love meant to be. - @sushistyless
Masterlist for more recs! My Writing account - @0oolookitsme
#harry styles#harry styles one shot#harry styles fic rec#harry styles x y/n#harry styles smut#harry styles x reader#harry styles fanfiction#harry styles angst#harry styles x fem!reader#harry styles fluff#harry styles masterlist#harry styles imagine
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I guess I'll say this in a reblog, and hope people see it—
After discussion, I've since changed some of my thoughts on the matter!
So
Let's talk about Amane... again!
Part 2 the sequel.
ALRIGHT, so.
I take it back, ight?
A guilty verdict would not have been "better"
Like at all.
I dunno how, but like. I forgot about how guilty prisoners are like. Tied down??? And tortured???
Bitch my bad, I'm stupid fr.
Again I. Literally dunno HOW I forgot, considering Kotoko was MUZZLED (WHICH IS CRAZY BITCH LIKE FHEIDNDJDJEN)
But it like. Genuinely slipped my mind.
Dunno what to tell ya, sorry bout that chief
That being said, I'm still not happy with this outcome.
But the thing I've come to realize, is that...
I, personally, would not have been happy with EITHER outcome.
Now that I step back and look at it, when it comes to Amane, there were two options.
Abuse her physically (guilty) Or abuse her mentally (Innocent)
I was so upset by how we pushed her further into her abusive religious mindset that victimized her in the first place, that I was feeling regret in my choice to vote innocent, thinking the other option would've "undone" that somehow.
But, I realize now, it wouldn't have.
Even if we broke through that mindset, doing it through physical abuse will just traumatize the poor kid further.
The game's rigged. It's always been rigged.
Because Milgram isn't a place where things get better for these people
Even if you vote them innocent.
We can't give these people what we need here
So it was foolish to say and think that a "guilty" verdict would make her snap out of her brainwashing, and open up some sort of road to recovery (even if it was a rocky and fucked up one)
It wouldn't have and I'm sorry.
From this point on, there's no analysis, there's just me discussing personal feelings on the matter, so, you can skip over this part if you want.
It's just....
I genuinely don't like seeing Amane like this.
I don't like seeing her turn into the very thing that caused her so much pain in the first place.
Like, I'm sorry for how I must've come off in my previous post.
The situation is just genuinely gut wrenching to me.
Slipping further into a dark mindset, and hurting people, even when you're just trying to help/think you're helping.
It's like such a real thing y'know?
And I'm sure she's trying to genuinely look out for Fuuta, because she thinks that the religion is a good thing! I'm sure she genuinely likes Fuuta and feels a connection to him! But being within the refines of a cult isn't going to help him, it's going to hurt him,,,
She's hurting someone she cares about and that's so...
It's just so upsetting
And Amane is such a tiny thing!!!
She shouldn't be going through this in the first place!
So seeing a kid like her be abused, then spiral in such a way that she becomes link in that chain and spreads that abuse?
It like. I dunno something about that just twisted me up inside.
And I think it was made worse by like
Seeing some people speak down to others.
Seeing some people treat this like it's still a victory—
Like I dunno.
Regardless of your thoughts about verdicts, or how she affected others due to the outcome...
Amane is still hurting
And it makes me sad.
Anyways that's all.
Okay so.
Let's talk about Amane.
Cause the discussion around her is so black and white, it kinda infuriates me???
There's the people who think she's the fucking devil himself, and there's people who think she's an angel who's done absolutely no wrong ever.
And.
Please
I beg of you
Both of you
Shut the fuck up
I'm going to die.
So let's get one thing out of the way before I continue
AMANE WAS, IS, AND FOREVER WILL BE A VICTIM.
Ok?
Everyone understand that?
Ok, good.
Now.
With that in mind.
I REALLY don't think Amane should have been voted "innocent" the second time around.
Listen.
I tried so hard to be on the inno side. And I held out hope, right?
Surely it's the right thing to do, she IS a kid afterall.
And she is!
And in all other circumstances, I think voting her innocent would be the right thing to do.
But here's the thing.
I think we fumbled the whole "What is the prisoner gonna take from this?" Aspect of Amane's trail.
I think we were so blinded by the abuse she's shown to suffer that we didn't really... THINK about what's actually going on in her head.
That sounds whack as fuck BUT LISTEN, RIGHT
HEAR ME THE FUCK OUT.
Since she was voted guilty the first time, the result was that cracks formed in her world view, and it began to shatter her mental health.
When she next spoke to us...
Amane was not presenting herself as just herself.
But rather as herself AND her religion.
SHE TELLS US THIS, EXPLICITLY
Even if it wasn't a case of "this is Amane and her alter" like Es said. Even if it's not REALLY her religion speaking to us.
She's speaking on BEHALF of the religion.
Do you understand what I'm saying here?
By voting Amane innocent, we didn't just deem HER innocent
We deemed her religion innocent.
And yes, the state she was in at the time was absolutely awful. But, as it stands. It was progress.
This voice drama wasn't a defense of her. It was a defense of her religion.
She was shaken, because who wouldn't be shaken after having their world view challenged?
And instead of being firm. Instead of saying "Your religion is flawed. You were abused."
We backpedaled because we felt bad for her.
And I went along with it because of the pressure on all sides... But now that we're seeing the results, I definitely don't think this was a good decision.
She's not taking her innocent verdict as
"I'm innocent because I'm a victim of abuse and my actions are justified"
She took her innocent verdict as.
"I'm innocent because my religion is correct, therefore my actions are justified"
HELL.
SHE EVEN SAYS THAT SHE'S GOING TO GO ON TO CONTINUE PRACTICING HER RELIGION IN THE START OF HER TRAIL 2 MUSIC VIDEO
She wasn't a depressed husk because we told her "You shouldn't have defended yourself. Your abuse was justified." She ALREADY thought her abuse was justified.
She was like that because we told her "Your world view is wrong. This religion isn't what you think it is. It's not sunshine and rainbows. This is abuse."
She was like that because we put cracks in her world view
Don't believe me?
Compare and contrast her music videos themselves.
Notice how the first is cutesy, sunshine, rainbows, the works?
Now look at the second one.
She's on the defense. And the cracks are starting to form.
Compared to the first video, where her "punishments" are shown in cute little montages, in the second video, we get raw, unfiltered glimpses into what she endured.
She was starting to see what her religion truly was.
And here's where I think we failed as voters.
We were so caught up in "She's a child! She's a victim! She didn't do anything wrong!"
That we COMPLETELY overlooked what was being judged in Amane's eyes.
We were so shell shocked as viewers, and we felt so sorry for her, the person, the child, we didn't see that in her eyes we were judging her faith.
Essentially.
We were SO blinded by our own morality...
That we ended up telling Amane that the cult that abused her was innocent, and that the abuse she suffered was justified.
We didn't tell her what she needed to be told
WE know she's a child. WE know she suffered abuse.
SHE didn't.
She needed to be told as much through a guilty verdict.
Basically
Our INTENDED message wasn't the RECIEVED message.
We did a complete 180°
I think, if we wanted to go the whole "she's innocent cause she's just a kid" route, we shouldve voted her innocent from the beginning, then kept going with the innocent verdict.
But it was too late for that, she was voted guilty, and our backpedaling did some real damage.
When she was voted guilty, she started to have cracks in her world view. She started to have doubts the religion was wrong. But then we backpedaled and told her it was right.
And instead of sticking with the "your religion is wrong" we turned it around.
While what we were SAYING is "you're not wrong for killing your abuser" what SHE HEARD was "Your religion is not wrong, the rule breakers needed to be punished"
SHE EVEN SAYS AS MUCH HERSELF
"I am thankful for the fact that you have forgiven me. For I was able to follow through with my faith due to such. And at the same time, I have also realized my mistakes."
So by voting her innocent, because in her mind we were judging her cult and not her. We accidentally told her that her abusers were right.
Does that make any sense?
Obviously in a traditional sense Amane is innocent.
But BY NO MEANS is this a traditional case!!!
The suspect on trial wasn't Amane but her religion.
We failed to see that.
And
We.
Fucking.
FUMBLED.
And because we told her that, blinded by her brainwashing, she's a victim, yes, but now she's a victim who's perpetuating the cycle of abuse.
And don't you DARE tell me she's not perpetuating the cycle.
People got hurt.
Shidou is obvious, but let's talk about Fuuta.
Obviously, Fuuta isn't dumb for falling victim to the cult and seeking comfort in religion after all he's been through.
But I think it's a bit stupid to say that he hasn't been brainwashed as well.
And I think it's REALLY stupid to say Amane is just... y'know okay for doing this?
She indicates in her new lines that her religion won't be flawed, because there won't be any who break the rules (or oppose her)
"I was mistaken. The religion I believed in was incomplete. That's why there were people who broke the rules. Those who opposed it. Milgram cannot be depended on either. In that case, I could just make it! My own original! Ahahahaha..! Hahahaha!”
If someone breaks the rules, she is most likely going to punish them like she was punished for breaking the rules. If someone opposes her religion, they'll die.
And thanks to us, she thinks that's okay
So in conclusion.
Y'ALL WE MISSED THE WHOLE ASS POINT OF AMANE'S TRAIL, AND NOW WE'RE PAYING THE FUCKING PRICE.
So yeah
She should've been voted guilty for her own sake.
Idk I feel like I'm gonna get flamed.
BUT FUCK IT
WE BALL.
#i dunno if anyone's gonna read this#cause i have a feeling i may have pissed a good few people off with my first post—#which is fair enough#a lot of what i said was misguided frustration from seeing my girl get worse#so sorry about that#rambling#milgram#milgram project#amane momose#momose amane#milgram fuuta#fuuta kajiyama#kajiyama fuuta
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Hi! how are you doing I hope your having a Great day/night.
I have questions on the blood blossom au?
I was wondering what mobility aids Danny uses, how does the stages for the blood blossom poisoning work and what he wears and do as nightingale.
Sorry if they're too many questions I was curious. Also your so Cool
oh you're totally fine! i love getting questions. as for danny's mobility aids, i was thinking that he has like, three main mobility aids he uses. He has a cane, arm crutches, and a wheelchair, and he swaps between them depending on his mobility and pain. OH he also wears compression gloves and socks.
as for the blood blossom stages, i'll keep it pretty loose and nebulous since making the stages too detailed will just make it harder for me to write it lmao, gotta give myself that creative wiggle room. But there's probably like, three... four? main stages?
The first one being when it's in its neutralized, semi-dormant state after receiving an (upgraded) antidote. In that stage, Danny's chronic pain is at its most manageable. He starts regaining muscle mass, an appetite, he has more energy. His immune system is pretty shot because its busy fighting off the blood blossom, but he's still essentially at his healthiest.
Stage two of the blood blossom poisoning is when the 'antidote'/'neutralizer'/idk medicine because calling it an antidote isnt super accurate, starts breaking down and loosing its efficacy. At first it feels like just a bad pain day from stage one, but over time it starts becoming more insistent and the pain is in places it normally wouldn't, or the sensation is different. Danny's health starts taking a dip and he begins losing muscle mass. He starts feeling congested the same way you do when you just get out of a bad cold: where you're technically fine, but you're still getting coughing fits.
Stage three is when he starts actively.... bleeding. The pain has upped the ante and has now spread through his entire body, he's having frequent, wet, coughing fits. He's nauseous, has a pounding headache that's quickly becoming a migraine, and shaking with effort to stay standing. This is where his nose starts bleeding and his coughing takes on a red color. He's getting pale, having heat flashes, and overall looks like a kid who was poisoned with a cannibalistic blood toxin.
Stage four is the last stage, and throughout it Danny is officially delirious from both blood loss and pain. He's extremely nauseous, having trouble comprehending what's around him, and is now spitting up blood. He's in so much pain that he's alternating between feeling numb to it and then NOT feeling numb to it, and overall is having trouble moving his body. At stage four he's in a high-risk emotional state, which is bad because he's at risk of waking up his dormant ghost core, and then it's an immediate game over for him.
Danny was at the beginning of stage 4 when he found Bruce. Lucky him!
As for Nightingale! I know I said in the original post reblogs that he'd be running around with Bruce, but that was more of a conversational, 'talking about an au for fun' thing rather than something I'd use in a fic. So I can't see him running around with Bruce as Nightingale in the slightest, not only because of the blood blossom stuff, but also because its just not in line with how I'm writing Danny in LATN.***
In fic, Danny's going to be taking on a more backseat/support role as Nightingale, rather than a field vigilante like Batman or Robin. He's more of an eyes-in-the-sky type kinda like how Barb is, who only goes out in the city if he feels the need to deliver something to Bruce directly, or if he thinks Bruce needs backup. He's "the emergency backup" as I like to call it, and if he does go out, he typically sticks to ranged fighting and sabotage.
He also likes to help make gadgets for Bruce to use, and helps with cases when he can. His input becomes helpful when Gotham's gimmick villains start popping up, as he has experience with this type of crazed clownery, while Bruce does not.
As for what he wears! The first time he goes out as Nightingale was not intentional, it was a spur of the moment thing. So Nightingale's first 'suit' is just a thrown together disguise that includes:
1. the comically large hoodie Danny stole from Bruce because it fucken COLD in the cave and his circulation is shit.
2. his compression gloves
3. a light, blue-ish gray scarf that was conveniently lying around because again, it fucken COLD. This is because Danny doesn't have a mask and needs something to hide his face with. 4. the black face paint stuff bruce keeps lying around that he smears over the upper half of his face like a makeshift mask. Once it becomes evident that this is going to be a 'thing', bruce gets a proper suit made for him. I have a concept drawing made way back in the reblogs of the original post, but im just going to link you to fanart that made friend Crow made because its much better quality. Danny wears the suit while he's in the cave just in case he needs to go out and help Bruce, as well as that same hoodie.
***TL;DW: while Danny doesn't regret saving people in Amity and he'd do it again, he hated ghost fighting and wanted nothing more than to be normal. He felt that he was the only person who could fight back against the ghosts, and as a result he was left horrifically traumatized, without a proper support system, and cut off from most everybody else because he didn't know how to balance his hero life and his civilian life.
He wouldn't return to frontline hero work even if he could, not unless he felt his particular skillset needed him to.
Overall, for Danny, Phantom isn't the name of a hero, its just the name of a dead kid. And the dead deserve to rest in peace.
#blood blossom au#danny fenton is not the ghost king#starry asks#i hope that answers your questions!#danny's got a lot of mixed feelings about his hero career but ultimately it boils down to this: it was brutal. terrifying. and he wishes#that his parents had never built the portal. or at the very least he wished they had cared more about the city being attacked than their#research. cuz you cant TELL me that they didn't know that the sudden ghost attacks were because of THEIR portal. the timing is too#coincidental. they had to have known. they're not that stupid. which makes it a very interesting morality question for the fenton parents#like the ghosts were undeniably THEIR fault. and the continual ghost attacks are still their fault bc it was them leaving the portal#open that resulted in ghosts coming thru. those attacks could've stopped at *any* time had the parents just. shut down the portal for good#but they didn't. which is REALLY interesting if you think about it
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Lrb dear god, this reminded me of that time when Alfred-chan got sooooo mad at my post explaining why fans should respect bisexual headcanons for Maria and Malenia instead of pretending like they're canonically lesbians and that they get oppressed and erased by mxf ships with them. They kept vagueing that post for like a MONTH in their blog including in tags under reblogs of Maria fanart, passively-aggressively changed their url to character+sexuality to "spite" me and then even made a sockpuppet account to start shit with me in the comments.
They deactivated when me and Val completely obliterated their "you cultivate lesbiphobic following by telling people why they should respect all sexuality headcanons instead of acting cultish or assuming their experiences and stereotypes equal canon confirmation" garbage with actual facts and logic tho but I screenshotted everything fjthfgfj (I learned to document everything the hard way after they've changed the she/they pronouns to they/they pronouns ONLY to accuse me of misgendering, so thank you for making me wiser I guess 😎). Even more vile, as they, a white person, larped as an Arab in that sockpuppet to hold even MORE "privilege" against me in discussion gjtjfh Because for them race, gender or sexuality are just badges of honor and dishonor, they don't see these as traits of actual human beings. And Dr Eugene X, who worked with them and weaponized her race to accuse everyone who disagreed with her of racism, didn't bat an eye at such a terrible act too?? As usual, rules are not for their friends, lol
It is not even the worst thing Alfred did, and yet all of this just, just, JUST because I wrote a point on why bisexual headcanon people did nothing wrong and there is no ground to claim something is canon when it isn't. 🤦♂️ Like, they were soooo convinced that I hated lesbian headcanons and that I'd feel angry if they called Lady Maria a lesbian, when what I was angry at is this exact toxic behavior in the fandom. No matter how much you like a headcanon, don't be a bitch about it. Maria doesn't """belong""" to any gender or sexuality, she belongs to anyone who likes her and is invested in her complexity as a character!!!
Yet, apparently, common Malenia simps / Finlay shippers are no better than common Maria simps / Mariadeline shippers. Just, wild how after shit like this, many people have the guts to claim that it is "sexist redditbros" who are the biggest problem of creators in the fandom. 🤦♂️ They'd actually blush if they encountered what such self-proclaimed "feminists" do to their own (!!!) over headcanons. 🤦♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️
#also fuck anna for thinking shit like this and way worse things alfred did is not as evil and toxic as#as me snapping at her for DEFENDING alfred#wiki: I can excuse stalking harassment cultish shunning bullying fantomette lying slander weaponizing identity but-#-I draw the line at katy getting too emotional when I admit as much uwu#granted she did admit that the reason for this is because alfred didnt concern her personally#she is probably the person I'll forgive last in this situation if ever#as much as I hate alfred they clearly have no empathy and compassion and lie for medical reasons#it isn't my assumptions they often reblogged this shit#I know mental illness is not an excuse for so much harassment for variety of reasons but-#-why would someone want to change if they medically can't feel guilt for their actions?#I feel bad for them and they hopefully will get help#as for Eugene idk... they seem to be a typical brainwashed youth#such people either change with age or get strongly bitten in the ass and get reality check#granted people who still follow her did admit she goes head hunting and then plays victim#as well as they only keep in touch because they worry they'll be dragged down if they are not at her good side#rather than because they like her posts (which are so untrue to BB that she can just make OCs anyways)#choir boy is literally just mindless sheep that didnt even have dignity to make it personal#hence is the name#I am sure he is lovely in his own circle it just doesn't concern me or my friend#but anna?#she knew what she was doing and has no excuse#fandomry rambles#it is also funny how they are four cringe failures and us are four based people#best AND worst groups come in four lol#also I know you all are dying to know how I can still hold grudges year later right?#it is hard to explain#I live normally and recover and not think of it but then scar starts to hurt#like you know how physical scars can react to weather or shit? mental can too
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I need to do a rb/addition to that roman slavery post I made bc the notes keep missing the point I was trying to make & it's really annoying me but also I'm to tired to phrase it well
#i very much agree that household slavery was bad & that people diminish how appalling it was but what i was trying to say w that post is#that people tend to be aware of the household slavery but then will turn around & tell you it can't be compared to later e.g. american#slavery bc it isn't large scale plantation type slavery when like it was!!!!! they Did have these vast scale agricultural opperations worked#entirely by slaves!!!!! this was a major issue in the roman republic in fact !!#please please please read about the conditions & situation in sicily leading to the first & second servile wars#and this is not to mention the absolute horror that were the mines#but anyways predictably people have latched on to the household slavery thing & are exclusively talking about how that was bad#which is very very true but please can we also address the main point of my post#whatever. I'll articulate at good reblog/addition at some point#it's my fault for phrasing it badly tbf#thoughts
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alright. know what? with Secrets of the Obscure right around the corner and plenty of new Mists-related sky island settings coming with it, I'll just bite the bullet and interest-check a little something I've been turning in my head for a long, long while.
would YOU be interested in a Mists-based GW2 roleplay guild that uses a lore compliant multiverse system to allow canon, canon-adjacent, lore-breaking, and otherwise 'contradictory' muses to coexist in the same setting?
simply put: every writer's cast would be set in their own self-contained universe. as such, everyone could bring whatever muses they want with their own personal headcanons, and no one could dictate what is or isn't canon for anyone else. so long as your muses are GW2-based, you're good to go! bring your Commanders, bring your canon-divergent OCs, bring your canon muses-- and yes, even the ones that are 'supposed' to be dead. who can say what might have happened in a strange world far across the Mists, after all?
neutral hubs and in-character safety guardrails would be in place to keep all muses on a relatively even playing field regardless of their power, history, and prestige, too. play hardball if you like, but it might not end quite the way you'd hope. the main rule would be to maintain good OOC etiquette at all times: no godmodding, no metagaming, no theft, don't blend IC and OOC, and so-on.
if that sounds like something you might have interest in, please interact with this post! and if you've got questions or concerns, I'd love to hear them; feel free to send an ask or a DM, or just reply to this post!
#GW2 roleplay#GW2 rp#GW2#my posts#so there's a LOT of reasons why I'm putting this forward#but the biggest is that I really want there to be a place that's actually inclusive for all the creativity that exists in this fandom#there was exactly one Mists multiverse event a while back and it was well-received from everything I saw!#i know i for one had a lot of fun AND felt a lot more welcome and comfortable than i have at any other event#and then... we proceeded to just never have another again.#like. we could have more of that. that niche could still use filling! we can do SO much more with this!!!#and especially with SotO coming out we could have some REALLY interesting locations to meet up too!#I'd be happy to kickstart this stuff but the thing is: it WILL need support. I just can't do it all alone and that's a fact#example: if we want a guild hall in-game we'd have to work together to get one; that'd be great for hosting public and private events#my personal goal is 5-10 participants so that we can have enough to run small events and mingle muses a bit#IF there's enough interest i'll roll out more information at that time. for now tho i'll just leave it at this to test the waters#reblogs are HIGHLY appreciate here: i'm a smallfry in a big sea and not many people check the tags. spread the word if you want to see this#on that note: thanks for reading and hopefully i'll hear from some of you soon. o/#(side detail: that sky pic is a screen i snapped at night in Istan. it's so pretty there ok)
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Soon I will be back!! Only a couple more days before I'm released back into the wild !! I HAVEN'T TOUCHED MY IPAD IN WEEKS, I JUST STARE AT IT !LONGING !!!
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#if i can't post then i'll reblog as much as i can !!#if i can't draw then i'll uplift others !!!#RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#bugs sillies#slowly losing my mind#this term can EAT MY SHORTS !!!!!
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Physically, I'm already lying down.
Emotionally, I feel like I need to find a soft spot and crumple dramatically to the ground and lay down for a few weeks.
#sonder speaks#personal#but also if I wasn't fine with this being read/reblogged without context I wouldn't have posted it here#this week has been exhausting#I feel like I need permission from someone to go crawl into a nest and cry#one of my budgies died a few days ago#but I was looking after other animals that normally have a more dedicated caretaker#which was hard enough to handle that I couldn't really mourn my budgie much#especially when I need to keep happy around the remaining one so he doesn't grieve or get lonely#and I had to do a few specific tasks that are really really hard on me because nobody was there to help#and I tried to help my sister with things but none of the things worked#and a plan our family is excited about started to hit roadblocks#and one member of the family had a meltdown that triggered trauma in others in the family and drove things downhill#the family members at the center of this meltdown normally help me with chores and animal care#I was looking forward to them being home so I could rest and recuperatr and mourn#and now the meltdown has followed them here and it's built on top of years of other meltdowns and everything is tense#and of course it's bringing up old traumas and expectations and fears for me too#and I end up as a 30 year old feeling like he has 16 year old problems again#my whole body is tense#I'm not tired enough to sleep#I almost feel like crying for my budgie and all my fears and the things I let mysrlf get excited for#the things that either won't happen at all or are tainted by this veil of persistent bitterness that followed them home to me#almost#but I fear the possibility that crying could make things worse in any capacity#and I've struggled to cry for years anyway#so I'm just trying to use therapy tools to quiet the spiraling thoughts#and making this post because it feels like journaling without the pitfalls I fall into while journaling or talking directly to a person#hoping I'll get enough sleep that I don't accidentally trigger a sleep-deprivation/stress seizure my meds can't stop#and tomorrow I have to get back to studying which is very hard for me but gets me closer to making money#I liked when things were mostly good and calm and just sucked on a passive level -- can I have that again?
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just purged through more than a ton of my posts. felt amazing.
#literally feel like levitating rn#got rid of a bunch of shitty bandom memes#that i reblogged when i was like 12#how have i had this blog for 4 years#wild#now this is more or less a purely percico blog#no more bandom no more cringy ass self deprecating memes#from when i was severely depressed in middle school#yikes#also can you guys believe i used to worship brendon urie#disgusting behavior#love panic (ryan ross) just not him#the internet is such a time capsule#like i can't believe how much better im doing now compared to them#more stressed but less sad so i'll take it#this blog feels so blank lmao#i still have 1k+ posts#but its actually all pjo which is the whole purpose#it took me less than a couple seconds to reblog all those random things#but over 2 and a half hours to delete all of them#holy shit
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I'll stop posting wips eventually but it's been five days since I've said anything and I don't want anyone to think I'm dead/dying/stuck in a ditch and withering away, so here's 10% of the reason I disappeared (the duck is stuck in rendering hell) (and my little baby laptop is screaming at me every time I open up this file)
I might still be mostly lurking for a little bit so please be patient with me in the meantime 🙏🙏
#seriously though I'm sorry for just up and disappearing like that#wanna talk to people and interact with them so bad lately but I just can't bring myself to do it#so the best i can manage is blabbing in the tags like always#i don't know wtf is going on but over the past few days I've just felt like i don't deserve to talk to anyone#tried to reblog posts from mutuals several times but something in my head keeps saying;#'yeah they don't actually care for your input at all and you're being a bother for even trying etc etc'#and i know deep down that's probably not true (i hope) but i can't reason it away you know#and i know the best solution to this is to just talk to someone#let it be known that i *did* make an attempt to#i tried texting someone (and succeeded) but i couldn't keep doing it and I'm back at square one (and now feel worse lmao)#i'm not really putting this here for anybody to see it as much as i am for myself#but i know that (hypothetically) this could be seen by a real human so it still kinda feels like I'm reaching out in a way which feels nice#makes me feel less like I'm shriveling up in my own self imposed solitude#so uh hello person who might be reading the tags (there's six of you guys here now which is crazy cause i post nothing but junk here lol)#((but thanks anyway for following and even more thanks for reading this if you did))#i'll make my way around all the posts i missed soon enough don't worry#i'm sorry i'm really not meaning to ignore anybody#i have drafted quite a few posts from moots that i couldn't finish leaving comments on but i have seen them#everyone here is super cool and talented as always <3 whether that be through art or writing or just finding neat posts to share#this wall of text is long enough and i'm very eeby so thank you again for reading this#tldr; not dead and i'll be okay eventually :)#not rb#hey look i didn't post a picture of my dog this time (a crime)#i'll make sure to share one the next time i get a good one
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i will miss him :((((((
#i hope he's safe and i hope he adjusts well and i hope his time there as peaceful as can be#i will gradually be posting less and less about bts fyi except for my loooong queue#i think i need to change obsessions i can't and don't want to stay in this fandom without hobi#it was worth it for him but now i know they'll only keep making me angry when he's not here#and it's not worth it without him#i mean we'll see if it works because my interests don't change overnight and besides i know he's prepared some things for this time#and he's not even gone yet#but yeah it's something i've been thinking about#guess we'll see#i'm still gonna reblog everything hobi related i see i meant i'm not gonna be focusing on other members' projects as much#i'll always be a fan of hobi tho#i just hope he's okay and happy and does well and comes back safely :(((#my post#hobi#bts
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#pickle pontificates#i REALLY want to turn off asks for the first time since I started tumblr#I don't post donation posts or anything with a call to action really#i can think of one or two times where I've done it in the past and it was from people i knew#a) this blog is for archiving stuff I want to see later (whether that's memes or fandom stuff or references or art or my own thoughts)#and b) I have always been very strict about not reblogging guilt trippy stuff bc although I don't have a lot of followers#I refuse to put that kind of thing on them#I'm very good at refusing things when I need to and recognizing when I don't have the money or resources to help#but I still have to deal with the impulse to help or do something every time anyway#so I imagine it's much harder and feels much worse for people who are already in a worse place mentally#I do not have the ability or time to vet every one of these things that winds up in my inbox#and them saying they've been vetted by some other random tumblr i know nothing about means nothing to me#and even if I did so many of them have very intense wording#which would be reasonable for someone in a very intense and horrible situation#but is absolutely not something I will platform to my followers who are in situations I know nothing about#even more so because again. I can't vet anything#if someone has the time and money to help out with that then it is not difficult to find legitimate charities and campaigns#and I trust that they will do it#so anyway. I can keep deleting the asks just fine but it would be easier to close the ask box#I'm still living with the delusion that I'll get unhinged anons someday though and I don't want to cut them off#they would enrich my life#addendum: if I follow you and you reblog donation posts btw this is not an indictment of that#I'm curating my own experience but I think it's cool for people to vet and signal boost and help and all that
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there is no crossover between two pieces of content or media I enjoy that is too stupid for me to not be compelled to spend 5 minutes drawing
#wholeheartedly I am not kidding you can send me so much compelling random garbage#like if you think to yourself. “gosh wouldn't it be stupid and hilarious if-” and think it isn't worth the time to draw?#believe me. It's worth MY time. I have so much time#I love 5 minute stupid distractions#please yes send me garbage I would love to appease your silly things#you tag something in a meme reblog post and I see it? you're getting a dm#interact at your own risk honestly I'll draw anything and you can't stop me
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If you can't articulate a thought/comment/compliment, you have to know that reblog is honestly more than enough.
Sometimes I can't articulate my love but I still reblog. Because I want others to feel the joy I felt while seeing the creation. I want the creator to know I felt joy and that I want to preserve that joy on my blog.
A reblog gets me giggling and kicking my feet. A keysmash will make me scuttle around the house in glee.
There's a person behind that creation who worked hard on it. People want to know and hear that their hardwork has meaning and that it deserves to be seen/shared. Likes do not share.
i do wonder what it is that makes people exponentially more likely to reblog low effort shit posts that things people spent several days working on
#creation#to all y'all#tumblr#Mad rambles#Sometimes if I want to say something but can't in the moment. I often will save as a draft so then I can come back and say what I wish to#idk I'm passionate about this. not even#honestly sometimes I wonder if people weirdly base what they reblog on the amount of notes.#“That's pretty! I'll reblog- oh wait it only has 120 notes :\ ...Oh that's pretty! it has 13000 notes so therefore it is worth the reblog”#which might be me thinking too much and being a bit saddened by past fandom behaviors but you know :P#like. “Oh you're popular? I want that. reblog.” like y'all even “popular” creators are a fucking person. they are not their number or#follower count. they are their voice and their words and brushstrokes and weaving and humor and everything else.#please know that there are people behind everything posted here. and just in general online.
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Nom Nom
Synopsis: After what seems like years of asking, your boyfriend has finally allowed you to bite his tiddies.
Pairing: Seungcheol x afab!reader
Genre: suggestive, series, established relationship
Rating: suggestive/mature
Word count: 1.4k
Warnings: biting, marking, nipple play, dry humping, lemme know if I missed anything!
Note: This is kind of a continuation of the boyfriend texts post, but it's not really necessary to read it! It will help with some context though!
Thank you so much to @seokgyuu for beta reading!
Tagging @brownsugarbaybee as usual!
This feels very on-brand for me.
This is part of a series, read the whole series here!
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You giggle to yourself as you enter your shared apartment. You can't believe Seungcheol actually agreed to it; after what seems like months of asking, he's finally agreed to let you bite his tiddies. Although you had to admit you were only joking when you asked him those 500 or so times, you were actually kind of excited to finally have this opportunity.
As you enter the living room, you find Seungcheol seated on the couch in an oversized hoodie with a pout plastered on his face. You look at him quizzically as you approach him.
"I thought I asked you to be prepped and ready on the bed," you huff, half-joking with him.
He looks up at you with wide eyes, his pout somehow deepening. "You were actually serious about that?" he asks, exasperated.
"Of course I was serious," you scoff. "When am I ever not serious?"
"Pretty much all the time," he huffs. You let out a small "hey" and playfully hit his shoulder.
"Now stop dilly-dallying and go lie down on the bed," you demand, crossing your arms. He lets out a whine and wraps his arms around your torso, snuggling his face into your abdomen.
"Princess," he whines, then looks up at you with puppy eyes. "Please don't do this to me," he pleads.
"Nope, not happening. No amount of whining and pouting is getting you out of this Cheollie. It's too late now. You already agreed to it," you look down at him and grin. He groans and hides his face in your abdomen.
"Now chop chop. Or else no kisses for a week," you state. His head jerks up, and his eyes widen.
"No kisses for a week?!" He exclaims.
"Princess, you can't do this to me!" He complains.
"I can and I will," you huff. "Now hurry up!"
With a final grumble, he reluctantly lets go of you and stands up.
"Please let Cheollie go," he pouts and cups your face.
"Cheollie is about to get his ass whooped if he doesn't get on the bed within the next five seconds," you sarcastically grin.
Shoulders slumping at his last ditch effort, he makes his way to the bedroom with you closely following behind.
He sits on the bed, fidgeting with his fingers while staring at the floor. You giggle at how shy he seems.
"Well, what're you waiting for? Strip," you smirk.
He looks at you with a pout, a blush dusting his cheeks as he slowly reaches for the hem of his hoodie. He slowly pulls off his hoodie and quickly covers his chest with his arms, causing you to laugh. Your boyfriend, who was usually dominant in bed, is now acting like a shy virgin; you can't help but laugh at his actions.
"Stop laughing," he whines, blushing harder.
"I can't help it," you giggle. "You're acting like I've never seen you naked before."
"Well, it feels weird, okay?" He grumbles with a pout.
You can't help but coo at him. You move to straddle his lap and cup his blushing face.
"I promise I'll be gentle. You can ask me to stop anytime," you whisper. You lean in to gently kiss him as reassurance that you won't do anything he's uncomfortable with.
"Now, lean against the headboard," you murmur. You get off his lap to allow him to lean against the headboard and get comfortable.
Once he's comfortable, you straddle his waist and start leaving wet kisses along his jaw, helping him relax. You smile to yourself when you feel him slowly relax under you.
Slowly making your way to his lips, you capture them into a passionate kiss, moaning at the feeling of his tongue against yours. You lightly grind against him, causing him to groan into your mouth.
You pull away from him, both of you panting. He looks incredible beneath you, his eyes dazed, lips swollen, and breathless. You shift to leave kisses down his neck, your teeth grazing against his skin.
You hear his breath hitch when you reach his chest. They feel so firm beneath you that you can’t resist moving your hands to squeeze them.
"Princess," he groans.
"God, I love how firm your chest feels," you whine, squeezing him harder.
You lean down to lick one of his nipples, causing him to shut his eyes and moan out loud.
"F-Fuck princess," he groans as you start sucking on the bud.
He throws his head back and shuts his eyes when he feels your teeth lightly digging into his skin. You start sucking on the bud, causing him to let out a string of curses. After finishing marking the bud, you move on to the other one, giving it equal attention. He lets out a loud groan when you pinch his puffed-up nipple. You feel his bulge growing as he ruts against you.
"Feel good Cheollie?" You purr after sitting up to look at him.
"Feels so good princess," he moans, eyes screwed shut.
You grin, then lean down to start marking his chest. He lets out a long groan and arches his back. Small pants and moans escape his lips as your marks get deeper and rougher. Blotches of red and purple slowly bloom across his chest, painting it with your mark. His hips jerk up, and a whimper escapes his lips when you bite down particularly hard.
Enjoying his reactions, you continue to abuse his chest, savouring every moment. You lean back to take a minute and cherish your work. You beam when you see his chest covered in bruises, bites, and saliva.
"Look at me Cheollie," you purr. He opens his eyes to look at you, his eyes blown out and a fucked out expression on his face.
"Are you alright baby?" You murmur, caressing his flushed cheeks. He nods breathlessly, the corner of his lips lifting up into a fucked out smile.
Just then, an idea strikes you, and you smirk before leaning in close to his ear.
"I'm going to mark you with my initials," you purr. "After all, an artist has to sign their painting to show who it belongs to, right baby?" You giggle. You feel his dick twitch at your words.
"You like that Cheollie? You like being marked by me?" You smirk. He lets out a soft whimper and grinds against you, causing you to let out a giggle.
"I am an artist, and you are my canvas baby," you whisper before shifting back to his chest.
You lean down and begin biting and sucking the skin, marking your initials into his left chest cause it's closer to his heart, making sure they take up most of the space. You have to show him and everyone else who belongs in his heart, of course. You hear him moan and groan under you, his hands on your hips to keep you steady. After embedding your initials into his skin, you sit up and admire your handiwork.
You look down and pout, still unsatisfied with your work, feeling like something was missing. That's when it hits you; you giggle as you lean back down to encapsulate your initials with a heart.
"Princess, what—" his question is abruptly cut off by a moan as you bite down harder than usual, silently asking him to simply let you do what you want.
You sit up after finishing the heart, finally satisfied with your work.
"So pretty Cheollie," you purr as you gently trace your fingers across your artwork. "I need to take a picture."
"A picture?" he asks, a puzzled expression crossing his face.
"Of course! I need to forever encapsulate my masterpiece after all," you giggle. You shift to reach for your phone on the side table, causing him to groan.
"Princess, you're killing me here," he mutters.
"Hush! I'm busy taking pretty pictures of my pretty man," you grin as you proceed to take multiple pictures of him.
Your words make him blush, and you squeal, thrilled that the pictures are turning out even better than you expected. He looks so pretty with your mark on him, his cheeks flushed red and his eyes dazed. You're definitely going to use them as your wallpaper for a while.
"Enough," he growls, snatching your phone and tossing it back onto the table. You let out a gasp when he suddenly flips you over, him now on top of you.
"I've let you have your fun, but now it's my turn."
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#𝐇𝐔𝐒𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐃!𝐆𝐎𝐉𝐎
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thank you all so much for 400 followers. i really didn't think that i would reach so many people, so i made a special for you. also i can't reply to my comments on my posts or any but i appreciate them. enjoy!
husband!gojo who can't stand being away from you for so long. he's on his day off and he makes sure to spend every single second close to you just so he can admire you and whisper praises in your ear.
husband!gojo who takes you out on dessert dates. whether it be ice-cream, cake, milkshakes, whatever mood the both of you seems to be in. he stares at you with loving eyes while you enjoy the dessert you got and wipes any smudge on your lips or cheek.
husband!gojo who doesn't let you pay for anything. he was not gonna let you send the money that you worked so hard for to buy something that you can get with his money. he shares his personal info with you but does not wanna hear about yours. and he always insists you use his card otherwise, you'll be arguing infront of the cashier for more than ten minutes until you finally give in.
husband!gojo who caresses the ring on your finger everytime you hold hands with him. he does it unconsciously too as you talk about your interests.
husband!gojo who sometimes just can't believe that he's married to the most beautiful woman in the world. he can't help but kiss you out the blue when you're together because you're lips were just so tempting.
husband!gojo who's known to be someone who never shuts the fuck up and interrupts people when they're talking but not when it comes to you. he could just listen to you talk for hours on end because he just lives your voice and is genuinely interested with what you're saying. he also hates it when someone else interrupts you and so speaks up for you.
husband!gojo who loves posting pictures of you on the daily. be it pictures he took of you or selfies you sent with captions like "isn't my wife just so beautiful", and it could be a picture of you drooling in your sleep. but when he reads the comments and finds some creepy guys saying inappropriate things, he's gonna let them know just who they're dealing with.
husband!gojo who comes up with the dumbest nicknames to give because he thought they were cute when he's literally calling you "his cute little drooler" and "his sweet scumdilly yumyum cupcake" but he often times calls you "baby" or "princess" if he's not in a very silly mood.
husband!gojo who showers you with gifts when he returns from long work trips because he believes that you deserve the best. but when you tell him, that the greatest gift he has ever given you was coming back to you without fail, he has tears in his eyes as his heart swells and pulls you into a big hug and says, " i'll always come back to you love... always"
#comments and reblogs are appreciated
#400 followers special#400 followers#thank you!#jjk fluff#satoru gojo x reader#gojo satoru#gojo x reader#gojo satoru x reader#jjk gojo#jujutsu gojo#gojo headcanons#gojo imagines#gojo scenarios#fluff#gojo fluff#reader#fem!reader#husband!gojo
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