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My Medieval 12th century inspired art book zine "If All The World Were Mine!" Is now available to order! Thanks everyone who signed up to my notification list, and bought it at the show! I had a great time sharing it with everyone hehe.
I have a tier for just the zine itself, as well as for a full-package deal with prints (Sacral Anointment and Blood of the Vassals!) and Melusine + Bestiary stickers.
The zine is 52 pages, in full color, and has a collection of my favorite pieces from the past couple years, including some of my nsfw arts. There are a couple of new illustrations I haven’t yet shared publicly, so can’t wait for everyone to see them!
Get it while it's hot, here on my storenvy while my stock lasts :D
(For those asking: i Do plan to make a digital version available! But for the digital version, I’d like to add more pages and more content. So it may take a little longer. If you’re not already on my list, please fill out my google form to be notified when it’s available!)
#store#shop#zines#if all the world were mine#medieval#12th century#the plantagenets#capetians#angevin empire#philip ii of france#philip augustus#melusine#yaoi#medieval art#pinup#historical#historical rpf
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Just don't say I didn't warn you. You're Cid now, and if anything happens to him, we're finished.
#ffxvi#clive rosfield#jill warrick#ffxviedit#ffedit#final fantasy 16#final fantasy xvi#i started this gifset bc i wanted to gif these two in their cool hoods but then i realized#i really love the way this second half of the game is set up#how they both think they're saving the world and expect everyone to thank them#but they're unintentionally making life harder for a lot of people#and what “saving” looks like to them is very different than how others see it#and they can't expect a thank you from people when they never asked to be saved#in fact their presence is making things worse#it's a lesson they sorta learn but Not Really bc otherwise they would have changed course in their destroy-all-mothercrystals plan#but most importantly they both look so hot like this#my husband and my wife#and what a way to open up the second half of the game too bc the writers were like “clive got hotter!! jill's still a beaut!!”#and i was like yES this is all i care about#mine
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Eddie ft. my closet
day two: borrowed pjs
(tattoo inspo from this post by @strangersatellites ^)
#look at me finally bringing this back#those tiny shorts are some of the comfiest pants i own and i feel like eddie would love them in the summer#and the shirt might not be his but all my old frat shirts were never originally mine either so#but in this little world steve is a lil frat boy and eddie loves a comfort color shirt#sleepy lil grump#also took some tattoo liberties cause why not#eddie munson fanart#eddie munson#i draw things#eddie as my dress up doll
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i think a lot about how the roman thermae and bathing culture is presented as a sign of how Civilized and Advanced the romans were but one of the essential parts of the thermae was the caldarium, essentially a sauna, which was heated up through the floor.... under which slaves constantly had to toil to feed the fire while suffocating in the heat and steam that would rise through the floor to make free romans and the slaves' masters get a nice sweat, free to move on to the cold baths in the next room whenever they wanted.
#'roman citizenship was given to every free man in the empire' sure! but not only was that very late#but a very considerable portion of the population of the empire at any given point was a slave. most slaves lived horrific lives.#i mean i want to be clear rome wasn't like EXCEPTIONALLY brutal or bad to slaves compared to its neighbours#by which i mean that it was just as callous as most ancient mediterranean civilizations when it came to the treatment of slaves#and the scale of roman's brutality towards slaves matches the scale of its size and timeframe.#athenians were a much smaller population of the ancient world but slaves in the silver mines of laureion had a life expectancy of five year#that's still thousands upon thousands of people who suffered horrific deaths and lived the rest of their lives in miserable conditions#all to make the city rich#anyhow i don't think rome is like a particularly evil empire in the sense that all empires are evil#people love to imagine themselves ancient roman aristocrats but you would not have been one. you would be lucky to be a /domestic/ slave.#who still had shit lives tbc but exponentially better than working on the latifundiae#eli talks
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i don’t know if i’m ever gonna write the fic but i’ve been thinking abt like. the eternal stockade. the implications. lup, a lich who was trapped in a dark featureless cell for a decade completely isolated with nothing to keep her sanity but her own mind. she has to put people in the eternal stockade. how many liches does she see herself in. how many liches started out just like her. how many liches are truly too far gone. and the only liches we ever see other than her and barry are edward and lydia. they’re certainly evil, but mad? they seem pretty sane. they’re not, like, tattered echoes of souls, they’re definitely still people. even as much of a grudge as lup surely has against them, wouldn’t they remind her incredibly strongly of herself? do they deserve to be trapped just like she was? for eternity? isn’t eternity what turned john to existential despair in the first place?
#mine#taz balance#taz lup#lup#like idk i think lup’s down to kick necromancer ass but when it comes to being like. WARDENS of a PRISON. would that not be uncomfortable??#but like taking the job is the only way to avoid HER being thrown in prison??#idk the raven queen being a cool & chill goddess boss is definitely fun but when you actually think abt it#i don’t think i’d agree with her. i think if i lived in that world i’d think she were sort of evil#which like also to get into the hunger vs authority its not very explored because its not at all the point#the hunger is meant to be nihilism and despair and dissatisfaction its at its core an emotional story about joy & love#but like john starts out rebelling against laws. laws of the universe; except that it turns out a being wrote those laws (jeffandrew)#so the hunger is also sort of a force of rebelling against unjust constraints in the pursuit of freedom?#and the heroes end up preserving the status quo and saying you just have to find joy within those unjust limitations#which again. like. the point is that life is unfair and you can find joy and meaning despite it. which is true to real life.#i’m not saying the hunger was right or that despair is the only way or w/e like#yk like taz balance is not a story about society its more about. philosophy i guess#the point is that life’s really hard and you find meaning anyway and that’s preferable to despair and death#thematically for the audience we understand these are standins for ways of viewing reality#and in the real world reality is what it is. its just the world. there’s no authority that writes the laws of nature#like its not a ‘man vs authority’ story its a ‘man vs nature’ story#but IN UNIVERSE nature IS an authority. jeffandrew and the gods. regardless of how much joy you can find in an unjust world#if i lived in it i’d want to make it more just! but anyway like yeah barry & lup working for the raven queen#is kinda an extension on that idea of preserving the status quo#although i guess you could say gods are just forces of nature. theyre not PEOPLE theyre just personifications of existent natural laws#and it ties in w istus and fate as well#although fate is like a comforting guiding force rather than restricting & horrifying#^ pay no attention to any of this i don’t think it really means anything i’m just like. writing thoughts as i have them#not like a hard stance i’m taking just exploring some ideas#any ways#THERES A TAG LIMIT??
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[ID: Two panels from Dungeon Meshi. The first scows Senshi clutching his face as tears start to spill out of his eyes, saying, "I've always... always wanted to have this soup one more time." He's not wearing his helmet in this panel, so his face is unusually visible, detailed and vulnerable. The second panel shows himself as a youngster, surrounded by his old mining team, all smiling at each other, one of them rubbing Senshi's head. Modern-day Senshi continues, "Thank you. All of you. Thank you." End ID.]
Holy shit. I anticipated some tragic backstory from the "I must feed the young ones" panels, but what I'd guessed was that Senshi might have become so devoted to cooking and eating literally whatever because he'd previously survived a famine and had seen children starve to death. I did not expect him to have been the child who was the sole survivor of a doomed travel party, one of whom was determined to feed Senshi first because he was the youngest, and that Senshi has lived with the fear of having inadvertently committed cannibalism by eating stew that he'd never quite known the contents of. I'm happy for him that Laios deduced and confirmed for him that it was griffin meat, that he was able to taste the meal that saved his life once more and remember the friends he lost. Seriously, I'm crying, and also earnestly relieved that while his backstory is pretty dark, it's not the type of fucked up I'd been preparing myself mentally for.
#Dungeon Meshi#Delicious in Dungeon#Dunmeshi#though it IS really worth exploring the ethics of cannibalism in survival situations#The podcast You're Wrong About has a really interesting pairing of episodes#in the Donner Party and Flight 571 Crash episodes#Both about disasters in which people wound up eating their dead to survive#and an interesting connection they drew was that it wasn't the cannibalism itself#that destroyed the lives of the Donner survivors#it was the horror and disgust and societal rejection they got for having eaten human flesh#even the children who had no idea what they were eating were treated with revulsion#and this is clearly the response Senshi feared facing if anybody knew what he'd eaten#But Flight 571 like a century later#the survivors were faced with a lot of understanding when rescued#relatively little condemnation and revulsion#by and large commentators acknowledged that they did what they had to do#and sympathized with how difficult and painful it must have been#which is what Senshi gets from his party#Laios wants to figure out the truth because he knows it's hurting Senshi not to know#But at one point Marcille straight up says that none of them would think less of Senshi if he did eat dwarf stew#Okay so this is Marcille 'ardent student of blood magic' Donato#but Chilchuck agrees#anyway I think that would be a particularly interesting conversation to have in a cooking manga#how do you safely eat a dead friend when that's all you have to survive on?#what are the nutritional benefits other than 'better than starving'?#what are the risks? There's prion diseases and all sorts you can get#they write it off as eating the dragon part but they DO spend seven days eating Falin at the end#ARE there any in/famous cannibalism cases in this world?#Do peopel argue about whether or not it's cannibalism if a dwarf eats a tallman?#enquiring minds (mine) want to know
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I become 300% more of both a lover and a hater when I'm on my period. just a time of the month when I have strong opinions I would say
#i want to kiss a butch for 3 hours. also i'm the only one in the world with correct opinions about everything#me the main character of life#anyway i saw this post complaining about sanitized mass marketable queer art#where the person described themselves based on the interests i guess they thought were most stereotypical and then were like#isn't there something rawer or more real than this#to which i would say there is! but you went to the queer market day#idk it is a frustration of mine too i do get it#but i think some people could stand to just get weirder and like the things they like#idk i buy cute little queer stickers all the time but i regularly stand out as a strange person in both queer and straight communities#get a friend who worked the same shit job who will sell you abstract alien art they made while they were high it's not hard#go to goodwill more. you'll find some raw expressions of humanity.#if you just want your interests to be more genuine to you it's simple#you just have to accept that maybe 2 other people will be able to rec you music or foods you enjoy#being more specific isn't everything it's cracked up to be sometimes#i think the problem here is mainly capitalism
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listen. i love el and i think she's a fascinating character. we all know this. i am very clear about this. but like. it really is SO crazy how she really came in and, like... fucked will's life up so fucking bad lmao. i know that it wasn't her fault, and i'm not saying it is, but that's just... such an excruciating writing choice.
it was a choice to have her be the one that opened the gate & essentially sliced will's life into an ugly before and after. it was a choice to have her replace him as mike's number one as soon as she came back into their lives. it was a choice to make her the party's mage and then "change" will from being their wizard to their cleric. it was a choice to make her his sister. it was a choice to purposely have her wear his clothes and have the same bangs. it was a choice to have her ignore him on mike's first day in lenora, despite the fact that he was mike's friend, too, and first. it was a choice to make her oblivious to his feelings.
it was a choice to make them love and genuinely care about each other. it was a choice to make her feel like a monster for everything that'd happened and kept happening. it was a choice to make will not resent her. it was a choice to make him support her enough that he's willing to uphold her lies to mike (!!!) of all people with his inaction.
it was a choice to have him spill his heart out to mike and gift him his painting all in her name. to have him be the one to unknowingly make mike finally say "i love you" to her in response to his confession. to have him realize too late that he's been needlessly pushing mike towards her this whole time.
it was a choice to place will right beside mike, his first ever friend and keeper of his heart, when he told el that his life started just as will's ended.
it was... a bold fucking choice to replace will with el in mike's eyes due to outside influence. it throws them into chaos and disarray because el and will are not interchangeable, and it shows in how...
mike seeks from el everything that will already gives him.
mike readily gives will everything that el begs him for.
el cannot read or understand mike in the innate, wordless, and familiar way that will does.
mike cannot be vulnerable with el, but he opens up to will without even needing to be asked.
mike always heeds, trusts, and listens to will, even when they're arguing or going through a rough patch.
mike always knows just how to mend things with will, because he knows exactly what he needs and he doesn't ever hesitate to do and give it. nor does he need anyone to help him with their conflicts either. he just knows.
el is always left waiting for him to do things for her that he's currently doing for will.
will visibly hates and feels uncomfortable lying to mike, but el can do it consistently with ease.
will is the one that loves mike how he truly wants (and needs) to be loved.
will hasn't been able to move on in full, because he was cast out of his own story and demoted to a supporting role behind the new lead.
el hasn't been able to find out who she really is, because she's been thrust into roles that were never meant for her to begin with. she has always been contorted into the shape of whatever others need or want her to be, but they don't fit because they aren't her.
and, like... there are so many things in this story, which is to say the show as a whole, that would not have happened had the men in el's life not done that. had they allowed her to just be, it's highly likely that the dominoes would've never fallen the way they have.
thankfully, the narrative is set up in such a way that it appears this disorder will rectify itself, but it's still so... upsetting to think about lol.
it all boils down to choices: who gets to make them, what choices they have, why they made those choices, and what happens after. that's all the show is: a series of choices, or a lack thereof, and their consequences with some monster mumbo-jumbo sprinkled on top.
#byler#they were so insane for that and the girlies just ate that shit right up!!!!!#like. wow. they literally did not have to fucking do any of that and yet. they did. they did!!!!!!!!!!!! soap opera moment.#will is so crazy insanely strong and good and full of love and hope because if it was me?! girl. god. i am not ur strongest soldier#i would be the most bitter resentful bitch alive srry . i kno she saved their lives n the world but she was also used to bring tht all upon#them and especially will. like. and then she became his sister and saved his life and became his friend and dated the love of his life#that he's known and has been the closest to literally since forever and she's a good person so it's not like he can even hate her. he can't#even if he wanted to even if he tried to because she's just like him in a way and it's just like . [clenches fist]#this trio is jus so juicy....#mine
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It really is wild how much balance's Faerun is a victim of circumstance. Literally just a bunch of aliens came down and brought their war in with them. They totally overwrote the world's current political goings-on by injecting a new war for artifacts of powers beyond mortal comprehension, stopped that by wiping the minds of everyone on the planet, and then ended up luring in a massive eldritch presence that forced all the people of the world to fight against it again. The memory and agency stripped from every single person in a whole universe. Even the divine, their prophecies and paperwork twisted towards this strange new calling. Fuck, dude, the Moon's been fake for years.
#the adventure zone#taz balance#taz b#mine#balance#was thinking about the whole ''multiple invasive alien presences'' thing too hard#if i was a random citizen of faerun postcanon I'd be so angry i think.#like you can understand the birds were doing their best with what they had and all but also. the total lack of control of your own#destiny. of your worlds destiny. countless deaths for reasons never told to the people who committed these atrocities#what do heroes and gods mean anymore in the world where the hunger was destroyed
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things are happening….
(Fill out the interest form for the zine here… I’m still working on getting it ready for the fest hehe)
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did i ever tell you guys that when i first played slay the princess i was certain right up till the very end that she was going to be the player character also bc of timeloop shenanigans and that we were fixing ourself and in the end we would become one or something
yeah that definitely impacted the way i played
#thinking about how as soon as the narrator revealed we were separate#- separated -#it was over#i knew that for all this time i had been caring for her#for what i thought was myself#which i paradoxically fell in love with#it was over for the world#i knew where i was meant to be#because i was part of her i was#i was beautiful and important#(even though i didnt know what tlq represented at the time)#(she said we were hers and she was mine)#(i trusted her beyond belief)#and she raised her bodies towards me in argument#but i was already sold#slay the princess#slay the princess spoilers#stp spoilers#first playthrough stp#soup shut up challenge#this game changed me in so many ways#even if the end result was me becoming more firm in my beliefs
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What if the nether is the stomach of a giant creature...
Just like Tartarus from the Greek myths, the Nether is a giant being, like a titan or something else...
The Nether is massive caverns and fire, with an impenetrable roof and oceans of lava. The netherrack is the stomach lining, and the bedrock is the stronger layer of cells. The lava is stomach acid x20.
There are giant bones in the soulsand valleys, larger creatures that were eaten before the giant stopped feasting. Ancient Debris are metals that were melted and turned into an alloy during the digestion of the wielders.
And plants can't survive in extreme heat, so fungi is the only thing that can grow there. Giant Fungi for the giant stomach. and the smaller nether fungi are the baby fungi, which is already kinda true...
And, it's home to monsters. Not many, but there are monsters!
#minecraft#mineblr#minecraft headcanons#minecraft lore#random thoughts by xorn#imagine if you were mining into a giant's stomach all along without realising it#I don't have an explanation for the massive width of it#but I can blame that on minecraft worlds being unrealistically large
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Obviously, I can't ignore the funny pics of AFO either
AFO getting insulted for the first time on the web be like:
He looks like his fingers would be flying across a keyboard if he were on the internet.
AFO went and made himself into a troll face, man.
"MOMMY LOOK AT WHAT I FOUND!"
YEAH BOY, YOU LOOK REAL WEIRD BUT YEAH! RAISE YOUR TROPHY
MA! AN ALLIGATOR GOT INTO THE TRAILER AGAIN!
AFO's that arm being pummeled into the ground.
[All Might Doesn't Know How to Fucking Hold Back Against Kids: Case 47]
Feat. Accidentally twink-ifying AFO to the point he's become a twig
NEWS: AFO fails again, "Desperately trying to play it cool", All Might says, for at least the 3rd time in this fight
AFO tried being so cool with the "Shigaraki—my other self" and failed instantly. Livestreamed all over the world. Ugggghhh. The embarrassmenttt
Proceeds to split his face to smile, saying "I'll have to do the legwork myself".
As if to them, he didn't just go "Watch me do this. Come now, my other self. ........ I'll have to do it myself."
"Look how cool I am" *fails* "I CAN DO IT PROPERLY I MEAN IT"
He flip-flopped so hard here that if it were me, I'd give All Might the finishing blow to end me of my embarrassment. The world saw it. My life is over
AFO's ego is just so big and he's trying so hard to play it cool and keep his pride in his fight.
As if he hasn't been running around half-naked in a cape this whole time
#ik ik my sense of humor is bad#the alligator is a monsters inc reference#afo#all for one#bnha#mha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#all might#toshinori yagi#spoilers#i said in the prev post tags that i wasnt going to stroke his ego#afo is actually a loser (affectionate)#afo: I DIDNT KILL YOICHI.#kudo: yes you did.#afo: *cries and kills kudo*#afo: *hates kudo so much for reminding him that he kills kudos bloodline and goes crazy at someone who looks like him*#afo later: they were crocodile tears so i could manipulate you#afo: *fails instantly on live television* oh well. *tries playing it cool* i'll just do it MYSELF!#yoichi: *dies a second time*#afo: *rises from another death just bc of that* Mine last kin hath been shattered liketh the fine shards that rain of a glass window#afo: gray is thy world that mine brother has departed from yet again. the purpose in life and this plane we call existence hath been#stripped like a nail stuck too crookedly. mother this world hath proven truly unjust and I Shall Throw A World-Shattering Tantrum™#image limit
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i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart) x.
#Takashi Shirogane#Shiro#You're nothingness but shining and everywhere at once.#Allura#The Silver-Haired Princess and Her Silver-Haired Paladin.#Voltron: Legendary Defender#Mine.#I have so many many many thoughts regarding these two.#How both of them were directly victimized by the Galra Empire#and Zarkon#himself#and find themselves in positions of leadership at the forefront of an intergalactic war despite the fact that Allura is a teenaged genocide#survivor who still misses her father and Shiro is a deeply scarred and traumatized pilot-turned-gladiator-against-his-will and neither one#of them have had the space or time to process either of these things.#How differently they handle the immense grief the Galra have caused them.#And that even though they find themselves diametrically opposed to each other's beliefs concerning Ulaz and the Blades they still trust#one another implicitly.#That Shiro looks so much like Alfor it's actually crazy.#How Allura unknowingly made Shiro relive the trauma of losing his crew when she allowed herself to be captured because they're both#inherently self-sacrificing and all-too willing to martyr themselves for the sake of others.#Allura carrying Shiro's essence inside of her before magically transferring it into the clone's body#and how it not only bleached Shiro's hair but is implied to have altered his DNA given his later interactions with the Balmeran crystals#used to power his arm and the Atlas.#That the new arm was Allura's idea and she willingly sacrificed a piece of her heritage for it and for Shiro.#The way they play off of each other when given a moment of levity and all of the potential that was wasted because the writing on this show#is an unbelievably frustrating mess.#In a perfect world where the notorious Season Eight doesn't exist or was competently handled#Shiro is part of Allura's bridal party and the godfather of her and Lance's children.#And he never attempts to dye or change his hair because he loves having a reminder of everything that Allura has done for him and their#importance to and connection with each other readily apparent every time he sees himself in the mirror.
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the other day when i dropped one of the girls at her dancing class, i heard a mom say she took her son to the opera to see a ballet and he was so dazzled by the fashion and so excited to wear a beautiful tutu. good for him
#as a kid i felt a tiny bit bad for boys because male fashion seemed so boring to me#like don't get me wrong. i hated boys. they were mean and they sucked#and i was already very angry about all the misogyny in this world#but i was never like ''i wish i was a boy'' because boys didn't get to wear beautiful princess dresses. and personally to me that's like#the main goal of life#i knew one boy who liked to wear princess dresses and i happily let him borrow mine lol
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btw not to make everything about My Fucking Guy but i honestly think one of the things that seperates q!phil out from the other islanders is the approach he takes to dealing with the lack of agency + control all the islanders have over whatever the fuck the federation's doing.
it shows up most prominently whenever tubbo is excitedly telling him about the 'progress' he's made with cucurucho or various investigations (ie: trapping him into a corner with the 'do you have free will' questions), and phil always shoots it down w an immediate 'that doesn't mean anything. curucuho will say anything to mess with you. you can't take anything he says as true.'
and it's not that phil is... a paticularly pessimistic character? he's just EXTREMELY practical. like, he's yet to give up on anyone EVER finding ANY answers (he was the one who initially gave the federation that one week ultimatum w the cage for a cage stream), he just doesn't trust the idea that curucuho is ever going to voluntarily give them. they're uncontrollable + senseless - you might as well argue with the weather.
and like, if that's how he sees the one (1) and only point of contact the islanders HAD with the federation for months, it explains a lot abt his characters lifestyle! ofc he sits on the wall all day, talking to his kids, and keeping his head down. he believes that the federation wants nothing more than to drag the islanders into sick games + tasks just so they can fuck with their head (ie: curucuho revealing he was the one cellbit gathered all that information for). and while he can't totally PREVENT any of that from ever impacting him, he can make sure his kids are well fed, well protected, and as happy + comfortable as he can manage. this is objectively not a perfect situation, there is a guaranteed amount of suffering + fear that he can't mitigate, but he can at least account for it.
like, he REFUSES to engage. whenever curucho shows up, he treats them with total ambivalence. he's not going to get riled up by anything they do, he's not going to get super attached to the guy, he's just gonna laugh it off and irish goodbye it when things drag on. the ONLY time he's strayed from that general guiding principle has been since he's lost his eggs, and can no longer afford to let the federation's fuckery go: those are his fucking kids.
hence the completely unprecedented levels of outward rage and sadness and terror he shows throughout the birdcage streams - almost all directed directly to cucurucho. it's all a completely fair + proportional response to the horror the islanders are being subjected to, but it feels so different bc until now, q!phil has been so dedicated to not reacting, and not giving the federation any sign that they're actually getting to him.
#qsmp#q!phil#LIKE. does anyone else think this! i genuinely believe its like one of the major#traits of his character i feel like u can trace it through Everything.#the man lives with the constant knowledge that sometimes all it takes is a tempting ravine and a badly timed creeper to end a life#whether that life belongs to a stranger or someone you love more than anything else in the world#you COULD rage against that. you could scream and shout and tear your hair out and grieve for the futility of it all#but what does that change? the days march on. death waits either way#and that's not to say he's a laizesfair kind of guy. anyone who's seen him stress out abt chayanne's risk taking + freak out#whenever his kids don't have enough autofeed grist can see that he cares DEEPLY. which resolves into his very distinctive#defensive + protective playstyle. the goal is not to win the fight the goal is to *survive* the fight etc#but the only way that mindset doesn't spill out into unchecked paranoia + complete agoraphobia is with acceptance#'shit happens: the philza minecraft story'#i also think it even manifests in the nightmare sequence w his last words to chayanne? 'they didn't want us to live. we were never supposed#to survive' or whatever the exact wording was#he is FURIOUS and deeply hurt and sad abt the deaths he says so explicitly later#but at the time the first thing he reaches for is. exhausted acceptance. it wasn't their fault. it wasn't his fault. they did their best.#they could only do so much in the face of the federation's Overwhelming Hostility. y'know?#mine
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