#idk why im writing this

[lampcry]

my practice of drawing ideal triangle is a failure

[esha-isboogara]

thanks fr the mmrs

i want to write more kento stuff but i have zero ideas :( it’s a curse tbh he’s literally the loml but it’s impossible for me to write for him. anyways enjoy this hot mess <3

✰dark content, non consensual somnophilia, he’s a jealous perv, me simping for him

kento is well aware how much gojo loves you. the man makes sure to mention it at least one hundred something times a day. “i’ve never met a girl like her..i just love her so much” he’d tell him while they walked throughout the campus. or he’d bring up a cutesy little story while getting drinks. it was clear satarou gojo was in l-o-v-e

externally nanami nodded, trying to seem happy for his coworkers good fortune. telling him how happy he was that he had found such a lovely partner and expressing his excitement for their upcoming engagement. but inside he was being eaten alive by jealousy.

nanami had met you first. he had loved you first. you were supposed to be all his. if only he hadn’t introduced you to gojo. you’d be his pretty little girlfriend who he could proudly brag about to all his coworkers and friends. regret was slowly gnawing through his heart.

and that’s how he found himself in your room, standing above you as your slept peacefully on your twin sized bed. you looked so cute all cuddled up under your blankets, snuggling up against a stuffie which by the looks of it you’d had for years. he couldn’t understand how gojo could leave such an adorable thing alone so often.

if he was your partner he’d take you with him on every trip, treating you like the royalty you were.

nanami sighed as he continued to gaze down at you. god, you looked angelic being bathed in the light of the moon. like an angel that fell from the heavens itself.

carefully he climbed into bed with you, his breath catching in his throat as you nestled against his chest.

“toru? is that you”? you asked sleepily, not bothering to open your eyes.

nanami knew if he spoke he’d be screwed. you’d see him as some kind of sick pervert, rightly so, and never speak to him again. instead he answered with a simple “mhm”

you mumbled something incoherently before drifting back into your slumber.

oh god you were just so cute. he was trying his best to control his more..perverse urges but he was failing.

fuck. he knew how wrong this was- how terrible he was for doing this in the first place. but what kind of man would he be if he left you unattended and needy for a man’s touch.

his fingers crept beteen your thoughts eating a small gasp from you but nothing more. as he moved them higher it was clear how wet you had become.

nanami couldn’t help but feel another twinge of jealousy with a hint of annoyance. gojo got to experience this as often as he wanted and yet he was too busy with his “work” to indulge himself with this amazing feeling. he’d never understand how that man could be so stupid.

you were just so ready for him, his index finger slid through your slick folds with ease. it was almost as if his body was molded to give you pleasure. he was careful to keep his pace slow and methodical. there was a chance he’d never be able to experience this bliss ever again in his lifetime. it was imperative that he took his time to bask in your glory.

quiet whines fell from your lips as he continued his movements. nanami couldn’t help but feel as if he died and went to heaven.

it didn’t take much longer for your climax to approach. he felt your walls clench around his fingers as you groaned in pure pleasure.

“mmm satoru. i love you so much”.

he knew he should feel bad, he should feel guilty for what he’s done. but he didn’t m. in fact he felt the best he had in weeks. he’s definitely going to pay you a few more visits before your boyfriend returns.

[legendoftortor]

So, I decided to bite the bullet and finally made a dedicated tumblr blog for my slightly unhealthy obsession with Sebastian & Ominis.

Looking forward to interacting with everyone here ❤️

A little bit (well, a lot) about me:

I’m 27.

I’m married.

I loved Harry Potter as a kid (I feel like a lot of us did though) - I remember dressing up as Hermione for Halloween once with a homemade costume.

I always used to be a very clear-cut Ravenclaw, but nowadays, my official house sorting is now Slytherin and any quizzes with percentages have the two houses floating *very* close (the extended Sorting Hat quiz has me as 41% Slytherin and 39% Ravenclaw).

I love cats. And Taylor Swift. And Taylor Swift’s cats.

I’m American (I lived in Florida for most of my childhood), but I live in the UK and have for many years now.

I used to write fanfiction for AC:Syndicate - I’d love to start writing again for Hogwarts Legacy but haven’t yet had the courage after a four year hiatus

I’m chronically ill and it often really limits my life - I consider myself disabled but I’m not ashamed of it. It has made me the person I am today.

I am part of the LGBTQ+ community - a few of my close friends and my husband know, but I haven’t had the courage to tell my family yet.

With the above in mind, I am an avid supporter of trans rights. I do not condone JKR’s behaviour. I may go into this further in a separate post if need be but please know that my blog is a safe space for all.

I’d love to make some friends on here!

(attached photo is my MC bc not comfortable with an actual photo of me just yet, sorry not sorry she’s beeeeeeeyoutiful)

[miyaheestar]

it's actually so funny how i give very different vibes when it's about talking in chat and talking in vc(this doesn't include when im playing games especially horror games)

i can be seen like loud and extrovert in my post or chat but when im on call im pretty uhh how do i say this calm? uhhh idk im only active if im with my long time best friends (bonus point if they're older than me)

i don't really know how to act around kids ig? i mean like teenager kids above 13+

also kids can be super mean even if they dont mean it or joking around and i am very much a sensetive person and also a crybaby since i was a kid HAHAHA

i guess im just too used to be the youngest in everything so it's hard to get along with kids sometimes 😔‼️

[bellamyblake]

Bellarke and leadership

something i wanna talk about now that I’m rewatching s1 and perhaps awfully late realizing for the first time is the part about leadership and especially when it comes for Bellamy and Clarke to take up on those roles.

While yes, it’s true that when Clarke comes down, she tries to take charge and make the others listen to her, I don’t believe she’s in an absolute leadership position, not even when they decide to banish Murphy in 1x04. It’s interesting for her because the progression that’s happening there for her is a bit different-she loses her dad, then she’s locked up, then she comes to earth where she does try to take care of the people but in fact just kind of gets caught up in some personal problems. The first of which is the one with her mom, dad and Wells-it takes some time figuring out what happened there. The other one is a newly created problem that is Finn, falling in love with him, then Raven coming down and her having to first swallow down her feelings for him and then save his life and keep doing that for the good of him and Raven as she can see how much they mean to each other.

In other words, I don’t think she fully assumes the role as a leader until 1x07/ or maybe I dare say 1x08 where she 1st-decides to agree on torturing Lincoln for information which is a big step, a leader step where the decisions weigh on you and it’s not just maps and runnign around trying to find Mount Weather or being in the weird dynamic place beteween an old friend who’s in love with you and a new guy who’s interested in you.

She actually takes a step towards real leadership there and later absolutely fills in those shoes when she meets Anya.

But What I want to talk about here is Bellamy. I believe he assumes the real leadership position at first and carries it on a bit longer before Clarke joins him in. That is of course, a product of the circumestances-he has taken charge a long time ago when his mom put his sister in his hands and told him she was his responsibility. She makes him name Octavia and take care of her, promising to keep her quiet and safe. The whole reason why we were lucky enough to have a Blake siblings flashback was, I believe, because of that-showing where it all came for for Bellamy but not just the understandting behind his current actions (aka taking off the wristbands for his love for his sister) but also why he fits in the leadership position from the moment they hit the ground.

He had already been a parent and a leader for the past seventeen years. With a mom who made sure she did just enoug hto survive but offered no love, he had to fill in a gap between Auora and Octavia, while putting himself away from experiencing what a real family was in order to take proper care for his sister and please his mother. 

When he comes to the ground he tries to ensamble his people, then convinces them taking off the wristbands is good for them (even though he is indeed trying to save himself here FOR Octavia, a part I think people forget often), he surrounds himself with people he trusts but also helps built this camp-organizes the delinquents to build a wall (remember 1x04 “If it wasn’t for her, those idiots would still be building a wall” when he talks about Clarke saying the truth about Wells;), He quickly realizes what’s good for the people-the truth and omitting it in the case with Charlotte because it will safe them in this unstable situation; He cares for them which is shown when he goes out to look for Octavia and Roma and Mbege die. (I hate when ppl say he only started caring about the delinquents later-he did, from the beginning), he went hunting with them, made them work on rations, etc. 

He also makes some very big leadership mistakes-the first one being hanging Murphy and the second one-throwing the radio away in the river when Raven lands. Now that second one is a really big and very heavy decision, one that Clarke if you think about it doesn’t get to make until the end of the season where she agrees on Raven using the hydrozyne to kill the grounders. Yes, he does make it so he can save himself but his personal decision weighs on the whole camp because if the rest of the Ark doesn’t come down, how do they survive. The whole conversation with Jaha in 1x08 where he hallucinates him just proves all that. While for Clarke it’s her dad she sees and misses, Bellamy is the one already beating himself up for mistakes akined to someone who’s ruling and leading. (and who feels the same amount of guilt the council on the Ark does, aka the parallels between Kane and Bellamy starting here)

Then there comes Lincoln and I think that’s the moment that kind of glues Bellamy and Clarke as leaders which is concluded in 1x08 when they bring the guns back home and it’s quite clear and established who is in charge of those kids. 

That is where they take their first big decision together (yes, I scartch Murphy because while he was a hard choice, he was one of them, he made mistakes, a kid died because of him and banishing him was the only thing they could figure out at the moment but Lincoln is an outsider, a grounder, the enemy. And this is their first time trying to decide how to deal with that.) You could see how new in it all they were, how uncertain-they argue and they do not want to do any of that. They are both mentally torn-you could tell so by the looks in their eyes but they’re also fighting with the new reality-the one where the world is cruel and those people out there already killed 10 of their friends and what is there to do?

What is the RIGHT thing?

And all of that was solidified in the last conversation they have in 1x07 where Bellamy picks her hand holding the screw he put in Lincoln’s hand and he says “Who we are and who we need to be to survive are very different things.” I believe this is the first time he’s being honest with her, basically screaming ‘I am not this person, I am not a killer, I’m not a torturer but I have to be this now. For my sister. For us. Do you understand?” but she’s lost herself and doesn’t know what to respond so he adds, shyly, almost as if he didn’t want to give himself away “It’s not easy being in charge, is it?” because he already HAS been in charge but now she truly IS too. Finally, in that moment.

[papyskellington]

Some doodles of everyone’s favourite disaster barbarian sorcerer! He really grew into his muscles lmao Might have to click onto it for better quality because idk how tumblr works lmao but I included the little sketches in their own little closeups idk if yall are into that but yea

[d4jamso]

I'm not obsessed with my mutuals, I just admire them all. They're like the evil mastermind and I'm the stupid henchmen who asks what they're next deploy is going to install

[chipeanuts]

To all the blues brothers blog out there : thank you so much for feeding me every day with blues brothers content you have no idea how happy it makes me, your posts are my daily dose of serotonin <3

[dog-with-a-girlblog]

There's a mother I met in a cafe a year ago. She was asking me for advice about her child who has autism and how to deal with their reluctance to go to school both because of the lack of accommodations and because of the transphobia they face from their classmates. And we talked for a looooong time. And every so often I run into her and she tells me about her child like "they're doing better at home! They're getting into coding and have been accepted into a school that can accommodate for them" and like every time I see her I wanna burst into tears because of how nice it is to see kids with supportive parents

[floor-of-the-mind]

I haven't posted on here in forever, but I just got my first job!!! Just kinda felt the need to put this out into the void lol

[rabonghee]

After many months without stepping a foot here, I’ve been entering this blog for some minutes everyday this week. I know that’s how life works but I find it so wild that one day I suddenly stopped coming to the website where my pre-teen years all the way to the beginning of my adulthood took place (since I was 12 until last year when I stopped being active here so literally ten years of my life).

I started going through random pages on my blog, seeing the @’s of so many people I used to speak to and now I have no contact with and it made me so melancholic lol

I guess I’m writing this as a way to give closure to this stage of my life. I mean I’m probablyyy going to eventually pop up here and maybe post a thing or two but it’s never going to be the same way, you know? So this is a post to thank everyone, I guess. To the friends I gained here (y’all know who you are bc we keep speaking lool), to the new people who have followed this blog even though it has been unactive for more than a year lmao, and idk?? to the site itself?? for being the place I could always come to, put on my silly little hat and express myself.

Also, I still don’t know how to end paragraphs lol

[aurazoo]

I've got it all: buys the weed, watches even the shittiest 90s movies, reads both too much and not enough theory, smokes most of the weed, constantly gets better at clone hero, has two pairs of binoculars, wears pajama shorts at all times when at home, has a boombox that plays CDs and cassettes with megabass, can't cook that well but can still help, drinks less water than I should but I'm still okay about it, will do the driving, the softest thighs in the world, can't sit still for too long, has a bad knee, a smallish collection of wooden ducks and various waterfowl, a big collection of old pinball game roms, a weird nebulous and shifting taste in music, a PS4, a VHS player in my room, too many sweaters and not that much money

[liquoriceleavess]

So, East Palace

I last watched it a few years ago, and I've watched it a few times. Once even in chinese without subtitles, its so mesmerising.

And xiao feng, the poor thing, no one has suffered like her. That loser crybaby gu xiao wu, is all about how he lost his mother in childhood and so he decides to take all of the princess's family away. He's just like his adopted mother.

She was sweet and sprightly, trying so very hard to survive to her best in trying times and these gu cousins destroy her existence and her essence.

He's so superficial and stupid, gu xiao wu. He's telling her about the birds in his homeland, like a well built pretty palace is supposed to just erase everything. Is xiao feng some kind of pet, is she supposed to forget her homeland because of him?

It's ironic because he tells shifu that she's not a thing to be passed here and there, as if he's not treating her like a thing himself

So the forgetting waterfall. Alright, she's been spun so far there's no life left of her, but she stayed true to her word to jump in the lake. Its admirable, how hard she tries to be a danshi xiao feng, not a central plains one

She feels guilty for what has happened to her people. How can she not? She feels guilty for loving someone who betrayed her so wickedly.

Gu xiao wu is so strange. He expects her to skip here and there with her feelings, like he murdered everyone and she should immediately forget that, and not only go back to him, but also like him and even, it's preposterous, admire him.

救我 😭

The grasslands are always the most fun of the dramas.

Then there's shifu. I get they were trying to make it a second lead kind of story. From the start, it doesn't work on her part. He loves her, true, whilst she looks at him as a teacher, a person who's been good to her and its written for a few unnecessary moments as a sort of affection because she has to run away, but before that, did she think seriously about shifu?

Whilst with gu xiao wu, she doesn't have any kind of loyalty to him, any kind of story that connects them. There is a now and a future. A future she thinks she chooses. In that day and age, how lucky she must have thought that she could choose someone she loved, instead of some alliance that was forced on her.

Also that awesome grassland wedding? The way gu xiao wu could turn around from that. He has a split personality, seriously.

He always says Li chengyin with all this pride, like it's supposed to impress xiao feng, whilst she had been happier with a tea trader. She doesn't want the facade of the palace, all the power that comes with it. She would probably care more for her little red horse than ceremonies and ornaments.

They wrote him too harsh though. He hardly shows any affection at the palace, I get his doing it because of spies and whatever, its just that it's so long and then it's way too late.

Like shifu said, caring and knowing how to care are different things.

As for shifu, he's a bad guy. That's what he is, like gu xiao wu, only he doesn't have that much to gain from it. If he died, no one would care. He's sworn to his uncle and revenge and whatever, uses xiao feng for that, treating her awfully because of people who aren't even alive.

She doesn't love him, without all the martial arts and betrayal, he's like a second lead in a chaebol drama. Hey palace dramas are actually chaebol dramas, with different costumes 🤔 modern dramas, they wear western costumes and historic dramas, they wear eastern.

Strange, huh. One is taken to be normal, whilst its actually not.

她是我的妻子 😠

There's these touches to this drama that make it special. When she falls in the fountain, and when she falls in the lake at that party, she's wearing those silky dresses that float. When shifu tells gu xiao wu, 离开 in the desert, then again when he's taking her away. When she can't read, and he doesn't tell her and then he leaves her the note, she reads a few letters. He thought she'd know those well enough. 三日见. Also the writing scenes are cute, okay.

And her red dress. The way he sees her first when she saves him and he sees all the red and gold. Epic.

Xiao feng is so sad and its a sad story all of it is sad and also, kind of love at first sight for gu xia wu?

[super-rangers]

I look hot today but there's no one around to appreciate it :(

[torifuckingspring]

everyone got me all curios so i listened to "slut!" and i ah i forgot i find taylor swift kind of annoying lol

[inkskinned]

we were sitting on the floor and i was cutting out tiny pictures to make a collage for a friend's birthday. you were on your phone and you laughed about something, and i was still in love with you then, so i asked what had you giggling.

"sorry. i was just..." you took a moment and went back to texting. "i was telling someone about how you're afraid of the dark."

i'm afraid of the dark because something bad happened. "oh." i felt a little slinky of shame crawl down my throat.

you glanced up, and maybe it showed on my face, because you rolled your eyes and held the phone to the side casually so i could see the group chat. "what? was it a secret?"

i looked down to the scissors in my hand. "i just..." no, it's not a secret. it just felt like something private, something serious. saying why would you tell someone that just feels like an accusation. it's unfair. i honestly am not even ashamed of it, it's just a fact about my person that i don't usually share.

what a strange experience. is this a human thing or a generational thing? for our grandparents: did they need to worry about how quickly someone can just... share your personal information? again, i didn't even really have a true objection. what could i say? i want any person in my life to feel they can be honest with their friends. it's not like i said don't tell anyone this.

i cut out another letter to complete the rainbow happy birthday, started hunting for the exclamation mark. i heard you sigh dramatically.

"don't make a big deal about this," you said.

this entire conversation was a pattern for us, and this was when we got to my least favorite part of the pattern. i would get my feelings hurt in some oblique not-technically-terrible way, and then it would be making a big deal about something. you'd get frustrated for me for being soft, but i was born soft. you knew i was soft when you pierced me. it's one of the things that made controlling me so easy.

"i'm not," i felt my voice crack. the question came without my wanting. "why are you guys talking about me?" and why are you saying that thing? why not like - i'm telling them how you're generous and kind and pretty.

you let out this low, tragic groan. "oh my god." you tossed the phone away from your body. "there, see? i just won't talk to them if you don't like it."

the rest of the hour went the way it always went, between us: i said i don't actually mind if you talk to your friends but -, you found a way to call my minor expression of discomfort "being dramatic." you got upset that i had been offended. i ended up apologizing, even though i hadn't actually done anything.

afterwards, you picked up the phone again. after texting for a little bit, you snorted. "okay," you said, "but it is kind of funny you're afraid of the dark. i mean, when you think about it."