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idk you guys i think i'm improving! there's no way i could've done this in like january
#idk what i'm doing fr#maybe just a little girly blender set#i just really love gisou#wip#render wip
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stargazing.
word count: 721
author's notes: just a little something for my favorite old man fr. written after a friend gave me a prompt for a fluff ff with welt, and while this isn't necessarily fluff, it is a ff?? HASHSH just a bunch of rambles! idk what i'm doing actually :3
other: contains spoilers for welt's hsr lore; posted on amino and ao3 as well
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Welt Yang enjoyed watching the stars in this universe.
Of course, it took him time to actually take a liking to it. He still remembered well just how distant they felt at the very beginning, how much they reminded him of the fact this place wasn't home - even though he made a conscious decision to enter this world. How after that person left they seemed to almost laugh at Welt and mock him: “Look, you're on your own again!”; and while he was no stranger to that, it still made him feel… Bitter, almost. Perhaps not necessarily out of place, but still to some extent unwelcome - like these stars were poking and scratching at that wound in his heart that hasn't quite healed yet, never allowing it to close for longer.
He would never admit it to anyone, though; not because of lack of trust on his side, but because he didn't believe it was important enough to trouble anyone with it. Even if it cost him a few too many sleepless nights, spent on tossing around in his bed and staring at the ceiling, and thinking, thinking, thinking way too much, until the voice of doubt in his mind became unbearably loud. Did he really make the right decision choosing to enter this universe? Letting that person leave the crew without a word? Staying here instead of searching for them?
Was he doing the right thing in general, or simply trying to play a pathetic imitation of a hero again?
He bore the name of the world, but not this one. It was likely an incredibly selfish way of thinking, but it wasn't his duty to save this universe. And, he also knew Himeko wouldn't stop him if he decided to leave her as well; no one was keeping him on the Astral Express by force, after all. He was free to do whatever he wished to, even if it was to continue forward entirely on his own.
Ultimately, though, he stayed.
The time he spent on the train grew longer, and as it did, his wish to leave became weaker and weaker. The crew grew too, with Astral Express turning into a safe haven for the new members, somewhere they could always return to, and with Welt eventually becoming a mentor of sorts for these young people. He didn't mind, really. Even more; he was glad he was able to make them feel safe, and like they had someone to rely on; he could tell they needed it, after all.
His room began feeling more cozy, too, as it filled up with various things: some related to his work on the Express, some - to his hobbies, and these were a little more self-indulgent.
And it was only natural that, as he found his place in this universe, another part of him eventually took over.
It was the part that craved knowledge, just like a little kid who always had a thousand questions about the world around them ready; the part that felt pure, simple joy just learning new things; the part that maybe, just maybe, never really grew up. Before Welt realized, he was studying maps of the skies of the planets they visited, learning the names of the stars and constellations, even the legends associated with them.
He was catching himself gazing at the stars more often, too: whether it would be in the parlor car, looking outside the window, relaxing with a cup of coffee or tea; on one of the Astral Express' many stops, as he stole an hour or two from his night sleep just to watch the stars if it only was possible in the world in question; or, finally, in his own bedroom, sometimes even in bed - which was conveniently placed right next to the window, allowing him to see a bit of the sky without needing to get up.
He realized he found the sight oddly calming and soothing as well, something that helped him collect his thoughts whenever he needed that - and sometimes, filling him with almost… Child-like excitement for the journey ahead of them; even bringing a soft smile to his face, which, unbeknownst to him, has been captured on several of March 7th's many photos.
Yes.
Welt Yang certainly could say he enjoyed watching the stars in this universe.
#dim writing ☁️#hsr#honkai star rail#welt yang#hsr welt#fanfiction#fanfic#writing#idk what i'm doing fr
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STAR TREK: LOWER DECKS — SEASON 1 (2020)
#trekedit#lower decks#star trek lower decks#lowerdecksedit#startrekedit#scifiedit#tvedit#animationedit#i did this for s4 and now i'm gonna go back and do the rest i've decided :)#and i think it'll be fun if i change up the layout each time but we'll see what i come up with :')#also i love how i was like. idk if i'm coming back here fr. and then keep posting gifsets#with like at least 15 other ideas still bouncing around in my skull like ping pong balls skdhdjdk
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i love you. no, you don't. but thanks for sayin' it.
#spike#spike btvs#spuffy#spuffyedit#btvsedit#btvs#buffy the vampire slayer#anyway. first scene spike lays eyes on buffy in the show and the last scene and i'm gettin EMOTIONAL about it#something something there's a shining golden thread running from the moment spike decides to kill this slayer to him bursting into flames#underneath sunnydale high. and that thread is his and buffy's intense mutual understanding of each other fr fr#and what is intense mutual understanding if not love at its core. really and truly.#idk i was gonna do something so different with this and then i ended up doing an edit that looks exactly like all of my other edits :/#but i do kind of like it. so. whatever.#it's terribly simple#you know you want to dance
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Guess who: Gavin!
This is a sketch btw that I didn't feel like rendering so hahahaha. This is mostly for Asher which I promised to draw a really long time ago. I'm on break still but I thought it'd be funny to post this and then leave for 3 months. (I'm kidding)
Tag list:
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@aurorialwolf
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If you want to get added lol let me know.
#I GOT BORED#and I have classes so I genuinely will not see any of your responses until like#Thursday#maybe Friday#idk#c:#but#redacted audio#redactedverse#redacted asmr#redacted Gavin#redacted fanart#lucid is Picasso#for now#lol#I had no fucking clue how to horn and they're not even#so if we just IGNORE THAT#then#it's fine#I'm gonna go draw fem!damien and fem!huxley based off of lunas dti ok bye#literally Luna didn't even ask me to do that but any excuse to draw fem people is good enough#I havé a lot of drawing to catch up with#and I was fr like#BAM#Gavin!#like ok#(like I'm not drawing my blasian Damien rn)#very embarrassing of me but what's a schedule when you are unmedicated on every issue ever :D
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"Remember it."
#Rogue#Gambit#Scott Summers#Beast#X-Men '97#X-Men 97#X-Men#Marvel#Remember it#gif#gifset#gif set#pain and suffering only#it hurts in my chest#like omg idk what I'm gonna do in the next episode that follows this#Wolverine#Morph#Cyclops#i hope magneto survived and he and scott queen out#humans deserve it fr#i'm tired#and then moira reset the timeline#and everyone went to krakoa#the end
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For if not…
#j.jpg#black sails#parallels#can anyone hear me. is this. something#it sure was something TO ME upon my first rewatch#like why are some of the lines identical. as well as the profile shots.......... To Me#you must know this.....#on all levels except physical john is on his knees begging in this scene. idk what to tell you#feel like i'm going crazy fr i stayed up for like 2hrs just to finish putting this together like the red string theory wall meme#it's not right#could i have made this parallel better in a fanvid YES i thought about and made it in my head all day today#alas. i do not have the episode files....#WHATEVER.......... post for like 3 people and i am one of them
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well that's fucking awesome. all of the damage russians have done to our electric infrastructure can be repaired in one year minimum. IT'S GONNA TAKE MORE TAHN ONE YEAR TO REPAIR ALL OF THE ELECTRIC STATIONS RUSSIANS HIT WITH THEIR MISSILES. AND WE AIN'T EVEN TALKING ABOUT CIVILIAN OR ANY OTHER INFRASTRUCTURE. ONLY ELECTRIC ONE. MORE THAN ONE YEAR. AND WE ARE STILL NOT STRUGGLING ENOUGH IN ONLINE PEOPLE'S OPINION. FUCK OFF
#like look I'm just a guy who fucking wants to relax on my summer break and enjoy the last months of being unemployed and careless#and all I fucking get is “the electricity will soon be out” notification on my phone#LIKE OKAY I FUCKING GET YOU YOU ARE USED TO US FUCKING STRUGGLING AND I MAY BE SEEN BYPER PRIVILEGED FOR COMPLAINING#BUT IT'S SO FUCKING EASY TO JUDGE SOMEONE WHILE YOU FUCKING HAVE EVERYTHING I CAN EVER DREAM OF (basic human needs)#like YES THERE'S AN ONGOING WAR IN MY COUNTRY AND I KNOW IT. BUT WE DIDN'T CHOSE TO LIVE NEXT TO FUCKING RUSSIA#we just want to live safely and have access to the most basic things that many people all around the world take for granted#we want to feel safe on our land#we want to stop fucking worrying that the next building hit by russian missile will actually be ours because no one is safe#and still I fucking see those fuckos online telling me how we “don't act like people who live in a country that goes through a war”#well I guess in that case we should all stop buying food and clothes to be REAL people who are suffering from a war#like you for real?? you gonna fucking make us give up the only sourse of distraction and dopamine we can get?#you fucking judging people for buying stuff because “you shouldn't buy new things#there's an ongoing war in your country“ you fr?? so like what we all shall fucking give up and die??#buying new things often gives people some dopamine which actually helps to stay somehow stable (as sane as it's possible)#or do you want us to be a fucking nut-state? idk some mental-case-state. fuck off#stand with ukraine#russia is a terrorist state
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fuck it friday
tagged by @tizniz @bidisasterbuckdiaz @honestlydarkprincess 💖💖
still on my bucktommy bs, I'll be back to buddie but i'm too obsessed with tommy/lou to think about anything else rn lol
so here's a bit of something short I'm wiriting for 7x05 from tommy's pov, idk what this is, what it's gonna be, but I wanna finish it tonight or maybe by the end of the weekend so posting it here to motivate myself and also tell me what y'all think bc the more i reread all of it the more i doubt myself lol
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It took him some time, plus a lot of self-reflection and just taking it one step at a time, letting himself look at other men, this time consciously and sometimes deliberately, noticing how hot they are, how they make him feel. He let himself feel how they make him feel. It took a minute to stop feeling guilty and ashamed, and to rework all those internalized prejudices that had been ingrained in him his whole life.
He gave himself time, a lot of time, started with just chatting with guys on dating apps, later got the courage for some casual dates, and when he met the man who would be his first actual boyfriend, his first gay relationship, that he genuinely liked, he felt ready to pursue that. It didn’t work out then, that’s just life, but it was a good relationship, because he was ready for it. Now he feels settled and comfortable with himself, feels confident, and knows what he wants. And he wants- he wants love. He doesn’t want to put any pressure on any relationship he might start, but ultimately, that’s the goal. Love.
He really doesn’t mind being this first to Evan. He likes Evan. He has those bright blue eyes that seem to shine their own light, and that wide, excited smile that makes it impossible not to smile back, with that adorable dimple accompanying it, that makes Tommy melt a little every time he sees it. Plus, those perfect, kissable lips he can’t wait to taste again, and the distinctive birthmark just adding to the charm. And he’s big and strong and so hot, too. And he’s just so nice, and so adorable and endearing, and he’s so easy to talk to. Tommy just wants to keep getting to know him, spend time with him, develop this relationship and see where it can go. And with any luck, maybe this one could last, could be something real.
The thing is, Tommy is ready for serious. He can take it slow, give Evan time to figure everything out, but he’d also like to know where he stands. He would never want to pressure him to come out before he’s ready, but he also knows he doesn’t want to be anyone’s dirty little secret. Been there, done that.
Still, he would be fine with keeping it just to him and Evan for now, for as long as Evan needs. But then…
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#7x05 tommy pov fic#fuck it friday#idk im creating a whole backstory for him lmao#idk this is supposed to about him thinking buck's not ready idk what i'm doing#also idk where im going with this fr i just wanted to take a crack at getting into his head#the problem is as much as i love him he's new and i don't have a grasp on him yet like i do with buddie lol#so idk what this is gonna turn into lmao#but the smutty continuation to that other bucktommy fic is coming too! just gonna take longer haha#fic snippet#wikiangela writes#my writing#my wips#911 fic#911 abc#bucktommy#tommy kinard#evan buckley#buck x tommy#bucktommy fic#911 spoilers
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Jack and Joker, Episode 10
#they...........#jack and joker#may liveblog tag#in terms of who was going to come save joke there could not possibly have been a character more out of left field for me than his father#like i get what they're doing but genuinely the boss would have been less viscerally startling#but this scene did make me feel a little untethered fr. this is my family......#also ofc he's saying faen which only makes the 'i'm learning a lot today' line coming first funnier. i mean idk maybe he knew that already
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Late to the game as I’ve kinda been kinda non-here for a minute but I scrolled through the Dot and Bubble tag, and thought I wanted to write this post into existence.
There's this part in Doctor Who Unleashed where RTD says this:
“What we can’t tell is how many people will have worked that out before the ending. Because they’ve seen white person after white person after white person, and television these days is very diverse. I wonder, will you be ten minutes into it, will you be fifteen, will you be twenty, before you start to think, everyone in this community is white. And if you don’t think that — why didn’t you? So, that’s gonna be interesting. I hope it’s one of those pieces of television you see, and always remember.”
And I'm like. Yeah. But the reason this works even as well as it does is largely thanks to the work of the previous showrunner with the previous creative team, which was notably the first era to have any writers of color (amongst other firsts in terms of inclusivity in directors, composer, actors). While Chibnall fumbled whenever he tried to write about race himself, he did have the self-awareness to have Black and South Asian writers writing the episodes where race is the focus (and a female writer for the episode where sexism is a focus; my point is, he seemed to know his shortcomings).
I wonder what the current creative team looks like? (not really, but I wasn't 100% sure for all of them)
To quote RTD:
“...before you start to think, everyone in this community is white.”
This is pretty non-self-aware, right? It's pretty “It is said, and I understand this, there was a history of racism with the original Toymaker, the Celestial Toymaker, who had ‘celestial,’ and I did not know this, but ‘celestial’ can mean of Chinese origin, but in a derogatory way,” right? (from The Giggle Unleashed) It's pretty “and I had problems with that, and a lot of us on the production team had problems with that: associating disability with evil,” right? (from Destination Skaro Unleashed)
—none of which are issues that should be overlooked, but think how much exponentially better they might’ve been addressed if he’d consulted with Chinese writers and wheelchair-using writers before going straight to giving the Toymaker weird fake accents and making Davros walk?
How many Black or non-white people do we think saw the Dot and Bubble script before it landed in Ncuti’s hands?
And this just keeps happening.
And like, from some of the shocked responses I've seen from white viewers to the ending of Dot and Bubble, maybe the episode's unsubtlety was needed? From the way RTD talks about it in Unleashed, the episode was written with a white audience in mind, Baby's First Microaggressions (where of course the microaggressions come from people who are pretty self-admittedly white supremacists). Ricky September, a more seemingly normal depiction of someone in the racist bubble of Finetime, seemed like an interesting element, up until the way he died.
The ending worked for me, because I do think the Doctor's reaction is true to how the Doctor would react. I just keep thinking of how much better the core themes could've been handled by someone with actual lived experience on the subject matter.
#dot and bubble#fifteenth doctor#rtd critical#anti rtd#ricky september#lindy pepper bean#dw negativity#racism#antiblackness#words by seaweed#not to be anti rtd. im just very critical. Anti RTD is just a tag which people use or block#every showrunner has their flaws but RTD is the only one self-righteously virtu signling over NOTHING. which is why im more critical.#plus the on-set sxual hrassment and what happened with Chris Eccleston etc. it vindicates me. idk. not tryna be a hater#ALSO dot and bubble is leaps and bounds better than any racism commentary I expected from Russell T Davies. so theres that.#can you tell I'm shy abt making long posts that someone is likely gonna be not happy about-#I usually search tumblr for posts to rb and talk in tags. but I couldnt find any posts about this this morning! tho I think ppl have since#etc its fine to critically appreciate imperfect media etc I do it all the time (as a Black fan) (who also thinks Rosa has Flaws) etc#I did see someone on twitter pointing out the hypocrisy of all white writers but twitter does not have space to talk about things#also love that The Church on Ruby Road has Mark Tonderai who became the first black director w The Ghost Monument. I love his directing#but that's the Christmas special. it is not part of this season. and honestly fr it's not close to enough#love the inclusivity in front of the camera. lets get some of that in the writing team NOW. it's hurting for it.#bring back Charlene James. can you hear me? was the best episode of Season 12.#the ep felt like a commentary on the “RIP Doctor Who” ppl under every official Doctor Who post? hence social media?#it does work best that way!! it just felt a little off of that way in rtd talking#idk im rambling. I did enjoy it tho. I just wish. but well.
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I regret to inform anyone who's been curious no I will not be tiering into LSH. Mainly because
a) I find tiering to be unrewarding, tiresome & not fun in general as a rule. I don't enjoy it and I don't see the point
b) because my best team looks like this.
Deeply embarrassing behaviour An Shiraishi. You should be ashamed of yourself.
#jay rambles.txt#'damn not even a 3*?' nope. my girl hates me for being up in her business all the time#I actually have a lot of An's 4*s but almost none of the 3*s#and our of An's 4*s only An1 and An2 are the correct attribute. which is funny btw#anyway this is why I will be pulling on vbs support gacha cause what the hell. she hates me fr#Although I've considered changing that An to like LUTF An or smth... but is it worth it to waste the full attribute bonus. idk#or I could do the funnier thing and just get rid of An altogether. put a Rin there or smth idk#Akito is untrained because I hit 100k challenge show with him and got complacent. sorry I'm working on it
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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed
#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself#and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change#it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly#so there was somewhat of a gradual progression#but still#also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time#i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i#had been socially involved#anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change#and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find#the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever#and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha#(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically#it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni#ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that#but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped#and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr#i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years#and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it#and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing#kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao#i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school#and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build#--ing towards#which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now
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sometimes you gotta give the coolest most badass character you know a really silly trait
#clownzy#branzypierce#lsshipping#i'm not. maintagging the fandom but at least the characters? surely?#branzycraft#clownpierce#xuh art#paper#sketch#wip#yes. this also applies to the old man champion from parkour civilization#i also felt like i ought to put it out there sooner rather than later if people are gonna be weird about it idk#my headcanon is clown is 22-23? ish? while branzy is around 45#clown knows what hes doing ok#also i absolutely think this plays into why branzy thought clown was not serious at first cuz no way this guy is actually interested in him#and honestly maybe clown wasnt. maybe he was just messing with branzy at first. but branzy IS fun and cunning and smart and deadly and#silly and useful and so down for murder and clown ended up liking him fr so hard and so fast. oops. boo boo the fool
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The Hell now, I'm drooling over the Good Omens version of Archangel Michael, too?..
The tag's about Lady Crowley, not myself, but still...
I mean..
She does seem like she'd take and rail you.
#diary pages#stop it i'm having a bi moment over an angel in go...#good omens#good omens michael#good omens fandom#good omens thoughts#archangel michael#fr i'm very much a hierophiliac for this specific religious figure#but lusting after those is blasphemous so not like i'm betraying my beliefs#why... is... she... not... in... uniform... or armour#why do i have a feeling good omens betrays michael in portrayal#don't worry general i'll fix it#literally everyone calls her that in my wips#except satan who calls her by name#and the antichrist who calls her “aunt michael”#general i'll have the serpent of eden dripping wet for you#serious brainrot over this pairing#crowley x michael#fem!crowley x michael#idk what nonsense go s2 did with michael (in s1 she already wasn't portrayed as the leader) but she does have the stern expression
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