#idk maybe im just panicky like that

[cin3maa]

Hey!! This is just a message to all of the people on your blog…..

LISTEN UP SHITHEADS. Cin is being nice enough to accept requests from you guys. She’s taking the time out of her day to draw stuff for you guys FOR FREE. She’s not getting any payback for her labor except for a few compliments and internet attention. No money. No treats. No nothing. The least you guys can do is respect her and read her boundaries. If you aren’t going to respect her then you don’t deserve to get free art in the first place. Spamming her with requests isn’t going to change her mind if you’re requesting something she already stated she wasn’t going to draw. All you’re getting yourself is a big wide opportunity for her to block you.

Respect my little sister. I don’t care if you hate on me for being a rude, harsh bastard. I will not tolerate anyone being an asshole to her.

thank u sm bro.. i really hate blocking people but i literally have no choice when ppl keep like !!! bothering me!!!!???

i dont want to have to stop taking requests altogether but it doesnt take that long to just click the 'keep reading' and skim the top few words!!!

thank you to everyone who does read it i appreciate u guys sm and im hugging u (if thats ok if not then im fist bumping u)

[yip-yip]

little panic in the tags

[15ktherapy]

FEELS THISNGS FREE ELS BAD I feel like somethings gonna happen I’m all nervy about it

[rigginsstreet]

What do you think about a deaf billy AU?

where Neil moved his family to the middle of nowhere Indiana because he knows 80s bumfuck nowhere doesn’t have a lot of support for disabled ppl and hates his son (as we all know)

At first billy tries to hide it, he had gotten used to learning how to read lips and make inferences on what people were saying, if he happened to miss something? He’d just brush it off, saying he wasn’t paying attention.

Billy might have a slight deaf voice, Neil probably came along with his “no son of mine” spiel so Billy had to learn how to speak as Neil thought was “normal”.

Steve begins to notice something different about Billy; slowed reaction time, really focusing on people’s faces, etc, and brings it up to Joyce.

Joyce, concerned, waits until the next time Billy is in her store to ask if everything is okay. Billy panics, he thought he was doing perfect, if he doesn’t his dads gonna kill him, so he very quickly excuses himself out of the store.

Maybe some further concerned Steve and Joyce? Teaming up to help out Billy? 🥹

i am into all of this. i wanna say way back in the early days of the fandom there was a deaf!billy fic i read.... or it was steve. or it was neither of them and im thinking of another fandom entirely lmfao anyway!

this would put their little staredown at tinas in a whole new context...honestly it puts a lot of billy scenes in new context that boy loves to look and watch and observe.

i would also like to bring in cali bros argilly and say that argyle and billy learned to sign together back home bc neil surely wasnt going to put billy in classes and surely not learn himself, maybe billy had teachers at school who helped? but argyle wanted to learn too since they were besties and he was really the only person billy could talk to after that. so when the hargroves move to indiana billys on his own again and since he doesnt want to out himself as being deaf and ask if anyone knows how to sign, he just pretends to be aloof and like he doesnt give a shit about what anyone says to him (which isnt like... untrue lol)

if he and max still have a bad relationship in this au maybe she hasnt bothered to learn how to sign either cuz like... why is she gonna need it to talk to billy? they dont talk period

steve calling billys name when hes not looking trying to get his attention and it never working so a lightbulb goes off in his head and he starts writing notes to see if that works and sure enough...

joyce picking up books from the library and learning very basic signs for the next time billy comes into the store. she's just trying to be polite but it still makes billy panicky that someone knows. ooooh if neil and billy come into the store one day and she overhears neil giving billy shit about not listening to him and how he needs to get his shit together etc etc and she immediately decides this man needs to be put down like she is not having it but she also knows theres not a whole lot she can do right now besides make her presence known and get him to back down.

steve helping billy out in the classes they share together and even in the classes they dont he finds a way to get notes from other people without letting them know its for billy, and billys constantly wondering how steve keeps pulling this off but steve wont reveal his secrets. them developing this silent language on the basketball court that makes them unbeatable... many thoughts many thoughts

idk how joyce and steve end up joining forces in all of this but i know they do!

[ryxiez]

HI!! I dont know how I found you literally as you just posted your masterlist, but its nice to run into another new obey me acc! :]

could I request some headcanons/drabbles for the demon brothers (or whichever characters u would like, Im not picky) with a super like. Fragile MC? IDK HOW TO PUT WHAT I MEAN—Ig an mc that's prone to getting hurt, bruises easily, is on the weaker side, etc etc. Maybe the demons are kinda like?? Anxious that if they're not gentle enough they'll accidentally break them or smth.

Thank you for requesting! I hope this is what you meant cause I kinda took different styles with a few of them. Also sorry for any spelling mistakes, I’m writing this half asleep >_<

Obey Me! Brothers with fragile!MC (Headcanons)

Fluffy Comforting Headcannons

Mentions the reader/MC getting hurt in some way, no blood mentioned at all

this is kinda how the brothers would react/treat you after you got hurt or they realized you were hurt

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Ever since you were little you were always called clumsy. Often tripping over your own two feet, bruises and scraps covering spots on your skin.

Lucifer

- Often took notice of the discoloration in your skin, yet never brought it up with you.

- Basically knew what was happening and what was wrong right away

- During your time down there, he always seemed to be coincidently there whenever you would fall, or bump into something, even at school.

- However sometimes he didn't make it in time to catch you, or redirect you, but would always help you up.

- You reasure you that you are okay and only IF no one was around, he would plant a small kiss on where it hurts.

Mammon

- Wouldn't notice until he touched you (like a hug) and you pulled back with a hiss.

- Was very startled and thought he somehow hurt you with his "demon strength".

- He became all panicky with tears in his eyes when you told him you were fine when he knew you weren't.

- Finally he convinced you to show him what you were hiding and he was basically speechless. He couldn't believe he was letting you get hurt when he was supposed to look after you.

- Mammon then pulled you into a hug, avoiding the certain bruise, and told you to call for him whenever you were hurt again.

Leviathan

- You would honestly trip over stuff in his room a lot. Boxes and items on his floor that he didn't want to put away yet because he was gaming.

- He would pause his game right away if he could as soon as he heard a loud thump from behind him.

- Rushing over, he saw tears in your eyes as you held onto your ankle for dear life, rocking back and forth slightly.

- He apologized a million times, stuttering, as he held you close to him, and tried to take a look at your foot after your breathing slowed down again.

- Promises to clean his room for you, which he did, but only a little bit.

Satan

- Same as Levi, has a very messy room but with him he has scattered books and papers everywhere you can't even walk right.

- However, when he first heard you fall, anger struck him more than concern as he turned around with sharp eyes

- That was until he saw you in your weakened state on the floor and he immediately softened up.

- He rushed to your side and asked you were it hurt and how he could help.

- Definitely put a numbing or healing spell on your wound because he couldn't help but feel like it was his fault.

Amsodeus

- He found the discoloration in your skin on one of your many spa days.

- You then had to explain to him how you just seemed to bump into things or just fall a lot and couldn't help it.

- He would almost cry as he caressed your skin with lotions and creams, trying his best to sooth the pain, and it worked.

- Promises to try his best to stay by your side to help, and he even starts carrying bandaids and bruise cream in his purse for you.

- Let's just say you would be having spa days way more often so he can take care of you as much as possible.

Beelzebub

- Both of you made your late night trips to the kitchen as your stomachs rumble. (More so his)

- While stumbling around in the dark, you managed to walk right into the edge of the counter.

- You let out a yelp before holding down on the now pulsating spot, probably scrapped and bruised.

- Beel immediately had a candle lit in your direction as his big hands worked to slowly pry yours off yourself so he could see the wound.

- Would act like he wasn't panicking but he really was on the inside.

- Gave it a kiss before placing a bandaid on it after carrying you to the bathroom.

- Cuddles for the rest of the night while he protected you.

Belphegor

- Tried to cuddle closer to you while he was in your bed one night

- You we’re almost fully asleep until your felt his fingers press too hard on one of the fresh bruises you got this morning.

- You squirmed out of his grasp you you could sit up, trying to get away from the pain

- Belphie was confused and tried until you brought up the bruise he touched

- He apologized with caring eyes before laying you back down to cuddle, this time offering you to share his cow print pillow.

- From now on he was more careful and gentle with his touch

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[diorkyeom]

idk if ur reqs are open or not so think of this as just me sharing a random idea with u for ur thoughts okay? 😭

but anyway i was (re)reading this rly rly good series on ao3 yesterday and this tiny mention of a thing gave me a rly good idea— imagine shua coming to korea just for college and he meets the guys and now has a family and then he graduates and suddenly almost everyone (specially seok) keep being all jumpy and nervous around him and he notices and panics bc did he do smth wrong but then smth dramatic happens (replying on a certain yoon jeonghan for this) and seok breaks down w smth like "u came for college but youve graduated now and we thought u were going back to america 😭😭😭" and then shua is just very exasperatedly fond bc ofc he is and then he goes "im not????? ur my family?????? im not gonna leave???? unless im visiting family ofc!!"

...i make no sense im sorry

(also this is seoksoo purely bc im talking to the biggest seoksoo fan out there lol this would make more sense if it involved hao or junnie maybe?)

OH MY GODDDDDD SORRY FOR IGNORING THIS PLS I DIDN'T EVEN REALISE I HAD ANY ASKS ON THIS BLOG 😭😭😭

also stop. i literally love this idea SO MUCH?? i ended up rambling a bit too much whilst talking out this plot so uhhh it's all under the read more:

seok getting all panicky about the idea of joshua leaving so during the summer after their graduation, he hatches a plan to get joshua to not leave, and recruits the rest of their group to try and subtly provide him with reasons to stay.

and they're all a bunch of well meaning idiots joshua obviously realises they're all acting weird (esp seokmin who clings to him like a limpet on some days and practically bolts away from him on others) so he draws the wrong conclusion that the kids want him to leave :(( ofc being besties with jeonghan, he tells him all of these fears and the entire time jeonghan is just internally going lee seokmin you fucking messed up SO BAD

but being the little shit he is, he doesn't clear up Anything for joshua and just goes "i getchu my guy 😔😔" leaving josh feeling even more confused than before. then he hatches his own plan to retaliate (bc not only will he not clean up drama, he'll do his best to create MORE) and tells seokmin that the plan wasn't working and joshua is still thinking of leaving 💔 which is obviously a lie but seokmin is beside himself with fear, and jeonghan tells him very seriously that he thinks seokmin has to pull out the big guns and finally confess

seokmin doesn't even stop to consider how that makes any sense. he just nods seriously and finds joshua and tells him that he doesn't want him 2 leave bc he likes joshua A Lot and he promises that he'll be able to make him happy so long as joshua gives him a chance :<

it's all very sweet and joshua is so touched but he's also really confused bc?? he never said he was going to leave???? and so seokmin's misunderstanding and jeonghan's meddling comes to light but it's all okay bc joshua likes seokmin a lot too and he's gonna stay in korea for a vv long time :3

[greydiminishing]

9/24/24

Hi. I don't know what's wrong with me right now but i feel really bad and im shaking and I feel like I'm going to start crying if I don't, idk ground myself or smth.

I don't know what happened. I finished all my work last night and went to bed at an ok time. I was really happy. I felt "back on track" in my classes. I felt better last night than I have the past few weeks.

Then this morning I woke up and took a shower, and took way too long figuring out what to wear. And maybe i shouldn't have taken the time to cook and eat breakfast. And then i remembered that I had to pick up a package from the office this morning because I wouldn't get home until after they close. And before I knew it, I skipped my first class today :((. The stress and guilt and confusion triggered a small lapse in Bad Eating Habit, which made me feel even more stress and guilt.

But I pulled it together, I got my package (the office gave me a cute tote bag too!) and I got to my second class of the day (~4 minutes late though).

In class, Prof had us set up some rpa testing for our department site project, and i immediately ran into errors and couldn't get it working at all. And i basically froze in fear and embarassment for 75 minutes because with each second that passed, I was getting more and more behind. Two weeks ago, a similar thing happened and I asked for help and the professor was really kind when helping me but solution was so simple and my lack of knowledge was made so obvious that I physically can't do that to myself again. That's why I didn't ask for help.

I basically just sat there fiddling around with my code and switching my windows to make it look like I was doing something, but I really didn't to anything this entire class. I felt like crying the whole time. Then class ended and I left and started feeling shakey and panicky and now im here.

But I'm calmer now. Grounding success? Also thanks to Healing Water on mynoise.net lol

All I need to do is write out a plan. I need to figure out what the heck I'm missing that I couldn't even get started on when we were doing in class. And do that while keeping up with the rest of my work. +resume/career fair stuff. I can do that.

[onurown78]

i think life might be getting a little better. had a zit today that itched like fucking crazy and i couldnt pay attention in my classes which is a stupid reason to not be able to pay attention in your classes. but like. overstimulation. havent hurt myself in like? a week, maybe? but i probably will again soon. idk, it only felt bad the first few times, and now its been a year. its just a habit to me. it doesnt do anything but itch. no adrenaline? maybe im just a masochist? but that doesnt seem right either. whatever, you know? either someone will notice or they won't, and no one has yet, except P and i havent talked to them in forever. im going to a friends party and theyre probably gonna be there, though. i think theyre clean from it. i wonder if A has picked it up. i sometimes wonder if they think i was lying about it. its not like a remember what i said to them. i was kind of panicky. i totally cried relaying it to them but i dont know if i'd cry now. i havent cried in a while. which is probably bad.

[mayo-advance]

Ugh just saw Twisters and am now thinking of a natural disasters themed power rangers series.

Mayo-Advance Presents:

Power Rangers: Raging Storm

Like the main villain is like Zeus or a Thunderbird and the threat manifests in a storm that can move and change. The episodic villains can be themed after all sorts of natural occurrences like hurricanes, acid rain, etc

I wanted to make the rangers storm-chaser themed but I cant think of easily assignable motifs, so maybe the team would be structured like the SPD team where its not an object or an animal, but a number.

If it is themed I think the red ranger is a volcano, the blue ranger is a tsunami, the yellow ranger is thunderstorms, the black ranger is earthquakes, and the purple ranger is tornados. But agin that might be too similar to the antagonists, so im leaning towards them being more of a practical professional team then a motif based one.

Their megazord could wield a giant lightning bolt and be the only way they can get into the storm.

The general plot would be that as society grew more resilient to the weather, they stated ignoring the zeus figure retaliated witb larger and more devastating storms. The thunderbird could be a sort of mentor figure (like kruger) with an actual storm chaser as the techy side-kick. And they gather a team of teenagers and young adults who get imbued with natural themed abolites from the morphin grid.

The purple ranger is named Borys, he is tall, wirey, and tempermental. His plot revolves around learning to face his problems and care for those around him. I think hed learn to control his temper and listen to those around him

The black rangers name is Stephen, he is a gentle giant who somehow gets hurt all the time, hence being earthquake themed. He is a mediator of sorts who is also the most powerful and controlled force on the team.

The blue ranger is a girl named Ada, she is very agreeable but can be sassy with people who make a lot of excuses and don’t like to work (like the red ranger?) She is the most disciplined of the group.

The yellow ranger’s name is Lila, she is very energetic, and even panicky at times, but she is very quick to encourage others even when her own courage is lacking. She is the most intelligent of the group when she isn’t panicking and aids the storm chaser figure when shes not kicking ass.

The red ranger is a guy named Lark who is physically disabled, and it would be cool having him learn to fight differently because morphing does not eliminate his disability, just makes it more manageable. He is very easygoing.

Anyways idk I love this idea might draw it, lmm what y’alls think

[synark25]

no because im literally so opportunist??

everytime i have a high guard or start getting ever so slightly wary I'll randomly turn around to see if there's anything trying to reach my back because it starts feeling all itchy and like something's poking it constantly

it happens in videogames too to the point i'll position myself against a wall or down places where nobody can sneak up on me because i get so paranoid if something's behind me and i cant see what they're doing on the contrary(ian?) whilst i also kin hunted i feel the opposite way about heartbeats... i like heartbeats they make me feel a sense of. knowledge. whenever i hear my own heartbeat it lets me know i am in danger and my body knows it whenever i hear someone else's heartbeat i can tell they're panicky too and it makes me feel confident knowing how they're feeling. keeps me on my guard too t'hear my heartbeat idk

ok maybe im just opportunist more than anything HLEP

the trauma and fears all (my versions of) the voices get;

hero - hates mirrors. can't stand his reflection. panics when he sees himself.

paranoid - ommetaphobia. fear of eyes, staring. total enderman mode; he can and will stare at you but the moment you stare back, he's probably gonna throw something at you.

cold - lower sense of self-preservation. casually loses limbs because he doesnt care to avoid danger. no particular fears, but he probably needs white noise to sleep

stubborn - this ones got abandonment issues. i dont know how he got them but damn is it evident

opportunist - anything to do with his back is off-limits. he will panic if someone is within reach out of his field of vision

contrarian - acrophobia, fear of heights. the stairs, the walls, the fury's huge ass room. he'd probably get into more trouble from a high viewpoint, but since he can't fly, he could never get used to it.

skeptic - fearing water and swimming. can't go ankle-deep without a sense of panic.

broken - claustrophobia, he cannot stand being in small or crowded spaces. having gotten used to big cabins and complaining at more than two additional voices

smitten - yknow i dont think he got much outside of a constant need for physical affection

hunted - irrationally afraid of others' heartbeats. hates hearing them, makes him sick. i think a response he would have is losing feeling in his legs, like when they got bitten tf off

cheated - avoidance issues. he'll get scared others are avoiding him, and he'll isolate. youd think blades and stuff but hed probably own the most knives out of anyone

[spade-club]

Post privately option. You own my heart. You understand. Anyway I think ive private posted two vents today if thats an indicator for how im doing. I need to get better at recognizing when im struggling because even now I dont feel like I am even though everything is crushing me. Today has been so incredibly foggy I wish I knew how to see through it all. My vision feels foggy like its all a dream and like. Idk its dangerous territory for me to feel like this, but I'm glad its me and no one else I guess. Brain created me for a reason and today I am understanding exactly what that reason is. Dealing with mid level crises and assorted related symptoms. Anyone more well adjusted would be freaking out, anyone less adjusted would also be freaking out. Call me baby bear because im just right I guess (except dont call me that haha)

[leomus]

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[pepprs]

finished my essay YEAHHHHH BABEYYYYYYY

[probablydinosaurs]

mmmm i really need to watch more wlw / all girl cast shows. watchin wonder egg priority and it made me realize how i shove myself into a box for comfort, only watching mlm/ mainly male cast shows to feel validated but it makes me miss out on a bunch of stuff. 

[eurydizzy]

☁️.

[sick-as-a-dog]

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