#idk im just

[neotomiccccc]

DNI if you hate dogs I am so genuinely serious

[beebopurr]

I think I have just put less and less effort into my art over time bc genuinely I don't think it even matters when it comes to how well a piece is recieved 💀 bc yeah I could spend 18 hours making a finished piece.. or I could just draw up a shitty pandering sketch and it will get twice the likes

[fortunesblade]

everyday i step closer to making zahav an original universe and just making him a dragon age verse truly... not a lot would change but also a lot WOULD you feel me,,,

[the-bloodrose-gemstone]

As a lesbian I still find joy in m/m content because holy shit the way men who love men express it is as equally as beautiful as the way women who love women express it. They produce some great art too.

[beronicalongcon]

the difference between tomgreg and tomshiv is that if tom would bite greg but greg would never bite tom back. and shiv would bite tom and wants tom to bite her back. and that is why tomshiv reigns supreme. tomgreg is just tomshiv's shadow.

[rosquinn]

this line in the lokasenna makes me so miserable for no reason. guys i swear to god i'll be having a nice day and then i'll remember that blood siblings are more important that biological siblings, how they're supposed to share both achievements and punishments and drink together and how loki said this to his brother-- the guy who imprisoned his children and later tortured him-- and i'll break down and cry for 4 hours (i know the poem is satire. i just like to be miserable)

[rinnysmuses]

She was just spamming /blowkiss on Llymlaen.

[ninja-yogurt]

I don't like that I sometimes lose contact with good friends for a bit bc generally a) it means things aren't going great for either of us so we don't have the time or energy to check in and b) I like my friends and I worry if it's been a while that I've alienated them or we've just drifted too far apart for our friendship to be as good as it used to be

BUT

on the other hand there is very little that delights me more than checking in with a friend after a while and we have both gotten into the same things despite never mentioning it to each other and/or in some cases being out of touch for close to a year. We may not have spoken but our souls were in contact anyway I guess

[nilefreemans]

🙃

[meimeikyu]

absjhdjshsks i wanna learn a language so bad i want. to learn the words and speaking it but oh god why does it cost so much money why is there no straightforward way

like theres online apps but if you want anything competent its generally pricey and will never be perfect theres textbooks which again. costly and wont teach everything i assume person on person or actual classes in person or online would be the most effective way but then. ppl scary and expensive and. it doesnt seem worth it to spend that much money regularly on smth thats not for a job or a proper reason itd just be bcs i want it n that feels stupid. so im just gonna sit here really wanting to

[rooftop-butterflies]

the eeper!!

[madame-mongoose]

I wonder if I left that server anyone would notice

[gravelcat]

yk, idk how true it is that tumblr is/will be using all art and media posted here to train ai but judging from the fact literally every huge corporation is doing is is enough for me to believe its true

and im starting to get so fucking exhausted by the reality of the situation. i literally cannot go anywhere without having an awful algorythm to try and play out, or seeing awful and hateful content/people on the platform, or the site using my content without consent in training ai or any other bullshit. at first i tried protesting by stopping using sites and apps (which is why i migrated off of twitter half a year ago), but its starting to get really fucking tiring.

im literally only on 3-4 sites in total actively posting on. here on tumblr, on instagram, and on mastodon. literally nowhere else. and these platforms have their own problems that *should* drive me away based on what i do and what i believe in, but im just done at this point. you cannot go anywhere anymore without running into bullshit like this, where the techbros are killing off originality and creativity from anything they touch. and its incredibly discouraging and depressing.

ive been struggling with depression and having horrible, self destructive and intrusive thought ever since the push for ai has picked up (right after the hellfire that nfts were), and i dont know how much longer i can actively protest against it. ill always passively protest and stand up against it, but its tiring to migrate from site to site every year or so

[yellows-secret-blog]

Brazilian mixed confession time

It was kinda hard to me to learn that I am perceived as white (in my country) bc I always had a complexion with my skin color

I always thought that if I wanted to look like my favorite characters I needed to make my skin lighter somehow and that used to make me insecure (I was 10 yk) bc I couldn't be like the pretty girls on the tv (I wanted to look like Maisa T-T )

And like, my skin is not that dark??? It's like a light brown yk like when you mix coffee and milk? I'm just permanently tanned bc I was raised on the beach and pa gave me the melanin

And once a teacher said I was never going to be white with the nose I had and GUESS WHAT COLOR THEY ASSIGN ME AT THE DOCTOR BITCH

Anyway fuck that teacher the way they said was mean af (she was literally laughing at me)

And that's what happens when you are mixed yay (besides all that I kinda won the genetic lottery bc I got the best features from my parents (also what confused me a lot, pa is a black man and people say I look just like him so ??????? Tf man))

[bloomblanche]

Whenever I find an opportunity to add an en dash – like this – in the middle of a sentence, I feel like such a genius.

go language girl go, you go and punctuate stuff aw yeah