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Landoscar College Fic (2.4k words)
Inspired by this post. It was supposed to be a little drabble but it spiraled
@complementaryhalves Hope I did it justice. Itâs not really a meet-cute since they both know of each other (or maybe that counts, idk how meet-cutes work) but I tried my best lol
Oscar really needs to set a second alarm.
Heâs several months into college, so youâd think heâd have figured out a good sleep schedule by then. Unfortunately, that has not happened, and Oscar wakes up to sun on his face.
âUghhh,â he groans, rolling over and pulling his sheets up over his head. It takes him a few seconds to realize thereâs no annoying beeping that usually greets him in the morning.
âShit.â He grabs his phone from the bedside table and jolts up when he reads 8:25 on his lockscreen. âShitshitshit.âÂ
He tosses his sheets to the side, the old mattress creaking loudly as he stands, rushing because his bus is literally about to leave. Why did he sign up for early classes? Why, why, why? Even his professor Mr. Webber told him it was a bad idea once heâd heard about it, but heâd insisted that it would be fine.
Right now, itâs definitely not fine though. He brushes his teeth at lightning-speed in the communal bathroom, and throws on a navy blue sweatshirt and pants, nearly forgetting his watch. Heâll get a bagel or something for breakfast at school.
Thankfully, he likes to pack his backpack the day before, so all he has to do is put it over his shoulders, rushing down the stairs and out the door into the parking lot to see⌠His bus rolling away down the road without him.
Oscar drops his hands down from his backpack straps to his side in defeat. He curses the ground and his stupid clock under his breath, kicking at a loose rock. What is he gonna do now?
Well, he could call Logan, ask if he can give him a ride. Or maybe Charles drove today? He glances across the parking lot, but there are around three other cars that look just like Charlesâ, so that wonât be very helpful.
Heâs about to pull his phone out when he hears a car pull out of the lot, wheels making a grainy sound against the asphalt. Oscar quickly backs away from the middle of the road and goes back to his quiet crisis.
âHey, you need a ride?â
Oscar looks up to see the car that had been leaving stopped in front of him. The person behind the voice is a handsome guy with dark curly hair and tan skin, sitting behind the wheel with one hand dangling out the window. Thereâs a small flicker of recognition in Oscarâs brain, he must have seen the boy around campus before.
The driver seems to have taken Oscarâs silence as hesitancy, starting to talk again. âI-um, I saw your bus fuck off into the distance, and I figured you could use some help. I live right over there.â He points vaguely to another one of the student campus buildings behind them.
Oscar opens his mouth to politely decline immediately, but stops himself. Does he really for certain have another way to get to school? He remembers how he knows this guy now, heâs friends with Charles. Anyone whoâs friends with Charles gets an automatic thumbs up from him, but being in a car with themâŚ
âYeah, I could use a ride,â he finds himself saying, not totally sure the words are coming from his mouth. The curly haired guy seems equally surprised, but masks it quickly. âO-okay. Just come over to the passenger seat.â
Oscar walks out in front of the car, and opens the door. Any move to sit down is paused by the fact that thereâs a football in the seat. The boy turns when Oscar opens the door, looking through his eyelashes at him, and his eyes are really blue from up close. A bit of green too- okay, stop analyzing his eyes, he tells himself.
The driver- Oscar decides to coin him Car Guy- notices Oscarâs predicament and grabs the football, promptly chucking it into the backseat and patting the now empty seat for Oscar, who sits.
He twists his body to face the back of the car. âDo you think you damaged anything with that throw?â he asks, trying to find the football amongst the clutter of the car. Thereâs a few random clothes, a cardboard box on the right.
âEh, itâs fine,â Car Guy says with a wave of his hand. Oscar turns back to the front, buckling up. Car Guy notices what heâs doing and buckles up himself with a guilty smile. Oh God, Oscarâs totally going to die.
âJust college campus, I assume?â Car Guy asks, adjusting his rear-view mirror that has a car freshener and a necklace hanging from it. The necklace has a big 4 hanging by the end.Â
âYeah,â Oscar sets his backpack down between his legs, and braces when Car Guy starts to drive away. However, he actually seems like an okay driver, despite that seatbelt incident that may haunt Oscarâs nightmares.Â
After a few streets, he chills out enough to get a proper look at whoâs driving him. He has a Texas Bulls shirt on, a hoodie under it, and to top it all off, a green letterman jacket with the number 4 on it. Huh. 4 again. Maybe the number 4 has some kind of significance to him.Â
Heâs really pretty as well, especially up close. His long lashes, his freckles, his hair that looks like it's attempting to be a mullet.Â
Donât you dare fall for a jock Oscar, he tells himself. Because thatâs what he has to be, right? He has a Bulls shirt, a sporty jacket, and a freaking football in the passenger seat. Thereâs nothing else he could be.
And heâs still terrified about a stranger driving him somewhere, pretty or not. He takes out his phone and pulls up his messages, finding his last conversation with Dad 2.0 (an inside joke the two of them have.) He frantically texts Charles, asking, âIs curly haired boy a serial killer??â
A moment later, he gets a response back, a lot of question marks. Oscar sighs, running his hand through his hair and trying not to let his thoughts spiral into how he may or may not be getting kidnapped.
# # #
Landoâs trying to be cool. He really is. But Oscarâs in his car. He wants to squeal and kick his feet and giggle.
Heâs had a crush on the Australian-born boy for a while now, ever since heâd seen him actually. Theyâd just been passing by each other while walking across campus, but it felt like a world-changing event for Lando (okay, he may be overreacting just a little, but have you seen the man?!)
Once he learned that Oscar was friends with Charles, he came out to his friend as bi and proceeded to spend his entire time with Charles ranting about how pretty Oscar was, or what Oscar was wearing today, or could he get some pictures of Oscar pretty-please?
Needless to say, the Monegasque was tired of his pining fairly quickly. âI donât understand why you do not just talk to him,â heâd said one day during their lunch break.
âI canât just talk to him, Charles.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause thatâs weird!â
âHow? Itâs just talking,â Charles had retorted, biting into his protein bar. âYou can say itâs because you are both friends with me or something. There are ways.â
âWell, it- itâs complicated.â Charles raised an eyebrow. âI donât have a good argument for that Charles, but just know that youâre wrong.â
So Lando had just watched Oscar from a distance (not in a creepy way or anything, just in an adoration way.) Until this morning, when he saw Oscar miss the bus, which was admittedly a little funny, heâd gotten the courage to ask if he wanted a ride. He hadnât been expecting him to say yes, but he was ecstatic that he had.
Now theyâre in the car together, and Landoâs tongue feels like lead whenever he attempts to make small talk. Oscarâs aggressively texting someone, and Lando has had to stop himself multiple times from looking at Oscar instead of the road.
Oscar sighs, running his hand through his swoopy hair. Nowâs his chance. âEverything okay?â he asks, drumming a finger against the steering wheel as he waits behind a stop sign.
âHmm?â Oscar looks up, raising his eyebrows, and Lando might die on the spot. âOh, yeah, everythingâs fine. I was just texting a friend. You know Charles, right?â
âLeclerc?â
âYeah,â Oscar says, letting out a breathy laugh. âI was gonna ask him to drive back and pick me up but⌠Well I donât know if you know this, but Charles likes to jog to school sometimes. I wasnât sure if he had today or not.â
Lando barely processes what heâs said, which feels extremely rude even in his head. But Oscarâs smiling and it looks so cute, and the way his voice changes as heâs trying to stifle a laugh is addicting. âOh, I think Iâve heard him talk about jogging to class sometimes. One time he texted me at like 6 am, I was so confused when he told me he was at school already.â
Oscar laughs again, and Lando tries to stop the butterflies growing in his stomach. âHa, yeah, heâs like that. I think he just likes to be early.â
âI know, but 6 am??âÂ
âIâm not defending him!â Oscar says, throwing his hands in the air, the two of them laughing together. Lando feels joy spread through his chest, because Oscar seems more comfortable, heâs smiling and laughing and blushing and he looks so cute.
âOh my gosh, I have this selfie of Charles he sent to me when he was on a run,â Oscar turns on his phone and started to scroll through his photos, eyebrows furrowed in determination. His hair droops down on his face, and Lando fights the urge to reach out and push it back.
After a minute or so, Oscar bursts out laughing. âDid you find it?â Lando asks. Oscar nods, shoulders shaking, and holds his phone out for Lando to see. It's perfect timing, they're stopped at a red light, so Lando turns his head to inspect the picture.
Charles has a headband and glasses on with no shirt. He must have been running when he took the picture, everythingâs blurry and the background is just a mass of green and gray. The most noticeable thing is his face. Heâs trying to wink, but itâs more like a squint, and his eyebrows are high up on his forehead. He looks partially like he ate something sour, and like heâs getting chased by a wild animal.
Lando snorts, and Oscar pulls the phone back. âI know right? Apparently, he took the photo and sent it to me without checking what it looked like, so now I have this treasure saved in my phone forever.â
# # #
They spend the rest of the car ride in silence, and Oscar regrets thinking Car Guy was someone scary or a jerk. He seems really sweet and funny. And heâs attractive. But thatâs besides the point.
Charles had been blowing up Oscarâs phone ever since his vague text about Car Guy, most of it consisting of âwho the hell are you withâ and âanswer your phone, youâre freaking me out.â Oscar replies to his flurry of messages with nvm. It's fine. Iâll explain later
âIs this a good place to drop you off?â Car Guy asks him, and Oscarâs head jolts up. He parked just a few minutes away from his first class.
âOh yeah, this is perfect,â Oscar grabs his backpack and opens the car door. âThanks for this,â he says, turning back.
âNo problem,â Car Guy says with a smile. Heâs got a little gap between his front teeth. âSee you around?â
Oscar gives him a thumbs-up and steps out, walking down the winding sidewalk to Mr. Webberâs class in room 222.
Epilogue
Oscar still needed another alarm. He just kept forgetting. And now he was running late again, this time far too late to even try to catch the bus.
He sits on the parking lot curb, about to call Charles (heâd taken his car today,) when a familiar voice calls out to him.
âDude, you really need to wake up earlier.â
Oscar gives Car Guy a withering glare. He leans back in his car in response, a look of barely concealed fear in his eyes. âWell, do you want a ride or not?âÂ
Oscar sighs and stands, getting in the passenger seat. âNo football this time,â Car Guy says with a grin. Oscar canât help but smile back.
This car ride is a lot less talkative than the last one, a playlist of Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus from Car Guyâs phone playing loudly. Oscar puts on an excellent act of pretending his ears arenât bleeding from the music.
âThanks again,â he says once they arrive at his stop. He gets his backpack and is about to leave when Car Guy speaks up.
âHey um, I was wondering if maybe you could repay me by going on a date? With me?â
Oscar blinks once, twice. Car Guy obviously takes this the wrong way, his face reddening. âNever mind. Just⌠forget I said anything.â
âNo,â Oscar says. âI donât want to forget that. Iâd love to go on a date with you.â
âReally?â Car Guy says, his eyes lighting up. âOkay, hereâs my number.â He reaches into his jeans pocket and pulls out a folded Sticky-Note, pressing it into Oscarâs hand. Oscar wonders if he feels the electricity when their fingers touch too.
âUh, this is gonna sound weird,â Oscar says, rubbing the back of his neck. âBut can I get your name?â
âOh. OH. My nameâs Lando.â
âLando,â Oscar says, testing the word on his tongue. âIâm Oscar.â
âI kinda already knew that,â Lando giggles, and now itâs Oscar turn to blush. âYou look cute when you blush.â His face gets a thousand times more red.
âOkIgottagoIâlltextyoubye,â he says, almost stumbling out of the car. Once Landoâs car drives away though, he allows himself a bit of a victory dance, before walking to class with a skip in his step and only one word in his mind. Lando, Lando, Lando.Â
Okay I kinda hate it đ But I donât really wanna work on it more, so *tosses fanfic at the Tumblr gods and runs*
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somethings that i needed to get out regarding today's episode:
9-1-1 live airs in the US around 7 am Friday in my country and i get to watch it at 10:30 am on disney hotstar.
I couldn't wait so i was awake all night and was literally on twt since 6:30 am to get some clips.
that's where i find out that bucktommy break up.
i have been devastated all day. i have cried multiple times and i have literally lost count atp. it hurts like an actual breakup and i have absolutely no one irl to share this grief with.
the Abby being the ex-fiance wasn't even a major issue. i have been seen it done so well in so many fics.
Josh's speech was so beautiful and important but then to pull a breakup like that makes no fucking sense.
after what we saw in 8x5 breaking them made absolutely zero sense.
i was too overwhelmed so i tried to sleep and actually watched the entire episode around 11 am. I wanted to keep and open mind and analyse the episode.
twt is literally so toxic rn. I'm not even opening it.
after watching the entire episode i was even more confused as the breakup made zero sense.
we have had 8 seasons of character growth for buck, if they end up making him go back to casual relationships it just feels a complete wastage of 8 seasons of growth.
and from what we've seen in the past episodes the breakup was completely uncharacteristic to both buck and tommy.
it made no sense. why would tommy put so much effort if he knew it wouldn't last.
him constantly showing up for evan and talking about family just made zero sense for him to break up like that.
also it kinda felt weird to bring moving in together before saying i love yous.
and the way he said "the parking spot was too good to be true". this breakup doesn't feel good at all. he was obviously in pain and so was buck. this isn't doing any of them any good.
utter bullshit.
plus the "I'll see you around buck" broke me. like why the fuck would you do that to me and to buck.
it felt like someone put fucking alcohol all over a stab wound and then rubbed salt all over it.
LOW BLOW.
now coming to the post ep interviews which btw made it worse.
i was still under the impression that the way the breakup happened there was still hope for reconciliation because remember even tarlos went through breakups.
but then lou confirmed he might not be back and that this is it. specially that buck line. UGH.
and that #letbuckfuck interview with oliver really triggered me. I'm a bisexual woman and the reason i really loved buck's discovery of his sexuality was bcs Oliver was very determined in Givin a good bi rep.
but this doesn't feel that way. he could have said that he wants to see buck explore his sexuality more with both men and woman but the whole "girl, girl, guy. guy, girl, guy" montage was a very disturbing image.
it feels very stereotypical and biphobic.
it just hurts me so much. idk why i expected so much from a network tv show who has been queerbating for years.
i am gonna be watching this season just to see how they salvage buck's relationship and sexuality. it feels incomplete.
but if it goes in the buck 1.0 direction that's it for me.
i watch 911 as an escape from reality and if it goes so bad i am not continuing with the show.
it has already tested my limits and mental health enough.
also i need to point out that there are a lot of people who enjoy watching sports a lot more than they enjoy playing it. buck is a watcher. he would have loved seeing the Lakers match. just bcs he doesn't like to play doesn't mean he hates basketball.
a little extra side notes-
really excited for another buckley han kid. hope they don't ruin it. want to see how they deal with ppd this time.
also happy for eddie and really hoping he gets chris back soon.
ya'll need to understand how platonic friendship buddie is also so important rn then them getting together bcs eddie is def not ready to date.
if he starts dating he'll feel super guilty for putting his desire above chris all over again.
ALSO FOR PEOPLE IN THE BACK- EDMUNDO DIAZ IS CANON STRAIGHT.
#911#911 abc#bucktommy#evan buckley#tommy kinard#911 season 8#i'm literally sobbing#i'm just gonna cry myself to sleep now#thinking about tevan#eddie diaz#madney#maddie buckley#maddie han#chimney han#911 08x06#fuck you universe#i hate today#i hate twt fans#and i really despise myself for getting so emotionally involved to a fictional character again#they can never make me hate you tommy kinard#lou ferrigno jr#oliver stark#tevan
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thank you ej â¨
#avs lb#idk if this is any good literally posting before i watch#for my boo#erik johnson#colorado avalanche
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I know Iâve made other posts talking about or alluding to this but like. obviously there are like the old hollywood movies in the sort of dyke subtext canon (all about eve, rebecca, johnny guitar, etc) but like. there are so many movies that like 10 people have seen but I have such a clear gay vision or interpretation for it. most of them arenât even GOOD. and yet!!
like the great lie is the one that haunts me the most (or the women but I think that one is kind of different for me perhaps bc Iâve already talked about it here a lot or perhaps bc I think of it as being more well known and watched than I think it actually is? actually itâs probably that I think it is an overall good and well executed and entertaining movie which isnât really true of most of these tbh). but I also think a lot about like when ladies meet, or old acquaintance, or sadie mckee, or the shining hour, or the model and the marriage broker, or a womanâs secret, or the bigamist, or craigâs wife, or born to be bad, or separate tables, or even dark victory to a degree. others too certainly those are just the ones that come to mind. for half of these itâs not even like oh these women are gay together itâs just like hey I think sheâs a lesbian. and Iâm right. but my genius will never be fully appreciated in my day unfortunately.
#a womanâs secret has kind of been haunting me since I watched it like a week or so ago in that itâs literally got so many interesting#pieces and facets and I find so much of it very interesting but they just like really donât dig in or come together so itâs enough that#I think about it and not remotely satisfying which Iâm beginning to think is just how I feel about nicholas rayâs stuff. I donât really#have a large sample but like born to be bad is not a movie that I think is good but it has like infected me somehow. which i did and still#do largely attribute to joantaine. but like idk. and also I wanted to like Johnny guitar and obviously thereâs a lot of interesting stuff#in there to dissect it just⌠feels unsatisfying/like it doesnât come together. idk what it is.#also like it is fully sampling bias that across the three I listed as noted subtext and then all the others I listed#thereâs uh. 4 joan crawford movies 4 bette davis movies 3 joan fontaine movies#but itâs still really funny to me lmao⌠I will say how did I not list ANY babs movies⌠that canât be right⌠I mean like night nurse#and ladies they talk about def have some gay moments and like. walk on the wild side exists lmao#but I wouldnât really consider any of those to be consistent with the thing Iâm trying to describe here lol#anyways. I think thatâs enough rambling for now.#old hollywood#my post#also I would happily expand on my vision for any of these lmao. itâs just that I think it generally requires a certain familiarity with the#movie itself and. a lot of these I wouldnât necessarily recommend? not that theyâre all bad just like. not incredible idk#which kind of hinders this a bit. and now like I could give background provide clips etc but then thatâs requiring a level of effort#that Iâm not gonna spontaneously exert while sitting in bed Thinking. which is what this post is lmao. (âthatâs enough rambling for nowâ#I said several tags ago⌠a fact which I could easily change but shanât.)#(edit of prior tags to say that I wrote the tags before mentioning the women in this post bc idk for a moment I lived in a world in which#everyone knew the women was about dykes. so anyways itâs now 5 joan movies 4 joantaine movies#which is neat. the sampling bias is also fun bc like yes 5 joan movies is a lot to mention but Iâve seen like 30 joan movies so.#of course there are other movies of hers where I would be calling her gay but like im less invested. joantaine is a lot funnier to me bc#Iâve only actually seen 7 joantaine movies. and like ok including the bigamist is admittedly wild given that my queer interpretation of it#is like. her and ida lupino who do not so much as meet in the film. but the extent to which I wish they did fuels me)
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id like the many many people who said my romeo & juliet uquiz reminded them of in stars and time to know i started playing it and hell fuckin yeah
#*cough* watch me on twitch *cough*#link in pinned post what who said that#iâm only like three loops in (last time i died bonnie pushed me into the tears) and iâm OBSESSED with loop#theyâre so me coded fr#like yeah theyâre so player/creator;;; literally like any time iâve been like âwhat would it be like if i met one of my ocsâ i basically do#exactly what they do lmao#iâve only met them the once but like. i love their weird vibes. just. not quite malevolent not quite benevolent#exactly as they should be#id seen fanart of them & siffrin before and ngl i thought theyâd be more outright antagonistic and i mean iâm only a few loops in who knows#maybe they will be. but i love the way they are now. oh also why the fuck arenât the other members of the party more popular im obsessed w#them. i didnât even know they existed before playing this. mira belle is an absolute delight odile is so funny isabeauâs a himbo (& BONNIE!)#every time i open my menu and see bonnie itâs so so good#idk maybe the other characters are more popular iâve only seen the stuff thatâs gotten rbed to my dash#iâve tried to avoid spoilers and all so maybe that plays a part idk#crazwaz posted
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every time i so much as think about that scene where light looks at porn magazines while scowling i go into hysterics its genuinely the funniest thing i've ever seen
#the funniest thing is is that i truly believe he thought he was being 100% convincing. that that's normal behavior for a completely straight#completely allosexual man#light is fucking awful and i hate him but also there's nuance to him. and sometimes i can get a little like. oh thinking about his life#before the series. specifically factoring in my headcanons about him being gay aroace and autistic and stuff. ppl have written some rlly#good fics surrounding those topics.... but yeah thats not even canon stuff but i dont care#anyways its not in a way of making excuses for how he is i just think it adds more to his character#hes total garbage but i think theres really interesting stuff with him when it comes to how he's.... VERY disconnected from others#just in general. he's like aware of how to act ''normal'' on like the most textbook surface level without being like. Aware enough to#be able to make it more convincing. and as ridiculous as it is i do see some of myself in him in that sense#also that person who said light and L is just autistic guy who's been masking his entire life vs autistic guy who's never masked in his#entire life. LITERALLY EXACTLY. genuinely perfect way to describe them they are both so similar when it comes to this#but the ways they go about it are very different. light has been playing the part of the perfect son his whole life. L doesnt try to change#himself for anyone and doesnt care when people think hes weird. both of them arent very socially aware and havent had any real friends#their whole lives. its such a fascinating parallel between them#i could go on a whole fucking thing about how light was pretending to be someone he's not around his family and at school and everything#long before he got the death note BUT. i wont. at least not right now#jesus christ how did i go from laughing about him with the magazine to this. my bad#derailed my own damn post. idk swagever#will say rq tho. watched a vid on youtube that pointed out how light expected his family to think nothing of the fact that he's gone to#such drastic measures to hide his diary when making the plan with hiding the death note which is like#that level of dedication would NOT be normal. so the fact that light expects his family to think nothing of it......#i mean you could read that as light just once again being socially unaware. but it could also imply that light's family kind of Knows#he's hiding something and just doesn't address it. (he's gay. im talking about him being gay)#the video also referenced this comic that i didnt rb cause the actual premise of it (lawlight wedding) is um.#not at all my kind of thing. BUT it was light describing himself as a house with a basement when his family sees him as a one story house#and i thought that was such a cool analogy#ANYWAYYYSSSS i need to go to bed. thanks if you read my ramblings#serena.txt#death note posting
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I realize this could get me crucified in certain circles but as good as Andor was I really do think its fans can be truly insufferable.
#i'm sorry but so many andor fans just have this snobby ass attitude about it#and feel the need to act as if it's The Only Good Star Wars Thing Ever Made#and every other star wars thing should copy it#because clearly if the show's style works for THAT story it MUST work for every story right#it was annoying when the show was airing and it's annoying now#like idk maybe the people who described it as ''star wars for people who hate star wars'' weren't that far off#i already talked about all this in another post a while back#but y'know a new show just came out which means i have to put up with it again#even though there's really no reason to compare andor and ahsoka outside of ''they're both star wars shows''#and most of it is just people bitching that ahsoka is more reference-heavy#which as i've also pointed out in previous shows. it's a sequel.#a sequel continues the story of a previous work that's literally the entire fucking point#like i'm sorry but when it comes to this show specifically i do not give a solitary FUCK about the casual viewer#it has been very explicitly and unambiguously billed as a direct sequel to rebels from the start#and it was announced 3 years ago which is more than enough time to get caught up#no one is forcing you to watch the sequel before the thing it's a sequel to#as far as i'm concerned if you watch a sequel before the first one that's entirely on you#you knew what you were getting into and you have forfeited any right to bitch about being confused#but anyway back to andor i'm not gonna let people being annoying about it affect my enjoyment of it#cause it IS a good show and i don't wanna end up resenting it just cause people are pretentious asses about it#but yeah i think certain people could maybe stand to get off their fucking high horses over star wars spin-off shows#shut up tristan
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why are daphne and velma kinda so irritating in this show though
like i think ive already mentioned velma being shitty to shaggy and how its just so hard to watch no matter the reason lol
but also daphne chasing after fred so hard even though she can barely stand the things he likes and acts like he needs to stop liking it so much instead of her... like girl stop shitting on the mans fixation. he can love both of you AND HE DOES?
like the guys are just trying to vibe
id like to say this is me criticising the people who wrote this show more than anything
#mystery incorporated#fred is so precious in this show. look at that man. hes just doing his best in a world that doesnt understand him jgjsjfjd#its a good show especially in terms of a scooby doo show but man. this is irritating djfjsjfjd#ive literally watched this show before a few years back. this is not my first time#but idk i just sjfjsjfjd i didnt like velma in this show back then either tbf#why cant scooby doo show writers just understand the gang loves eachother so much. like. why make them act like this rjajfjsjf#scooby doo#freds way of expressing love is so good in this show though djfnsnf like its funny but also cute#also i just love him equating having feelings with not being a man anymore and he just accepted it because he wanted feelings more than#more than being a man JFJSNTJDF like#icon honestly#ive ended up talking about fred more than who i wrote this post about#idk what else to say its just irritating and i hate watching the gang be mean to eachother djgjsjfj#i know people regard this show as kinda the best scooby doo show but aghghdhghfhgh#i still like the show i prommy#velma dinkley#daphne blake#i wish there were more lore heavy scooby doo shows with the full gang and they were like. nice to eachother#'be cool' was fun but didnt really have any lore. got cancelled. and of course the art style didnt do it much sjfjsjf#fred wasnt as precious in that though :[ i loved that he couldnt resist a mystery tho :] mystery fixation kinda fred#my post
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WIP DAY.
tagged by @girlbosselrond @morvaris @aartyom @risingsh0t @phillipsgraves @leviiackrman @indorilnerevarine & @denerims over the past month! sorry it's taken me so long to get to anything at all, i'm sure you guys have heard me address it enough, but thank you all so much for continuing to tag me in things while i've been inactive âĄ
tagging @aelyosos @brujah @calenhads @florbelles @jendoe @lightwardens @liurnia @nokstella @nuclearstorms @shadowsofrose @shellibisshe @steelport @swordcoasts @wrymbloods @voerman & all of those who tagged me again cause i'm so behind + anyone else who'd like to share anything they're working on, not just writing! âĄ
i haven't written anything since the last wip game i did, but i started trying to put diana's timeline together at the start of january, so i mean... i'll show that instead. as you can see, fatigue hasn't let me do much with it even though i've got all of her timeline already done and strewn about all over the place.
started with 1995 onwards cause it was originally going to be an ewskers timeline situation, but then wanted to include all of her backstory so i went back to the start and still have the late 80s and early 90s to get through before then, but yeah :]
it's going to include like all little moments i've thought of between the ewskers just for me and placing them on the timeline, so you can imagine how long this is going to get if i have to go to 2021 for village... like just 1996-1998 is going to be so much... she's very special to me if you couldn't tell already lmaoo
never sharing this though, it's just for me, and like will help for when i do her timeline page (more in-depth version of what's on her oc page) to just run through canon events and brief descriptions and whatnot. you understand.
everything is blurred out besides 1995 ewskers momence and the years, just cause like idk her i feel weird sharing her in-depth backstory unless it's in dms or something, just cause there's lots going on there and yeah. things. idk
i also made a carrd for twt if you wanna have a look at that :] there's some cheeky subtle things with the two resi items i used as pics hehe
actually, you know what, i'll give a lil bit from where i left of with that rewrite anyways, even though it's been months since i wrote it. but why not
Wesker left a fleeting kiss behind her ear then reached around her and hooked his fingers beneath her coat, prompting Diana to glance back at him. But all he did was gently pull it from her shoulders. She watched him from out of the corner of her eye as he hung it up on the rack by the door, his movements careful and almost calculated, until he turned back towards her, and the warmth of his body returned once more. He pressed up against her side this time, as opposed to her back, and one of his hands found a home on her waist. The way the arm it belonged to was resting firmly against her as he began leading her towards the kitchen was comforting, secure, yet unmistakably possessive. And she revelled in it. He had quite the knack for handling her just the way she wanted.
#tag games.#keep going to do picrews and just zoning out đ i'm so behind on literally everything but it's fine it's okay (lying)#i'm having a day and a half even though i woke up feeling okay but oh well. my last month has just been like watching videos during the day#or playing games when i have a bit more energy but like i can't do anything that requires me to actually read or write things like words#are just not computing in my brain at the moment but it's okay like i'm just exhausted and hoping soon i can get back to writing because i#still have over 30 wips going lmao but yeah it's been a time a half with lots of appointments and seeing specialists again and trying to#sort things out. i've been more active on twitter which i've mentioned before but it's just because like it's easier for me to sort of just#like and rt things and not having to do my organisation tags and things like i know that sounds so just small and simple but that's how#i've been lately like to my brain rn that seems like a really big task. so i just keep coming on here randomly for a few minutes then#disappearing so i'm sorry that i've definitely missed so much and i haven't been around to just show my appreciation and love to your#creations!! also just everything that happened in december and then a bit at the start of january too like i'm just a lil paranoid about#being on here honestly so i'm trying to get back to it and be okay with posting again and i'm going to make a promise to myself to actually#filter more tags i think? just to help me with like not exposing myself to things that do make me feel uncomfortable in any way!! i'm#rambling now but sorry sometimes i just need to lmaooo idk but yes so cute lil subtle things from my carrd i wanna talk about cause why not#i didn't have to change the blue herb from re0 besides making it brighter because it's already teal toned which is so sexy but i shifted#the hue on the spade key like SLIGHTLY like it was so little. but anyways. i use this emoji ⨠on my twitter name and yes cause sparkles but#also. three stars. the s.t.a.r.s. badge and logo :] then blue herb because i will have no poison in my safe space!!!! take a blue herb or#leave please!! only good vibes and safe space here!! spade key because i'm ace <3 i was going to include the diamond one in there as well#because am demiro and like those are the symbols in the community. ace of spades for ace. diamond for demis (both orientations)#but wasn't sure how to weave the pink through the rest of the carrd even though cyan and pink together is so pretty omg
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danganronpa is whispering its siren song to me but alas nobody shares my big brain million iq opinions (drv3 hater) (korekiyo defender) (ishimaru understander) (celeste and hifumi apologist) (kaito hater) (protagonist love triangle poly advocate) (post sdr2 anime enjoyer) (fucking hates the writing bar the first half of sdr1 and ending of sdr2) (never even finished v3 because it was so dogshit terrible and also i genuinely can barely get through the minigames) (problematic psychological horror fan)
#the executions were not gorey enough they were not even that camp. except the celeste one.#leon baseball one was good. the korekiyo one had potential. kaedes ROCKED. taka's concept version was cool. everything else was shit.#everything about the way they wrote korekiyo drives me fucking insane ive written essay length posts on it before. i care him okay.#let me project onto the predatory fem gay man stereotype incestual serial killer.#mostly because his writing was wildly homophobic + transmisogynistic and a horrible depiction of abuse#but had so much potential for a genuinely good character if theyd pulled their heads outta their asses and deconstructed the tropes#which is what danganronpa is all about thats what makes the first game halfway secent#ughhh. its just so frustrating how all the writing js so close but so far.#like genuinely this is one place where i think fandom and fanfic is better than the original#say what you will but it's one of the only fandoms where ive felt p much all fanfic and headcanon done genuinely#has told a better and/or more complete story while keeping the original concepts and tone#unfortunately most of the fandom is insane and/or too preoccupied with shipping (understandable. i guess.) to like. engage with it fully.#and there's still such a dearth of content for my faves#kiyo is like at best a side character and at worse written as even more of a parody of himself đ#theres literally like four people in the world who get it max. korekiyo eating spaghetti is still my favorite fan art of all time#...anyway. idk why im thinking about this rn but im nostalgic all of a sudden#i never really got invested into any of the crazy fandom stuff i just read old fanfic and watched from the sidelines#but me and a couple friends had a lot of own interpretation and theories and fanon sequel ideas n they mean a lot to me yk?#genuinely got me to do a lot more writing and art even if it was all korekiyo themed. im like soooo good at drawing him now (lie)#he's still my litmus test for picrews if i cant make him it's shit. he literally just has long hair a mask and pretty eyes. simple elements#anyway whatever he will live on in my head forever.
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IN A WORLD FULL OF BOYS, HEâS A GENTLEMAN ! | TOM BLYTH
PAIRING. tom blyth x fem!actress!reader
SUMMARY. despite being in a world filled of childish boys, your boyfriend was definitely a gentleman, always putting you before him
AUTHORS NOTE. the third installment because we love tom blyth and yn avocot. I recommend reading part 1 and 2 for more context!
tomblyth âbabe, do you think weâre together in every universe?â is that even a question?
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ynuser stoppp i didnât know youd actually take the question seriously
user1 get you a man like tom blyth bc oh my god
user2 idk what yn did to manifest him but i need her ways
user3 ugh idk what heâs doing with her lol he could do so much better
⼠user4 well someone had to say it..
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You didnât understand how some people on the internet can be so . . . mean. Although there have been countless of fans cheering you and Tom on, it didnât make it any less hurtful that there were still a ton who werenât scared to be open about how much your boyfriend could do better.
Itâs ironic; you think. Theyâre claiming theyâre looking out for Tom, yet totally disregarding him and his girlfriend as human beings? Those werenât real fans.
The reason for them hating you so much? Just for simply being with Tom. Everybody wanted him, that was your crime.
Everytime you got lost in your thoughts about this topic, Tom knew. Boyfriend instincts, he called them, but really, he was just a caring and observant person.
You tried not to break down over it, you really did, but a girl could only go on for so long before it all bursts out. Luckily, Tom pulls you right in, telling you to let it all out.
Although the world was filled with childish and hurtful beings, Tom Blyth was still who he was, a gentleman, attending to your every needs.
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tomblyth really dgaf if you like my girlfriend or not cause i do and thatâs all that matters
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user5 im cryinf the polaroid he has of her
user6 YES REAL MEN STAND UP FOR THEIR GFS
user7 ALL THE PICS HE HAS OF HER đĽšđĽš
tomblythswife oh to be yn avocot and be loved by tom blyth
rachelzegler tell âem đ
user8 she doesnât even comment on the posts he makes abt her, so self centered lol
⼠ynuser Iâm right next to him rn?? cant say the same thing about you âlolâ
⼠user9 OH SHE ATE YOU UP @/user8
tomblyth_daily here are some clips of tom talking about his relationship in his new interview! GET YOU A MAN THATS LIKE TOM BLYTH đŁď¸đŁď¸đŁď¸
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user10 the way heâs so passionate when talking about her and being a good boyfriend, God I hate being single
user11 âtheyâre not even that cuteâ STFU AND GO WATCH THIS INTERVIEW CAUSE ??
user12 tom blyth said put aside your nonchalant attitudes, im looking at YOU MEN đŤľđŤľ
ilovetomblyth heâs so boyfriend it actually hurts
user13 yn mustâve saved a continent in her past life to be dating tom blyth omg
ynuser girls, before you have a meltdown over a boy: think of what balleona laurent would do. kiss and manipulate coriolanus!
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tomblyth you kiss and manipulate me too
⼠ynuser youâre gonna get me CANCELLED
user14 literal unbothered icon i love her
user15 if i were her id post a tiktok with that audio âhe chose me he donât want youâ
iloveyn SHES SO FUNNY
lionsgate us when behind the scenes photo of balleona đť
⼠user16 lmao stop whoâs the admin of lionsgate
user17 balleona is such a bad person but oh is she hot
tomblyth she was like a shot of espresso
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ynuser i love u more than words can describe blyth
user18 ok whoâs cutting onions
user19 GIRLS, GUYS, THEY THEMS, STOP SETTLING FOR BARE MINIMUM WHEN TOM BLYTH LITERALLY CALLED HIS GF A SHOT OF ESPRESSO, GIVES HER FLOWERS EVERYDAY, AND TALKS ABT HER ALL THE TIME IN HIS INTERVIEWS
⼠user20 YELL IT HARDER SISTER đđđ
user21 this is so dark academica im inlove with u guys
user22 parentssss
rachelzegler my favorites
ynuser SNOW LANDS ON TOP LOSERS
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tomblyth yn, i love you but
⼠user23 LMFAOO when he doesnât finish his sentence
user24 the second pic thank u yn
joshandresrivera on top of u maybe
⼠user25 IM DYING OML
user26 thank you to lionsgate for casting the most hottest villain couple ever
#coriolanus snow x reader#coriolanus snow imagine#coriolanus snow fanfiction#coriolanus snow fluff#coriolanus snow#coriolanus snow smut#coriolanus snow angst#coriolanus snow fic#tom blyth x reader#tom blyth#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#tbosas#the hunger games x reader#the hunger games
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moth to a flame
pairing: james potter x black!reader
summary: what could be more forbidden than loving your brother's best friend?
warnings: mdni, 18+, smut with plot (fingering), reader is siriusâs twin sister, james smokes, no use of y/n, english isnât my first language
word count: 3.7k
a/n: i'm alive! and now i have bachelor degree! it was a hard few month but i survived and decided to try smth new. i've never posted smut before⌠sooo idk if it good or not but bc it was in my drafts for a long time now, and i wanted to post smth for u guys⌠now it's here. not my best work i think but nevertheless i hope you will like it. have a good time reading <С
"JAMES FLEAMONT POTTER, STOP IT RIGHT NOW!"Â
The Gryffindor dorm was a whirlwind of noise and energy, laughter bouncing off the walls. You lay sprawled on your bed, desperately trying to wriggle free from his bear-like grip. You never understood where James got so much power from. He was an animagus deer, not a bear, damn you. You twisted and kicked in every direction, but his nimble fingers danced over your bare skin, tickling mercilessly and making you shriek with laughter. Time seemed to blur as your best friendâs relentless tickling pulled you away from your herbology test preparations. Your stomach muscles ached from laughing, and your cheeks felt sore from the constant smile etched on your face.
âJamie, please stop. I'm going to die now," you mumbled without stopping laughing. âSirius will come soon and there'll be hell to payâÂ
After these words, James grinned, loosened his grip, and rolled onto the other half of the bed. His warm brown eyes followed your every move, a gentle intensity in his gaze. He left a light kiss on your cheek before getting out of bed, and you breathed deeply, trying to steady your erratic breaths. You watched as James crossed the room in a few swift strides, heading to the desk and opening the window. Propping yourself up on your elbows, you felt the cool wind slide through the chiffon curtains, a refreshing contrast to your heated skin.
James's fingers, which had been caressing your skin moments ago, moved with deliberate slowness as he took a cigarette from the pack. He clamped it between his teeth, the flame from his lighter casting a brief, warm glow as he lit it. You couldn't tear your eyes away from him. His disheveled curls and rumpled white shirt, with its first few buttons teasingly undone, drew your gaze to his collarbones. His sleeves were rolled up to his elbows, revealing the veins on his forearms, each one accentuated in the dim light. That familiar, mischievous grin played on his lips, making you believe that James Potter did it all on purpose.
That grin shone on his face as if he had already won the Quidditch Cup against Slytherin. It made your breathing falter again, sending a whole crazy swarm of butterflies dancing in your stomach. You loved that James Potter grin, the playful twinkle in his eyes, and the way he slightly raised his head to exhale cigarette smoke out the window, where the sun was setting. Yeah, you liked everything about James Potter to the point of a stomach ache and an incredibly fast heartbeat in your chest.Â
You were the biggest fan of your brother's best friend. Sometimes, it seemed you literally couldn't live without Jamesâwithout his jokes, his light touches, his gentle whispers in your ear, and those sparkling eyes like two precious stones. However, James probably didn't even know it, thinking of you only as his best friend's little sister.
âHey you, don't touch my stuff!â you were indignant, watching him run his fingers over the photo that stood on your desk. You saw James roll his eyes, not paying any attention to your words, and take the frame in both hands, studying it carefully.
âIt seems you fit in well with our shabby group,â the guy said quietly and looked around. "Everyone likes you, even Mr. Grumpy Peterâ
In his hands was a white frame, its edges adorned with delicate gold filigree, cradling a photo captured just a few weeks earlier. In the picture, you and the Marauders are all there, faces lit with joyâLilyâs laughter bright, Marleneâs mischievous grin, and Dorcasâs warm smile. The scene is set in the cozy common room, where you had all gathered around, lost in the delight of silly Muggle games Lily had introduced. The simple pleasure of those games, so different from the usual weight of family troubles, offered a rare warmth and comfort. You hold this photo close, a cherished relic of laughter and friendship, its presence a bittersweet reminder of how much you missed Sirius when he left you and the rest of the family behind.Â
You were profoundly grateful to the entire gang for the chance to be reunited with your twin brother. It was a rare gift to once again be enveloped in his care and protection, to bask in his unwavering love. Your bond with Sirius had always been a delicate thread, frayed by circumstance. The divide between Slytherin and Gryffindor had severed your Hogwarts communication, yet at home, he remained your cherished brother. Though he could be infuriating at times, he was always a steadfast presence, an integral part of your very being.
But the rift deepened when his conflicts with your parents escalated, leaving you unwillingly caught in the crossfire. Sirius's bitterness led him to view you and Regulus as traitors, and then, when he departed, the bond between you was irrevocably severed. It felt as if a piece of your soul had been torn away with him, leaving life in the cold, shadowy manor utterly unbearable.
Then Lilyâs intervention restored a semblance of normality. Siriusâs familiar gestureâruffling your hair in the hallway, calling you "pearl," and flashing that familiar, mischievous smileâwas a balm to your wounded heart. Even though a part of you grappled with guilt over maintaining your connection with Sirius while feeling disloyal to Regulus, you couldn't bear to be without your twin. And now, life seemed also incomplete without his cheeky Quidditch captain friend, James Potter, who had become an unexpected but welcome fixture in your world.
âWhat âbout you?âÂ
The words came out of your mouth before you could think them through. You nervously bit your lower lip, your gaze fixated on James as he methodically extinguished his cigarette, leaving the window ajar. His movements were slow and deliberate as he slid his hands into his trouser pockets and made his way towards the bed. Each step seemed to draw him closer to you, the mattress sinking slightly under his weight as he settled next to your feet.
You shifted uneasily, trying to maintain some distance, but Jamesâs presence was undeniable. Your heart raced with every inch he came nearer. When he finally reached out, his hand gently caressed your cheek, tucking a stray strand of hair behind your ear. The faint, lingering scent of smoke began to weave its way into your senses, adding to the tension that filled the room.
âWhat âbout me, lovely?â He said softly.
His hot breath scorched your neck as James tilted his head slightly to the side. Your eyelashes fluttered and a soft sigh escaped your lips. You could feel the blush rising up your neck and stopping on your cheeks. You've never considered yourself the one who could melt at the sight of a guy⌠You have always been sure that you are a tough nut to crack and the path to your heart is not easy and thorny. But as soon as James Potter came into your life, sat so close to you and looked at you with his big chocolate eyes, you became a puddle in his hands and there was nothing you could do about it.
It was unbearable to have feelings for James Potter, the schoolâs shining star, who was constantly surrounded by a throng of admirers vying for his attention. But the situation was even more agonizing knowing that James was your brother's closest friend, the one who had rescued him from the chaos of your family, the brother Sirius had chosen as family.
Despite the unbreakable bond you shared with Sirius, and the way you two were as inseparable as a single machine, you never broached this subject with him. Why? Because you had seen and heard countless stories from friends and acquaintances whose relationships with their siblingsâ best friends ended in resentment and discord. You understood the underlying issue all too well: no one wanted to be caught in the crossfire of a breakup between a family member and a closest friend.
For Sirius, the situation would be even more complex. You couldnât imagine being forced to choose between your twin brotherâwho was half of youâand your closest friend. It was a choice you knew you could never make, and that realization only deepened the anguish of your feelings for James.
Thatâs why you remained silent, burying your feelings deep within yourself. Whenever you spent time together, you made a conscious effort to keep your distance from James, but it never seemed to work. With every encounter, your feelings for the Quidditch captain grew stronger, more consuming. Lately, however, it was becoming increasingly difficult to keep everything bottled up. Listening to stories about his snogs was tormenting. Watching him flirt and interact with others was a growing source of anguish. You felt yourself unraveling under the weight of it all.
You licked your dry lips, drawing in a shaky breath, and cast your eyes downward before murmuring, barely audible.
"I-uh... do you like me?"
Your voice trembled, faltering until, by the end, your words dissolved into nothing more than a breathy whisper, a stream of air that barely formed a coherent sentence. And you would have died of shame on the spot if it hadn't been for James's thumb stroking your hot cheek soothingly. His gaze slid over your face, carefully, as if under a microscope, studying every detail that seemed to have already learned everything during these couple of months of your close communication. You were so beautiful with those confused eyes, and halting breathing, and that scar showing above your eyebrow when you frowned. You were divine.Â
James, having endured relentless teasing from his friends about his feelings for Lily, believed he was as transparent as an open book. He thought that all his innocent touches, lingering glances, and heartfelt compliments had not gone unnoticed by you, and that you were fully aware of how he felt. He was almost certain of it. But now, as he gazed into your wide, bewildered eyesâeyes that looked at him with a mix of adoration and anxietyâhe realized he might not have been as obvious as heâd thought.
You nervously bit your lip and fidgeted with the rings on your fingers, and James couldn't help but chuckle softly, shaking his head. His gaze briefly lingered on your lips, and he was consumed by a longing to taste them. When he looked back up, he stared straight into the depths of your soul, searching for the truth that lay hidden within.
âI thought you knew the answer.⌠Everyone knowsâŚâ
You blinked a few times, nervously swallowing the lump that was beginning to tighten in your throat. James Potter was far too close, encroaching on your personal space in a way that made your heart race and your breath catch. You slowly raised your eyes, trying to come up with some clever answer or make a joke of everything, just not to feel this shame and misunderstanding, just to stop this war in your head. But before you could make a sound, you were on your back again. A surprised sigh escaped your lips when you saw James's smiling face looming over you. His palm rested on your waist, gently squeezing the soft flesh exposed under your shirt.Â
"Do you want to know the answer, angel?" James asked slowly, bending forward slightly and stretching out each word. His voice was soft and sweet like honey, making goosebumps cover your body.Â
"Only if I... like it," you whispered softly to him in response, blinking your eyes in surprise, feeling your eyelashes tickle your cheeks.Â
You felt the ghostly brush of his lips against your temple, then your cheekbone, your cheek, and finally the corner of your lips. James Potter's teasing touch was driving you wild. Your hands instinctively clenched the fabric of his shirt in tight fists as you closed your eyes, a soft whimper escaping your lips. His kiss lingered on your chin before trailing down to your neck, sending shivers down your spine.
âJames...â you exhaled, parting your lips as a shiver of impatience rippled through your body. Your fists tightened on his shirt, pulling him closer, desperately craving the contact you longed for. James's laugh came out in a low, throaty sound, and you pouted, frustrated by his playful teasing. But before you could voice your discontent, his lips met yours, pulling you into a tender, sweet kiss that made all your frustrations melt away.
Kissing James Potter was as enchanting as youâd imagined, if not more so. His lips, softened by your cherry balm, carried a lingering taste of cherries, mingling with hints of cigarettes, fresh herbs, and even chocolateâthe same chocolates youâd savored just moments before, before James had playfully wrested the last one from you. Where had it gone now?
Your hands gently released his shirt, moving up to his shoulders, fingers threading through his tousled curls and drawing him nearer. You felt a delightful shiver on your lips as James exhaled a satisfied sigh and nibbled on your lower lip. You giggled softly, your fingers tangling further in his hair, pulling him even closer, savoring every second of the sweet, intoxicating kiss. James squeezed your waist a little tighter before reaching under your shirt. His fingers closed around your chest and you moaned softly into his lips, arching your back to meet him.
James slipped his knee between your legs, and you gently moved your hips, feeling the already wet fabric of your panties slide over the stiff material of his pants. James's lips moved lower, covering your neck with kisses, giving you time to catch your breath.
âJamie... James... don't,â you whispered breathlessly with pleasure. His lips touched your sweet spot behind your ear and you moaned softly. James Potter will be the end of you.Â
âYeah,â James said confidently in the area of your collarbone, quickly unbuttoning the buttons of your white dress shirt. James looked up at you for a second and you frowned slightly, not understanding what he was talking about. âYes,â he repeated, looking you straight in the eye. âYes, I like you, angel. Ever since you blew up our amortentia at potions,â you felt the vibration of his laughter on your neck when he left another kiss.Â
âBut... but that was in the third year...â you whispered, not believing him. James liked Lily at that time, and probably still does. Sirius and Peter often joke thatâŚ
âHmm...â James mumbled in agreement, moving lower, leaving light kisses on both of your breasts. "I couldn't confess âcause Sirius is my friend... you're his lilâ sister... and I was a fuckinâ thirteen-year-old loser who was afraid to even look in your direction."Â
You laughed softly, sliding your fingers through his hair, lightly scratching the skin of his head. James's hot breath burned your skin as his lips moved lower and lower down your body. Every new kiss is a new place. The cleavage. The ribs. Belly. Bellybutton.Â
"And then Lily brought you to us... and I couldn't just watch anymore... when you were so close... so beautiful... gentle... sweet..." James's lips touched the bottom of your stomach, and his fingers gently slipped under the elastic band of your skirt. But before he could pull it down your trembling legs, you grabbed his face with both hands, lifting it higher, connecting your lips. James Potter could resist anything, but not you. He could never resist you.Â
Kissing James Potter was like soaring through the sky, a rush of air that caressed your skin with a tantalizing chill. It was like the first warm summer rain, gently gliding through your hair, or the sun's rays breaking through after a long, cold winter, warming the earth with their tender touch. His kisses were like the living water from fairy talesârevitalizing and magical, making you breathe deeply and revel in the pure joy of the moment.
âAs much as I would like to continue, but James...â you kissed his lips again, looking into his frowning eyes. Your hands gently stroked his cheeks, feeling a slight tingle from his growing stubble. "Sirius is coming soon and I... I don't want him to find us in such a-... such a compromising position." You blushed fiercely, your cheeks turning as red as a ripe tomato, and Jamesâs laughter rang out once more. He leaned in to kiss you savoringly on the cheek, his touch both tender and playful.
His hand was gently stroking your stomach, and his knee was still moving slowly between your legs. You exhaled noisily, throwing your head back on the pillow, breathing heavily. Hips involuntarily moved to meet him and you squeezed his biceps with your hand. You whimpered when the pleasure became almost unbearable, when you wanted to feel something more.
âI think you're enjoying yourself too much, angel,â James whispered next to your ear, nibbling on your neck. You felt his hand slip through the elastic of your skirt, barely touching your pelvis. âWho am I to deprive you of this pleasure, pretty girl?â
You squeezed your eyes shut when James's fingers slid into your panties, gently tracing between your folds, smearing your arousal.Â
âMerlin... Jamie,â you muttered in a trembling voice, moving your hips towards his hands. You heard James chuckle, leaving kisses on your neck and collarbone. You were one hundred percent sure that his marks would remain in these places. And you would have objected if it weren't for the feelings that made you forget about everything. You moaned when his finger slipped inside your dripping hole. Your eyes opened and you met his brown ones, James left a gentle kiss on your lips.
âYeah, look at me, angel,â James said hoarsely. âI want to see how good I make you feelâÂ
You meowed and nodded, unable to say anything to him. His finger slowly slid inside your gummy walls, hitting that very spot, making you roll your eyes in pleasure. But you kept looking at him.Â
"Jamie... more," you said faintly, and he laughed, adding another finger, twitching an eyebrow, asking, "Is that better?"Â
You nodded your head, feeling a surge of euphoria. You've never felt anything like this before. Your fingers have never been so skillful and long to reach the cherished place that they make your whole gut cry with desire. James gradually increased the pace, making you moan softly, clinging to his shirt. You looked into his eyes, feeling them devour and memorize every emotion that slipped across your face. Enjoying your pleasure. His thumb slid over your clit in soft circular movements, and your body arched towards him with pleasure. You could feel the knot of pleasure tightening within you, on the verge of breaking free. Your eyes fluttered rapidly, and your lips parted in silent wonder. You tried to form words, but only soft, breathless moans escaped, betraying the intensity of the sensation.
âI know angel... just let go,â James whispered in your ear, and it snapped the last thread that was holding you back. You closed your eyes, moaning louder than before, feeling like you were coming. James was whispering something in your ear, continuing to pump his fingers through your orgasm, but you were over the moon with pleasure to attach any importance to it.
And a moment after it you felt empty. Breathing heavily, you turned your closed eyes to the guy who was grinning at you, licking your release off his fingers. You ran your hand tenderly over his cheek, trailing down to his neck, gently guiding him closer. Your body felt almost unresponsive, but your need to kiss him was overwhelming. You wanted to feel him, to lose yourself in the connection. As his lips met yours, you relaxed into the kiss, parting your lips lazily and letting James take the lead, savoring every moment. You could still feel the sweet taste of your juice on his lips and it made your heart flutter faster, giving reality to what was happening.Â
Your hand slowly slid from his shoulder lower to his chest, then to his torso and slightly lower, gently touching the buckle of his belt, but before you could even make an attempt to undo it, James grabbed your hands in his and pulled them away, shaking his head. You frowned, not understanding why he doesn't want you to bring him the same pleasure as he gives you. You wanted to please him. You wanted to do it for him.Â
âNot today, angel.â He kissed your knuckles, kneeling next to you. You sat up in front of him, your lower lip trembling as his hands began to button your shirt. You sniffed, not understanding what was going on. He wanted it as much as you did, didn't he?Â
Seeing your expression, James immediately cupped your cheeks in his hands and shook his head.Â
âI want you, beauty. Merlin, lovely... more than anything in this world, I want to take you right here and now.â James laughed hoarsely, shaking his head. âBut like you said, I don't want Sirius or anyone else to get in the way, do I?â you were still pouting, blinking your eyes. James kissed you and joined your foreheads, looking into your eyes. "I promise I'll make it up to you, but later, âkay?"Â
âOkay,â you nodded, reaching for his lips once more. Having tasted James Potter, you felt an insatiable craving for more. With a playful smile, he pulled you closer, and you shifted to straddle him on the bed. His laughter rang out as he placed his hands on your hips, giving them a gentle squeeze. Your hands wandered slowly over his chest, savoring the moment.
âSo, there will be a next time?â you asked, playfully biting your lip. Before he could respond, you leaned in and kissed him, cutting off any potential answer.
You didnât need a reply. In his eyes, you saw the same fiery intensity that drew you in like a moth to a flame. Now, James was the moth flying straight into your blaze. After tonight, there would be no turning back for either of youâboth consumed by a fire that would burn without end.
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Pedroâs Characters: The Dick-tionary
How big are Pedro Pascalâs characters and some NSFW headcannons
(WARNING: DETAILS OF PENISES AND TALKS OF SEX - MDNI)
Part Two <3
A/N: Sorry I never continued Fluff February :(, I lost motivation so Iâll just write them and post them as a prompt list for wheneverâŚ
Joel Miller:
Okay, all his characters are big, itâs a known fact, but Joel is 100% the biggest. Probably about 8.5 inches, with a pretty pink mushroom tip, and GIRTHY AGH! Thereâs a vein on it that is really visible when heâs hard. Oh and his balls are big too. Everything about Joel is just big. Not only is he big but you best believe he knows how to use it too. Heâs got a daddy kink⌠Fav positions are missionary and cowgirl, however when heâs angry doggy or the mating press are a no-brainer. Daddy kink! DOMINANT!!! Thereâs no way this man is a sub, it just doesnât work, heâs just so dom yknow, and when heâs soft, heâs the sweetest heâs ever been, but if heâs angry, hard dom Joel comes out and thatâs a man you donât wanna piss off if you wanna cum. Heâs got such a daddy kink. âFuck babygirl/boy, youâre so fucking sweet, sugar. So fucking good for daddy. Yeah baby? You like that? Such a good little girl/boy, so fucking sweet.â Daddy kink is such is a big thing for him. Hair wise? Well itâs the apocalypse so itâs probably hard to find the Manscaper 3000 or whatever. He trims his hair with some scissors, honestly he didnât really care for shaving before you, so he just let it grow, but once when you were sucking him, you almost sneezed from how much it tickled your nose and made a little joke about it after, which made Joel feel a little bad so he cut them just a little shorter. Oh Iâm sorry and did I mention⌠DADDY KINK!!!
Javier PeĂąa:
(Here Iâm purely writing about Javier Pena in a fictional sense AS PEDRO, not the real guy, this has nothing to do with the real Javier Pena)
Okay, Javier, my baby daddy. Um, who said that- ANYWAYS! Javier is probably the second biggest, in joint place with Oberyn, definitely about 7-7.5 inches, as heâs nicknamed by moi, the Pussy Slayer of Medellin. It goes without saying that Javier is rough, as weâve seen, side note: I donât know why I thought watching Narcos with my family would be a good idea⌠I was sat on the couch like âđ okay, Iâm watching Pedro have sex next to my mum, just a normal Saturday morningâŚâ anyways back to it (hehe Negan reference) but Javier is rough, doggy and cowgirl are his favourite positions, but sometimes when heâs feeling a little somber he likes a little missionary. As how domestically-kinky I like my men, Iâm a little disappointed that Javier isnât a committed man, but he does have a tiny đ¤ breeding kink, he defo isnât a fan of being called daddy, in fact just call him Javi and heâs yours, and heâs dom obviously. âOh carino, you take my cock so well, you good little whore⌠fuck⌠my sweet little angel.â I mean, weâve all seen his hair, so do we really need address it, that also might genuinely be my fav sex scene in all of cinema history.
Oberyn Martell
Okay, admittedly, I havenât seen any proper scenes of Oberyn, because Iâve just started GOT, so I have no clue what his character is like apart from being a HUGE BISEXUAL SLUT, so heâs just like me đ¤
Oberyn, tying with Javier, is about 7-7.5 inches, and I feel like his cock is definitely a lot more tan than others, idk why, itâs just an instinct. Defo uncircumcised. His fav positions are definitely cowgirl OH and dude is the literal definition of a pillow prince, again, just like me. Suck his dick, please, just suck his dick. Again, I donât know how heâs presented in GOT, but Iâm like 74% sure heâs dominant? From the clips Iâve seen 𫣠Hair wise, do razors exists in the GOT world? Or does my man just shave himself with a sword.
Javi Gutierrez:
Oh my sweet baby Javi⌠heâs so kinky. Iâm fully convinced heâs into full BDSM, not so much where he has to do it every single time, but maybe like once a month. When I was watching TUWOMT for the first time, when Nick is about to go into the room with all his merch and stuff, I was dead convinced it was gonna be a sex dungeon. Thereâs no way a man is this sweet and adorable without being into some freaky shit.
Anyway, Javi is about 6.5 inches, with a sweet pink tip and heâs definitely a giver not a taker, donât get him wrong, he ADORES you with his dick in your mouth, but he prefers to eat you out/suck your dick for hours on end. Oh and heâs a sweet talker, when you guys arenât being full kinky, heâll praise you to hours on end, mumbling in your ear how good you are in that sexy accent of his. Is a little bit of a switch, but mostly dominant, soft dom if itâs a normal night but if itâs that special night, only your safe word will pull him out of hard dom space. Definitely the type to overstimulate you in a sweet way âyou can take it right sweetheart? Mi amor~ just take my cock nice and good, ahĂ tienes.â Um, daddy kink for surely, but not like every single night like Joel. But when heâs between your legs, and heâs stimulated you so far into sub space, and youâre struggling to keep your eyes open, and youâre reaching up for him, babbling how good his cock feels in your hole, he canât help but coo down at you and praise you so hard. Heâs not bald, but his hair isnât long, just trimmed to the point where it tickles your nose when you suck his cock.
Din Djarin
Okay, so I think itâs canon that Din hasnât really ever felt human touch, so I feel heâs really inexperienced⌠but the dudeâs got a pretty dick. Like itâs just so⌠pretty. About 6 inches with a sweet baby pink tip, heâs so sensitive too. He loves head but he really canât say it, heâs just too embarrassed. I just get the vibe that heâs mostly subby. He tried to be dom once but the poor baby couldnât handle it all. But then he tried again and he did so good, but it tired him out, so if heâs domming, which is once in a blue moon, heâs going to be soft, maybe even softer than Javi. Mommy/Daddy kink!! âPlease, Iâm good right? Please, please tell me Iâm doing good⌠you always feel so so good, I love you so much.â Please, heâs so sweet I love him. Itâs rare that you guys get off together because of reasons due to his upbringing and stuff so he just likes being taken care of, the sweet boy. Before you, he never really cared for shaving, so when you first strip together, heâs a little nervous about it, and then after that he trims it, quite short.
Marcus Moreno
If anyone says this man is a hard dom theyâre just kidding themselves, this man is the sweetest man out there, obviously not as much as Din ofc <3.
Marcus has an obsession with using his hands, making you cum just by fingering you. Then when heâs inside you, he slips his fingers into your mouth, or around your neck, or on your cheek. His dick is about 7 inches, and like everyone else, knows how to use it perfectly. Angel is one of his favourite nicknames to call you. âMy perfect Angel, taking my cock so good babyâŚâ whilst hes thrusting into you ever so gently. Would never EVER do it when Missy is around, so quickies before picking Missy up from school are his go to, but he loves the days where his mom can take her out for the day or even a grandma sleepover so he can be with you for hours. You under him, over him, him inside you, his good girl/boy, his good angel. Pleasuring you until you get numb. The armpit hair in the scene of the gif gets me and idk why, I have never had a thing for armpit hair but maybe Iâm just really horny, but his hair down there is nice and trimmed, not bald, never bald.
Tim Rock(Hard)Ford
Here we goâŚ
Oh Tim man! I have a teensy đ¤ detective kink so when Pedro played this role it was over for me.
Maybe itâs the greying, like Joel, but I feel like heâs huge, just like Joel. Heâs 8 inches, living his best life. But heâs just a tired old man, so when he gets home, please just get on your knees for him, heâll just lay there, stroking your hair, praising you, telling you how good you suck his cock. Then heâll bring you up to the bed and return the favour, making sure to always get you to tell him about your day as he does so. Saturday nights are always his favourite time to rail into you, heâs had the whole day off, just resting, watching you walk around, getting him so worked up. He has a domestic kink. So seeing you do chores get him so hard. Loves fucking between your thighs when youâre sleeping because he gets home so late and just needs a little relief, but you look so cute and peaceful while you sleep and because heâs so considerate, he doesnât wanna wake you. âSo good for me baby, so good for daddy, gonna fill you up, youâre not gonna let any of my cum slip out right, gonna keep it all in your tummy, yeah, thatâs it, cum for me.â TALKS YOU THROUGH IT!!! Sleeps naked. Not trimmed, not shaved, just grows it out, heâs old so he doesnât care, itâs not like anyone but you would be seeing him like this anyways.
Dieter Bravo
I love Dieter, heâs so cute.
Not dom, but not sub either, just dom enough to see you break under him but sub enough to whimper and get soooo desperate. Such a huge pillow prince, he loves it when you suck him, especially when you grab his balls and caress them, he cums so quick when that happens. Heâs about 6.5 inches, and it loves fast, not as in quickie, but he loves seeing you fall apart as he jackhammers into your hole. When you ride him he gets so sweet, and he can last long, donât worry, but you just look so pretty on top of him, he canât help it, please donât be mad at him. Has a thing for dry humping, especially in the morning when heâs too lazy to move properly. âSo good baby, oh yeah, fuck, grind against me just like that, mmmf fuckâŚâ loves to beg and watch you beg, heâs so good to and for you, donât doubt him ever. He doesnât shave, he trims it, but heâs so goofy, so once he shaved it into a heart.
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OMG omg!! i have a question-- do i need to like pay or anything??? like this is so cool oml! this is what i would really like to see, and also idk if you are fine w multiple prompts in one but here-- can i request NSFW #9, #17 and #16, in one, with denji x fem reader?? sorry if its too much to ask but ur literally such a good writer i cant help it!! thank youuuuu ong
Dinner and Dessert, Part 1
Author: c-o-t-o
Character: Denji x fem reader
CW: 18+ only, sexual content/smut, character aged up, explicit language, pain play, teasing, light bdsm (some CWs apply to other parts)
Misc: ~2.5k words, Part 1. Requested by anon (playing with you under the kotatsu, teasing, and pain play)- I got too into this request and so is going to be much longer than anticipated! Keep an eye out for part 2!
About: You and Denji start teasing each other under the kotatsu after dinner, but it begins to turn into something much more playful.
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Denji was being his rowdy self, as usual. You all managed to make it through a dinner together without Power flinging food across the room or Denji and Aki yelling at her. Denji was, however, very energetic tonight.
Aki was in and out of the living room cleaning up after dinner, while power sat off to the side on some cushions watching TV with Meowy. You and Denji were still under the kotatsu since it was so toasty and warm.
Denji lays straight back and carelessly spreads his legs out under the kotatsu, one of his legs ending up on top of yours. He puts his hands back under his head, grinning wide and sighing contentedly.
âDenjiâŚâ you say, hoping heâll just realize heâs being obnoxious. When he doesnât pay you any mind, you start shaking your legs to shake him off.
âDenji!â You laugh, although somewhat annoyed that heâs just taking up all this space.
âWhaaattt??â He finally responds, shaking his legs back with a devious grin on his face.
You reach under the kotatsu and try to push his leg off but he pushes back against the force of your hand. Denji makes a âahh haaâ sound to mock you, sticking his tongue out.
This back and forth goes on for a few minutes. You push him, he pushes you back. You slap his leg, and he tries to swat at you from his lying position. Eventually you both start laughing at each other. Denji sits back up and leans his head on his hand. He smiles at you with his cheeks all red. Probably from all the kicking and gyrating he was doing. He reaches under the kotatsu and pinches your leg, and you let out a playful yelp. You reach back under to do the same, pinching him on what you assume to be the top of his thigh. But instead of Denji yelling or getting annoyed, his face begins to redden more, eyes starting to avoid yours.
Confused, you pinch him again, thinking heâll do something back to you. But this time, he just closes his eyes and exhales through his nose loudly. You lower your face to try and look him in the eyes, but Denji instead turns his face away.
âDoes he⌠like this? Did he do this wanting me to pinch him back?â You wonder to yourself. Itâs no secret that Denji likes the thrill of pain, but you assumed that was just when he fought. Before you can let your thoughts wander more, you feel Denji grab your hand under the kotatsu, squeezing your fingers. You look at him, his eyes still looking down at the table. With his other arm leaning on the table, his hand covers his mouth, trying to covertly hide his expression and the redness creeping in on his face. Denji puts your hand on his thigh, and you feel his hand on yours. He starts dragging his nails down your skin, making you gasp out loud.
âWhat happened?â Aki peeks his head out from the kitchen while he does the dishes. Hearing this, Power tilts her head around to look at you and Denji.
âN-nothing! Itâs nothing, sorry.â You say with your voice cracking a bit. You glare at Denji who is still trying to cover his mouth, but smirking now. âYouâŚâ
You do the same back to Denji, teasing him just the way he did to you. Scratching his thigh didnât get much of a reaction out of him, though. He does it back to you, but harder this time. You quickly turn to look at him, and all you can see are his eyes looking up at you pleadingly. Your heart skips a beat, understanding now that he wants you to do it harder. When you do, you see Denjiâs neck cringe from pleasure. The sight of him getting turned on by you and the small hints of pain in your teasing, inadvertently starts turning you on as well.
The blanket under the tabletop is big and heavy, so nobody notices when either of you start moving around more underneath it. Denji goes back to laying flat on the floor while you lay on your side. Youâve both pulled the blanket up to your necks now, allowing both of you to reach more than just each otherâs thighs.
Living with Denji, you two ended up constantly flirting with each other. As boys usually do, Denjiâs way of showing it was always to tease you. When it mattered the most, he did protect you and looked out for you. But at home, when he could be his weird self, he loved to tease you. You once came close to kissing him late at night when you both started falling asleep on the couch watching a movie, leaning on each other. But nothing ever came of it, until today. Maybe Denji couldnât take it anymore.
You gasp quietly to yourself when you feel Denjiâs hand move up your arm, making its way up to your chest. He glances over at you to look for a reaction, hesitating. With just your eyes, you scan the room to make sure Aki and Power arenât paying attention, which they arenât. You look back at Denji, making tiny nods with your head. His eyes widen in surprise and excitement. Without wasting any more time, Denjiâs hand finds its way to your breast, cupping and squeezing it gently at first. He tries to nonchalantly watch you for your reaction.
Denjiâs hands are so big and warm that it honestly feels really good. Your eyes close in pleasure and you start letting out small breathy moans through your nose, trying so hard to be quiet. But suddenly, you hear Denji chuckle. Itâs so quiet you almost didnât hear it. But before you open your eyes, you feel Denjiâs hand go under your shirt, pinching your nipple with his fingertips.
You grab your mouth to try keeping yourself from making too much noise, not really able to do much of anything with Aki and Power in the same room. Denji, still being Denji, starts teasing you. His fingertips start circling around your hardened nipple, pinching it randomly, trying to get you to gasp out loud. You feel yourself start getting wet. Were you also enjoying the random bits of pain? Denji somehow found a way to make it feel good and not actually hurt.
To retaliate, you lean over and run your hand up Denjiâs thigh, hand resting over the crotch of his shorts. His eyes flash open at you, and all you can do is smirk at him. He pinches your nipple again in response.
Your hand knew exactly where to go, because⌠well frankly, Denji was already incredibly hard before you even touched him. He got that freaking hard just teasing you and feeling you up. You find the seam of his shorts, take a deep breath, and start making your way up them.
You didnât think your first time feeling him up would be during a situation like this⌠but damn was it exciting. Nervous and eager to feel Denji, you finally slide your fingers underneath the fabric of his underwear. He was so hot from being so stiff that it warmed your fingers to the touch immediately. Denji was pretty big, and it somewhat takes you by surprise. You drag your fingertips across his skin from the base of him to his tip. Thereâs already precum pooling at the top. You laugh to yourself and drag the tip of your finger across it, using it to lubricate your fingertip as it circles the head of his cock. Denji throws his head back in pleasure, letting go of your boob. Closing your fingers around him, you start pumping your hand up and down his length, watching his eyes roll back in his head. Once you get a good rhythm going and he starts getting into it⌠you suddenly let go, making him go crazy from the sudden withdrawl. His knees jerk and hit the kotatsu from inside, making him yell out.
âOkay, whatâs going on in there??â Aki asks annoyed, coming out from the kitchen to see whatâs going on. For some reason, your immediate response is to close your eyes and pretend you fell asleep under the kotatsu when Aki comes in.
âItâs fine, just go back to your chores,â Denji retorts, trying so hard to play it off. âI just hit my knees, no big deal, itâs fine.â Aki looks down at you, then glares at Denji.
âBe quiet, sheâs sleeping. And you should be, too. In fact,â Aki says, turning to look at Power as well, âWe should all be going to sleep. We all have work tomorrow morning.â
âYeah, yeah, got it. Iâll wake her up and tell her to go to bed. Just wanna finish my show.â Denji says, trying to convince Aki and Power to both leave. Which they do, because Aki takes Meowy in an effort to get Power to go back to her room and sleep.
For a few brief moments itâs completely silent. Out of nowhere, you feel something warm near your face. You open your eyes to see Denji hovering above you. He playfully grabs your chin, bringing his mouth to your ear. He licks the shell of your ear, then bites on your earlobe before whispering, âYouâre really in for it now.â
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ghost in the machine
Pairing: Unsub!Spencer Reid x Agent!Fem!reader CW: Fluff, longing, mild angst, one paragraph with heavy implications of sex, cursing, mentions of reader being in a car accident, mentions of suicide and death, suggestive Ig? idk Spencer kind of taunts reader, if I miss anything please tell me! Summary: An unsub targeting local political powers starts calling you. With virtually no memories of your life before 15, you're tasked with finding out why his voice feels like home. Disclaimer: Reader is chubby. She's not physically described in this but reader is literally always a bigger person. Anyone can read but I wanna clarify <3 WC: 7.8k I lokey feel like I fumbled this one but this idea has been in my head since I saw a post about it like last month so i'm sorry in advance if it sucks đ I'm not saying looping ghost in the machine by SZA while reading this will elevate the experience but just know it's strongly advised and im even giving you a link to the song for easy access.
The fourth case this month. This was the fourth battered politician youâd forced into handcuffs while ducking away from the recoil of blood spewing from his mouth. The men youâd arrested had all protested strongly - and wetly - while being walked to the back of your cruiser, demanding to know why you were arresting them even though they were the victims. They were always the victims. Theyâd been burgled and beaten - yes- oftentimes you were restraining them while they sat in bathrobes or pajama pants, but this unsub always jumped the gun. Somehow they managed all this damage while simultaneously kicking the dirt that had been sedentary for years out from under the rug. The men would call the police themselves -Â Iâve been robbed, Iâve been beaten - always astounded when youâd taken their statement then turned them around and recited their Miranda rights. This unsub was meticulous, planned down to the second. Somehow, the media always broke the story hours after the arrest with full fledged details on the crime - ones the BAU didnât even have yet.Â
The first time this happened, youâd questioned every media worker from Quantico to DC. His target zone never seemed to reach beyond that, giving you an offender right in your backyard. Those were always the hardest to stomach. Journalists, Newscasters, even cameramen had been turned inside out as the team scoured for any connection. He was just too good.Â
âHow can it be just one man?â Derek spoke first, but that was the question all of you were about to ask.Â
âWife and kids were outta town. It was a sleeping 50 year old man against the element of surprise.â Prentiss was right, it wasnât a difficult job when viewed like that. âDescription is consistent with all the victims. All black attire, mask over the face.â She flopped the folder down in front of her for emphasis.Â
âEither he has another guy or heâs incredibly tech savvy. Some of this information was encrypted, it would take weeks to compile all of this. If heâs hitting a new vic every week thatâs not nearly enough planning time for something this orchestrated.â Hotch checked the time on his watch. âWeâre not finding him tonight. The local PD are investigating. We donât have clearance until tomorrow. Everybody go home and get some rest, we need to crack down on this.âÂ
As much as you loved your job, the departure was a welcome relief. The day had drained you, you had to basically drag yourself back to the BAU for the regroup after the case. It was routine, and incredibly necessary as this unsub continued his streak, but your brain was mush, and you didnât know if you were capable of any breakthroughs in your current state. You were grateful, currently, that at least you werenât dealing with a serial killer. He had an agenda, that much was obvious, but chasing a serial killer for a month bred a different kind of stress than chasing an anarchist.Â
The AC blast that hit you upon entering your home seemed to steal the tension from your shoulders. It was summer, so on top of hunting an unsub who was essentially a ghost, you were also bearing through the violently humid nights. You locked the door, pulling up your sleeves as you walked deeper into your house. The lights were on, you never left them off for long, and your eyes locked on the pile of notes sitting on your counter. Three small papers, torn at every edge, were draped over each other. Evidence, you thought. Youâd kept them for evidence. Once you told the team the unsub had been reaching out, you would show them the notes. It was that simple, you were planning to tell them. You didnât know why the information hadnât entered their radar yet. This unsub was clearly infatuated. You could be a valuable part of solving this case, the notes could be the reason you solved it at all. Those were words straight from the source, they would tell you more about the unsub than any crime scene analysis would. Something about them just stilled your tongue, though. You never particularly liked the feds, the cops, the higher ups. You became one of them begrudgingly, youâd been good at reading people your whole life. You wanted to solve things, see justice. It was never primarily about helping people for you, and you feared the reputational repercussions if your team members ever found out about that. You weren't ignorant, you had morals. You simply lacked the place of purity they came from, the virtue your team members carried was one you were void of. Half of the time you walked away from a case, you disagreed with the verdict, and you were ashamed.
You had only realized you zoned out when the phone rang, effectively breaking your gaze away from the notes and onto the âUnknown callerâ screen glaring at you from your cell. Morgan just got a new phone, you remembered. Heâs probably checking in. You picked it up, stating just your last name in greeting as a reflex from almost exclusively talking to other agents.Â
It was quiet for a moment, reaching the period of time where your stomach knotted up and almost forced you off the phone. âHey, Y/n.â The voice was a new one, it pulled at certain strings within you. You knew him, but you didnât recognize him.Â
âWhoâs this?â The spark of familiarity filled you with guilt. A car accident when you were 15 had stolen most of the memories from your childhood and left a bountiful amount of scars in their place. You barely remembered your own parents, if this man was an old relative, you definitely didnât know who he was. As much as your family tried to be empathetic, you could tell it hurt them when you were none the wiser.
âGod, itâs good to hear your voice.â The man was smiling as he spoke, you could hear it in his tone. âYour number was shockingly hard to find. Feds really donât mess around, huh?â Your shoulders tensed, you looked around. Blinds were closed, your house was the same as when you left it. You're sure it wouldnât be hard to find your address if heâd found your number. âIâve been trying, believe me. I left those notes while I was looking, although itâs really not the same, is it? Phones are so revolutionary, I mean writing you a letter is one thing but itâs so underwhelming in comparison. A piece of paper doesnât let me listen to you, doesnât let me hear those little breaths you take when you get scared.â You didnât even realize your breathing had changed until he called you out.Â
âDo I scare you?â He sounded so domestic, the contrast between the genuinity laced in his words and the actual words themselves just about knocked you over. âI hope I donât. Iâm not trying to.â
âWhat are you trying to do?â Your mouth felt sealed shut, just barely managing to grate out the words.
âIf youâre asking about my agenda, Iâm afraid thatâs a private affair for now.â He was so casual about this, sarcastically sucking air in through his teeth like he was telling you he couldnât meet for coffee next week.
âWhat do you need with me, then? You donât want to share and you arenât calling to gloat. Whatâs the point?âÂ
You heard him click his tongue at the question. âEverything is so technical with you agents.â You could basically sense his lips quirk up, gaining some type of sick intuition for the manâs tendencies. âMaybe I just wanted a word with the pretty detective working my case.âÂ
Your knees were trembling, your grip getting looser on the phone as you struggled to keep your hold through the tremors of your hands. You had to focus, you could take advantage of this. âWhy politicians? What happened to you?â
âPersonal grudge.â
âHow do you get their data so fast?â
âI know a guyâ He knew a guy?
âSo you have a partner?â
âI wouldnât worry about it.â
âWhy not?â
âItâs no one of importance.â Sibling, maybe?
âItâs important to me.â
He chuckled at that. You needed to hang up.
âY/n-â Could he sense your fucking muscles tensing? âDonât tell your friends.â He could hear your heartbeat from where he was, you were sure of it.Â
âWhy?â You were instantaneous, barely letting him finish before responding. âYou gonna hurt me?â
âNo.â He scoffed. âIf you tell them, Iâll have to stop reaching out.â You swore you could feel the weight of his eyes on you. âIs that really something you want?â Cold sweat pierced through the skin on the back of your neck. You yanked the phone down from your ear and hung up.Â
No, it wasnât.Â
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You dreadfully greeted the sun as it peeked through the slits of your blinds. Youâd slept maybe a half hour in total last night, sleeping in five minute increments while bearing through a paranoid haze only comparable to the first time youâd smoked weed. The world felt unreachable. You could see it like a screen but your true consciousness sat captive in his hands. Heâd known you. That was the fact stuck in your throat, thatâs why you couldnât sleep. Does that mean you knew him?
âJesus.â If you had to guess, the sight of your sunken eyes and hunched shoulders was the trigger for Morganâs reaction to the sight of you. Walking into work wasnât going to be fun, you knew that, but you hadnât expected such an immediate acknowledgement. âSomeone have a rough night?â
You wished you could banter with him. Morgan always made working here feel lighter, he was fun to be around, but you were guilty. If you were tired from a one-night, insomnia, even if you were drunk and puking your guts up all night, you would have joked back with him. Now, you had to force yourself to make eye contact. A childish part of your brain was scared he'd smell it on you. At this point, you were fraternizing with the enemy, and itâs repercussions were draped over you like a curtain. âCouldnât sleep.â
âClearly.â He handed you a mug of coffee. âIs it the case? If itâs bugging you that much, one of us can stay with you for a couple nights. Itâs no trouble.â
âNo, Morgan, thatâs not necessary.â He was so kind it was nearly suffocating. If someone stayed, he either wouldnât call or youâd have to decline it. Both of those options making an uncomfortable amount of unease stir inside you. âI appreciate it, but Iâll be fine.âÂ
âJust tell me if you need anything.â He nodded at you, you nodded back, then you both headed into the conference room.Â
âAny leads?â You walked to your seat as you asked, unsure what you were hoping to receive as an answer.
âNone.â Everyone else was gathered around the table, Hotch scanning through the file as he replied to you.
âWeâve pretty much ruled out the media workers.â Prentiss spoke up. âThis guyâs most likely an anarchist. His previous victims havenât belonged to a consistent party so heâs not lashing out at the opposing side.â She thought for a moment. âWhat path leads somebody to anarchy?â
âMaybe heâs been kept out of office.â Morgan started speculating, just trying to sweep together something they could pin to him. âIf heâs been running long enough, maybe he gets angry, changes course. He could be jealous of his targets.âÂ
Your brain was half focused on the case, half focused on him. Two sides of you were fighting, one instilling a sort of protectiveness over him, one howling at you to do your fucking job.Â
âI donât think heâs an anarchist.â You leaned forward in your chair, revving up to present your theory. âHeâs been described in the same outfit for every victim. Long Sleeve, cargo pants, gloves and a ski mask - all black. Thatâs as minimal as it gets. Some pretty low income areas are well within his safe zone.â You paused, looking around to see if they were understanding what you were getting at.
âHeâs poor.â Hotch had a glint in his eyes. Almost.Â
âSo - what?â Morgan prompted. âHeâs doing this for money? This is way too elaborate for somebody needing cash.â He shook his head as he spoke. âHotch, there was evidence of Scopolamine injections. A man who either knows how to make the chemical or already has enough money to buy it wouldnât be in a position that warrants this. Plus, the kind of tech it would take to get the information he steals? Way more than your typical Best Buy - this is Garcia level stuff. He injects them and probably forces them to help with the robbing, he beats them senseless - heâs getting some kind of kick out of this.â
âHeâs not poorâ You concluded. âBut Iâm pretty sure he used to be.â You sat up straighter to elaborate. âA lot of times, kids who grow up homeless or with no money feel wronged by politicians. Here they are going to school hungry while the mayor rolls in cash and lets them bear the consequences of a put-off promise to help the community.â
Prentiss sat back in her chair as she considered your words. âTo build this type of anger, though? This is a vendetta.â She glanced down at the crime scene photos as a reminder.Â
âExactly. Anger is expected in normal cases. Something extreme clearly had to happen to explain this type of outburst.â Personal grudge, you remembered him saying. You felt like you were airing out his secrets as you spoke. A weak sense of betrayal tugged at your guts. âIâve been thinking about this a lot, going over what type of event could cause something like this and I think I have an idea.â You pulled out your phone while talking to call Garcia, the woman answering immediately.
âGarcia, can you look up children in the Quantico to DC area who died from complications with chronic illness? Probably late 90âs to early 2000âs, I donât think our guy is old enough to have been running for office.âÂ
âThatâs gonna be a large list. Any more parameters you can give me?â
âLook for families making less than 20,000 a year.âÂ
âGot it. There were three families making under 20,000 that reported losing a child of illness. One was of stage 4 cancer with no plausible recovery and the other two said they couldnât afford the medication needed for treatment. I just sent them over.â
âYouâre the best.âÂ
âDonât I know it.â You hung up the phone, pulling up the files she found.
âWhat exactly are we looking for here?â Morgan looked to you.
âWe can rule out the first family. Dying of cancer wouldnât create the effect needed for our unsub.â He looked like he was about to reiterate his question. âWhat weâre looking for is a sibling. If your family is struggling, you already have the seed of anger that this guy has. I think a family member dying from the lack of money might just give him the motive he needs.â
âThatâs good thinking, he could be avenging someone.â Praise from Hotch always felt better than others. âThe Bryson family was just the mother and the daughter who died. She worked in janitorial for the local middle school.â
âDoesnât exactly fit the profile.â Morgan was right, all the testimonies had described a man. Plus the assumption of decent financial prosperity didnât fit someone still working at a middle school.
âWho does that leave?â You were searching for the answer to your question, but Prentiss was quicker.
âDiana Reid and her two sons. Henry had type 1, seems like they could afford the insulin for a little while but something must have happened. He went into DKA and died a week later.â
Two sons. âWhat about his brother?â
âUhhhh-â She scrolled down on her tablet. âThat would be one Spencer Reid whoâŚâ She scrolled just a little bit further to find the whereabouts of the man, the hope in her eyes snuffing out with the information she read. âis dead. Says he committed suicide a couple years after his brother died.â The whole table deflated a bit as she said that.
âIt was a good idea.â Hotch, despite being a monotone man, usually tried to keep things optimistic. âWeâll continue pursuing that angle. Morgan and Prentiss, I want you to go back to the first crime scene. Iâll call Dave and weâll head to the latest.â The mentioned agents nodded their heads and started making their way out the door.Â
Your eyebrows furrowed at your lack of instruction. âAnd me, sir?â
âGo home.â He looked you over for a moment. âYou look like hell.â Then he was gone, calling Rossi on his way out. How mortifying.
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It had been three days since Hotchâs dismissal of you. You managed to get some sleep, convincing your co-workers of normalcy when you went back into the office the next day. In truth, you were anything but. You had been noticeably distracted but the others chose not to mention it until it hindered your performance, which it had yet to do. You were on a timer, counting down the seconds until your next call with him. You seemed to be endlessly tugged back and forth between excitement and pure dread. Everytime you got home, you took a moment to stare at your phone, almost like you could will him to call if you glared at it long enough. The day was just shy of a week since his last attack, and you were nervous as hell. Your phone buzzed once, then it buzzed again. He was calling.Â
âYouâre early.â You didnât find it fitting to greet him. You knew who it was, why be friendly? âIs there another one?â
âRelax, honey.â His voice lit a fire in you. Jesus. âI didnât know I was only permitted one call a week.â
âWhat are you playing at?â You tried to sound sturdy, but your voice hit your ears with more desperation than youâd ever expressed.Â
âI could ask you the same.â You could hear the tilt in his words, he was so sure of what he was doing. âYou didnât tell them about us.â
âHow would you know?â
âIâm not in cuffs, am I?â
âYou think weâd catch you if I told them?â Was it your fault he was still free?
âNo.â
âMaybe theyâre listening.â
âMaybe.â He was so unbothered by the notion. You were never a good bluffer.
âIt wouldnât bother you?â You narrowed your eyes at nothing, staring at your wall as you tried to read him through the phone.
âYou could bring in the whole nation, Y/n.â You listened more intently than you ever had. âIt wouldnât keep me from you.â You felt like you were choking on your own heart, feeling it beat at the confines of your throat. Jesus Christ.
âDo you know where I live?â Your lips were too weak to hold back the question. Itâd been the only thing on your mind since the first note had been left on your car.
âWhy?â His smile bled into his words. âAre you inviting me over?â
âAnswer the question.â
âWhy donât you answer a question of mine?â He was so intentional, his MO proudly showing in the way he spoke to you. âHaywood or Clancy?â
âAre those your actual choices?â You tried to analyze him, justifying your actions with the ruse of investigation. Heâd tell you more if he wasnât monitored. âOr are you trying to throw me off your trail?â It was certainly plausible. Get you running after two men not of interest, leaving his real victim neglected by your team.Â
He laughed, breathy and soft. âI donât know.â You could almost picture him tilting his head, faceless and so enticing in your imagination. âPick one for me. Maybe Iâll do him next in your honor.âÂ
âWhat do you know about honor?â
âEverything I do is about honor.â What did that mean?
âThe only thing that would honor me is you turning yourself in.â
âWhat do you know about honor, agent?â His voice was taunting, you heard his body shift. âWhat do you think that team of yours would think about us, hm? Those are their words, not yours. Youâre the one whoâs waiting on calls from the enemy.â Shock paralyzed your tongue. You felt your head pulse with the blood rushing to your ears. âYou donât have to be guilty about wanting it, honey. You donât fit with them.âÂ
âAs opposed to what? Fitting with you?â
He chuckled. âYouâve thought about it.â
âNightmares, maybe.âÂ
âThatâs the angle you're going with?â He saw through you. âIf you dreamt of me, I doubt they were nightmares.âÂ
âYou didnât answer my question.âÂ
âI donât know where you are.â You didnât feel relieved. âI have no interest in hurting or robbing you. Why would I want your address?.â
You slipped your hand under your shirt to trace the scar across your chest. Gift from the accident, now a nervous habit of yours. âWhat do you want?â God, you were a broken record.
âIt doesnât matter what I want, Y/n.â You could barely hear him over the thrum of blood in your veins. Your entire body felt tuned into his words. Youâd never felt so far away while connected. âOnly what I can do.â
âYou take everything from them. More than just money. Clearly you lost something.â You were so sick of asking this question but you were getting farther from the answer with every conversation. âWhy are you doing this?â
âThey made the first move.â Jesus what did they do to this guy? âIâm not the bad guy, honey. Iâm just defending my side.âÂ
âThis isnât a game.â
âIt might as well be.â He was quick with his responses. âItâs all the same to men like them.â You stayed quiet for a moment. How did you reply to something like that? âGet some sleep. Itâs late.â
âGive me less crime scenes to look at and maybe Iâll sleep more.â
He smiled, you could hear it in his tone. âEvery mean has an end, agent.â You held your breath, and as if gaining consciousness, you hung up the phone. You felt the brick of the encounter sit heavy in your stomach. He wasnât lying. You were guilty, and you wanted it beyond belief.Â
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Youâd talked to him four more times over the past two weeks. Thereâd been two more victims corresponding with those calls, continuing his routine of a new one each week. Your understanding of your feelings had become less hazy as you talked to him more. Your guilt wasnât from withholding information from your team, it was from the fact you wanted to. It stemmed from your instinctual desire to keep him to yourself. Let him exist differently in your home life than he did in your work life. It was difficult keeping something from profilers. It made you feel worse that they definitely knew something was up, but chose not to push it because they trusted you. Did this truly make you untrustworthy? You were only human.Â
Youâd spent what was meant to be your day off at the BAU working. When there was a case like this, rest time seemed to take the backseat. You were drained, more emotionally than physically. You were lying to your friends, but truly, you didnât know how deeply you considered them friends. They were good people, easy to like and easy to work with. You were starting to wonder if that's where it stopped, though. Everything about their company was easy, but it lacked gratification. His company was hard on you, but it was so rewarding, so filled with feeling that you started to wonder what your morals even were. You wouldnât find them here, you thought. You certainly tried. You stared into the chipped white paint aging poorly on the brick wall of the bar as if the pigment of the words would organize your thoughts better than your malfunctioning mind could. The liquid in your glass was nearing itâs end. The drink had loosened your joints, loosened your mind. You hadnât come here to get drunk, you were basically still sober, you just needed the warmth of a drink. There was a certain coldness within you, there had been since the accident. You accredit the feeling with driving away any potential love interests of yours. There was always a sense of being stuck, like you were interrupted in the middle of moving on, and never fully got to close the chapter. This wasnât hard for others to sense. You were as emotionally nonreciprocal and unresponsive as a corpse.
âMind if I join you?â A man whoâd immediately caught your eye upon entrance gestured to the barstool next to you.
You motioned to it. âPlease.â A casual invitation. You didnât know how to talk to random men in bars. You took a good look at him, something subconscious stirring beneath your skin. The minimal buzz of the drink you had making you write it off, preferring the focus of his eyes on yours.Â
âWhatâs your name?â The smoothness of his voice could have rivaled the most expensive whiskey in that place.Â
You told him your name. He nodded, murmuring a âprettyâ under his breath as he took a sip from his glass.Â
âIâm Matthew.âÂ
âPretty.â You reiterated, raising your eyebrows slightly as you joked. He chuckled, and you asked if he was new to the area.Â
âIâm a local, actually. I grew up here, surprisingly never been to this bar, though.â
âReally? I grew up around here too. This place is old as dust, been here forever.â You looked down, finishing the last of your drink.Â
âI know. Iâve wanted to come here for a while because itâs so old.â Something about him was so off putting but so irresistible. Youâd never encountered such an uncomfortable concoction. It was intoxicating. âI lost the knack for drinking I had in my teen years. Back then my friends and me would just buy a 12 pack and get drunk in the field on Fromage.âÂ
You lacked the memories to know if you related to the man, but you werenât going to delve into why and kill the mood, so you lied. âThat field used to scare the shit out of me. Everyone at my school said there were bodies out there.âÂ
His eyes held a certain glint in them when he looked at you, his lips perked up at the edges slightly, if you hadnât been a profiler you might have missed it. âReally?â Maybe you imagined it all, that or he caught on to you, the look leaving his eyes after lingering for a moment. The slight promise of something more sinister pulsed throughout them. The hairs on your arm were standing. âMine said the same thing.â He smiled, looking away, shaking his head fondly as he remembered. âMy school was full of dumbasses though so I never really took it seriously.â And you laughed.Â
You laughed a lot throughout the time you sat there with him. A few hours, youâd guess. He lowered your guard so easily, walking leisurely through the gates of you. Youâd practically rolled out the red carpet for him. You wondered if he could see how easily he got in, how much you welcomed the feel of him in your veins. He didnât seem to mind if he could. When heâd wanted to take you home, your lips parted, and you said youâd like that. You donât really remember driving, knowing one of you did, both of you sober by the time youâd left. Heâd been so gentle, so all-consuming. Heâd run his thumbs along the scars he encountered, punctuating the sensation with his lips following close after. Mumbling praises against your skin and rhetorically asking âdoes that feel good, honey?â as your legs shook around him. He melted you down to pure liquid gold with just his touch, knowing exactly how to map you out. Youâd felt him everywhere, his fingers burning their respective shadows on your skin, seeping slowly into your soul to leave marks there too. Heâd felt so safe, the pure want joining the two of you together. A euphoric distraction from all the disaster youâd let befall you. He was gone before you woke up the next morning, but you saw him in your shadow, felt him in the soreness of your legs. Heâd been a deviation, something put in your path to confuse you. What a brutal fucking night.
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The same day, youâd gone to work, gone home, and then ended up back at the BAU an hour later. There had been another victim. Two days early. This was his eighth, and up until now he hadnât strayed from his weekly pattern. This was a bad sign, if he was ramping up, who knows how many more he wanted to hit. The story had stayed the same, and that night you were arresting another board member, this time for solid ties to human trafficking. He really knew how to pick them. Youâd give him that, at least.
The meeting post-arrest basically just shared what you were all thinking. He was ramping up, and you were getting no closer to catching him. Stating the obvious was doing nothing but wasting time. He was good. One of the best youâd ever seen. Nobody really knew what to do at this point. You watched their faces get more and more helpless and you felt bad. Nothing in your calls with the man would have helped you solve this case, you were almost positive. Any aspect that could have helped was one you explored.Â
Emily had said the name âSpencer Reidâ and the way your stomach lurched made you feel like you had to be onto something. Youâd never had such an intense gut feeling about something only for it to be absolutely impossible. You hadnât told them, but you looked more into him. His death was an easy one to fake. As much as you hated speculating on what could very well have been just a heartbroken boy, you couldnât deny the theory you were building. His mother had found a suicide note, they hauled a body out of the river a month later and just assigned Spencerâs name to it, marking it down as conclusive. You werenât convinced.
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You got home within the hour, locking the door and pulling out your phone. You hadnât called him before, but it was the same number every time, and you needed to talk. The phone rang so long you were almost sure he wouldnât pick up. Almost.
âY/n.â He greeted you. âThis is new.âÂ
âYou broke your pattern.â You started with the topic at hand. âWhy did you do that?â
You heard a chair squeak slightly as he leaned back. âWhat can I say? You being so interested gave me some extra motivation.â
âInterested?â What the fuck was he talking about? âThis isnât - Iâm not fucking interested in anything. Youâre a criminal.â You were slightly out of breath. When you lied to him, no matter how small the lie, air seemed to gain a disinterest in staying within your lungs.
âMhm.â He was smug. That wasnât a good sign. âI donât believe that. You seemed pretty interested last night.âÂ
He had pulled a lever, and your stomach dropped to your shoes. âThat was you?â You sounded as defeated as you felt. Your eyes were watering from the pure shock, feeling the drop of the bomb shake you down to your core.Â
âYou kept tracing that scar on your chest, you know that?â You hadnât known that. âAlmost like you could feel it.â Feel what? He didnât elaborate. âYou sounded so pretty when I touched it, when I kissed you. Been thinking about it all day.â He was breathy, sounding like he was trying to put himself back in it as he spoke.Â
You steadied yourself before you opened your mouth. âYou lied to me.â
âIâve never lied to you.â He sighed. âYou lied to me, though.â You hadnât imagined it. âThat field used to scare you?â He laughed slightly. âYou were the one who told me about it. Took me over there once to look at the moon in the back of your dadâs pickup.âÂ
God, this was frustrating. âWho are you?â The tears were dancing the border of your eyes, begging to run down your cheeks. âI knew you?â
âYou know me.â He was so sure of it. âIâm still in there. Everything is.â
You had to ask, at this point you were near certain of it. âSpencer?â
He sighed, relief intertwining with his words. âThere she is.â It was such a soft delivery, the moment he took before replying had you wondering if youâd said anything at all.
What kind of situation even was this? âIs this about your brother?â
âYou know, when we were younger, my mother knew the mayor. He used to babysit my brother and me when she worked nights.â His tone was humorous, bitter, like he couldnât believe the stupidity of what he was explaining. âI listened to him promise us he would change the community when he got the time. Get us a house with more than one bedroom, get us into a school system deserving of us. He used to call me a genius.â He scoffed at the thought. âThen my mom couldnât afford the insulin, and he let my brother die.â
You didnât know what to say. âIâm sorry.â
âThe payments wouldnât have even made a dent in his pockets.â You could visualize him, alone in a room somewhere, that familiar crease between his eyebrows as he talked. You were going to be sick, you thought. âOne man for every year my brother got to live. Seems only fair.â
âTwo more to go, then?â You couldnât identify a single thought in your head. All of them speeding past you like bullets before you could latch onto one. âIs it helping?â
âYeah.â He sniffled, quiet and subdued. âIt is.â
âI - umâ A tear finally fell, breaking the dam. You wiped it away quickly, two more taking itâs place almost immediately âI have to go.â
âY/n-â but you were gone already. You put your hand over your mouth, laughing into it slightly at the absurdity of your situation and sobbing into a moment later as you took the cold plunge into reality. You texted your parents, knowing they were asleep, asking if you could swing by when they woke up. If anyone would know something, it was them, and you had every intention of shaking them down to find out exactly how youâd known the man. You had to know. You spent the night preparing the questions youâd ask and trying to fall asleep. You were almost paralyzed with the weight of him on you. There was no getting out of it now.
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The outside of this house always felt alien. You knew youâd grown up here, but it lacked any sense of home. You wondered as you stood out front how much Spencer had to have meant to leave more of a mark than the place you spent your first 18 years in. The sun was nearing itâs peak in the sky, it was almost noon. Your parents had texted back at eight am, worried and eager to know what was wrong, eager to see you. Youâd fallen asleep barely an hour before that, waking up at eleven and quickly getting ready after seeing the text. You were scared. These were practically strangers to you, and you were betting an ungodly amount on them. Thatâs not fair, you thought. But honestly, nothing was fair, and you calmed your guilt with promise of filling the void in your gut. You broke your staring contest with the front door and leaned forward to knock, the thing opening almost immediately.Â
âHey.â You spoke before they did. You found that being the first to talk usually decreased the amount of warmth in their greetings. âItâs good to see you guys. Thank you for having me, I know my texts were sort of alarming. I just needed to talk about something.â You held eye contact to the best of your ability. They brought out a deep feeling of shame, knowing they didnât blame you for the distance but still being responsible for it nonetheless.Â
âOf course.â Your mother talked while your father looked down. âItâs good to see you too. Come in, please.â Your father broke from her side to go sit down, while your mother opened the door to usher you in. You stepped forward, nodding at her in thanks as you passed her, joining your father where he sat.
âUmâŚâ You faced both of them as your mom took the place by his side. How did you even start this? âWell, in a case Iâve been working on, somebody came up.â You couldnât tell them he was alive. âAnd he justâŚseemed familiar, I guess. Did I know a boy named Spencer Reid growing up?â You watched the sparks of recognition ignite in their eyes as you said the name. Your motherâs grew teary, while your fatherâs seemed to harden.Â
âKnew him?â Your mother chuckled at the thought of it being so simple. âYou two were more in love than your father and I.â She rolled her eyes as she held your fatherâs arm, the man laughing lightly at her words.
 âHe was the first friend you talked about. I remember picking you up from the first day of kindergarten and listening to you rave about the boy who was âsmarter than the teacherâ.â Her tone got lighter at the end, seemingly trying to imitate the excitement of your adolescent self. âYou two were always close, you know?â She seemed to remember him fondly. âWhen you got older, you would get so defensive if I asked after him so eventually I stopped. But I knew. I knew you two would end up together from your first playdate.â She was on the verge of tears, giggling at her own words as the stories she told surrounded her, smiling at the past.Â
âHis family really struggled. Such a sweet kid, him and his brother both. They were over here a lot.â Your father took the role of speaker as your motherâs emotions got the better of her. âWe went back and forth for a while after the accident on whether to tell you or not. It just seemed cruel to. He died the night before you got hit, and you were such a wreck we just -â He struggled to find the words. âWe considered it a blessing you didnât remember him.â Your fatherâs guilt was apparent, twisting his features slowly as he explained their choices. âYou were so in love, sweetheart. You didnât know who he was when you woke up and we figured, you know, whatâs the point? When the only thing that could come from it was pain, it just seemed futile.âÂ
You donât think you blinked the entire time they were talking to you. You only knew you were crying when your vision went blurry, completely neglecting the beading of tears down your cheeks. You remembered the day your mother was talking about, seeing the children you once were illustrate the world in front of you. You could almost see his face, how it would have looked when he died, how he used to look at you. Like he was staring at the universeâs secrets, easing his hands through the veil to touch them - to touch you. You remember the feeling he gave you, something warm and distinct, reserved for the two of you only. If you could have seen yourself in the moments you shared, youâre sure you would have worn the same look in your eyes.Â
You started speaking, but couldnât manage much. âYes, yeah, youâre right.â Reassurance usually worked well. âIt was aâŚa good call.â You had trouble with your words, remembering the feelings of him but lacking the visuals. âDo you have any pictures?â Your mother nodded in response, detaching from your dad and going to retrieve something that held the memories you sought.Â
âIâm-â Your dad started. âWeâre sorry.â
You shook your head. Your parents were the last people who owed an apology. âItâs ok, dad. Iâm glad you did it.â
âI could never myself look back at these. Thinking about what happened to them I justâŚI can never look at them knowing theyâre gone.â Your mother re-entered the room holding a camera, dark pink and cheap. âIt was meant to document your childhood, but he was around so much, itâs basically just a compilation of you guys.â
You held the thing in your hands. It was everything you wanted to happen but you couldnât force your fingers to move. Did you even want this? He was alive, sure, but youâre certain the boy next to you in these photos would never see the light of day again. All your birthdays for thirteen years, field trips, science fairs, even just the two of you sitting together reading. It was all here. All consumable. You felt the urge to boil them down and burn your skin with the residue. Anything to keep a semblance of this life with you. You had a right to them, they were yours. Your teeth clenched at the sting of the absence. He had been yours and you couldnât even remember. âCan I keep this?â
âOf course.â Youâre sure the thoughts in your head were obvious to them, spinning like a cyclone in your eyes zoning out on the camera. âIâve thought about giving it to you for a while now anyway.â
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Theyâd made you lunch, then dinner. They told you tales of your past and you let them glance into your present. It was dark by the time you left, setting the goal to talk with them more. You walked to your car, having parked down the street, and tried to shake yourself out of the trance that house put you in. You thought you were seeing things at first, squinting slightly to focus on the chunk of passenger door that was shrouded with out of place darkness. Someone was leaning against your car. You didnât feel defensive.Â
âSpencer?â
âHey.â He pushed off the door and walked closer to you, facing you on the sidewalk. You could see him now, lit up by a streetlight. He took you in, too. Glancing at your hand and grinning. âI remember that thing.â You had forgotten you were holding the camera until now.Â
âWhy didnât you just tell me?â
âI donât know, honey.â He shrugged, matching your exhaustion at the situation. âI guess I wanted to see how much you remembered.â He looked at you, his eyes just as bright as theyâd been a decade ago. âHow much I could make you remember.â
You sighed. God, if only it worked that way. âDo you want to-â What the fuck were you thinking? âDo you want to come over?â Youâd looked through every picture on that camera. You missed him. You missed him in your space, on your bed, waiting for you at the bus stop. That knot of feeling stuck only wanted to unravel if it were his hands tugging at it. âI can drive us.â
He raised his eyebrows, surprise blending seamlessly with the undiluted hope he carried as a kid. âOk.â He smiled, just a tiny lift at the corners of his lips. The image of that smile resting on his teenage face struck you so violently you felt it in your bones. You looked at him, starstruck. His presence was a trance of itâs own.Â
âOk.â You repeated him, trying to elongate the moment. You werenât sure when youâd be ready to look away. Heâd have to move first, and he knew it, so he walked to the passenger door. You blinked, grounding yourself, and unlocked the car.Â
You were preparing for an awkward car ride, but clearly your subconscious was more than familiar with him, being silent with him came as second nature to you. You took the long way back to your house, trying to enjoy the comfortability as long as you could. He added an elevation to your existence that you hadnât been aware you were lacking. You pulled into your driveway ten minutes later, parking and turning off the car.Â
âDid you really not know where I lived?â
âNo.â He was looking out your windshield, taking in the sight of where you felt safest. âI meant what I said. I never needed to.Â
You walked into the house first, hearing him shut the door softly behind him. Youâd been listening to see how heâd close it, not sure what it would tell you, but deeming it important regardless. Heâd been nothing but respectful of your space both times heâd been here. You sat down, nodding your head to the chair near you.Â
He let a moment pass, waiting to see if you had something to say. You had too much to say, too much to articulate. âI want you to leave with me.â
âSpencer-â
âDonât.â His eyes were pleading, glistening with his unique mix of hunger and control. âDonât write me off, Y/n. Nobody would know. Theyâre not gonna catch me. You can quit, and we can leave.â You looked away, down towards your hands. âDonât act like you havenât thought about it.â It was all youâd been thinking about. Usually in dreams - obviously your mind was more up to date than you were. You were going to do it, you thought. Of course you were. You looked at him and knew youâd go anywhere he asked you to. Still, though, you had a life. One you needed time to wrap up before you could leave it. You were a federal agent, if you went missing, theyâd send the entire nation to step on your heels.Â
âCan I think about it?
He looked at you, suppressing a smile and tilting his head slightly. âSure, honey.â He could read you so easily. Heâd known he had you from the moment he asked. âIâve still got two more.â The burning in your stomach wasnât a resistance to the words. It was an admiration, a feeling you could wallow in. You werenât an opposing force to him. Had you ever been? Truly?
âWhat happens if I donât go?â
His eye contact had a way of transferring, enveloping any part of you it could reach. You were testing him. âDonât force my hand, Y/n.â
You didnât plan on finding out what that meant.
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Hi Iâve been watching Hazbin Hotel and I found your blog which is amazing by the way , and I was wondering what are your thoughts on yandere Alastor ?
Thanks babe! ^^ so i was discussing this with someone recently and, to avoid doing that thing where I have too any concepts on the same post, I'm going to stick with a specific idea I've had of him recently which I will call "canon accurate yandere Alastor"
imma be honest and say this version would fucking suck depending on your preferences because he
-doesn't love you romantically and doesn't let YOU date
-doesn't wanna fuck you either AND DOESN'T LET YOU FUCK ANYONE ELSE EITHER
-probably does not consider you an equal by any means, like he considers you a good friend and you're charming and lovely and whatever, but he sees you like.... you'd be puking into a trashcan and he's the one holding your hair back, "now see my dear, this is why you shouldn't go out drinking without a proper escort~" like there's a vague layer of condescension and there's a huge massive power balance and experience balance between you two
Like. He's. He's kind of condescendingly cunty to you, he's vaguely looking at you with the energy of "MacKenzie oh my gosh MacKenzie you're so drunk, you're wasted, oh my god let me drive you home, no girl I'm taking your keys, you're too--" like do you get what I mean? He's a traditional gentleman and he comes along and uh, he thinks he sees this raw potential and charm inside of you that he thinks is being wasted by your modern lifestyle which can literally include
- your diet
-your tech use or what you use from day to day
- how you dress
-how you TALK
-how you spend your time
-who you hang out with
Just picture he meets you, you catch his eye, maybe you're at the hotel, and he's entertained by your sarcastic witty replies to his antics that maybe even get a chuckle out of him. You're a spitfire and he likes that!
.... and then the next time he sees you you're like vaping weed from a pen, looking at him with half lidded eyes, playing a game on your phone, too scattered to fully hold a conversation with him, to focus, to be as entertaining to him as before, and he's grinding the teeth in his smile, "oh no, this won't do at all", especially when he sees negative affects such maybe you're watching things he doesn't approve of or you're being harassed idk
I feel like since Alastor canonically drinks and is quite a heavyweight apparently, he wouldn't mind his darling drinking, but he would definitely control how much after a while. If you get too wasted in front of him too many times, he'll completely cut you off. Folks are you aware that getting too drunk can cause an alcohol induced panic attack that can literally take away your ability to move your hands and arms and make your mouth numb. I found this out recently :) whoops. And I feel like Alastor sees that shit and you'd have to EARN HIS TRUST for him to let you drink again and uh, I don't think that's possible
You're kind of like a bestie but you're also like a toy he's playing with and he doesn't like to share. He'll drag you away from doing other things with other people, especially if he doesn't approve of what you're doing and or with whom. He basically views you dating other people as lowering yourself to people who are beneath you and would only want you to give yourself to someone who deserves you, and he doesn't think ANYONE deserves you except him, and he DOESNT LIKE YOU THAT WAY so the man is just like FORCING CELIBACY ON YOU. Like have you ever seen videos of people taking their domesticated lovely groomed pets outdoors and like a stray or even wild animal version of it comes along to. Hump. And the owner is freaking out, "get the fuck AWAY I don't know where you've been" or at least Should? THAT'S Alastor watching 'other people trying to predate upon you' aka YOU trying to get laid or date
You'll be cooking something and he'll come up and try some without asking, "Hah! This is terrible!" and either watch you so he can tell you what he thinks you did wrong once the dish is finished or he takes over and asserts that he wants to show you to do it "the proper way!" and if you're female he potentially inserts a comment about how as a lovely lady you should know your way around a kitchen (in like a positive "I'll show you so you can know for yourself" way but like the underlying misogyny is there lol)
He'll take you out drinking and dancing but don't you dare let him catch you throwing it back or being mildly sexual, or he'll immediately tell you you've had too much to drink and take you home and you two spend the rest of the night like drinking tea listening to the radio, reading books, or watching old timey TV.
Lastly... I can absolutely see Alastor making some kind of deal with his darling for their soul. He CAN do that (and I think technically anyone in Hell can deal with souls, it's apparently part of the becoming an Overlord process). But I can just see him taking his darling's soul in exchange for anything, it might be really small, it might be really important, but he sees it as safeguarding your beautiful lovely little soul from anyone else who might take it. It truly is like THE HIGHEST FORM OF OWNING YOU, CONTROLLING YOU. It's all according to whatever is in the deal, but I'm sure there's other basic caveats you get... like him being able to summon you at will if you agree to it so he's randomly yanking you away from other people or tracking you when he doesn't know when you are.... or restraining you so you stop running away from him and running out on the town to act so... vulgar
#yandere hellaverse#yandere x reader#yandere hazbin hotel#alastor x reader#yandere alastor#hh#sinprompts#i miss using italics :( tumblr mobile has made using italics a nightmare
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