#idk if I’m neurotypical or not
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My neurotypical ass would be broke if you sold these omg
if you ever made keychains of the pirate crew id buy 10 of each.. love it so much i come back to look at it like daily
Dawg tysm…I made standees already and I'm tryin to make keychains w magnet on their hand with the dancing ones so you can stick two or em together, if you want a peek at standee:
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It is generally kind of disheartening to try and have any sort of conversation about race on this website that leaves room for actual emotion instead of, like, an explicit, straightforward explanation of a concept intended for white audiences to listen and learn from. Even those conversations are hard. I guess it’s because tumblr has a predominantly white userbase but seeing themes of race, culture, disconnection, and assimilation go over so many peoples heads or be confidently misinterpreted as themes of gender, sexuality, or neurodivergence over and over can feel really isolating and discouraging. I get that a lot of people just don’t have the personal experience to connect to those themes, but failing to recognize that they exist in a work entirely makes me kind of sad as a creator, and is a lot of the reason I don’t post on here so much anymore
#idk it feels sometimes like white audiences#can recognize that being gay or trans or neurodivergent etc comes with unique emotional experiences#not just statistical experiences or hypothetical experiences or social studies class experiences#but deeply personal emotional ones#I get it I’m not cis or neurotypical or straight either#but I’m also not white#and that comes with exactly the same things#yet it feels like in order for white audiences to understand that#I have to say exactly what’s happened to me and why and point out what social injustice caused it and cite my sources at the end#because just writing poetry or making art doesn’t connect. it feels really lonely
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One of the worst parts about being chronically ill is that it impacts your ability to work and function like non chronically ill people do. Because of this, it also impacts your financial stability and makes you feel inferior and as though you’re a burden to loved ones.
#I know no one here cares bc it’s just the Internet and I’m just a stranger but fuck I’m so sad and feel like I’m grieving the fact#that I’ll never be neurotypical and now I’ll never be fully healthy#I feel so alone and like such a burden#all I want is to be able to afford my bills and groceries and maybe travel home to seen my family and I can’t do that :(#idk I just really am having thoughts of relapsing (I won’t) but what’s the point?? I’m always going to be ill#negative tw
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tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things
#sounds kinda obvious but i only just realized it lmao#feels like i have to grieve a lot of my goals now but no one said the healing process would be easy#danbles#and for anyone else that has a disability that prevents them from doing smth#or trauma that makes certain triggers limit their opportunities#or neurotypes that make it harder for them to love smth like they used to#or whatever else#i don’t want to make it sound like you have to give up on the things that make you happy#I’M certainly not going to#but a huge value of mine has always been experiencing everything life had to offer#and everytime that backfires (whether it’s burnout; triggering a flashback; triggering an episode; putting strain on my body; etc)#i always just thought to myself ‘it was bad timing’ or ‘i haven’t gotten better yet’ bc the endgoal was to always get to that point where#i could experience it. i want to try new things all the time. i want to feel normal and be included in everything#but if smth keeps Making Me Feel Bad then maybe there isn’t a version of myself that can take it on#it’s not resilience to put yourself in harm’s way#idk how well i’ll be able to put this into practice tbh. i rly rly like exploring different experiences#even negative ones are valuable to me#but the least i can do for myself is recognize that i might not always be the problem#maybe i’ve already hit the limit on all the self-work i can do. maybe it’s the environment or situation itself that’s the problem#fuuck guys i feel like i’m going thru a stage of grief here why is this shit so hard 💀
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I was beginning my hiatus but something happend and i need to vent. it just seems like people know your socially anxious and will take advantage to bully you, talk behind your back, etc. they know I won’t step up. The moment you come across as different or have nothing to offer them they will stab you in the back. I already hate myself. I don’t have good socializing skills and am socially awkward and I’m scared to socialize because of that, and i don’t have an ideal appearance. People only tolerate me if i make them laugh or offer material things. I already battle self destructive thoughts everyday. I don’t like neurotypicals or people that bully people like me. It feels like I will never have a mask good enough for these people,,, one of the reasons i want to become good at art is so people can finally say that like something about me since i know socializing and trusting people not to stab you in the back isn’t an option. I don’t know anymore.
#cw vent#tw vent#anyways back to hiatus :(#i want to make friends but everything feels like a risk#idk i hope im exaggerating and nothing is actually wrong but i doubt it#I’ll get over it though I just feel angry I’m crying#i wish i was neurotypical so bad sometimes I can’t take this anymore I just want to be normal#if your a neurodivergent who wants friends you gotta pay friend rent or mask so good they’ll ignore the rent
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well fellas it’s happening i think i am maybe developing a crush on the girl ive been fucking recently 🫥
#the first person who i’ve felt even an inkling of a romantic feeling towards in over a year and of course it’s a fucking pisces#(i do not believe in astrology but i really need to believe in astrology rn for intricate rituals reasons😭)#anyways i feel a little bit insane and i don’t know what i want or what i should say and i genuinely GENUINELY genuinely. genuinely feel lik#e kara in all of the yearny supercorp fan fics#AND ALSO. i am a deeply weird autistic community college student and at the same age she is a neurotypical very very functional phd student#with a real job and a real apartment and a real life and a real future i feel so Unworthy of her lol. i’m good at making her come i love tsk#ing care of her but outside of sex i do not know what i have to offer bc i don’t know if my autistic whimsy personality works on neurotypica#ls. like i have yet to figure out if she likes me as a person or tolerates me bc i am oddly enough really good at fucking her idk.#ALSO . what even is a romantic relationship#like as is we go on cute excursions and fuck. what is the difference btw that and dating except monogamy and even that’s not necessarily a t#hing yk?????#AHHHHHHHHH like in my brain the difference btw romantic and fuck buddies is do you have long term intentions and no we don’t we’re in our 20#s we’re students neither of us is out here looking for a whole ass wife so what is the POINT of these feelings#bc like how does this end except hurt. is it worth the hurt at the end probably maybe idfk!!!#AHHHH WHO LET ME POSSESS THE CAPACITY FOR HUMAN EMOTION 😡😡😡
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What the fuck do people do when they’re hanging out??
Like other than parallel play or maybe playing a video/board/card game together?
When I hang out with my friends we have the tv on and are either doing homework or our crafting and occasionally talking or sometimes we play Minecraft together
Idk how neurotypicals hang out
#like for real though cause when I see ppl posting online with friends it just looks like they’re out drinking somewhere#friends#neurodiversity#neurodivergent#adhd#neurotypicals#maybe I’m autistic idk
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Not sneeze just mental health rambling in the tags
#I’ve spent a very long time trying to change my brain so I can just operate at a neurotypical level#it’s always been impossible and I feel like shit for it#so recently I finally just said#I am not neurotypical and never will be no matter what I do!#so I need to be kind to myself and make the accommodations I need for myself!#which is a work in progress but idk. it’s kind of painful that the neurotypical people in my life act like I’m asking for an arm and a leg#when I’m very genuinely asking if slight changes could be made between us#I absolutely don’t expect anyone to change their lifestyle for me or anything#it’s stuff like not holding long conversations when I’m in the middle of writing because it messes up my flow#and I tell my family beforehand! hey I’m gonna write for a couple of hours does anyone need anything from me before#and they say no! but then ten minutes later will start telling me a story about their day#which I’m okay to hear BEFORE I start a writing session or AFTER#and I goddamn communicate that!!! but they act like I’m asking for nobody to ever speak to me again#another thing is that I CANNOT eat anything past an expiration date#I know it’s still probably good but my brain will just keep saying YOURE GONNA DIE OF FOOD POISONING#so say the half gallon of milk is past its date#I will buy a fresh one to start using myself but I don’t toss the old one because I know others don’t care as much#and they they complain that I’m wasting milk#like I’m sorry it’s 1) my money and 2) how is it being wasted when y’all are happy to drink it til it’s done?#idk man!! neurotypical people sure do say that shit should be easy for neurodivergent people#but they sure do struggle to be slightly accommodating without bitching#idk rant over peace out
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I’ve seen a lot of fics n headcanons where Dick Grayson has adhd, and I see you. But also. Consider: Tim Drake having (undiagnosed) adhd. As a certified adhd bitch myself, I have A Lot to say about this, so more under the cut.
Before we get into it, just a quick disclaimer: pretty much all of my dc knowledge is from fandom osmosis, so. If you see something that’s ooc or contradicts canon no you didn’t. Now with that out of the way, on to the main event!
Okay, so! First of all, let’s start at the very beginning. That’s right, I’m talking about Tim Drake’s “night photography”! Now I’m not gonna say neurotypical kids don’t get up to some dumb ass shit when left unsupervised for long periods of time, because they absolutely do. But. The complete disregard for the many, many dangers a young child alone in Gotham at night would face is still notable. And he doesn’t just ignore danger - he runs straight at it. That shows an impressive lack of impulse control, and inability to factor future consequences into current decisions, both of which are hallmarks of adhd. Plus, hyperfixation kinda… changes? How you perceive things. So if Tim was hyperfixated on getting the perfect shot whenever a major crime/fight happened near him, he may not have processed that he was danger at all during the part most likely to scare a neurotypical child away.
Next, we have the coffee. Yes, I know the coffee thing is super overblown by the fandom and not really supported by canon but ssshshhhhhh my world my rules Tim drinks lots of coffee. Now, this one’s kinda obvious, but caffeine is a stimulant and surprise surprise so are most adhd meds. I have seen firsthand how ppl with undiagnosed adhd will mainline caffeine as a form of self medication, whether they’re aware of it or not. Some people use soda or energy drinks, but coffee’s also a really popular choice for this kinda thing. So not only is it completely plausible for someone with undiagnosed adhd to self medicate by drinking a shitton of coffee, it’s extremely common.
Next up! We have the insomnia. Which, again, I think might be played up a lot in fic? But this is my world and you’re reading in it, so. Tim’s an insomniac. This is one of the less well known symptoms of adhd, but again I speak from firsthand experience when I say it’s a big one. Insomnia is extremely common among ppl with adhd, for a couple reasons. One is time blindness, which I’ll come back to in the next point. But also? It’s just really hard to turn your brain off. And if a large portion of Tim’s brain space is being devoted to casework, guess what. That inability to turn one’s brain off will manifest as late night case solving blitzes. Not to mention that hyperfixation, again, changes the way you perceive things. When I hyperfixate on something I often lose hours at a time, and bodily needs like hunger, tiredness, the bathroom, etc aren’t just unimportant they straight up don’t register. With the number of times I’ve come out of a hyperfocus to realize that I have a dehydration headache that’s been brewing for at least an hour, or have completely skipped a major meal, or desperately need to pee, I can 100% believe Tim not noticing any sleep deprivation symptoms until he’s finished whatever he was working on. And I, again, speak from experience when I say that if you happen to hyperfixate at something at the wrong time of night you will be staying up way later than is reasonable. Which brings me to my next point of…
Time blindness! My most favoritist thing in the whole wide world! (/sarcasm) This shit can and absolutely will fuck up your ability to be a functioning human if you let it. Having no internal clock causes more problems than the obvious losing track of time. It means your appetite is sporadic at best and you could very easily forget to eat. It means your sleep schedule has a tendency to just disintegrate if you don’t keep on it. It means being completely dependent on external clocks to know how long things are/should be taking, even for stupid shit like cooking food or brushing your teeth. It means that if you don’t set an alarm for something there is a very real possibility that something isn’t happening no matter how much you want or need it to. In short, it completely fucks up your ability to care for yourself without a lot of external regimented support. Now, who does that remind you of? Which member of the batfamily is known for neglecting his own health? I may not read many comics but the sheer number of “Tim Drake subsists solely on coffee and spite” jokes on ao3 and tumblr is very telling.
His brains. Tim is very, very smart. Have you ever heard the phrase “twice exceptional?” It describes Tim Drake to a t. Plus, I’m living proof of how you can be both smart of brain and dumb of ass. This may be more of a “my family who just so happens to consist entirely of twice exceptional adhd dumbasses” thing than something most ppl with adhd experience, but. You can be really smart and incredible at putting together complex plans, both ahead of time and on the fly, and still have. No common sense whatsoever. Which seems to be a lot of Tim’s characterization: incredibly smart while simultaneously being a complete dumbass. So make of that what you will.
And most compellingly? I think it’s funny. This kid is brothers with Dick Grayson and best friends with Bart Allen and especially next to those two people would never expect Tim to be the one with the quote unquote “cant sit still disorder”. Yknow what? Let’s take this a step further. Let’s make Bart autistic. (I don’t know enough about the flash family to say how accurate this is but for the sake of the joke let’s say he is). People see Impulse standing next to Red Robin and they think they know which one is adhd and which is autistic and they are Wrong. Tim n Bart are Completely unaware of this but the rest of their team finds it hilarious. There’s probably at least one running joke about it.
#tim drake has adhd (you can’t) change my mind#btw I don’t mention it here but my version of batman is 1000000% autistic#I’d offer to give headcanons on which batfamily members I think are which flavors of neurodivergent but.#I’m not NEARLY as familiar with any of the other things I headcanon them as#also none of the other headcanons are quite as solid as this one#I think Bruce n maybe Jason are autistic. Damian’s def got Something going on but idk if I care to put a name to it#dick most definitely has some cptsd but also? I think there’s a portion of ‘weird’ things he does that aren’t from anything specific#he’s just Like That#there’s most definitely some more stuff floating around in the family I highly doubt any of them is 100% neurotypical#I just can’t be bothered to figure out who’s most likely to have what and why lol#maybe some of my other nerdy neurodivergent peeps can chime in with their thoughts?#and just to reiterate:#all of my dc knowledge is from fandom osmosis and that’s how i like it#headcanons#dc headcanons#tim drake#tim drake headcanon#red robin#dc red robin#red robin headcanon#adhd#adhd tim drake#adhd red robin#neurodivergent tim drake
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I’m sorry but has anybody else noticed how fucking dry the comments on MM videos are??
Here are just a couple examples
#like#where’s the excitement#yall talk like robots frfr#or maybe that’s just how neurotypicals talk abt stuff#I’m used to people saying stuff like ‘AGEHSAHGEHE THIS MOVIE WAS SO GOOD IM GONNA EXPLODE /pos’#it does kinda make me sad tho it feels like there’s not a lotta people who really like it#but idk#tmnt#mutant mayhem
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I cannot stay at this job for a second longer than I have to this sucks so bad holy shit
#ember talks#my supervisor keeps saying she wants to bring me on as a contractor after the internship ends and I have no way of telling her uh#respectfully I do not think I’d live through the semester if I did that#it’s not even grueling work I just hate the content and the company culture is a funeral at best#I can do corpo culture w layoffs or I can look at photos of necropsies for 8 hours a day#I can’t do both but I have to this summer#especially with the continued assumption I’m cis and straight and neurotypical in such a weirdly aggressive way#I have a presentation that I’ve been putting off building the slide deck for bc I just. I don’t know how to spin my project#it’s basically a grunt labor project but I’m qualified enough to speak to the principles behind it#but I was told to not talk abt the principles#or about what an archive is#and I got flack for not working 20 extra unpaid hours last week but there’s no way for me to do that without getting fired#I hate it so fucking much I’m so tired#I’m so tired of being tired#I know every job is going to suck but at least the other ones don’t have me staring at viscera trying to figure out how I can upload it#I know I should feel fortunate to have this job but I’m just lying on the floor sobbing rn#I’ve been working since 6:30 this morning I should just. stop#log the fuck off give the fuck up try again next week#(Monday I have an interview for a hopefully chiller job in the fall and I’m very excited for it tbh)#the team seems cool and it’s . idk it’ll be something I can live with doing#and I can work my other school year gig and I miss that team so much and they said they missed me too and#god I just rly wanna work full time at the library I work at during the year
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Listen if we put corset scene in a vacuum and just view it from the actual perspective of what’s actually going on, omg I completely get that I HATE tight clothes and weird physical sensations like nosepads on glasses or snugly fitting shoes or bras that haven’t been broken in yet, I would be pissed tf off throwing a fit too. Ciel, I feel ur pain buddy.
#kuroshitsuji#black butler#ciel phantomhive#is he autism#also question can you be adhd and have sensory issues like that or is that more autism idk tbh#if u hate weird sensory shit is that just neurotypical in general or is it specifically autism asking for myself lol#dunno if I’m autistic or adhd or combo pack I kinda seem to have a little of both going on?#anyways free my boy Ciel poor little shit I hate corsets
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Give me a task that is considered “boring and time consuming” and I will be at it for fucking hours. I find so much joy in monotony.
I love routines. I have all of my routines in one giant routine and I cannot be thrown off it, I need a precise schedule to function.
I love folding laundry, I love following the exact same steps to make myself tea every morning, I love driving to the exact same place every night for rehearsals. It brings me so much joy to have a set routine.
#I need routines to function#I think that’s why my mental state gets worse over the summer is because I don’t have many set routines#100% neurotypical though#Idk why I’m sharing all this but hey I am#I am not a spontaneous person at all#Anyone else?#the rats say something
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literally JUST occurred to me that the intended joke of “here’s my review, not gay enough” was most likely “that movie was fucking gay, so it would be funny and ironic if we said it wasn’t gay ENOUGH. because it could hardly be any gayer” and not “wow i was expecting more homoeroticism from the vampire movie”
#like in my brain it has just always registered as ‘surprisingly less gay than you’d expect’ in part bc that’s how it’s used in memes often#but even after i found out it was about iwtv movie i was like… well from what i’ve heard that’s accurate#and i literally only just now thought about the wider cultural perception of the movie#and what would get a laugh at snl#anyway. idk much about norm macdonald. mcdonald?#but ever since i found out the original context of ‘everyone involved in this story should die’ i’ve been ready to kill him with hammers#worse than che and jost could ever dream of being just from that alone. and i hate their asses.#r.txt#saying ‘probably’ even though i’m fairly confident i’m correct#bc i HATE when ppl are like ‘i’m so autistic i never realized when neurotypicals say X they ACTUALLY mean Y/don’t literally mean it/etc’#bc 90% of the time that’s not true they just made it up in their heads. thought of the alternate interpretation and decided it must be true#AND I DONT WANNA BE DOING THAT#but i am chalking this up to autism that i never thought about how the joke came across in its original context
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maybe i’ve picked up neurodivergent texting and talking styles bc literally every friend i have is somewhat neurodivergent but…
“normal” ppl can be such dry and plain testers sometimes it feels like
is that just me?? like idk just the me asking a silly lil question and them responding “fine by me” and like “whenever u want”…
do i just not know how to read ppl (through texts) if they aren’t neurodivergent anymore?? 😭
#neurodivergent#neurodiversity#neurotypical#like i’m neurotypical but… i surround myself with neurodivergents and in that sorta environment-#does this make sense???#or am i just… reading too far into tones#do normal ppl not read into tones a whole lot through text??#idk ;-;#⇢ ˗ˏˋ mae says stuff ࿐ྂ
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happy almost end of pride month i threw together somethin about my aroace thoughts (it’s only really about aro thoughts) . featuring my catsona . sorry it’s basically a storytime
#rambling#my art#personal#uhhhhhhh yea idk if anyone else will rlly find this relatable i just wanted to get my feelings out#i hope it doesn’t seem like i have held onto a part of my life from so long ago it’s literally just the only base point i have#btw i don’t want this to come off like . ohh i had one bad experience and swore off love forever cause that’s not what happened#i have had more thoughts abt all this this year than i have in a while and i really don’t like it!#pair that w the realization that i may not be as neurotypical as i thought has made for some interesting thoughts#one day i’ll figure it out better . probably . not today tho#life is confusing sometimes ✌🏽#hope this isn’t too much oversharing i’m bad at writing concisely
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